one year of grief. | how I am, how I cope, how I find joy. 

Grieving is a form of loving. 😇

my year has also been filled with grief with no end in sight. i had to make a difficult decision to leave my dream job that i'd spent so long waiting to achieve. i moved into an apartment that has so many issues and that i hate spending time in. i feel isolated from the people i love because i live 30 minutes away from my old apartment/life. my depression has been terrible since february, making me not want to clean or cook or care for myself beyond the minimum. my new job already has me burnt out from boredom /and/ it doesn't even pay the bills. i can't find jobs that pay more that i'm qualified for. i feel so stuck. the grief is overwhelming, grieving the life i enjoyed so much previously, grieving all that has changed. thank you for the reminder to return to God. i've stayed with Him this whole time, but have been trailing behind. i haven't prayed or spent time in the Word. i just want to skip ahead to when things get better, and i forget that it takes effort, and patience, and faith to get there. our grief is very different, but i still grieve alongside you and am grateful for this video.

Wow…. Thank you for sharing. Hearing you talk about your love and pain brought me to tears but thank you so much for your strong faith. God is using you to bless others. Praying for you ❤️❤️

You couldn't have explained grief any better than you did in this video! As someone who is no stranger to loss and grief, I think you are wise beyond your years and I hope with all my heart the Lord brings someone special into your life when the time is right! 🙏💖

Thanks for the update! I hope you find a great love someday. Prayers to you and your family.

Thanks Sophia for sharing your journey with us!! Hoping for u to heal soon. Sending u lots of love and strength from India.❤❤

I really really needed to hear some of this. I haven’t lost my bf, he is still here with me, but just life in general has been very rough lately. I have a hard time finding and choosing joy a lot of days, and lately my hope for the future has diminished a significant amount. I feel beaten down and tired, and I sometimes feel so angry at God and question why nothing seems to be working out. Sometimes I feel guilty for not being more happy or more thankful, but some days are just so heavy. Thank you for posting this, and for sharing so much of what has helped you and what you have learned. We are not going through the same pain or struggles, but your words have spoken to me nonetheless. ❤️ thank you so much for this ❤️

Always look forward to your videos! God does have a plan for you and I'm thinking and praying for you. Thanks for sharing your journey it truly helps and provides comfort to others that grieve a loss. Excited for you moving to a new house with your friends❤ Hope you and your Mom do another vacation vlog😊

You are such a treasure and your videos are always a huge blessing 🙏🏼❤ so thankful for you 💛

So sorry to hear this and what you’ve been through xx

Your videos make me cry so much, in the best way…

One of my best friends passed on New Year’s Eve he’d been a best friend of mine 16 years 💔💔💔 I miss him so so much 💔💔💔 just keep crying

Such a great video. Honored to have my question featured!!

First I want to say that even though I personally can’t say anything to truthfully help with all of the hurt that you have been feeling, and been through, but that I am so sorry for your loss. Just know that you have grown so much through this and that God and Luke are right by your side guiding to where you’re meant to be. You’re such a young beautiful, smart, and mature girl. You’re also so well spoken it’s insane. I never comment on videos, but I just wanted to say that :) Also, your poem gave me goosebumps and it was very powerful. You got this, and just always do your best because that’s all you can do. I’m praying for you girl :)🤍

The faithfulness and trust you have in Jesus is truly beautiful and inspiring Sophia! Praying your pure soul🤍

Good morning happy Saturday morning and I loved your vlogs and you are amazing Supporter and I'm proud of you

I know how it feels I just lost my sweet heart Taylor on Wednesday morning. We do not know what happened her mom went to wake her up. But she never woke up. I’m not doing too well now I hope this video will help me.

I REALLY NEEDED THIS VIDEO ! I have been challenged to keep my JOY. And JOY is actually my spiritual word for this year along with my verse for the year Romans 15:13 "may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the holy spirit" ... circumstances ripped a lot of my joy away but this is chellenging my Faith and growing it as well. I just really needed somebody like you as a REMINDER ! So thanks for uploading this video❤

I loss my dad back in 2014 and there’s some days I feel like giving up and just crying but ik that imma get through it

Finding joy in your life starts with appreciating even the smallest details. The smallest things tend to be overlooked sometimes.

I cried so much during this video, so thank you, this is relatable ❤ My bf did not die, but we had to split up after almost 8 years. We were also engaged but had some issues. It's been 2 weeks and I am also grieving like you, not totally in the same way but still, I have a lot of the same thoughts as you do. I feel like God made it very very clear to me that He would restore our relationship, so I am truly in a state of anger and confusion. What hurts me the most is the idea that one day my ex-bf might replace me with someone else, if that is Gods plan. I poured everything I had into this relationship and gave all that I had, without thinking about it. The thought of him just replacing me and him loving anyone else is literally unbearable to me, after all that I did for him and for us, and I don't know how I can handle it. Or maybe God will still restore our relationship, I don't know. So it's not only the immense pain of losing someone I shared so many years with, but above all such a big struggle in my walk with Jesus. I try to spend time with Him but it doesn't do anything for me, at least that's how it feels. Tbh it feels like God is very far from me. I cry out to Him, but He doesn't answer me. It feels like He has forgotten me. I know that God says in His word that He is close to the brokenhearted, but sometimes I even doubt if He is real, because He seems so far. I won't tell the whole story here, but I made a lot of sacrifices for Him these last years. I know I will probably get over this confusion someday and find back my faith, but right now that seems impossible. Anyway, thank you again for this video, you are truly an example to me. ❤

What a good person you are

Hi Sophia! have you used any other sources to help with grieving other than the lord, like therapy or family? Much love Evan

Thank you ❤

God bless you 😇

Hello Sophia, I just want to thank you because when I was in the same position as you. I started following my Tarot's, Angel Numbers and trying to ,,manifest'' the person back. After I asked God ( why does this always happen to me ) It led me to Neville Goddard and his cultists who basically teach that only I exist and everyone in the Universe is a creation of my mind and they don't have thoughts of their own. They also blamed me for everything bad happening in the Universe ( covid, the war and etc. ). So not only did I suffer from my biggest heartbreak I had to suffer from huge derealization and had to visit therapy because of this people and their statements. Yours was the first Law of attraction / Christianity video I watched that brought me some of my faith back and on the right path. And sure I still hurt over my about to be wife, but I am glad I got back to my religion more. P.S - What I find funny is that many people like me had the experience of saying or thinking why does this always happen to me and discovering Neville ( thinking its a signal from God). The enemy really prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.

Life gives you what you needed not what you like in life.

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Hello I have been seeing your videos since 2017

Hi! My birthday is tomorrow

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Luke died?

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Hlo ❤

If you consider replacing your dead boyfriend then the lord who is just will be against you on the day of judgement. This will only contradict god and god Is perfect without any contraction. Please don’t replace your lost one. How would you feel if the roles were swapped around. How would he feel that he died loving you and you just left him for someone else.

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