Recovery Process | Drug-Induced Psychosis (Cannabis and DMT) 

Thanks for watching guys! I just wanted to clear up a few points of confusion. The recovery process I speak of here happened after my break in 2012, so it has been a while since this has happened. I've had a couple people ask why I seem so numb or unemotional when I talk about this. It is possible that these experiences were so hard that I didn't really want to dip into that space again, to feel those emotions. I am sorry if it doesn't feel authentic. My goal was that in sharing that other people could relate or understand the process a little better. Hopefully, by sharing what happened objectively it can be helpful for some people. Maybe I will share the emotional aspect in another way down the line. Today I don't have any problem with psychosis or delusional thoughts and live a relatively normal life. Thanks for your support and let me know if you have any other questions.

My 20 yr old son has been in and out of mental hospitals due to weed induced psychosis. Thank you for sharing

I like watching your videos it gives me hope my 16 year old son is currently in hospital suffering from psychosis first episode it’s been 5 weeks now As a mother I’m so sad and feel hopeless for the future. When I see him it’s not him it’s scary but he’s happy tells me not to worry and he’s ok. I can’t wait for him to come home but he’s in the best place. Huge respect to you & your family 💕

I'm not especially ready to talk about my 2017-2018 psychosis, certainly not on camera, but I commend you for being willing to sharing your thoughts and impressions about recovery from the first time around. I wouldn't say you come across as inauthentic. You appear to be trying to remember something very traumatic while trying to remain objective and honest. Also, I know from my time of psychosis it's very difficult to remember what exactly went on. Thank you for sharing.

You are courageous.My son is 15 and he is currently hospitalized with his first psychosis. I know that when he comes out of this, that him seeing this will help him greatly. You are giving me great hope. I thank you for this, because I know that this was not easy to share. I am praying for you. May God bless you and your family.

I’ve experienced 3 psychotic episodes due to marijuana and I have supportive parents too but lost a lot of friends this video helped so much . I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and I am healing myself one day I will live a medication free life I don’t have schizophrenia. I do not resonate with any mental illness. I started smoking pot at 16 and had psychosis for the first time at 18. I’m ok now and I’m 23

Thank you so much for sharing. I had the same experience at the start of university and sadly lacked a healthy support system and family to find healing. I turned back to drugs because it was all I knew and I thought somehow that they might fix me. Stupid I know. A handful of episodes later I'm finally strong enough to start completely healing myself. I feel very behind at 24 but like you've said it's so hard to explain it to people and I've really struggled finding my place in the world again. All the best in your recovery and thanks for the videos.

Ur doing something great brave dude

Thank you for this video. I know its two years old but I'm just finding it and its giving me some hope. I wasn't sure if I'd ever get better and didn't know what was going on really or why I was like this now until my partner helped me find the resources to figure out that this was what it is. I used to be so proud of my ability to reason and come up with novel ideas and solutions - I have a philosophy degree, and maintained a 3.97gpa most of my academic career. And now I can barely communicate at all, and my ability to tell which of my premises are true and which ones are complete nonsense is nigh impossible for me so using reason is like.. constantly unreliable right now. It feels like I've lost a fundamental quality I loved about myself. Your story gives me hope that maybe one day I'll get it back.

Thank you for sharing this. I’m currently recovering from a very similar situation and I can deeply empathize, hearing your story has also given me a lot of hope. 🙏🏼

I am with you here. You explained things very closely to what I am going through. Especially feeling the energy of others.. during covid this has been a nightmare. The collective trauma from the shut down far exceeds the death veil. Thank you for coming out and discussing this. I found for me, many of the songs, etc., I was experiencing during my psychosis, still made total sense once I came out. My partner has been wonderful but the long and disturbing medical kidnapping and healing from trauma causing extreme anxiety once I got home, has been very rough. This has been a weird road and I respect you highly for talking about it.

Ive been sharing my experience with my coworkers/friends and also reddit. Ive been watching a lot of your videos that relate to psychosis and Ive got a lot of parallels like going back to my family when in psychosis, going to a psychiatry hospital to get better, while in the hospital I freaked out and thought I needed to leave because the ward I was in was hell but ended up being injected with some drug and put in solitary, and also I had a dream with a blue monkey after I got out of the hospital and played tag with him (I even wrote about the dream in my journal - I had that dream on 3/31/18) The recover process was hard. At first I enjoyed psychosis and wanted it more. I had the one major episode 2 years ago, then a bunch of smaller ones (yet still very much psychosis). I remember one larger minor episode where I thought I had to give a whistle to a girl for her birthday while their family held a party for her at the park. I also remember walking around the mall giving out Elder Futhark runes to people thinking its like an initiation into this great state of being. The last time, I remember not sleeping for a few days and then going to the pool and thought I was in some spiritual realm. I dont know if I halucinated or if it was real, but I went into the steam room and some dude touched my tattoo and said "nice esoteric tattoo", and I also thought that the world was controlled by hyper-intelligent beings who were keeping special states of beings away from us because they felt too good. Basically, I felt addicted to the psychotic state. My last minor psychotic experience was a year ago. Since then I decided to stop having psychosis. I started journaling more, exercising a few hours a week, broke up with my partner who I felt I had to carry their weight. This all led me to discovering things like Internal Family Systems, Epistimology, and Non-Violent Communication. All of which are tools I still use both while journalling and just talking with myself. I think Epistimology is a great way for me to ground myself. Epistimology being understanding how reliable a claim is and asking about the reliability of a claim. So just asking myself "how did I determine this was true" or "why do I think this"?

Thank you for this i have experienced psychosis and done psychedelics, needed this!

Wow. Thank you for sharing that...I went through this last year and I'm still recovering from it so this video helped me alot. I'm going to go see a psychiatrist in a week or so for the first time since my episode and I'm really nervous for some reason. It was a very personal experience and I know that no one is going to understand it the way I do, I guess I feel ashamed in a way that I let my mind stray so far away from reality without realizing...it's such a weird and crazy experience. Wild. Anyway, I just really appreciate people sharing there stories, it takes alot of courage to do that, so thank you. Hopefully, I'll be healed and confident enough to share mine as well one day. That's my hope. Mahalo again for sharing...made my day, literally. 🤙💚

Could you talk more about the depression you experienced?

Thank you so much for this 🙏❤️

I know someone who's been going through this. They have been going in and out of the mental hospital, but they have a horrible support team. They're idea of support is shame, bash and man up

Thanks for releasing this- I'd like to share my experience some day, but only happened in September and I'm still processing. I've been meditating, exercising and started a part time job- My real issue rn is finding meaning again as my experience felt so meaningful and true that life after seems a little dull :( not sure if you've had similar feelings?

Thanks for sharing your story. It gives me hope 🙏🙏🙏🙏

I feel like the old me died. I still feel sensitive to sounds and lights, the sun light is fking crazy looking. Lol. But I dont really feel anxiety anymore, or fear, my eyes are settled in such a way, its noticeable to me. Before the psychosis feels like another life, another me. Overall I'm thankful, for now anyways. Hopefully this holds, and I just need to never touch drugs again, of which I also have had no desire to touch since the episode faded, for the most part, I'll still hear certain sounds, like a bell, or high frequency pitches.. that'll remind me of the psychotic. I can remember the moment I felt like I died, the pressure was rising in my mind, and wouldn't stop, I knelt down in my room, and it got to a point to where I fell down flat, and my entire head felt fuzzy, my eyes settled low, and all the sounds and visuals started fading.. thats where I'm at now inside. Like im a new person. Though I'm aware I could fall right back in with enough stress put upon me, so I respect it, and do my best not to fear, or let negative feelings build in my mind. You have to face your fears to stop the sounds and visuals anyways, you're literally fighting whatever scary or frightening tricks your mind can come up with, and once you do, your minds dark side knows its lost the battle, it can't defeat your will, you're the master, and your shadow know it as well. I just tell myself, "throw it to your side, stride past it, and keep moving" Its quite liberating, tbh.

I believe psychosis is trauma based and so is drug use. most mental illness is. can you speak more about these 2 years and exactly how you healed. were you on antipsychotics? would you have done them? to control the psychosis? what do you think of them???

Thank you for sharing

Very helpful to hear this thank you

how lowng you was on antipsichotic drugs? im going this now and just wanna know

My parents got divorced. After that my drug use became heavy. After i began to experience psychotic symptoms my friends couldnt understand me and started bullying me. Now i'm 3 years later and im still not fully recovered. I'm still on meds tho. I hope i will feel like me again eventually too. Respect from Holland bro! Edit: im atm trying to remember how i used to be. It helps me but it also makes my brain fight between 2 states it switches now and then. Idk how to explain it but could you give me some tips?

hello! first of all i really want to thank you for sharing this, it really comforts me that others understand what i feel. i started smoking heavily at age 14, and had a break at 15. it’s a year later, i never went to the hospital, i had no idea what was happening. since, i’ve had another in front of a loved one a couple months ago, again, didn’t know what was going on. months later i still have some thoughts, although it’s not nearly as intense as it was the first time round. i had to go back to school still in this state, and it was really really hard. i had panic attacks in class sometimes, i simply did not understand why things felt this way all of a sudden. i’m wanting to talk to others who have gone through this, i have a question. should i seek medical help now? i’m worried i’m too young to have help. again, it’s not as intense but something is still definitely there. i try to ignore is and distract as much as i can, and it’s gotten a lot better, but i think i want it treated all the way. is anyone experienced with teenagers and this type of thing? i’m so confused where to exactly turn to. thank you

I used to take tramadol and smoke weed for 2 years until i triggred a psychotic episode i took lithium for 2 month, olanzapine for 4 month and invega injection still on it i've been 8 month from the time i triggered psychosis i think i recoveres because all the delusions that i used to have vanished gradually (first it was concrete idea after a while it was maybe yes maybe no after a while the idea was not at all), the doctor told me i have to stay on invega for 2years i dont know if i recovered yet but i think i did but iam worried of getting schizophrenia in the future because i've read and article that says there is a high risk of getting schizophrenia after DIP although the doctor told me its just a 1% chance to get it same as the general population.

Thank you for sharing this video! I have the same thing going on in my family. I was wondering if after your first psychosis did you smoke again? And did it affect you at all?

I just wish there was somebody I could talk to that understands

Thank you for sharing your experience. I wanted to ask a question that's been confusing me for a while... do you believe you can do drugs and not be addicted? & more importantly, do you believe it is possible to have a "HEALTHY" relationship with any drug/psychedelics etc... I'm very curious to know opinions on this especially from those that have experience with it.

I’m scouring the Internet for hope. My 23-year-old son is in a behavioral center after mixing DMT with mushrooms and weed. He totaled his car, Completely sharpe-ing his brothers apartment and talking nonsense about numbers and names😥. Is there hope for him, will I get my very loving, responsible son back? This video gives me some hope. Thank you!

last year when i was 16 i would take alot of acid this one time i had a very very bad trip and never took acid again, since then i have been anxious, paranoid and have delusions that im a test subject in a government research program, sometimes i think that my family isnt my family but theyre actually spies for the government tracking my everymove

I don’t like to speak about my psychosis but I’m in a pretty dark place I’m back on the drugs mixing with my meds just because I want to help the stress of making music I say to my nurse that I haven’t taken any drugs I’m in a right mess but I can see Im very Addicted to drugs what I did in the past was really bad I hurt my family but still in my head I think things was true and some wasn’t that’s what making me continue my habits

thank you

Thanks, I had a weed/ adderal induced psychosis 3 yrs ago, doing better now mostly, except I am more withdrawn and dont feel like being social much, have you been able to improve these symptoms & how?

Can you please do a video on seeing synchronicities, people on the bus wearing clothes i wear, i ride bmx and ill see people riding lime green walmart bmx bikes and it makes me feel like people are watching me and mocking me. How do you cope with this type of paranoia

Is ayahuasca something you would consider doing after recovering from your psychosis? I’ve also had two psychotic breaks.. and since I’ve had two separate shamans suggest I do it (even after I disclosed my history with psychosis) but I am frightened that it would send me into another episode.. what are your thoughts?

Hey, my gf ate an edible and started tripping. She flipped and said she died and went to hell. She says she wants to get to heaven. She’s been out of it for days. Will she ever recover? Will she love me again ?

Did you do DMt, and weed? I was told my a mental facility that DMt and lsd, psychedelics make the brain trip on some people. Please give me some advice? I know someone who tried lsd and he is not same person he esa before plus too much weed threw him into psychosis/schizophrenic

So i smoked weed while I took LSD and I think that’s what triggered my first psychosis and ended up in a psychiatric ward, when I got out they gave me respridal and I smoked while I was taking it and it triggered a second episode ( even though the medicine wasn’t really working that well to begin with ) the second time I got out of the hospital they gave me Abilify and now I’ve been off of it for 4 days and I feel like my normal self, do you think it would be safe if I wait a while to smoke weed or should I just leave weed alone, it’s just really hard because before I took LSD weed never gave me these symptoms, it calmed me down and I could smoke it around friends and everything, I feel like the medicine is why I reverted back to the way I was so idk what it would do if I smoked it while I’m in this normal state.

if i could get any advice from anyone right now about my partner who is in a phycosis (i dont live with him) its been 3 months now.. not much improvement. this is weed induced. i just need some hope im so worried

Hello I am interested if you stopped taking the medication giving to you in hospital and how did you manage- if with support of specialist or you just stopped it yourself...? Thank you for your answer :)

have you stopped smoking ciggrette after first episode of psychosis? is it harmful to smoke ciggrette on recovery process or is it okey?

How did you deal with the mood swings/ do you still have them?

Can u share what medications helped you with the psychosis and if u have relapsed and u are still on medications

Natural dmt releaf! Thats a thing 2 try! Wim hof! Ur strong Buddy

Will you do Psychedelics again.? Much love

Did you find yourself seeing things as signs almost every time?

Are you emotionally different by now? You seem kind of numb to me How were you like before the psychosis? I also had a short psychosis for some time after ive smoked weed I recovered after like 1 year and i understand a lot of what you are saying What helped me through it all was to accept reality the way it is It was not easy to do for me, itbfelt very uncomfortable with it but it gets a lot better if you truely accept reality, your existence and yourself Well im quite sure you already know this but maybe you dont or someone reading the comments doesnt so ill just write it down here

Yeah yeah yeah double blinks like true born liar.

The use of drugs is fine honest but don't use too much man, u look like u can use a detox. Greetings man i don't try to be mean, just helping out.

Your name is satan ? 😅😂

thanks for sharing this

Thanks for sharing