Social anxiety is like a hydra, never truly gone no matter how many heads you cut, how many problems you fix, how old and stable you might've become. Especially because it never comes alone, usually pairing up with depression, PTSD and/or more general anxiety as well. I've spent years learning how to talk to people but even now in my 30's some days the door to outside just feels like this insurmountable barrier. It goes beyond tiredness or fear, it feels like a physical wall. You remember that the sun is too bright, the sounds are too loud, the people are staring. How do you walk? Is your voice okay? Did you forget something? Are you being impolite? Why do I feel dizzy? It can be excruciating.
It’s been a year now hope you are doing better now. We’re in this together homie✊ don’t feel alone, waaay too many people in society have social anxiety too, so it’s alright to feel stressed at times. Stay strong and take care
This is not social anxiety It's a dissociative type of schizophrenia. Please do not associate with it. It's not as glamorous as it looks, it's actually really frustrating and scary.
At the very not simply social anxiety this is more agoraphobia leaning. I know because i suffered from it but this game just doesn't feel like anxiety all on its own
I agree, but it does it get better over time. Goal-setting is key, imo. If you can achieve your monthly goals and keep raising the bar, you're your own best friend and the question of sociability becomes moot.
I remember my boyfriend played the game as I watched. He let me chose the options at times. I was understanding both the feelings and story quickly. It was oddly comforting. Meanwhile, he was probably thinking the game was weird lol
To make a triple A video game, movie, t.v. show requires teamwork with many people. If you're in that environment chances are you don't have severe social anxiety. An indie game can be made by one person so the likelyhood of someone having social anxiety is much higher.
I also feel like a lot of popular games (or media in general) try to make the main characters cool and appealing and as harsh as it sound, being mentally ill is hardly ever anything glorious that would appeal to people. I say this is a person who struggles with mental illness themselves, but to the average eye we might often simply seem "pathetic" and that wouldn't sell. People who aren't mentally ill themselves don't understanding why we have issues with things that they consider easy everyday, mundane things they can do just fine. It's simply the opposite of what main characters in media are usually portrayed as, aka people who are exceptionally cool and skilled or smart or good or have special powers and generally functional people with some sort of bigger goal they want to accomplish. If they do portray mental illness I feel like they usually only show the less bad, more "acceptable" parts of it and have the character be normal otherwise. They rarely go down the full rabbit hole. Because once again, a protagonist who e.g. holes themselves up in their room, can't properly talk to people, acts weirdly, is constantly afraid, maybe hasn't accomplished anything in their life and probably spends most of their time being depressed and/or having mental breakdowns etc. just isn't appealing to the masses. (Just an example, of course there's several other mental illnesses that causes people to act differently than what I described, but still unacceptably for a protagonist in media.) Just my two cents from what I've noticed, I could be wrong.
This is literally me, I'm in tears rn. This is my life. This is what I live with everyday. I'm a hermit with my dog because everything and everyone overwhelms me, without her I don't know what I'd do. I always feel like I'm second best, so I reherse everything I might have to say to someone so I don't sound stupid. I even have the "voice of reason" that is always encouraging me, hearing that in this video really freaked me out. I've never even told anyone about any of this, it's so insane to hear anyone or anything speaking like it was literally a game that mirrored my life. It's so surreal. And like the girl in the game the last thing I want is to be pity'd or hear advice, I already know how weird I am, but hearing about the girl in this game l feel like I can for the first time talk about it where nobody (hopefully) knows me. Thank you R for this insane reflection of my own mind, I genuinely appreciate it.🙏
I’m baffled, but very interested to learning about this kind of stuff. Not that this is a good thing, but the more people understand this the more people could address this or help.
@@mcoupe69 Tru Tru ..... Makes me feel like its a bipolar thing, but we can't fully diagnose this. It sounds like a horrible loop, that just goes back from the start. There's probably ways to break the unending loop.
@@cookieterminator4389 not diagnosing anything.. she literally compares the similarities including the fact that she doesn’t want armchair help from random strangers
I watched ManlyBadassHero playing this. It lost me a bunch of times, but didn't matter how lost I was... the dread was always there. A very well put together game, I'd say.
From what I can guess, aside from social anxiety, it could be possible that she has schizophasia if she is on pills and sees hallucinations. But this is a great explaination video.
This makes me so happy knowing that the exact feelings of social anxiety are understood by other people. Its so easy to get distracted, forgetful or even downright odd and weird when you feel pressured and start overthinking, and its especially hard trying to tell someone about it as i always give up and later on regret saying anything. Everyone has different ways of interpreting it and dealing with it. Im not saying this game is what social anxiety looks like but it pinpoints many of the feelings that people go through.
My partner gets very hateful with me over my own anxiety. More than once it’s been thrown in my face how “I can’t do normal things” and how “he doesn’t see why I can’t just get over it” the most hurtful is when he laughs like a lunatic and chants “anxiety anxiety anxiety fucking anxiety that’s all you ever are!” and honestly, eventually, it gets to a point where it feels strange whenever he tries to appear understanding. It makes me feel afraid he’s done something and he’s being nice to cover-up whatever it is. Anxiety has destroyed my ability to trust and accurately assess other human beings. My struggles with social and generalized anxiety disorders really aren’t far off the mark of what’s being conveyed here and it’s kinda scaring me a bit. The only difference is that o refuse to try using any medications because that feels like giving up
no partner should treat their s/o like that. I'm not trying to judge your entire relationship based off of one youtube comment, but just from an outsiders perspective your partner seems toxic
I've suffered from social/general anxiety ever since I can remember, I understand the feeling of inept you feel. My mother behaved like your boyfriend did, she didn't believe in mental illnesses and chucked it up to me acting up for attention. I eventually ended up in a relationship like yours and let me tell you, you need to get out. I got better as soon as I got my self confidence back but you'll never be able to do that if you're in an abusive relationship. I can't promise you that you're anxiety will go away, but I promise that it'll get better as soon as you decide that you deserve better. Stay strong love ❤
Despite this being a horror game, I actually find this whole concept rather charming? I have social anxiety myself, love video games, and daydream quite often. I hate that I always feel like a burden because my brain just doesn't seem to work the same way everyone else's does. This game is spot-on: even something as simple as a shopping trip can feel daunting and emotionally draining. I've never tried viewing conversations like a visual novel interaction though...
I used to and still kind of approach conversation like an rpg. I don't think I had as much social interaction as a kid or at all up until I was like 18 when I got my first job as a cashier. You can imagine how daunting it was, but I manned up and faced the challenge. I've gotten more natural in conversations, but in my mind I still feel like I'm solving a math problem. Examine facial expression. Examine tone of voice. How do these mesh with current relationship status? Generate dialog. How would these sound to x person given our relationship, their past, and what they know of me? Prepare tone of voice. Prepare facial expression. Speak. Its kind of fun honestly. It may sound messed up in a way, but I treat people like npc's. Humans have a general behavioral pattern just like computer programs, thats why you can have manipulators who know how to act to get what they want. All I have to do is put on the skin of a normal person so that I can communicate whats inside. Honesty, I'm jealous of natural normal people. I feel like a bent puzzle piece that just doesn't fit quite right. I wonder what its like to be able to just _be_ you know? If I want anything tat comes with social interaction, friends, partners, I have to put in genuine effort to say and do the right things because I just don't naturally do or say those things. I may not be as bad off as the girl in this game, but I understand her.
I think it's interesting that the girl is worried her Mum will "throw her out the window". Since that's how her father died. I feeling like something's there.
I get anxious alot to and just going to the store overwhelms me and when my mom asks me what's wrong it makes me feel like let her down just by getting anxious
I like the game it does visualize social anxiety very well. I do suffer of it too, but maybe not the exact same scale as the character in this game, but I do suffer of it regardless.
Damn, I don't think I could relate to a character anymore than her.. Getting so scared and anxious that you box yourself in your own mind to escape it...with poor social skills.. Jesus...
I've been there, these days I have better social skills but not for good reason, I socialize and try to be the center of attention so that hopefully I can brighten someone's day so they don't feel terrible like I do deep down, but I don't like forcing myself to be social, I'm so tired of pretending I'm happy in public to hide the sadness and depression, but if my pretending can brighten someone's day, was it worth it?
This game hits too close to home, many of the recurring themes in the game are all too relatable, I was going grief while playing this game because my dog passed recently, actually I still am, I just needed something to relate to at the moment with the grief on top of the things I already deal with: anxiety, depression, clouded mind, episodes, etc. earlier I was crying but now I feel lifeless and empty
I also struggle with communication problems and other people and adults bully me for it despite not understanding what i am going through I hope more people can understand to not be so hard on students who have difficulties with this
My Russian friend told me about this game and I just go "what?" cuz I don't understand Russian it's a video on youtube an animation I didn't play the game myself and the story is taken out of context.. and because it's russian I don't even know the name of the game in English but now I do and somehow this thing just feel like my introvert, social anxiety, adhd, and hallucination like when in depression months ago I often get nightmares uhm... I mean I sometimes struggle with reading facial expression and what others are talking sometimes and the result is anxiety hopefully I overcame that, but this game with now I know context it's really scary it's art. and to everyone please take care you're not alone
Just played both of the games, really good stuff, way better than expecting. I love the video you just did, really damn good + your voice is great for narration at least IMO. Stay awesome!
Also I think the game's setting is Russia and from what I heard people there treat mentally ill people way worse than usual. Hence the cylindrical apartment, the dad trying to kill his daughter then offing himself and the internet bullying.
I may be late, but I'll reply to your comment anyway, because I'm russian. The thing you heard is not entirely true. Yes, there are some morons who mock mentally ill people, like in every other place of the world. Most russian people won't do that. There are also families in which talking about your emotions just isn't a thing. But the amount of them is decreasing imo. Overall, in my opinion, the mental help got much better in the last 15 years or so. There's also more acceptance to it in the public. I mean it not in the negative way, people just express their emotions more with each other, they can get help easier and can get proper threatment. It was much harder 15-20 years ago because there weren't enough psychologists and psychotherapists, and private clinics also weren't a thing.
Oh no no no it's not a Russian setting it's an EASTERN EUROPEAN setting. We don't say the R-word here on RU-vid. It's either Slavic or Eastern European
rly liked the video! to me it seems tho that the mother is not demanding but more tries to support her daughter through speaking very clearly. at least in this part of the game the mother is speaking very direct and easy to understand sentences and as far as i remember the daughter understood all of them, unlike when she encountered the cashier. with that theory i sadly cannot explain the way her daughter views the mother... but it is an interesting thought to have for sure
I’ve also been diagnosed with social anxiety and obviously it’s overly exaggerated in the game but i get the feeling of a milk inside of a bag of a milk, inside the bag of the milk. There are times where I genuinely couldn’t get out of a thought loop assuming just overthinking everything. I remember being so scared of just going to a convenience store nearby having short panic attacks when there’s nothing to be afraid of.
How is this social anxiety, I see how that may play a part, but its extremely evident this person is suffering from psychosis. They cant discern delusion from reality.
I suffered from social anxiety due to domestic abuse and bullying, no matter the effort I put to « fit in » I was always labeled as someone weird when I even tried to communicate my issues people would either brush it off, get angry or make fun of me. Gradually but slowly I began to no longer get confortable in the presence of others, worse when someone gets to close to me I have panic attacks. I learned to hide my true self by fear of repercussions and since I can’t be myself around other people I don’t see the need to befriend them.
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