i feel like your channel is the only one of the ones who talk about mental health that i don’t go to to get triggered. also I’m so proud of u for talking about this, it must’ve taken a lot of courage. 🖤
"When you come out of it and realize the shit that you've done and the people you've scared and how you have destroyed so much of your life and other peoples lives" has to be the most relatable thing I have ever heard. Thank you so much for sharing your experience, I love your videos
I’ve never seen someone describe what psychosis is like as well as you did. You were spot on with it feeling like you know a secret about the world that no one else does and you feel untouchable. My episode only lasted for about 5 days, but I remember my family being so scared for me and my little sister crying thinking I’d never go back to normal. It’s not an experience I would wish on anyone.
I‘m so proud of you! I would like a „hardcore“ videos as you put it but ONLY if you feel comfortable with it. Don’t ever do something you’re not comfortable with. And I just wanted to say I’m so proud of you, you are so strong and such an inspiration!💖
You're definitely right about dealing with the aftermath of psychosis. It's the worst when you are reminded periodically of weird and downright embarrassing things you did when delusional and the gaps in your memory. Thanks for being so honest and open about your experiences.
Thank you for sharing this, I have a friend who has suffered from psychosis and I desperately want to understand it and be there for her. Thank you for being open and brave ❤️
I have also struggled with psychosis during my mental health journey and I'm currently in recovery for it. It's not easy and I find it one of the hardest of my illnesses to talk about because it is viewed as "crazy" from an outside perspective. Thanks for sharing your story Marie, it's helped me feel more comfortable with my psychosis :)
I’m a teen with psychosis. I’ve been struggling all my life with multiple mental illnesses. I never told anyone about the voices and people I saw that no one else could for years. I was paranoid and I was scared they would think I was crazy.
you did really well answering these questions marie, thank you for sharing. psychotic episodes are so much more common than people think, and it's so important to reduce the stigma
I am so proud of you, you’re so strong. You’ve helped so many people like myself. I’ve just recently been out of meds for my mental health and if it wasn’t for you and your vids I wouldn’t have been opened up about it yet! Thank you so much xxx
Every one is different but once the paranoia starts that’s when you know.. however… the person suffering from it, won’t know as the chemical imbalance is slowly crept out of whack causing paranoia… And yes sleep is the MAIN trigger. That can cause psychosis within 24 hour depending on the person Don’t worry or feel guilty for being ill.. people who love you are there for you. The know what’s going on and they will always be there to help you up.
Saw your story on how you are getting a lot of hate at the moment and I really don’t understand why, you are such a role model and genuinely help people and I can say you help me ticking over through tough times so keep doing what you are doing don’t let jealous people get to you, love you keep it up 💜💜💜
Marie, you are such a queen and so brave to talk about you've been and are going through. every video you make just puts a smile on my face. I'm going through really difficult mental health stuff and a lot of ups and downs as well. I just find huge comfort in your videos. thank you Xxx
Thank you for this. I've dealt with psychosis since I was 3 years old, and it's always been the thing I've been most ashamed about, even more than my bipolar. It's not something anyone wants to admit. I appreciate your bravery so much.
I understand why you feel ashamed but there is nothing to feel ashamed of, especially because you can't help it. Out of interest do you take medication if you have schizoaffective disorder?
Thank you to everyone who come and watched my video dedicated to the NHS that Marie spoke about in her previous video. I really do appreciate it, and am so thankful that it has reached so many people so THANK YOU SO MUCH xxx
Hi Marie, you spoke really well so well done 🙂I got diagnosed with Psychosis also and my experience/episode was similar to yours, I had this belief about God and it got so extreme that it felt like I knew everything about how the world works and about life in general and would speak to my parents about that - not realising I was the one who had completely changed from myself! I agree the hardest thing is accepting what happened and how you were, the guilt/regret. I am in early stages of recovery so this has helped ❤️🩹
This was so relatable. It’s so crazy how much we have in common. I’m so thankful for this video, it’s been super helpful in making me feel like I’m not alone. It’s so insane knowing that I’m not alone w things like this. It’s true that it takes time to accept and move on. I’m 5 months in from my episode and it eats me alive everyday, so you saying it takes time just really made me feel at peace. ♥️
i couldn't continue watching this video as it made me think back to my recent first psychotic episode which i still haven't come to terms with so it made me feel a bit odd, but just wanted to say THANK YOU for speaking up about the topic, hopefully one day it will be viewed and spoken about and accepted in the same way anxiety and depression have become now
You’re amazingly strong and so great at speaking in a real and relatable way. Share whatever you feel comfortable with and don’t feel pressured to share any more than that ❤️
im relapsing and i know i am but at the same time I cant admit to myself that I am, I only just spoke out about my sh around 2 weeks before quarantine so when quarantine started I wasn't in touch with a counsellor or anything yet and now I have no one to talk to bc I feel like I cant talk to my family openly and my friends don't know, I just feel so alone and like every one I did open up to has almost forgotten about me. I'm sorry for ranting but I love your channel and feel that this comment section is a safe space, thank you for being that one person who I can relate to, you make me feel like I'm not the only person💓💗 (edit- also because I haven't seen a professional yet I don't have any kind of diagnosis, I feel like I need to know whats wrong with me)
I’m really struggling myself right now and don’t know what to do, quarantine is just making me feel so isolated and hopeless. My medication isn’t making much difference anymore and honestly I don’t know how long I can last like this. Life is just really bumming me out rn
Absolutely love your videos though, it can really help sometimes to have someone going through something similar and be so open to talk about it so thanks ♥️♥️
I am in exactly the same position. They tell you that meds will always work, but the effects wear off and we can’t get anymore. I am here if you need to chat ☺️ and quarantine is so so tough I agree
I struggle with psychosis as well,you inspired me to start my own RU-vid channel about mental health. I understand why talking about a psychotic episode is so had to talk about. You are so brave
Stay strong babes although Ive never suffered from phychosis. Mental health wise i get yah :) I haven't developed an acceptance for my anorexia so I get why you were reluctant to do video about and also if you don't want to! You don't have too 😊💞
I have been interested in mental health all my life. To get a handle on reality can be problematic and difficult for all of us. My whole family has suffered various disorders from time to time. I have OCPD and have come to accept that fact. Marie, you are doing the most courageous act a human can do. Be patient and have compassion for yourself. Each of us is a separate reality but we form a body by connections we form. Thank you for sharing you experiences. You are my teacher in that I may learn.
I'm so proud of you 😭 I've been hoping for this video for months because you're the only person I know of that has psychosis... I cannot thank you enough for making me feel less alone, even though I know this would have been SO difficult for you. You are amazing 💖💖
Wow I'm so sorry it got this bad for you. Proud of you and your strength queen💕 I really feel this though. It's so hard to look back when our brains were SO different. Like I'll read journal entries and things from when my bpd and depression and at the time I had a sprinkling of psychosis with seeing things all the time, and when I read things from then it's almost scary to think that that was me writing them. Like I'm nowhere near that state of mind anymore and I can't even fathom how much pain I was in. It's completely understandable that this is a hard topic for sure
I hope your ok now. Thank you for speaking out. I'm struggling with my sister who has fixed delusional paranoia psychosis. She's had it for 6 years now. Been admitted three times and tried to commit suicide four times. She thinks a government paedophile ring is going to murder her. She still isn't ready to see she has a mental illness. She still believes she isn't ill. I've tried everything possible. Most vids I've found don't really relate to her illness, they don't have the same beliefs. She's started drinking and she used to smoke cannabis and speed, coke.(not now, she's been clean for five years) I wish someone could reach her. She's lovely and doesn't have any aggression at all. She's still sweet natured but this illness is so fucked up and it destroys them and their families. I'm trying my best to support her but it's bloody hard. Your a brave young woman for pushing through it and showing others what it's like. Mental illness is rife especially now and it seems to me that the UK mental health don't really care, they're there if you want meds but not therapy. If anyone can relate to anything to what I'm saying then please let me know because I've not met one person who's has/had psychosis with the same beliefs. She don't have auditory or visual hallucinations, just fixed thoughts. I'm thinking of maybe seeing if there's a hypnotherapist that can speak to her subconscious...has anyone tried that?
Psychosis sounds very similar to depersonalisation and derealisation, which are often accompanied with panic attacks, severe anxiety and paranoia. They’re supposed to be completely different things but I can fully understand why you are describing as i went through it myself?
Your so beautiful on the inside and out. I’m proud of you, you always try your best and never give up. To anyone who’s struggling right now, i just want to say that I hope you find your happiness and peace soon. You deserve to be happy and you should never make anyone feel like you don’t, you are just as important as any other human being. Remember, just being able to get out of bed or doing something small for yourself, matters just as much as if it was to be a big thing. Be proud of the small things you do 😊. It doesn’t have to be a big thing, small things matter too. All the best to everyone💕
Vulnerability is hard but being able to do so is a huge sign of growth, so well done for sharing. This video will help so many people feel less alone. I think the full video about what happened would be useful for people to understand the reality of psychosis, but of course it's up to you and how you feel about it. I don't think you have to do in a certain way or 'get it right', I think just talking about your experiences and how it affected you would be really insightful. So much love to you💗💗
oh my god. i can’t believe how much i relate to you. i (think) i have struggled with psycosis for many years. thank you so much for sharing this. you’re amazing xx
Your videos help me put my own experiences into words and I can’t thank you enough. Recovery is hard when you can’t even vocalize your struggles and over the past year or so you have helped guide me to find words to explain myself. xx
psychosis is super hard. any disorder that comes along with psychosis is super hard. i struggle with it as well and i’m super proud and happy to see you chatting about your experience ❤️
Hey! I love your videos so much! It makes me feel so much better when I see someone who has/is going through something similar to me. I actually started feeling suicidal when I was 12. For 4 years I struggled with it by myself, and no one had any clue. I started self-harming when I was 13 and no one even noticed. I guess that made me feel worse so I started getting more depressed. I started seeing the school chaplain when I was 15 and it took me a few months before I opened up to her. Since then I got a lot worse because I started acknowledging all of the hurt from the years before. I self-harmed worse and attempted suicide once, but it didn't work so no one ever found out. I'm still bad, but one thing that has kept me going is the fact that you've made it through. Yeah, the road is still hard, but regardless you're still here. Thank you ❤️ Love you so much!
I suffered my first psychotic episode 5 years ago and relapsed every year since. When I was first going through it I never knew it was a thing and thought I was super crazy. Now I know so many other people suffer I don’t feel so bad. Doesn’t take away how hard it is but very helpful to watch these type of videos. Thank you 💕
Thank you for this. I was psychotic for about a month last summer and hospitalized, and it's hard to communicate how it's a rather traumatic situation. Literally having your reality changed is scary, and it was so hard to trust my senses or my thoughts when I was put on the right medication. Thank you
Thankyou for being so brave and sharing this video with us. Sounds awful what you went through. I hope you are doing better now. We are all here to support you ❤
Hi Marie, thank you so much for sharing this video with us all, I know it took a lot for you to do! Definitely YES to a part 2! PS: Loving your curly/wavy hair at the moment, looks so pretty on you, stay safe, lots of love x
thank you for taking the time to make this video. Even though you struggled, you pushed through and THAT is the best message you can share. you're a great human with much love, a new subscriber
I would love to see a video like this with either your sister or mam and or dad in it talking about it too, so interesting how peoples minds work and well done for coming so far! You're an inspiration to me xx
Hey girl I recently found your channel it's actually pretty cool and your so open about your mental I'llness journey and that's a beautiful thing there is no shame in taking care of your health mental or physical .💯💯🙏🙏
thank you so much for making this video. i have been struggling to understand what is happening with someone i know. she is a single mother with two kids, i am no relation, but the step grandfather of the kids. i have to deal with varying degrees of psychotic episodes aver since i helped her leave my step son. what you have described, is very similar to what i've seen and what she has told me. and she doesn't remember some of what she does either. i don't know how this will help me, but i'm sort of committed to helping her, because she has nobody else. i have been trying to get to get help, but i have a few trust issues myself and that hasn't helped either of us. i hope i can get her to watch this, it might make her feel like she's not alone. i was at the point of walking away, but i am scared for her kids. i am glad you said not to agree with the hallucinations, because i have tried to tell her the implants aren't in her ear, among other things, at first i had tried to listen, and then explain, that while it might be possible, it was very unlikely, but it's really hard to convince her, and sometimes not at all. i have had to take her to hospitals then she doesn't want to go in, i have been threatened and abused for helping her, even when she asked me to help her. you have given me a great deal of insight into how she thinks. although i can tell a lot of it , anyway, you have confirmed what i have felt was happening. i can't walk away now, thanks very much
I enjoy long vids where you just talk about things you are passionate about/your life experiences and stuff 💓 I like how you word things & I'm interested!
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I feel alone in my experience a lot of times because I don't know anyone who has experienced the same thing as me. It makes me feel better to know I am not alone. I hope you know you are not alone as well 💕
Thankyou for this, I’ve dealt with delusions and hearing things along with bipolar when I have manic episodes. This has made me feel more normal and shown me other people deal with such things. Xx
Marie, I know that wasn’t the most comfortable video for you to do but I’m glad you did it anyway ☺️ it was very helpful and you’re really brave for talking about your experience!! You’re amazing!
You're genuinely so brave for having done this video! You need to give yourself massive credit for doing something that seemed really difficult then being brave enough to actually post it. Your videos are so comforting to watch and make me feel less alone :) Thank you ((Also I just wanted to tell you a quote that has helped me (cause maybe sometimes you struggle with feeling like the video has to be perfect?) but anyways.. the quote is "Perfectionism is just an excuse for self criticism."))
Hello, Marie, I've got mental health problems, I suffer from very bad anxiety problems on a daily basic, 7 days week, am getting counselling and support for my mental health problems.
Wow you are so strong and brave to be able to even film this video. I understand how hard this must of been for you😊 I’m beyond proud of you marie seriously x I love you so much❤️💕x this video really helped me and I’m so happy you’ve uploaded xx
Who could ever be mean or hateful to this perfect little gem Marie!!? I like in the USA and am old enough to be her mum and I’d still wanna be her BFF (after pip of course!) ill beat up anyone who’s ever mean to you, gorgeous girl! I do have to ask though, in your more recent videos your voice seems to shake a bit. I wondered if that’s from nerves, or maybe meds or something?? I’m NOT pointing it out to be mean or make you feel insecure. I just wondered if it’s maybe something we could help with, like if it’s nerves, just KNOW we all love you and love listening to you speak and you never ever have to be nervous!
U are totally right I'm watching because I tend to self diagnose and change mental disabilities all the time depending the day it is currently my b day .my grandma's was 13 of April my biggest problem admiring mental illness to myself because I'm afraid that I would sound clinical I live in a. Very deflective envirinmemt. City so ya..I was not anymore the way I dealt w emptyness was extremism crazy boyfriends ectr sort of sečf entitlement..nooow everything is as it is see after a while when u try every thing I don't meen to say I did try I mainly didn't but when Ur pushed by Ur envirinmemt to constantly live on eggshells u sort of snap let's say or like act superior And this is just a story forgiv itself for not everything not needing to make sense..much luv.. V.
Would you ever make a video about what you think caused your mental health issues? I've watched alot of your videos and understand how it's been triggered in the past by school and expectations.. But I feel like I've never seen you really address why your mental health has been so difficult to the point of psychosis. Do you think it's all brain chemicals, or is it something more? Sorry if this sounds rude or intrusive. You don't have to share anything you're not comfortable with. I'm just interested if you ever did feel comfortable addressing it.
honestly no, i don’t take this a rude comment at all! however that’s something I will never ever share online, I’m sorry I can’t be completely transparent - it would just be too much x
