This sounds like the essence of feeling truly lost, but feeling like it's better to feel lost that accept the reality of knowing where you really are, who you really are.
Often, those mentioning depression do not truly understand it. Before understandment comes comprehension. Without feeling it crawling in every aspect of your soul, sadness is relative. This work, for an example, isn't sad, depressing, or any adjective here used to describe it. Acceptance of the unavoidable battle before an impossible riddle, one way to more accurately describe this soundtrack.