PTSD and Kundalini Awakening | What I Wish I Knew  

What to Do if Kundalini Energy Feels Out of Control Learn how to control kundalini energy Immediately stop spiritual practices that over-stimulate the spine. Find a good spiritual counselor. If there isn’t one available in the meditation tradition you follow, ask God to guide you to someone who can help you. Mentally surround yourself with Light. Keep a picture of a great master or saint, like Yogananda or Jesus, and pray deeply for help as needed. Get plenty of exercise and fresh air. Breathe deeply while outdoors. Ground yourself in nature by working with plants or by walking barefoot on the grass or beach. Work with young children. Lead a balanced life. Get plenty of rest and eat a well-balanced diet with enough protein. Learn how to deal with stress. Be expansive and think of others. Avoid intense self-involvement. Don’t be afraid. Sometimes all that is needed is a slight course correction in your meditation routine and/or daily life. Remember, God is with you and guiding you through this experience. In time, everything will work out for the best.

You left me speechless. My big one happened 5 years ago after a prolongued period of unimaginable pressure, sleep deprivation, and gaslighting. My nervous system went haywire and I finally got diagnosed with lupus, which I've had my whole life. I was pretty close to death. Something was obviously rebalancing because I spontaneously took up art -- almost obsessively. Thanks for sharing this. Most of us think we're going nuts.

Thank you so much for this!! The energy of Kali is exactly what I have been experiencing for the last few years. She is the image of divinity that I align with the most, which has been so strange to me, given my Christian upbringing. The purging and cleansing is what I'm in the thick of right now and you're totally right about the righteous rage. I just randomly cry and have fits of emotions, especially after doing something releasing like yoga or dream interpretation. It's a really hard path because no one even knows kundalini exists, and even those who do know, think that it is psychosis. It's a double edged sword because I've gained a lot of awareness, but it's not an awareness I can explain to other people, which makes it very lonely.

Yes honey. Hardcore intense no words unbelievably challenging and terrifying experiences I have had. Almost six years now. I can’t find anyone who really talks about the raw bones of the process … the real process. Thank you. Cause I start feeling psychotic thinking I’m caught in a nightmare I don’t understand.

Unlike any other post about Kundalini. I love your sharing. I experienced and experience similar things. After more than 8 years, thinking it was a lot better and easier I got ripped apart again. And still have faith because I experienced these dark nights before and know I come out with healed parts that I could not imagine. The proces is magical I cannot understand, only surrender to it. Mych love. So happy to have found your video

I went through the same thing. In my case it was about 8 years ago and I can say that after processing emotions everyday, having hundreds of dead ends, guessing, misinterpretating I finally got to the place where I can just feel every emotion without any judgement and just let it go through my body and integrate it with my psyche. I would say that it is a process of emotional maturing that average teenager went through but for us with complex ptsd it didn’t happen naturally because of traumatic blockages. And now we just have to deal with every suppressed emotion and understand what they are about and learn how we really felt in our childhood/adolescence life.

There is Nothing in life that feels better than finding someone who can relate to something you may be going through. This is a difficult & confusing journey. I have happy & sad 😭 tears right now. I was just wondering "What have I done so bad in my pass life to have so much pain in this life"!!😢💔 Thank you for your content!!... 💞 I'm not crazy!!😅 Nervous 😬..... Not crazy!!😅

im ONLY 18 and already almost been a year since it went hay wire. i attemopted death several times at its height, so dont lose hope everyone it takes time to re stabalize your life. im now going to college and starting to get involved in clubs/routines again slowly.

Thank you so much for your openness and compassion for us. Experiencing these awakenings while also working on trauma and PTSD simultaneously in isolation had been extremely challenging for me. But that was part of my process in learning how strong and brave I really was. I encourage you as you encourage me. We will continue this journey with new understanding everyday and do it together!

Bless your soul. Thank you sister. I’m gonna start sharing my experiences on my Channel too. It’s scary when you don’t know what’s happening. We definitely need to share our experiences to help the collective as we all ascend.

I can't believe I found you. It's like you're a friend who told me what I needed to hear. October 25th, 2001, 22 yrs ago, I was "Re-birthed" with the classic rebirthing model set out by Sondra Ray, (see the book, "Loving Relationships"). At first it was BLISS! Then after the honeymoon was over it was like trying to clean up the Twin Towers Disaster with a teaspoon! I had so much purging to do!! Unbeknownst to me, somewhere along the line, my Kundalini was awakened. I have no idea when, but it did. This is a double whammy because my past was filled with INTENSE TRAUMA. I suffered at the talons of a Demon of Fear that had attached itself to me when I was very young. It would hit me with surges of FEAR LIKE WAVES of LAVA as I lie in my bed as a teenager. The demon never spoke. It only injected venomous "Fear Poison" into my body. This when on for many years. I got delivered in my early 20's. . . . but the shit was still inside of me, the fear energy. Back to my "Re-birth Day" and the sly Kundalini Awakening on top of that, I was propelled into a spiritual journey of the most bizarre and painful proportions! My nervous system is shot to shit but has been in "The Process" of healing for 22 yrs now. To the degree that I was traumatized (tortured) is to the degree my system is being overhauled and re-worked. I've been to healer after healer and course after course to find out, fix, remedy, and just find some relief to my condition. Watching your video puts my "condition" into perspective and sheds light of my plight. Thank you! There is hope - - - there is relief - - - there will be an end to this suffering and pain & a beginning of something different (maybe not for another 20 yrs, though). I resonated with your words. Many thanks. You are not alone . . . nor am I.

I got same stuff going on. Came to a head around 1995/6, i got in a situation where it was damned if u do damned if u dont. Loads of supernatural events started occurring in my life, which I am not interested in talking about, but I got the idea, life is not as I was assuming it was. I'm still all over the shop but doing better at not acting like I am. BUT one thing that keeps cropping up for me, is something central to what I consider ME is not having it! It insists on getting the nearest it can to authenticity. My superficial personality is like, yeh, ok, whatever, but what is underneath is volcanic, in that it that it puts up with stuff until I find myself doing inexplicable things. I've been trying to set up something for ages, to make a group of people who've experienced similar out there experiences for common support. But not easy. I think most just want to be free of IT, including my superficial personality. So it's like I have to carry on experiencing 'bad' stuff or I'd give up trying to help others. I have had moments of freedom from all mental suffering, but it wasnt blissful, more a resignation and it was as unbearable, for my inner personality seemingly as the mental torment to my outer personality is. I helped set up a group previously when I lived in London, under the spiritual crisis network umbrella, but eventually we all got so WELL that it just dissolved as everyone decided to move out of London, haha. I lived in a forest for a while and 100% helped. If I could manage it I'd live by a river in a forest. 99% of ailments dissolved and needs rather than wants prevailed in the mind. But would be good to chat to someone who's in it for the longhaul and looking to do stuff for others suffering too but in a low key everyday kind of way. And I get the crying, I cry every single day but I'm ok with it now cos I realise it's just passion near the surface. But other people are so freaked by crying, by an unapologetic man, Ur the 1st person I've come across though who's talking about it in the way I am. No fancy dressing it up, no bells and fancy clothing, just this is f8*%ing tuff.but necessary. Shame you're in the States? But I'm always looking to network with sympaticos Have a nice day. cheers

I had a spontaneous awakening following EMDR therapy for cPTSD 2 years ago. I also had plant medicine experiences which opened things up, but the awakening itself happened outside of those experiences. I was also just beginning a meditation practice and consciously starting to work through a chakra blockage. BAM! The experience itself was transcendent. I eat better, exercise regularly, and so much more conscious, but like you said, it's a process. Like, I'm on this upward spiral. I still have painful feelings, but I pause and go inward instead of grasping at all the external straws outside myself. I feel like it happened because my energy body was ready for it to happen, but so many experiences, revelations, etc. I'm slowly connecting in community, but that part has been really hard. I need community but it's even harder to relate to other people and I can't be anyone who's inauthentic in any way now... it just hurts. I'm blessed to be in a career that is both secure and doing meaningful work, but the connection thing is hard. I have loving relationships in my life, but no one I know who directly understands what this feels like. Maybe it's just that connecting had always been hard and I just can't bypass it any longer. I'm not sure.

Thank you very much for sharing this. I had a kundalini awakening about 3 years ago. As other people that I later heard about, it was induced by LSD, so I wasn't truly ready for that experience. It very much amplified the pain of trauma while other times experiencing states of bliss and union. I'm currently treating PTSD, having a hard time to integrate thoughts and feelings and my head feels full of a stagnant kundalini energy along with feelings of fear and doubt that sometimes become overwhelming. Sometimes I manage to surrender and open the doors to that current through spiritual practices. I don´t know if it's ok for me to share too much about it yet because I still have a lot to heal, but your sharing makes me feel less alone in this experience and gives me confidence to keep allowing myself to grow. Thank you thank you 🙏

I do my sun got murdered and sheesh when I say it’s been out of this galaxy of human comprehension I totally get you. My kundalini ripped from my spine through my crown chakra and it’s the heads seeing all like a toteum pole. It’s been 8 years of first getting to an awareness that I lost my child then going through CPTSD therapy then different spiritual systems now I’m just spending time alone without anybody. I’m so glad you spoke on this thank you for using your power to even share this.

Well done for talking about it… mine blew in 2012. I had no idea what was happening to me at the time and I took years to stabilise and process the energies. Now, I’m unrecognisable from my previous self. It took some getting here though and yes; facing and processing the trauma was key. Your advice of, ‘just keep going’ is good advice 👍

Thankyou thankyou thankyou. Your honesty and courage is refreshing. Sending you lots of love. I am in year 5 of processing kundalini awakening and dealing with PTSD. It started as an explosion of memorie from pre birth in the womb and processing each year and now I I have moved into when I was 5. I am highly aware now of ancestral trauma and how it gets passed down, how we are imprinted in our mothers womb, how as children we are imprinted again by unsolved traumas within our family, how cycles keep repeating. I work closely with my guides and am reminded I am a catalyst for change. And I am seeing this change within my birth family. So much more love, gentleness, respect and kindess. It is beautiful. Yes I still have to choose at times do zi suurrender to love and peace of my Spirit or do I continue the old patterns of rage and hurt. So I choose to love.I feel I hold more light now than ever before, am beginning to feel the beginnings of true freedom. I remember my past lives. How I have learnt to be a leader a teacher to hold the light speak the truth. My guides remind me I was an innocent child. That those who harmed were not holding the light, so brainwashed and traumatised and repeating old family/societal patterns of behaviour or deliberately choosing to harm. Bloody scary stuff to remember, the intensity of remembering was truly dreadful . But the breakthroughs have been awesome!!!! I now see hear and feel my guides and talk them all the time. I have morning and eveningsessions with them, both like I am a student and a patient. I asked for then for this. I needed their reassurance, their love clarity and wisdom and humour.so I didn't feel alone anymore. I have also asked this kundalini awakening be a gentle process now, and that I give them permission to either knock me out or I sit in the illumination of their love and wisdom so I don't feel the intensity of the pain anymore. Interestingly during these times if I try to do something else I mentally fall into the distress of the trauma being released. So I am learning to accept this is my 'work' for now. I work only part time now. Now I see myself as one mighty light peaceful warrior and have moved out of anger disillusionment and despair to often now belief knowing love happiness again and so much wiser. . Yes I feel frustration and yes intense sorrow arises at times when I let rip with pure bluntness to perpetrators at times but it doesn't last long. I even giggle at the reality, I am becoming free of them. I feel this freedom. So I write to let you know. The work even though it's been the toughest thing I have ever done-The rawness has left me bare and broken so many times but after going through each release, the triumph is amazing!!. just as nature renews itself after a drought, a fire so I am renewed. My guides tell me I have another two years, the first 5 years were about undoing , allowing the traumas to rise, be felt, be witnessed be transformed. Year 6 and 7 will be about rebuilding my life in all areas. Nurturing myseld and others and sharing my gifts and wisdom. I ask all those reading this, Nurturing your inner child is an absolute must. I have found by doing so and freeing her from the padt, she is teaching me to trust in life again, sharing with me my soul wisdom. You will get through this to anyone starting out on this journey. I recommend move your body to release fear, even if it's wiggling fingers and toes, and express safely your emotions. Eat well, stay hydrated, hug a tree go out into mature, unplug from social media, when things get intense, slow deep breaths, anything that calms fown your nervous system i stopped eating sugar, minimised watching tv, went into nature as often as I could and gave myself permission that it was ok to have a nap, to hide under the bed covers and go gently. Ask Spirit to nurture you. Ask what is the best path forward every day. Because your guides do hear you and want to help.when you feel their love OMG, life truly transforms Xx

I totally agree with you regarding the concepts of karma and past lives to be used as an excuse not to do anything to face and stop absuse. I think it helps people to not face their own discomfort. My pattern being resolved was not one.of being a predator, it was one of generational matriarchal lineage powerlessness. Thanks for sharing. Brave and genuine.

You are so strong for posting this ❤️. I have went through exactly what you mentioned and agree that it isn’t talked about enough - I don’t feel as alone now!

Just found your page! I cried with you💜💜 thanks for holding space! Im 2 years into this journey and i am tired but i have hope... and you are right about us all sharing our story it really helps💪! This really helped me! Thank you glad to have found you ❤🙏

I can see the universe expanding I can awaken to the idea that I’m source energy but I am so TIRED lately I can’t stop sleeping!!!!!

I’m going through this too, thank you for sharing. I feel like I’m walking a tight rope with my mental health and spiritual awakening balancing parallel (for which I’m grateful because at least it’s balanced)

I recently healed my trauma with my narcissistic abusive parents. The next day after cutting contact with them and forgiveness feeling complete - I had my 3rd kundalini energy shoot up and I hadn’t experienced the Kriyas and body trembles. I felt amazing after and now learning more on this. Thanks for sharing your story. PTSD is real. The best advice I have for anyone reading this is to take your time and heal at your own pace. Daily habits and practices. My journeys been 3 years and I just now have gotten to a level of understanding and bliss.

You are Amazing . Thank you . I am able to meditate and get into what a love state ( bliss) , I mean body tingles , feel like I'm floating , ect. ,but I never understood the anger or frustration that would come sometime later . I so moved by the way you explained this . I can now see I need to meditate more . Thank you for being such a beautiful soul . I am truly grateful for you.

I cried for you , and me , and all of us , bless

3/4 years in. When your whole perception of you you thought you were is smashed! A lot of childhood trauma. I had a really good year then it crashed again. Old pains more intense than ever resurfacing the ever inward spiral 🌀

thank you for being so realistic/neutral

There are soooo many people on RU-vid trying to talk about this subject. Watching your videos, I can easily tell you're "legit"! Part of this struggle has to do with cutting certain people out of your life who don't want to evolve. Some of those people are family.. Food is HUGE! More specifically, how your digestive system deals with certain foods.

I like that you're so authentic

Mine is vibrating my body now. I believe it’s rising. I have been meditating for 3 years now. It was nice to listen to Thank u I’m a little scared.

You are such a beautiful being ❤

Helped me so much! In the midst of mine. No idea what was happening at all. ❤️

Thank you for sharing. This is exactly what I needed to hear. Been going through so much lately, that this information resonates deeply 🙏

I'm grateful for your share ❤this is so hard I'm tired of sufferage

Thank you for sharing this! ✨

Thank you so much for this

Helped me. Thank you so much!

Oh yes, happened to me spontaneously in November. I had to “reverse engineer” what the heck happened. It is profound and a blessing. Just keep moving forward and to find out your truth. Dr. Joe Dispenza and Delores Cannon were and are so helpful. Welcome to the AWAKENING!!! Thank you for sharing!!!

Thank you. I needed this, sending so much love 🤗

thank you for sharing. much love to you.

❤ thank you for the enlightenment and great job.

You have a brightness in your eyes!

Thank you so much for this video. I had a spontaneous kundalini awakening 2 years ago. I was given clairsentience and clairvoyance but little claircognizanse, feeling and seeing everything but not knowing the rationale, has given me what I feel is PTSD. I appreciate you opening up and explaining some things, this was a great video, I wish I saw it 2 years ago.

people dont talk about it cause they say everyone has trauma. the last person i tried to get help from who was a kundalini therapist said this to me. its alwasy what they say. i dont blame em but it doesnt feel very fair to me. i have the sorts of trauma that usually knock twenty years off your life easy. lucky for me with the kundalni i will probs heal. i was at deaths door before the awakening. my body is almost normal now health wise. "no heirachy of trauma" is what keeps the most damaged down. same as how people thinking they are skint keeps the people in real poverty totally invisble. a study recently said that if you bring up povrty, fifty per cent of people will staight away bring up there own troubles. tahts what the most messed up people in the world are up against. ive had to let go of weeks of rage as you can tell. thanks for this video i really dont see anything like this and both ptsd and kundalini people dont undertand neevrmind both togtehr.

Divine timing with this video. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Thank you and bless you. I send you all love 💖

Thank you for this video ❤ Bless your soul!

You are a beautiful experience helping me feel beauty and guidance. Thank you.

This is the most emotional video i have seen about Kundalini Awakening. Most of the times we are only sold the dream of the experience and never the downside. Thank you very much for the video, it is very helpful.

I'm so happy you share this, and in such a personal way. In kundalini yoga we touch on trauma and how yoga/ meditation / mantras can work for recovering, but in my opinion only on the surface. It's not an official part of the level 1 and 2 training. Meanwhile I see many students and teachers with trauma that use KY, but mostly to become stronger, meaning feel less. They don't really process or heal, at least that is how I see it. Recently, I started learning about trauma sensitive yoga and the theory behind it (mostly from David Emerson). I learned how trauma effects the body and so many domains in life. Also that recovering is a multilayer reclamation. Also Peter Levine speaks about the recovering from trauma, and that this often felt as a rebirth, as a spiritual experience. Personally I was drawn to yoga intuitively when I was a student at the university. At that time I didn't know how traumatized I was. Now in my fifties, and a lot of hard work later, my experience and understanding of yoga and trauma and spirit is deeper, and I start to feel how they are connected. Many blessings ❤

🙏 you are just describing the state i am going through and I am tired ..it resonates completely..

Thank you !

Thank you so very much for sharing your kundalini awakening 🙏🏽I’ve also experienced Kundalini Awakening 🥹it was such a powerful mind blowing moment 😩I nearly fell to the floor 😅Sending love and light beautiful🫶🏽Stay Shining Your Light 🌬️💨💨💫✨💫✨💫✨💫🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍🦋🤍

Finding a teacher is not easy , most of them are people who have had the same difficult experience with the kundalini energy . But now they ask for example like € $ 80 for a hour ....I mean no harm but not everyone can afford it My ego have a vision 🤭 that is one day to make this kind of help and support available for everyone Thanks for the video,s they really help ✨🙏🙏

Thank you for sharing your experience it takes a lot of courage. Looking back over these experiences two things come to mind. One I was never alone ,second today when emotion arise overwhelmingly I can embrace then knowing that it's a growing process. Thanks

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither wildly as they slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind Possessing and caressing me [Chorus] Jai Guru Deva, Om Nothing's gonna change my world

Wow.I feel you.I know what you mean.Much love.I love you❤❤❤❤

Thanks! We're getting thru it eh? It's intense. Take care.

I’m sure you’ve heard of Gopi Krishna? His awakening was traumatic but then I’ve heard others have much smoother Kundalini experiences. It’s a bit confusing but I suppose everyone has a different past.

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Without the ptsd one would not experience what is known as a "kundalini awakening" otherwise known as body coming out of stress mode...The body waking up, nerves waking up feeling good instead of feeling horrible

I was the same ,i had lots of little awakening ,then a full one . Also PTSD .. I felt mentally healed after the full blown,but i still see things in my reality .Inwould love to talk to you ,as iv not been able to talk to anyone with your understanding on the ptsd level ..❤

Bravo …. I have been in meditation many years and I am having kundalini experiences … I have good support and a guru … your comments were reassuring … they were helpful to me …. I have little fear … better yet when some fear arrises over the process … listening to others gone before helps … warm regards

Thank you so much for your candor. I'm in this process and have been so confused, as I have been doing trauma work this year along with exploring Kundalini Yoda. Your wisdom resonates... so helpful.

I don’t know if this was my experience but I didn’t have much childhood trauma to my knowledge so I leave it for others 🙏

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Thank you for sharing. What are the morning/evening routines and food and self care you would recommend???

You’re incredible! Just wondering though, if you’ve been through the full awakening why is that you sound sad? I thought at that point you’re full of bliss? ❤

Thanks a lot for talking about this. How long before your mini versions of Kundalini until you have a full blown one? What are the symtoms you had then? Thanks a lot and much love to you

I dont know how much it helps when Kundalini say clearly: So you think its hard for you, know that there are countless others who feel worse. Okay, so i am nuts in this messed up world, but is it true? I think its a lot worse for those who adapt to society and keep the machinery up and running. ❤

Get a closer relationship with god. His there all the way. Ask for what you need. Trust trust trust. Feel it to heal it. Have your trusted support mechanism. Im here a year later and boy am i glad to say IM SO MUCH BETTER!

Ya. Shit has been God damn wild. Nonstop pressure in my solar plexus. Throat muscles always clinched up. The critic keeps telling me I'm just fucked up and that nothing spiritual is happening and that it's all hopeless. I keep bringing in the new spiritual energies of Love and Safety to my Heart and to the base of my spine and my body is bugging out. A total shit show. Thanks for sharing your experience with this. Feels less lonely.

Can you explain more about the gas and brake pedal please?

I’ve been bedridden with incredibly intense kundalini syndrome. Whole body purifications non stop, deep vibrating, muscle contractions, heat…. The heavier contracting has stopped now and it’s just deep vibrations but it saps all my energy. You’re saying this slowed down and settled for you? The purifications became less severe and the kundalini became energizing instead of draining? It’s hard to see that light at the end of the tunnel from my position right now.

I think its the worst thing ever because it disrupts your life and I don't see the bright side.

That you got all here years experience like you I got tinnitus from upload video set up level 8 now 2 for 4 years miserable cops now state from investigating me apple told so much still here didn't kill my self 😊😊

That have all weirdos here they say actually they're truth seekers see that real life trauma experience 😊

She seems like a real nice sweet girl.

Why is there no medical term for Kundalini if it is so physically effecting?

Did you heal ?

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I just feel very lonely

I respect anyone who says I don’t understand this thing, so I don’t want to talk on it, but I will give you my perspective. I appreciate that point of view Thank you even though I don’t particularly relate my experience to yours. I understand at all experiences are different. I guess that’s part of the beauty of life.

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