R.I.P - Fruiting Bodies ft. Gumi English (VOCALOID Original Song) 

Can I just say the fact that her hair looks like a mushroom cap is the icing on the cake for this masterpiece.

to me this song feels like it's about dysphoria, paranoia and a dissociative disorder. as such, it goes in The Box and i am putting it in all of my playlists forever /pos

"last song i will post as a 17y/o... birthday soon :)" you mean to tell me you fucking made corrosion, one of my favorite vocaloid songs to date, AT AGE 14?! how in the hell did you do that what, and THIS IS SO GHOOD TOO???? im jealous and also insanely pleased to learn all of this lmfao

this song hits different when you have bug bites

Honestly so many disorders follow underneath this song. I have heard, DID, dysphoria, OCD, OSDD, BPD, ADHD, Autism, GAD, psychical illness, ect. The fact that so many people can relate to this song is amazing. ngl I wish I commented this sooner but another great hit from R.I.P Edit: wow and alot more too

This song definitely reminds me of like, the vibes of when you tell people you're working on getting over your trauma, and they start acting different

Mushroom dance, Mushroom dance, whatever could it mean... IT MEANS YOU'VE LIVED A LIFE OF SIN

Okay. Here’s my theory: prions. The singer first describes being unable to sleep and feeling sick but not having anything indicating they’re sick. The first symptom of FFI, a prion disease, is insomnia. The singer also describes having an INTENSE need to scratch and itch, which is a key symptom of scrapie, a prion disease affecting sheep. The singer’s paranoia, what later seems to become hallucinations, delusions and disorder thinking, is quite reminiscent of psychosis and dementia, both of what prion diseases cause. The single “fruiting body” in the first chorus is the initial prion- all it needs is one badly formed protein to send off a chain reaction, plunging the sick person into a downward spiral. “The ones like me weren’t built to last” could refer to the singer’s family dying from the same illness. “I’m not one to cry, but I haven’t been able to since” might refer to the pseudobulbar affect, which kuru (a prion disease) is known to cause. “My organs and the colony will mix-mix-mix” could refer to how the prions have completely taken over the singer’s brain. Anyways, thanks for reading my comment. Have a great day.

this song heavily reminds me of my own experiences with OCD. the fruiting bodies representing either intrusive thoughts or stuff your brain decided to obsess over there. "i just wanna itch and scratch" could represent compulsions (even though most of mine are mental). this one is a bit of a stretch but "i am not in the body that was meant for me" could be referring to the fake physical sensations or false attractions certain subtypes of OCD can give you. anyways, practically every lyric reminds me of OCD so im too lazy to write all of them out here lmao.

“The ones like me weren’t build to last. I’m not leaving it up for debate. “ Hardest lyrics I have heard

scared im gonna memorize the lyrics in 2.5 seconds again update after premiere: i memorized them already

Can we talk about HOW MUCH Rip has improved?!?? Like broo

things people missed if you weren't in the live stream: -pretzels -gay clowns -watermelon (temporarily) -gumi gummy gummy gumi gumi is gummy -new discord server -new clown ocs -trans????

“I am not in the body that was meant for me” as someone who feels like a virus in a host body I agree.

this is a metaphor for DID, i'm calling it right now "people say i am not the one i claim to be" (people knowing you by different names) "a trauma to the system's all it needs to begin" (honestly this might be a reach but the wording is so on-the-nose it's funny) "something is wrong with the form of my identity!" (this one feels self-explanatory) "suddenly i'm coming to" (alters can go practically unconscious, that's all i really need to explain) "i am not in the body that was meant for me!" (a lot of the time, alters don't take on the appearance of their body when it comes to mental image, similarly to a trans person but not necessarily) "another fruiting body sprouts outta my skin! a tiny opportunity planted within" (also probably a reach but a metaphor for new alters splitting?) "i'm not one to cry but i have been unable to since!" (adds on to the metaphor for splitting. splitting happens as a result of stressors or trauma, the alters entire purpose is to cope with this stress, this can cause one to feel numb to said stress, forget about it entirely, etc.) "i don't know how my mind acquired these memories" (those with DID often experience grey-outs, so they still know what happened while not really _being_ there, could also) "now i wish i had guarded my naivety" (when one figures out they have DID, it often comes with a lot of realising you had symptoms and trauma you never knew of) "it's impossible to tell which ones are real anymore" (hard to explain so i'll leave it at derealisation) maybe i'm just dumb but it feels like it fits

Fun fact: ive nicknamed the main character in this fruit snacks, and you should too.

this song makes me feel like someone's right behind me. i think that means it's good

i know it's a metaphor for dissociative disorders, but I like to think that it's about the singer physically rapidly deteriorating from black mold gone rogue in their house.

If I ever bump into anyone with this hairstyle in real life they are getting a double high-five. True swagger incarnate

For people who don’t know what this is actually about: -The song "Fruiting Bodies" by Really Introverted Producer (Ft. GUMI) depicts the struggles of someone battling with mental illness. The lyrics describe the feeling of being attacked by one's own thoughts and the resulting feelings of fear and helplessness. The metaphor of fruiting bodies growing under the skin represents the uncontrollable nature of mental illness and how it can take over a person's life. The first verse talks about trying to be the best version of oneself but failing to push negative thoughts away. The pre-chorus reveals the narrator's conflicting thoughts, and the chorus describes how the fruiting bodies symbolize the trauma that triggers the mental illness to grow. The second verse depicts a sleepless night and the voice in the narrator's head that tells them that something is lurking underneath the ground. The pre-chorus describes the narrator's struggle to come to terms with their identity. In the second chorus, another fruiting body sprouts up, showing the uncontrollable nature of the illness. The bridge depicts the internal and external struggles of the narrator and the mocking voices in their head and in society. The final chorus brings forth the idea that the illness has consumed the narrator entirely and they are no longer who they once were. The song shows the devastating impact of mental illness and the difficulty in coming to terms with it.

As a DID system this song hits so close to home “People say I’m not the one I claim to be” “A trauma in the system” “How did we end up in here? Nobody knows” “I am not in the body that was meant for me” “I don’t know how my mind acquired these memories”

I know this is all metaphors for DID or something like that but I can't help but interpret it literally. Like this girl just suddenly becomes a horrifying mushroom-person hybrid and ends up as a pile of flesh and organs. Great song nonetheless! My brain is just messed up :,) WHY DOES THIS HAVE SO MANY LIKES Thx btw this makes me happy :D

Whats more horrorfying... the idea that this is all metaphorical? Or that she's litterally disolving into fungi, mixed with laughter and cries, struggling to stay together as her friend watch her turn, telling them "No second chances, DO IT NOW!" Now, before seeing the video, I imagined the singer was slowly turning to a humanoid amalgam of fungi, with small deformities and, maybe even a mouth on the side of her head, slowly driving her crazy as they tear her apart, literally and figurativly... (Would I make it in the horror industry with that desc?)

This reminds me of my OCD. all the intrusive thoughts making me think im not who i really think i am, making me feel like im in danger, the compulsions that could potentially become harmful, sometimes when i explain to people how i view myself because of this, theyre confused because they say that its barely what im like. as if im describing myself as a different person. it keeps me awake at night, worrying certain things are coming for me. no matter how hard i try, i cant block out the intrusive violent and sexual thoughts. being desperate for a way to untaint myself, wondering how my brain dug up memories to turn into obsessions which lead to more compulsions, not knowing what is a real thought or an intrusive thought or obsession. it hits me even deeper since my ocd was worsened massively by a bad experience, so im less numb to it than your average joe. it fits oddly well edit: this really seems similar to the whole ocd contamination thing in general. fear of being contaminated by someone, feeling contaminated, and feeling like youre spreading it (which often leads to compulsions of isolation, or in this case, a desire to be taken out). i know many interpret this as DID/OCDD, but it feels like this to me

Lyrics: Oh, lately I’ve been awaking at night, out of breath and feeling scared I think I must be under attack, but nothing’s ever there Oh, I try to be the best version of me, so I push all the bad thoughts away But, something snaps in the back of my mind, and I think about it anyway My mind’s eye is defined by contrariety I just wanna itch and scratch (I just wanna itch and scratch) People say I am not the one I claim to be Won’t you tell me what you think of that? (Won’t you tell me what you think of that?) A little fruiting body buds under my skin A trauma to the system’s all it needs to begin No, don’t come any closer! It’s a trick-trick-trick And it terrifies me more than I intend to admit Left discarded and forgotten right under your nose Oh, how did we end up in here? Nobody knows! My rotting body is the perfect fit-fit-fit Unbeknownst to anybody, the mycelium grows Picture me, unable to sleep, not a sound rings out in the house The voices tell me something is hiding underneath the ground I repress my fright, and I cover my eyes and surrender myself to my fate The ones like me weren’t built to last I’m not leaving it up for debate Something’s wrong with the form of my identity Suddenly, I’m coming to (Suddenly, I'm coming to) I am not in the body that was meant for me Tell me what I am supposed to do (Tell me what I am supposed to do) Another fruiting body sprouts out of my skin A tiny opportunity planted within Oh, look away I’m gonna be sick-sick-sick I’m not one to cry, but I have been unable to since They’re coming after me I can’t run away They hear me screaming in fear They think it’s hilarious We’re coming after you You can’t run away We hear you screaming in fear Isn’t it hilarious? I don’t know how my mind acquired these memories Tell me what it all entails (Tell me what it all entails) Now I wish I had guarded my naivety I have shed the universal veil (I have shed the universal veil) A hundred fruiting bodies burst out of my skin The countless amanitas are doing me in You’re allowed to take me out if you so wish-wish-wish No such thing as second chances it’s a hit or a miss! And a thousand fruiting bodies are spreading their pores It’s impossible to tell which ones are real anymore My organs and the colony will mix-mix-mix Now my body is the keeper of the roots in my core

This already looks like it’s gonna be one of the best songs ever omg

This song feels like DID/OSDD... and if its not intentional it's certainly applicable to the experiences of those disorders... it also sounds REALLY GOOD I love it so much

GOOD LORD THE SCRATCHY VOICE EFFECTS INBETWEEN SOME LINES JUST HIT THAT FUCKING SPOT OUUUGGGHH /POS

for the longest time i misheard "cry" as "die" in "I'm not one to cry, but I have been unable to since" i'm going to continue hearing it that way because that's so metal and i love it, but y'know

While the song is written with the intent to capture the experience with OCD and general paranoia, (info I got from looking through replies.) as someone with BPD, this song really resonates with me. Isolation periods are common out for a fear of hurting the ones around me and I can’t control intrusive thoughts and I often feel like a horrible person for feeling the way I do, and There’s moments where I convince myself that people are out to get me. Often time it’s small things that trigger these moods as well, when I’m in a clear headspace I can look back and these moments almost embarrassed at how I acted but in the movement very little detail makes so much sense and adds to whatever delusion I’d convinced myself into believing. I’ve seen a lot of people relate their song to their experiences but I haven’t seen anyone draw a comparison with BPD yet so I just wanted to put that out there. It’s very nice to see a place whwre so many people can all come together and identify a common feeling and all because of shared niche interest. I really do love looking at the comments of songs like these :). I learn a lot about the experiences of others from situations like this.

iirc, 'mycelium' is a fungus that essentially takes over the plant it attaches too? Like, a mind control kind of thing I think. Intertwining with how the speaker sings how they 'don't know how my mind acquired these memories', because it's not them making it. I don't know if the whole meaning is meant to be about the fungus, but the parallels are fun (if I'm remembering what the fungus is correctly dbdbbdbd)!! Song is also very funky. scratches brain well Update: been informed I'm thinking of the cordyceps fungus, and that mycelium is what connects the plant and fungus together if I'm getting this right-

I'm going to admit it. I usually am scared to listen to songs made by artists I love cause I'm scared I won't like it and then I'll stop liking the artist. RIP and Ghost-n-pals are the only two artists that I can listen to their new songs and old songs and love ALL OF THEM!!!

The first time I listened to this I thought it was fruity bodies. "A thousand fruity bodies are spreading their pores"💀

“Something’s wrong with the form of my identity” “I am not in the body that was meant for me” “I’m not one to cry but I’ve been unable to since” I can kinda relate, but it’s probably a different manner than I think it is

This song very much gives me “perfectly sweet” vibes!

I love this song, I wish mushrooms were real

“A little fruiting body buds under my skin, A trauma to the system’s all it needs to begin” Definitely gives off dissociative disorder vibes

I know that this is about DID but I just want to say that as someone with a secondary structural disscoiation disorder caused by trauma (BPD specifically), I really relate to this as well! At times it also do be kinda relatable for gender dysphoria tho obvi I get what the lyrics mean in the context of DID. Also btw it's really cool to me that you describe your mind as mushrooms and mycelium! I usually feel like my mind is a car or a cafeteria. Or "several angry raccoons in a trench coat attempting to pose as one unified person".

MMMMHMHMHMHM can't wait. i can already tell this is gonna be a B O P I'm getting vibes similar to The Medical Anomaly, i wonder if this'll be another medical themed song too.

bro i immediately started relating this song to the game discover my body, especially with the "i dont know how my mind acquired these memories" and "my rotting body is the perfect fit" lines, i was also finding ties to various analog horror media but it wasnt as glaringly obvious as discover my body imo, but then i scroll into the comments and i see people talking about mental illnesses and im like "ohh shit that actually makes sense, especially for rip oofers." but maybe it was just because i had just finished watching markipliers videos videos on both analog horror and discorver my body so its like at the top of my mind rn

I immediately got the feeling this was about dissociation, Depersonalization-derealization disorder and gender dysphoria. Absolutely adore it

I love the details that the character’s hair and outfit also resemble mushrooms!! idk if that was intentional but it still looks amazing!

The final realisation that you can't go back once you realise what's been going on is rarely touched on in songs, let alone in ones about / paralelling did/osdd. Glad to know me and my headmates will have something to loop for a good few hours haha

At first I thought this song was about someone who had some sort of mold/fungus under their bed/carpet and how they felt like something was wrong but everyone called them crazy so they ignored it but were controlled, taken over and decomposed by it, and turned into a body that's nothing but a horrifying pile of mushrooms and organs. Yes, there are many, many things wrong with me.

why are all these songs the most relatable pieces of art ever. as someone struggling with bpd, this song speaking about paranoia and not really knowing who you are, losing your sense of self, it really speaks to me a lot. i always feel like someone's out to get me, watching me, and i never really know who i am. thank you for creating this song, i never hear songs speaking about a topic like this and it's really... nice to know that other people struggle with the same thing and i'm not alone on this. thank you :)

After thinking about it for a bit, I'm pretty sure this is a metaphor for those... Less than pleasant thoughts. That little fruiting body budding in the depths eventually evolving into a thousand fruiting bodies bursting out of her skin, spreading their pores, could represent how a little negative thought grows, and how it WILL spread and multiply and take over if you let it. But hey, that's just a theory.

Another meaning for this song could be changing for other people and being influenced by their interests and forgetting who you truly are being paranoid if they might not like you and the many types of people you have imitated for someone to like you so much so that you've forgotten who you truly are

I’m going to go for a different take here and say that this (amazing) song represents narcissistic tendencies as a coping mechanism for trauma. There is something horrifying about growing up as a kid and being TERRIFIED about permanently damaging your relationships and not knowing why you’re like this due to a lack of mental health education while everyone around you either doesn’t care for, hates, or is annoyed by you due to how crappily you act due to said narcissistic tendencies. The worst part about it is that you feel horrible about yourself after you come down from it, especially if you’re like me and you feel bad for even stepping on a bug let alone being rude to a person. It’s like you aren’t the same person anymore and you’ve just kind of… broken in ways you never wanted to or intended by trying to ‘harden’ yourself as a way of dealing with your problems. Songs like this really are great with how they have a clear subject in what they’re about but due to being about an alien concept on the surface or just bizarre lyrics/metaphors in general they can be interpreted by the watcher and related to their own life experiences very well. Also the drawings of the character is great and the last segment with the arms was freaky and awesome, well… awesome in a morbid horrified way but you get what I mean. Also the facial expressions are really good and well done. (I noticed in the community guidelines there’s no dumping so I won’t go into big detail or anything. If this does count as dumping then PLEASE feel free to delete this comment. I’ve been finding healthier ways to cope with my problems and do my best to be kind and considerate to everyone, I do still have the same problems with narcissistic tendencies though but I’m much more aware of when it happens and can show some restraint. Your stuff is great and does a really good job at covering the darkest aspects of mental health while being amazing to listen to.) ^-^

THIS SONG IS SO GOOD The artstyle improved so much and it looks so *CLEAN* The lyrics are amazing and the melody is so captivating And the song is overall really catchy thank you for feeding us🙏

argg i keep hearing songs that fit characters in my fav fandoms so well and then i have the end up finding an entire playlist of songs for that character

Can we take a moment to appreciate the tempo changes in this song?! Also, all the hands sprouting out from behind the character is reminding me of Blood-Stained Switch (which also happens to be a song with strong disassociative disorder themes, interesting)

I think the girl represents a person's brain and the mushrooms represent the development of disorders, and how it completely reroutes your brain.

I got two ads in a row about mushrooms/fungus on this video 😭😭 RU-vid really saw “mushroom” and ran with it… also, this is such a great song!! R.I.P just keeps producing bangers…

"-And now have I not told you that what you mistake for madness is but over acuteness of the senses? - now, I say, there came to my ears a low, dull, quick sound, such as a watch makes when enveloped in cotton. I knew that sound well, too. It was the beating of the old man’s heart. It increased my fury, as the beating of a drum stimulates the soldier into courage."

I might have a phobia of mushrooms, but damn this song is worth it

If I'm being honest, reading all of these comments about personal experiences and opinions about different disorders it's very interesting, like, now I want to use my sleeping hours reading books and research about mental disorders... I uhh, hope I didn't sound rude or something-

A lot of people are associating this with OSDD and DID but I feel like experiencing puberty as a trans person is equally fitting if not more so. It involves Identity, unwanted bodily changes you can't stop, and feeling out of place in said body, as if it doesn't belong to you.

Ngl I relate this song to my psychosis. Especially with some p/as I have, my identity/who i am can shift a lot. Also the paranoia part about something being under the floor can easily be about delusions. I love it!!

Even if this song implies DID, it could also imply Dissociative Amnesia or repressed memories coming back to light, where everything suddenly starts to feel weird, you start to suffer suddenly from the symptomps of your trauma and the thing that you mind desperately tried to keep hidden appears, as you start to relive what your brain hid

I can already tell this is going to be FANTASTIC THE ART IS BEAUTIFUL Edit: holy shit. That was awesome.

Man this is going tO BE GREAT, if your last songs are anything to go off of, this Gon be littttt

imagine how many cats u can pet with these many hands

3:21 HIT OR MISS????? Okay okay, jokes aside I absolutely love this song. The song is really cool that the mushrooms in my body started growing and started to dance to the beat! Thank you for making such a good song!

I don't know how to explain it but this Definitely feels like mushroom music. A banger as always, your tuning and ability to make gumi sound so crisp is incredible

Just realised that the lighter colour underneath her hair looks like the underside of mushrooms!

so the suspected vibes are: paranoid schizophrenia or other mental illness OR actually just tripping on shrooms or other drugs either way the paranoia here is very prevalent and as someone who struggles with this kinda thing i love to see it here. gg RIP ✨

Coming up on two years since this song has been out and i just want to say, you have come SO far with your music RIP !!! Honestly, been a fan of your music for, quite a while now (not since the beginning but a couple years atleast) and i wanted to let you know that your songs have inspired me so much, im doing an english project on this song :33 anyway, have a wonderful timezone if you read this !!

I'm so into this song, a lot of times I use similar metaphors when talking about paranoia and psychosis, the feeling of something in the dark and the feeling of not being you ahhhh it's so good!!

this reminds me of several things I've gone through, certain paranoias, a sort of twisted sense of identity, dysphoria.. i see a bunch of people saying different stuff though, and that's exactly what I like about your music. It's applicable to so many people, and so many people can relate to it in different ways. Your music helps and connects people in more ways than one

I know this does have metaphors with dissociative mental illnesses, but I oddly relate to it with my OCD tendencies and anxiety. (I would say autism, but it isnt officially confirmed - Just speculated heavily by my therapist.) (Update: yeah im a lil autistic) I struggled with social interactions in middle school, and the whole "Oh, I try to be the best version of me, so I push all the bad thoughts away / But, something snaps in the back of my mind, and I think about it anyway" heavily reminds me of how much I wanted to please people / intrusive thoughts. Idk, it just kinda hits at home with me bc i also see people mentioning it could also relate to puberty as a trans person, which i.. am, lol. anyways, rant aside, i love this song! adding it to my spotify playlists :>

the moment i saw this song was going to premiere i dropped my nintendo switch idk how it's doing rn but if this song is nintendo switch dropping before you even hear it, that's when you KNOW it's good

R.I.P is one of those producers that you know the songs will always be bangers even before you hear them. Absolutely love this song!! I'll be playing it on loop for the next few days :D

I heavily related to this song as someone with USDD.. It's a miracle seeing this. Thank you, RIP

i love this song and i love how her arms are in a position that feels just slightly inhuman. it makes it so cool and surreal

The "I JUST WANNA ITCH AND SCRATCH" scratches my brain

Trivia about cordyceps mushrooms: The host is actually conscious, since the only things the cordyceps targets are the body parts needed to climb upwards like the legs and jaws. No mind control of the sort.

YOU NEVER MISS!!!!! been here since a little after "you're an awful person" came out and I just have to say ALL YOUR SONGS ARE AMAZING!!!! Have an amazing day/night

I know this probably wasn't intentional, but the lyrics remind me of gender dysphoria. Even the title, could be interpreted as going through the wrong puberty

Sometimes you find a song you don't even understand why you feel so deeply understanding of

As a system, this song definitely seems to be about finding out you’re a system and learning to deal with the initial panic and fear of realizing that you’re part of a system and why systems exist to begin with. I can really relate to this song and it takes me back to my experiences with first finding out I’m part of a system. This is such a nice song, keep up the good work

Holy smokes!! Another banger!! There isn’t a song that R.I.P makes that doesn’t immediately go into my jammy jams playlist!! Another one to listen to on repeat! Yay!!!

I love how it’s her overthinking and the music slows a bit and the scream gets slightly darker but as soon as she says “I repress my fright” it goes back to all bright cheery and normal speed

10 seconds in and this is already going on my playlist, you never miss with the absolute banger tunes on your songs

It's passionate and asserting vivid pop dramatic song!!!!

As someone with ADHD I can say that the line "people say I'm not the one I claim to be" reminds me of what some people with ADHD experience because you have to not act like yourself especially when you're young as to not to be seen as weird or so you don't get seen as special needs

I feel like this video can be classified as a new gender and I need it

This is probably some of the best gumi english tuning I’ve ever heard, great work :)

as a P-DID system, this reminds me how i felt when i first discovered my alters. or rather when my alters made themselves known lol. i also relate cuz i struggle with delusions and intrusive thoughts, and they happen in episodes right at the same time. think it's funny how my main delusion is that everyone can hear my thoughts and how i'm also in a system. oh the irony. thank god my alters are chill

THERE IS NO WAY THIS IS ONE YEAR OLD ALREADY I REMEMBER LISTENING TO IT WHEN IT CAME OUT OMG

Many individuals with dermatillomania have already identified with the song, but I figured I’d add my own to cents in how I personally relate to certain lines! (tw for possibly graphic descriptions of gore) “Oh, I try to be the best version of me, so I push all the bad thoughts away”-trying so hard to be productive while doing a task that it has distracted you from, desperately trying to immerse yourself in the task to distract yourself from the intrusive, compulsive thoughts. “But, something snaps in the back of my mind, and I think about it anyway”-but of course, you cant. You cant escape the urges. They overpower you with ease. You have no control here, even if you would like to think you do. “My mind’s eye is defined by contrariety I just wanna itch and scratch (I just wanna itch and scratch)”-how you desperately dont want to be doing this and actively hate it but cant stop yourself from. Its an everlasting internal battle. Especially the last two lines, i feel like they protray so greatly how the obsessive thoughts feel. “A little fruiting body buds under my skin”-pimples, swelling, anythinh that’s a bump. I will go further with the fruiting body metaphor later. “A trauma to the system’s all it needs to begin”-many picking areas, as i like to refer to them, often start from normal wounds that develop into scabs. That you then pick off. And then pick off again. And they never truly heal. Specifically for me, getting a bit personal, a couple of my skin picking areas started from picking at SH scars, so there’s a double meaning for “trauma”, i guess. “No, don’t come any closer! It’s a trick-trick-trick”-telling yourself to not pick at it because it will just spiral into more picking. Dont come any closer to it. Leave it alone. “And it terrifies me morе than I intend to admit”-many people deal with humour and denial. I am one of those people. There are very few times when i actually talk to someone about how powerless and hopeless I feel. How scared i am of infection, but unable to stop no matter how hard I try. “Left discarded and forgottеn right under your nose” - discarded and forgotten, but still right under your nose. Even when you’re not actively picking at it, you have that acute awareness of it being there. For me, personally, I have this irrational fear that if i leave the skin sticking up it will stay like that forever. I feel like im leaving something to fester that i shouldnt be. “Oh, how did we end up in here? Nobody knows!”+ ““Suddenly, I’m coming to (Suddenly, I'm coming to)”-not me personally, but alot of people black out during trances. As in, they only realise they are in one after an hour of picking or so has passed. Thankfully i black out for only about 30 minutes at most. Though, not sure if its a blessing or a curse; i still usually cant stop, and now im just aware of the excruciating process, not knowing when it will end. “My rotting body is the perfect fit-fit-fit”-probably personal, but i often get this metaphorical feeling of just, rotting away. Like my wounds are just slowly festering and eating away at me. “Picture me, unable to sleep, not a sound rings out in the house The voices tell me something is hiding underneath the ground”-again, partially personal, but ive often found myself starting to pick in the late afternoon/evening, and then being up in the dead of the night, wanting to sleep, but not being able to pull away from the compulsion, I havent finished the job yet. The obsessive thoughts tell me something is still “below the ground”, below the skin? Idk. “I repress my fright, and I cover my eyes and surrender myself to my fate”-sweetly shortly explains the process. Trying to repress the irrational fears, not look/pay attention to the area, but eventually surrendering myself to my inescapable fate. “The ones like me weren’t built to last, I’m not leaving it up for debate”-knowing that there are others with the disorder, knowing its so hard to stop. The last bit kind of reminds me of how my obsession and compulsion speaks through me at times when close ones try to slightly forcefully stop me from picking, like hugging me. I get aggressive, because i NEED to keep picking. “Another fruiting body sprouts out of my skin A tiny opportunity planted within”-the fruiting bodies are a metaphor for the bits of skin sticking up out of the norm, the imperfections. They feel like weeds that need to be weeded out, and you’re the one doing the weeding. Atleast for me, it feels like something bad will happen if I dont. And each imperfection has that tiny opportunity to become a whole festering, never healing scar. “Now, look away I’m gonna be sick-sick-sick”- this especially applies if you either bite at the skin or suck/lick it off your fingers because you feel to awkard to go to the bathroom. The taste of blood, and ESPECIALLY the smell of it becomes so sickening. I also dont imagine my wounds are very pleasant to look at, “now look away”, also reflects how I desperately dont want people in public to look at me when i do it. “I’m not one to cry, but I have been unable to since”-kinda metaphorically reminds me of how you dont feel the full extend of your pain, especially during picking. “They’re coming after me, I can’t run away They hear me screaming in fear, they think it’s hilarious We’re coming after you, you can’t run away We hear you screaming in fear, isn’t it hilarious?” -again, coping with comedy. Feeling like you’re just internally screaming with frustration when doing it. Feeling like you just want to run away, but you cant run away from your body, run away from your skin. “A hundred fruiting bodies burst out of my skin The countless amanitas are doing me in”-when you keep noticing little flaws, this especially happens to me with cuticles after showering. Theres so many, its panicking and frustrating. “No such thing as second chances, it’s a hit or a miss!”-that panicky moment when you’ve gone really far, like peeling back a nail and its just hanging there, so you need to make that one final sharp pull and you’re just panicking because it hurts so damn much but you have to do it because you cant just have it hanging there right?! “It’s impossible to tell which ones are real anymore”-people look at the “flaws” and dont see them, or say they are unnoticable. But you’re like, they ARE, RIGHT THERE. And you feel crazy, especially if you are forced to leave one for a bit and it actually heals and its no longer there, so you start questioning if it was ever really sticking up in the first place.

As a system (someone with DID) who suffers from psychosis and also has a special interest in mycology I love this a lot

You can actually figure out the order in which each pair of arms appears The song doesn't seem to be in chronological order when this is applied The order is: Self-Hugging (Song Start) Messing With Shoulder & Neck (Realization & Confusion Scene) Bottom-Down (Repressed Thoughts Scene) Bottom-Up (Realization & Acceptance Scene)

i love how her hair is vaguelly mushroom like !!

I will never be able to not call this girl Shrumi

YOUR SONGS GET BETTER WITH EACH NEW ONE HOLY SHIT???? this is genuinely so damn good, you always manage to blow me away with everything you create! Been following since corrosion came out, and have been a huge fan ever since! Keep it up!! :D

GOD THIS SONG IS SO GOOD I'M JAMMING OUT RN AND THE TEMPO CHANGES ARE JUST WONDERFUL

Holy tempo changes that ruled.

Wow I can’t believe rip invented mushrooms, cool.

Can't wait! Discovered your music recently and have been obsessed ever since!

"Won't you tell me what you think of that?" This one hit a little to close to home as reassurance seeking is a very big thing I do because of my OCD