Real Talk: Updates on My Wellness Adventure ✨ 

Hello Friends 😁💗 I wanted to share with you an update on my wellness. I appreciate you checking on me, it means alot to me! 00:00 Hello, last year, self sabotage 02:13 My journey with therapy 04:14 Methaphor I like to remember ♥ 04:50 Affirmations and meditation 06:22 My constantly changing persona 09:05 If I was to die. Self Forgiveness 10:02 Sound healing journey 13:17 Workshop in Palm Springs 14:50 Solar Eclipse 16:00 Tahquitz Canyon and Palm Oasis 17:48 My singing bowls set up 18:40 A short sound healing session for you ✨ 💕 thank you for being here!!! 😁💗

‘Whatever the hell I want’. YES, YES, YES!!!!!! I love that so much. ❤️❤️❤️

The most powerful thing about adulthood for me has been realizing that I don't need permission to be whoever I want to be. Sometimes I have to remind myself that I am a human being and I am allowed to change my mind, especially when it comes to my own life. I've also had to stray away from the self-help/spirituality books and advice because I found myself being anxious about becoming a perfect, "healed" version of myself instead of just living and learning as I go. Sometimes you have to step away to hear your own thoughts and feelings. This was a great update from you Maria, I am so happy for you. You're glowing!

This is what being authentic looks like

I vote for guided meditations with your own sound healing as the background music!

I love the bowls, my eyes fell closed right away and I zoned out from my problems. Can't wait for the full video! We love you, whatever season of life you're in!

You have gone through some very traumatic events, Maria. From getting beaten up, to being abandoned at the airport, to your first husband. You are so strong, so wise, and such a great person. I am so glad to see you survive. And I do think it's because you are a curious person and you keep trying to make things better for yourself. Much love.

Your updates are so special to me. Even though a lot of the time I can't relate exactly to what your going through, it's so wonderful to see a woman working through struggles and constantly grow and change and evolve. It's so inspiring, thank you for your vulnerability

"whatever you see in me is also in you", you really made me see that in that moment. I believe you. I'm shocked

i feel like everyone changes every single year of their life. we like things, we dislike those things, we like them again. it’s a part of the human experience and is finding our true selves. we don’t stop growing after we legally become an “adult”. it’s a beautiful thing to be able to change because it shows our growth

Being open to many things is never a negative trait. It just shows how open minded you are and how willing to see both sides or things and try new things!

My favorite part about growing up with you is watching you be unafraid of changing. I sometimes forget our identities don’t have to be set in stone. Thank you for continuing to be so open! None of us are perfect, but I know a lot of us are afraid to be as vulnerable as you are on the internet.

It's infectious to see you be confident in yourself and what you like and want without letting anything or anyone influence it, just doing what makes you feel happy. It's beautiful

Maria, I have just loved watching you change and grow the past 8 years. I actually think the fact that you DO change your mind as you gain information makes you incredibly wise. So many people choose one hill to die on, but you explore through the peaks and valleys. And I respect the hell out of you for that! Keep being true to yourself! Anyone who doubts you or makes fun of you is just envious that they don't have the courage you have to change!

I’m so happy you stood your ground against those who criticized you about your journey! I for one appreciate you sharing with us how you’re learning and growing. We all feel lost sometimes and it’s not a bad thing to try and figure out what works best for us! If we had all the answers then what’s the point of life. ❤

I have been watching you for 11 years, your videos got me through a miserable pregnancy, calmed my colicky daughter, and put me to sleep in nights when I just could not turn my brain off. You are such an inspiration to women and girls. And please don’t take criticisms of your growth seriously. Changing a position on something is a sign of flexibility and intelligence. Best of luck to you and your family❤

Its interesting how the media makes it seem like youre only worth anything in your 20s (esp women) because you appear "young" and after 30 you dont matter anymore. But for myself and everyone I know, life just started when we turned thirty. All of it before was like the tutorial level (haha). You finally have the space to meet yourself and understand who you are and what you want and what you need (whether you have the wherwithall to get going is a different story). And yet we want to hold on so desperately to the outward appearance of youthful beauty, when the real, miraculous beauty is the growth that happens inside from the moment you are born, that never stops until you die. ❤

WOW! I resonated with realizing that I was abused as a kid until my mid-30s. It explained a lot of strange illnesses and symptoms I was having. The Body Keeps the Score and When the Body Says No really helped me.

It's really nice to just sit down with a cup of coffee and take a break from it all amd just listen to your thoughts and relate.

Girl as a Gemini, I am constantly changing! That is what life is for! One of my favorite quotes ever from Walt Whitman: “Do I contradict myself? / Very well then I contradict myself, / (I am large, I contain multitudes.)” We are full of wonder and curiosity and that is beautiful! Love you girl!

I don’t think I’ve ever commented on any of your videos before Maria, but I first started watching your videos when I was 17 and I’m now nearly 30. I love that you try new things and give it your all, and it’s been very lovely coming alongside you on this journey. It really feels like i’ve grown up with you. Thank you for the updates on your life, it’s like hearing from an old friend.

"whatever you see in me, is in you" that was such a beautiful thing to say

Oh my gosh PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE make a whole video of you doing the bowls/drums!!! It was so relaxing and beautiful. I loved closing my eyes and listening. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

Your joy for life and trying new things is so beautiful and makes me feel close to you, even if we have never met. You are truly an inspirational person, Maria. Please dont let anyone ever tell you otherwise.

Omg I always feel like around 35 I woke up and saw the world around me more clearly and saw the effect of the traumas I went through

I’ve been watching you for over 10 years, Maria. And what I love about you is your genuine and authentic personality and energy. Life is like what you explained- Phases. It’s completely OK to go in and out of phase. That is what this earthly life experience is all about. I am the same (especially as an artistic Pisces!😂) I’m just grateful that you allow us to get a glimpse of your thoughts and experiences through these videos as it’s comforting to know that there are other souls that are experiencing the same thing. We are not alone in things that we feel alone in. Just not everyone talks about it like you do.❤✨🙏💪

Go you, woman! I’m 60 and really only came to understand and appreciate myself about 10 years ago, so you’re way ahead of my 30 year old self ❤️

I love what you shared about changing your mind, trying things constantly, always changing and switching and evolving. I’ve found that to be so important in my life, too, and so freeing. To outsiders it seems like wishy-washy behavior but I appreciate you sharing about it because I relate and the wonderfulness of being flexible and changing is not talked about enough, I think

I love how you are ever-evolving as a human. You've always inspired me in that way.

Your a kind person through and through. You have a spark in your soul that shines bright. Never listen to the naysayers, they know nothing about you or your struggles. Your a strong force of good for our world. Thank you for being you!

I love these real chats with you

I think I probably need some therapy myself soon. My mom passed away last month from lung cancer, I was there every step of the way with her, appointments, scans, tests, treatment, slept over at the hospital etc. I was her full time care giver and it was extremely traumatic for me to see her decline and how she suffered a hell of a lot in her last few weeks to the point where she was on oxygen 24/7 and had to have chest drains because her lungs kept filling with fluid and in the last few days she didn't even know where she was with her delirium which is common at the end of life, she was the most generous person I have ever known and didn't deserve all that. I'm 38 and still feel a bit young to lose her. I wanted at least another 10 years with her. I still had lots to make her proud of. I think about her every day and kiss her picture. I just hope I meet her again after this life.

I love your dirty water metaphor!!! It makes perfect sense to me! The bowls were mesmerizing and I might have to replay that part a few times! I also have an open mind and love to learn new things. It does cause a lot of wild fluctuations in my life but in the end, I can’t imagine only living in a rigid routine. Go with the flow and enjoy it, my friend! 🙏🌿🌼🌵🌺🌴

“Whatever the hell I want” YES!!! Maria anyone who have one single negative thing to say about you is them projecting. It’s about THEM. You are such a light . I’ve said that before and I’ll always believe it. You’re pure GOLD.

So so proud of your personal growth!! It looks different for everyone, as it should, and I'm so inspired by your journey. Thank you for sharing yourself with us 💜

You do you Maria. You help so many people every day with your ASMR and overall energy. No one has the right to criticize anyone, especially when you are sharing and making yourself vulnerable. Thank you for sharing. I know I appreciate watching your videos, both on this channel and Gentle Whispering.

As strange as it may sound, because we are strangers, I think about you all the time, Maria. You introduced me to ASMR years ago and I’ve come to appreciate this community so much. Watching your journey (from afar): meeting and marrying Darryl, moving cross country, having Mila, has been such a joy to watch. Thank you for sharing your journey - the highs and lows - with us. We are all going through something, but it’s easy to forget that. 🩵

Hey, love, ❤...hope you are fine ... 😢 don't apologise for changing, I really appreciate your variety of talents you have and your ability to dive into new passions all the time and becoming so perfect in so many skills is truly inspiring.

We live in a fluid, dynamic reality. being able to change our minds is a sign of flexibility and expansion. Holding on to beliefs for the sake of holding on causes rigidity and stagnation. Seems like you have a very healthy approach to yourself and who you are.

Love you Maria ❤ very glad to have some updates, Ty for sharing so much of your life with us 🙏

so happy to see you so happy, maria!! you really deserve to have a beautiful life full of beautiful moments 💗

That bow session I must tell you, felt like it let me slip into a rare sense of relaxation and calm. Would absolutely LOVE a full video like how you use to do the new moon videos.

I’m proud of you, Maria! So glad I kept tabs on you. I have also been a person of change and flow. Had phases I regret, and phases I outgrew, and ones I might visit again. As long as you are healthy and safe, being your fluid self is beautiful and powerful. I’m proud of you for “lifting the veil” and wading through the shadows. Healing is a spiral, not a mountain 💕There is no higher power than love. And love evolves. Thank you for turning the love you share with us inwards 💕

those sound bowls sounded incredible, really made me feel a wave of peace

I just love you so much Maria. I love to listen to your videos here any time i need a nice little quiet time. It feels like sitting with a friend. You are such a bright light to the world, its a better place with you in it. I wish you peace, as you get to know yourself again and again on this amazing, sometimes confusing, spiral of life and learning. You are wonderul exactly as you are. Keep being unapologetically you!! Brittany ❤

Watching your journey and evolution into who you are today has been so inspiring. I feel incredibly lucky that you are willing to share your thoughts and emotions with the world, even with some of the negative feedback you've gotten. But like you said, your core has always stayed the same and you have always been true to yourself. We love you for you, and I am just so glad to hear about your recent successes and realizations. Even hearing about your love for sound baths rings true (haha get it), because I remember you saying a while ago that in church the music frequently moved you to tears. I think you've always been in touch with the world on a deeper level, and now you're tuning in more. I am so happy for you and wish you nothing but the best!

Oh Maria we love you! Having a flexible mind and being willing to always change your mind is pure wisdom to me

You - and all your versions - are wonderful, Maria! We love you and know you too ♥️

You are a beautiful soul. Your journey of growth is lovely to watch. None of us is the same person we were 5 years ago. We are all products of our experience and in that way we are constantly evolving. You look so happy and that is infectious. Much love.

What a beautiful re-awakening! I love how passionate and full of life you seem. I am so excited for you and this new re-discovery period in your life. I am so happy that despite all of the complexity in your life, you have found beauty and stability in yourself and in nature. I love you and your content. You are truly a beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing this with all of us, and for inspiring us to become better versions of ourselves and to love ourselves. ❤❤❤

I'm loving this so far! Just wanted to say as we talk about your shifts between spirituality, religion, etc... I know you probably took them down for a personal reason, but if by chance you now feel differently about it, I would LOVE to have all the new moon videos accessible again! I never got personally invested in the practices themselves, but the videos were their own ritual for me in a sense. I find them so calming and grounding ☺and have rewatched all of them many times. No matter what you decide, thank you for sharing them at the time and thank you for sharing this version of yourself with us now 💞

I appreciate you always sharing your journey and I'm sorry people are so rude and mean. I love the way you always try new things, I think it's a very healthy thing to do because most people don't even want to try anything and are stuck in their ways. You always inspire me to try new things. Also, please make a whole video with the singing bowls ☺️, it really relaxed me.

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!! I have watched you since before you met your husband and was starting over after your devoice. I have watched you blossom and shine brighter throughout all of your ups and downs!! I am ever changing just like you, and I swear it is like we are on the same life path! I adore you Doll, stay true!

I love your being unapologetically your wonderful self. You are learning and growing like all of us, but you have the ability and gift to share yourself with us. I love that you’re still learning and can share your journey with us. Thank you Maria, for being you ❤

Maria you have been by me since college. Getting me through exams, papers I would be in tears over, relationship heartache, family hardships. Always appreciated the calm side, the bubbly side, and all of your inspiring qualities. No one is perfect and you seem to stress on that and it’s so beautiful how you take life and run with it. Love you for being so open and creating safe spaces for so many of us. ❤️❤️❤️

You are an amazing person, Maria!! I love how you’re so curious about different ways of life and hobbies etc. and always trying new things/evolving! Especially as an adult woman, it’s inspiring and totally makes life more fun and interesting :) Please don’t let negative comments get to you, there are so many of us who 100% support your journey and love hearing your updates 💗

Thank you for being your true and honest self even when some people don’t appreciate it! Thank you for sharing your revelations. Seeing you heal is healing to us ❤

Following you since I started watching RU-vid videos , 12 years maybe , you are one of the most grounded and intuitive people I follow. Stay true to yourself, always.

I love you for sharing with us Maria. I’ve been watching your videos since I was 14 and I’m 26 now and I truly consider you to be a dear friend. Watching you evolve and change over the years (and grow) has been incredible and inspiring. ❤

you inspire me so much. the way you embrace the freedom to do "whatever the hell you want" and then truly internalize every experience you decide to pursue.... i want to live the same way

I love these types of videos! thank you so much for always being open and sharing your world view even as it changes. real people evolve and grow and i am grateful that you are brave enough to share that with us. i find so much comfort in your videos. thank you for simply being you!

I am so happy and grateful for you! Thank you for sharing yourself and caring for us. Sound therapy seems to have always been your calling-your voice, ASMR in general, and sound therapy. I am so glad to see you open up like this, be yourself, and rely upon the power you have to do what you want and to be yourself. I feel like that's where I want to be someday.

So fun to experience the sound healing with you. Glad you felt so inspired and energized from your trip!

i have dealt with self sabotage a lot in these past few months as well. i’m super happy to hear the positive journey with yourself and your mental health! working on yourself and who you are as a person is something that is vital to life- so is change! i think we all change and find out who we are more throughout this short time have here. forgiveness and acceptance of your past self is something i’ve been working on, and i’m so proud that you’ve been able to get to that point. seeing you grow and flourish is amazing to see. much love to you, Maria! “Life is a process of becoming.” :)

I'm loving the confident place you seem to be in! I love that you are unapologetic about trying new things, going through phases, going in and out of religion, etc. It sounds like you are still very much into spirituality and very spiritual, just in a new way. Meditation, affirmations and sound healing are all spiritual, maybe just in a different way than some of the other spiritual practices you've tried in the past. Love hearing about your journey! Love that your cup is full 🥛☕🍵

the end of this video with the bowls literally made me cry - i was so impacted by the sound. thank you for sharing your wonderful gift. we love and support whatever phase of life you're in!! literally!

Oh, Maria! You are a beautiful soul! I enjoyed your honesty & can completely relate! Please do more of these beautiful bowls for us. It was such a wonderful surprise & felt incredible!! You are amazing at it. It feels so "you"! Thank you so much & I hope you'll treat us to much more!! Life can be extremely difficult, but it's an incredible journey!! Hugs!! 🤗

Yasss girl! "Whatever the hell I want." That's right. Be you in every way possible. No judgement. No shame in whatever works for you. Find what makes you happy. Thank you for sharing and speaking how you feel with no apologies. Soundbaths are wonderful. Love the singing bowls.🙏🏻🎶🧘🏻‍♀️🎶 💜💜💜 Much love.

Thank you Maria, I needed this today. May we all be free to be ourselves, all versions and evolutions, and continue inspire one another ❤

I love that you are so unapologetically YOU! you are such a beautiful soul Maria. thank you for sharing so much of you with us, your faithful fans!

YAY! This makes me so happy to hear! I’m so glad you are finding your inner peace at last :)

The pure joy and love emanating from you is amazing to witness. You glow with your beautiful light which is so needed in the world right now. Thank you for sharing with us, Maria 💞💞💞

‘Whatever you see in me, is in you’ is such a beautiful sentiment.

I love the switch you've made from relying on external supports to looking internally. That's a very difficult but worthy journey. You seem to be confident and at peace at the same time -- which, for me, is really a beautiful energy on people. Proud of you for purposely taking time for this type of work that brings you fulfillment and sending you positive vibes to help you continue on this path.

I resonate with everything that you said. I've never been able to put it into words like you did. Thank you, your openness and vulnerability have made a world of difference and helped me feel connected. You are so brave and the love you share is felt by so many people. The world is better because you are you. ❤

Maria, you're such an inspiration for me (and I'm sure for most of your viewers as well). You've been through difficult things but managed to remain kind, sweet, charismatic, open-minded, creative, curious and energetic, it's like you shine from within 😊

I love how enthusiastic you are about the singing bowls. I struggle with anxiety and sometimes Emma's videos with the singing bowls are the only thing that can bring me back down to earth.

This was absolutely wonderful start to finish. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Vulnerability with the wrong people is so awful, but connecting it with the right people is so healing all around. 💟

Thank you for sharing these deep introspections, Maria! I have also experienced a lot of distress as I've developed and changed in my 30s. After much reflection, I believe we SHOULD grow, explore and change as people. I am always learning and trying to improve myself. This has lead to dramatic changes in my beliefs, world views and ultimately how I live my life. I refuse to take what is the popular, easy opinion at face value and will continue to find my own truth. I have noticed that others in my life cling to "who they are" or are adamant that "this is just how I am". That may be more comfortable, they won't have to deal with the ramifications of paradigm shifts in their life. But growth and individualism aren't comfortable. The hardest part is finding friends that will stay with you through the shift, without judgment. Sending love and gratitude! Side note - sound and frequency healing is so beautiful and powerful. Spiritual sound bowls, religious hymns in church or yogi "oms", all healing and impactful! Thank you for sharing.

It really can take quite some time for the impact of hard/traumatic events to hit home and to be ready to face that and heal. It's not easy, it takes some bravery so you're doing great! So happy for you. Being a complex, imperfect, growing human with freedom and agency and self-compassion really is wellness. 💖

Way to go Maria! Embrace all the different activities you want, you're so young and there's a lot to discover! I love to see you happy and fulfilled

I'm here for sound healing videos all the way! The cristal bowls are amazing. It is really beautiful to watch you change. I thank you for sharing the process as much of what you say resonates with me (and I'm sure others). You have people who support you whichever part of the journey you are on.

I have been watching you since 2010. You have grown into this wonderful person through all your experiences. My first video of watching you was the 401K. Who cares what everybody else thinks of you, do what you need to do to help you grow. Life itself is about change and growing. We learn new things everyday and there is nothing wrong with that. People tend to judge others of what they do, because it's not what they do. Keep up the awesome work!!❤️

Maria, what a wonderful video. Thank you for the wellness update. We all need to experiment in our lives to see what works for us to help us lead a life filled with joy and happiness. You are doing the work to do that for yourself. With all you have done so far that I know of, the singing bowls were just wonderful for me. I closed my eyes and YOU transported me. Transported me!!!!! I was personally sad when you gave away all of your beautiful crystals, but I am thrilled that you got the bowls and are sharing them with us sweetheart. I have said it before and will say it again, thank you for all of your hard work that you do for us to help all of us lead a less stressful and more beautiful life. You are a healer.

I think a lot of people dont realize or just can't realize the shifts they also go through and project that insecurity onto those willing to share. I have always appreciated your honesty and your vulnerability to share your journey. thank you Masha

I'm with you Maria, I change all the time too! We are open to new ideas and new experiences, but I have also experienced negative judgment for it. Keep being you and keep growing, changing and experiencing life ❤❤❤

You are truly a wonderful person, and taking care of yourself is so important. There is no shame in getting help if you need it, and doing things that make you happy. Your true fans will always support you, and care about you.

Been watching you for years! throughout all the upheavals and changes you’ve always offered such comfort. We all change and we love and appreciate you on purpose. So no worries Maria you’re doing great.

Thank you for sharing this with us! The sounds were amazingly needed and relaxing and I hope you share more of that with us!!!! ❤

Any type of religion, self help stuff, therapy styles, etc are all up to human interpretation. I think the mindset of "take what helps and makes sense, and leave the rest" can really be empowering. I have a good friend who goes to 12 step meetings for people in recovery from drug addiction. Those programs have not been updated in a very long time, and some of the "wisdom" in them is outdated and not backed up by research. But when you find a meeting with a group of people who click well, the support group aspect can be so helpful in sticking to recovery. Take what is valuable. Leave the rest. We are all just doing our best. And always remember that healing and growing is a bumpy process. There will be improvements and setbacks, and thats ok.

I love that you are so open to trying new things and exploring your inner self and the world around you. I find that so inspirational. I can't believe people are negative about this. Please, please ignore them. You are a fabulous, curious person and I feel honoured that you share so many of your thoughts and feelings with us. It helps me to feel normal when I see your search for meaning and peace, because that's how I feel. Keep being you! ❤❤❤

This was so beautiful Maria, the bowls portion of the video was amazing I’ve never heard of felt anything like this, I’m definitely going to look into this now thank you 🤍

I have been watching you since I was 14, and I am 17 now. I love how genuine you are, & how much work you put into your videos. I loved the vlogs when you visited russia & italy. Thanks for all the comfort you put in me!

I've been watching you from your first videos. I absolutely love your honesty and you sharing your life with us. Thank you. You do you!!

I loved it! Thank you!! You’re a wonderful person!!❤

i’ve been watching you since middle school and i’m about to graduate college. i’ve gotten to see you grow as i grew up myself. you are a constant light and have helped me so much over the years. i love you maria thank you for all you do ❤❤

I love that you are a lifelong learner in so many ways, Maria! ❤

Love seeing you in this setting, always feels like getting coffee with a good friend. Thanks for your vulnerability and trust in us, we love you and are so proud of you ❤

Love this sassy Masha. Brave and confident and I can totally relate. We’re human and constantly changing. We support you ❤

Through your crystal videos and that one ASMR sound bath video you uploaded, I’ve fallen in love with sound baths! My mother in law and I go to one once a month, it’s such a lovely experience!! Never stop pursuing what puts wind in your wings and makes you happy ❤