Mackenzie's Weed-Induced DPDR Recovery Story (2023) 

Hey Amanda, thanks so much for your comment and I'm delighted to hear that you've recovered 😊 And if you'd ever like your story to be featured on the channel just drop me a line and we can arrange it. Keep up the good work! 😊

Hey, happy to hear you feel better. Can I ask what steps you took to get out of it? Did therapy help? Would love to get in touch. Cheers :)

So glad to hear that Josh! 😊

Well said, and I'm glad you're enjoying the videos! 😊

Glad it was helpful! 😊

@Depersonalization Manual hey! My name is Robyn. I am in the middle of one rn, and it's due to bad meds and repeated reexposure. Please pray for me. Be cautious w those new meds for MDD. God help us all. I should be off the census, sir. I am still very ill from the MDD meds and can get no help. Can y'all please pray for my Kids and I?

@@emojichick4408 how are you now, I was stung by meds too.

thank you!

@@itskenz1448 I’d love to get in contact with you!

Omg same with me!! Wanna hop on a group call?

Thanks so much for your comment Rosario -- I'm very sorry to hear that your father passed away and that you had such a difficult time with DPDR. But that's great that you were able to identify the condition and make the changes to start to feel better. Keep up the good work and enjoy your recovery 😊

I’m sorry about your father. I had a similar recovery experience, where I acknowledged it was the depersonalisation and not the weed. I also acknowledged that depersonalisation was just a symptom of anxiety or a response to it. I just tried to live a normal life again, faking it at first until I started to slowly feel normal again.

@@MrBrandonLau Thank you for your kindness. I lived in Colorado at the time and was definitely abusing the weed and had such a high tolerance that it was very, very confusing to think that was the issue. It made no sense. My second thought was that it was Covid or some medical issue. Those factors made it very hard to get a grasp on the issue. I’m finding the CPTSD recovery methods very useful because the death of my dad triggered latent childhood issues I never dealt with. On top of that, I moved across the country. There were sooo many layers to the onion. Thank goodness for channels like this and the kind comments that go along with them 🤍

Hey, happy you feel better. Can I ask you what helped you get out of it? I'm obsessing over it and am considering therapy. Would love to get in touch :)

Hey, good to hear you feel better. Can I ask what steps you took to get better and how long it took?

Hey, thanks for purchasing The DP Manual and I'm delighted to hear that you're feeling better already! 😊 And yes, don’t worry, feelings of brain fog / disorientation are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

Hey Colton, thanks for your comment, I'm so glad to hear that the videos have been useful and that you're on the road to recovery! 😊

Not to be a tin foiler but don't you think maybe in recent years the stuff you're smoking is modified and weaponized in some way?. It's weird that it's more common nowadays to get mental health issues from ganja. Idk tho just a thought.

hey how are you doing now?

Hey Lucas, thanks for your comment 😊 Don’t worry, that all sounds like a very typical case of weed-induced DPDR to me. I know it can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you 😊 You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com

Wow, that's fantastic! 😊 Thanks so much for your comment and I'm delighted to hear that you've recovered! 😊

Привет. Я тоже русская. Как у тебя получилось преодолеть это? Ты ходил к терапефту? Боюсь, что так и останусь.

привет! я ни разу не ходил к врачу, это состояние у меня было 2 раза, каждое по полгода. выбирался сам. очень помогла книга Шона и видео, советую смотреть видео именно после прочтения книги. этот парень реально знает, о чем говорит. если в кратце, то просто не циклись на этом состоянии, не усугубляй его прочтением статей, поиском ответов, лекарств, врачей... старайся просто жить! вопреки этому состоянию делай то, что ты раньше делала, через силу. вспомни свои интересы, увлечения, начни жить так, как жила до дереализации! старайся просто принять его как временное состояние, и жить несмотря на него. поначалу будет странно, будет казаться что ничего не изменится. но если ты не будешь бесполезно размышлять об этом, снова читать статьи, искать волшебную таблетку, то всё получится! очень не советую идти к психиатру, в России вряд ли найдёшь помощи, ещё и в больные могут записать. это можно преодолеть самому, это вообще не так сложно! главное не накручивай себя и не читай нытье людей, которые годами не могут избавиться от этого. если ты реально хочешь выйти из этого, у тебя получится! срочно читай книгу Конора, если ещё не читала

самое главное помни, что ты нормальная! ни в коем случае не приписывай дереал к какой-то болезни. ты ещё глубже зайдешь, проверено. если ты ищешь решения, я уверен, ты здорова! скорее всего испытала какой-то стресс, и дереал включился как защита мозга от тревоги. чаще всего дереал это просто следствие сильного стресса. даже если причина другая, суть не меняется, методы избавления те же)

@@user-dk3ly1vo4t Спасибо за очень обнадеживающие слова! Буду к этому придерживаться. Думаю тоже, что я не больна, просто странно, зачем и как это у меня образилось. И не могу отстраниться от вопроса, почему у некоторых это не прошло, даже и в отсутсвии тревоги. Хорошего тебе дня и продолжения!

Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

Don’t worry Lara, existential / intrusive thoughts like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating and frightening but they are also temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/

Bien sur! 😊

Hey Matt! So the symptoms of anxiety / DPDR are very consistent, but what can happen is that over time we can focus on different aspects of the condition (e.g., memory issues, vision problems, existential thoughts etc) and that can feel like the symptoms themselves are changing. But essentially it’s the same as if somebody with hayfever focused on different aspects of that condition, and worried that their symptoms were changing from runny nose to itchy eyes, to sneezing etc. They are still all symptoms of the same condition, all that’s happening is that your focus on specific symptoms changes over time. But don’t worry, they are all still harmless and temporary and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/

Don't worry Jim, the fact that your panic attacks have reduced over time is a very positive sign, it means that your levels of anxiety have reduced. Keep up the good work, the anxiety will keep reducing as your recovery continues, as will all of the symptoms of DPDR. Read this carefully, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

Hey Jake, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com And don’t worry, worries about loss of memory or time are super common with DPDR. I know they can be scary but they will fade away and stop completely as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

hey man . I feel the same as you do.

I have these exact same symptoms, how are you now?

Hi Aaron, yes, those do sound like they're consistent with DPDR. Please take a look through the lists of symptoms here and see if they sound familiar: www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/ www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-symptoms-the-10-most-common/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

Read this carefully, I think you'll find it very helpful 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-without-anxiety/

Don’t worry Tony, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long you've had it (and even if it's gone away and come back a few times!), you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

U gotta stop smoking for a while because you’re basically retriggering it while your nervous system is tryna heal

@@Dpmanual hey shaun u said it’s anxiety right ? so if i am not having a panic attack can i take an anxiety pill and will that make it go away ?

Thanks for your comment and I'm so glad the videos have been useful! 😊 ❤️ I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

@@Dpmanual I’ll definitely look more into it. i told my doctor and she said she’d do research for me because she hasn’t heard of it before. but i told her it is very much a thing because of your videos

@@gimmeicedcoffee I'm glad the videos have been informative 😊

Hey, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

@@TheTravisDrums huh??

@@TheTravisDrums i obviously didn’t explain it correctly but it’s the only thing that could’ve really started it i don’t know why you felt the need to be an ass n say something like that everybody’s body’s deals with stuff differently i don’t know where you got your information from but you’re wrong. magnesium overdosing can worsen anxiety and did in my case because i had no symptoms of dp/dr till after i started taking them consistently. instead of saying i’m wrong do your research first i’m 16 years old and was taking too much magnesium. i got many of the symptoms from overdosing it not like purposely or anything but i did, my heart was beating irregularly, i had constant stomach pains, and it’s messed with my anxiety end of story. don’t try to to deny my story cuz you’ve never heard of it happening cuz other people have gone through the same thing almost the same way. thank you have a good day

@@TheTravisDrums literally takes 2 seconds to look up and find out magnesium has a lot to do with our brain chemistry.

@@TheTravisDrums you came to me without knowing anything and tried to deny EVERYTHING i said i’m not gonna not defend myself i’m not just some stupid kid be considerate of people

Glad to hear you're feeling better 😊 And yes, weed-induced DPDR is super common: www.dpmanual.com/articles/weed-hangover/

Hey, thanks for your comment. Firstly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. Secondly, I know DPDR can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com Thirdly, don’t worry, visual symptoms like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

What other distortions? What drug did you take?

I smoked marijuana. I then had a couple of panic attacks. My visuals are all the ones I've seen before, only in an enhanced format. Tears in my eyes, a black ball on the sides when I get tired and look away to the side, and all that I have listed above. It all improves after sleep, and worsens when I'm tired. But compared to what it was, it's still okay.

@@acid.9178 do you think maybe your fixating on it more and you didn’t just tune it out like before since you had it before you were high? How bad is ur visual snow?

​@@speediskey2150 і My visual snow is tolerable when I'm not worried and busy doing something. then visual snow is normal

Thanks for your comment and I'm glad to hear you're doing better 😊

Hello brother can we talk ?

Hey @PlayBoyMonopoly, I would like to get in touch with you to know more about that dpdr experience. Is there a way i can contact you?

What did u do to get out of it?

Read this carefully 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/

i live in the uk and i understand it may be hard to contact me but trust me ive hit rock bottom im going to stay annomous for now till i know i can actually recover i find out for myself that theres a recovery. i hope i dont look a fool but 1 whole yr is a lot especialy for some one whos only lived 15 yrs of normal life . i just pray that no one i know sees this comment

hey you can always reach out to me you’re not alone. It’s not bad to reach out for help

Hey, thanks for your comment. Firstly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. Secondly, I know DPDR can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

Hey, thanks for your comment 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

hi do you feel like this still, this is my biggest fear rn

@@jensnow5690 yep

Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

U have floaters and do your eyes feel like they have pressure behind them?

@@twilliams4880 yes

@@twilliams4880 floaters and my vision feels like off like kinda overwhelmed so I can’t process what’s around me. That’s it mainly

@@twilliams4880 why

@@speediskey2150because those are symptoms of dpdr

Don’t worry Mark, visual symptoms like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/

@@Dpmanual okay :) just weird it happened like 2 months in

@@markgeczi45 No problem 😊

How’d ur dp start

@@speediskey2150 panic attack while baked

Ultimately the decision is up to you. I do know of some people who have made complete DP recoveries and who have safely gone back to smoking weed. However, I would strongly recommend that you avoid weed and other drugs completely at the very least until you've made a complete and 100% recovery. Also, you do need to understand that if weed triggered the Depersonalization, there's always going to be a slight risk that it could happen again. Now, once you've recovered from DPDR and understand what the condition is, it's a lot less likely to return as an ongoing condition -- because if you ever encounter the feelings again you recognize them and can allow them to pass naturally. Again, I wouldn't recommend doing it myself, but the decision is up to you. Hope that helps! 😊

@@Dpmanual Thanks, :) Going to buy you're recovery book, hoping to be you're next success story lol

@@edennee3853 Glad to hear it! 😊

Nope 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

Don't worry Jon, it doesn't matter what caused it (weed / edibles etc!) or how long you've had it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/

How are u feeling?

@@lucasavila3735 much better. Happened in 2017 battled with it on and off for couple years

Don't worry Amanda, concentration + memory issues are very common with DPDR which can make you feel like you're not able to follow conversations etc as easily as you normally would 😊 I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/

Read this, I think you'll find it very useful 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

@@Dpmanual I read it and I'm still afraid that my feeling will continue.

@@elghazaouiamine180 Don't worry, you can and will get 100% back to normal 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/

@@Dpmanual I want to ask you a personal question, could you study and focus?

Don't worry, concentration + memory issues are very common with DPDR 😊 I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/