My First Ayahuasca Experience - Birth, Death & Transformation  

Thank you for this beautiful video, and for sharing so generously your deep experience. This is very helpful. I’m so glad your work has been fruitful! This inspires me to continue my own healing work with courage.

Psilocybin saved my life. I was addicted to heroin for 15 years and after Psilocybin treatment I will be 3 years clean in September. I have zero cravings. This is something that truly needs to be more broadly used in addiction treatment.

Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

Sober, realistic, didactic, focused, interesting. No annoying music in the start, no cuts and fast forwards, no partnerships, no requests for likes or subscriptions. Is this real? Thank you so much! This is a good channel to follow.

This is wonderful, we should be more open to such experiences in society.

I’m not sure if it’s your calming voice, or just your thorough and realistic explanation that had me intrigued. This is new to me and I’ve found myself “skipping” to the interesting parts on other videos. Thank you. This was like a breath of fresh air and extremely relatable in it’s entirety.

This was so my experience. Aya does like a divine surgery in the emotional, mental, energy, and physical body. You did so well explaining how the medicine navigates the psyche.

Was nice to see a person with your level of mindfulness explaining the trip. It was very clear. One of the nicest I’ve heard.

Omg your experience resonated so much with me, 😢 I cried listening to you because my Ayahuasca experience was similar to yours

Wow! You connected with your true self (your 26:57 divinity) which is pure love and light and healed yourself of the trauma of the past 💕🌹

Why do mind-games nullify the best intentions? I remember being stoned with my best friend back in my varsity dorm. We were comfortably lost in one of those deep, meaningful conversations students love to have, unpacking how we saw ourselves in the future. I went on a whole ramble, picturing where I would live, work, what I'd be listening to, reading on my balcony etc etc. It took a while. When I was finally done, my friend looked at me for a while and then simply asked.... "But who are you with?" I was totally blank. I hadn't even considered it. I'm still occasionally given pause by this memory when I'm comfortably alone. I try not to confuse it with being lonely or cobbling it to a phantom, self-soothing inner child. Just my two cents. Not to invalidate your deeply profound experience, of course. Great vid! 😁✌️

This was really moving. Thank you so much for sharing this experience.

I related so much, your ability to put these thing into words is a rare talent

WOW!!! This was my favorite story about ayahuasca. Sounds so beautiful!! I am going on a journey in May and I will look forward to experiencing some connections like this. Thank you for your gentle way of telling your story :)

The first minutes of you explaining how it feels hit me so hard, its perfectly explained!

This has been the best I have heard someone talk about this experience. So thank you.

Thank you for sharing Janusz. The part about the infant part was impactful for me.

My favorite story regarding this topic thus far! Appreciate you

I had a beautiful experience in so many ways - the purging was just a purification of entry. I communed with the beautiful trees around me that influenced me for years to follow. I saw a neon pink web connecting all the stars. It truly is a medicine - shamans blended it, of course. It was 2003. The depth of the heart and soul is endless. It took me 2 years to fully grasp it all. Thank you ~ just found your channel. Your journey was incredible… 🍃🕊️🦋🕊️🍃

I’m hearing the call. This was so well articulated. Thank you. - Some guy from New Zealand.

What an amazing description of your experience. Thank you❤

Thank you for sharing 🙏 I had a very similar experience about crying into the pillow - sue helped me free my pain and not feel ashamed for meeting vulnerable ❤️🙏

Thank you for sharing, that bit about being infant is actually really helpful to hear someone else put words to. I also had a very good experience that kick started a lot of healing in so many places. I think you give good advice, do it when its time.

My journey is on my birthday this September. I feel such a connection to your feelings on being alone. I hope that my experience is similar to yours. It sounds perfect to what I know I need to heal my child self. At first I was nervous for this but I meditated on it and I feel completely at peace now. I am ready. ❤ thank u for sharing your journey.

This was great and very helpful. Thank you for putting this together.

What a thorough breakdown of all the emotional patterns and journey. 🙏🏻

So beautiful, so moving. I so deeply relate. Thank you for sharing.

thank you for this I'm now sure I'm going to take this journey with my love in the upcoming month

I'm so grateful for this video. Thank you for creating it.

Thank you for being brave and sharing your story ❤

Thank you for sharing with so much gentleness and awareness.

wow... your video popped up just like that and I saw it full... this just blowed my mind... thank you so much for this video...

Thank you for sharing this. Especially the part about asking for gentleness and that being responded to. I feel very nervous, but it is time. Three weeks from tomorrow. Oh boy.

In my late teens & 20s my friends and I would do shrooms, Isd, and ecstasy occasionally. Good times! All were positive, fun, spiritual experiences. But, it's been decades. I don't know anyone who knows anyone who can get psychedelics from. I live in LA & there's a Kush store three blocks from my house, but I can't function alone on weed. I wish they sold psilocybin gummies. I'm a little depressed & a little anxious on a regular basis. I'm not a big drinker and I hate taking pills. A bite or two of a chocolate bar, or a cup of mushroom tea everyday would be a godsent for me.

Thank you for sharing 🙏🏻. I'm taking my first Ayahuasca ceremony in New Braunfels Texas then later this year in Belize. I'm scared but yet I know Ayahuasca has been calling me🙏🏻

Wow! ❤ This is the most in depth, expressive, and helpful Ayhawaska experience I've ever heard, and I can also relate very much with a couple things you said about the alone feelings. 😮 I heard this call before I even knew it existed. Dreamt about an experience since childhood, but am waiting until I am fully detoxed off current medication. Thank you from depth of my heart for sharing this. ❤ Love and peace to you always

Wow your experience describes why I could never do the cry it out method with my infant son even though many people pressured me to do it. I intuitively felt the absolute terror and devastation he would feel crying into the dark and no one coming. I learned in my doula training program how His body after being a part of my body was designed to be regulated and comforted by the touch of my skin the sound of my heart beat, the sound of my voice, my smell, the chemicals being released in my body and simultaneously in his. I was the matrix he had lived inside of and been fully supported by for 9 months. I think this translates to when we are adults knowing how to hold ourselves in moments of sadness and fear. Pick up and hold our inner baby. 🙏🧡 thank you for having the courage to do this.

Beautiful Janusz ❤️ such a moving piece

What an unbelievable experience! Thank you so much for being willing to sharing this.❤🙏🏼

Great video. Thanks for sharing. I did Ayahuasca for the first time this month...and this is helping me unravel the downloads

This is such an informative and genuine talk, thank you for sharing 🙏

Great point about the mind and getting out of the head into feel or body embodiment to deal with it. The story about love being painful, infinite love & letting go can feel like that.

Thank you so much for posting this. ❤

Awesome experience ❤❤❤ thanks for sharing 😊I just found myself in your stories ❤❤❤

Thank you so much for sharing your experience in such a wonderful way

EXCELLENT review God bless you I’m learning because of you

Hi from Florida. I watched your video, thank you for sharing your experience with the sacred medicine. I am glad you had a great experience. AHO

I adore how you experienced this beautiful healing journey. I have experienced similar in the ceremonies ive experienced as well. So beautiful. Everything/everyone is there for you but ultimately we go through it alone. It's not easy but beautiful nonetheless...that death amd rebirth. Man oh man....phewwwww...we are never the same after each ceremony. Old patterns deleted and to know we are so protected is beyond. Much love, brother.

thank you for sharing your experience, i took about 7 years ago another type of ayahuasca made from another plants my own and it was so powerfull that it changed my life, it is so powerfull that people should be werry carefull.

Its a powerful experience. Like that one dream you had, youll never forget.

Thank U for sharing your experience Janusz!

Thanks for your video. Awesome. I haven’t done it yet but sooo keen. I do have depression anxiety ptsd adhd. I think it will help me or at least I hope so.

Woww thank you for sharing your story🙏🙏🙏🌟

Thank you! I'm taking Aya next week and have felt very nervous, this video has begun to put my restless mind at ease 💞

Thank you for that really authentic and helpful video - I’m off to Peru in June for my first experience with Aya so really excited and now feeling so much more relaxed and prepared

Great video, you described it very well. Thank you!

Great comprehensive detailed info. Thanks for sharing.

Thanks for description of your depression and the root of it.

Omg. Just finished listening to your explanation and experience with the medicine and cannot believe how much my experience lined up with yours 🙏 l got back home with mixed emotions and feelings about my own experience at Rythmia in CostaRica and now l have more clarity and understanding of what l experienced while in ceremony and why l felt the way l did especially the first night which was really intense for me. Love and light to you brother, l also am dealing with depression at the moment. Paul from 🇨🇦

Listening to (because I listened more than watched) this was mind blowing! I've not had this experience but what you about "this child needed to be heard..." is "dead on" on how I feel. I do want to experience this but feel as if I need to work up to it. Thank you so much for this video 😊

Very good description. Thank you. I think it's time for me to do this for the first time. I would like to do this in the U.S. if possible, but I want to make sure the people are top quality. Are there any top notch retreats in the U.S. or do I need to go elsewhere? I know you can't tell me where to go and what to do, but I would appreciate any advice. I live in a rural area and don't know anyone I could talk to.

Thank you for explaining your journey. I’ve never been on and off off that journey I would try it I’m not saying I’m going to do it anytime soon but like it I live in PA anyway, but I have done my shrooms and I’ve done LSD as a teenagers, but yeah, you know what a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing❤ people definitely need to be prepared and have an intention and have someone there with them like how you did it not all of us so thank you for explaining that and very helpful

Im ready. I trust myself. I surrender.

Wow! What a journey. Thanks for sharing🌿💚

I am very intuitive and psychic and I have had visions and strong premonitions without any drugs…just by meditation and trusting my intuition and soul.

I so want to have this experience. Aya is calling my name. I have know idea where to begin. My journey starts here! Thank you and many blessings 😊❤🙏🏾🫶🏾

I think you got lucky getting gentleness. I've researched people going through hell thus why I haven't done it yet. I've gone through hell most of my life it's hard for me to possibly go through more on purpose even though I know it could transform my life for the better.

Thank you for sharing your experience it was very interesting

That’s really interesting. I think I might feel that “moving energy” very frequently, without any substances.

You HEARD the child bc you gave it a voice through this experience. You heard his voice through your revelation of his experience. Basically your conscience and subconscious revealed itself to you

Love the way you describe your experience. Mine was little more tense .

Boy, really needed to hear this today. Thanks for your genuine sharing.

great walk thru of your experience. What has changed in your life since this experience? Is you life difference, more peace…etc. I am very interested and excited to here the in the after part.

Thank you for sharing🙏🏽

Thank you Janusz! Sharing in such detail this deep experience is so generous of you. I understand everyone has a unique experience, but this does take away a lot of stereotypes and prejudices that I have had. I am curious what you might say about its effects on your mediation practice. Is there a before and after? Also have you noticed any of the sensitivity to wholesome thoughts vs. critical thoughts declining over time?

I'm highly experienced with this medicine, but I'm very curious how your experience with it related to your meditational experiences. From your previous videos you seem to suggest that you've "attained the stream". Did this relate to your experience in the medicine at all? I would suspect that it would at least be easier for you than for someone who is very caught up in mind identification..

Thank you for sharing!

Interesting experience, incredible how the descriptions are so different, personal and as the same way impactful. I recently had a ceremony experience but with Psilocybin. Similarly the guide used music, it was a personal,not group ceremony and the biggest and most impactful moment was at the beginning, the sensation of the music and feeling of moving through this mandala, no time or space sensation and a general feeling of scared and intense aloneness. I was laying down and thought how funny the mind tries to make sense and look for a familiar sensation or meaning, letting go was some what scary, I felt a voice inside me comforting me that I was not alone, but the general feeling I was moving was yes the feeling of being alone. At a certain point in the music a song I recognized came up and I needed to sit up, my guide covered me with a blanket, he later told me he was guided to do this, and I began singing the familiar mantra, and felt a powerful sensation very similar of what you described, not ego based, feeling of power within me, for me feminine divinity power and yes I truly believe, not wanting to name it to a general description but at kundalini movement of energy from my base chackra all energy alignment and up to my head, really amazing. This I was not told it could happen, it might be something just at my experience. After, the guide told me to open my eyes and the rest was more of sensations, as you said energy moving but very positive, just letting go. In a very nature setting with music and drums, experience. Again just sharing. That you for sharing yours!

Thank you so much for sharing your experience.🙏

Thank you for sharing 🙏🏾

Thank you so much. I'm going to go to my first ceremony next Sunday in the Netherlands.

you are the guide ♥

I am so ready to do this.. I felt I wanted to cry.. But I haven't been crying for years.. I know it will be very intense, if I find the right, safe place with like minded people to go through this journey. My missing piece is to find a trusted group auch can lead me to the right tribe. Researching a lot but also my mistrust in anyone doesn't really help me to move on. Greetings from Cambodia, not sure how to sincerely to connect with you..

I think the guide or human you see is yourself. Your higher self is leading the way.

I’ve also heard that some people also had physical healing as well as spiritual and emotional. Could you relay some information about that?

What a beautiful person! Thank you

I’ve listened to LOTS of experience shares, this is one of the very best. Good job bro and many thanks! I’m diving into ceremony next weekend, 🙏

I am adopted and this is extremely comforting to me

As long as you don't smoke it, I couldn't recommend going threw this experience anymore. Especially if you've been hurt or had a experience that is keeping you down in life, great medicine to overcome depression or like myself PTSD. Thanks

Very powerful

I will always be blown away by people who have the most profound experience of their lives when they enter an entirely different plane of existence via Mother Aya and come out of it using the term "woo-woo." I cant imagine referring to others who can tap into different realms using their third eye (the very eye Mother Aya is using to show you who you are, which is a soul having a human experience) without using plants as "woo-woo."

Merci pour les infos

I liked this video a lot especially the part about loneliness and depression. Just a minor point, the word is "contraindicated", a word I learned in my medical studies.

This is my first discovery of you so please forgive me if I ask questions you’ve answered previously. Thank You for sharing your very intimate experience for all of your followers. I’ve been curious, and interested in this for 20 years. Did you get rid of your depression? That’s one reason I want to try this experience. Did you have to go back any more times? Did you feel differently afterwards in a positive way or negative way? Is this totally different than mushrooms or acid if I may ask? I heard this is the most spiritual way, people have said it is something that will never be forgotten. I’m looking in the US, they say around New Mexico in the desert? Any input on that? TY🤩🎵😎🤗✌🏻👍🏻😃🤔🥳🎧☀️

Why are most of the videos about Ayahuasca have same video parts where there are blue people with blue veins? Is it given to you to show in your video or people are just copying the clips? What is the name of the place in Iquitos you went to?

A key difference between mushrooms and ayahuasca experience is dosage inconsistency. Many experience ayahuasca at dosages that likely be equivalent to 7 grams of mushrooms. Experiencing mushrooms at heroic dosages like that completely changes the experience into a much more mystic, spiritual and internal experience.

I have been meditating for over 32 years & have now evolved a body that is hyper sensitive to certain foods-cereals/gluten intolerance. This is similar to what NDE experiencer Amy Call narrated when she stated she was shown how certain foods are now becoming TOXIC to our spiritual evolutionary potential ...have you noticed this phenomenon.?

Which retreat center did you go to? Awesome video, just awesome! So much wisdom gained from just listening to it. Maybe because you went and cleared this stuff up, I don't have to :)

Just curious. Why didn't you link the retreat or the trip you went to for the trip?

I think it’s not some entity, l believe it’s your own higher self, your soul. You are detaching from a human programs and becoming just consciousness where you can feel , hear and enter your soul’s achieves.