Loosing friends while grieving? | Am I pushing my friends away? 🧐 

Unsure if this helps but I’ve found that in life most people are here for seasons. You spend a time together growing, learning and experiencing life, then you move your separate ways. Not everyone is supposed to be around forever. You’re supposed to move in your own directions. Life is about growth, learning, struggling, overcoming, experiencing, sharing, caring, etc… but most importantly, LOVING! It seems so backwards, but the time of most growth comes from the depths of pain or struggle or suffering. It’s through the ashes after the fire like a phoenix we rise. Through the struggle we grow and learn and learn to appreciate! These times are where you’ll find who not only your true friends are, but who YOU are. Love yourself. Your best friend loved, and still loves you. Life is only over when you’ve given up. Chin up, love yourself and those around you. Help those you can and respect yourself and others. Keep moving forward. Sending love from Virginia.

I don’t know if it’s normal, but it went that for me when my brother passed away - I was 25. People can be afraid of such deep sadness, or just feel bad they don’t know what to say and can’t really make it better 💔 My brother & I were so close. I was devastated & trying not to mention the pain much so as not to make anyone feel weird. Grief doesn’t really get lighter but as we get stronger we get more used to carrying it ❤️‍🩹 Sending you so much love, Leah 💗

Sending you lots of love ❤️

Thank you for posting again! It’s a blessing everytime u drop a new vid

What has happened is an immense change in life, not just yours but everyone touched by Lucas' life. People take decades to realize what has happened, let alone a month. You are definitely not the same person, and things are going to change - maybe for the better or for the worse. Regardless, you are allowed to feel your feelings and become the person you need to be. Relationships are going to change and that's okay - your friends are going to have to adjust to the change to; maybe they can, maybe they can't but this is beyond you and them. Sending you love as always, and glad you're moving through despite everything.

Hey, Leah! I appreciate your honesty about what you’re going through. I find it difficult to express myself publicly when I’m going through challenging times, so your ability to be open about yours is inspiring to me. Thank you for sharing. Lots of love 😘🌹

Most friends are merely enemy's pretending so they can get something out of you- a real friend will call you and make sure you're ok when you are hurting sad sick etc. A real friend find a way to get ahold of you if you've lost touch. A real friend would never leave you when you are dealing with something like this. Takes a while to weed out the fakes and the remaining will be few, maybe 1-

I wanted to be alone. No one understood it. I knew it was what I needed. You know what’s best for you. Some need people some need space.

U will get there lea i promise u stay srong sending love to u and rue

Hun in all actuality, a month is SUPER fresh still. If they can't understand you're still in the super grieving process, than I don't know. Yes, they probably haven't been through it. But it's extremely easy to understand. I would NEVER get over it if I lost my husband.. Its ok to not be ok..a month isn't long at all in the grieving process.

Leah, I want to give you the biggest hug. It sucks feeling like a burden to your friends but real ones are there for you during the hardest times. Are you able to speak to a mental health professional? A therapist or grief counselor? I found talking with a psychiatrist when I was in a similar situation very helpful because my friends were ghost and my family didn’t like my bf that passed away from an od bc he did d.rugs & I was forever trying to “save” him, so they didn’t really want to hear about it after a couple of days. I remember those days. They were dark and it’s been a long time since I was in your spot. I’m sure you don’t want to talk to a random stranger from the internet but if you do, I’m here. I’ll send you my email or WhatsApp or whatever. Stay strong and just keep going, one day at a time. Lots of love from LA

How old are you Leah? Everything you've said is normal. I think it would be abnormal if you weren't feeling this way. You are at least moving on. Not sitting there physically paralyzed. Some of your friends might not know how to handle it. It's a lonely feeling. They shouldn't just worry, this will change you. Its up to you whether for better or worse. I believe you're still so young and have a future awaiting you..Im sorry that it's not what you planned.. This might be time to be alone and work on areas that need healing. idk if you pray. Try building a relationship with God, its the 1 thing that saved me. Im so sorry.

I hate to sound like an old fart but the older I got the smaller my friends circle got. Try not to overanalyze too much. I'm new to you channel and wish you nothing but the best. Maybe go live and go on a hike and just chat with people? Luke used to go live a lot at work and just chat with the chat.