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My Daily Routine as a Recovering Addict 

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hello thank u for watching !!!! i've never filmed one of these "a day in my life" videos, and decided to do one now that so much has been changing in my life. Due to the timing, i decided to shape it around my recovery from active addiction. But in addition to this just show my daily life with my animals n such. ***ALSOOO i forgot to edit in the bit where i turn all my animals lights on but in the morning i also turn in bindi's, twisty's, and sabor's lights. woops.
credit to / billwurtz for the piece of garbage audio during the intro lmao :')
*This video isn't about how addiction works, but just about my own experience, but my next two videos on this channel will discuss the cycle of addiction and how it works, and looking back on a timeline of the progression of my own illness!*
i also talk in this video about what early recovery looks like in general, and the steps commonly followed to take advantage of everything the recovery community has to offer (I include a timestamp in the video to skip this part if ur not interested in this information).
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MAIN CHANNEL: / @taylorndean
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ok i'm aboutta rant because i'm super passionate about all of this lol
****I state this in the video as much as I can, but the list of steps i mention are only suggestions to take advantage of every layer of programs that the recovery community has to offer to transition you back into daily life, they are by no means a list a person MUST follow to achieve sobriety. This list just offers the most opportunities to help you, because it starts you in the most protection (rehab) and slowly gives you more and more time back to your personal life outside of recovery so you can stay safe. Rehab is only the first step, not a solution to your problem. Discovering you battle addiction isn't like coming down with the flu, seeing a doctor, and being sent on your way to jump right back into life as normal. It's an illness you have to learn how to manage continuously and will continue to present itself in your life even when you are sober. Due to this, rehab will get you sober, but not keep you sober. What you do when you leave rehab is what really will determine your success, which is why even though all these programs may seem like a lot, they really do shape you for success by giving you so much support in your day-to-day life and personal challenges. Again, I'm not saying you need to do everything on this list. Some people can manage sobriety just by going to occasional meetings and seeing a personal therapist. Others need a lot more help. the illness of addiction is a spectrum and some people don't need as much "treatment" as others, and no matter where you are on the scale there IS help and you CAN accomplish sobriety!

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Комментарии : 5 тыс.   
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 года назад
Thank u everyone for watchin. I messed up with a lil bit of the editing but oh well. Also forgot to put the caption under the part with my hedgehogs saying they’re getting a bunch more enrichment for their new cage. Whenever I move back out they’re being going in their old 160gallon cage, it’s just temporary! Also I forgot to edit in the clip of me turning the lights on in the morning I think ??? (I didn’t see it so if I missed it nvm) ps I got my shirt from omighty clothing for those asking!!! ❤️ ANYWAYS, new video on my main channel in about 3 days and then hopefully again on Sunday, and then another second channel video next week. Love you guys thank you again 🥺🥺
@saveriopanaccione996
@saveriopanaccione996 4 года назад
Taylor Dean Vlogs your so beautiful
@BornAgainFarmGirl
@BornAgainFarmGirl 4 года назад
Taylor we are here to see how your doing , not your edits . Some of the latest skin treatments are actually really hard on your skin and can cause premature aging . You’re beautiful naturally , a real cutie 🥰 .
@robertmoore1123
@robertmoore1123 4 года назад
I have a friend in recovery and in drug court. I know it's hard as hell. Most poeple just don't know how hard it is ...n
@Nicole-qh4qz
@Nicole-qh4qz 4 года назад
U go sis. Also ur short hair is so badass, you look like female kobain (sorry if youve heard that before 😩)
@Asmith121209
@Asmith121209 4 года назад
You are gorgeous and an inspiration! Whenever I feel down I watch your videos bc they always make me feel better.
@trackgurl123
@trackgurl123 4 года назад
Ugh. I felt that hygiene part. It's so hard to get out of bed and shower in a severe depression. It's the worst. You're brother quoting The Waterboy was EVERYTHING.
@kms1011
@kms1011 4 года назад
Luc same. I can go days (even weeks when i’m in a really bad place) without showering, But i always brush my teeth.
@trackgurl123
@trackgurl123 4 года назад
@Luc that is the one thing I will do. Brush my teeth. But shower...or brush out this curly hair..or putting on clothes...nope. lol
@themelissaeileen
@themelissaeileen 4 года назад
I love Tanner so much!! ❤️
@chesseeggspotatoes2420
@chesseeggspotatoes2420 4 года назад
Y’all nasty. Go wash that ass 😂
@iLoveTheBamx
@iLoveTheBamx 4 года назад
Chesseeggs&potatoes lol wish it was that easy. Easier said that done tbh
@aesthetickait31
@aesthetickait31 4 года назад
“I don’t go out much in my life so if I’m gonna look hot for my therapy. I’m gonna look hot for my therapy.” This is the most relatable thing I’ve ever heard.
@HettieB8
@HettieB8 4 года назад
Isn't it 😂😂😂😂😂
@marthanewsome6375
@marthanewsome6375 4 года назад
So guess you are just it's all about me person. Hope you don't have pets or children.
@minahraven
@minahraven 4 года назад
@@marthanewsome6375 or maybe they're not and you're just judging on one simple comment, with no knowledge of their reasoning or background.
@worshipcatalyst1
@worshipcatalyst1 4 года назад
Sometimes I dress up for my support group. It's rad.
@behappy9591
@behappy9591 4 года назад
@@marthanewsome6375 if you feel like that then stay off her channel it's not that hard. People don't need to hear your negative at all. She is getting her life together. So if you don't got nothing nice to say then DNT say shit at all. Better yet stay off her channel.
@ChantelleSchmidlin
@ChantelleSchmidlin 4 года назад
I love how she still cares so much about her animals even tho she has to really care about herself.
@JoeBlow-ub1us
@JoeBlow-ub1us 4 года назад
animals help trust me
@ethereal1216
@ethereal1216 4 года назад
she isn’t taking the best care of her pets though
@UnderworldSelene01
@UnderworldSelene01 4 года назад
Um her pets die like flies.. there is tons of proof how bad she treat animals
@renatagoncalves4576
@renatagoncalves4576 4 года назад
@@UnderworldSelene01 she did when she was still using drugs, she rehomed 12 animals and is trying to take better care of them. come on, she was ill, this is not a joke. did you watch her first video about it? she literally said that she bought too many animals, she was kinda manic.
@renatagoncalves4576
@renatagoncalves4576 4 года назад
people have no empathy for her situation, omg
@Mountaingrly2513
@Mountaingrly2513 3 года назад
“I don’t go out much but if I’m going to look hot for my therapy, then I’m going to look hot for my therapy.” As an introvert I felt this.
@desertgirl3374
@desertgirl3374 3 года назад
Same
@kaylynzamora
@kaylynzamora 3 года назад
Same
@sacredsiren
@sacredsiren 4 года назад
The fact that she called it a "cow outfit" and not a "cowfit" is a tragic missed opportunity
@elsab379
@elsab379 4 года назад
sacredsiren i guess you could call it a missed steak
@kennedychristina4226
@kennedychristina4226 4 года назад
elsa b 🤣🤣🤣
@whitneyisanerd
@whitneyisanerd 4 года назад
@@elsab379 You deserve a standing ovation.
@sythepie
@sythepie 4 года назад
yes
@RikaMakara
@RikaMakara 3 года назад
Also tragic, instead of pecan comic, they missed the opportunity to say “pecomic.” Bahahaaa!
@Sam-rn9di
@Sam-rn9di 4 года назад
You mentioned that the last step of recovery is to continue attending meetings as often as life allows. It made me think of my aunt. She has been sober for 30 years now. She still attends meetings twice a week diligently. Won't make plans on those afternoons because "I already have meeting." My aunt can honestly say she does not have cravings anymore. She still goes for the people like you Taylor, and all of the other young people who may feel lost in their recovery. She goes to meetings to show young recovering addicts that 30 years of sobriety is POSSIBLE and that addiction is not a death sentence. I am so proud of her. I'm proud of you too, Taylor. I can only imagine how difficult recovery must be when you are in the limelight like this.
@KaylaRene
@KaylaRene 4 года назад
Same with my dad. He'll have 19 years in February. (God willing; I know there are no fronts in recovery.)
@Mini-rt8bm
@Mini-rt8bm 4 года назад
Wow love this!!!
@jazwhoaskedforthis
@jazwhoaskedforthis 4 года назад
Yo, tell her she’s probably saving lives just by doing that. I’m sure she probably knows though
@j.sargent9172
@j.sargent9172 4 года назад
I'm 3 weeks clean, cold turkey. First time in 5 years
@mikaella.mikaaa
@mikaella.mikaaa 4 года назад
Keep going
@leonaswift3834
@leonaswift3834 4 года назад
Yess that’s so good. Are you seeking support?
@leonaswift3834
@leonaswift3834 4 года назад
Yess that’s so good. Are you seeking support?
@j.sargent9172
@j.sargent9172 4 года назад
@@leonaswift3834 so far I haven't, but I dont do well with NA and stuff. Im good until they start talking about Jesus then I head out.. And rehab costs too much since I dont have insurance..
@mikasaackerman1410
@mikasaackerman1410 4 года назад
Wish you the best success in staying clean!
@joi1346
@joi1346 4 года назад
I relate to this so much, when you’re mom said “you’re all clean” it made me happy, when I was in rehab my mom called to check on me and when the nurse told her I was in the shower she cried, i hadn’t been taking care of myself in so long, it meant so much to her just that I was showering. Keep up the good work, 3 years clean here, we’re so proud of you!
@mariiamghazy
@mariiamghazy Год назад
Hope all the best for you!
@Natalie-le5os
@Natalie-le5os 4 года назад
I am so proud of u wtf, to be this honest and vulnerable on the internet is so dope. wishing u the best and sending u healing energy
@purplepeggy9027
@purplepeggy9027 4 года назад
Natalie Romero No pun intended? 😉
@UNKNOWNPERSON-gf9ys
@UNKNOWNPERSON-gf9ys 4 года назад
@@purplepeggy9027 smh that was messed up
@purplepeggy9027
@purplepeggy9027 4 года назад
《UNKNOWN》 《PERSON》 No,it eas funny. Guess what I am very likely much older & wiser than you. no offence dear. But, I've been thru it up & down & all around. If you can't bring humor to it. Your really in trouble. Please, there is NOTHING you can say that would change my thoughts. I am at tbe very far other end now. & someday she will be. But, this whst posting comnents is all about. voicing our opinions. And hoping to agree to Disagree at times. Take care.
@UNKNOWNPERSON-gf9ys
@UNKNOWNPERSON-gf9ys 4 года назад
@@purplepeggy9027 seeing that you can't even spell "is" correctly I would say that I am probably much older and wiser than you are "dear" 😊 have a nice day.
@purplepeggy9027
@purplepeggy9027 4 года назад
《UNKNOWN》 《PERSON》 That's what you came up with? A typo? 😝😝😝👎🏻
@ramennoodlebabey6945
@ramennoodlebabey6945 4 года назад
when you were talking about hygiene i immediately thought"i havent showered in a week" and went to shower so? thank you for reminding me i guess? i have major depressive disorder and hygiene is usually my last thought because i dont have the energy
@aloluccak.8303
@aloluccak.8303 4 года назад
Like same. I am just taking a bath
@colleennewholy9026
@colleennewholy9026 4 года назад
I have Bipolar, and yes... I feel like I don't keep up with my hygiene. Bleh.
@ckat1111
@ckat1111 4 года назад
It's only been four days, but I'm replying for a lil reminder about your hygiene :)
@laneboy3220
@laneboy3220 4 года назад
I'm proud of everyone here in the comments, I struggle with the same things as everyone here. It feels good to not be alone and I'm so proud of you all :)
@chichan4461
@chichan4461 4 года назад
Same, that was me in the summer (my depression gets bad in summertime) but now that the school year has started im starting to force myself a bit more.
@riley4301
@riley4301 4 года назад
my parents are on heroin. it got so bad I was homeless and had to move in with my grandma. I don't even see them anymore and I still struggle with it sometimes but you can't help someone who doesn't want help. addiction is a terrible thing but i'm glad some people get a second start and get to live out a sober life!
@Lightforeverandever
@Lightforeverandever 4 года назад
Are u alright
@littleblondemop
@littleblondemop 4 года назад
I'm sorry:( I stumbled on her other channel because she was walking her adorable furbabies....had no idea about this channel. I've never had addictions. I hope things are good with your grandma and hope your parents change someday
@ashleys4263
@ashleys4263 4 года назад
I’m so sorry! I know it seems really difficult right now! Things can get better for you. My parents did drugs for a long time. Luckily they’ve been sober several years now. Things can change. Just work hard and focus on making your life as great as possible. I really feel for you!
@kendraramirez7435
@kendraramirez7435 4 года назад
riley r I feel you both my parents have been on heroin since I was born now I’m 11 and live with my. Grandma
@5050TM
@5050TM 4 года назад
@@dontrellwilliams7246 No, you don't have to wait until you're 18. You can get emancipated from them if you are 16+. Please contact other people in your family yourself also if you can as it is NOT safe for you to be around an addict. If you can't, or don't wish to do the above, please at least visit your School Guidance Counselor and fully explain the situation. This is more common than you think so don't be embarrassed, but you need to be in a stable living situation for the sake of your mental and emotional health.
@qluna6837
@qluna6837 4 года назад
The hardest thing for me was guilt. After getting sober all the guilt just hit me.
@jennharper872
@jennharper872 4 года назад
Oh my gosh I know right like I've been sober for a year and legit when I started feeling guilty it was a week before my Birthday in March. 2019 I cried so much.
@leahyao9414
@leahyao9414 4 года назад
I agree as well, the guilt is the worst part of sobriety. However, it kills me using as well. So there's literally no reprieve for me either way. The only difference is that sober I know that I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing for my kids. When I'm using, the fact that I'm still fucking my kids off is a huge part the guilt so it's terrible to feel everyday. But then I know I did it to myself so I think I deserve to feel the way I do and it's a vicious cycle.
@elizabethvaughn5694
@elizabethvaughn5694 4 года назад
Yoooooo yes. I'm 3 years sober and I can still start sobbing if I think about what I put my mother thru. It breaks my heart. the pure and utter shaaame is unbearable
@romama647
@romama647 4 года назад
Dam. it hurts. but I guess it helps to see I'm not alone after reading this small thread
@qluna6837
@qluna6837 4 года назад
I’ve been clear for years. I didn’t want to count the days or years but I know it’s more then four years. Now I crave being sober, there’s was a point I never thought I’d stop doing drugs. Now I can’t imagine not being sober.
@cold.raviolis
@cold.raviolis 4 года назад
More people need to understand how much of a struggle hygiene can be
@melliethemortician
@melliethemortician 4 года назад
Honestly, I have depression and when its really bad ill go weeks without showering, brushing my hair etc bc its so tiring and just physically and emotionally tiring but people never see that side of it. Its so normal for us but never talked about due to shame.
@blanknone5408
@blanknone5408 4 года назад
Get over yourselves
@bgdhfytgy135
@bgdhfytgy135 4 года назад
@@blanknone5408 oh shut up damn
@imthatyeetedfetus8113
@imthatyeetedfetus8113 4 года назад
None Blank u obviously haven’t been through anything and if u haven’t been through it, don’t comment on it and act like u know about it. dickhead
@ZZ-uf1fs
@ZZ-uf1fs 4 года назад
None Blank we all know you are an insecure little shit. Be quiet.
@emmalee6524
@emmalee6524 4 года назад
Finally, someone who actually acknowledges that things aren't just right back to normal after addiction.
@magpie9341
@magpie9341 4 года назад
Whole new life, scary but worth it!! ❤
@ernestgonzalez9539
@ernestgonzalez9539 4 года назад
Lol what? It's common knowledge that withdrawal, and recovery after is very much an uncomfortable and mentally straining struggle. Besides, she's full of shit, she takes zero responsibility for her own choices to use opiates and instead blames her ex. Then feeds on all of these suckers calling her brave and courageous and blah blah blah. That's how she continues to justify passing the blame, because she's just as much addicted to all this attention as she is heroin.
@christadelancy2012
@christadelancy2012 4 года назад
Ernest Gonzalez wow someone else who isn't brainwashed by her, finally. She blames everything on her ex takes no personal accountability whatsoever she is not a good role model for anyone in recovery
@ernestgonzalez9539
@ernestgonzalez9539 4 года назад
@@christadelancy2012 Oh no, I'm very far from being brain washed by someone who's that obviously full of shit. I'm astounded at how many people blindly believe, support, and defend her like they know she's innocent and compassionate. I completely agree with you! I came across her when my fiancee asked my opinion of her drug stories, and said she couldn't stand her lack of accountability. Her claim of consistently using Heroin because it's her BF's favorite is one of the dumbest excuses I've ever heard for using. Shit, or the real reason she made a video demonizing her ex (who's obviously a piece of shit) 100% wasn't to warn others, she did it because she's upset that he left her and knocked up some other girl. She doesn't care about other people, definitely doesn't give a flying fuck about victims of the same abuse she claims to have endured. She was antagonizing his past victims online after being told by MANY people that he's dangerous. She didn't care cause his attention was on her. And even that psychopath got sick of her dramatic attention seeking bullshit. The fact that she thought people would believe her bullshit reasoning shows her stupid and selfish nature. Anyone who's dealt with heroin immediately recognizes her bullshit. Initially I was bugged because I despise liars and attention seekers, but after looking into her more I'm completely disgusted by who she really is, because of what she's done and how she constantly passes the blame for EVERYTHING. The worst is how many animals she killed because she views them as objects. She doesn't care about these animals, but she knows she needs people to believe she does. I mean who the fuck kills a kitten by trapping it in a bathroom and not taking care of it? She fucking does! Many many more as well because she would literally hoard them for videos and do little to no research on what they require. She's a total piece of shit and her actions as well as the excuses that followed are seriously upsetting. Anybody who's abusing and killing animals to stroke her own ego and feed on the attention she craves so badly is a piece of shit. Every one of her stans calling her brave and courageous gives her the justification she was fishing for to continue lying, playing a victim, being a total attention suck and worst of all to keep killing animals. Fuck that stupid slut.
@dustinclark8388
@dustinclark8388 4 года назад
Ernest Gonzalez “anyone who’s actually dealt with heroin immediately recognizes her bullshit” so true man. I would gain a lot more respect for her if she took responsibility for her addiction instead of blaming her ex
@AW-qz4kk
@AW-qz4kk 4 года назад
i really appreciate how genuine and transparent she has become.
@lesley-annfenwick
@lesley-annfenwick 4 года назад
Same
@MrsBear-sv6wo
@MrsBear-sv6wo 4 года назад
Likewise ☺
@paulinevanchhawng9185
@paulinevanchhawng9185 3 года назад
I know❤️
@briannavictoria7252
@briannavictoria7252 4 года назад
i'm not an addict, but i do have severe depression and anxiety. i started watching this while still laying in bed at 1pm, and it motivated me to get up and eat something. i even threw my sheets in the dryer and took my medicine. you are doing so well considering the hell youre probably going through, thank you for sharing your journey like this
@monkeynumbernine
@monkeynumbernine 4 года назад
I was in treatment for 2 years. Of course, I was a meth addict for over 20 years. I've been free from all of that for 12+ years. 💞
@lvasquez2978
@lvasquez2978 4 года назад
Amazing. Keep up the great work love. You are worth it🖤
@karisgreen1009
@karisgreen1009 4 года назад
Wow well done!! Keep it up, you're doing amazingly❤️
@babygoose8716
@babygoose8716 4 года назад
monkeynumber nine that’s amazing! Good for you! ❤️
@KELUIX
@KELUIX 4 года назад
!!! Dude that's awesome! Keep it up!! We're all proud of u
@uoxanna945
@uoxanna945 4 года назад
good job! so proud of you
@casssurf1719
@casssurf1719 4 года назад
My dad (Russell) started using when I was 3 months old . He died when I was 19 but I lost him way before that. Not everyone recovers, that’s what makes each recovery story special ❤️
@marshiemellow
@marshiemellow 4 года назад
Cass Surf Glad you view it through a positive window❤️❤️
@romama647
@romama647 4 года назад
yea that was the most unexpected reversal I think I've ever read. Makes me think your am writer/author.
@doingme8384
@doingme8384 4 года назад
God bless her dad. May he Rest In Peace.
@doingme8384
@doingme8384 4 года назад
My dad was the same way by the way, heroin addict even before I was a child. He died when I was about 19 too, surprisingly. But like you said, I lost him before that. It sucks. Addiction is horrible. I’m an addict now too. But I am high functioning and care for my family. It’s so weird how it affects everyone differently.
@casssurf1719
@casssurf1719 4 года назад
Just Me Bless you, sending lots of love your way ❤️
@Ashak2001
@Ashak2001 4 года назад
I haven't showered in three days and I havent left my house properly in about three weeks. Mental illness sucks. Proud of you for being sober
@jessicam3468
@jessicam3468 4 года назад
Asha King ❤️❤️❤️❤️
@ciara4087
@ciara4087 4 года назад
take all the time you need pal, just remember it always isn't as bad out there as you think. baby steps. all the love x
@meljstephan
@meljstephan 4 года назад
Sending all my positive vibes your way
@witch7530
@witch7530 4 года назад
I feel you. Keep living that’s all that matters take your time on everything else 💞 you’ll get to where you need to be
@watchaone4400
@watchaone4400 4 года назад
Yes its easy to get caught up but have you ever got into a shower and afterwards feel so much better plus if you stay in bed your mucles get week and you end up being tired so prayers going out to anyone who suffers from this but stat strong we need you ,peace.
@HeathersWorld
@HeathersWorld 4 года назад
omggggg this brings back memories of being in a sober living house, doing outpatient treatment, going to court, having ankle bracelet, and etc. 6 years later still sober! i wouldn't change any of it. good luck on your journey girl!
@tootsmay4420
@tootsmay4420 4 года назад
Congratulations! I was 6 years clean and sober it felt so amazing. I relapsed at 6 years clean and sober and I never thought I would use again. It started off with moderation for about 8 months which i didnt think was possible until it was no longer possible for me. My point is keep going sobriety is so much better anyway. I had 67 days then relapsed for months and now have 7 days!!!
@HeathersWorld
@HeathersWorld 4 года назад
@@tootsmay4420I get it i have my struggles too, im rooting for you, you got this! thats what scares me it can happen at anytime.
@1hollig1
@1hollig1 3 года назад
Congratulations!!!
@vleaky3430
@vleaky3430 7 месяцев назад
Keep up the good work sis
@unnamedxx
@unnamedxx 4 года назад
I stopped following Taylor on everything like a year ago but this video randomly popped up in my recommendations and I’m so glad I clicked on it. I genuinely missed her and I’m so glad she’s doing better. I’m proud of her.
@anyonebluejay5597
@anyonebluejay5597 4 года назад
Same here, yeah. I just wanted to see her trying to do better, and I'm really glad that she is, and she has a good attitude on everything.
@CierraCrochets
@CierraCrochets 4 года назад
Uh Huh as
@desireabrown6255
@desireabrown6255 4 года назад
I love how you talked about hygiene in early recovery. I could handle massive life issues with a poker face but doing a load of laundry or dishes was seriously overwhelming. I had to learn how to live everyday life and take care of myself again. Its still a struggle sometimes but facing it and tackling one thing at a time head on is the key for me. Take it one day at a time you're doing great!!!❤❤❤
@kdaze10
@kdaze10 4 года назад
Same with the hygiene...I would go days without brushing my teeth or washing my hair...dry shampoo was my bff...lol. I'm slowly getting better... but there are days when it is still a struggle to get out of bed...especially when the depression is hitting hard. I've been on methadone for 1 year....but only completely clean from opiates for 4 months...and some would say I'm still using bc of the methadone...but it's through a doctor...and it works for me when for 10 years nothing worked to keep me clean...so I'll take it.
@colleenwren2106
@colleenwren2106 4 года назад
Same girl 💕
@dmxlovesmenotu
@dmxlovesmenotu 4 года назад
@@kdaze10 we can be 90% made of dry shampoo still its OK! We clean!
@kinsey987
@kinsey987 4 года назад
@@kdaze10 dry shampoo is the best/worst thing thats has ever happened to me omfg
@kristamonroe9120
@kristamonroe9120 4 года назад
Fully agree. A life without heroin was a life with no energy. Still a year and half later - I’m still facing days where I canNOT bring myself to accomplish menial house chores or apply makeup.
@LaurenMca
@LaurenMca 4 года назад
I’m going on 10 years clean this year.
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 года назад
OMG CONGRATS THAT IS HUGE
@billbailey8628
@billbailey8628 4 года назад
Is clean with prescriptions or clean with nothing?
@brianna3340
@brianna3340 4 года назад
Congrats!
@leonardthebeardeddragon2317
@leonardthebeardeddragon2317 4 года назад
That’s amazing!!!! ✨
@romama647
@romama647 4 года назад
bastard. i mean good goin 😋
@MrTattooASMR
@MrTattooASMR 4 года назад
My girlfriend is 3 years sober and watching these videos makes me so proud of you.
@electricsapphire
@electricsapphire 4 года назад
Hey! Fancy seeing you here I love your channel! :)
@TeaSesh
@TeaSesh 4 года назад
Mr. Tattoo ASMR me too 🙏
@roseileboop720
@roseileboop720 4 года назад
Hi cool seeing u here, Mr. Tattoo you probably help lots of people with ur videos too. Helping people calm down and relax. I know they help me with my depression and anxiety.
@P4bs
@P4bs 4 года назад
I'm so happy for you, I feel the "hygiene " stuff, I suffer from severe depression and anxiety disorders and your videos help a lot. Hope you're feeling better yourself as I remember you mentioned you weren't feeling 100%
@beardeddragons8721
@beardeddragons8721 4 года назад
I hope you had a great day!
@trude8073
@trude8073 4 года назад
Me too. People (who don't experience this) don't understand the struggle with showering/taking care of yourself in times like that, it is so hard. I've tried explaining it, but it's pointless..
@JessicaLeeHill
@JessicaLeeHill 4 года назад
When I was at my lowest my family would make fun of how I wouldn’t shower. My depression held me back and it made me feel so bad
@Sarah-ko3mx
@Sarah-ko3mx 4 года назад
That's crap. I struggle with the motivation to look after myself so I get what you mean. It can be so embarrassing to be walking round with greasy hair but then there's just no motivation to shower, so you carry on feeling worse and it's just a vicious cycle :/
@yungaccent7917
@yungaccent7917 4 года назад
Y’all are disgusting lmfao take a fucking shower
@urrbeka
@urrbeka 4 года назад
Yung Accènt i feel bad for you! only bold in what you say behind a screen.
@Sarah-ko3mx
@Sarah-ko3mx 4 года назад
@@yungaccent7917 I'm happy that you're healthy enough to think like that :) but just accept that others aren't
@JMartin3z
@JMartin3z 4 года назад
Yung Accènt ya bro
@christopherwoodward1586
@christopherwoodward1586 4 года назад
Very cool. I'm a recocering heroin addict with 4 years clean. I was literally homeless on the streets. I now own my own home and run two online businesses I've been contemplating starting my own youtube channel to give some people hope and let them know there is life after addiction. Thank you for the inspiration. You rock!💪🙌💜
@hermithillfarm1123
@hermithillfarm1123 4 года назад
She relapsed. Go to her Instagram and you'll see it
@emilycastillo388
@emilycastillo388 4 года назад
U should start a RU-vid channel! Congrats on your sobriety
@marcellafair3712
@marcellafair3712 3 года назад
God bless you..thats a major accomplishment!❤🙏🏾
@lizzwilliams6022
@lizzwilliams6022 3 года назад
U mos deff SHULD start a channel ! Never Kno .... It might open new doors for u or jus might b tht glimpse of hope for some one else. Almost 5YC for me and I still randomly come across pages like this and will still watch them along with others like it .... I say go for it !
@nedkelley777
@nedkelley777 3 года назад
What did you do to help with the withdrawal.
@juliabb5662
@juliabb5662 4 года назад
You should try to do a grwm once a week to try to encourage you and give you a reason to shower! I have no idea really how you feel but I think it’d be a good idea ! Btw I’ve been watching you for like 2-3 years now and really glad you’re making more videos and getting better!
@mrbqkc
@mrbqkc 4 года назад
This is a good idea! We would watch it! You could even try out hairstyles so you'd have to wash your hair. (Also absolutely no judgement from me, showering is hard sometimes!)
@SunnyDayz14
@SunnyDayz14 4 года назад
@@mrbqkc Thats a great idea!!! Halloween is coming up! Maybe do some Halloween makeup looks Taylor?
@sandysgrandgirlssandysswee2492
@sandysgrandgirlssandysswee2492 4 года назад
Julia BB what is grwm?
@juliabb5662
@juliabb5662 4 года назад
Sandy Hagstrom it’s a get ready with me video
@ithinkradioheadisgood
@ithinkradioheadisgood 4 года назад
@@sandysgrandgirlssandysswee2492 it stands for get ready with me
@shibibi1
@shibibi1 4 года назад
you know, you actually look really nice without the makeup and freshly washed hair. Your makeup skills are absolutely on point, but you definitely have a natural beauty. even with a breakout. Keep goin girl. you're doing good and you will get to a good place
@narcoticlollipops
@narcoticlollipops 4 года назад
"recovery has no rules other than you can't do it alone" hearing it put that simply has really opened my eyes about what i've been doing wrong re: recovery, thank you
@doublefeature
@doublefeature 4 года назад
yes yes yes, reach out and ask for help!! there are truly people out there that want to help you. a good support system is so key.
@NoDDinOuTMeLoDy
@NoDDinOuTMeLoDy 4 года назад
Alone we get high together we recover
@emmadillon392
@emmadillon392 4 года назад
It’s so amazing to watch someone live there best life as a recovering addict. I’m 13 years old and when I was 11 my mom died of a meth overdose and it makes me so happy to see you recovering ❤️
@TheMurray1922
@TheMurray1922 3 года назад
Emma, im so sorry to hear this- but you can do anything, in spite of the pain you've experienced. Keep your chin up!
@AyeYoTay
@AyeYoTay 3 года назад
Omg I'm so sorry..
@paulinevanchhawng9185
@paulinevanchhawng9185 3 года назад
I'm so sorry, I hope you're doing better
@AyeYoTay
@AyeYoTay 3 года назад
Like I didn't know that was possible. I heard of heroin overdoses but that's from you getting to relax and you stop breathing.. So with meth I didn't know you could overdose... I'm glad to learn new things everyday.. God bless you and your family and your mom isn't hurting anymore. Id like to believe she is in Heaven chillin with my japanese grandmother having fun.
@paulinevanchhawng9185
@paulinevanchhawng9185 3 года назад
@@AyeYoTay 😂 that's sweet
@TheAmy2389
@TheAmy2389 4 года назад
Proud of you girl! I think it would be really interesting (if you and your mom were comfortable with it, obviously) to film a video with her talking about your addiction/recovery process from both perspectives. I'm in the process of getting my Master's in Counseling, so I always find it so interesting/beneficial to get perspective from multiple parties. Anyways, love your videos so much & I know I'm ot alone in saying how insanely proud of you I am & how amazing you are!
@jenniferdowns8991
@jenniferdowns8991 4 года назад
Yes
@anselyesteve526
@anselyesteve526 4 года назад
I second this ^ it’d be scary to post so understandable if it’s never created but it would be inspiring to see
@lil.ms.j7156
@lil.ms.j7156 4 года назад
I would appreciate this as well
@OMGIGILY
@OMGIGILY 4 года назад
Youre so nice to yourself giggling that they were obsessed with your washed hair! I would have been so embarassed and cried if they pointed it out. youre really inspiring
@heatherhent4445
@heatherhent4445 4 года назад
I cried tears of joy at points in this video. As an addict myself I love you for your courage.💕 It is so good to know I am not alone with some of these issues. Seems like many people glorify mental illnesses & addiction. There is nothing pretty about any of it & people need to hear this.
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 года назад
Heather Hent444 I’m so glad you felt like you could relate and be reminded that we are all in this together. I absolutely hated the idea of filming with my hair greasy and my acne bad, and on a day so boring, but I just wanted to try to be as realistic as possible about all of it so I’m glad it resonated with people. 🥺 you’re never alone love!! Keep taking it one day at a time. ❤️
@heatherhent4445
@heatherhent4445 4 года назад
@@taylordeanvlogs7088Ok- You got me crying again 😂. Thank you.
@toriebarrett5828
@toriebarrett5828 3 года назад
Her talking about how she has to now deal with feeling a whole bunch of pain again (from physical disorders) after being numb for so long is such a real thing !!! I experienced it to and it’s hard as hell
@elgordobully
@elgordobully 4 года назад
Exactly what depression feels like normal tasks feel like a huge tasks. Office definitely helps!!
@nellrussellstarving_artist1215
@nellrussellstarving_artist1215 4 года назад
Oh god! I start 24 hours before I have to do something special, just to talk myself into it.... Also, "The Office" and "Impractical Jokers" are absolutely the only reasons I haven't offed it thus far
@nellrussellstarving_artist1215
@nellrussellstarving_artist1215 4 года назад
Oh and I wait till the last min to pee... Then make myself brush my teeth at the same time, otherwise i would not talk myself into getting up again. IT'S AWFUL
@elgordobully
@elgordobully 4 года назад
Nell Russell right?! And I hate when people call you lazy it’s like trust me I’d be better if I could
@nellrussellstarving_artist1215
@nellrussellstarving_artist1215 4 года назад
@@elgordobully for real! And I hate when people tell me i should "do this" and "go to this thing" and "why haven't you finished this" or "visited so n so" ..... I feel like saying, "Man, trying not to off myself and just get into the shower is about all i can handle today"
@yayao7450
@yayao7450 4 года назад
You’re brother made a water boy reference & you looked at him like he was crazy Girrrllll lol he’s hilarious
@melovejoongie9203
@melovejoongie9203 4 года назад
I literally started laughing as soon as he said it 😂
@soulerheat
@soulerheat 4 года назад
that's what i thought!!! 😂
@jbula03
@jbula03 4 года назад
I can totally relate to the hygiene part , some days are harder then others. Just wanna say I am proud of you ! Keep it up and keep up these informative videos with your process
@WhitneyDahlin
@WhitneyDahlin 3 года назад
I really wish she'd do an update. I think about her a lot. Opiate addiction is a HUGE problem in the US. She is the ONLY successful RU-vidr brave enough to talk about it. She had a lot to lose and still talked about it anyway. I guarantee YOU she isn't the only major RU-vidr who had an opiate addiction. I hope shes okay now
@JojoAndBay135
@JojoAndBay135 3 года назад
She’s been going between relapsing and being sober for the last year. She updates on her Instagram and Twitter sometimes. I’m not sure if she’s sober as of right now but she’s been relapsing a lot. She’s apparently hanging out with really bad influences
@katelynspencer8392
@katelynspencer8392 Год назад
@@JojoAndBay135she’s now a year and some change sober !! I’m so proud of her
@RecoveredRaunchyRebel
@RecoveredRaunchyRebel Год назад
I hope she's doing better and having a routine when starting over in life is the key. Me and my wife are also in recovery and a similar program. One love to all my fellow addicts out there
@JenniferHayesJVG
@JenniferHayesJVG 4 года назад
Girl I feel ya. 19 months clean and sober today. Keep kicking addictions ass !!!
@Mari-kb7jb
@Mari-kb7jb 4 года назад
Jennifer Hayes congrats on your anniversary! ❤️
@hollycline5931
@hollycline5931 4 года назад
Weird I'm 18 months as of the 28th/today
@jessiecorvus9262
@jessiecorvus9262 4 года назад
I get my 6 months chip for Christmas! So excited!
@heylily2446
@heylily2446 4 года назад
Congrats!! Keep it up you got this 💕
@Sarahbabeara91
@Sarahbabeara91 4 года назад
Awesome job! Congratulations!
@rachellane8756
@rachellane8756 4 года назад
taylor: tanner, say something really inspirational tanner: *sips capri sun* same tanner
@itzgrace6041
@itzgrace6041 4 года назад
Rachel Lane just like a mood
@ahabby5513
@ahabby5513 4 года назад
Tanner's Waterboy reference is everything
@themelissaeileen
@themelissaeileen 4 года назад
Tanner is THE best! I love him so much! ❤️
@megantipton3381
@megantipton3381 4 года назад
Opiates were my thing too! I was clean 3 years then relapsed after my fiance cheated on me. I moved to Houston & now I've been clean almost a year. I truly appreciate your honesty! & btw... the hygiene thing & wanting to sleep all day.. i totally get it!
@rynloback2508
@rynloback2508 4 года назад
My mom was addicted to heroine.. she never got the chance to recover. I get so happy when I watch these videos. Keep up the good work! ♥️
@carolynnalvarez7032
@carolynnalvarez7032 4 года назад
Sorry sweetheart 😔
@brookeevans8400
@brookeevans8400 4 года назад
Ryn Loback ❤️ stay strong love
@Laura-gg4zo
@Laura-gg4zo 4 года назад
I’m so sorry ❤️
@ericcartman4751
@ericcartman4751 4 года назад
I'm so sorry for your loss, rest in peace to your mother 🙏❤️
@Rotary12A
@Rotary12A 4 года назад
Shes not clean shes on suboxone
@kookiecrumbs233
@kookiecrumbs233 4 года назад
I really want to thank you for mentioning the hygiene thing. I’ve had depression(+ a million other things) since middle school and even though I’m better now I still have a huge problem with hygiene. I try to excuse it by saying I’m busy but in reality I really and just never have motivation. Back when I still had bad depression I wouldn’t shower for weeks at a time, and though my hair doesn’t get that greasy you really just feel dirty. Anyway thank you for this video, good luck on recovery!
@labaccident2010
@labaccident2010 4 года назад
I've realized I've hit that "don't care about hygiene" depression again and I now force myself to shower and do laundry. makeup gives me a good incentive to bother washing my face.
@Flufferz626
@Flufferz626 4 года назад
You aren't alone. In bouts of depression I lose track of days and wonder if it's been 2 days or 10 days since I showered.
@sapphirecharm01
@sapphirecharm01 4 года назад
@@labaccident2010 please wash yourself
@labaccident2010
@labaccident2010 4 года назад
@@sapphirecharm01 I do! Even when I'm in a bad spot, I go make sure I keep up with hygiene. A warm shower is nice on a bad day, anyway.
@UniNarwhal
@UniNarwhal 4 года назад
oh my god your editing style is GREAT and I love youuu. I’m also loving this vlog channel ❤️
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 года назад
Uni omg thank you so much!!!
@UniNarwhal
@UniNarwhal 4 года назад
Taylor Dean Vlogs you’re welcome!! You’re such a beautiful person and everything will be alright, ok? (and your short hair is so pretty!!)
@amberdean374
@amberdean374 3 года назад
Life after drug addiction is so beautiful! It’s even more beautiful than life before starting drugs!! You have a whole new sense of self and honesty. You see things for what they truly are and even when life gets tough it’s easier to cope and get past.
@YeosangThePirate
@YeosangThePirate 4 года назад
As someone who’s been suffering with depression most her life I completely understand the Taking shower part of the video Taking care of your self is so hard when your brain just doesn’t want to
@uwabami6630
@uwabami6630 4 года назад
violet von vexx i relate to this so much it’s so hard for me to even take meds, I haven’t showered in 3 days amd even though i feel disgusting my brain just doesn’t want to cooperate
@YeosangThePirate
@YeosangThePirate 4 года назад
OPHIDIA literally me rn 😓
@uwabami6630
@uwabami6630 4 года назад
violet von vexx we’ll get through it ❤️
@hin0
@hin0 4 года назад
Sometimes taking one bath is enough for the whole week
@YeosangThePirate
@YeosangThePirate 4 года назад
Hinora and you feel so accomplished when you do to
@Ace-gz5ol
@Ace-gz5ol 4 года назад
“You’re all clean aren’t ya” so cute
@pea547
@pea547 4 года назад
you should get a bird feeder outside that window, the kitties would appreciate it in the mornings!
@TheSecret_PRO
@TheSecret_PRO 4 года назад
Wait wha-
@Finchsaviary
@Finchsaviary 4 года назад
that’s a great idea!
@amaraoceaniagoodwin981
@amaraoceaniagoodwin981 4 года назад
Wish I could see the dislikes ... cruel for both the kittens an birds :(
@gabriellevanarkel716
@gabriellevanarkel716 4 года назад
Amara Oceania Goodwin I don’t think its cruel for them.. My cats love to watch the birds and we have a bird feeder in the front yard, the cats can’t get to them. So safe for the birds, and especially the older cat just likes to sit and watch. I think that is What the comment meant. 😅
@brookecannon5817
@brookecannon5817 4 года назад
@@amaraoceaniagoodwin981 how is it cruel?
@amandabeach669
@amandabeach669 4 года назад
I just want to say I'm a recovering addict of almost 2 years and I am so happy someone on you tube has talked about addiction. I think you are amazing and I am so happy to be a subscriber.
@Saphireproductions1
@Saphireproductions1 4 года назад
I felt the hygiene part😂 I’ve been recovering from anorexia for almost 2 years having the disorder for about 5 years and I’ve been in almost every type of treatment from hospital to residential and honestly I’ve been the happiest I’ve been in years I’ve looked up to you for so long Stay strong bb ❤️❤️
@bannstrahl
@bannstrahl 4 года назад
julia Maldonado im so proud of you!
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 года назад
I am so proud of you I am in my early stages of recovering from anorexia. These types of things are not easy to surpass so the fact that even just some people can gives me hope. Things like this really make me happy seeing people get better because I am extremely young barely entering my preteen stage. Some people think people my age can’t get eating disorders or have depression but that isn’t true at all. I suffer from depression, anxiety, scoliosis, asthma, OCD, and anorexia. I go through lots of hard times and have participated in self harm which I am not proud of. I have people who care about me just as much as I care about others. That is art of my problem. Instead of just feeling proud or accomplished when I please people I feel the need to do everything right on their behalf which is what led me to my eating disorder. I would completely skip breakfast and lunch at school and my friends began to worry about me. They would call at random times of the night since we already saw each other over ten hours a day because we went to an after school program. That didn’t matter to my friend. She had been in my life since I was two years old and even before either of us were born our families were friends. My parents split up when I was a baby so that was just what I was used to. My mother was mentally abusive and she couldn’t stand to look at me if my scores on anything was any less then perfect. I still have pretty bad issues with my mental heath to this day but it is a lot better then what it was. I had to deal with everyone judging me I was in every single school club or team and the lead in plays. While lots of people think that it is just fun it isn’t. I also am bisexual and I identify with both genders and most people in my grade knew that. I was extremely open about it and I don’t regret that. I have 4 different friend that are sexually different then most. My friend is currently discovering who she is in a matter of sexuality. This isn’t even my full story. My point is that anyone can recover for some it might take a little longer than others but it is definitely possible. So no matter what problems you struggle with you will be ok. That goes for anybody who has or had issues mentally or physically. I know for a fact that without the people in my life that live me I wouldn’t be here today and I most likely would have ended my life. So anyone dealing with somewhat similar problems you will get through it. Just know that you are loved. And capable of immensely great things in this world even if you don’t know what that thing is yet. Always remember that.
@nafisaali291
@nafisaali291 2 года назад
ED + a drug addiction was a wild ride for me. i’m sober from drugs but i recently relapsed in my ED & it’s so draining. it’s so hard…
@megannethery2513
@megannethery2513 4 года назад
I was a heroin addict for 6 years, during which time i lost both of my parents, went to prison twice, and lost 10+ friends to overdosing. I totally understand what you're talking about with the hygiene thing, i use to go weeks at a time. Those were the worst years of my life & i pray i never go back. It is a daily struggle for an addict to stay clean, and always will be, but this life is sooo much better. You are so incredibly brave in my opinion, thank you for being so transparent. It helps to know you aren't alone in this fight. Keep up the amazing work you're doing❤❤❤
@imnevergonnalosemyselfagain
@imnevergonnalosemyselfagain 4 года назад
Megan Nethery so proud of you! you got this and you‘re worth it stay safe ❤️❤️
@nellrussellstarving_artist1215
@nellrussellstarving_artist1215 4 года назад
Same Megan, same. Getcha. Idt my brain chemistry has ever balanced back out.
@kinglouis6974
@kinglouis6974 4 года назад
Megan Nethery And I thought I’d gone full bore , No matter how bad shite is you know deep down using will make things worse, keep it up babe 🇬🇧👍🏼
@elliemortonxxx
@elliemortonxxx 4 года назад
what was she addicted to
@bruhidk3069
@bruhidk3069 4 года назад
elliemortonxxx heroin
@Nekei
@Nekei 4 года назад
I feel the hygiene part so hard :( when I’m in my depressive episodes I struggle with brushing my teeth and showering and it’s so awful. I feel like I’m just being lazy but I know it’s not the case bc I know that I want AND have to but I just like cant bring myself to do it sometimes 😪 I’m super proud of you though it’s so great to see your journey with recovery and I’m sure you’re helping out so many with what you’re showing!! You’re doing amazing 💕💕
@beardeddragons8721
@beardeddragons8721 4 года назад
It's okay! I can relate too! I hope you are feeling better!💖
@iLoveTheBamx
@iLoveTheBamx 4 года назад
I’m so glad I’m not the only one. Seeing this helps me because it reminds me I’m not alone. I struggle with showering and hygiene too when I’m depressed. It feels like extreme laziness to me, like you said, except I know it’s more. I know I’m going into a depressive funk/episode when my hygiene and cleanliness starts to slide downhill again.
@beardeddragons8721
@beardeddragons8721 4 года назад
@@iLoveTheBamx I thought about it too that I'm only one with thst problem and "lazy" but It's really about mentalhealth
@hippydippyeilish7572
@hippydippyeilish7572 4 года назад
"ima take a chill pill- no pills, pills are BAD" 🥺🥺
@LilttleFreak
@LilttleFreak 4 года назад
"If I'm gonna look hot for my therapy, I'm gonna look hot for my therapy." Girl, same. It's all about wearing what makes us feel good ❤️ I'm also in my early 20s without a license btw, so don't feel bad. I love having my mom drive me.
@electricsapphire
@electricsapphire 4 года назад
I am gonna be 20 in November and my boyfriend drives me everywhere and refuses to let me pump gas. He is the only one I feel safe driving me. I am to scared to drive myself. I feel like if I got a little Volkswagen I'd feel comfortable with it but I can't drive big ol cars its to worrisome.
@gennyrose5047
@gennyrose5047 4 года назад
Same!!!!
@Dinosgorawr124
@Dinosgorawr124 4 года назад
I got mine at 21 no shame in being late. I have extreme driving anxiety. I try to avoid it.
@sophiemoccep4395
@sophiemoccep4395 4 года назад
Can we talk about how cats help us with everything ? Sleeping, relaxing, getting up, laugh ?
@Boutys_mom
@Boutys_mom 4 года назад
Sometimes I wonder if my cat is depressed too, when she sleeps as much as me. Lol!
@AndreyaWryght
@AndreyaWryght 4 года назад
I just wish that they could make coffee or tea.. That would just be the best 😂
@backtosourceandbeyond7536
@backtosourceandbeyond7536 4 года назад
“Pecan comic 😂 you can be a pecan comic if u want.” I feel better about life now
@kristenc6839
@kristenc6839 4 года назад
Coming up on 3 years of sobriety here! Keep it up girl!! Here’s a tip.. even when you don’t feel like showering force yourself. Always make your bed in the am. It’s the little things that will make you feel “in order” and feel good about yourself. And don’t forget to thank God for another day and to keep you sober in the am.. and thank Him at night for keeping you sober !💓🙏🏻
@zoiemarks
@zoiemarks 4 года назад
It's really wholesome to see this side of you, it feels so much more raw and down to earth. And the talk of mental health etc is really comforting it's nice to see you using your platform to help people experiencing similar issues feel not alone etc as well as informing those who haven't experienced these type of life or mental health problems etc
@briannarichardson2018
@briannarichardson2018 4 года назад
I love how she gets so excited when shes talking about her sobriety. I'm so proud of you ❤️
@mikaelal9479
@mikaelal9479 4 года назад
My boyfriend has to get up everyday around 7 he has to go the clinic for his methadone and counseling. It’s a hard journey.
@isabellee.alyssaa
@isabellee.alyssaa 4 года назад
Mikaela L stay strong, both of you!! it’s a long and hard journey but you have definitely got this
@dvlexotics2177
@dvlexotics2177 4 года назад
Its a long hard journey but tell him he is doing great and remind him how well he is doing and how proud you are of him.
@andler5061
@andler5061 4 года назад
that’s supposed to be hard?
@natalija8771
@natalija8771 4 года назад
@@andler5061 it is incredibly hard and unless you go through it or someone close to you does then you can't ever understand really
@kalillahulsey5624
@kalillahulsey5624 4 года назад
Same 🙄 and it’s not just waking up st 7 that’s hard... she was just saying that’s part of it. And duck yeah it sucks getting up EVERYDAY at 7 am and a lot of places have long as waits
@dekearty1515
@dekearty1515 4 года назад
Hi, i am a recovering addict and at the moment i am trying to wean myself off suboxone. I just want you to know that your story is giving me the strength i need to kick the strips outta my life. Thank you soo much for these vlogs. I literally just watched your story on how you became an addict and.... i really really think you have the power to complete this chapter and add it to the index of your life.. just know you've made a difference in my life even though I've never met you. Good luck
@bmoneyrancidfan91
@bmoneyrancidfan91 4 года назад
Man those strips taste like orange shit
@Harlow_Khmer
@Harlow_Khmer 3 года назад
Hope you're doing well ❤️
@delvinmallory3427
@delvinmallory3427 3 года назад
@K Maxx Wow, irony this rich is hard to find. I guess you'd say this to a cancer patient too, right? Those stupid people and their stupid diseases!
@lailinshale
@lailinshale 4 года назад
Love the cowtfit. Keep on keepin' on. Not everybody gets how big it is "just" to wash your hair.
@sageharmony3128
@sageharmony3128 4 года назад
1st day sober off my meth relapse and saw this. Thanks for the encouragement friend ❤️✌🏽
@Mari-kb7jb
@Mari-kb7jb 4 года назад
Sage Lynn same girl, same
@VK-uh5jz
@VK-uh5jz 4 года назад
I'm about a year and a half off of it. It can be done. Hang in there. Life gets so much better and you will look back and love yourself again. I also in that time have not had a drop of alcohol or smoked any green. Other substances only triggered m use. Good luck. You can do it
@skiddni8665
@skiddni8665 4 года назад
U can do it!!
@wifeyg7136
@wifeyg7136 4 года назад
It only gets better, been clean 7 yrs now.
@HalfwayJac
@HalfwayJac 4 года назад
Wifey G 713 Yo everyone on this thread, I just wanna say, I love you all! Please don’t give up!
@evelynj1605
@evelynj1605 4 года назад
taylor eating fries in her bed watching netflix is a big mood😂
@bluballs-cw1mx
@bluballs-cw1mx 4 года назад
evelyn j omg that’s my life too the office is why I get out of bed when Jim pulled pranks, Pam acted drunk at Chili’s, and Michael’s conctint need for attention that’s my life
@creaturecomforts7069
@creaturecomforts7069 4 года назад
I was watching this in bed whilst eating my dominoes🤣
@MariaHernandez-hv2qy
@MariaHernandez-hv2qy 4 года назад
I found your channel today im a recovering addict as well 8 yrs addicted to heroin i been ckean since 2010. I can relate to your situation i was in a toxic relationship for 10 yrs with a heroin addict. He left me homeless for a crackhead. My parents forced me into rehab 3 months I was bed bond I had no strength at all my dad had to carry me to the bath out. I thank God and my parents every day for saving my life. I just wanted to say be proud of yourself not many addicts live to tell their story. Your a blessing so congratulations 👏 and keep up the good work.
@EmileeMahar
@EmileeMahar 4 года назад
This video shows how important animals are in our lives. They save lives. Dogs saved my life!!!
@LoveVanita
@LoveVanita 4 года назад
I’m straight edge and never done drugs in my life but I found this video so interesting since I have severe depression and crippling anxiety and struggle to take care of myself and do normal things just like you and this really helped me out 🥺
@kyakore
@kyakore 4 года назад
LoveVanita please get help
@sarahjarrett8004
@sarahjarrett8004 4 года назад
I love how much you’re feeling yourself since becoming sober. You literally look so good and healthy
@jtreed8624
@jtreed8624 4 года назад
As a recovering addict it is extremely overwhelming to become a functioning member of society. I easily get overwhelmed when I have too much to do in one day.
@bugdealer5980
@bugdealer5980 4 года назад
taylor: *gets a soda* song playing: *be careful of what you’re drinkin*
@TeaSesh
@TeaSesh 4 года назад
gangsta grandma 👵
@mariamiamonteleone
@mariamiamonteleone 4 года назад
The SECOND I wasn’t dope sick anymore in rehab I started showering and doing my makeup and taking care of myself again
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 года назад
Maria Mia YESS my first shower in rehab felt so good, it was amazing.
@daniellesalvia7788
@daniellesalvia7788 4 года назад
Maria Mia amen to that! I never did dope but I’ve done other shit and I don’t go a day without makeup now just because it makes me feel good!
@y3ll0w_ju1c3b0xx
@y3ll0w_ju1c3b0xx 4 года назад
I’m living for Tanner. 😂🤣 When he’s singing “I whip my tail back and forth” I literally died. Keep trekking on your journey. 🙌✨⭐️
@hanginlxights3_853
@hanginlxights3_853 4 года назад
I can tell that ur Additude has changed ((for the better))! I’m really so proud of u for fighting ur addiction.
@gxldxn
@gxldxn 4 года назад
Lol attitude
@hanginlxights3_853
@hanginlxights3_853 4 года назад
J H I mean like her additude... not her ADDITUDE... you know?
@Thaa_judgeee
@Thaa_judgeee 4 года назад
I’m on methadone been on for 3 years been detoxing about to be off soon but I’m also on sleeping meds and can sleep foreeverrrrrrr forrealll🙄 but heroin free a year and 3 months ❤️❤️
@xantana543
@xantana543 4 года назад
Proud of u
@miaclaassen
@miaclaassen 4 года назад
We’re proud of u, stay strong bb
@madisoneady405
@madisoneady405 4 года назад
That’s amazing! So glad for you 💗
@BobRossCat
@BobRossCat 4 года назад
You can do it! Keep clean and you are amazing. Alot of people can't stop for a day, i love you! ❤
@stephanieprimley2961
@stephanieprimley2961 4 года назад
Congrats on tapering girl!! I was on methadone for 6 years and it took me like 3 or 4 to successfully taper with no withdrawal at all! It took a long time but was so worth it . That saved my life for sure. Dont give up girl you're bad ass.
@ereynolds4637
@ereynolds4637 4 года назад
Your brother is literally my favorite person ever he’s so sweet
@p0ssumkingd0m
@p0ssumkingd0m 4 года назад
I really felt that “my therapist texted my other therapist” part lmao, I’m the youngest person at my AA group and people used to always brag about me to my sponsor when I showed signs of being a slightly better functioning human being 😂
@TheLifeBoat
@TheLifeBoat 2 года назад
I spent thirty plus years on heroin and truly feel your pain. I lost everything I had a career as the president of a publicly traded company and lost it all. The house the cats the family. I ended up in federal prison after robbing a bunch of banks to support my 7 gram a day habit. This drug owns people in a way that few can understand. I have now been sober for six and a half years. It is possible and you are going to beat this. Your honesty and raw emotion is amazing. I’m pulling for you. I know spend my entire life trying to help people get and stay sober. If you ever want to speak to someone who understands the voice no one else hears reach out. I’m easy to find. Keep fighting the good fight. 🙏🏼
@joseolivares2700
@joseolivares2700 4 года назад
the "i'm still a piece of gArBaGe" part was hilarious, love you taylor!
@katelynchamberlain9953
@katelynchamberlain9953 4 года назад
My boyfriend of three years became a herion addict after a lot of shit happened. I had to leave it got so bad. I don’t know how he’s doing... last thing I heard he’s selling it and is making no effort to be clean. Watching your videos almost brings me comfort and gives me hope that one day he’ll be the person I know he can be. You’re so sweet, keep it up 💗
@beatrizcastro3129
@beatrizcastro3129 4 года назад
😞
@heythere5817
@heythere5817 4 года назад
My ex turned into a junkie a month after I left and last I know of him is the cops chasing him to issue a DV order and that he is homeless sleeping in dumpsters. Sadly I dont have any hope for him
@katelynchamberlain9953
@katelynchamberlain9953 4 года назад
Hey There I’m sorry you’ve lost hope. Focus on yourself and making yourself happy and healthy. Sending Positive thoughts your way.
@melodies92
@melodies92 4 года назад
One minute in and I already feel SO happy that I am NOT the only one who starts my mornings this way!! I'm not alone! Everything you say in this is sooo relatable and true for me. So thanks!
@lucysoul7073
@lucysoul7073 3 года назад
idk why this is my comfort video. always come back to this when Im super depressed. thank u Taylor
@jessiecamacho9936
@jessiecamacho9936 3 года назад
I was thinking the same thing. Like I always watch this and it makes me feel less alone; like it’s “normal” to just exist even if I, myself, am at my lowest.
@mandigurl2341
@mandigurl2341 4 года назад
I want Tanner to know that his jokes were really funny and that they made me laugh 😊
@484Chrissi
@484Chrissi 4 года назад
mandygurl2341 same!
@autumnsworld7663
@autumnsworld7663 4 года назад
Made my day too lol he reminds me of my brother love em!! # waterboy
@myiareads
@myiareads 4 года назад
watching you be so open and honest with yourself and everyone around you, (including us) is the most inspiring thing ive seen you do . i hope i can be this honest with myself and others one day. i know it was a journey for you and im so happy your sharing your journey
@RP_76
@RP_76 4 года назад
Please don't be in a rush to stop the Subs, I get why you're wanting to just wanted to say that. I was almost ashamed I was on it, but I'm not doing what I use to and that's all that matters! I'm super proud of you, every time you post I click tight away 💕💕
@Discovering_Nicole1
@Discovering_Nicole1 4 года назад
Hey, We have MARA meetings over on my channel. Medically Assisted Recovery Anonymous meetings. Come over♡
@cuppatae834
@cuppatae834 4 года назад
I agree. I've been wanting to get off them so bad, I've been on them for a year but I'm really not looking forward to getting off them.
@amandakaricunningham4116
@amandakaricunningham4116 4 года назад
Idk what I'd do w/o my subs I can honestly say it saved my life! There comes a time when u do need to quit them but u definitely should taper down first.
@cuppatae834
@cuppatae834 4 года назад
@@amandakaricunningham4116 Same. Idk where I'd be without them honestly. I hate when people say that we're"Not clean" while on them. Like okay at least I'm not sticking a needle in my arm & getting abscesses.
@amandakaricunningham4116
@amandakaricunningham4116 4 года назад
@@tsukiimaufomecca2069 I have gained weight also my blood pressure started running a little high but that could be something else. I hate that you have health issues
@VampireGirl8772
@VampireGirl8772 4 года назад
Our routine is almost the same, that makes me feel so good about myself because I’m not alone. However, I’m two years sober off heroin and benzos. I love you and I’m proud of you :)
@jgx0x0
@jgx0x0 4 года назад
How long did it take u to feel better after stopping benzos? I am in the process and it feels like it's going to be forever till I feel "normal" again. Congrats on 2yrs.
@gabidemartinolyingaboutbei8641
@gabidemartinolyingaboutbei8641 4 года назад
Jordi Gellar I’ve been on benzos since I was 18, and now I’m 38(heroin too but I’m “clean” now, on methadone for 6 years). Ive tried to get off benzos soooo many times; cold turkey(had seizures, etc), rehab, I tried everything. I’ve accepted the fact that I’ll be on them forever, because I’m NEVER trying that again. I went 48 DAYS off of Xanax and was STILL having horrible w/ds. So, on the 48th day I got some and never looked back. I think it can take years to get over Xanax/benzo w/d. Good luck, I hope you have better luck!
@shawnmiller5611
@shawnmiller5611 3 года назад
Jordi gellar try winging urself off of benzos a lil each month or 2 just a little each time until you don't need it anymore or u think you can try without them never I mean never do it cold turkey
@lisamarieromeo6122
@lisamarieromeo6122 3 года назад
@@jgx0x0 heya hun I'm off benzo almost 2yrs and I had fits and sweats all the cold turkey symptoms. You can do it My moto was fear the fear and do it anyway. The only thing is I've have no support. Just me and my dog Romeo. My partner and fiance died. Thomas 12yrs he died sudden adult death syndrome. Not drug related My 2nd partner of 6yrs died from lirka and benzo So I really didn't we want to die. I started coming down as slow as I could be wuse about it What we tell ourself we end up believing a self limited belief it's called. If u start telling yourself you ll never be off them Well most likely you will just accept iti was exact same but trust me you can do it Take it like 1mg a week or month. Do it all at your own Pace don't beat yourself up if u fall just get back up and try again. I need up becoming an addiction councillor now. Once we break the cycle of what we tell ourselves like I'll hate myself or I am stupid guess what you ll start behaving this way. It's all self limited belief s we absorb growing up as kids that we take in and it reflect into our behaviors. I done addiction studies and analyzing behaviour s also physiology too So if u change your thought s you will gradually change ur beliefs God bless you and you can do it Remember nobody is harder on us than ourself. 💕🙏💜🤗
@alishatomblin3363
@alishatomblin3363 3 года назад
Same here. Routine is also about the same. Some people don’t believe me when I tell them how often I sleep.
@kirianyre83
@kirianyre83 4 года назад
i just turned 15 yesterday and i’ve dealt with watching my family struggle with addiction my whole life. including my own parents. and i know that getting clean is one of the hardest things for someone to do so i just wanna day congratulations and i’m so so so proud of you ‼️❤️
@jawnnysins8153
@jawnnysins8153 4 года назад
I really felt the hygiene problem when i’m in the throes of depression I can’t even get myself to brush my teeth. you’re not alone sis i’m so happy you’re fighting for yourself ❤️
@beardeddragons8721
@beardeddragons8721 4 года назад
Hope you have an amazing day!
@cozycasasmr4510
@cozycasasmr4510 4 года назад
Trying to shower when you're depressed is an extraordinary feat
@monicarussup8498
@monicarussup8498 2 года назад
As s person in recovery for almost 5 years, and who works in a treatment center, I have to say that I relate to so much of what you said. I was clean for 8 months before my doctor decided to try suboxone, because i was in such a deep depression, hygiene problems and all, and i was this close to getting high. Suboxone literally saved my life. My quality of life improved greatly after suboxone. Thank you for being open about that. The 12 step meetings where I live do not consider suboxone clean so I struggled with that as well. But i do Smart Recovery, which I love, and now between a job I love, my family. my 6 dogs and 4 cats, my life is finally "normal" for me, anyway. You ROCK!!!
@clayreichard1774
@clayreichard1774 4 года назад
Haha Shane’s series Taylor’s posting this is the best October ever
@claudiadominguez7007
@claudiadominguez7007 4 года назад
LITERALLY!
@CoffeeAndShop
@CoffeeAndShop 4 года назад
My dream come true would be Shane and Taylor doing a collab, I would literally scream if that ever happened
@flapperghoul1762
@flapperghoul1762 4 года назад
Shane should have done a series on Taylor with less editing and more real.
@weapingwillow82
@weapingwillow82 4 года назад
It takes a lot of strength to do the simplest everyday tasks even without having an addiction problem. I wish I had that kind of motivation, I’m so happy you’re doing so well
@leonardsusskindswar7258
@leonardsusskindswar7258 4 года назад
I did a DBT IOP program for 8 weeks and now do a weekly class. It helped me so much, learning to deal with my anxiety and depression, as well as my chronic medical conditions (I have POTS and EDS, as well as an auto-immune disease that's eating away at/fusing my spine and hips in place). Facing those issues head on was really difficult. I never wanted to get out of bed, was too exhausted and in pain to bathe daily, or really do much of anything. But now I'm doing much better, due to the IOP and now weekly sessions. Keep up the great work! So proud of you! P.S. My cats also wake me up in the morning by pulling out my shades, or, if that isn't successful, launching themselves at my head until I open them fully.
@TheLuckythirt3en
@TheLuckythirt3en 4 года назад
Question here. Was wondering if you also might have chiari malformation as well. Most people i know who have pots and eds, also has chiari malformation. Just curious. Im glad that you have been rocovering and getting better.
@leonardsusskindswar7258
@leonardsusskindswar7258 4 года назад
tiffany boschee thankfully, I don’t. I consider myself very lucky.
@alexandramcnamee9912
@alexandramcnamee9912 3 года назад
You're fucking killing it Taylor. I can't imagine being in chronic physical pain, depressed, AND recovering from addiction, and STILL be able to take care of all your animals, and have anything left over to do basic shit like showering and feeding. But by golly you're doing it, and staying sober and I'm so so SO proud of you. Please keep it up. I see how much effort you're putting in and it's amazing to watch. You WILL achieve your goals!
@Peytonscomet
@Peytonscomet 4 года назад
Having an alarm set for 11:32am is such a mood
@griseldamartinez8335
@griseldamartinez8335 4 года назад
I absolutely love how Texan this whole vlog was. “I gulped a Diet Dr Peper” “Second drink is Big Red” “Eating Whattaburger” I love you so much! So proud of you
@TheCreww17
@TheCreww17 4 года назад
Griselda Martinez lmao I’m glad I’m not the only one who notices this 😂
@paigecrosby4516
@paigecrosby4516 4 года назад
I’m on methadone. 4 years sober off herion. Life’s been hard but so worth being alive ♥️ I love how you’re so raw
@edithmaskerkline3747
@edithmaskerkline3747 4 года назад
I'm also on methadone, I've been off heroin for 5yrs as of May 28! I still have day's where personal hygiene is hard for me. We all have our own journey as long as we take it 1 day/moment at a time, stay sober & continue sharing experience strength & hope also being open to recieving the experience strength & hope when we need it. I'm so proud of you, keep on keeping on ❤
@crystalisacunt2728
@crystalisacunt2728 4 года назад
I’m on methadone also! Been off Herion now for 6 years!
@rachelperson-brookrealtor9617
@rachelperson-brookrealtor9617 4 года назад
I’m also on methadone. Been on the clinic for 5 years and clean for 2.5yrs. I’m tapering off the clinic now and I’m down to 25mg! Woohoo!!
@emmaxx2529
@emmaxx2529 4 года назад
52 mg from 65mg 🥰 I actually wasn’t on heroin I had an OxyContin/oxycodone addiction from being in chronic pain due to pancreatitis. Been on methadone 2 years now and was addicted to opiates for about 6 years. I’m 28 and hope to enter my 30’s completely drug free. 💜
@Hana.Behl-Lecter
@Hana.Behl-Lecter 4 года назад
Me too, I have 2.5 years. So happy it's finally becoming more accessible and less stigmatized. Everyone telling me I shouldn't get on it kept me from the one thing that actually got me off drugs for yearsssss.
@danibee149
@danibee149 2 года назад
Taylor, this is my all time comfort video. I cannot say how many times I have watched this video.
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