Love your real ness, no video cutting and not scripted out. You’re really awesome at making videos, I feel like a friend and we’re having coffee and having a deep conversation 💛 keep it up
Just saw your PBS news interview. Again you really are so great Jen. Thank you for helping and supporting those who are otherwise not often even acknowledged by the mass media
Omg. I relate 100% to not being on your DOC but still in an addict lifestyle. I was clean from heroin for 5 years but still drinking almost everyday and addicted to prescribed benzos and taking my suboxone differently than prescribed. Rippin and running. My entire circle of friends were addicts or in. That lifestyle. It took going to jail to finally move and stop talking to everyone I associated with. It's been a year since and my life is co completely different. One of my old friends got shot in the head twice last night. Hes okay but still. I wouldve probably been with him
I love your & Jess’ videos. My mom is an addict and she has 8 years sober now. My childhood was rough going thru it with her, and hearing yall stories helps me understand her more. I’m so proud of you and your bravery ❤️🙏🏻
I've never experienced meth, it sounds so scary... my drug was heroin. That was awful in itself as you know. Love that you are telling your stories and are so inspiring to help people to get clean to live healthy clean lives too.
My moral compass as an addict was often “I can do the right thing LATER” I would convince myself I could be a good person when I got better and so what I was doing in that moment didn’t matter because I was just surviving and I could make up for the sketchy shit I did later. So messed up to look back on that decision making process now. I definitely do everything I can to make up for my past now but it’s so absurd that I used to actually tell myself shit like “it’s okay to tell this lie right now to keep my addiction secret because when I get clean I’ll never lie again” etc.
I agree that it's pretty dark. For me, it made me calm in a lot of ways (which can also be bipolar, not just ADD/ADHD, which I never got diagnosed with being a calm & quiet kid who can focus just fine if I want to) and lazy. But it also ended up making me extremely depressed in time. Heroin pretty much evened me out in a lot of ways. Also always say that the difference between heroin addicts and tweekers (ones who need to get their cash together in ways other than just a job or check or whatever) is that once a heroin addict has their dope money, they're good. But tweekers get theirs & get high and that just gets the wheels turning about running more scams or whatever.
Hi jen! First of all, i freaking love you and i wanna thank you for even making this video. Even the way you talk and hearing your story made me feel so much more confident in myself to even accept cthe fact that i myself have an addiction. I start a new job this Sunday after 6 months of not having one, im ready to start fresh but i know the healing process and getting help is only scratchijg the surface of a lot things in my life i dont think im ready for or unsure how ill be able to handle it. Which is the scary part about it. Im sure once i get passed that then maybe ill think back to this comment and think how silly it all was. But anyways, stayed blessed and fabulous! 💙 - newly subscribed follower
Can you do a story time on like one of your craziest experiences during active addiction? I love when you tell them. They're relatable. I don't have ANY sober friends who I can relate to so I watch you! ♡♡ I wish I had a friend like you lol fr!♡
I'm about 2 1/2 years clean from a major heroin and meth addiction and one of the things I feel the most guilt over is the amount of my friends who never would have even considered using I turned on to using. And I also introduced to the needle. I've apologized and told them how I feel that their addiction is my fault but they always say that they made the decision and I didn't force them to do anything but I still believe that if it weren't for me they would never have used in the first place. As crazy as it sounds if I would have just stuck with using h I wouldn't have gotten as bad and could have been a functional user but the meth completely destroyed me and my life. In my personal opinion methamphetamine is the single most horrible drug there is. And to anyone who is still struggling, you are not alone and you can do it. The hardest part is admitting you need help and asking for it. Don't be ashamed, wanting to get help and reaching makes you a very strong person and if I can get clean anybody can. MAT is a miracle and I don't think I could have gotten where I am without it.
Jen hi. I have a question. sometimes I think back to my meth addiction and I think back how I done so many embarrassing stuff or stuff I'm not proud of probably like most addicts do but how do I let go ? That's just not who I am anymore and it shouldn't matter now .
Its crazy the positions you end up in, it's so scary in retrospect. For me it happened slowly, little by little until the cheap motels, prostitution, desperation and sadness became normal. Then I would go back to my real life and try not to think about it until the next binge. Meth brings out the evil in mankind.
I feel like for the longest time I didn’t even have decision making progress I just was so impulsive that if I wanted to in the moment I did . Took me a long time.
What is the rock bottom for a meth addict? I have a loved on on this shit has been for 7 years now, left their kids & wife to sink further down the rabbit hole to the pits of hell. They are very strong in their denial tells people they dont have an addiction tired of being blamed for said addiction when the person has all evidence in hand. People say there is nothing anyone can do to help they have to want it. This brought his narcissism to a head was horrible to his wife and kids some scary shit.
I don't really enjoy this drug. Yes it makes sex a little bit better. Other than that it just makes me stay up, get chest discomfort and paranoia. I get no pleasure whatsoever besides somewhat better sex. I might have a special brain chemistry idk.
