this kinda hits different when you have always had to be more mature for your age and now feel like you have wasted your whole childhood and now are wasting your teenage years
Literally me 😔 I was the first born and my parents were hard on me bc they wanted me to be perfect now I feel like my elementary school years were wasted on trying to get perfect grades and being the best
That’s me. My whole life I’ve always had responsibilities most kids don’t usually have and because of this I have always been the mature one and always hung out with people way older than me. I’m 16 now and I feel like I haven’t enjoyed one bit of my childhood. It’s not my parents fault. They didn’t force me to be this way I guess I just always felt obligated to be like this.
It’s ok it will get better soon. You will learn more and more as you go.and then find the solution the magic potion to be better. It will come to you like a urge. If your sad try keeping a gratitude journal it sound cliche but calms you down.
I’m 19 and one thing I learned is nostalgia makes your past memories seem sweeter than they actually were. And yes most of us do wish we were kids again cuz it was easier etc but if you keep that mindset when you turn into an adult you will hate it. The only reason I don’t hate being an “adult” right now is because I remind myself of all the good things being at this age has brought me and tbh once I turned 18 my parents gave me a lot more freedom and life has been so good so far. I wish you the best
I’ve been reading a lot of these comments and it looks like a lot of you are kids/young teens/just becoming adults. I’m here to tell you, it’s not as bad as you think it’s gonna be to grow up. It’s confusing until you’re about 25 and then you get the hang of it. Take advantage of the time you have now and have as much fun as you can. When I became an adult, I thought it was over, too. I went to Florida with a trash bag full of clothes and $5. I was only 17 years old. I lived in a house with a revolving door of roommates, some who were there for years, some crashed for a few days. I went to the Florida keys for the first time, riding down from Tampa in a beat up car that we had to start with a screwdriver by touching the battery with the metal because the alternator didn’t work. It sounds awful, but I cherish the memory of standing on the side of the interstate, flashing random truckers as my friend electrocuted himself several times trying to get us back on the road. I went to cosmetology school for no other reason but to learn to cut and dye my own hair. I changed my hair color 47 times that year. I tried drugs I hated, I drank entirely too much alcohol, but I don’t regret it. I went on to get married, and quickly divorced before I was 25. We got married on a whim on a Wednesday afternoon in a court room overlooking the pacific with the janitor as our witness. We fought constantly. I also don’t regret that. I learned a lot about myself and who I want to make a life with. We’re still friends. We went cross country in a Mini Cooper twice. I saw the Grand Canyon, I saw a giant crater in Arizona. I witnessed the biggest dust storm of the past 20 years rolling over the horizon in New Mexico. I went over the San Diego border to Mexico just to order nachos every weekend for 2 months. I didn’t need a better reason. I swam in a river in Alabama that seemingly nobody knows about. I saw both coasts, went to the walk of fame and spit on the sidewalk from the tallest building in Atlanta. My ex husband and I had a son together. Pregnancy was miserable and rewarding. I was walking around at 9 months with a 8 pound bowling ball in my gut in the middle of July. When I went into labor, my husband went to get the car. I got into the elevator to go down and Drew Carey was standing there. He was trying to go to the comedy club in our building’s basement and missed his floor. He wished me luck. I experienced child birth with no epidural, in a bath tub. I hemorrhaged after and needed 4 blood transfusions. Still, not a single regret about any of it. I had a heart attack because I partied too much. I needed open heart surgery and spent 4 weeks in the hospital total. Checked out, walked 4 miles to the airport with a duffel bag and flew back home to my parents. Checked right back into the hospital the next day. I almost died from an infection. It was a learning experience. I’ve had my heart restarted with electricity. What a wild ride that was! I’ve loved many men and they’re all special to me. I helped one come out as gay, another was a whirlwind that somehow swept me up into a 15 hour flight to Australia. The next thing I knew, I was sitting next to him at sunset on a beach with my toes in the Indian Ocean. It only lasted 6 months but it was beautiful. After all was said and done, I finally found my soulmate who is sleeping peacefully next to me right now. He is the most amazing person I’ve ever met. We just bought our first house and we move in at the end of the month. I imagine us at 80 years old, yelling at each other because neither one of us can hear, going to play bingo with our friends at the senior center and the thought makes me want to cry because it makes me so happy. All that being said, I really wanted to say this: Life is crazy. It hurts, it feels good, it confuses you, it changes you. For every beautiful moment, there is immense pain. There is a good and bad side to everything. But it’s LIVING. You can go outside and feel the sun on your skin. You can taste all the amazing foods that we are so blessed to eat. You get to experience love. You get to create things. You get to look at the trees and mountains and feel the water of the oceans and rivers. Your ears get to hear music like this incredible song. You get to be ALIVE. It’s all about being ALIVE and being here, in the middle of all this. No matter how bad it seems when you look at the state of the world around you, no matter how scary it seems to grow up, always remember that you are here and there is so much for you to do and see and so little time that you don’t have any to spare for worry. It’s okay to doubt yourself. It’s okay to be confused and apprehensive of the future. It’s okay to want to hold onto your childhood, but I’m here to tell you that it’s not over when you move on from your teenage years. Becoming an adult is really where it all begins. This is your time to experience this world and you can do whatever you want with it. Stay sharp, use your intuition. Make the best decisions you can for the situation you’re in. You will fail at times, you will hurt at times. You will have the highest highs and rock bottom lows, but time is fluid and no matter what it is, it will always pass you down the river of life to the next opportunity. Don’t hold on to where you are or you’ll drown. Go with the flow. Hopefully someone reads this and it makes them a little less nervous. I promise, life is the greatest adventure one can experience. Life is the experience. Peace and love to you all kiddos, you are the future of the planet and I 100% believe that your generation will make the world a better place. You are all unique, smart, funny and beautiful. I am happy to hand the ropes down to such an amazing youth. Sincerely, -Someone who is much, much older ❤️ Edit: WOW! I didn’t expect to get this response! I keep coming back to check on this comment and I am so humbled by each and every reply! I want you all to know that I read every single comment. Sometimes my husband and I sit and read them and we are both so honored to know that there are so many loving and wonderful people out there who were moved by my story. He has your back as much as I do! I can’t always respond right away, but I do my best to get to everyone when I have the time to sit down and type out thank you messages! If I don’t reply right away, please know that I probably did read what you said and it was touching. You guys have impacted my life profoundly. If ANYONE is struggling and feels like they’re hopeless, please tag me and I’ll do my best to get some contact info your way! I can’t help everyone on RU-vid or anywhere else in the world, but maybe this little corner of the internet was meant for me to find the people I can help. Thanks for reading, everyone. Love to you all from my family to yours. We can do it! 💪🏻
Everyone is sad as hell in the comments, but I'm just stunned at how this person made the beat feel like it was circling my head. Bro, that shit was cool and put a smile on my face for a little while
@@babyhoney3652 these types of beats help with my grounding. They’ve taken me out of panic attacks and brought me back into my one space instead of multiple others.
When you have strict parents , everyone is living the teenage life while your never allowed to enjoy things , it all goes to waste , the parties , the high school sweethearts , the fun trips , wear whatver you want , act like you want , seeing other ppl live easily what you’ll never get to live as a teenager , it’s a prison
i have synesthesia. this song is a deep blue abyss with flashes and swirls of darker silver, stunning violet and flecks of gold and lorde's voice jumps as aquamarine ripples across the plane edit: tw for derealization/depersonalization. hey guys did you know that most people with synesthesia see completely different things from other synesthetes? i have a theory that everyone's brain really does interpret color differently. if one synesthete sees, say, gold for a piano's low notes while i see navy blue, what if what we both think is green, actually looks like what yellow looks like to you in my eyes? edit 2: if you recognize me from school NO YOU DON'T ‼‼
I also have synesthesia and for me is the background music is green-blue swishes with gold freckles and lorde's voice is a dark ruby red ripple through the green-blue swishes with the freckles expanding throughout the song
today i was hit by the reality that things will never be simple again. our friend group has lost a member to suicide 2 days ago. we will never go for ice cream together again, never go to the beach together again, never skip school for the day and get coffee together again, we will never sneak out to parties together again, never go to the park and get high together again. everything was so easy when we were teenagers. now i'm working two jobs and studying for my law degree. i regret every time i came home from work and ignored their calls cause i was too tired. i regret not sharing more memories with the girls i care about most in the entire world. if i have any advice i could share with my younger self it would be enjoy everything before it's too late. i even miss the bad days when i was younger. they don't seem all that hard now.
@9kiyo The people that ignore you are bitches! They're more worried with their status in front of others than everyones happiness. You do not want to be friends with snakes, it's in the Bible!
guys, do not worry, if you feel like you've wasted your childhood or teenage years, no matter what you cant get them back! so what matters is how you spend your time NOW. So that you can look back at this time and not regret it.
I’m 16 and I live in a small apartment with my brother and his girlfriend because my mom abandoned me earlier this year. Growing up has never been more difficult and it’s so beyond comforting to read people comment who feel the same exact way. If you just so happen to come across this, keep trying. While you’re waiting for things to get better, I’m waiting too. And I know that we got this
I spent all of middle school just wanting to get to high school and grow up now that I'm there I feel like I wasted middle school and in just a few years I will be in college I'm not ready for that yet
Valeria Loja honestly you won’t ever rlly know what u wanna do with ur life, but I’m in my second year of college now. College is so fun cuz u get to be free and not go to school everyday. I live at the mall now lmao. My biggest advice would be hang onto your Highschool friends it’s very hard to keep friends in college, cuz once the semester ends u won’t see those class friends again
im almost 20 and i always feel like i dont experience enough and i just hope i dont feel the same way in 5 years or smth. life goes so fast and i dont wanna have this normal toxic same life ::) i recommend high school me to do everything i want as much as possible, and dont even question why im doing it :))))) thx for reading
It's scary growing up, and sometimes it feels like life is moving so quickly, it honestly gets faster and faster each year that passes. I think my advice to high-schoolers now would be don't spend high school shut inside (you know, after corona), try do new things and make mistakes while you're still just a kid and there's not too many consequences. Take that class that won't really help you get into college. Do that stupid thing (not too stupid). Go on that road trip. Shave your head. Don't hold on to that fear so much. Remember that there's a whole world waiting for you when you become an adult, freedom to find out who you are. The you now and the you in a few years will be completely different people, and they'll be okay!
this makes me want to sit on my roof and cry. I went from being this little kid to driving in seconds. in a few years I’ll leave my childhood home and start a new chapter, but the thing is i don’t want to. edit: okay this got a lot of likes, so if u guys see this just know that i love you and you are worth sooo much. have a great day guys
Dude same i turned 13 in april of this year and i feel like I've lived through the impossible already yet no one questions if im mentality ok even after all the stuff they put me through i feel empty and alone even though i have a crowd of people around me who care about me and love me even the days are getting longer and longer and i feel one day soon there just gonna stop against my will my whole child hood everyone expected me to act older and also tell me to just be a kid but when i try to be a kid i get yelled at im only 13 i didn't think being a teenager would suck this hard:(
same, I turn 14 in like a month and a half and I feel like I have nothing going for me and I kinda hate my life bro, just wish I could do something with it
Take me back. Take me back to the days when I wasn’t insecure about myself. Take me back to when I didn’t have big problems. Take me back to when my parents were still together. Take me back to before my father signed me off. Take me back to when my grandma was still here. Take me back to before I was moved away from all my friends. Take me back to when I wasn’t so depressed. Take me back.
I didn’t see someone explain how i felt listening to this, so I will. i’m 15. 1 year of covid. I haven’t hung out with anyone in one whole year. covid? maybe. I have been wasting it all. I want to have those friends i can do everything with. explore, bike ride at 3am, take polaroids with, to go thrifting with, to drive around no where with, to live life and love with. I want to be a teenager, no worries in the world, but it’s not that simple if only
god i dont think ive ever related to a comment more aside from the fact im 14 yet it literally feels like i was just 12 yesterday, covid really just stole 2 important years of my life and made me even more insecure about absolutely everything, if only we could just live in an entirely different world
Can't help but feel like I wasted my childhood. I thought I wanted to grow up, but growing up is scary. I wish I could have been a kid while I still could instead of being a little grown up from 5 to 15. One more year and my childhood is over for good.
Same :( I still feel like a child and I want nothing more than to just go back and not have to deal with the pain of life. I want my simplistic times when I used to watch my favorites tv shows and have sleepovers with my best friends who I thought would be there forever...
I've wasted my entire childhood dreaming with being mature and now I'm wasting my teenager years crying, sad and in a negative mood, I tought being a teenager would be different...
the same will be when you grow up if u won't enjoy every moment and do the best you can in achieving your dreams! :) it's better to remember some nice memories instead the long wait that one day everything will change. wish you and your family love, health and happiness. hey from Russia ;)
If anyone is wondering, the gif is from the movie “Beautiful Boy” It’s very emotional and a true story about drug addiction! Very good movie! (Timothee Chalamet and Steve Carell are in it)
anyone else feel like this generation had to grow up way too fast. like, almost every stupid thing we say is recorded in screenshots. there’s so much pressure to be perfect, because if you slip, you’re done for. besides all of that we have to go to school praying we won’t get shot up or catch a deadly virus. sucks, man. Update: just found out my school has a gossip page on Instagram. You can dm the owner anything and they’ll post it (anonymously, so you’re not held to your claims) regardless of its truth. A lot of schools have these, but I’ve stayed relatively oblivious until my FRIEND was telling me how hilarious the account is. Yeah, funny until it happens to you. If you form beef with someone, suddenly everyone knows that secret you told your best friend 2 years ago.
Seriously there's so much trust issues. I can't even tell my own best friend any secrets because I am scared she'll tell others. I sent her a baby picture of me this week and she took a screenshot of it. I guess so she should post in on her snapchat story on my Birthday. That picture was personal to me and I just wanted to share it with ONLY her. So I told her to delete it because what the hell? I just sent it to show what I looked like. A girl on my class, who's really nice, BUT... she used to tell everybody's secrets to me and then herself say ''don't tell anybody''. I have such BAD trust issues with others and I myself would NEVER tell anybody's secrets. It's so disrespectful.
I'm glad I have a friend we tell everything together honestly looking at everything I really realized how much she means to me there is someone in this world I could talk to and know matter what they will be there for me and always comfort me I honestly feel I took her friendship for granted
Pathetic Excuse I’m glad you have someone you can trust. I don’t know if I can say that about my aforementioned friend. I have a lot of trust issues because there have been just too many friendships I’ve had that’ve ended in disaster. You have something special.
i’m 17. i’m not ready to grow up. but i can’t stay here any longer. i have places i need to see, lovers i need to meet, and a life that should’ve started earlier. my family keeps telling me to stop romanticizing my life too early. but how can i not? it’s the only sense of hope for me. i’m tired of staying here. i want to leave now. growing up fucking sucks. but i’m ready to leave and find my life. update: i’m 18 now :) my bday was about a month ago. my mental state isnt as bad as it used to be. but i’m better now. i got accepted to a really good college and i’m going to move away. i’m so happy. all i have left is just 5 more months of my senior year. and i’ll be gone. life gets better. i promise. update: hi :) i’m still 18. and holy shit so much has happened. i graduated high school! i’m finally done with that shitty fucking school. so much emotions i felt when they day came. but right after graduation i partied hard with my friends. :) also during these past months i felt more like a teenager than ever before. i actually found love then lost it. i felt my first heartbreak. which was so weird to me. me and the guy stopped talking bc of miscommunication. i still feel upset about it bc i had so many feelings for him but he moved on quick lmao. yeah im still kinda heartbroken but whatever. also with college. things are kinda fucked up so i pushed it aside. also with my mental health. right now it’s not the best. i’ve been cutting myself off my emotions and pushed back any feelings. but i’m trying to fix that. i still want to get better. and i know i will. all i need is more time. :) august 20th, 2021 update: ya’ll probably hate me for updating so many times lmao 😭. but things have been really different. so no. i did not go the college i hoped for and i’m staying home. i’m doing college home because there just been some issues and my family and i decided it would be better if i just stayed. am i disappointed? absolutely. me and my best friend were meant to move 4 hours away from home together and do college. but now my best friend is gone and i’m left here lmao. btw this best friend is also my twin flame. my spirit guide told us 😭. anyways- during this separation we’re suppose to do some self healing. so i’m gonna try to work on myself and my goals. i’ve been really dependent on my friends without me even knowing. it’s been a rough few days without her but i’ve been distracting myself now and need to take care of me too. so, this first step wasn’t what i really wanted but it’s something :) april 9, 2022. hi guys! i’m 19 now lmao. i turned 19 around december so it’s been a minute. life has changed for me completely. last semester was probably one of the darkest times of my life. i let a lot of people use me and i wasn’t being my true self. i will admit also the beginning of this new year has been hard for me. but healing wise. on jan 1, i promised myself to never let myself go down that self destructive phase again. i wasn’t happy and the people i surrounded myself were not good for me. so i let go and found myself. it’s been a hard time to actually accept myself. honestly it’s just part of growing up. actually finding out who tf u are without anyone’s influence. it’s freeing. i let go all of my codependent relationships and started to be by myself more. it was extremely scary but i never thought i would be so connected with the universe. i love my life and i’m enjoying me being a young adult. i’m tired of being that sad angsty teen who was so confused on who they were and what they wanted. i never want to be that person again. i can finally say that i’m genuinely happy. (side note, it’s been almost a year since i graduated omg) jan 5 2023: hi guys, again :). i’m 20 now!! i turned 20 on dec 22. it’s so weird how when i started this i was 17. and now i’m 20. WTF. i was so scared of growing up because i didn’t know if i would ever reached to this point. i never knew that i would be this age and have this mindset. ofc, there is soooo much stuff i have to learn but i just wanted to say that i am very proud of myself. i have pushed through and figured shit out. i trusted the universe and let tf go. the transition of being a teen to an adult was one of the hardest thing i possibly had to do. bc that meant letting go. i will always love and appreciate all the high school memories i have. but i’m growing up. it’s so fucking cliche i know. but i’m in a state where I’m grateful that i’m an adult. the things that i was worrying about when i was a teen doesn’t even faze me anymore. i am in control of everything. one thing of growing up is that you realize this. you finally realize that this is your life. and no one can take that from you. i have learned so much during my teen years and i’m excited for my next chapter of being an adult. don’t be scared of growing up. bc i promise you every time i play this song. i think about when i was 17. when i went on so many adventures with my friends and shit. but now i’m playing this song where i’m in a stage of my life where I’m actually happy. and i’m in a whole new apartment far from home. i’m with the same friends. and i’m just grateful. thank u guys for sticking around and reading this. and i wish every single one of you a great coming of age story.
im 16 and i feel the same way. my childhood slipped away a few years ago and i can't go back but i can't stay here anymore i need to break free. i know we'll both get there and romanticizing your life is a good thing
dude i’m on the sameee track as you. we will get through this, good things will come to us when we are older bc we will be in full control of our life:)
I feel like I'm too mature for my age, I've spent my whole life trying to be someone I needed to be instead of someone I wanted to be. Please, live life while you can.
I turn 19 in a couple months and I honestly didn't think I would live this long. live every day like it's your last, tell the people you love that you love them, smile as often as possible, make the best of every moment.
I’m 17 and feel like my future is entirely depending on how i perform in the next 7 months in school :D update: now 18 and at my dream uni lol wish i didn’t worry so much
same i have so much pressure on me right now and honestly got no clue about what i want to do in the future im so scared but i just push these thoughts away wich is making it worse
being a teenager is so much fun. being a child was too. and so will being a young adult. but i know i’m wasting my years. i’ve already wasted 15. covid really isn’t helping either lol. i’m not making any memories. i’ve realized all of my fun in my life has been short lived no more childhood memories are being made. they’re all just fading into the abyss. being replaced by information about world history and chemistry lmao
You have an old soul they say , I’m 16 and I feel like life is going so fast , the day get mixed up in 1 eternal cycle of numbness , life feels so Tiring and yet I feel like I haven’t accomplished nothing like i’ve been wasting my time in dealing with the past and being to anxious to prepare for the future . -I just wanna feel loved
i feel like i've wasted my childhood and teen years because i grew up in a really strict christian household and i dont know, i just never got to experience the things other teenagers do and find myself the way other people have. i feel stuck in an identity my parents have crafted for me and i don't want to grow up and get stuck this way, stuck as the person my parents made me. i don't know what the future holds or what i want for myself because my identity is so constructed by my parents. i guess i just feel like i've wasted my best years and i really dont want to grow up i want chance to do it again, but as me, not the person my parents have forced me to be.
As a Christian I sympathise with you. I was lucky to have parents who gave me freedom and I hope you find that. I hope you find your own identity not only in god and for your parents but yours personally.
Once you leave home and figure yourself out a bit more, find friends you connect with and something you’re passionate about, you can live the teenage life you didn’t get. I know it sucks, I want to be a kid again too, but use every little moment you have and make the best of it. I know you can do it :))
i feel the same way. i just started college and while i have a completely different mindset than my parents i feel trapped. i grew up in such a specific way and now i feel like i’ll never truly build my own identity, like part of me will always be that little kid trapped at home so different from everyone else and trying to cope with trauma id never imagined. i’m terrified. i feel like i’m always behind on experiences everyone else had
I turn 16 in October and I honestly want nothing more than to be a kid playing with Disney princess puzzles, laughing at stupid things in primary/middle school, coming home with all my clothes muddy and watching tv till 8pm, arguing with friends at school and end up playing together 10 minutes later, PE lessons where you won the team game, sports day picnic, school trips to the museums, art class on a Friday last lesson, school discos, the only worry you had was your end of school tests, school plays, playing bulldog, Christmas dinner at school, that one friend you will always remember although you haven't seen each other since 2016.
@@s.r.6598 use the time wisely, youve got a little longer than me! Go do something stupid at a ridiculous time in the morning, go on bike rides and blare music, do something spontaneous (be safe though) watch the sunset, go eat ice cream on a rainy day, sneak out of the house to watch the sunset alone!
@@weekndenjoyer well its different for everyone really, especially now as some year 7s are cocky and arrogant. So if you respect the people around you and are genuinely nice you can have loads of fun. School trips are a blast and they tend to do more team building stuff with younger years in secondary. But I hope you enjoy your first year at secondary! (You're gonna have your ups and downs)
I turned 24 on Saturday and I went out with my best friends from high school after not seeing them in over a year, I really can't stop crying when I hear this because I miss them so much, I feel like after them I haven't formed another bond so strong and pure, I feel a lot of nostalgia for those years in which we saw each other every day and we were just children discovering the world together, I would like to be able to feel life again with the intensity that it felt when we were together
I thought I’d be dead before 17 I’m now 18 almost 19 and all I have to say is please if youre 11-15 PLEASE cherish these years and your friends and make memories and tell your crush you like them and laugh and cry and feel everything and just have fun. I wanted to grow up so bad but now that I’m here all I want to do is go back to 13
I’m 15 and I’m trying everything in my live is against me. I was diagnosed w anxiety when I was in elementary school and depression in middle school. The worlds against me I swear
To everyone in this comment section - you’ll spend your whole life growing up! Don’t think that your “happy days” are limited within your teenage years. You have a whole life ahead of you to discover and have fun with. It’s all going to be okay.❤️
thank you so much, this comment made me so extremely happy, my anxiety reading through these comments was crazy and this really grounded me again and made me so happy idk why but thank you :)
Oh gosh this made my tear up a little idk why....I'm 21 and I just feel like I'm wasting the best years of my life bc I've barely done much in the sense of truly "growing up". I haven't got a license or a job or my own place. But life seems so hard right now, like...I won't be able to get through this myself. But thank you..I feel a little better, knowing that..I don't have to do all this immediately, for the sake of ever being ok or happy. I can take a little more time to get it right. I just don't want to mess up.
@@saltyspittoon you don’t just wake up one morning and discover you’re “grown up”! It’s ongoing- it’s self discovery and your life doesn’t have time stamps. Sending love x
throughout my life i’ve always had to be a parent figure whether it was towards my siblings or my parents and i felt like i could never get a break. Last weekend I went camping. I got drunk, I made friends, i watched the stars, danced to music. I had fun. Although I am grateful that I got to experience that i’ve still found myself upset. I am genuinely afraid I will never get to experience the romanticized teenage dream like I did on that night.
i don’t know you or anything you’ve gone through. but just want to mention my thoughts and then disappear. i know that you definitely deserve dancing, getting drunk, making friends, spending time on your own, doing whatever you want to do without any thoughts in your mind. i hope, you will get better and you will be able to create yourself a time and don’t feel ashamed of it and don’t feel upset about it in the future. remember that, you should be the number one person in your life no matter what. take care and be proud of what you have done until this time and what you are going to do in the future.
I’m currently listening to this in my room after just smoking a spliff out of the window. I had college work earlier but got high instead. LED lights are on orange. It’s a vibe
To all the lucky young reading this, wait until your 21st. You’ll be laughing with friends and soon you’ll feel a wave of bitter sweetness remembering your teen years officially gone. My advice, live colourfully! Enrich yourself with good people and let your face be painted with laughter lines.
you guys this is like a serious issue for me like I just can’t grow up for so many reasons I can’t handle it. Ive had rly bad body image issues and disordered eating and thinking that Ill look totally different in a couple years freaks me out beyond belief.
in the beginning of high school, i couldn’t wait to graduate. i was counting down the days until college, and i was beyond ready to leave my old life behind. i spent so much time hating high school, and i missed out on so many dances, football games, and events. now, i’m going into my senior year, and i’m desperately clinging onto my childhood. i don’t want to go to college. i don’t want to leave all of my friends behind. i don’t want to start over. i want to repeat my teenage years; i’ve absolutely wasted them. i was so consumed by thoughts of self-loathing and sadness that i completely neglected how easy my life was. i never got to go to a proper high school party, or date as many people as i want, or go on spontaneous trips with my friends. i figured that i would do all of that during my senior year; now, i doubt that i’ll even have a senior year. i missed out on junior prom, and i highly doubt that i’ll get the chance to go to my senior prom. i was already concerned with aging and losing my teenage years, but quarantine has drastically intensified these feelings. there are six months of my life that i will never get back. i will never get to be seventeen again, i will never be able to do stupid shit with my friends again. it feels like i’ve lost everything. i’m trying to make the most out of the time i have left as a teenager, but it doesn’t matter. i don’t want to end up like my parents. i want to feel this way - young, reckless, invincible - forever.
just because your teenage years are nearly over - doesn't mean that the happy times are. it's not over yet. your life isn't over yet. you still need to find your soulmate, you still need to travel to that one place you've always wanted to visit. you have so many years left to live. don't give up now.
its okay. we all have so much ahead of us. your true friends will stay by your side and always be happy to be with you and make those fun times happen again. i honestly felt this way too after seeing those videos of my friends in the car with me, doing random things. but it will come again, we will just be a bit older every video we make :)
At the risk of sounding like a typical teenager, sometimes there's random moments where I suddenly realise how messed up the world is and how pointless it can be. Why am I actually here? Why I am going to school? Why do I have to go the university? What if I never fall in love? What if I die before I have the family i always wanted? And worst of all, I'm not spending my days living my best life because I feel so lonely, and I'm tired of going through all this stuff alone. This song makes me jealous of all the people who have friends to laugh with and have fun with. Anyways
I never fully experienced a normal childhood since my whole life was filled with trauma and mistakes, but this song makes me feel alive and reminds me of those little moments when I did have fun as a kid.
I'm going to be a senior this year and I feel the same exact way! Everyone told me highschool would go by fast, but I never believed them until now. I hope you have an amazing year! We can do it!
im also a senior right now 😔 it feels so unreal to apply for colleges and make the most out of the remaining years of my high school... good luck to us seniors may we achieve our dreams 🥺🥺🥺
college is the start, not the end. for me it's where my life started. I promise it's something to look forward to. And it's scary, but the 20s are something to look forward to too.
Do not give yourself in to the pleasures of this life for they do not satisfy what you thirst for. God will satisfy your thirst. Jesus Christ will give you water to drink from the fountain that will quench your thirst forever.
I'm 14 and I'm going to be in year 10 and then I'm going to do exams and go to six form then uni. It feels like everything is going too fast and I dont even know what I truly like enough to do as a job it's all too fast
im gonna be in year 11. dont think about sixth form or uni yet, i made that mistake and it ruined me. focus on year 10, you do the bulk of your learning this year. have fun, go out and like, do stuff. try new things, be bold :)
Ugh isn’t that all of us, I don’t know what to do so I decided to just do what my parents jobs are, which is nursing. And tbh u prolly won’t end up finding that “dream job” it seems like most people don’t. I guess that’s life :/
i turn 20 in october & going into my second year of uni and i don’t even know what i want to do as a job lmao. trust me u don’t need to decide yet, you’ve got years
I'm going into yr 11, and you seriously dont need to worry about your future job or whatever right now. Just have fun, make friends, dont take school so seriously, gcses aren't everything. Just have fun.
same. i know i still have a long way to go yet but the fact that i'm in year10 just feels.... so weird. Like i do my gcses in the next 2 years?:&:)/? i dont like it. it's going too fast, i feel like i've done nothing with the past few uears
i genuinely feel like i’ve wasted my teenage years, i’m gonna be going to collage in just over a year and i don’t think i’ve done anything, ive just been taking life for granted.
Okay since everyone is dropping their fears about growing up, I'll drop mine too. I am currently 19 and the last two years have been hell, I lost two complete years of my life by just being stuck at home. I still feel seventeen purely because of that. I had to give up on my childhood dreams because I realised life is hard and not everyone can be special. I'm okay with that now but it still hurts to realise I can't live the life I envisioned. Since I lost my father in 2020 I honestly think my life can only go up, but I missed out on just a good year with friends. But life is hard and I'm the only one who can make the best of it for me.
i am fourteen and i am afraid to grow older. also me: i dream of being an architect when i grew up and be rich forever. last choice: Mary a billionaire rich man
even though i’m young i hate right now, i am in mental and physical pain all the time to the point where it takes me hours before i can even go to sleep, i’ll be lightheaded, dizzy and have headaches a lot and sometimes i’m so exhausted and in pain that i am just begging myself to please fall asleep so i can’t feel any pain and so my mind can just shut off long enough for me to get my shit together
when i was younger my siblings never hung out with me, i asked and they would never let me, i felt unwanted and neglected, so that’s what made me feel useless and i thought that no one wanted to hang out with me and i grew up without friends and only hung out with adults. i matured very quick and i don’t have such close friends now because of that. that’s why i don’t ask to hang out with people sometimes.
its funny because when i was a kid i was really depressed, soooo I'm trying to be as childish now but im like a teenager so people say "act your age!" but i don't even feel like myself or even my age. and i guess i found my self worth, some self-love and im overall a lot happier now but i do get sad sometimes and thats to be expected i mean you cant have good times without any bad times or else those good times wouldn't feel good they'd just feel normal and i guess we'd all become pessimists. idk, i might be having a midlife crisis but im not middle-aged soo idk what to call this.
Hey Anahita, I don't know your story and I don't know you, but I want you to know that you are loved. It isn't fair that depression stole the innocence and youth of your childhood. But just know that it will get better. You are a fighter and you are still here breathing, fighter, and surviving because you have a purpose. You are invaluable and irreplaceable and it may hurt now, but you will become stronger and maybe your story will save someone one day
I kinda feel this. I had a really shitty childhood and then constant changes in medicine during middle school so I never got the chance to be a kid and now I’m a junior in HS and my mental age is that of a 7 to 14 year old and I act younger than all my friends even though I’m a good year older than most of them. It kinda sucks that people won’t take me seriously just because I act younger or find me annoying etc. I can’t really control it, I think it’s just a trauma response really.
When i first heard this song when i was 15 I thought about the future with my best friends, having fun and doing crazy stuff. I'm 22 now and all those friends are gone but when i hear this song I remember the good times with them. It's sad and sucks especially when you're young and think you and your friends are gonna be friends forever and it doesn't work out like that (sometimes).
i remember my mom asking me if i was scared of getting old and i responded with yes. she yelled at me about it... the way past generations have given us so much to work on makes me nervous... we’re gonna be okay
This songs hits very hard. Although I know life especially adulthood is gonna be tough, I don't want to grow up just to be confused, pressured, and dreamless.
it’s 00:30 and i am now officially 18. I never had the opportunity to be a real teen yet alone a child. I don’t know what to do so i am staring at the ceiling begging for another chance to actually live it all. The fact that i’m no exception, life will pass before i get the time to experience any of it and i want to do so so bad but i can’t. i’m graduating high school in two weeks and i’ll never see any of the people i grew up with since kindergarten ever again. I’ve never felt so alone. My phone is not buzzing with hundreds of text only two friends who actually remembered. I always hated my birthday, this year wont be no exception.
The drink you spilt all over me 'Lover's Spit' left on repeat My mom and dad let me stay home It drives you crazy, getting old We can talk it so good We can make it so divine We can talk it good How you wish it would be all the time The drink you spilt all over me 'Lover's Spit' left on repeat My mom and dad let me stay home It drives you crazy, getting old The drink you spilt all over me 'Lover's Spit' left on repeat My mom and dad let me stay home It drives you crazy, getting old This dream isn't feeling sweet We're reeling through the midnight streets And I've never felt more alone It feels so scary, getting old We can talk it so good We can make it so divine We can talk it good How you wish it would be all the time This dream isn't feeling sweet We're reeling through the midnight streets And I've never felt more alone It feels so scary, getting old This dream isn't feeling sweet We're reeling through the midnight streets And I've never felt more alone It feels so scary, getting old I want 'em back (I want 'em back) The minds we had (the minds we had) How all the thoughts (how all the thoughts) Moved 'round our heads (moved 'round our heads) I want 'em back (I want 'em back) The minds we had (the minds we had) It's not enough to feel the lack I want 'em back, I want 'em back, I want 'em You're the only friend I need Sharing beds like little kids Laughing 'til our ribs get tough But that will never be enough You're the only friend I need Sharing beds like little kids Laughing 'til our ribs get tough But that will never be enough
Listening to this gave some nostalgic vibes like I had flashbacks of my childhood and my teen years....gahd I wish to go back to those carefree days.....
i remember thinking i’d never make it to the age i am now so nothing mattered. now i’m still here and and all i want to do is go back and tell myself how my life mattered more than i thought it did
It’s raining outside...im sitting on my roof... listening to this song thinking if all ive been through... all i still have to endure.... how ive wasted my childhood wanting to grow up...how im wasting my teen years wishing i was younger....and im just now realizing i cant cry anymore.....
Same here I have no idea how time passed so quickly. I'm not ready to be an adult yet. I feel like I lost most of my teenage years due to my depression and anxiety and now I just want to be a kid again
it’s crazy how fast i went from being this skinny little goofy child that didn’t know anyone outside of school unless they were in the neighborhood or at church and now i know so many people due to social media and i’ve gotten a lot of chub over the years and i’ve just become to pessimistic in every situation and i just hate myself and other people for no reason..... idk life has changed really fast
its like this is ringing in my head reminding me how i wasted all of my childhood and teenage years because my parents decided that their egos were bigger than any of us.
I’m at the stage in my teen years where I can’t wait to grow up, graduate and go to college, get into med school, become a doctor and have a family. When my life actually will have meaning and start. Idk if I’ll regret later in life of how fast I grew up, I mean in abusive homes you don’t really get a choice. Being a kid is exhausting sometimes, being told “you’re too young,” “grow up,” “you know nothing.” Wisdom doesn’t come with age, it comes with experience. Gosh I’m so ready for life it scares me that I feel like I’ll miss out on so much of my childhood/teen years
I have synesthesia. When I see it it forms into a picture sorta. I image gray skies, blue water, and a windy beach. There’s also a person standing there staring into the distance. They feel like it’s over. Edit: woah I just noticed how deep this is and also like the colors all form together if your confused lol
this song reminds me of when i would stay up crying at 3am every school night, yet everyone thought i was happy and well. little did they know i was at my lowest point ever and didn’t think i’d make it out alive. now, it’s been 10 months, and i’m still here. i found new friends, and new music. and i’m coping. i’ve been the happiest ever since, and i’m so glad i stayed
i would say i wish i was younger but i've always felt sad and had anxiety, i think there were just less things i understood back then which made it a bit more manageable. oh god this is so hard
i'm so trapped in my body, in my relationships, in my house and in my family, i'm so scared and so lonely and so hopeless and i'm trying to be okay but not for me, never for me, because if i did things for me i'd never get anything done because i don't deserve to be okay for me. i just want to go back to before i met anyone and loved anyone and hurt anyone, because i'm so sad now and i think that if i stopped being sad i'd stop being creative. every option ends in loss and that's so hard. i just want to go back to someone else's childhood that's filled with flowers and love and parents who make you feel like you're worth something. idk this just hit different
I'm 17 and I've been through hell and back so trust me when I say that one day it will get better. A common misconception I had is that it would happen right away, but the fact is that it most likely won't. However, the good days ARE coming in the future. When I was your age I used to be extremely anxious and depressed and spent most of the time crying in my room. Flash forward to 17 and yesterday I cried from joy at how grateful I was that I didn't end things back then. Trust that happiness is coming because it is and remember that you are still so young! You have a lot of time left to be a kid. And even when you are older like me who says growing up doesn't have its perks? The other day I asked for a sign and while I was out driving alone in my car with the windows down and radio playing I saw the most beautiful sunset I had ever seen in my entire life. I remember being younger and imagining that exact situation. So I just wanted to tell you that not everything about growing older is bad and even though I sometimes do miss being a little kid I remember that better things are on the way ✨
i’m 15 and i feel like im being too mature for my age and it always feels like im running out of time, i’m turning 16 in 6 months and it feels like ive already wasted half my life. i hope it gets better. we’re gonna get through this, yall, :)
i felt the same before i turned 16, but the freedom of having a car has made everything so much more free. i don’t feel like i’ve wasted a moment, even though i have a job and school, i still feel free, with my lonesome adventures. i promise it does get better.
growing up is scary. imagine becoming a teen, having the best life ever then having to give that up after 4-5 years due to growing up.. i dont want to grow up and lose all of my friends and my fun :(
I’ve been called”mature for my age” all my life an I recently realized I’m just going to “act my age” soon and how unimportant that comment on my character has been
