My everyday life in Japan right now 

As Hank Green puts it " you will always struggle with not feeling productive until you accept that your own joy can be something you produce"

Honestly any kind of video that you put in here is fine with me so don't pressure yourself, you've helped me through hard times and I'm very thankful for that. Welcome back, friend!

Sometimes we don't need all of the answers, Emma. Relax take it easy, love seeing videos by you. Take care!!

"Some people work for a living, then realize that just living works" -Portland Maine and the Pouring Rain by The City on Film/Bob Nanna

I am old enough to be your mom, so I feel the need to tell you how much my husband and I enjoy your creativity . Know you are valued by many.

Appreciate you talking openly about depression. As someone deep in a similar hole, for lack of a better word, it makes me feel less alone to know other people are experiencing the same thing. Here's to brighter days ahead.

No way, you guys have guttural screaming spiders in Japan too???

From one creative person to another..from time to time we need to do stuff the pleases just us..not for anyone else..it's our way of centering ourselves and bringing our joy for creativity back. And I fully understand the guilt of maybe everything you do should be turned into something that is work.. But that's the beauty of being a creative person..we don't have to. Much love from Townsville Australia xo

I hope you realize that part of your gift is taking ordinary life moments, finding the humor in them, and amplifying it. It's those bits of "personality fingerprints" which set your videos apart. You don't need a topic or a theme to make a video special (though those are fun, too). And that's... well, special.

Emma, you have no idea how good it was to see you, there is a warm fluffy ball cuddling my heart right now :) thank you for your day and for a piece of your Tokyo :) thank you so much.

Most people: Crush the spider! Emma: Take spider to the gym!

I’ll honestly watch anything that you put out. I’ve been watching since your tiny apartment days where you would just cook and chill. You’re personality and light is just so infectious so put on content when you can and want to and I’ll definitely be here!

Emma, you are such a gem, and I have a feeling that you don't even realize how much of an amazing, talented woman you are. 🤗 I discovered your videos just before some of the most challenging years of my life (and then the last couple of years happened, just to add to the fun... for everyone!). I really appreciate that you share the ups and downs of your life. Your videos have been a great source of comfort for me during some challenging times. Wishing you all the best in your journey! 💜

Empire of the sun never gets old. That album is perfect front to back. And I love the smell tomato plants leave on your hands so I'm sure that candle is nice. Hope you keep having nice days!

I'm so proud of you Emma. You've got through such a tough time and haven't given up. Your stream production has improved so much, and you seem so much happier. I hope this continues - you deserve to be happy.

I love the chill chatty videos, or whatever you're into at the moment. It feels like classic RU-vid and it is very nice. 🌼

I loved this chill little window into your life at the moment. It's so important to have some things that you like to do just because you like it. We're so conditioned to think everything we do with our time needs to be 'productive' in a capitalist sense. Glad you're enjoying drawing and time with friends. :)

The effects of this pandemic as well as the numerous losses and restrictions it entails has been especially difficult for some creative people. Others have written best selling books and come into their creative groove, but not everyone. It's especially difficult those who haven't been able to find their métier during this crazy-making time. Still, it's possible to find a beautiful renewed joy that merits champagne and dancing. It's possible to realize that whatever has not measured up to dreams and aspirations one may have once held doesn't matter. What counts is the pathway walked--even the pathway walked while lost and confused--and the determination, grace and love invested in each step. Walk on. That's all any of us can do.

Honestly queen, the editing on this video is beyond immaculate and relaxing. Good to see you just vibin' y'know. What more to life do you need?

I really love your visual story telling style, music and editing. I honestly don't mind what your videos are about, i just like that they are by you. Please keep taking the time to care for yourself if it's what you need. It's like a special treat to have one of your videos today, so thank you ♡

Emma, you are awesome and so honest with everything and this is why we are happy to see anything from you whenever, don't stress yourself out. Your artwork looks brilliant, the streaming soon art you did for your twitch is amazing!

I would honestly watch a video of you having an existential crisis on a couch and eating chips and still love it because I relate completely. I went to school for animation, and worked in animation for 2 years and have recently found out its not for me. I am learning how to freelance as an illustrator and I feel like I am getting somewhere sometimes and other times I feel lost and in the dark. Regardless, I just keep creating and you should too!

Glad that you are back. You're videos are always so relaxing and personal to watch. I'm glad you are taking the time you need for introspection and to slow things down

spider edit had me crying on the floor hahaha 🤣

This was very relaxing to watch, its good to stop for a bit and enjoy life outside of work sometimes, so I'm glad to see that you're taking care of yourself! Best wishes!

This video actually helped me so much with homesickness for Japan, as I’m traveling at the moment. So thank you for just showing your everyday. Your honesty, personality and content are always welcome in any form to me.

Oh I feel that creative guilt so hard!! My brain is constantly telling me I can’t do something unless it’s a productive thing which makes it difficult to relax. As a new graduate during a pandemic I have struggled to find full time work in my field that works for me. So with two part time jobs (one in education and the other in my field) and a lack of structure from no longer being at University I have found it difficult to create my own structure in life while also learning to enjoy the freedoms. I hope your more relaxed life and help you find peace and balance. 😌 Thanks for the update and I look forward to your videos as I appreciate your transparency and vibes. ✨

Yay! So happy to see you feeling better, I send you positive vibe that things only go up from here on!

What a great video!! I really enjoy these kind of simple and relaxed videos. Don´t preasure yourself and remember to be kind to your process. It´s great to see you again!

Honestly ur videos r so precious and they make me feel safe so don’t worry about the content and take ur time

I like that you are real with us and with yourself. You know, a human! :) Most of my life has been swamped in depression and anxiety, so I can relate when you say things just weren’t right. So many of us “get it” and are thankful for you sharing. 🤟🏻👍🏻

the cut from "now taking him outside" to you walking outside almost seemed as if you were taking the lil boy on a walk and I'm honestly a lil bit here for it. Also, the lil ghost behind you while you were eating and talking about life was a lovely sight to behold

I just want to thank you for another amazing journey. I love looking at the world through your channel, and it never fails to impress me how big and diverse the world really is.

Your videos always let my heart kinda warm, thank you so much for keep doing it !! 💕 Love your channel

Always glad to see another video from you! I am unfortunately not a twitch-person, so I will miss most of your content, but this little window into your life was fun, cozy and it's good that you're doing well and taking things slow. All the best to you, looking forward to the future!

Love this video! The pressure to constantly produce some thing that society deems as valuable is crushing and I’m sorry you feel it, just as much as the rest of us. I love seeing videos where you relax and enjoy life and get to do things stress-free. what I wish for us all. thank you for sharing this lovely day

Good to see you back again, always make me smile 🙂

Delighted to find this in my sub box this morning! Thanks for being yourself on here, I can really relate!

I just want to say that I really love your casual videos. You've talked about how you feel really unsure about what you make as well as the unevenness of the 'scheduling' of your videos. I hope that you can sometimes remember that lots of us love what you do and respect your process; though, if you are anything like me, you still get down on yourself sometimes and are always going to struggle with feeling like that. Sending you hi-5 vibes.

I loved this video! Thanks for posting, your videos are always so interesting and fun ❤️

the fact that i've been subscribed to you for YEARS and every time you upload, you still have me interested in the video is a great sign! your personality is awesome and your videos are just a nice calming vibe which i love. keep doing you and keep the self discovery up! 😁😁

Honestly, I just like seeing you Emma. Any content you care to make is good. And TC content with you always makes me happy (it helps with my Big [major depression] Sads). Feeling pressure to turn hobbies or stress relief is just an example of society making you feel guilty for resting. Please rest and don't feel guilty for resting 💙

I can definitely relate to what you said about guilt/pressure in regards to work that is creative. My main thing is writing (it's what I am good at or so I've been told) but over the past year or so I've started painting and I love it even though I know I am not that good at it. For a long time I felt guilt about painting when I should have been working.....but you know what: we do need joy in our lives!!! Love seeing your videos, you have such a nice personality :)

i'm here for you high-fiving past versions of you, and being proud of present-you. that's the kind of confidence we stan ♥ you did a great job :D

Love the chill atmosphere of this video, really needed the reminder to really reflect on what's the right pace for me personally and that this differs from person to person. Editing is really entertaining and funny, I loved it. お元気で!

it's always a treat to see a video from you! Be it trips, vlogs, announcements etc.. i'm enjoying every single one of them! Don't rush and pressure yourself, we love it all even if its a video of you staring blankly at the camera :D

Awesome to see you, love the cow page. We are all here if you need anything, an listening ear etc. You are truly amazing person Emma, so talented and creative. ❤❤

it's always good to hear from you! thanks for sharing your life

I love chill videos like this. They're relaxing and feel very personal and real.

Just post whatever you feel like! I mean, you live in Japan and you can make content with everything. 😃✌🏻 Take us to the grocery store or for a walk! 😊🧡

I'm really loving the direction your videos are taking. You frequently make me and my fiancé *actually* laugh out loud with some of memes/funny texts you randomly place within your content. You have such a genuine, relatable sense of humor and even if you did nothing but post snapshots of silly moments in your day-to-day life, they're worth watching. Thanks for what you do!

I loved this video! Ur videos have helped me through lots of tough times, and this one has reminded me that giving myself breaks is important. Thank you so much!

Lovely little chill video. Nice to see them pop up every so often :)

that’s was such a fun light hearted video ! i loved it 🥰 thanks emma

Thank you for the chill video. I am reading The Old Bells of Tokyo, so appreciate the sound of the bells in your video.

Very cool to see you post again! Even if it’s every day life for you, it’s beautiful and amazing to see. I love the picnic with friends, after I find some friends, I want to do that, too! Good to see you, no matter what you are sharing. I’m also going thru an existential crisis, you make it look like so much fun. Post again, when you feel to, take care!

I really love these videos where you talk about life. As someone who also just does their thing for work its so hard to feel like its enough sometimes. Sometimes you feel so lazy, but in reality it can feel like we always have to be on. Always be working and improving. So nice to hear that someone else feels that way too. Adulting is hard!

Take time to relax. And don't stress about what or when you post. I like it when you are honest because others may feel the same way. You are a wonderful person.

I'm here for Emma! And whatever she aka you want to put up and I like this one and the video where you kinda said you were low and didn't really know what to do. Two of the realiest and most relatable videos ever. I like the way you film, good editing, great sense of humor, you have a very calm and even tone kinda voice, and really you just seem like you would be a good, real and chill friend. Love the Japan content, sharing food or cool places, and great cooking moments but again overall just here for you. Thank you for sharing whenever you do and no pressure on when or what you share! You put yourself out there for others to find and that's amazing!

Nice vid! Happy I learned about Tsukimi. Also, drawing time on Twitch was a whole lotta fun! Thanks for postin!

I'm so happy you're getting into yourself and taking things easier. Never be pressured to produce content! This fran will always be here for you! Keep it up Emma!

Hey Emma, the feeling of guilt is totally relatable. My partner and I left Japan over 12 years ago and he (more than me) constantly feels guilty if he is not working/doing something productive! Out of all the amazing things we’ve taken from Japan when we were living there, this is the one negative. Don’t be so hard on yourself, health and happiness should always come first! ❤️❤️❤️

Been watching you for about 4 years and I love when you make this type of videos. Thanks for sharing, sending you hugs 🤗🌼🌼🌼

Yeah, finding that right balance between what you "need" to do (or at least what your brain tells you you need to do) and your down time can be very difficult. When I first went back to college after many years away from it (after having an existential crisis of my own), my brain kept telling me "you need to study and learn everything PERFECTLY" all the time. I did that for the entire semester and it just felt.... So bad. I was an anxiety-riddled mess. After nearly burning myself out, I came to the realization that I don't need to be perfect or learn everything 100% or whatever because it won't result in any meaningful difference. That's when I started having more "me-time" and enjoying life more. Despite not going all out with studying, I'm still getting pretty much the exact same grades, which shows that I needed to just... Take it easy. To do things I like just because I like them. To balance out my "work" and my life. I'm glad you're finding things to do that are separate from work. Your brain totally needs that stuff to just stay normal(-ish) and human. Keep going that. Hope you continue feeling better 😃

Love your videos and willing to wait for them ❤

I’m very glad you are being kind to yourself. I love your content and that is not dependent on the frequency that you release it.

So lovely to see you dancing Emma, you be you upload whenever, hope you're doing your best angel!

Aww I'm glad you're back! Just go with the flow dude don't feel pressured to work all the time :3 I'm honestly happy with any content you put out, and if you wanna take a break that's absolutely ok!

Got a recommended notification for this vlog, so couldn't miss it. Nice to see another video from you :)

Loved this vlog, it has such cozy vibes. Glad to see you're a bit better, I think all we can do, especially if we're struggling with mental health issues, is take it one day at a time. You're doing great, Emma! ❤🌿✨

Glad to see you making videos again. I honestly can relate what you're going through in terms of your own work load, content creation and sadness overall. But keep taking your time and lighten the work load when you need to. All of us will be here when you upload. 😄👍

Great vid! Thanks Emma, I needed this.

I love all your videos, they give me a sense of calm. I work in a warehouse which is pretty stressful, so it's nice to see some 'nonbiri' type content (I hope I said that right). Glad you're doing better and I'm always cheering for you! Take your time with putting up stuff, we will wait for you :)

I love this! So chill ♥️

Just what I needed! A reminder that you gotta work on yourself and take things one day at a time. Very cosy and very good to see moon! Love moon!

Love your videos! Wishing you the best in everything!

Its so good to see you again Emma. Thanks for sharing your life with us. Interesting to watch you struggling with your saboteur. It’s something we all do until we realise that it can be a positive experience if we accept it as another lesson. Well done, girl. Love from Adelaide. 🐨💕

We love you! We are here for YOU💕 you are a ray of sunshine. Much love to you

I really enjoyed this type of video. Super chill.

This was such a nice video. Easy going and chill. RU-vid needs more content like this. Not everything is supposed to be all hype and drama. Sometimes it feels nice to watch just basic stuff like this. Nichijou!

Hey, hope things are going great for you, your vlog videos bring a kind of shine that warms up the heart 😊 We gotta keep fighting the good fight and doing the best we can within our limits, taking care not to strain ourselfs in the way

I think it's nice just to see your videos. Your videos have such a grounding influence on me and they just make me happy, no matter what. Love from Sydney

Emma, 12 months ago I was very ill and off work for a while while. I found you and the rest of the TC crew and really renewed my love of Japan. You all got me through a very difficult time. Take your time and I'd echo what others have said, we enjoy whatever content you put out so there's no pressure from subscribers.

HOMIYOD wild Kemushi at 00:12 !! Ahh what a CUTIE.

Will be here for the next video - take your time! :) Love the way you're handling things!

it nice to see you have a nice day there is nothing wrong with living a normal life especially after the devastating year we had last year you do your thing and we will support you also I love those shots of the moon as a person who can't help but stop and admire it every chance I get

Every video you put up brings a smile. Love your twitch stream. Take care 🌼🌸🌻

Really great and honest video. Thank you so much for making and sharing it 😊

The only "should" a person should ever do, is remove "should" from their vocabulary. There were a lot of "shoulds" around the 3 minute mark, and I just wanted to share this thing to think about since it really helped me with my own mental health and approach towards life. がんばって!

Just this was really lovely and nice! Thank you for sharing your day with us, and I hope you can find a good balance between work and leisure in time (and if you can't, then erring on the side of leisure is probably better)!

Your art work is amazing !!! Don’t stop ❤️❤️

I'm so happy you're happy! And I love the cow print and the little blob dudes 😍 And your t-shirt is cool!

Thank you for the update! The most important thing is that you are taking care of yourself!

I really liked the video that you shared part of your life and thats a beautiful thing as sharing is caring or so as one of the famous saying from forgotten realms say "Joy multiplies when it is shared among friends, but grief diminishes with every division." -Drizzt . I like the chill tunes on the video, really good that your looking after yourself in these muddy days of yours and figuring it out . Self care is important ! Thank you and keep up the good work.

As someone who has also been going through a bit of an identity crisis as well, this is exaclty the kind of content I needed, and I feel really validated in knowing that sometimes this is just how life is. I love your content no matter what you make, so please just take care of yourself and do whatever feels right to you

I love watching you go about your day. It’s really relaxing and inspiring. It may not seem like much, but you’ve motivated me to wash my hair (if you know, you *know*)!

There's something so likable and honest about any video that you put out that I know I will watch it and enjoy it. This was great. I love the little moments and seeing the local bakeries and stuff. And seeing the 月見 picnic. Thanks! Hope you are doing well

Hey Emma, When I was finishing engineering school I was having the exact same guilt feelings. Thoughts would go through my head like “why are you relaxing right now, you dont have a 4.0, you should be studying even more” , “Your stupid companymen, you didn’t ace your test”. It didn’t get better for me until after I finished school, had a mental breakdown and saw a therapist. If you’re not talking to someone right now, I would highly recommend it. What helps me the most is to have a routine. On the weekdays I log into work, finish work and go onto my rower machine for 30 minutes, take a shower, make dinner, work on my startup project, watch TV/ play Destiny and go to bed. On the weekends I go grocery shopping, take a really long walk around the campus of a nearby tech company, bake something, work on my startup project and relax/ play Destiny. (I would hang out with friends too but the pandemic is still kinda not good in the US) I hope this helps and that you feel better soon!

good luck emma you can win in this world xxxx I'm "going through it" rn so it's comforting to see you talk about struggling a bit. I hope you're enjoying yourself lots and chilling

Lovely to see you back... keep well 💕