My First Psychosis / Spiritual Awakening | Drug-Induced Psychosis (Cannabis and DMT) 

Thank you for sharing. I experienced psychosis in 2014 and 5 years later still processing it. I also felt like I had touched enlightenment and had a sense of purpose, and that knowing that love was everything. There's something in me that tells me there's more to it than Western society paints.. that the 'hallucinations' or 'false beliefs' we have in that state are actually closer to reality than we realize. To me part of the healing is owning the sacredness of my experience. It's been a long journey. When I still believed that I had gone crazy, that I was broken, I only felt shame over my experience, and that doesn't feel right. I still haven't processed everything, but our journeys are too similar (you, me, and so many others) to be categorized as crazy. Reality is just a collective agreement on an interpretation of a situation, and if so many of us are waking up, feeling this purpose, this deep understanding that we are here for a reason, I think it is unwise to discount it as 'crazy'. We are more than our bodies. Psychosis can be scary, but there is great learning within the depths.

In my awakening I realised that "Jesus" is in all of us, we need to reach that curtain level and state of consciousness. It blew my mind. That's why we all experience this same feeling of purpose. The ones in control know this. They are at that same consciousness level but chose evil. They know we are waking up. That's why we are all being put into isolation. So we can't raise our level as a whole.

I had a psychosis two-three months ago and it lasted for several weeks, I had SO many delusions and a couple hallucinations. I didn’t sleep for days on end, I was trying to make a tv show, I thought aliens were controlling reality and wanted me to bring their message to the world. Also I had that experience about seeing people for who they are. I wanted to break people down to their core and I thought life was this giant play where everybody was acting in a certain way and not being truthful or genuine. I was an atheist before but I started believing in God almost instantly. It’s strange how similar our delusions can be. I’m really struggling with getting back to reality now and it’s very difficult to come to terms with what I experienced. I feel as though I’ve been given a peek behind the curtain and now I have to just go back to acting in the play.

"The psychotic drowns in the same waters in which the mystic swims with delight." Same language perceived and explained, through different states om mind. You, sir, are very brave. Thank you for sharing your experience. Much love ❤️

It's so mind boggling to me how so many people can experience such similar mindsets while in this state. I've experienced it myself and what you were describing seems almost exactly mirrored to my journey. Thank you so much for sharing, it makes me feel so much less alone.

You broke your mind barrier. Good job. Don’t overthink it. Take what you learned from it and move forward. Train your soul with meditation. It only gets better from here on out.

I've been through something similar bro... Was on a mission.. Ended up detained and sedated. The revelations received still apply when sober and stable though bro.. Well wishes.

Can't thank you enough. Maximum respect for describing the experience so clearly. By far, the most eye-opening video about a topic which is often mentioned but seldom discussed by any of the usual RU-vid psychonaut heavyweights. Everyone should watch it before even thinking about using pschedelics. May I also respectfully add my vote for hearing more about what happened in the hospital and afterwards.

I am very thankful for this video man, keep on keeping on

It took an amazing amount of courage for you to share this.... About to watch the next one.

It takes a lot of strength to be vulnerable. Thank you for being that. 🙏 you give me strength, hope and inspiration there's perspective in the other side if you get off the tunnel.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience ! For being vulnerable and keep it strong!

Thank you for sharing your story. It’s helped me in my recovery immensely. I’m 2 years into my recovery and still occasionally struggle with the aftershocks of my behaviour while in a drug induced psychotic state but I try to make up for it by showing up for myself and others everyday. Peace and love.

I also very much enjoyed both your videos and appreciate you sharing and stop worrying what other people think and realize you are a shaman

wow, great vid man, thanks for sharing.. so glad that you are ok now. and remember that it gets only better from now on! keep it up!

im crying man. from the feeling like christ to walking to another persons house, nearly everything you said matches my experience. i really would like to talk to you and share my experience with you because up until now i didnt think anyone would understand what i went through and how real it all felt. if you have insta or something please let me know. i commented on 2 of your other videos, i just want to reach out because our experiences are so similar, and i never thought another person would understand how i felt

Thank you for sharing your story. It must have been so traumatic, I appreciate you being strong enough to share, people glorify psychedelics too much and don't acknowledge the potential dangers

Thank you so so much for sharing. I'm still healing from very recent psychosis, lasting for a very long time. and after finding your videos I was brought to tears, I'm so grateful. I'm having such a hard time differentiating what I believe in as a spiritual person and things that were not reality. Just knowing you had a semi-similar experience makes me feel like I can do this. Same to everyone else in the comments.

Yes please make the follow-up, you're amazing at explaining this. Your experience is personally relevant to my life.

I relate a lot having my own episode recently, you inspired me to make a video and tell my own story. This made me very happy to watch.

Thankyou so much for sharing this ! I experienced a very similar situation this January and I’m currently trying to piece everything together and it’s so helpful to hear that I am not alone in what I am going through

Dude I had the same feeling, the MISSION MAN, IT IS ALL ABOUT THE MISSION< YOUR STILL ON THAT MISSION NOW! Of course in a much more grounded way like you said about the Hawk, you are a leader my friend like me! Keep up the great work!

I have had a very similar experience. I felt as I had one foot stuck in another dimension and could not ground myself. I had profound spiritual ideas and experienced (what it seemed at the time to be) accelerated synchronicities and more cohesion with people. I let go of all fear and jumped in the ocean when it was very cold outside and it felt electric. To this day I have never felt as powerful or close to spirit as that so called episode. When it began it felt like a switch was flipped and I immediately facetimed my best friend and to tell him some universal truths that I felt were downloaded. My event also ended in my car as I was driving erratically and then stopped the car and waited for help and was then hospitalized. Thank you dearly for your courageous and brave video. I believe this will help shed light on some of the insights between spiritual awakening and psychosis. I am grateful that I saw this video as your experience resonated deeply with mine. As a psychology student, I see spirituality overlap with some aspects of mental health quite often. I hope you continue these videos. Subscribed. ❤️

Thank for sharing. I know it’s not easy to talk about your experience. I would like to hear more as my younger sister has had a similar experience but has not opened up to me about it. I guess it helps to know what you want through. You are really brave.

I’ve also experienced psychosis and I just want to say thank you for sharing your experience. I wish you the best and it looks like you’re doing better so that’s great.

I've had three psychotic breaks and three months in a mental health unit over four years. You've helped me understand them more than the psychiatrists did. Thank you xo

Thank you for sharing your story. I have a very similar experience.

Hello just stumbled upon your channel. it's been over a year since my experience. I'm definitely still in a recovery process, that's why I am very grateful to hear your experience. it is strange how many similarities we all share. this video gives me courage so that perhaps one day I can openly share my experience too

Thank you for sharing your experience

Hi, I just stumbled upon your channel. Thank you for sharing your experience. I had an extremely similar experience happen to me in 2017. It's been 4 years now and I'm still processing it. It's been a hell of a journey

Thanks for sharing! Keep it up.

Thank you so much... You are not alone.. and with that, i am not alone.. Thank you brother..

You’re a phenomenal story teller tbh, and I’m so glad this video was recommended to me lmao

Thank you. I've been experiencing similar things. But for me, I go through small periods of psychosis induced by marijuana. I could really relate to a lot of the things you were saying. But currently, I'm at a point of confusion. You see, I feel spiritually enlightened by the same thing that caused me psychosis. Like, what once made everything so confusing made it all so clear. I'm trying to make sense of it. I want to be able to have a conversation with people of similar experiences. I always tend to seek that out; having people to relate to. Even though, I'm a very very complex person, it feels comforting to know that people know somewhat what it is like. I don't know haha. I'm probably going to watch more of your videos because I'm intrigued. Thank you.

Your not alone. I had much the same experience being godlike, driving, metaphors. Saving the world. I wound up in the hospital. I consider it a great learning experience. It opens a door from normal boring life. Im back to normal but still keep the lessons and intuition I gained. Thanks for sharing this...

Thank you for sharing!

I really enjoy listening to you! 😊🦋💙

You are courageous for this share dear brother.

Wow. what an experience, thank you for sharing.

Thanks for sharing.your not alone

Thank you, it cost to create new images. Mixing the things as u do bring more clarity. Its mutual understanding in a deep level. We are here for that, i think.

Imagine laying on the side of the road dying then seeing this chad drive by, clearly see you, then continue on his way... smh my head

Thank you for sharing.

Hello! Thank you so much for telling your story. It gave me a lot to think about, that I would like to share with you. In your first story you said that at the start of your trip you saw your friends “soul” this made me think you are an intuitive but you might not know it or have investigated that yet in your souls life, always be open minded when that crosses your path next time! You also said that you were resisting to a break through on your first video, maybe “source” wanted you to experience that feeling of being loved by this stranger at the end of your story, because that seems to be a very common thing that people that breakthrough report, love is all that matters! Thank you again! Sending love to you! Praying you will never experience this pain again!

Thank you so much for sharing this. As has been said I cannot even imagine somebody dosing me with DMT without my knowledge. I have never done it but that combined with a high dose of cannabis could send anyone spinning off the rails. The vulnerability you exhibit in this video is seriously deep and I appreciate that you were so candid and descriptive about an instance where a psychedelic experience goes wrong. I wants had an experience where I smoked 40 X salvia while coming down off of acid and aside from giving me some variant of post traumatic stress disorder it put me off from doing any other sort of blast off psychedelics (DMT and it’s variance). I did not think I was coming back

I had a spiritual psychosis from research and deep stress and I wanted FREEDOM got it then didn’t know to handle it. Been a year and half ago. I’m now debt free.. and I no longer let people use me as a bank anymore. But love them the same that’s all that matters. Been through the hardest almost 2 years of my life. My husband lost his job in December.. and just went back not long ago and finally getting a pay day in a week.. we’ve almost made it.. not to mention many other challenges deaths and the loss of my father in law at 48. And the whole family fell apart. It’s just us left now. But I made it and no longer feel like I need anyone.

Beautiful story from a beautiful person!

thank you very much.... for sharing...

Thx for sharing

Dude my psychosis story is really similar to yours. Sending Love to you bro 🫂

I found your channel maybe a year or so ago. I watched one of your first videos and remember it was so helpful. My son was taking marijuana and I was really disturbed. At that time I was going to watch all your videos but ended up getting side tracked. My sons marijuana use increased. I thought he was going to be able to quit. He experienced a lot of grief, loss, a traumatic relationship ending, job loss, the pandemic, lockdowns etc. Anyway, I learned from your first video to think on it as a journey and try to learn with him. But now he uses everyday, heavily....he became very delusional..no visual or auditory hallucinations...just bizarre thinking and unpredictable actions and getting angry/aggressive. So...I came back here to see if you had made anything about your first psychosis and first hospitalization. Yesterday, I talked with my son and we called the police. He voluntarily went to the hospital where I thought he would meet a psychiatrist who could help him get off the weed, get him meds to help any withdrawal symptoms, stabilize him and get us referrals. Turns out the police put you into a M-1 hold which I thought if you enter it voluntarily you could discharge yourself. So it's shocking, saddening, scary to know this is not the case. Now my son thinks I put him in medical prison. I was trying to get help not make him hate me :( It sounds like you actually welcomed being hospitalized. Let me watch your next video from when you went to the hospital. Right now, your sharing is really helpful. But I am heart-broken, worried but hopeful, very tired. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? I will see if they came to you while in hospital. I was told I can't discharge my son. I feel betrayed because I thought he would get help at the hospital but instead they are moving him to a facility and he can't discharge himself, nor can I. I am really confused over how to get help or what to do. I don't want him to go somewhere where he will get hurt or mistreated. I also don't want them to dope him up on worse meds that have horrible side effects or get misdiagnosed. He smokes weed, is depressed, stressed. The weed over time made him have bad delusions..that and the state of the world is causing anxiety, that and we are poor which is stressful. If I was rich he could go to a luxury rehab where he can ride horses...if you are on medicaid..not sure, sighs. Anyway, Hayden, again...really, thank you for being here. Thank you for surviving your psychosis and then making this RU-vid and sharing your experiences. It helps. I wonder how are your parents and do you have a good relationship with them? I wonder if any of your followers who had to go to the hospital or a loved one called police to get help if they hate their parents or were able to heal and forgive them. Let me go watch your next video.

Thank you for sharing your experience with the world, it really was an eye opener to see another person’s view at having a psychosis( The first one I had mine I was also god and felt like I was here to destroy the earth, the second one was pretty messed up, I spiraled out of control because at that point I mixed spirituality with conspiracy’s and was smoking weed and watching tv a lot, fast forward 3 days I felt like I was going to die so I decided to jump out of a 6 stories building and broke my hip, after waking up in the hospital I forced myself to get my shit together and worked on that until and even after a month that I came out of the hospital.) Now almost a year since that happend my spiritual journey still calls to me and I decided to do it the right way meaning always staying in control 🤞🏽thanks Hayden this is my first time trying to explain my experience with almost full detail. may we meet in a different lifetime

Thanks for sharing. Had a curious moment to hear other people’s experience. Have had a very extreme (emotional as you say when I remember the fear) psychosis by accidentally eating extra strong weed cookies (4.........) when I was ALONE, no knowing I had, at a couchsurfing house, in a creepy tiny town in a shack by a lake) after hours of walking with my backpack and not much food. In any case. I had some crazy experiences, sensory, paranoia, etc. I ‘died’ like 4 times and came back to life (or so my Mind rationalised) I was also raped and paraplegic etc etc. both 98% sure did not happen. I had time fragment into microseconds that glitched thousands of miles an hour and couldn’t see even though my eyes were open etc. I called the police and ambulance on myself (great big fine). I was very crazy and rude to the staff probably. They didn’t believe it was an accident which was very traumatic for me at 23, someone who had already sworn of weed from some paranoia/out of body experiences a few years earlier at college. It definitely changed my life forever. I was mostly ok, high tired for a few days after but ok. Probably some hectic Canada laced version who knows. The people who had hid it in their cupboards were scared and sorry (well not really, they were pretty selfish about it because I was saying they were trying to kill me etc). Not that much compassion or help... So long story I was ok and then got a bit anorexic and very heavily into hiking and took it to a place that when I came home, I was unemployed and after a year of just bad luck at a vital age for sure It was a kick, trying to work out what to do ‘next’. I had terrible hormone issues, was obsessed with being slimmer and dysmorphic about my looks (vanity, but also fear). A guy had rejected me a bit brutally by ignoring me (classo) and I felt like I’d felt so safe with him and felt like the bright future I’d been looking forward to was energetically a lie. It was only then that I went downhill again and the post drug psychosis sort of stuff started to come and unravel me. It was definitely a spiritual sort of awakening but it took me a few years. Of literal hell on earth some days. Hell on earth. Nothing ever visual hallucinations. Just subtle things. Some days I probably was fine but yeah a lot of depression, crying everyday for a year, some moments of paranoia. If I hadn’t had family I don’t know what would’ve happened. Brief stint with medication but it didn’t last. I really felt like a shell of the grounded girl I’d been. I actually looked a bit off too. I couldn’t take care of myself. That was awful. Anyway, I’m bit perfectly good again hahaha but that’s covid for you and the earths great awakening and dark night catching up with mine and many others finally, the game we live in. The knowing we must die and make meaning somehow, all that. But beyond that I know the depth of the mind and experience in a particular lilt. Nothing to do with enlightenment which I think comes back and forward in our behaviour with veils falling and resetting. Also in meditation and mindfulness both polarities. But I know the fragmented ‘dark’ side. I know also the completely ‘out of body’. The ‘born again’ and I don’t overthink it now. Well I do you’re forever changed and nothing feels true or normal or worthwhile after these things for very long from a grounded place. But I just know many people in their own version understand parts of it. To be human. What challenges me is the sheer fear and disturbance that it created that others don’t have underneath them. I would not wish it on anyone, and for those that have bad trips but seem to come out ok - and continue (with a bit of it’s all good), wow they have never gone to hell haha. Thanks for sharing! I think not knowing you’ve taken something is the hardest I literally thought I was going crazy, like sectioned forever, I certainly acted like it - that loss of control is like a runaway train in the mind. So proud of myself and grateful to be grounded, able to be compassionate, study again etc and have now come to, in maturity, way deeper personal insights and processing and growth I’d never have known or tried to make room for amongst the reactivity, impulsivity and confusion I had back then with less connection to the depth of ‘spirituality’ and the science of consciousness (though I had read, I’d not embodied yet). Now in late twenties and feel less alone and weird that that happened to me. X

A lot of respect for sharing this. 🙏If we would be in a society where psychedelics are completely accepted and not deemed, then we wouldn't be that focussed on our fear of psychosis and maybe we could integrate such intense aftereffects more effectively, without the fear of not fitting into society anymore.

Thank you so much for sharing. I can't imagine being given DMT without my knowledge. I just can't even begin to grasp that. On a lighter note, we are kinda neighbors! I'm from Columbus. Best wishes man. I'm really enjoying your channel and so appreciate your honesty and ability to be candid. One Love

Thank you friend I am not as brave as you are 💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾

You AMAzing brother

Small world I went to Newark for a year in 2016 before I transferred to main campus. Thanks for sharing keep it up👍

Hello, i have had the exact same thing happen to me around 2012, i was also hospitalized, and i am still on meds today, all i know is nothing compares to the way u feel in that state, u feel i kind of eurphoia and iv always felt that mission part and experienced the hallucinations audio and video, such things as telepathy. Im so pissed off that i have to take these meds but it could be dangerous for me to get off them. Iv droven in my car alone at times and have done very embarassing things. Thanks for ur story man it helps me know that im not alone. I really wish there was a way to explore that state in a surveillanced method. My hallucinations were jawbending dude the coolest most entertaining things and i would have them for long periods. Im also thinking of starting a youtube channel. Peace much love

i know the feeling feeling brother . i had a similar experience but it only lasted 20 minuets . the aftermath was alittle difference . i knew i couldnt act on my feelings cause no one would understand .and i spent the next year putting it all back into the box . its all god so i dont need to feel special . thx for posting . be well .

I love the background, is it fabric or painting? If fabric where did you get ? Thanks for Sharing your story 👍😉😊

Hello Hayden. I just saw my first video of you today. Thanks for sharing your story. I'm trying to learn as much as possible about 'spiritual awakening / emergence / emergency. I'm particularly interested in your affinity for Hanuman as I too have had an on again off again relationship with the monkey god. For now I will check out some more of your videos. Very brave of you to put yourself out there sir, thank you.

I been going through this since December 2020 so about 6 months. I think it lasted that long since I kept smoking but I’m done for sure now. At first I was confused and scared but now I’m aware and grateful‼️It changed me and made me a WAY better person. Now I’m comfortable being uncomfortable and before this happened I feel like I didn’t have a purpose but now I do. I’m gonna stop smoking now tho and see if my psychosis go away I’m just grateful for the change. I went from anxious and low self esteem to not giving a fuck and a LOT of confidence😂

I feel like the main problem is that we live in a culture that doesn't understand spiritual matters truly, so it's very hard for society to help an individual going through something like this. I really like the saying "The psychotic downs in the same waters as the mystic swims". If society had a proper "toolkit" to assist people going through this kind of a thing it could possibly even be looked at as simply a part of the process. Unfortunately, people in this situation are left to wander around receiving little to no true understanding which further alienates them and drives them deeper into delusion, being called "crazy" and so on... anyway, enjoyed your story. Hope you are well, blessings. ❤

That tapestry is the skitz!

Thanks for sharing. This really needs to be acknowledged and talked about more. The same thing happened to my brother. He was not himself and had a messiah complex, he believed he was the chosen one and that he had to die to save the world. He was either in a drug psychosis or Kundalini awakening? (He did both). He was scared of the government and everyone. He thought his friends and family were dead/clones/satan. He got admitted to Hospital, they did nothing and kicked him out 6 days later while he was still in a psychosis. 7 days after getting out of hospital he died 😭 he died on the same day Jesus died. He planned and timed it with a clock.

Had psychosis, gouged my right eye out, diagnosed with schizophrenia. I’m good now and I like my life. Stay OFF the street drugs fam, stay ON the prescribed drugs listen to the voices of reason close to you (family, people you depend on), go to a psychosis intervention mental health center, realize that there is a difference between what you think is true, and what is proved to be true through evidence(grounding), religion/spirituality is ART-not FACT. Can’t think of anything else but ye that’s how I got to my stable place.

I went through a very bad psychosis after a bad salvia hit. Lasted about 2 weeks.i became obsessed with electricity pylons,believing I was on track to discover the ultimate truth watever that means I didnt wash hardly ate, on way day I walked about 25 miles just locating pylons and becoming more and more terrified. A lot more went on in those 2 weeks,far more than I can fit in a yt comment. But a fascinating but terrifying time.

Holy shirt I just bought that exact same mandala tapestry 😮

I hope your ok now. I just went through something similar.

ecstasy. I took a pill and was chilling w/ friends when I noticed some "weird" behavior (probably just high) from my friend and my ex who are "cousins". My brain was telling me "they are fucking behind your back" they were giggling and playing and it jus felt a lil too intimate and then I looked around the room and for some reason it felt like me and everybody else were peeping the same things. I also started to think about past situations between them two and it started to make "sense" That made me think I was a "God" because I was able to see "through" stuff. We had music playing and it seemed like the music had started talking to me personally exposing my friend and ex... BUT BEFORE THAT HAPPENED... I got an odd feeling in my stomach and I had to go outside take a walk play some music and then come back in the house then thats when everything happened. After that I couldn't sleep, eat or anything. All I did was listen to music in my room and create music for dayssss straight. It seemed like the music had a direct connection with my life. I believe in god and have a relationship with god and I felt like he had answered my prayers and saved me. I started praying and thanking god soooo sooo much like more than normal. I also was very delusional lol ... I felt like rappers were trying to guide me in to make it. Like through instagram post and tweets they made to me it seemed like they were talking me through the shit. I also got heavily into angel numbers. It seemed like every single thing I seen or heard I could tie it back to what I was going through some how someway.

I was obsessed with hawks during mine too lol

This is very interesting. Do you still struggle with mental health? And do you believe the drug set off something that was dormant but would have showed up sooner or later (such as a bipolar event) ? Just wow.. scary stuff. Thanks for sharing.. it is brave of you.

Wow so many genuine people. But be careful, don’t trust anyone. But know the one lives in you.

you probably scared them so much when you gave them those gifts. I can only imagine what they were thinking

Been many years now but I also had a very long bout with psychosis. Mine lasted for about two years where there were impossible things happening around me every day multiple times a day. It's no fun at all but I'm guessing it was necessary.

Thank you for sharing your story. I myself recently went through a spiritual awakening and am still processing what actually happened. What happened to me was that I thought that I was going to die and that the devil was going to take me to hell, and that God was trying to save me and take me to heaven. So my mission was to not die but to stay alive as long as possible and not die. Which was quite difficult because I hadn’t slept nor eaten for days. I also thought that after I had died would the devil take everyone I loved to hell so I went around telling the people I loved that the devil is after them but they shouldn’t be afraid because I’ll save them. They Got sceard and called the hospital. When I got to the hospital did they wanted to give me sleeping pills since I had little to no sleep for a week but I didn’t wanted to take the sleeping pill because I thought I was going to die once I took it, so they forced me to take it instead. The medicine they gave me, gave me an allergic reaction and I thought I was going to die at a point but when the doctor said I’ll live did I felt relieved and didn’t care about the fact that I was in pain. I’m still hurt that my family took me to the hospital when I was trying to save them, and that my friends weren’t thankful over the fact that I “ saved “ them. I’m also hurt over the fact that everything that happened was according to the doctors a delusion and that the devil wasn’t after me which means that I suffered in vain. I’m still on medication which helps me to not think too much of what happened, I have lots of guilt and regret and am trying to recover from this traumatic event 🙁❤️‍🩹

My eyes were dilated also throughout my psychosis and I felt very authoritative as well and my parents were as well scared of me yes all of this happened to me as well in 2020 I felt like I had a deep purpose from God and I even saw UFOs and visions and very spiritual real experiences that now anyone would say was crazy even though it really felt real to me for example I closed my eyes once and I saw a blue dragon roaring for help and I could not stop crying and thinking something terrible was wrong in the spiritual realm

i haven’t watched this video yet but it’s so refreshing to see a video on this, i recently was looking into psychosis because i’ve been feeling disconnected from reality and i stumbled across it. when i looked into the symptoms it confused me that it’s a mental disorder, because what if those “hallucinations” and “delusions” are genuinely real, what if psychosis happens to individuals who are actually seeing and feeling and experiencing things that most aren’t? it just feels strange to me, some of the symptoms are things that i’ve heard people who are psychic experience and people who’ve gone undergone spiritual awakenings have experienced. i feel like it’s possible that this mental disorder is actually people coming to realizations, not to “delusional” conclusions.

Hi! I have a question. Were you diagnosed with bipolar disorder after you went to the hospital as a result of the DMT? In other words did the medical staff I think that the psychosis you had from the DMT was actually bipolar disorder?

How old were you when you went through this? I read that mental illnesses surface around adolescence (18-25) in males and I went through psychosis/mania from LSD at 22 and was at a ward for 3 months but thankfully I’m better now and I weaned off the medication.

Doesn’t life feel so dull after psychosis

Dude. I have like the exact same experience.

Hi, do you know kechari mudra? It produces dmt too i believe

Honestly if you want to have spiritual experiences and actually see if you have certain capabilities. Meditate daily and see where that takes you. Psychadelic substances are very intense and need someone to guide you when you're on them.

In 86 I was a back seat passenger m.v.a I saw what religions call my guardian angels 3 times same road before a taxi hit us in a intersection a traffic light pole that I didn't see hit me as it cut into the car. I thought the car straightened and we kept going I didn't lose consciousness. A brown space then I was flying over a ocean I saw a hole in the sunless sky I acknowledged it then took off through it. I found myself in the afterlife those people I saw before impact stepped from suspended balls of light. They said I know them its not my time I must get back. I didn't know anything about them so I left them. Cut a long story short for about 7 years after the accident words like time and get would trigger a delayed regression. It's hard to describe reliving a car accident that's just dropped on your head out of nowhere. Cut another long story short I ended up helping the psychiatrist. At the time I was a labourer and I worked with world war 2 veterans they knew I had ptsd as soon as look at me they knew nobody was immune .

Drug induced Psychosis is wild did you experience this afterwards and if you have mental health problems you need a babysitter if your going to actually go all out and do any psychedelics ... this is was really overwhelming and kinda depressing and I wish you the best and hope you are past this

I recently told my mom that I think the only reason Peter was able to walk on water was because he was astral projecting. His souls was really walking on water and everyone else who saw this on the boat with Peter was enlightened or having that awakening. But I see why you attempted to walk on water.

yo greetings man

Entheogens were used for a long time now to induce a spiritual experience (experience of other realities). They should be taken in a controlled setting so please don't drive under the influence if you really care about other lives.

Ok so I smoked weed for the first time last night with 3 friends and I ended up smoking way to much for my first time and I ended up flying trough time crying and screaming when I fell asleep on my bed, I was screaming in my sleep for 15 minutes my fiends said they couldn’t wake me up. I was thinking I was going to be here for the rest of my life and forever so I was terrified. I then realized I could lean up and get out of my bed, from a third person view I got out of my bed like I’m blooming from a flower, once I got up I looked like I was in a video game for the first few minutes it felt like, I could barley walk or talk to my friends, I was like this it felt like forever, I eventually ended up falling asleep again and I still feel weird for some reason. Any help?

Has anyone experienced having double meaning to things? My brain also started assigning meanings to numbers. I often see sequences of particular numbers.

I’m surprised how similar your experience was to many people in the comments; The feeling of enlightenment and think you’re some sort of saint or prophet etc

the most horrible thing about chiropractors is that many of them pretend to be real medical doctors. leading to many problems for people. as they pray on desperate people. sickening :/

I find that I cant talk about my psychosis without it building back up. I feel like throwing up typing this even know.. theres like some dark stress that my body is telling me to block to stay healthy. Its strange, but I think this is my bodies defense to not delve into depression anymore, or any type of stress. Anger is the tool I used to scare my psychosis into being quelled, once I had, I let the anger go.. it is a tool, that seems absent for most psychotic episodes. You have to grab that axe.. use it.. then put it away. It seems I must be happy to survive lol. Which I'll take if that's the case.

I thought that my friends were killing each other downstairs with knives. I was hearing voices and screaming. Scary as fuck.

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How well did you knew about dmt before you took it there?

Knigge you was Trippin balls