People said i can't make chaos so i made the calmest chaos ever 

u good?

Dang that’s deep, you okay?

As an adult who was, indeed, abused as a child, this is actually extremely accurate. The piano melody creates such a dichotomy, incorporating peaceful elements, but with an underlying tension…then, the sharp percussion perforating the notes is almost violently jarring, but somehow still flows, keeping in perfect tempo. This piece reminds me of a flashback of childhood trauma, of a thin, fragile illusion of peace, appearing content on a surface level while balancing on eggshells. The memory continues, engulfing you, and the sharpest pieces begin to fall into place. Piercing through the false portrayals of happiness that you now can recognize was a lie all along, an act upheld to shield your mind from the pain and the bitter stings of betrayal. The two tones that are set are cacophonic and unsettling, feeling like they should oppose each other…until you realize they’re in tempo with each other. Perfectly aligned. That mask of calm was always devised to conceal what was underneath. Not by you, but by your abuser. Because they couldn’t afford to have someone see what horrors lay beneath the surface. Except you knew. You saw. You felt everything. And now, it’s all on repeat, over and over again, a never-ending melody. (Sorry, I got really into this interpretation. Thanks for humoring me and my silly little ramble.)

i'm good this song is just what it feels like

Nah it sounds like the average rhythm game song

omg imagine being born 2 seconds ago and this starts blasting in your ears

@@litterbox019 Is it even possible? Or is that a question i have to answear? :)

@@H8_870 i'm not sure if it's possible, but i would like to see it answered

Azali was one of my main inspirations 😭 In some way, they gave me the courage to post my own music since i was (and still kinda am) to post every single track i think fits some standard

@@H8_870 im gonna show azali this song on discord. ill let you know what they think

@@H8_870 So i showed them Collapsing Chaos and they said "sounds pretty good ! I like their sense of composition personally feel their mixing feels a little bit amateurish however lots of it is focused into the mids and mid highs, which gives it a stuffy feeling there's also some frequency voids which makes things feel a little empty if they eqed some elements highs up or added some other instruments/sound design to fill up those gaps, it would sound really really good though the nice thing is that those changes aren't so hard to do really" Keep going man !

​@@TXRHolyYou showed my song to AZALI??? Wow they must have grown pretty tired of me after all this time :) But funny enough, i hardly mix, i don't really try mixing, i go 85% by year so yeah. I love AZALI's work tho Also You must be pretty lucky to have AZALI on discord!!

​@@H8_870 Haha, Azali is probably tired of me asking them for advice all the time too. AZALI's super nice though. Always gives the best advice with real passion. I rlly see your potential though. Keep going !

a reference that *_I_* get?? preposterous

Woah, beeing compared to AZALI is kind of an achievement honestly 😭 Maybe one day i'll surpass him :)

I hope so ! (*^ω^)

The funny breakcore drums

: )

@@H8_870 NAAH that shts serious i wont sleep because of you

@@Tryio.probablyadev It's all jokes dw!!! 😭😭

@@H8_870 NAAAHW ITS TOO LATE You dont joke around with args MY BRAIN CANT JUST SWITCH FROM NORMAL MODE TO THEORIST MODE TO NORMAL AGAIN, YOU ARE GONNA LIVE WITH THE CONSEQUENZES NOW I WILL OVERANALYZE EVERY, SINGLE FRAME, NOTE, WORD, COLOR EVERY UPLOAD EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOUR VIDEOS LOOK WHAT YOU HAVE DONE I HEAR THE GAMETHEORIST INTRO IN MY HEAD 24/7

Bro its in the video titles and descriptions if you put it all together

@@iamthecatikatz8764 I'd wish

@@saladealer fl studio 21 But there are also free version of it! As the version i use îs paid

Obviously, if im credited though!

You will, dw. (if you need to contact me. just send me your discord.)

I have 0% MUSICAL THEORY/KNOWLEDGE I do all by ears 😭😭😭

​@@H8_870you've gotta be kidding me! I mean I tried to make beats with FL studio and eventually I made too, but I can't understand all the effects and patterns and mastering etc.. the things which actually makes sound more amazing.

​@@H8_870But you are creating very crazy stuff, keep the flow going, I always like to listen your work man! you are a GOAT.

@@deniswastaken I'm trying my best not to dissapoint!!! There are people there who make better music than me, makes me wonder if i actually should learn some theory haha, without it i doubt i have any chanse in this industry Thank you! ^^

@@H8_870 oh yes, you should learn some music theory especially different modes and scales, because it'll help you to give different moods to your music. it's really an essential thing, once you have some spare time.. like a little ( one week ) vacation, you can learn enough of theory in that time.