suffering from this for almost 3 months. i spacing out a lot, suffering from blank mind aswell. feels like time so slow. i cant thing of anything. did you get better? ireally need help
Dude, I feel you. In my entire life I feel like I'm useless I can't even defend myself in arguments and don't have reasoning skills. Imagine in my class I'm the quiet one that always gets bullied, have nothing to say can't even think right and I always ask myself why am I even here in this world if im this worthless. I chose to be alone because I can't talk to other people, they think of me as weird and if I try to talk its like random words just comes out of my mouth and if I try talking impromptu my voice is so soft that you can't understand what I'm saying that's some of the reasons why I tend to stay quiet. Whenever I see someone that I know I tend to avoid or pretend that I was busy checking my phone because I have nothing to say, this has been happening since I can remember. And I can't connect with people. I have joined a lot of boothcamps like basketball and flag football but I haven't connected with people or even talk to them because I am slow witted I also fear of teaching someone what I know because I only have few words in my vocab. It's like my mouth can't even open specially if the one im talking to is much more dominant than me. I have suicidal thoughts and it gets worst if I need to present in front of the class or there's a huge event that a lot of people that I know would be there. I dont know anything I'm such a slow learner. I have 3 siblings and I'm the black sheep in my family or the odd one. Because they're all smart, has no problems communicating, can work with other people. And I'm here living alone laying in the sofa who has no more drinkable water because I fear to go out and converse with people. I feel so dumb, all I can do is stare at people and say nothing. I'm so frustrated in life. I feel like the world is against me. I can't even have a productive day or just be able to study it's as if I dont have any worth. I don't know what to do anymore with my life.
Rest in peace John. Thankyou for bringing light to an issue that troubles so many. Thankyou for the help and support you offered and I'm sorry that you weren't able to find a solution.
This is exactly how I feel. Down to the point of not being able to explain what this is. I just always put it down to being socially awkward, i literally thought I was the only person with this issue!! Except I have hardly any thought processes through the day but at night bad thoughts come creeping in and then it takes ages to fall asleep. I literally thought I wasn't 'normal'
@@plubin123 i feel the same way bro. do you have instagram or anything, id really like to have a conversation with someone who struggles with the same thing
1:35 - 1:55 actually describes what the whole video is about. There could be no better explaination of how my mind works than those 20 seconds. It makes socializing impossible. And everything else hard as hell.
I have been going through the same thing. Complete mind blankness. Now I am gradually feeling better after realizing that it's my thoughts about mind blackness that are kind of shutting down all the other thoughts. You will not feel better unless you stop trying to escape from this state. I know it might not make perfect sens for you at this stage, but you should really try to rid yourself from the idea that you have mental blankness. Only then you will open the door for other thoughts to come in. Try to Put yourself in situations where you need to use your brain to actually have a conversation with someone. It might feel awkward at the beginning but you'll gradually realize that you can put your mind to create thoughts and the blankness will shortly fade away. Trust my words, you will not get better unless you stop trying.
Marina Isse Yes, emotional numbness, emotional détachement. You name it. I have been going through this for almost a year and it’s only when I detached myself from these ideas that I started to experience emotions and feelings again. Stop thinking about you being emotionally numb or blank minded and try to distract yourself from this « parasite » idea. Keep your mind busy and you’ll definitely start to see improvements.
Tarik Zeriouh I’ve been going through this for almost a year also. Self sabotage is a problem for myself. I have inner conflicts to make peace with that’s one of reasons that caused this. I’m aware that it may be a coping mechanism for our mind that is definitely reversible.its extremely difficult for myself to really try making my mind work. I created this habit for so long and I want out. What do you mean by keeping yourself busy? What other tips or tricks do you use? Do you catch yourself returning?
Marina Isse Start doing the things that you used to enjoy doing before your depression kicked in. Call you friends, go meet them and try to have a decent conversation with them. Go for a walk or try jogging. Learn something new: cooking for example. Find a recipe on the internet, shop for the ingredients and try to make a decent meal. Ah there is also a book that I strongly recommend « a life at last » by Paul David. This is a very powerful book that opened my eyes to the tricks that depression can play on us. But trust me, don’t try to fight these symptoms because you will fail and you will enter a never ending cycle. Think of it this way, how can you rid yourself from this feeling of emptiness and mind not working if you’re constantly worrying about these symptoms? Give your brain a much needed break and give it time to heal. Only then you will start making your own thoughts. Thoughts about the futur, about the past and the present. Your brain is much stronger than you think, it just plays tricks on you. Your mind is not blank, it is only constantly making you worry about this blankness and you need to give yourself a break from all this worrying. You will not get any better unless you stop trying.
I don't blame you dude. Living like this is un-fucking-acceptable and the fact that no one really knows what it is or if it exists is pathetic. I can't focus on anything. I look at things but I don't really see them. Mind just randomly clicks off when socializing even if I relax and don't "try" to come up with anything. Can't finish anything I start and I've overcompensated so much to try not to miss important details that I can't focus or enjoy the good part about said thing. I hate myself and tell myself I'm lazy and incompetent and unmotivated and that I'm just lying to myself about wanting to be successful but it literally feels impossible to muster the energy to do the most trivial shit. I'm a complete waste of life. A catatonic zombie as you put it. I can't recall simples words I've used hundreds of times my body feels like a flesh suit my mind is totally blank and randomly shuts off even when I'm having a "good" day. One can only take so much till they reach a breaking point. Respect to you my dude. Rest easy wherever you are. Maybe I'll have the balls to join you someday
It really is pathetic.. doctors don't know sh*t and are always so arrogant😡 he must have felt so lonely all those years when the Internet did not exist yet.. anyway im happy he knew he wasn't alone in this before he died
I completely understand this and it honestly makes me mad that when I’m trying to tell people that I have a blank mind they don’t believe me!!! I try telling therapists, anyone and they say “you just don’t know what you’re thinking” like what the hell is that supposed to mean if nothing is going through my head I have a blank mind. And then it’s just arguing with a brick wall which refuses to believe you
@@mete1161no he didnt.. if you have never been through this then you will never understand. He never knows what to say and he only knows what he said until he says it and it's all coming from his subconcious mind because his conscious mind is empty (talking about John his case). There is litterally nothing but darkness and blankness
I suffer EXACTLY what you described. I've tried putting myself out there more and joined a church. I often have trouble forming deep connections people beyond the superficial level because my mind is empty and I have nothing to say. Relationships with people are all placid and don't feel real. I never feel like I have anything to contribute. One thing that has help me skirt by is asking others questions. But if it becomes too focused on myself and own thoughts I fall flat.
I have told doctors I have locked in syndrome before, but never taken seriously because I manage to look normal. This video is just what I have been looking for and all the comments too. It's amazing to see there are others like me too.
I have this too, I can’t even hold a conversation with anyone bc I never have anything to say. It’s a really debilitating issue. I hope that one day there will be a solution to this because right now I can’t do anything and I don’t want to live like this anymore.
I’ve been going through this for 14 years and this year I’ve found what’s helped me the most is to unconditionally love and accept myself as I am right now regardless of if I’m thinking or doing well socially, and to forgive myself as well. When I started doing this it was like the fog lifted and I wasn’t in my head about it as much.
Going through almost the same thing on top of some other mental issues, also dropped from college and living with my parents too, went for an EEG, MRI and took all kinds of medication with no relief. I return to these videos from time to time because of how accurate it is. I share so many things and understand the pain, I'm sorry if anyone is going through any kind of issues that John mentioned. Again may your soul find forgiveness and rest in the Lord, John, I didn't have the opportunity to talk to you but you were a beautiful human trying to relate with others and fought it, eternal peace to you John.
@@johnbrad2919 No brother, I actually made a video recently where I discuss this, for me it started before few years ago but now it is severe maybe due to some other stuff.
I relate too this on such a major level! It's nice knowing I'm not the only one in the world but its bittersweet, it dosent cure anything still. I'm still trapped, trapped in my head, trapped in my body, trapped in this nothingness. Having too force things everyday Is just so draining and there only basic things. I'm also not exaggerating when I say this but I truly feel I've got one of the worst cases of this, it's destroying me! I think were suffering from.something called SCT (sluggish cognitive tempo). I'm taking Concerta XL currently which is a stimulant medication and that very slightly helps, it gives mr some thoughts but it still never feels natural. It's like I'm still getting blocked when I try too focus on a thought. This shit has wrecked my life
@@districth2826yes it helps with a complete blank mind! Its all due too having slow processing speed. When the brain cant process information fast enough it becomes too much so it shuts down, creating the blank mind. The stress also depletes dopamine, concerta replaces that dopamine and helps me to do one thing at a time but it's still very hard and I often blank out
Yeah this happens to me a lot, ever since starting high school back in 2012 I was always quiet not because I was shy but because I couldnt think of anything to say that could be insteresting enough rather I would Only say things that were right in front of me. I didnt make many friends in fact I dont really speak with anyone from high school except from time to time with one or 2 people which is not that often. I have been improving it since then to where I can have a decent conversation with one person or friends that I met later in life at work but when theres more people involved I just become a listener who really dont got much to say and its so frustrating seeing other being able to share their thoughts and feelings so easily. It is very hard to maintain relatioships alive when you can only talk to someone about so much.
Rest in peace I hope you are somewhere better now. I wanted to say more but I can't think of enough words. I don't even know what it is that I want to think, it's like all the potential thoughts I could have are trapped behind a wall and I can't reach them...
It takes ages to get the gears in my head working, when I do it's like a stream uncontrollable script of thoughts or remembering unpredictably. But as soon as my mind gets distracted I go blank and can't get back to where I was or to anything at all.
You're brains dopamine system probably takes a while longer to get firing than the average person. I feel the same way as you. Im always incompetent in everything I do when I begin the process but once my brain gets into the flow of things suddenly I become pretty skilled.
This is exactly how I feel I can never think of what to say to people and it's so hard to get friends or a gf I don't have any passions nothing interests me and I don't know what to do I just graduated from high school and I don't know what to do with my life what can I do please I'm scared
zetomega123 here’s what to do, and I’m saying that out of experience, go see a therapist, nobody can figure out what you’re going through but yourself and if you couldn’t do that then get someone professional to help you through, you might discover what really is stopping you and then fix it properly, it’s killing you to remain lost.
You could not describe better how I feel. All this emptiness as if my brain has an aversion to thought. Anyway you sound very eloquent to me. It's kinda sad to learn you've left this world. RIP John Swink Fite 😭
If you all feeling this way then there must be a common problem that you all are facing due to the external environment and you are never been like this before when you were at a very young age. It may caused due to mentally abuse by (majorly) someone insider including your own family or due to outsider like being always bullied in class. Or, maybe you stayed too much alone in your home (in your own world) that you've stopped relations with your friends may be due to an incident If that is the case then change your environment right now I mean atleast 3-4 hours spent your time alone in the greenery where exist only peace,trees,grass,sky and see everything around you consciously.And just walk without thinking anything just look around whatever is happening around you (*where other humans not there/present) What I meant to say is, the only to recover your mental illness caused by outsiders is to spend time with nature. And I promise you you will definitely see a big change in yourself not only you everybody will see. In case you think still idk what to do there's nothing like that where I live then watch few popular videos of "Sadhguru". But don't mistake it that it's about religious no it's not. Avoid your internet world/comfort zone whenever is possible. Because this is the time where everybody think you are useless and expect nothing from you. Prove them wrong and be thankful to yourself and God that you're different from others for that you need some good guidance/ coach who can show you the way out. "SADHGURU" search this on RU-vid and don't try judge or justify just free mindedly watch.
This is so tragic.. no one deserves to go through this hell. Rest in Peace, John. I might join you someday because i see no other way out, my mind is litterally blank. I have no thoughts, no feelings, no emotions, no apetite, no desires and nothing entertains me.. im just bored of life. Anyway i just feel so sorry for him, i feel like he didnt get a chance like everyone else :(
I experienced exactly this. I feel so sorry that you killed yourself. I very nearly did the same. I am currently taking medication that isn't perfect, but I'm better than I was. I am taking Abilify. I am also going on walks taking vitamins, drinking water, attempting to retrain my brain, getting out of the house by running aarrons and forcing myself to do social things(this helps alot for me) and also coming to the conclusion that I cannot control my thoughts. Rest in Peace John. I'm sorry you were experiencing so much pain. I hope you are at peace now.
@@Unwmdjh that's not what blank mind syndrome is. I suggest you just continually do things that are outside your comfort zone so you feel more comfortable and don't have to rely on alcohol. You will fail sometimes and feel uncomfortable, but that's how you grow and get stronger. I'm not a dr tho
I actually went through this a few years back. After a long night of partying and blacking out. I woke up and I was now unable as John said to have any cohesive thought I had no emotion to anything whether it being sad mad or happy I didn't feel anything. I couldn't watch TV because I didn't have focus and didn't really care or sit through anyting. Someone who vote for who was very talkative I could no longer be a part of any conversation or small talk conversation because my mind was completely blank it was absolutely terrifying . After about six months of this. I tried ginseng energy now. Even after the first use I felt different I was able to talk and actually feel again. Within one week of using this I was completely back to normal with feeling thought and the love of life again. Anyone going through something similar I would strongly suggest taking those supplements
@@lizardluminals9324 it's called ginseng energy now they sell them in local convenience stores but if not you can get them online. One pack has 3 pills. And I started off taking two packs a day. These have truly changed my life . From being unable to talk. From having people think I was heavily on drugs from the way I acted. From not being able to do basic activities. I'm telling you this is truly life-changing. Please anybody going through this try these
What is ginseng energy??? I’m going through this and have been for about three years. I would love to figure it out Bc it’s excruciating and I want to give up so bad.
Look up ginseng energy now supplement it’s a pill form that comes in three they sell it at 7:11 or you can even get it online. Best thing ever honestly
I Had to watch your video because I was experiencing my first ever brain blank as someone with ADHD and anxiety and sometimes hyper imagination it was a strange experience to say the least an overwhelming mind I can handle, calm down and fix but to feel blank or empty that is a scary new territory for me and I only hope it doesn't happen while I'm at work
I always kind of thought this was just dissociation (???), but dissociation covers a lot more than just a blank mind and being truly incapable of remembering almost anything, so... ??? I just know it's terrible and almost impossible doing homework or trying to socialize during this... what?? Mental illness? Coping mechanism?? Temporary learning disability??? I don't know what it is exactly, but there has been times I've had to ask for help to even read articles and do simple homework reports because I simply cannot remember nor understand the general idea no matter how many times I read it aloud to myself or try to think about it. I feel especially ashamed while talking aloud in class about my opinions or questions I might have. It's especially awful and hurtful when you have to debate during class. God. It's fucking terrible.
Hey how are you now? I’ve had it for 2 years now and it’s hell, but what I’ve learned is acceptance of the self (which is hard as shit) has been the biggest help for me at least
@@synatacks7964 One of the key things I've learned after a long journey of doing a lot of things to get better (from dissociation, but also other things) is that good sleep is absolute key, but also the sun. I did not take my sleep that seriously in University, nor did I sleep so well either. But it is SO serious not to sleep well, because to not sleep well for a while can be the trigger that triggers any sort of condition in your DNA, like schizophrenia, dementia, psychosis, you name it. If your family has it, it can increase the likelihood you will also develop it. Also taking in the first rays of sun or the last hour of sunshine for a minimum of 25 minutes makes our body produce vitamin D and improves our sleep cycles, this increasing quality sleep. I read the Woman's Cycle by Alissa Vitti and started to eat very good, because I was feeling tired all the time and it worked like magic. So I developed this new philosophy in life: You need to take care of yourself and all your physical needs first like sleep, eating well, exercising every day, sun bathing, etc.--before thinking that whatever's happening to you stems from trauma and that a psychologist will be the one to fix that. First the body, and of you still can't feel goof after taking good care of the biological needs, then consider going to the psychologist. But, for real, it CHANGES everything to take care of yourself in the normal, every day things--the routine you set up for yourself.
Folks I’m here to share my personal success story. I have dealt with that issue for as long as I could think of. I couldn’t think, I couldn’t process a damn thing I couldn’t do any of that. I started getting into self help and the subconscious beliefs. Essentially your beliefs about having a blank mind and continually saying you have a blank mind is what’s causing you to have a blank mind. Your subconscious beliefs basically rule your world. I started recording affirmations “I have a lot of thoughts” “I easily process information” “I’m very good at conversations” “my brain works perfectly” and “I love myself”. I recorded it and listened to it when I slept and said them when I could. I started having thoughts and could easily converse with people. It may sound hard to believe but give it a shot it helped me immensely I was considering killing myself back in July and now I’m in such a good place.
@y d idk I don’t have all the answers it could be Lyme it could be a self fulfilling prophecy where we keep telling ourselves that we don’t have thoughts and therefore we don’t. I’m just telling you that I have my thoughts back and I can communicate perfectly fine. Whereas before I could have no idea how to do that
This doesn't work. These thoughts are forced, not natural. I can think for 20seconds and then its going to be ''block'' and i again comeback to state where i dont have brain. This is so fucking horrible. Its like not having a brain and being dead inside. Living like this is a hell with no spontaneous/automatic thoughts. I have this blank mind syndrome aswell and its gonna be death of me sooner or later because im not planning living like this longer.
@@rauessadasd8705 I understand and I highly recommend you go to a doctors to get antidepressants. You are worth a lot more then that, I’m so sorry. It worked for me, I know it’s forced but eventually it turns natural once you do it for a while. I’m sorry please just give it a try before you give up. We’ve been affirming about this state for so long that it feels natural. You can get out of this
You people shouldn't judge on my boy Lizard! I am the one who encouraged him to do it in exactly that way. He trusted me, and healed so fast, I couldnt bevlieve it myself at first. What he did is called overwriting code, like you do on PC. Surely, most people won't believe a simple technique like that, since all the bad experience and habits you guys integrated into your lives. So I'll tell you the same as I did to him: First, applogize to yourself, for hurting yourself. If you keep on insisting to be ill, instead of focusing on recovery, I won't stop you. But if you really wanna give it another shot, do it like Lizard did. PS.: I got my old account deleted Lizard, so if you wanna keep in touch with me, that's my only one left on YT! 😁
I believe it's extremely high anxiety. I nearly died in 2017 and was in a coma for 3 weeks, when coming out of hospital tremendous levels of anxiety went down (this reality cosmos,universe,samsara), makes us very scared indeed. But the depression is what causes no images is what people are putting on here or a blocked third eye chakra (do nofap). Levels of anxiety and stress cause impaired thinking, when you are in it life is hellish but when I came out of hospital it really was only this and nothing spiritual that people are putting here. Peace out.
I wish I had any other mental disorder than this. I feel so stupid, how can my mind be so weak and empty when there's supposed to be millions of neurons firing off in my brain. No stimulation, no enjoyment just a downward spiral into darkness. I imagine it's a similar experience to someone who has Alzheimer's.
I have notice the people who go through this is often times caused by drugs or horrible anxiety. I fall in horrible anxiety but also I would consider myself as an extreme INFP. Highly emotional and almost realistic euphoric imagination. I grew up in an Islamic household and often times forced myself to believe in ridiculous beliefs. My extreme anxiety started in middle school and it was horrible. I found the only way to deal with it was to suppress my thoughts and emotions which I knew in a way was not right. I really didn’t share it others. I just thought I was the off one out because everyone else seemed fine. Up until last year I’ve gotten successful to completely numb emotions and thoughts. It first started with extreme anxiety, belittling, blocking out memories/things that caused my anxiety sky rocket, suppressing my emotions and came my thoughts. I know it is possible for me to regain everything since I am the only person who put myself in this position but it’s extremely difficult to put my mind there. Just typing this I know I’m forgetting so many things. I feel since the MRA doesn’t show anything it’s probably the subconscious mind. For those out there who are suffering to not lose hope. If there’s way you’ve got here there’s a back. The mind is complex in it self.
I feel the same thing, it’s like being a camera without recording or no interpretation of anything. Just existing not knowing what to do or want. I can’t feel emotions, logic, empathy, nothing.. Of corse I’m not dead so I do feel I might be relying heavily on my subconscious and muscle memory like reflexes. There’s no input just here taking up space. I guess that’s how I describe it. It’s fucking up my life before it even start. I’m 18 I haven’t been to school in 1 month I’m just trying to find the motivation or a reason to.
@@aliceglass4968 yeah I’m good, I’m staying with my mom and my sister they take good care of me… I just donno how long I can keep this up. I can’t be like this till I’m 40. But yeah I just understand how mans feeling rn. I’m sure itll get better through time high hopes
@@sayonwilliams8943 That's good you have people close to you... Are you able to speak about how you feel with your mum and sister and tell them whats going on? Or at least how you feel, I think it really helps to let someone else know.
@@sayonwilliams8943 I think there’s a specific term for this called depersonalization. I’ve been living like this since I was 17…I’m 21 now. I’ve never reached out for help, because I always thought I could solve it myself, but I’ll be seeing a therapist very soon. I think it was brought upon by childhood trauma. Stay strong, man! Don’t wait to get help though…go ahead and reach out to some professionals. Has anything traumatic ever happened to you?
I hear John died from what he describes himself suffering here. I have suffered the same, so anyone listening to this and despairing, PLEASE consider the following very carefully, it may save your life: You are expending a tremendous amount of mental energy thinking a thought on repeat (perhaps for decades) and it's driving you mad, right? The thoughts go: "Why am I so empty, where are my thoughts, why am I not thinking, what happened to my thoughts... etc, for eternity". These are thoughts, and very powerful ones. PLEASE CONSIDER: Just for a while, maybe try it for a week, or a month... DROP that constellation of thoughts. Just let it rest. You will be exceedingly afraid of doing so, it might feel like death even, but for your own sake run this experiment. You are not and can not possibly be empty, even reading this you might be forming a new constellation of thoughts to refute the possibility of not being empty, those are more thoughts reaffirming the same belief. If you are desperate and exhausted, that's great: drop it. Drop those thoughts and let yourself rest in nothingness, you might just discover (perhaps slowly) that you were repressing a whole lot of painful emotions with associated thoughts and all the ambiguity of life will return to you. I'm here to answer replies if anyone wishes.
@@Moleshaveeyes there is litterally nothing going on in my head, even thoughts like "why am i not thinking, "why am i empty" etc... There is just no spontaneos inner monologue or thoughts
@@Moleshaveeyes im basically thoughtless, emotionaless, i have no vibes, feelings, desires, no libido and nothing entertains me.. no tv, no video games.. im just bored of life :(
@@TheLegend-ct6ss but this can’t be true. If you were emotionless you wouldn’t be suffering, if you had no thoughts none of this would feel like a problem & you wouldn’t even be able to type those comments. Sit with yourself for 30 mins and do nothing, watch yourself, I guarantee there will be something happening. Follow that thread however uncomfortable.
im experiencing the same thing. i cant even conversate with my siblings or my close friends as i can never think of anything to say and i also tend to be thinking about why im thinking about nothing but nothing comes to mind. focusing is extremely difficult but the biggest effect it has on me is socialising and its very very frustrating, it feels like im the only 19 year old that i know that seems to have these shitty ass problems. just wish i could at least have a normal, flowing conversation with my best friend but no my brain doesnt seem to work that way
experiencing exactly the same thing I’m 19 as well this pretty much just started this year for me. you aren’t alone but it’s one of the worst things ever It’s made socializing basically impossible.
People assume I'm shy like I'm scared to talk but I literally have nothing to say in my mind to them. I was always frustrated with them but do understand that they don't know any better of this condition.
I don't even believe this whole shit is happening! I got so happy, i just found John this one guy in the world who had exactly the same shit going on with him that is going on with me, the only person in my life, that i could really relate to and even was the same age as i am, in fact he was only two weeks older than me and then i check the comments and get to know that this guy already took his life for a few months. It feels like i really lost someone. I have this same thing, bad memory, very few thoughts, feeling this emptyness in my head, my whole brain getting slower and most important - i never know what to say during a conversation, simply because there are no thoughts in my head. I have those same symptoms at a lower intensity than Johns, but back then, about when he took his life, i had those symptoms with about near intensity John had in this video. The consequences really is the worst part, my conversations with others where i am clueless about what to say, really is destroying my whole social life at the moment. I mean, i have a bad memory and no thoughts in my head, normally i would just say: "So what?" I would just accept it and laugh about it and tell people, that i had already forgoten where we went yesterday, it wouldn't be that bad. But the problem is as i said, the conversations and that is affecting my whole social life. Because of this, i can't just sit there with friends on a relaxing evening, chill and simply talk. Already losing all of my friends, because i'm isolating, although i know that this will make everything worse. Man... i feel shit... Having this long time now. I want to fix this so badly!!! So happy, if i'm not alone with this. This has to be fixed...
@@anaa7836 and Vanessa. Hope you'll do fine with this one day. I'm in a facebook group called loss of thought process, you could join. My name is Beed Cdry there. I'm so down
@@anaa7836 You know the funny thing is that I've always been someone with maximum hope, would never give up on anything but... after suffering my whole life with this and the past 7years very seriously with this, I'm 95% broken right now. I'm just stubborn never to do what John did but i'm worse as he is in the video. I got this sunken area around my eyes aswell now, I didn't have that a year ago
@@noone-he1ho currently I’ve found myself in this state of my mind where I find myself completely lost and confused (brain fog) where I can’t have proper thoughts naturally flow into my head. My thoughts are more forced than natural. I damn well near feel retarded. I think it has to do with me isolating myself too much, I never knew what isolation can truly do to you and and it’s an experience I didn’t think I would experience but here I am. I’ve made a realization where this state of mind isn’t actually permanent. what it is it has something to do with a form of anxiety and depression. When your in this state of my mind expect who you are and know that yes you do have these problems. I don’t know how your situation is like but I’m just telling you from my experience and what I’ve been doing to deal with this problem. I’ve been going outside more and meditation. Focusing on my though, no music, no phone, no nothing just me and me only. I’ve been trying to talk more but it’s sorta difficult. Write down your thoughts every moment you can and write down your thoughts as if someone was reading your thoughts, you’ll slowly start pulling yourself out of this state. I was thinking on taking therapy but I feel like they would put me on meds which I doubt will even help my problem . I’ve decided not to end my life but actually face my problems instead of running away from it, I’ve done that so many times and only realized that it was a self destructive state. I believe in you, who ever you are I know you’ll be able to make it through, you’ve made it far enough in life to get where you are and this is just a chapter in your life where your mind is putting you to the test. I hope my advice could help you :) Work out, write down your thoughts, spend more time outside and just mediate, have a self conversation (self talk has really been helping me out) talk to yourself and have a deep conversation about these situations as if you were your own best friend.
@@03kodahills88 im actually the same as you, visualization, memory and inner monologue are still there but my thoughts and emotions are kinda empty and im only experiencing this for a month and before my blank mind i was depressed and had negative selftalk so that could be the defense mechanism that is protecting my brain from all the negative things. i dont advice to meditate because ive heard that this state can be permanent because of it but the other things are definitely helpful.
i am currently suffering from the same problem i know this sounds irrational and cheesy but life will get better, you yourself will get better you will feel good emotions it will take time, it is the start of a long journey. but when theres life, there is a possibility, and this is coming from someone who hates life! I hope everything gets better but you should see someone about it.
Had this problem for 5 months in 1968. It went away after months of treatment with antipsychotics. The immediate effect was to make everything worse. Head went from almost entirely empty to entirely empty. Slowly, everything came back. YMMV, but it's worth a try. B vitamins and choline helped a little, but antipsychotics (Thorazine, Haldol, Fluphenazine etc.) were key.
@y d Only one drug at a time. Thorazine first. They then replaced it with Haldol, which had too many side effects. Finally settled on Fluphanazine. Haven't taken any such drugs in many... decades.
I have this same problem it's affecting my relationship with everything and everyone I feel so misunderstood. how do you tell people that your mind is blank without them thinking your a dumb psycho! question do you guys experience confusion and do things that don't make sense and slow movements. I'm sad I feel like my life has no direction!
Lolo Olol I get confusion specially with extreme dizziness and brain pressure ,sometimes doesn't make sense when ppl talk because it's like I can't process and automatically I just walk away or respond with a yes or no answer ,it's horrible it's unbelievable ,I never knew something like this was possible,I have been to dark places in my mind ,have no idea what's happening and why ,im tired of it ,I just want the old me back ,I miss my self 😢so much
Failed my last classes as a senior,but still earned 26 credits to graduate HS. I’m taking a gap year for college cuz who knows when there’ll be a available psychiatrist/general physician. I’m stuck at a minimum wage (11.50/hr) because I’m not capable of doing anything that requires mental effort; blank mind has definitely impaired my intelligence. Couldn’t get a diagnosis for ADHD or any thyroid disorder. I think a year is pretty reasonable for a deadline cuz I do not see myself continuing to live in this state.
Some context. I get chronic earworms and I have imaginary conversations with ppl in my head. They both are a substitute for actual thoughts. Otherwise, it’s just blank. During puberty, I had OCD like compulsions, but now I don’t which is just frustrating cuz it makes no sense to me.
Never in my life have I related to anything more than this. Thank you for sharing. As hard as this is, I do find comfort in knowing there’s more people out there struggling with this. I watched this with my husband and pointed out the pauses in speech you have that are exactly like what I do. Have you been able to find anything that helps?
Lizard my friend how are you and the community doing? It's been a while since I checked in on you, so give me a brief info about the status quo. Best regards, Julien
@@pooskiddy yes I'm ....i feel soo isolated .....i have 2 best friends ( we care for each other ).... so when we are in conference call both of them talk to each other while my mind will be completely blank i have no stories to share and all I could think is how are they full of thoughts 😞 Edit :
Eternal rest grant unto John, O Lord, and let perpetual light shine upon him. May the soul of the faithful departed through the mercy of God rest in peace. Amen.
I used to be more than competent and actually used to do public speaking quite often. But in my mid twenties, I started noticing a severe decrease in my cognitive ability and I go blank. I get anxiety trying to tell a story. I can barely get my point across to others without them exclaiming “just spit it out already!! Just say it!!” But I can’t. I can’t think about what i need to say because I’m so focused on just remembering what words I need to use to make up a coherent thought. By the time I find some words, I’ve forgotten the topic. When asked different questions, I cannot recall how to even answer them. It’s debilitating. I think it’s due to trauma? I need help. I don’t want to be like this anymore. I just want to speak a coherent sentence without pausing. I want to remember what I’m talking about so I can answer or respond even if I forget a word or two. I can’t think my own thoughts because I’m so busy trying to pay attention to what someone might be saying. I miss the clues that most people would pick up on easily which makes my ability to use critical thinking completely obsolete.
This made me cry because I experience this and it’s complete suffering. It made me cry because he killed himself so he must have not been able to get help for this affliction we all face here.
@@pengu1nmusic I think I could relate because I was exactly felt like I was still stuck in the same mind set and not changing while I still feel like I am the same back from the when I got this I try to progress but yet it's hard
TO ALL WHO STRUGGLE WITH THIS CONDITION: I Would suggest you start to practice mindfullness/zazen meditation. Then while in meditation or while not in meditation if you get thought of that you can't think or something similiar considering your condition/issue with your thinking ability. Don't identify with that thought, let it go. Also if you sense anything a feeling, a sensation, ANYTHING that feels like its connected to you not being able to think conscioussly DO-NOT-IDENTIFY with that, let it go. Also, if you can't sense which thought or sensation is that which prevents you from thinking; do not identify with any thought or sensation. There is something in your body, your system, your structure that is preventing your thoughts to "surface",appear on your consciouss mind, on your "mind's canvas". There is going on thinking process in you, it just isn't on consciouss level, its submerged. Foremost, dont expect the method to work instantly, be patient and keep practicing to let go -- meditation is good practice of letting go. Try this, please.
@@lizardluminals9324 I would recommed starting with the session lenght that you feel comfortable with talking about 5 minutes at first or so and gradually increase the amount. Your attitude towards your inner movement should be as sitting by the shore watching river slowly roll by. Be at ease which comes through not gettin involved with your inner movements(thoughts,feelings) aka. dont start to cling on/live/identify any movements of mind. The more you let go or in other words dont identify with thoughts or emotions the process ceases. Dont prevent or accept anything. Like best way to clear muddy water is that you let it settle by itself -- not doing anything to it.
Sometimes I blurt out words from my mouth and somehow make coherent sentences even though I'm not even thinking at all. My mind is blank yet I'm speaking. It's like my mouth is disconnected from my brain. I wish could control this because I hurt some people especially my loved ones with my mouth. I also am so quiet in certain situations such as school and work. During school and work, I hope my mouth speaks but it just doesn't speak. At home I'm normal and kinda mean, but in the outside world, I'm mute. I can only say a few words like yes or no. I feel like a bumbling idiot typing these words. I might have aspergers or autism idk. I was just venting about my current situation.
People think I overthink but its due to forgetting what they have just said to me and I have to make them repeat it. This is my mind blanking out and sadly leads to unnecessary arguments and stuff like that. I already forgot what I was trying to say. This is frustrating.
Lately my lifelong struggle with insomnia has been at it's worst, I share the same experiences with this man and all I can feel is fear and confusion. It really hurt me hearing how he ended his life and how many other people are thinking similarly. It sounds almost immature to suggest to people that they should persist and keep trying since I know how bad it can get. All I know is that I'm going to persist, and I hope others also make this vow to themselves. I am here for anyone who wants to talk about it, It's really hard to find someone who also has experience with the severities of insomnia.
Thank you for your encouraging message, this really means alot - it's really heartbreaking to know that John is no longer with us. :'( Its really sad was hoping that if we all send him enough emails he would find the strength to stay on but then again it must have been very overwhelming for him. Same here going to make the vow to persist no matter what even during the days when it feels tough because at least there are humans like you on this earth who share such encouraging thoughts. Even with a blank mind we can still make it through even with just a sliver of hope it is possible. As long as we keep trying to reach that light at the end of the day we can say to ourselves that we did our best.
@@poopskinniccer9992 what I had was basically a state of blankness of the mind I felt like I lost all my imagination I couldn't form thoughts couldn't feel emotions lacked any or all motivation to do anything
@y d yh that's why I figured it was depression cause once I interacted with more people and and did things that actually made me think a lot and made me feel happy I felt my mind clearing up
@@chimeraart3737 mine is with panic I do actually think but it is very hard to actually think without any distractions I try to force myself sometimes it will sometimes it won't
I've had this since 2011, and I'm still going through it but I've found some answers. I do believe it has something to do with sleep, I got diagnosed with sleep apnea. With a cpap machine its gradually getting better. also abstain from masturbating (as crazy as that sounds). You will feel better. 100% everything you said but with insomnia as well.
yeah no problem, you're not alone. I've literally been searching for what this is for like 5 years lol. From underactive thyroid to lyme disease. MRI came back normal. I looked on so many forums. I traced it back to sleep. Then I searched brain damage from obstructive sleep apnea, and I found that it is completely reversible. I hope that answers some questions. It's funny because I have another channel literally called "Blank Mind"
really? that's crazy, i hope you don't file for copyright infringement lol. i've done thyroid treatments and been tested for lyme as well. its good to hear that the damage is reversible though :)
I have the same problem, very very isolating. Although I will have these very brief moments throughout my week, literally like 2 hours maybe 3 or 4 of the week where everything works and I'm talking without it being so exhausting, and it's like you feel like a god, but that's how normal people already act.
I need help too, my family won’t believe me and they keep trying to explain what I’m feeling and how I’m being “dramatic”. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know if I should see like a doctor or something, but no one would believe me at all they think I’m just dumb
I almost cried upon learning that this beautiful human being had taken his own life. He was so young, I wish he could have lived longer. It's true that things will get better with time. I'm facing similar issues like this one, but I won't give up. Sometimes we focus too much on ourselves and forget that our struggles are insignificant compared to those of others. Remember that life is a test, and God promises that we will be rewarded eventually, either in this life or in the hereafter. Just be passionate. I also invite everyone to read about Islam. It's a beautiful religion, and I promise that if you read about it, everything in this life will make sense like everything. Please stay strong
I have the same issue and it started in 2022 March as far as I remember and just now every minute feels like a struggle, everyday it gets worse and worser feels like its almost killing my thinking and learning ability , when it started I thought it will just go in few days but it's been years now in this situation , also pretending in physical life that I'm fine but inside it's a different story , but I'm hope I find some way out of it , it's almost changed my mindset that I can never go back to what I was before feels like no chance , but yes we can only hope for best
bro I feel the same, u describe being like a shitty Npc in a game, just fucking blank till something real comes by to make say my lines until they leave
Same here, im 20,5. I don't think i've dp/dr but the problem i have is that i definitely don't have automatic/spontaneous thoughts. I mean, there is no thought comming up to my head without my control. I can, t have them naturally flow into my head, if i have to think i have to force myself, its very frustrating and unnatural. My mind is blank almost all days, i lost interest in everything. I have this for 7 months, and i feel like its getting worse. Everything started from extreme OCD and racing thoughts, i had a lot of stress, also i was worrying a lot, i had a lack from sleep (like no sleep for days, or not too much) and i finally ended with this state of mind. And now my ocd, anxiety, racing thoughts are gone, what I was worried about before, I don't care anymore, but my blank mind is still left. I also remember i was overthinking something that was very stressful for me, i was thinking only and only about it, analyzing it, couldn, t sleep for days from this. I realized many times that it was Just a self destruction. I, ve never been to any psychiatrist/psychologist with this, because i really doubt that they could help me with this. I dont think that there are any meds which could help get my thoughts back, also they maybe may don, t know what it is, or if it exists. I don, t want suicide, but im not planning living like this longer. Its destroying my life, piece by piece. Everyday is hell since it started. Is there something what i should/can do to get my spontaneous thoughts come back? I dont think that i had any trauma, but just everyday chronic stress, i, ve been having headaches from stress too. I just hope that this state of mind is not actually pernament...
Hi, im 21 and it just happened to me, OCD, sleep deprivation, stress and isolation and abuse and its causing me my mind to dissociation or brain fog where i can't have proper thoughts naturally flow into my head. Memory, visualization and inner monologue are still here but my thoughts and emotions are kinda empty. My thoughts are more forced than natural. My mind is so blank now that i can't even think of doing an suicide attempt. Im really scared.
Sorry for the long ass comment but if you are tired of this state of mind I might have a solution for you. I had this for a while when I was struggling with depression and what i would call depersonalization due to trauma. (First I want to say trauma is different for everyone. For me it was growing up (changing schools), to be honest. I think I wasnt equipped with the tools of dealing with my emotions early on. Anyways, just before I went into this "zombie" state👆 I was struggling with lots of self harm and negative self talk. I was truly my own worst enemy and I think it became too much for my mind.) So that's a bit about me. Now how I came to get out of this state of mind. First step, nr 0, is to have a desire to escape this state of mind, and by desire I mean willing to truly TRY and do these steps and show up for yourself. The fact that you looked up this video shows you are still interested in understanding yourself. Find that spark of desperation to get out of this terrible state, and one day have a real life full of love. If yoy don't try, you will end up dead. 1. Guided meditations, especially the type called "body scanning". Often these types of meditations will instruct you to focus on sensations you feel in the body. I did not feel anything the first time i tried body scan, my body felt completely numb. You might not feel anything the second time or third time but keep trying since you are introducing yourself, and your body, to the idea that it's safe to feel emotions - this might feel unsafe at first but keep trying. Try saying aloud "It's safe for me to feel my emotions. They can't hurt me." Because, rationally, you know that your feelings cant hurt you. It's all in how you decide to react to these emotions (with aceptancce or self harm?). Emotions are powerful. Personally, it was very tough to feel my emotions at first. I felt alone and very depressed, like life was meaningless. I lay under the covers in my bed and was miserable but, I did it. I let myself FEEL that terrible feeling. So feeling was the first step to getting my thoughts back, because the two are connected. 2.The next step for me was manifesting love for myself into my life. I realized I was desperate for compassion in my life, I started reading lots of literature on how to become friends with myself. Google is your friend. Look up "Breathwork". Look up meditations for releasing emotions. I can give you tips if interested, just write to me im happy to help. The final step in which I truly got my ~free flow of thoughts~ thoughts back, was: 3. Loving relations to other people. This might seem far away now, but I promise you, there is a time for you too, if you decide to give yourself the chance. This is when my life really started to regain colour. This is a once in a life time decision to make. Will you: 1. Keep "living" your life w/o thoughts and emotions? 2. Commit suicide? 3. Give yourself the chance to experience love and warmth and safety?
Hi there, thank you for sharing something that gives a level of hope. i think i've been dealing with this for some time and its numbed and isolated me left right and centre. what else helped you and how long did you practice these methods? were you employed etc? thank you.
I can totally relate to this dude...he is not the only one(i mean wow i am NOT the only one) although i paused the video to write this but i just couldnt contain myself i didnt got here by accident i was actually looking for someone I can reletate at least.especially (what i realy miss that isnt there anymore)IMAGES, no thoughts at all blank blank eventualy leading to a psychotic state..i am on the brink of suicide cos this is not life... i think of it every day to the point that "ok ill spend another pathetic day waching other peoples videos weird lifestyle mentalities so on,,,playin a bit a mmo i like and when il have had enough (cause sometimes i get so sick of my mind set and consider myself garbage leftovers of a beautiful boy with a beautiful mind that was AND this ) me on the top of the building i live in"id be like Wooow So this is me here its still dark in my mind nothing moves at all im still empty heeeei!
It's so relieving to hear that I'm not alone in experiencing this, however I'm so sorry that others have to deal with this as well.... What does your psychiatrist say about a lifetime of DPDR? I've also felt like this most of my life. I had a brief, two month recovery following a brutal breakup.... I've been diagnosed with depression but it feels more like DPDR from what I've read and your video. I hope you're still hanging in there!
im scared it just happened to me, ocd, stress, lack of sleep i had also symptoms of depression and isolation and rumination aswell and its unliveable in any way
This is me.. although I do have memories they are completely black, totally lacking in colour. I certainly would not be able to talk the way you have. There is something called APHANTASIA, which is being studied at Exeter university, which may develop some answers.
I have seen lots of videos now on blank mind syndrome but this is the only one that really speaks to me. It isn't just sometimes, it's all the time. I don't remember my life I feel nothing for the world around me. It doesn't surprise me he commited suicide.
I have my moments that my mind go's total blank. It happens a lot, like 5,10 or more times in a day. It's anoying, but sometime it's feels good to think about nothing. The moment I have it the most, is when my mother is talking about suicide. My mind goes total blank and idc about it. Only after a few min, I have the feeling like im bad beceas idc. So i whent to a therapist and she said it was a stress disorder that kicks in to survive. So what happens i block all my thoughts and feelings away to survive / make it easy er in that situation. But yeah, it's not only on stress full moments, so i just live with it. I know my blank mind is not that bad, but for the others who have it so worse that they can't think even think for 5min. I say goodluck to find something against it. ✌
Does anybody have like a complete blank mind like no thoughts, no inner monologue, no appetite, no cravings, no wants, no desires, no anything I’ve been living like this since last year in the middle of march most likely from stressing too much, and I don’t know if I’ll ever get better or I’ll just live like this forever and just die like this, and I can’t even stress about it either but just asking can anyone relate to me?
@@districth2826 and also I’m trying this subliminal to see if it will help for me or not and it helped for this one person who have the same the blank mind and DPDR which has also cause my blank mind it’s called “Depersonalization and Derealization Recovery” I hope that helps and give you some faith!
What is this condition, how to fix it? I've been dealing with it for months now and it's affecting every aspect of my life, destroying piece by piece. I need help.
I find it hard to articulate this problem properly, I think it may have something to do with Anxiety and a lesser extent Depression. Is there a specific term for this condition? Also this blank state I find myself in seemed to be triggered by abuse I went through when I was about 8 followed by an extended time of isolation, has anybody suffering from this gone through a similar traumatic event or have been isolated and in extended periods of rumination?
This is literally exactly what I’m going through. Yes it does have to do something with anxiety. Yes it does have to do something with less depression. Isolation and abuse. I just don’t know how to get through it
I would love to create a discord if anyone would like that (though I know things like that already exist, they're quite cliquey) I don't know anyone who has the same symptoms, and everyone I do know I have a gradually weakening relationship with as a result of forgetfullness and lack of communication and wit.
Holy shit i completely empathize with this. I used to be able to be able to communicate freely and eloquently without much thought but now it seems like such a chore to even drag myself through small talk. No internal monologue, nothing. An absence of personality. I dont even know if i exist anymore.
I’m dealing with this as well. I used to be so outgoing and fun but due to social isolation it’s like my whole personality just went away. Now my mind is blank and it’s hard for me to make or maintain a conversation I have now idea what’s going on with me🤦🏾♂️
Same here, im 20,5. I don't think i've dp/dr but the problem i have is that i definitely don't have automatic/spontaneous thoughts. I mean, there is no thought comming up to my head without my control. I can, t have them naturally flow into my head, if i have to think i have to force myself, its very frustrating and unnatural. My mind is blank almost all days, i lost interest in everything. I have this for 7 months, and i feel like its getting worse. Everything started from extreme OCD and racing thoughts, i had a lot of stress, also i was worrying a lot, i had a lack from sleep (like no sleep for days, or not too much) and i finally ended with this state of mind. And now my ocd, anxiety, racing thoughts are gone, what I was worried about before, I don't care anymore, but my blank mind is still left. I also remember i was overthinking something that was very stressful for me, i was thinking only and only about it, analyzing it, couldn, t sleep for days from this. I realized many times that it was Just a self destruction. I, ve never been to any psychiatrist/psychologist with this, because i really doubt that they could help me with this. I dont think that there are any meds which could help get my thoughts back, also they maybe may don, t know what it is, or if it exists. I don, t want suicide, but im not planning living like this longer. Its destroying my life, piece by piece. Everyday is hell since it started. Is there something what i should/can do to get my spontaneous thoughts come back? I dont think that i had any trauma, but just everyday chronic stress, i, ve been having headaches from stress too. I just hope that this state of mind is not actually pernament...
I'm afraid this might be happening to me. Not gonna explain much but feels like my brains are shutting down. Like my mind feels like it's shrinking and everyday it's harder for me to concentrate. Me and my friends have noticed my god like gaming skills and focus going shit and I cant think of anything cause it takes alot of energy to focus on just what imma do next in the game. Its kinda scary cause im already forgetting how having brains felt like and idk its even hard to type now ive couple times just typed something and then looking and being like wtf am i typing. I used to think every angle before saying anything but now I just say anything whenever I feel like. I barely believe in god but not closing the possibility for his existense but ive fought against this stuff for about a year and i feel super drained and now I'm just praying like some helpless pathetic sheep. Ive been to many neurologic specialists but nothing has come up to help my condition. Nice i said not gonna explain much but that's something. I just want my fucking brains back like wtf I also used to feel super free and used to be a gifted kid. I was good at everything and yea but now My mind feels super limited and my brain power and jusg everything i feel super limited and its just getting worse.
I'm going through the same experience here people but there was a time when I wasn't feeling all of those symptoms and that was then I smoked weed n soon as I stopped my mind went blank again
Hey dude I literally have the same problem completely blank but with no emotions also it's literally not liveable in any way shape or form could I get in touch with you?
Blank Mind ..dude I can't believe I'm not alone! I've been dealing with this bullshit for as long as I can remember. it's literally a curse. I've actually thought about creating a facebook group to find like-minded people. would you be interested?
Everyday second of everyday been forced to live in agony. You won't even know until it's to late when people force feed you nothings wrong especially while your brains developing i bet. hah the worst part is that these 160 iq fucks know exactly what they are doing.
I can't watch TV properly I can't even do anything when I have this but I do get back than I go back to being blank minded I been looking for this for day and still could not know what happen
