Last Month I Was Cringe 

Having watched years of behind the scenes content, the development in Tom's reaction to hate videos is just beautiful. We love a healing king. Or a healing just normal guy.

Hi Tom! No idea if you check these comments but hey, might as well. I was the non-verbal woman who came to your stall at MCM on the Friday and I'd like to thank you for being so understanding of the situation - Even when I was certainly less communicative than others! You were happy to read the prepared cards and take the initiative in talking to me about all the things I wrote about even when I couldn't particularly reply easily. It was a lovely experience to meet you and people aren't lying when they say that hanging around your stall feels like a safe spot in the con halls. Apologies for my face in the pictures - I have incredibly bad resting bitch face and really need to work on making my eyes express emotions rather than looking perpetually tired and dead inside (Though both of those things are true.) Thank you again for being accomodating, and I hope to see you again at October MCM! I'll try and have better cards... And a copy of Bee Movie. I will never let that joke die, no matter how much you want it to.

The "realizing that you forgot how to think long term because you're used to just surviving another day" hits very close to home, it is a very strange feeling because you're consciously aware that it shouldn't be this way without knowing the other way.

Pro tip - Don't pluck nose hair. Trim them with rounded scissors. Plucking in that area is particularly prone to infection and irritation. In bad circumstances infections can end in a permanent loss of smell.

Adoption is always a really good option. You aren't bringing a child into a world that might not be able to provide for them, but instead giving a better chance to a child already in this world. And you don't even have to adopt a baby or toddler, but could instead give a home to someone who might be considered "too old" by most prospective parents.

Playing beer pong with tea mugs while the king's coronation is playing in the back is the most British thing I've seen.

Hey Tom, my dad was 40 when I was born and my mother was 36. Your life doesn't have to progress at the same rate as everyone else

rik having a wii is absolutely fantasic parenting on behalf of eddie

"Charlie is bisexual, so I guess she can do that", yes, if anybody is wondering: Bisexual people have the right to do about everything and this is the expressed opinion of me, a bisexual, speaking for every bisexual ever.

And yet the question still remains what *was* going on with Liam's underwear?

Regarding the podcast idea: there's a very similar TV show here in The Netherlands called "Over Mijn Lijk" (translates to "Over My Dead Body") that is basically a mini-documentary that follows terminally ill people (ranging between 14 and 40 years old or so) on what often ends up being their last few months or years. I get that this may sound morbid or grotesque, but it's a lovely show that really puts into perspective everyone's struggles. The maturity some of the youngest terminally ill people show is honestly baffling to witness. If you do decide to do this podcast, I think it'd be a nice way to tell the stories of people we don't often hear about. The points you made about it having to be handled _exceptionally_ carefully are valid, and you'd need a rock solid production crew and a very steady mind going in.

As a fellow ex-suicidal person the genuine surprise at still being alive still catches me off guard a lot

Hey Tom, the podcast idea is essentially the Dutch program called 'Over mijn lijk' (over my dead body). Over here it was a pretty impactful show and even won a couple of prizes for how they handled the subject. If you can find some of the episodes with English subtitles it might give you an idea on how to handle those conversations.

All of us were cringe back then, especially when looking back through previous years when we have little to no experience of what's going on. Also, we can never forget the moment when the TomSka bubbleheads were brought up. Anyways, hope you are doing well, and I can't wait to see what you'll make for a wonderful comeback of your main channel Tom.

Hey Tom! Regarding your foot: (Am a doctor, but do not consider this a definitive diagnosis, please see a practitioner in person) I suspect what you have done is indeed bruised the bone, which is very painful for a long time afterwards. That intense pain you felt in the moment sounds like you happened to hit a nerve (kinda like hitting the funny bone in your elbow). Not a podiatrist, but if I remember right treatment is basically rest and anti-inflammatories Hope you feel better soon!

When the day is bad Tom and friends are there to bring joy. Love you guys

Thank you for supporting our work! 🌈 💕

I never thought I’d live to go to college, get married, etc. due to suicidal ideation, so I totally understand those feelings you’ve had. Cheers to us for surviving and thriving ❤

I was expecting Squidge to just stand up during the intro and for Tom to be excited that the paw grew back so quickly

Poor squidge :( Ok im not deleting this , idioticity is also a part of history and we shall learn from it

FOR FREE??? I have no idea how much you read these comments but this was a great chapter in the Last Month installments and I really appreciate it. Your emotional growth and the 'I'm just an innocent men' was eye-opening and really touching. I wish you all the best Tom, especially with the recent hate from those protests. Also with the podcast idea, rather than having the concept be AFTER an individual passes away, I think being able to release it so that that the individuals can see the impact they've had on people and gain support would be better. But even that, that doesn't account for, as you said, all the logistical, ethical and soul-crushing issues lol

I really like seeing Tom wearing jewelry! It suits him.

always love to see tom and the gangs antics, makes me feel hopeful for adulthood to turn out like this.

As someone who has had to deal with deal with death a lot in my life from a young age. Im at ease with death for the most part. I watch ask a mortician and I try to talk about death casually. I think it needs to be normalized. Also im turning 25 this year. I used to say I wanted to have my family done by the time I was 27… I used to want to at least be married by 22. Then life happened, I struggled mentally for years and years, and now im getting my life back on track, im planing a big move in the next few years (Canada to Korea) and love and children will happen when they happen. I no longer feel the need to put so much pressure on myself I just want to be happy and enjoy what I’m doing.

In the Netherlands there's a very interesting television series about that calles "over mijn lijk" (over my dead body). It really is interesting and meaningful to hear them talk about what they've learned in dealing with death. But definetly very taxing for the interviewer. You know, since everyone they interview dies.

As a mum who has two LGBTQ+ thank you for helping rise awareness

Back in high school I tripped, of all damn things, and had a hairline fracture on the front part of my ankle. Very much the same type of feeling, nauseous and sharp pain walking. I wound up walking on it for a week before going to the hospital to have it looked at, then was in a cast for a while after.

On the podcast idea, as someone who came uncomfortably close to not being alive, you could interview people with that perspective as well as people with terminal conditions. It might help with some ethical considerations and a lot who've survived live very differently from how they did before

Tomska, you’ve been someone that I’ve known for basically my entire life. All of your videos have helped me make some good friends over the years and I deeply thank you for that. I’ve seen several of these ‘Last Month’ videos that you’ve started in 2023, and it’s just amazing to see you go from someone who has mental health problems and feels like they’re a failure, to someone who is pushing through their problems and starting to use past experiences to refine the way you live today. It truly is amazing and inspiring to watch you climb yourself out of this pit of despair and sadness and start to just pioneer through these problems and put yourself on top of these grievances. Most of us on here we’ve known you for our entire lives, you may be just a person in your eyes. Although to me and so many more, you’re someone that we can be inspired by to be better, and gain the confidence we need to push through our own problems. I greatly thank you for being in my life and I now strive to do amazing things with what I have. -Lurokrim, a youngling that likes all your videos.

you're "just some guy" who helps make the day of "just some other guy" better. I love your high energy, and your low energy helps me be self reflective about our shared insecurities (even if they may be few)

My teen years were the late 70's/early 80's so imagine how cringe my pics are lol Sorry i missed you at MCM May but thank you from the heart of my bottom for the lovely video message you did for me via my mate. Cheers Tom. Oh and if you ever get stuck for a convention again feel free to hit me up, i dont mind filling my car with merch and sitting for hours whilst you pee or whatever. Love and hugs to you all

I believe in your guys' ability to make something wonderful, and honestly, you don't have to wait for "that one banger", if I'm a good representation as someone who has religiously watched you guys forever, I can confidently say that I would love absolutely anything you make. Creation is a blessing no matter what (which is a hilarious thing to say, coming from an athiest, but the point still stands, love ya, and thanks for everything you've made :))

I swear to god you have a new injury every weekend, it's actually getting impressive

i am not doing very well rn and this video has already made me feel so much better and i've only been watching for like, 30 seconds

Confidence is knowing your good at something. Arrogance is thinking your better then everyone else. Certainly helped me with my self esteem.

You are one of those people I wish I could just shake and then hug through the screen. Like, BRO. Stop beating yourself up. And understand that just because you're not beating yourself up doesn't mean you're being egotistical. Also, perfectionism is the enemy of creation, progress and fun.

I cant express how much i love that tom has a photo album of almost every year, like i would love to do that in the future and thought it wouldn't be possible but toms definitely proved that wrong.

That discussion about not thinking of the future at around 20 mins in really got me thinking... I've been in that survival mode of only thinking about today for so, so long. I don't even know how to start thinking about the future.

"im just normal men" got me

I know Rik is being raised right, just by the fact that he's playing MARIO GALAXY, FKN LOVE THAT

Tom, you can just expose someone's jockstrap like that

Hey Tom, this is just a random comment from a random nobody, but you are a good person and I think you will make a good parent. So if you ever are in doubt about kids, think like it is a way of giving back to the world the good things you learnt. In a garden with weeds, plant a flower 🌻

As someone who works in retail, your problems are valid. Because at least we can have fun by subtly angering rude customers by sending them down the wrong isle and running away giggling like a child

Thank you Tom, Elliot, and Eddie for this absolutely wonderful and amazing video. Thank you so giving us so much amazing and wonderful content. I hope you and your wonderful family’s are doing well? ❤️🍻

Tom signed my fan art and Tomska live was the highlight of my first comic con

Oh man, I'm glad you reminded me of Karl. He was in a few Barshens videos and was so cool and chilled out I thought he was just a mate of theirs that'd shown up for some filming sessions. Gonna go watch them after this.

See the really interesting thing is that I had that same journey with you of you being this figure in my childhood and me thinking "oh i don't find asdf funny anymore cause i'm an adult" in middle school and now i watch your content videos and the last week/month cause honestly it's nice seeing someone i once looked up to unveil the youtuber curtain to show off that they're just a normal ass person.

Tom seems a lot happier and more secure these days. I’m happy to see that.

I have a very strong feeling that this is the last year Tom is going to be on RU-vid. Like after these next few contents and of course one Last Month is over, maybe one or two videos on the main channel, he'll finally retire. I wouldn't be sad too about it or anything, it's very well deserved. I definitely wouldn't be surprised either

i know we don’t know you personally, but i just wanted to say that no matter what you choose to do- whether it’s have kids or not, you will do it well. after years and years and years of hearing you speak about other people with so much love and empathy, i just know that the decision you make will be informed and right for you ❤️

Hi Tom, big fan for a long time. My mom recently passed from cancer. Didn't get to talk to her much. I'm sure she would have had a lot of stuff to say. I love the concept of "this person is dead", I know a lot of people would love it. I also know you would face a lot of opposition and backlash. Just know you would do a lot of good to a lot of people by producing and hosting this project. To a lot of people. I'm still trying to find ways to process the pain this whole thing has caused me. This is something that I'm sure would help me and a lot of people. I know this must still sound weird from a stranger after all these years but thanks for the news. We will never know each other but it still feels like getting news from an old friend everytime you post this kind of video. It's fucking weird. Love your work, love the influence you've had on me and my friends over the years, thanks for the laughs and the cries. Thank you. -Random french guy

Seeing Barshens and mentioning Karl made me sad. But I'm glad people remember him.

If you hadn't gone to that con, I would have missed seeing you entirely. You made my weekend by being there. You also got some Kinder Beuno Fudge from me. I want to see you more at any conventions I go to.

23:04 another way to have chocolate strawberries for a summer picnic i recently learned is to take the strawberries and bring a bar of chocolate to the picnic, put the chocolate in the sun for a bit until it starts to melt, dip the strawberries in it boom chocolate covered strawberries

One thing you could consider for childern, especially if you are concerned with brining a child into the world, or can't, is adoption, those childern are already in the world, and you and your family could be what gives them a better life.

As soon as you described your podcast idea I was like "Yes! I want to listen to that!" But the 'It will come out after they are gone' made me instantly cry so idk if I could handle actually listen to it, with my most important person in my life also gone;;;

25:56 holy shit TWO OF MY IMAGES MADE IT IN That’s me and my friend as Aizawa and Ms Joke in the top right, and I took the original image on the middle bottom and my partner edited it oh my god I am ecstatic 💀💀💀

As someone who is a size 7XL I really appreciate you keeping a very inclusive size range for the merch so I can also participate

If you're unsure about bringing a child into the world, you could always foster or adopt. In that case, the person would exist in the world anyway, you're just giving them a good home and support system. That's what I'd like to do in the future (mainly because the idea of being pregnant and giving birth terrifies me but for those other reasons as well)

I was there through Eddsworld's youth into its death and I also followed your channel and I gotta say, not once did my teenage mind think that you're not cool in any way. You've always been somebody I looked up to and I do not remember any time where that viewpoint was challenged. So happy you made it through your mental illness, and glad you're okay!

Hey Tom, long term fan of yours and the guys! I think your idea on This Person is Dead is brilliant. I’m a mental health therapist - and I think doing a short course on counselling would be really helpful to you. Levels 1 - 3 teach you to be the best listener you can be, and keep the conversation flowing in a compassionate way - you’d also learn how to look after yourself during and after those conversations. Then perhaps for a top up - a bereavement course too could be helpful. I honestly think a lot of jobs would benefit from taking a counselling course because it teaches you to have real conversations, whilst being delicate. I understand there’s a lot of ethical things to think about but I hope you go through with it! I think it would bring a lot of people comfort. Best of luck, and much love to you and the gang ❤

Meeting you at mcm was amazing! I keep myself up at night at how awkward my interaction must've been but I'd do it again in a heartbeat lmao

23:46 "i AM aN ArtIsT !" Made me think of that, thought it was funny in this context. Hopefully you unlock that motivation you've lost.

Thank you so much for being so open about your mental health as always

Hey Tom, as someone who has enjoyed your content since Skinny-Skit-Tom, I just want to mention I think you're looking really well dude. Wishing you all the best, here's hoping the foot's not broken 😅

I don’t really watch a lot of your stuff but it really struck me - it’s very telling there’s actual women you hang out with / treat the same as men. It’s nice to see, it’s a weirdly stark contrast to other internet personalities that really don’t. Even people I watch - and I’m left leaning. It’s refreshing. Oh and the kid thing, I’m in a similar situation (but older). Do you really want kids, or do you want the idea of a nice settled life where you’re mentally healthy to handle it. For me sometimes I think I just like the idea of a life where I’m strong enough to have a family and it’s all positive.

I really appreciate all the talking you do about your mental health, as somebody who has been struggling with similar suicidal idealizations and depression it really means a lot that you've always been so willing to talk about it, especially in your unique way of talking. Thank you again Tom :)

Another great last month video that makes my day. Hope you're doing alright, Tom, and being a writer myself, I feel your pain on having writers block/and/or not feeling confident. However, you inspire me, not just because you're a talented as a RU-vidr, but more how down to earth and honest you are. Can't wait for next month, and have a great pride :D

Hey Tom! Love your videos,and been a great help for me. Just the way your speak open about all your daily problems and success is so good. From a dude with 2 kids(boys) and struggle with depression,add+h ect so can i say that its hard to have kids when you have the «problems» you have. That said,kids can make you reflect about all the problems and see things that you thought was hard is not worth the stress. Dont overthink about it,go with the flow of life😊. Thanks again for sharing the ups and down in your life. Love from norway❤️

The Danish tv-channel TV2 has a program series that called "De sidste ord" (The last words). In this they have interviewed some famous Danish people like actors and politician about their lives. And the interview is only aired when the person is dead. So we don't really know whom has been interviewed before people die.

God I love and enjoy last month so much, as a viewer of Tom for so many years it’s so nice to see him heal and learn about these issues and see how he and others deal with it. I have struggled with a lot of the same issues that he has and I admire this totally normal dude, who has had a good impact on my life, even if people hate him, most of us love ya, keep up the amazing work Tom

Watching these gives me some sort of space in my head to find peace. I've gotta hand it to Tom. He's been through so much and has a unique view on things. I can and can't relate to things he worries about.

It's so nice to see you getting better with your mental health, and I hope you keep improving.

You being just some guy is what inspired me, I watched the slaughter of the shapes to orchestral music and your live action shorts and your scripts and jokes in general made me feel like I could be funny (I desperately needed a coping mechanism and comedy was the safest) I write scripts now and I’m very content doing it. Nothings been bought or published mind you but having 50+ scripts ready to go doesn’t feel horrible.

The way you talked about the "long-term thinking" resonates hard with me, and I'm sure a lot of other people as well. I'm sorry you experienced these probably quite scary thoughts but well done for making it through. It's possible to make it through the darkness and seeing the light. Hoping it's my turn soon.

Trust me if you feel bad about anything (might that be your self or just life) working out or just sport is the best anxiety killer

I also had a hige depressive period in my mid 20s, and its weird looking back at how I lived my life just assuming i was going to not be alive at 30. So happy i managed to get help and get through those times, and im very glad you did too Tom! ❤

I saw you at MCM Tom and didn't post about it but it was genuinely the highlight of the trip I was overstimulated an meeting you was great and thanks for listening to me talk about muppets, see you last month

Genuine as can be, I am glad Tom is doing well after he started to take care of his mental health. Him taking up a therapy and feeling better about himself also brings other people to go seek what mental health needs. In general this series is such a great one honestly

Ok so Tom, I’ll admit to being cringe to you…it was 2012 at Otakon. I came up to you and sung ‘Desmond the Moon Bear’, which I immediately regretted. Just admitting to that is a relief, and if I ever see you at a con again and the opportunity comes up, I’ll buy you a drink

It's easy to forget that youtubers are just real people sometimes. Maybe that's why some people are so mean sometimes.

I do not know what has changed as I have watched a lot of your videos but while watching this I could not stop thinking how much of a handsome man you are Tom. Also the stepping on a pebble and stuff just made me want to give you a hug.

Loved seeing you and Dan on no rolls barred. Hilarious episode.

Definitely participating in the Stonewall fundraiser, great idea Tom! Also… I am significantly younger than you but I really resonated with the thoughts on kids. I’ve been doing so poorly mentally for so many years that even considering something so involved and long term as parenting was never in the cards for me. Now I’m in a long term relationship where kids are not the plan, and I finally feel well enough that I could consider it. But, the world around us is so unstable (i also live in the US so, oof) that it’s no longer an option again. I’m not necessarily upset I don’t have them, I’m bitter that I was robbed of the opportunity to make that choice for what I really wanted, not what forces dictated. My parents and theirs may have had hard times, and I don’t want that, but at least the population replicated and continued on. Now, no one wants kids, so there aren’t many, and I can’t blame us. It feels so damning. It’s not like there’s much else to live for anymore; going outside is dangerous again, too. Being yourself is dangerous. Retirement is a joke. Now I won’t even have the opportunity to teach someone else to do better than I did, my mistakes and fear will all just. Die with me. Anyways, see you last week!

I've been watching your content since before I made a RU-vid channel. When I was in school I even downloaded all the adsf movies (all 4 of them at the time 😮). I can honestly say you have made an impact on my life, indirectly. Without your funny dark humor I probably wouldn't be here right now. It's absolutely fantastic that you are doing better now too 😊

I was a little late to check this one out (About two weeks late) but I want to check in again. Still sober! Still going! And can't tell you how much the conversation about going from surviving day to day to now planning far ahead hits the nail on the head for I think a majority of your audience. I struggled with my mental health since I was twelve years old. And from then until I was 24, I wasn't really living. I was just either struggling to survive moment to moment or floating through months or years at a time. As I treated my mental health and substance abuse issues in this last year and a half, I really have gotten perspective again. I've learned that ability to think about things in the long term. I'm still 'early' in life according to most but there is still that feeling that I lost so much percentage wise of my life. But now I have the chance to spend the rest of it in a better place, with a better me. At least better than I was before, hopefully it'll keep going from here, for better and worse but here's to hoping it's more better than worse.

I remember meeting you at mcm comic con and when you where filming the line, the people at the front of the queue were directly behind me. It was such a surreal experience for me, meeting one of my favourite content creators and seeing how amazingly kind you are is just awesome! ❤❤

I've been really looking forward to these each month. I've been having a dogshit year so it's nice to see wholesome content

My philosophy when dealing with injuries and going to see doctors is basically if the pain isn’t gone or severely reduced after two days, I’m checking with my GP.

It's just amazing to see that no matter what you're going through you always give so much to your fans at Cons etc Love you man

I'm not on deaths door, but I have recently had much worsening symptoms of ME/CFS or long covid. Due to this I cant leave the house without a wheelchair and can no longer work. Since I have had these symptoms my worldview has changed and I appreciate all the little things. I look into my garden and feel so lucky to be able to experience nature and do some of the other things I love in life. I know Tom said he didn't really want to make it but I personally would love to see that podcast be made.

my parents had me when my dad was 45 and my mum was 42. thomas good sir youre fine. me, my brother, my family have no idea what we're doing and are also currently just living day by day while taking care of my nana. youve accomplished a lot more and made a good impact on people than i and, as depressing as it sounds, most people will ever do. you should be proud of yourself for everything youve done up until this point to where if you do just want to do whatever, do whatever. you deserve your rest. also proud to see your improvement to reacting to hate, long time viewer here and it really has show how much you have grown or even healed to your own self image. have good day

20:33 Oh. Are people supposed to do more than live day by day? I guess I missed the memo!

not projecting this onto me, but I've been living on the same thing of not planning a future, living day to day, no real building the future. I've actually been kind of wanting to build stuff back up too the past months. For context i have schizophrenia (and I'm very open about that btw, not dumping any trauma here). I can live ok, just hard to find work, can't do a lot of typical things that come with life. But finding happiness in small things. Anyway, been very happy this series is back. i'm happy you are doing better in life and not letting hate videos or stuff like that get to you. Keep being our "just some guy", much love my dude ^^

Just being a regular guy and being open and down to earth is a huge reason why I enjoy your content so much! As another fat person with depression, your humor and words really mean alot to me. Haters gonna hate, and I know it sucks when it's focused on you, but you're more than that! I'm so glad to be here, and I hope that you continue to do well with therapy. ❤

It makes me incredibly happy and proud for how much you've improved on loving yourself and getting through the tough times

Hey tom! So happy last month is a thing again atm! Just to add my mum was 39 when she had me, and my dad was 37. My stepmum had her son when she was 41! There is time and there are loads of options ❤ sending love

I never plan on having kids, because I refuse to bring them up in this world. But if it makes you feel any better, my mother didn't have me until she was in her 40s.

the normal men reference got me so hard because I was literally thinking that before you said it and that was the funniest thing i've heard all day. thanks for making my day nicer than it was, despite the fact that it is currently 7:11 PM. also, you did make a lot of funny stuff during my youth, but you still make a lot of funny stuff now that I really enjoy, so keep up the good work.

3:27 beer pong in tea cups is the most british thing I've ever seen 😭