The way he describes how much his girlfriend has changed his life gives me hope that one day I might be able to change as well. I love how they are able to understand eachothers' conditions so well.
Hey man, I love your videos. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia last year, and I'm having a difficult time with getting my family to understand what I deal with. my mom seems to think that it's pretty much like depression, and I can just kinda get over it in a way. I'm schizoaffective which is bipolar and schizophrenia, so I have a really tough time, and I'm sure we both have different struggles, especially Cuz even schizophrenia alone is different for different people. But I was wondering if you could make a video for maybe the people who know someone suffering from schizophrenia, to help them understand more what it's like at least for you, when you were going through your most difficult times. This video already helped so much and gonna try to show my family because the thing you explained happens to me almost daily and it's so hard and nobody seems to understand the gravity of it. I have to constantly keep coping to make sure I don't go into that state and it's so tiring. and it makes me not wanna do stuff because I'm so scared to get into that state and of course that causes problems in my family. anyways sorry for ranting, idk if you can understand that or relate, but if you can, I'd love to see a video Maybe just explaining to others like what it's like on a Daily basis, helping them understand the gravity of this fucked up illness. etc. if anything, thanks for the videos. they help a lot, you've helped me understand myself better and put shit into words and that's helped all on its own. stay positive man.
Triston Leavitt schizoaffective disorder is NOT the same as schizophrenia. I'm a nurse and work with psychiatric patients all the time. they aren't the same.
William Meister which is why I said "I'm schizoaffective so I know we must have different struggles" I said I have schizophrenia at the beginning because I've been diagnosed disorganized schizophrenia twice and also schizoaffective so I don't know exactly what to believe. Either way though.
I think there is a lot more to reality than we see. Take it or leave it. If ya got that darkness around. Man theres sombody who can help ya. Jesus. Ya ya. This is that comment. But hey. What could it hurt. Ive felt his power. Met him. No darkness can handle him. Strait up.
I am so sorry you have this illness. It is so helpful for us to know how psychotic patients feel so we can begin to understand the extend of the physical and mental distress. I work in mental health and I am sorry to say we don't have an idea how our patients really feel. Thank you for sharing your story!
This is a great video. I've been watching your older vids, and you seem to be much more coherent in this video. I'm very grateful that you share your experiences with us so that we can better understand what you and others go through, having schizophrenia. I love seeing your progress and I'm so glad that you are strong and comfortable enough to post these types of vids. Thank you so much for everything you have taught your audience!
your story is pretty amazing.... your words have a profound impact on everyone who watches your videos, so thank you very much for sharing, even though it can be difficult at times. Sending you lots of good vibes and love from Australia !! (ps still fangurling over the fact your gf wants to visit Australia, just makes her more awesome !)
I completely understand why you wouldn't want everyone to know your own personal business, I understand that b/c I am so much the same way! But what you need to realize is your are one of the most incredibly gifted people with this illness and your explanation of your daily struggles open the eyes of so many who misunderstand schizophrenia. You are doing extremely difficult work but your gift of communicating your innermost struggles enables everyday people to understand on the most basic level your ability to cope (or not) with your illness. Your bravery in relating this disease to millions of people is astounding and I applaud your every effort to record and preserve your personal struggle with schizophrenia and to present it to people who may be able to help with encouragement and dollars for more research and better medicines. Your friend-Sharon in DC
Thank you for the video. You've been hallucinating a girl from the Ring after you watched the movie, because it's then when your brain had information about her, your brain is projecting your fears and worries into all of your senses, it's creating an alternate reality for you based on your experiences. It's incredible, fascinating, unique experience. The movie is scary. I watched it when I was young too and had nightmares from it. I was even afraid while being awake. I think it's best to stop watching horror movies. I took a 7-8 year break from watching horror movies. I prefer comedies. Next time it happens some creepy hallucination, you should laugh, watch something uplifting, I'm serious, it might go away. I'm happy for you guys, you found each other and your meds are working, you can lead completely normal lives. And it's incredible that you're both finding time to help others with these videos, to inspire them and provide comfort for them. And I also have to say that your video topics are awesome, you're covering all the important stuff, very informative and helpful.
Always love hearing more detailed personal information about your illness. I know schizophrenia is different in lots of ways for everyone that has it, and I find it interesting to learn what specifically the illness is to you. Thank you for feeding my curiosity, Jacob (:
I think its so incredible how many people with these problems are on here openly discussing there experience ive always been intrigued by this illness and by you guys doing these videos it answers many questions about the illness even when this is so hard to understand by this information becoming more open and available maybe we can learn more ways of helping those who suffer from this terrifying illness and can have much better lives i would have loved to be a doctor who specializes in this anyway thank you for sharing your life with us and helping us understand what you have to deal with and i pray we can find a way to end this torment and give people back there lives free of this burden
My best friend has schizophrenia and I hear her talk about the voices and it must be horrible for people with this condition. I think you are all amazing and so strong and you are amazing for uploading these videos and being so honest. I'm really glad achizophrenia is something people are finally starting to talk about openly. It's thanks to people like you that we are getting to see the real face of this condition, not the media stereotype. You are all regular people and in a lot of ways so much stronger than lots of people.i think you are a very intelligent guy and I wish you all the best in the future. I have watched a couple of you videos and I am glad to hear you are so happy with your girlfriend. It so important for all of us to have the one person in our life that truly accepts us np matter what. I have an anxiety disorder and I haven't found anyone yet to truly understand me but I'm glad you have. You are a wonderful and inspiring young man. I am going to show your channel to my friend as she will relate you a lot :) thanks
Thank you for your candid and honest video. Helps me understand so much more about my boyfriend and the things he's possibly experiencing being schziphrenic.
Thank you for keeping your video real, I consider your style of conversation much more engaging rather than the constant insane cuts and edits. Keep up that approach :)
Thinking of you n thank you! My son has symptoms as you speak of. He’s non verbal and it’s very hard watching him when he is hallucinating but your videos help by describing it in words. He hits his ears when the sounds come. As you say it’s not pleasant! Thank you so much for your videos. My son had a brain tumor removed when he was 2 and he’s got mild cerebral palsy. Drs. Think this caused his mental condition. I don’t know, all I know is it’s hard to watch. And I feel worse for him. I want to thank you again for your videos. They help. I hope you have better days and the hallucinations go away! Your a good person who deserves the best in life! ❤️👌😃🙏👊
I think you're fab. I love the way you keep it real and raw and don't edit even when you're telling us about personal or really scary stuff. You're teachings so many people about schizophrenia. People who don't have it but know people who have it. You're extremely articulate and can help us know what you go through even though. It must be ever so hard for you. And lastly but absolutely not leastly, I'm so happy you've got a lovely girlfriend. Your face lights up when you talk about her. Awesomeness young man! Mostly I just love how you keep everything real.
This is my first time seeing your channel and videos I just want to say a big thank you for sharing your experiences and letting my son know he's not alone, you can save a lot of people's lives by sharing your story and letting them know that they're not the only one. My 15 year old sons starting to have symptoms such as being paranoia and some minor hallucinations but as a mother, thank you God bless you it's helping me to learn a lot more,and understand what he's going through, it means the world to him to know "it's not just me I'm not crazy" thank you you are such a blessing please continue to do what you do I will look up some of your more recent videos and see them, I've been encouraging my son Gabriel to also start expressing his experiences maybe that can help him through it to know he's not alone for people to even give suggestions on how to deal but thank you God bless you keep doing what you do☺️🥰 much love
You have every right to keep stuff to yourself. Thank you for explaining what you go through. I had an uncle who was Schizophrenic and he was a professor at Cornell one day he wandered off and we couldn't find him. 20 some years later his remains where found in California. So this is interesting for me to learn. So I appreciate you posting these vids and I'm happy you found such a wonderful girlfriend.
Good video mate hang in there you can fight this shit. Don't let it beat down your mood or whatever, you and only you are the boss of your life. You are fucking courageous I hope you are aware of that, many people would never be as strong as you are!
Not tired of hearing about how much your lady friend has improved your quality of living! :D It's so rare to see the appreciation of eachother's partnership, & I enjoy it
I'm so happy that you have such a wonderful, supportive girlfriend. Thank you so much for uploading videos. They're interesting, insightful, and informative.
Hey. I just subscribed to your channel and liked this video, although I have been watching your videos for a while and have seen a lot of them. I was glad to see you back on here doing videos after you were gone from RU-vid for months. Anyway, I have been dealing with Schizophrenia for 27 years now(it struck me when I was 18 years old when I was in the Army), and I have also been dealing with OCD for a little longer than that. I have also been struck with Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder as well, and that came about around 13 years ago or so, so I know Hell really well and then some. I however, no longer take any medication or see therapists or doctors or the like, because I have taken almost every drug, if not every drug, available on the market today for my mental illnesses, and that goes for anti-psychotics, anti-depressants, and anti-anxiety medication. I stopped taking medication because none of it really helped much, and the negative effects(horrendous side effects), FAR OUTWEIGHED the positive effects(making me better), and some of the "medicines" actually made my conditions worse, so I said fuck that. I stopped seeing therapists and doctors and the like, because none of them really helped much either, because a lot of times I already knew what they were telling me through my own research. Plus there was the fact that it seemed like a lot of them didn't actually really care, and like I was just paying them to pretend that they do... so I said fuck that as well. So now I just try and deal with all of it on my own, and I am basically a recluse and I rarely go anywhere, but not necessarily because I do not want to. Still, I try and go do what I want to when I can. I am really glad that you found you a seemingly good woman, because speaking from my own experience, finding a good woman that loves me and stands beside me despite all of the fucking HELL that I go through on a daily basis, was a Godsend. Most women out there wouldn't do that for guys like us, so if your girlfriend is one of those that will love you and be there for you like my wife is for me, then treasure her, because that's exactly what women like that are for men like us... an absolute treasure.
God, I feel for you. The way you describe shaking is what happens to me during an anxiety attack (I have chronic PTSD and depression.) When your whole body shakes like that, it's like your whole self is being dumped all over the floor and you feel completely drained of everything that makes you YOU.
My partner has schizophrenia....and you have helped me out so, so much with your videos. Thank you really so, so much, really. I want to do everything I possibly can to help him and be there for him. It's beautiful how you talk about your partner.
Hey Jacob...just want to tell you that you are fuckin awesome and have a great personality....glad to see you are happy!....keep your head up...you have a lot of people who want to see nothing but the best for you and who support you....you are helping so many people with your videos!!
My son has been recently diagnosed with szichoaffective and bipolar disorder, he is in total denial and does not have insight. It's very difficult to deal with, he is 23 years old . Thanks for doing these videos when you can, it is very helpful just to listen to you, I wish you the best and will continue to listen. Thanks😇
You are a brave and mentaly strong guy. And i admire your courage ! And the way you own it, and basicaly already defeated it, you just have to deal with it constantly. I think it wouldnt hurt if u post one with ur girlfriend filming it. Also nice to know you found a girl that really loves you and understands you. Stay strong buddy !
I've been trying to figure out what's up with my brain for about a decade now. My stomach dropped when you said that you hallucinate "little girls", like the one from the Ring. I had all the bases covered in terms of what Schizophrenia looks like but the hallucinations, so I thought. I even experience the "mini-seizures" you have, I call them "mini-heart attacks". Anyways just thought I'd say thanks, your video was helpful.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience with people. My mother is going through psychosis and hallucination. Your video really made me understand my mother better. The docotrs are suggesting ect treatment but I am very scared to give the approval. What helped you to be so positive and what helps you ? Your video has helped many people I am sure. Thanks a million and all the best to you. Stay always happy with your girlfriend.
Thank you so very much for this. I can so relate and it's refreshing - and terrifying - that there are other people who share similar stories. I just recently found out that I have schizophrenia and I'm nineteen. Also, I can attest 100% to being/feeling possessed. Certain movies and images stick with me such as movies like 'Signs' and 'War of the Worlds'. They're very real to me. I've been diagnosed with anxiety, ADD, depression, bipolar, and now schizophrenia. To sum my shit up... My shoes are in the clouds and I can't get to them. My head is floating in the air like a balloon hundreds of miles away.
I know it must be really hard to go through, but it really is fascinating what the brain is capable of doing. I never thought about tactile hallucinations or taste hallucinations. Good educational video.
So incredible that you can talk about this, that you don't try to hide from it and instead try to live your life the best way that you know how to. And the shout out to your girlfriend was so sweet!
Thanks for the video :) Only time that I had hallucinations was when lowering the drug I was on. It was horrifying but helped me to know it had to do with the withdrawal symptoms of the drug rather than my actual mental issue.
hey! you once mentioned you had an LSD trip, could you make a more in depth video about your experience, because usually more paranoid people cant really handle the trip and since you said that it was actually good experience for you, i would like to know more about it :) keep up the good work and best wishes from germany!
Honestly you're a pretty brave guy because it sounds like a constant bad shrooms trip. And i know alot of people are gonna be like how? I dont have schizophrenia but when i was on that trip i was definetly out of touch with reality in the most worst way a person can be and i felt like i had gone completely insane, also i was alone in my room ( stupid, i know). My heart was racing like crazy.I started hallucinating eyes on the wall. I couldnt make sense of my purpose or my own being i guess. I was hearing things, like people upstairs even though i knew the people who were upstairs were asleep , its probably nothing like what you are going through. I mean you have to deal with this everyday, thats insane . Stay strong man.
Your super brave and thank you I'm learning and it helps me, how I can understand my son. Well I've done a bunch of LSD and dude bad trip every time. From aliens to demons. Totally freak out by people and always had to go hide in the woods.
can you please make a video about different types of schizophrenics....my boyfriend has schizophrenia and I'm trying to be there for him as much as I can.....Please just tell me what would be helpful...I've been with him for 8 months...and I really love him....Please keep on making more videos....they're great
Good video... You are so brave to post video's on here.. I have had Schizophrenia since my early 20's. I wish I had not been born... Kind regards and all the best from Dennis .
i like your videos. i have affective esquisofrenia for now. i heridate it from my parents. they both have mental disorders. thanksfully i dont have alucinations. i once almost went over the border and started gettting on meds. i also have those often thoughts of disparage where i think i am worthless and such i have a very low self of steem to the point i stopped studying and hate everything. wish you luck.
Thank you for uploading your videos, they're really informative. How old are you, and how old were you when you were first diagnosed, if you don't mind answering?
Hi , thank you for sharing your journey with schizophrenia I have found them ever so en-lighting that it has convinced me to write my first RU-vid comment! I am starting to believe that I may share the same illness through symptoms you have described, which is quite scary because I don't know what to do about it. I originally thought that it could be depression, anxiety and paranoia as I was put on Sertraline 50 mg just before Christmas , which was then up'd to 100mg , so I then accepted that maybe I have depression, but now since watching your videos it makes me question do I have schizophrenia? as its all well and good your doctor just prescribing you meds but how do you know sure what you have without a diagnostic, however I am awaiting counseling. I ended up having to go on medication due to close family and friends making remarks such as "she needs help", as my behavior was extremely erratic and fueled with alcohol and drugs, so I now also have a key-worker for that. The major symptoms that stick out for me that I have is when I was 19 I overdosed on alcohol and whole box of paracetamol because I was so upset due to fighting with my bf at the time, which it then led me to going out and purchasing the box of paracetamol, then coming back and swallowing them whilst sat on the toilet crying to myself. A massive factor of me doing that was voices in my head telling me to do it and I honestly couldn't handle my brain that I just needed to switch off as I found it too much. I feel that it has also made me anti social at times due to the confusion running through my head. I think I create situations where I think people have got it in for me and I constantly override the same thought. I tend to behave erratically as a way of releasing whats going on in my head. I watched another video on schizophrenia and the girl mentions if you create faces out of things for example trees or the carpet and I tend do that a lot of the time , but I didn't realize that it was a symptom I thought it was normal I also thought hearing voices was normal when a person is telling you to do something. I don't know what to think anymore , but if you could give me some sort of answer to what you think is going on with me that would be amazing, as do really need some advice. I'm really sorry for the long message I just got the vibe that you'd be understanding and willing to share your thoughts and opinions on this subject. Thank you!
I know the taste thing all to well. It could be my favorite food, and it tastes like soap or poison, but it gets worse when I hallucinate visually because I'll see worms or stuff moving in my food at the same time as the bad taste. Which can cause me not to eat for days, if unchecked. It sucks. I feel your pain, I hope you are doing good.
me too I have same thing. I was doing OK then something happened then I was arguing with my loud thoughts. Telling me and bossing me around. then I get confused and feel zoned.
Since you mentioned that you have hallucinations of possession, etc... Do you feel that your lack of religious belief helps you cope in any way? Or, that it helps you parse out "reality" from hallucination? I ask, b/c I am an Atheist and I would have presumed that Schizophrenia and religious/supernatural beliefs might tend to compound/compliment one another. (I saw you mention you weren't really religious in another video I watched earlier. Just discovered your channel. It's entirely possible that was an older video and perhaps your beliefs have changed. If so, I'd be interested to hear about that as well.) Is that even an accurate assumption on my part? I am glad that you have chosen to share. It is fascinating to gain some insight (since, anyone without the illness couldn't really understand) into your mindset. Congrats on quitting smoking. More than I can say for myself :)
When you talk about, that feeling like being tortured by your own brain, that's exactly what I couldn't find a phrase for, that fucking feel when you you can't do anything First I got it when I was at work, it was the most unimaginable uncomfortable feeling in my whole life. I feel so sorry for everybody experiencing it.
Thats why they recommend to not watch horror movies or anything highly disturbing because the illness manifests in ways related to the material that may have disturbed you. Kinda like when we have nightmares after doing/seeing several things during the day, schizophrenia is like that when you're awake and it doesn't always have to be disturbing images its like flashes or images or voices. The illness is an over-active brain too much going on. You function well in my opinion even though like you said you wont show your episodes and I understand that it'd be too much to handle having that much out there online for others to see/judge/laugh at. I don't trust most of the internet people they like to judge for some reason and be hateful. I admire your courage to even admit you have to live like this. Keep on fighting and try to have as much joy as you can.
i understand that part "like im having a seizures" i have epilepsy i can fight it with meds and i feel headache, hear godlike figure asking questions before and during seizures. it helps me kinda accept death. eventhough i don't die ( i am an atheist, but the godlke figure feels real when i get the headache)
God bless you. I really petty people who have to deal with this. I thought having anxiety was bad, until I met my best friend and learnt about this disorder. He's schizophrenic. and the stuff I see him go through is absolutely heart breaking. He's also not on medication and haven't really told his doctor absolutely everything and I'm trying to encourage him to but he's not really listening and I'm so scared for him and want him to get better. Anyone know how I can help him through this and get him the help he needs ? Thanks.
i have scitzophrenia.. since i was 12 and now i am 27. and then i got locked up and my docktor rang the hospital and told them that i was a murdermachine armed and very dangerous. i couldent belive he did that. and then at age of 15 i was forced to this tour or something to go to jail to be told that i would end up here some day... and then all my friends left me and my mother died due to cancer when i was 16 so i was at the funeral and start to hear voices and i saw the whole place like blow up and everybody died.. so i ran to the mall and sweard as loud as i could. so then my father had some sort of sesure and nearly died at my birthday party. the paramedics came and took him with them and i was all alone. so when he recovered he moved out and left me AGAIN and got together with a woman he met online and where i grew up the house started to fall apart. the garden grew over and it was like a horror scene.. and after 5 years he rang me said he has got very ill. so he was flown with paramedics helicoper to another town where he got much worse. and when he came back after 5 years he died. at that time the police harrased me for a week and stormed my place on a dayli basis with tasers guns and bulletproof vest and went beyond crazy in my place. i was almost homeless and almost lost my appartment. i have pretty much gave up now letting everything go.. its like i dont care anymore.. but i havent and never thought of suiside.. NEVER! guess i have to take it as it comes. even its hard to get up every morning.. i will still try to make it
This is all so interesting. I mean how the brain is able of doing these things to you. That everything suddenly starts to fight you, that the brain motivates itself and starts telling you bad things. Why bad? How does the brain know what to tell you? The operations are so complex wow. Good luck mate
I don't know if I have a mental illness but I feel like I have a fever in my head like I feel physically ill in my mind and nothing in the world makes me happy even the best things. I'm very confused and forget a lot hopefully I can figure out what this is I have done so much research but I can't find the symptoms but maybe I will find out. But until then when I watch these vids I fell super calm. Thank you Really.
The mass majority of people with schizophrenia/any form of psychosis aren't really loud or violent- not to say there aren't people like that, because of course there are- but the biggest amount actually aren't.
if the diseases goes untreated then episodes maybe be violent because the person does think they have a problem and think its everyone else so they do things to other people
