Self-Improvement + Vices | Down to Earth Podcast #6 

Hi, hello. Sharing my thoughts as well. 24:10 | I feel the same way honestly, you're surrounded by people but you feel alone is harsh man. I'm in a sub-urban area and I don't have many people to relate with nor a community to join. 28:30 | I felt this, people should know that the best part of travelling is the trip itself not the destination sometimes. 33:25 | Old buildings fascinates me as to how they still stand in this day and age. Culture preservation is definitely something I'm interested in. We have old ass Dutch buildings and bunkers in the country and it's something I appreciate really. History is a like a bedtime story except you can see and feel it for yourself. But maybe that's just me. 44:30 | For me, I feel like I haven't changed much but rather I just slightly reduced my chance of doing stupid shit by just taking a break and looking at it without tackling head on first. I'm not sure how to gauge that but I guess it is in a way a self improvement. 45:00 | I have this static mindset, which is why I dropped the guitar very fast because I just feel like I can't do it. (Stupid reason, I know.) I just feel like I'm just such a slow person and pretty much marked myself as "Talentless." I always have this mindset of "Hard work doesn't beat talent." Realistically speaking I still do but I've been slowly reduced that factor into a "Hard work sometimes beat talent" 59:00 | Honestly, this sucks man. I don't know why I even bother sometimes but yeah. I feel like this at math. I always try my best and felt "Wow, I felt that went pretty smooth even though I got some hiccups". Next day, I got minimum score on the test or assignment and I can only say "Why do I bother trying?" 1:05:30 | Gonna chime in and say "I only smoke once a year." I guess this is a good type of Vices? It only started because I was hanging out with friends drinking and they're smoking and I decided on a whim "Fuck it, I'll try smoking." I didn't particularly hate it nor like it but it was just a nice thing to do. "I should do this again sometimes but I'll limit myself" is what I thought after. And so I have kept it as a promise to myself. I'm on a 2 year streak now, will be three once 2020 is finished. 1:06:05 | Too much, yep. Sad thing is I probably have less time on family, friends, or trying to socialize. I've been trying to fix that issue though. 1:11:00 | On the whole escapism, I've been trying to hammer down a note I wrote back when 2020 started into my head and good god I'm failing badly. "Indulging yourself in escapism is fine. Getting consumed by it, is not. You must face reality. Whatever it is that happens in life, happens for a reason. Once you finally faced reality and the harsh terrain that is called life. You will finally be happy." These words are inspired by a certain Evangelion quote. Shinji's mother. Look it up, it's aspiring. 1:17:00 | I've been slowly working on this habit of just enjoying things as they are without looking up on my phone all the time and I've been pretty successful, but this whole corona shit just brought that down hard. But I'm trying to keep this habit alive. But man yeah, kids who was born in 2010's looks fucked man honestly. I had a good childhood, I suppose. Played outside with friends and shit, bonding, etc. Only to have that shit broken years later. Either because of myself or themselves. Shit is sad man. 1:22:30 | I'd recommend Isekai Omotenashi Gohan if you haven't! I haven't related to a podcast like this at all, I've been trying to find a good podcast to listen while doing assignments and focusing on stuff. Guess I solved that problem. Thanks Zim and BIG NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT!