It's been almost 10 years since I graduated highschool. I remember hearing the mourning doves every morning on my way to the bus stop. Hearing them here just reminds me of how much I took advantage of my 12th grade year. You only graduate high school once. After that, you'll never have another experience like that again. I'm not in my yearbook, I never went to prom or homecoming, I didn't take senior photos.. the memories every other high school senior got, I didn't. Am I mad at my past self for taking advantage of a once in a lifetime experience? Sure. But I don't blame her. I will never blame her. I blame the school system for failing her when she needed the support.
Can’t say I blame the system but I blame myself for screwing up things that were given to me and perhaps had a future for me too. I appreciate the days I had and I’ll always treasure them. Let’s focus on the present, there’s nothing we can do about our past but move forward.
I don't have many friends. I've never been the social person like everyone. I know there's more to what I can understand about myself but can't see now. Ever since I've turned to God, I've been fighting mental demons I never even knew existed in myself. Problem here is that I let them in...out of instant gratification and the way to build a comfort zone when I didn't know how to cope with the toxicity...school didn't help at all really and I've already missed that chance of graduating with my friends and going to prom...but we move past that.
2 year ago, my best friend moved, and i hadn't seen him or heard of him, but he used to listen to this song. i hope i can talk to him again and honestly i miss him it doesn't feel the same.
I can’t believe how fast time flies. I want a burger right now, but I wanted a cheesecake 10 minutes ago. I can’t believe it. It’s truly a marvelous thing.
3 months ago my cat passed till this day I cry about her she was beautiful and I still regret going to school that day if I knew that was my last day with her I would’ve gave her so many hugs and kisses although God is taking care of her I’m always gonna miss and love her till I die. I know she’s waiting up there for me and I’ll sooner or later be with her but I just don’t like telling my friends how I feel because I don’t want anyone to think I want attention but I love her LLP🕊️💚
Me too bro a day ago I had a dream about a man who was a little bit more mean than me and I was like oh my gosh I just want to be friends but all ppl are so mean and weird
I did just start listening to this last night, and it helped me fall asleep so quick that now im here again listening to it. its one the most peaceful things.
im going to be a freshman, I can’t believe it i still feel like i look up to all the teens and stuff and then i remember that i am a highschooler now and that i am one. anyways, time’s scary.
Can’t go back in time but we can make the most of the time we have now. I wish I could change things, I thank the Lord they went the way he planned and I pray he may guide all of us on the path he has for us.✝️❤️
this reminds me of being a kid, your mom waking you up for breakfast as it rained outside, you just being a little kid with no stress, just enjoying your childhood. LET ME BE A KID AGAINN I HATE BEING 13 EVEN THOUGH I HAVE TO GROW UP
trust me 13-18 are going to be the memories you treasure most rather than before, im 17 and these memories ive made during high school while im young will be treasured and loved until the day that i die
@@BugExellence yeah i will admit i dated a filipino girl and it was hard for her to ever hang out with me cause her parents werent so fond of me cause im white so she didnt get to see me that often and she was often jealous of when i went out to be with friends
Listening to this, it sort of reminds me. I've lost myself over the years, especially due to the pandemic. How did I manage to make all these friends back then? Are they disappointed in how much I've changed? Sure, I've had a massive glowdown, but what do you take me for? It makes even the usual reason seem not as bad as before. Who was I back then? Why am I in the perspective of this body? I blindly changed over time for a reason, but it comes with costs, y'know. From outgoing, yet *also* narcissistic and easy to argue with, to silent and unapproachable, yet actually grateful. Who was the person in this body before? Where have they gone? Who am I? btw thanks for reading the whole thing if you did :D
2020-2022 nostalgic, i think that the quarentine really hit us, anxiety, depress, and all of them, feel like a dream, like thats years doesn't exist, is... sad, how a lot of people can be afected of 2 years. The life is so weird, its real? Exist? Idk, just... enjoy it, good night ✨️
That year of quarantine really screwed up my social life and skills I could’ve developed. It was at prob the most crucial time of my life at that point, which was my sophomore year into junior year. Although I had fun times at first with the couple friends I had, my growth as a person stagnated and my social life suffered. Once lockdown ended, all my friends kind of disappeared and branched off into different groups. But for me, I stayed clinging to the lockdown phase and never went back to how my life was before it. With this, my senior year was a horrible experience with no friends, no social life, no experience, nothing at all. I didn’t realize what I had done to myself until I was already on stage receiving my diploma with only my mom cheering for me. Now working two jobs with only my cousin as someone who I would call a friend, I deeply regret not taking that step of moving on from lockdown. But I just started realizing now that I been looking at the past and not focusing on what’s ahead of my life for most of my life. Even during lockdown I hyper-fixated on my life before. This feeling I had was what I started to call nostalgia overindulgence. This is what’s been preventing me from looking at my own future and growing. Maybe all of this is just my own delusions and paranoia but I do hope I somehow got my thoughts across. I recently started trying to break that habit and have some peace of mind with the moment at hand rather than indulging in the past too much. Right now, it seems that habit is still present with me talking about this with strangers.
i think it kinda depends on the situation n what u do abt it. Stop think in what qouldve happened if quarantine didn't happen, but what should I do abt it now. I personally find nostalgia on that period, but a happy nostalgia. I loved, i played, I "learnt", I enjoyed, I laughed, I cried, I suffered, I lost people, got to meet new people. I lived, and i still do, and i'm grateful for it as well. Not saying this trying to look like a douchebag, i just wanted to tell u guys that no matter how hard life gets and how harder it got thanks to the pandemic, you're still alive, and that's beautiful. "You only die once; you live every day." things eventually get better. They do. It's the way life works. It's the way existing works. Its existence itself. It's change itself.
If you're reading this, I just want to tell you: Always be a good person, no matter what happens. No matter what anyone says, just be a good guy,your life will really get better, even if you, like me, go down the path of inevitable loneliness..
Holle hermano, estas bien ? A pasado algo ? Una perdida de algun ser querido o amado ? Recuerda que no estas solo, no te rindas a pesar de las advercidades o obstaculos en el camino, echale ganas no te rindas como yo lo ise :(
Hello i want to say everyone here i want y'all to have a good day and remember that you are the greatest gift your parents have and may God be with you all and have a good night/good morning, and have a good day and for the ppl who have loss ppl i understand because that happens to everyone one at some point and i had loss my own 2,two of them i had grow up with and loss im very srry for everyones loss may God heal u
Я хочу.. вернутся... обратно...в свое.. детство..и изменить..там всё... я знаю.. что это нереально...я ничего не добиваюсь....моя жизнь..не бесконечна..
Recuerdo esos días de lluvia cuando jugaba con mi hermano y amigos, todo era mágico, la navidad, año nuevo y distintas festividades, paseos de familia juntos, escuela y jugar a las traés con tus compañeros, extraño esos días. (2015 - 2019)
That's very true I had a very very bad childhood and now I try to be happy but it's hard and this song puts me back in my childhood and ik that you can't go back to your childhood but sometimes I wish we could
It’s just been one week of school and I’m already depressed. I was all summer. I’m scared to show that because I’m anxious to. I’ve heard bad things about mental hospitals, so I don’t want to go there, but I’m so lost and tired. I just want to run away and live in the woods, away from my responsibilities
Hello, I'm a fellow student. Although school hasn't started for me yet (it will in about a week in a half), I understand. I've experienced social isolation, and man, I had some pretty low moments in my sophomore year of high school. Mac Miller once said in a song, "Time's moving slowly, I'm bouncing my head off the wall" (Song entitled "That's On Me). That epitomizes how I feel in the moment-and how I've felt for a some time now. The days seemingly go by on repeat... Although I'm in a better spot now than I was about six months ago, I still have my struggles. Some days are I don't know if you are, but I'm a big believer in fate. When things get hard, I just try to remember that things will take care of themselves, and that things will unfold as they are meant to. -Sometimes- Often, that's hard to trust; to completely buy into that fact, that fundamental belief of my worldview. I think about a lot of things listening to this melody-friends of the past and present, a specific girl at school, my future in a sport that I love, feeling isolated socially, the challenge of being a committed student-athlete. I question why I'm so hard on myself. I ponder on my flaws... If you're reading this, and you're questioning the future-I'm right with you. All I know is that I can control being the best that I can be every single day. That's a challenge-but we were born to challenge ourselves-not stay in our comfort zone. I'm going to stay strong. I'm going to keep fighting. I hope you do the same.
You know it reminds me of my kidnapped friend that she was kidnapped in 2022 and now I am suffering from depression and anxiety and panic attacks I really feel alone and I really want mine and my children to come and see me I really prayer every day and I hope this person reading this teach them to love there neighbor by praying for them and i do want to the person reading this to pray for me I really accept donations with a white teddy bear and a white clothes
Sorry for you lost and i lose someone my grandma 💔 ahe say one day ahe wanna to see me when i was graduated but the age don't wanna see me 😔 R.I.P FOR ALL LOSE WE HAVE 😢🕊️🕊️🕊️
@@DragoMateevI will pray for you and can support me by pray for me back have you ever prayed for someone if not I can teach you like this father please bless me and and his other girl that is typing for her friend and me for my family may good success come to me health and wealth and protection will come for me because god is holding me in his hand in the name of jesus I also want to say comfort me in this time in the name of jesus amen
why...? why am i still here? i've done enough damage to myself, to my friends, to my family, everyone. so, why am i still here? i've fallen... very deep. i cant get back up. i cant make a stand. how can i? i ruined everything. will there be something or something that can save me? *Probably none*
no,please don't harm youtself!i promise,just because you've done a few mistakes,it doesn't mean everything will be over.please,promise me that you will get better,alright?you will get back up,stand,and you will fix everything.stand proud,dear,everything will be alright.
I rember back then when I was 10 years old and it was sunny outside the flowers were blooming the grass was nice it almost was like it was a dream me and my friends would go outside after school we would play tag hide and seek and we would ride bikes but now all of that is over I’m am 19 I live by myself my friends have passed away my first one got killed from suicide and the second one had cancer now there gon and now I might make my self be gone to….
You don’t have anything in your life that makes you wanna live it? Because in my opinion even if 90 percent of the time I feel like shit that 10% of moments where at least I smiled makes it worth living
Wishing the best for you. No one can dictate your choices, but I do hope you decide to stay. Maybe, maybe one day, living won't seem like such a bad thing. May you find that day, just as a child searches for flowers. They may not be in season; but one day, one part of the year, one time the darling decides to search again- it will be blooming. Blooming with vigour and beauty, and plucked. Finding a beloved home in the child's soft palms. Forever theirs. That happiness, forever yours.
You know? I used to have """depression""" (I had low energy, su1c..ykwim, and always sad, but no anxiety), and I cried while listening to this song, now that I hear it now I'm kinda better makes me feel very fucking nostalgic instead of sad, It's surprising how many feelings can have just 8 notes over and over
Your just sleeping and you wake up and play with your friends it's 2012 and you love to explore the grass is greener than grass in 2015 breezing air and the hot sun your eating a push pop and running around playing tag with your class mates in a big field with houses, trees, roads, and everything a city needs
It's 2024 and we all are depressed sad the word is crumbling. SCP 682 is still not terminated. No errors for SCP 001 the sun thing but it has gotten warmer
honestly ill just post this here because maybe more people will help me. when i was in my edgy "i hate women and im racist haha" ages i was in the school gc. i posted nsfw there and told them an easy ragebait because i hated them and made them mad because it was funny. one girl leaked the gc to everyone's parents and by that i mean every parent knew what i was typing there. i had to make a quick excuse that i gave that account away and force myself trought it. it didnt work and they couldnt look at me. the worst part is that she gave theese screenshots to others and not my parents. month of being a piece of trash in my parents eyes. i cant see what would happen if i were honest but the same result probably. just being really mad at me and seeing me as trash. the worst thing is that girl that leaked it all. i trusted her again and she "ruined" me. we were texting and she went on the topic of suicide "ok and?". she told me the way she wanted to die and it was a long painful death. i contacted her brother that was awake and told him to do something with it. i was treated like a person not to trust anymore by her. she even told my crush that i "liked" her (she made it up that she was my crush but still a big loss) and told her that im very bad person. i was trying to be a good person and help her with suicide thoughts but i made it "worse" because instead of just school friends she kinda demoted me to just a person she didnt know. and the absolutely worst fact is that she was in love for me later??? she told me about this when her emotions kinda burned out and the schoolyear ended and we had vacations and i just didnt care at all. she ruined my life for a month. she told a girl i "liked" weird stuff about me. expected that we could still be together?????? she acts very weird now and contacts our friends to talk with me. she wants to meetup with me and want to talk things out. i tell her to wait till school because i honestly dont care at all but she still was pushing on me to meet her. its almost school now and i dont know what to do. and everytime my parents invites her mother (they know each other) or someone else im always scared she will come too. i want her to dissapear from my life and leave me alone. i contact my friends to help me with excuse so i can leave. i can see this as paranoia because im scared of what she wants from me. all i want from her is to leave me alone or at very least just ignore me. all i want is peace and let me live my life without her shit. she even made a friend group that probably got broken but still existed to hate on me. it was her, my "crush", and a honestly cool dude. the last one i managed to convert to my side and kinda acts like a spy for me so i know what shes doing. as i said its probably broken because she acts very rude to the chill guy/spy i mentioned. im very scared of the schoolyear and my hearth always speeds up when theres an option that she will come into my house because i dont know what she wants from me. i just want to live without worries :(. my life is going smoothly now because shes not here but my paranoia is still here not helping me and im always worrying that i will either vomit or a hearth attack will happen because it beats so fast. i just want to live my normal school life but with her its not easy nor hard. playing in a game you know really well but without saving fits it the best i think. you can send me advice or say if im the douchebag here. please and thank you
Although it’s difficult for me to imagine how hard it must be for you , you should still try to find things you are grateful for. Start going to the gym it really helped me. If your mind isn’t healthy at least let your body be healthy. Make yourself and your parents proud by achieving your goals. Remember don’t make them unrealistic and you will be unrecognisable. Maybe one day you will look back at this and realise how far you have come. I really hope this helped you :) And Dw about the girl just don’t speak to her and push through the school year. I’m rooting for you!
Я чувствую себя как Синдзи в этом момент когда он лежит на кровати с кассетным плеером. Это песня выражает у меня спокойствие на душе и лёгкую ностальгию а давнем прошлом. Под эту песню можно засыпать медленно того не замечая.
Tớ đã thích một chàng trai nhưng lúc nào anh ta cũng đều nghĩ về người yêu cũ của mình, tớ muốn nói với anh ấy tớ rất thích anh ấy nhưng chắc sẽ không còn cơ hội nữa rồi....
A wise man once said that we suffer more in imagination than in reality (Seneca). I understand that you don't know me, but I recommend that you roll the dice. A friend told me that the sting of regret hurts more than the sting of rejection...
@@ybusseyand that friend is 100 percent correct. U just gotta do what feels right in ur heart and to not make excuses cuz the more u bury it the more regret u will have later on.
I told my mom I liked girls today I'm crying now She was like ur going to be married to a wonderful person and I got excited that she said person she noticed and I told her I always liked girls she said something about God making it a girl and a boy u haven't found the right person I don't know what I was thinking I knew she was homophonic but I still told her my dad was it the room and he just stayed silent I really surprised he didn't hit me or kick me out of his house I don't know what to do anymore I'm in so much pain I wish I could be the perfect daughter but I can't why just why
