You’re easily the most respectable “influencer” (hate that word) & always have been. You never sell out, your level of privacy is spot on IMO & you’re clearly a brilliant Mum, an inspirational business woman & although I can’t relate to lots of aspects of your life (your house 😍 wow) I still find you relatable & will continue to watch you for as long as you produce content 👍🏻 x
It is SO refreshing to hear someone just lay out how shitty this year has been. I am so done with hearing people talk about how they’ve “discovered an inner resilience” or how many new things they’ve tried. I really appreciate your openness about everything ❤️❤️
@@fivebyfivewhat to other people's struggles? Maybe, although I also think it's important to show that you can be happy in unusual circumstances, it's all about attitude. (I say this having many difficulties too)
I had the best year because I did not let politician lies and games get into my way! I worked on my body while locket for months. Started my fashion blog and started a lot of other projects! :) Just do whatever you want from what you have!
Fleur in regards to positive things about yourself - I was actually thinking about how much you seem to have grown as a person in the last year. To promoting BLM, a plant based diet and advocating for sustainability I feel you have been one of the few influencers really using your platform for good. Discussing your miscarriages online is courageous and you should be proud of yourself, I think you are incredibly strong to discuss such a difficult time in your life with such candour and honesty. I have watched you for years and have seen how much you have grown. You're a great mum, wife and boss business lady and I hope this year gets better for you, sending all the love ♥️ Thank you for this very open and honest video!
Having a dedicated sustainability playlist, genuinely looking inwards and reflecting on your behaviours, to attempt to strive for a better world, can't respect that enough!
I really admire how open you have been, I think it will make people struggling with fertility feel less alone. Informative as well. River is a little doll!
This is so honest and fresh, a lot of ‘Q&As’ are just basic easy answers. No influencer is obligated to share, but i appreciate that since you decided to you were real and honest with us.
The guilt is sadly because society has been telling women for millennia that they should stay at home with their children, and when women first went to work they were shamed. Both stay at home and working mums are doing great!!
I love how open, candid and honest you were in this video! Would love to see more content like this from you! I hope everything works out on the baby front. I’m sure all will be well. I know it’s probably no consolation, but at least you’re still young. Imagine how anxious you would be if you were having these fertility issues at 40. Sending big hugs!
I’m not sure if your gardener would be comfortable with it, but how cool would it be if you got him to film with you about the garden. Also, now that you aren’t vegan, I’m living to see your Christmas cheese board.
Hi Fleur, we lost our second daughter in May at 20 weeks pregnancy. The whole experience has floored us and so much of what you have said about being back at square one and this year being terrible resonates with me. Thank you so much for sharing something so personal, whilst I wouldn’t wish baby loss on anyone it does help to know that I’m not going through this alone. I hope you get some good news soon, wishing you all the best ❤️
Hi Fleur! Can I just say how refreshing it is that there was not a trace of toxic positivity in this video which we’ve all been seeing a lot online lately! It was so real and so honest! Just want to sympathise with your diagnosis and acknowledge how difficult it is to suffer with something invisible! Got diagnosed with vestibular migraines over lockdown and have to adjust my diet and lifestyle too! So hard and really felt fed up all summer cutting out my favourite foods! Here’s to a smashing 2021! 🥂
Thank you for your honesty Fleur! I have to say I was a bit surprised when you said it hasn't been a great year for you mentally - that didn't really come through in the amazing contents you've been putting out. Personally I think that's your professional side shining, but nonetheless I'm sorry this year hasn;t been great for you ;_; Not sure if this opinion will count at all but hope you know I can tell how great you are as a person essentially just by knowing you through a screen. You're the most consistent person (both content & personality wise) I'm subscribed to in my 10 years of watching RU-vid :) Thank you for being you and know there's just a whole community out here supporting you okay
Dear Fleur, I have watched you for ten years and really admire the woman you have become. So genuine, thoughtful, funny, strong person. We're the same age, from different countries and backgrounds but I feel we could've been friends 🙂 Last year I also experienced two following miscarriages, it turned my world upside-down, I remember the hard times well. Today my baby girl is 5 months old. Soon you will be hugging your precious baby too! You have this huge community behind you crossing their fingers for you ❤️ I wish you all the best, sending you a big hug!
Fleur I had the exact same problem. I had an under active thyroid and i couldn't get pregnant for three years. As I never knew. I demanded a blood test which showed I was underactive. Within four months of getting the meds right I was pregnant. I am now mum to a three year and one year old twins! Don't lose hope, your time is coming xx
When i was watching Fleur's lockdown vlogs I used to think "wow, Fleur's life is so perfect". You really don't know the battles that someone is going through. Sending you so much love and positive energy. I hope all your baby dreams come true soon xx
This is actually a really good warning that your diet should reflect what your body requires, rather than following things forcefully and expecting your body to work perfectly fine. Hope you’re all well!
I used to be such a avid watcher of your videos but life got in the way ... this video made me realise how much I love your videos - you're so down to earth and its just like listening to my friend talking. Please never change 🥰💜 xxx
I was diagnosed with an under active thyroid at 11. Once you get your dosage right it gets a lot easier. If you haven't already, you might ask your doctor about Hashimoto's disease. It is an auto immune disorder that can cause hypothyroidism. The treatment is the same. I'd also recommend seeing an endocrinologist if you can because there are things that a specialist knows to look for with this stuff that a GP doesn't.
It is worth also checking if your are converting T4 (levo) to T3 (liothyronine). I have to take T3/T4 combo due to genetic mutation DIO2 (found out via 23andme) 👍🏽
I’m only about 8 minutes in but I had to comment that I can relate SO much to being tired of being back at square one. What a way to put it. Thank you for being open with what you’re going through - knowing that other women have similar experiences to mine make it just that much more bearable
It's so nice to see that the vast majority of comments on your channel are quite positive. I think its a reflection of your content being positive but honest and open.
It’s kind of crazy to realize just how many women deal with thyroid problems. I am also in the meds process trying to get balanced. It’s such a weird thing because I feel like half the symptoms of thyroid are also things we are just told to expect as you age so I feel like so many people probably don’t even realize
@@katiesmith3242 Post your test results on the Thyroid UK forum and you will get help. Doctors only look at whether your results are in range and are only interestd in TSH which is wrong.
Katie Smith see if you can see an endocrinologist. My levels are borderline, “sub-clinical” but my symptoms are/were uncontrollable weight gain, brain fog, increasing anxiety. It runs in my family so my blood work has been closely monitored for about 10 years before I went on meds last year, which was done mainly because of my symptoms.
I thought it was impossible to like you anymore than I already do Fleur, but you are just so straightforward, sensible & caring whilst at the same time having a wicked sense of humour - I just think you are an amazing person, I can sympathise with the under-active thyroid as I also have this & it's a real pain in so many ways, hope you get the meds sorted soon. I adore the black dress you look truly stunning in it, good luck in all your endeavours & I cannot wait for your vlogmas series, thanks so much for sharing all of this with us ❤️🥰💛😍
Thank you so much for your candidness. It can't be easy to share these experiences with the internet world but please know so many people are keeping you in their thoughts. My husband and I are TTC and not finding it easy but the more people talk about it publicly the less alone we feel.
I’ve had 6 miscarriages and two babies. Both my successful pregnancies I took thyroxine, low dose aspirin and high dose folic acid. Good luck with your next pregnancy x
This is such a bloody good, honest q&a. So refreshing to see someone being measured and grown up and not putting a faux positive spin on stuff, or extrapolating lessons that you're not genuinely feeling. Xxx
Your honesty makes my heart hurt for your struggles this year. But also it's very refreshing to hear and I think if I were struggling with infertility or a health issue, I'd like hearing your honesty. I'm sorry you've been struggling and I hope good news is just around the corner for you. Thanks for the lovely content!!
Ive been following you for years and I know you're private when it comes to certain things but its so wonderful that you've decided to open up. It will help so many people feel less alone xxxx
I was also diagnosed with hypothyroidism last summer after trying to conceive for over five years with no results. I finally in May of this year have reached the place where everything is balanced for me. Still waiting for a positive but I feel like it can actually happen now. Best of luck in your journey Fleur, you're not alone! xx
Fleur, thanks for sharing. It's so nice to have someone be so open and candid about their experiences, even though you can tell it's a difficult time for you. Best wishes to you, Mike & River. Hope the non-vegan diet works for you. x
I’ve had hypothyroidism since birth (I’m almost 23) and I have never been told that certain foods can affect my thyroid! I searched what I shouldn’t eat after watching this and I’m honestly amazed by everything, so this definitely has opened my eyes to be careful with what I eat! It can be so refreshing when hypothyroidism gets mentioned as well as experiences related to having and dealing with it, because I can still learn new things about it- I’m just so used to it now!
Fleur you are SO strong for going through this, AND sharing, combined with pandemic vibes messing with your career probably as well and trying to keep yourself healthy! You are so inspiring and always have been. After 10 years watching youtube, watching you still feels like ‘home’, and I wish I could offer more support because you deserve it!
Fabulous Fleur, really enjoyed. So refreshing to hear questions answered honestly and not something you think people want to hear. Not everyone 'found themself', lost weight, had an epiphany etc during lockdown !! Sending very best wishes to you and your lovely family x
Loved this video, especially your honesty about no longer being vegan. I feel like so much of the conversation about going vegan is how "easy" it is, when it really is a big decision to make, and a vegan diet, as you talked about, isn't right for everybody! But that's okay! I really respect your choices, and I am grateful for how you speak so honestly and genuinely, even despite the hella tough year you've had. You're doing a good job, Fleur, and to anyone else who reads this
Thank you for being so open and honest in this video instead of trying to paint a picture of optimism and perfection. It's incredibly refreshing to hear raw and truthful thoughts and answers.
Fleur, i think you have changed in 2020. You are so humble, honest, funny and you seem more mature, I loved this q&a! The way you talk about your gardener, Botox, motherhood, health issues, it was just awesome!
I know it's common knowledge but wanted to leave another positive reinforcement out there: after not getting pregnant for a year I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and my OB was 100 percent sure that was the problem, I had no hormonal or other health issues otherwise. I had no symptoms and my levels were only slightly above the non pregnant range. Got meds right, got pregnant right away, had a healthy baby. My levels were controlled both during and after pregnancy and got pregnant again really soon second time around when we started trying and had another healthy baby girl. It's a scary diagnosis at first but I felt relieved they have found the problem and there were actions I could take. Its common, it absolutely can lead to problems with conceiving and thanks to modern medicine it's easily treatable :)
Fleur I’ve watched you for over 10 years and this was one of my favourite ever videos you’ve made. Thank you so much for sharing and for continuing to create such fantastic, honest content even when the world is upside down. Sending you, Mike and River all the strength and love xxx
I really liked this Q&A, not that i didn't previous ones but you sounded very open and down to earth, like talking to some friends about really important issues mixed in with light hearted ones in a really genuine setting. Totally enjoyed it, could have gone on for another half and hour and i wouldn't have noticed! Also the talk about vlogmas got me so excited for the season to roll in and for your gift ideas series
I'm so sorry for your losses this year. I admire that you can be honest and not just do the same old cutesy Q&As, with the same old questions and all. This was really personal and well-explained. I admire too that you're careful about what you show, I can't imagine how hard it has been to put any kind of content on the internet this year when you've gone through so much. You continue to be such a great role model and one of the most relatable youtubers! Watching your videos from 6 years ago is so similar to watching you now, just a grown up version and a mother. Not a version of you that has "sold out". I'm hoping the best for you guys, hopefully 2021 will be a brighter year.
Thank you for always being so honest and true to yourself, Fleur. I have watched you since 2009 and you feel like a friend. I admire your grace and elegance in this crazy social media obsessed world. Prayers, Blessings and all the good vibes for you and your family coming into the next year.
You have discovered something about yourself in 2020... you are so brave. You have picked yourself up for the second time after a heartbreaking loss and carried on being the best mum and wife that your family could ask for. I’ve thought about you a lot over the last couple of months and admired your bravery and honesty about miscarriage and baby loss in general. Sending so much love and luck your way, you will get there in the end, I promise. This is coming from someone who has had a long and emotional TTC journey and finally we have light at the end of the tunnel ✨🧡 x
I love seeing your beautiful family. Thank you for sharing hard things with us. I hope your health continues to improve and that your dream of more kids can come true for you! ❤
So grateful for you shining a light on your experience with conception. Having been in the same situation I think it’s really valuable to feel like you’re not alone 🤍 sending love and positivity to you and your family!
You being so open and honest allows others who are experiencing the same things to feel like they are not alone. I appreciate you sharing your feelings and I wish for better days for your health and for a new baby.
Your honesty is so appreciated! It was a shitty year, and that is it. I hope you will have a much better next year with another baby and much more happiness! ✨
I’m so glad you discussed the vegan thing, I was one of those people who asked but I didn’t mean it in a rude way and I’m so sorry if it came across that way. I tried to eat vegan for a while and I was so poorly, I couldn’t stick with it because I had no energy no matter what I did/ate. I have arthritis and I only 23 but that even flared up worse changing my diet. I hope things work out soon for you, and you’re able to have a healthy baby soon. sending so much love 💕
Vegan doesn’t work for everyone. I tried it years ago s few times, I tried hard to make it work and I felt the worst I ever have in my life. Since switching to a keto/carnivore diet I feel like a superheroooo. I would suggest you avoid dairy at all costs since it causes or worsens inflammation. I would say a moderate protein, low carb and zero dairy diet would help you feel great.
I don’t usually comment but just wanted to say that I loved this. As someone who is also private I know this must have been hard to post. But it was such a good reality check for me. I know that nobody’s life is perfect but it’s so easy to forget that on social media. Sending good thoughts. 💗
Thank you for your openness and honesty in this video. It must not be easy to share such intimate events with the internet, but your genuineness is why I continue to watch your videos through the years! Wishing your beautiful family well and hope that this year can turn around for the better!
I liked your honesty about this year! And I have to say that although my kids are 10 & 14, I am eaten up by guilt every single day! I always feel guilty! Towards them, towards my work, my friends but yeah mostly just towards my kids! I don’t know if some people are just more prone to that feeling. My husband has NO guilt and just does whatever he wants, and I never do because of the guilt!
@@MilaBelen Many and I mean *many* animals are trapped, poisoned and shot in order to protect your plant based food sources, many of which die a slow painful death, whilst their babies starve. Thousands of animals/creatures are also chopped up in combine harvesters etc. when preparing to grow your food. One grass fed cow is killed humanely in seconds (and yes I’m aware of malpractice within the meat industry, but cruelty is not actually standard despite what the few documentaries with an agenda say) and will feed a human for probably 6 months. 1 cow vs. thousands of animals. No diet is perfect or free of killing and that’s a fact. Oh and a lot of humans are getting incredibly sick eating plant based diets and shipping exotic vegan staples such as quinoa etc. around the world, instead of eating food from local farms, is horrible for the environment.
@@ASMRMagic I just want to give a few points here. I think the idea that there is a "humane" way to kill is one of the problems that veganism tries to challenge. Veganism exists with the ethical stance that no killing is ethical and there is a lot of discussion within the vegan community about ethics also extending to the people (predominantly POC) who are exploited in the farming industry. I come from a farming background and I can say that these animals sense way more than the meat industry wants us to believe. They know they are being put to slaughter, whether it be a quick death or not. Also you point out that "a lot of humans are getting incredibly sick eating plant based diets," and a really prescient example of a lot of humans getting incredibly sick (and dying) eating meat-based diets is our current global pandemic -- the Coronavirus.
I too had 2 miscarriages and the only cause the doctors found was my low thiroid levels. I now have 2 daughters. You really have to monitor your levels during pregnancy (sorry for my spelling, I normally speak french!) We will start trying for baby #3 soon. 🙃
Sending love re: the thyroid issues n miscarriage ❤️ I’ve had a similar experience n it’s lovely to hear someone speak online about it, so thank you for sharing
This is what keeps me coming back for every video. On the surface I feel like we have nothing in common. But then when you open up like this it reminds me that we actually do. You are the real deal and I appreciate you and your content.
Thank you for being so open and honest! This video was so raw and emotional, I actually got teary eyed when you said you were only wishing for a baby! All the best for you, Mike and River and I am hoping your wishes come true very very soon! 💕
I have never related to any video on RU-vid so much. This video made me cry, the pain of a miscarriage stays with you and that’s okay, it’s the strangest kind of grief, the grief of what could have been. I’m sorry you’re going through it too and I hope you have many healthy and happy pregnancies in the future. This year has been an absolute shitstorm and I’m with you on the duvet days, the little nuggets we bring into this world who are SO hard to parent cause they’re so wilful and you want them to stay that way and keep that independence are such a joy and the only thing that can make the bad days less bad. Sending you love light and health
I have been on levothyroxine for years, medication is increased while pregnant. With a thyroid condition you get classed as high risk pregnancy so are monitored more and more scans, Dont know if everyone one does but I did, everything was fine,
Such a great Q&A, really honest and lovely to hear your thoughts about some topics I wanted to know about and so important to share some of the tougher stuff you've been through as I don't feel it's discussed enough and so many share similar experiences. Really appreciate this!
Fleur, I reversed my hypothyroidism in about three months by cutting out the veg you have, eating Itsu seaweed and using iodinized salt. I'm sure you've had your thyroid antibodies checked, but I also had those - around 400+. Due to diet changes my TSH went back down to under 1 (it's now 0.-something) and I'm 25 weeks pregnant. I also went light on the carbs, which it sounds like you're doing (but didn't cut them out completely as I love a croissant in the morning).This gave me the belief you really can change your thyroid situation through diet, and potentially quite quickly. Through pregnancy it's only got lower and I eat lots of carbs now. ALSO, I'm older than you by a lot of years, and so read the book 'It starts with the egg' - - please take a look at it. There are a few things you can do to help your egg quality, like taking a high quality CoQ10 to give your eggs a bit of an energy boost so they have more power when they need it. You've got this - - wishing you all the luck; you're doing the right things, at least from my experience.
All the best Fleur, just be patient. I’ve been struggling with thyroid disease for 4 years and it has been a roller coaster. It is not easy but you’re not alone. I hope your change in diet will resolve the problem and improve your symptoms if any. Focus on feeling mentally and emotionally better. Your body will soon be ready to have babies. I’m so sorry for the miscarriages. You’re doing your best that’s all that counts.
Thank you for your honesty - from one woman to another, the world is HARD sometimes and there are things we feel we need to keep behind closed doors. To have someone with a platform like yourself be so open about these kinds of things speaks volumes and sends strength to those of us who have suffered, as well as bringing awareness to a whole new generation who are growing up. I'm not wording this very well as I'm a bit choked, and I doubt you'll see this but thank you from the bottom of my heart regardless 💖
Watching your video, you say you haven't discovered anything positive about yourself, but I think you actually answered the opposite. Despite how difficult the year has been, all the shitty things you've been through, the sadness and the physical and mental health challenges, you've made it through stronger than before and you can still find the little moments of joy and laughter in every day. Sending you and Mike and Riv all the positive vibes and best wishes from Australia!
Thank you for being so open and honest about your struggles with infertility this year. I know this will help many other women who are dealing with the same thing. I’m praying you are able to get your thyroid issues straightened out and are able to have a full term pregnancy in the foreseeable future. I have two kids and always dreamed up having three but have realized financially for my family that 2 kids is the right number for us. I can relate with your struggles with disciplining River. My oldest is 3 and very strong willed. Thank you for not sugar coating motherhood and giving honest answers. Being a mother is one of the greatest gifts but also very hard. Best wishes to you!
Thank you for the raw Q&A, it’s been a shit year and it brings me some comfort to know I’m not alone in feeling this way. Sending you positive vibes and best wishes ❤️
I've been vegan for nearly 4 years now, and it's been working out soooo well for me and my health at the moment, but I also understand that bodies change and that's okay too!!!
Sending so much love and positivity to your family, Fleur ❤️ I hope you know how much of an inspiration you are to so many people. You are a wonderful human being xxx
I have been watching you for many many many years and hands down have always been my favourite - this has been the most refreshing video to watch of all year. 100% feel more let into your life and it's wonderful! Thank you for your humour and cool nature, watching (and hearing) how you have handled quite difficult situations this year has shown such strength and a positive way to deal. I would love to have just a portion of that composure. Wishing the best of luck in health & happiness!
I absolutely love it that you are including River bit more, she is so stinking cute and love your relationship with her ☺️. Sending love to entire family ❤️
In regards to parenting and toddler discipline, I discovered Janet Lansbury’s podcast “Unruffled” a while ago and cannot recommend it enough to other parents. I also have a 2.5 year old. I’ve learned so much about why she behaves the way she does and gained so much confidence in setting boundaries (sticking to the no’s), and avoiding battles and power struggles. Like I said, I can’t recommend it enough!
Thank you for this video, I’ve been having a shit time recently with regards to having another baby and my health. I have so many days where the darkness comes over me but my 3 year old keeps me going. But listening to someone else talk about it helps so much to know that I’m not alone in feeling that way. It can be so frustrating and upsetting, but we have to be so thankful that we have the little ones we do already have 💖 Today has been a particularly hard day and just taking 30 minutes out to sit and listen to you talk has been a bit of a god-send so thank you! Xxx
Really enjoyed this, sometimes Q&As are a bit meh, but this was so engaging and honest and likeable. Sorry to hear about your health issues and how its affecting conception and the way you want to eat - hopefully the medication will work soon, once the dose is correct, and that you can start trying for another baby, best of luck with it!
I’ve followed you for years and years and this feels like by far your most open and real video. Thank you for speaking so honestly, it’s so refreshing. Sending you lots of positive vibes ❤️
You come across as the sweetest, most real person. I love that you share yourself and your family but keep some privacy there too. 2020 has been a tough year on so many levels and you’re amazing for getting through two miscarriages on top of all that and still getting up and bringing up River. Sending lots of love to you, River and Mike x
“I ain’t got any tips for you, we’re all just doing our best”. “I haven’t discovered anything positive in myself” Fabulous Fleur, can we all just celebrate the honesty and reality of these answers. Thank you Fleur, this is why we love you. This is why Fleur is the sort of friend we would all love in our lives. Luckily we get to spend time with her through social media.
I was so sorry to hear about your miscarriages Fleur. My husband and I are also trying to conceive (our daughter turned two in September) and it’s just so stressful. You spend your whole life thinking a pregnancy can happen so quickly, because everyone is telling you to be safe and careful when you’re young, so when it’s a struggle... it’s so hard to process. I hope 2021 goes so smoothly for you and you can welcome a beautiful little one.
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Such a great and honest Q&A, so nice to see someone choose questions that aren't necessarily safe and easy. Enjoyed this. xx
Thank you for an honest video fleur, I loved it and it was refreshing to watch someone be open and honest than just flaunt around the answers pretending everything is unicorns and rainbows which is what a lot of people seem to be doing lately. Sending lots of love to you, Mike and River xx
I don’t normally comment but, my close friend had the same issue with her thyroid and pregnancy and literally the moment they got her levels correct she became pregnant and is pregnant right now! Don’t give up, you will get there. The one difference that worked for her was seeing an endocrinologist and not just her pcp doctor.
What a refreshing, real video. I have followed you for a long time, our daughters were born about a month apart from each other.. I've always felt like, out of all of the people I subscribe to, that I've related to you the most. I've also had the shittiest year in 2020.. my daughter almost died in february from a kidney malformation that we didnt know existed, my husband tried to commit suicide on our 9th anniversary in June and my son (5) is currently in the process of being diagnosed with autism.. then last week my dad passed away after a 6 year fight with ALS... my point being, please do not discount your strength through all of your trials this year. If there is one thing I've learned about myself, it's that I am strong and courageous to face these trials I've been put through this year. You are also strong and courageous to face the issues you have been dealing with head on. You could act like they don't exist.. you could give up.. but you aren't. You are fighting for your family and your health and that is AMAZING! Also, thank you so much for still uploading even though I am sure there have been days where you didn't feel like putting on a smile. Your videos really do bring a bright spot to my days. ❤❤❤ love you and looking forward to vlogmas!!!!!
Thank you for being so open and honest with your answers, its so refreshing to hear you speak openly about how crap the past year has been. I'm so sorry for the struggles you've faced, and I'm sending you lots of love xx
Fleur I’m so grateful for you - You’re refreshing, kind, honest, open, warm, genuine and a good person. I’m sorry you’re going through this, it’s so hard. You really are a different class on you tube, take care xx
I am so inspired by you. During the worst of lockdown your vlogs were so wonderful to watch. Your honesty about COVID, pregnancy, health and family life has been a breath of fresh air, and while going through all of this your content has been bringing joy to so many! I just want to say THANK YOU, and I am wishing for all the very best for you, Mike and River❤️❤️❤️
watching your video made me tear up. I am a working mum and I can feel that this video was not easy for you to talk about. I wish you good luck and all the best. take care x
I have always enjoyed watching your videos. You are so sincere, so thoughtful, so smart. This video, brought all these together in spade. My heart go out to you and Mike for all you have dealt with. The love you too share shines through when we watch you both interact. Yes 2020 has been shit, no sugar coating that....but my best wishes are with you and your family to see the year end on a brighter note.
