Self-sabotage: a nervous system & unhealed trauma perspective

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About a year ago, my special topic lecture of the month was all on the origins of self-sabotage and it was a massive it. It offered many aha moments for a lot of people!! So my team and I have edited that livestream lecture down to just under one hour. We've removed the stops, starts, and scrolls -- all the things that tend to happen on a livestream. Of course, if you like that stuff, you can find the raw and unedited version here: • The ORIGINS of Self-Sa...
For more on self-sabotage, I did another vlog earlier this year titled, The origin story of procrastination, self-sabotage, & fleeing from health, and you can watch that one here: • The origin story of pr...
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Here are some Questions/Topics I discuss in this chat:
1:04 - Introduction to self-sabotage
1:43 - Ways of self-sabotage?
3:29 - Ventral vagal aspect (connecting)
5:32 - Staying in abusive/toxic relationships and environments
7:50 - Wearing an invisible mask that keeps us from who we really are
10:46 - Human system healing itself
11:32 - Believing that we deserve to heal
12:04 - Nature healing Itself
17:01 - How survival stress begins
21:08 - Wired for disappointment
24:14 - Wired for self-shaming
24:50 - Healthy Shaming
26:01- Toxic Shaming
28:39 - Wired for shutdown
32:53 - Needing a reward/praise
36:00 - Effects of school
39:10 - Perfectionism
39:28- Pre-verbal & life force energy
43:25 - Healthy aggression is essential
48:09 - What’s the next step?
54:18 - Compassion for others and ourselves going through dysregulation
Resources I mention in this Vlog:
► Drop In Class
irenelyon.com/drop-in-class-1
► Edgar Cayce
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edgar_C...
► George Ivanovich Gurdjieff
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/George_...
► Up & Down Movement Workshop
www.updownworkshop.com/
► The Polyvagal Theory. Explained
• The Polyvagal Theory. ...
► [Trauma Tips #1] What's the nervous system got to do with it?
• [Trauma Tips #1] What'...
► Moshe Feldenkrais
feldenkrais.com/
► Disgust. The gateway emotion for healing toxic shame
• Disgust. The gateway e...
► Why healthy shame is good for us and toxic shame isn't.
• Why healthy shame is g...
► Origins of The ACE (Adverse Childhood Experiences) Study
/ origins-of-the-ace-study
► New Thinking About Children Paperback by Po Bronson (Author), Ashley Merryman
www.amazon.ca/NurtureShock-Ne...
► What is Healthy Aggression
• What is healthy aggres...
► How suppressing our emotions and physiology can lead to depression
irenelyon.com/2020/11/01/how-...
► Free Resource Centre
irenelyon.com/free-resources-2/
► 21-Day Nervous System Tune Up
irenelyon.com/tuneup/
► Functional Freeze Explained
• Functional Freeze Expl...
► SmartBody SmartMind
www.smartbodysmartmind.com/
► Yellowstone and the trophic cascade that took place
www.nationalgeographic.org/me...
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Thank you for being here!
1. Leave a comment and let me know how this video impacted you. Feel free to leave a question (my team answers them each week!)
2. To get more nervous system health resources, plus learn more about me and my credentials, plus the many ways you can work with me at the practical level, head to my website: irenelyon.com
3. Follow me on social here:
Instagram: / irenelyon
Facebook: / lyonirene
LinkedIn: / irenelyon
SoundCloud: / irenelyon
4. GOT QUESTIONS? Send an email to: support@irenelyon.com
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Please know that…
The statements on this RU-vid channel or in videos are simply opinion. Content presented or posted on this channel is not a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment or a professional therapeutic relationship. Content presented or posted is intended to provide general health information for educational purposes only and you should contact the appropriate healthcare professional before relying on any such information.
My website is a wealth of free resources and information on how to start this work, so here it is one more time: irenelyon.com

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@IreneLyon 2 года назад

For more of my special topic lectures head to my PLAYLIST page >> ru-vid.complaylists

@lindasulpacio5737 2 года назад

Thank you for your knowledge and dedication to give these amazing talks. As an incest survivor, in therapy for ages, you gave so much tonthink about! 😊Linda Sulpacio

@bellaherz5945 2 года назад

How can a parent repair what he did to his kids?

@teamlyon3109 2 года назад

Hi @@bellaherz5945, Jen here from Team Lyon. One of the biggest steps someone can take as a parent or caregiver is to take steps to grow their own nervous system regulation. The growing regulation tends to ripple out into the family system and people in our lives. Something else that Irene and Seth Lyon (her colleague and husband) talk about is establishing a therapy fund the way you might a fund for education - to recognize where kids (younger and adult) are open to it, offering to support them in taking steps to heal can be part of the healing process.

@cabbagedavidge 2 года назад

I was born in the 50's era. In those times it was the norm you never gave someone praise, as it would make you "too big for your boots," "big headed" etc etc. Given the emotionally dysfunctional family I was bought up in, I don't recall ever being praised for anything. I remember at primary school I came second in a competition in my class for handwriting and this was around Easter and I won these Easter eggs. I was really surprised and pleased with myself, so when I got home and told my Mother I had won this prize, I got nothing back, "like well done," "that's amazing" because of cause they wouldn't want me to be too big for my boots etc etc. It totally deflated me, a child already that had no confidence, low self esteem and a feeling of worthlessness. (I am 70 years old now and still struggle but am working hard in trying to address it.)

@IreneLyon 2 года назад

Hi Ann Redgewell, Jen here from Team Lyon. It's great to that you are taking steps to address and transform some of the limiting patterns you were taught when you were young. Working with the physiology in the way that Irene teaches can be one of the most powerful ways I've found to support these shifts. I'll link to two of her free resources in case you want to check them out. DIY: Ancient Anxiety Medicine - ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-0ICsbXUCKmM.html&lc=UgzKvm65Pqe9xARznlN4AaABAg 7 Steps to De-Stress - irenelyon.com/7-steps-opt-in-IL

@Ikr2025 Год назад

Hugs (from someone who was born in the 70s). That brought tears to my eyes.

@Asher22222 Год назад

Born in the 60’s and definitely had a similar life experience.

@beamyers8811 Год назад

So relate to this and other ways that nurturing was not available due to parents in their own trauma. I was also born in the 50's.

@mrsmucha Год назад

Raised in the 60s and my mom used to say all the time "Self Praise Stinks." A child was never good enough.

@GoddessY1968 4 месяца назад

The earth knows how to heal when left to it’s own devices ❤

@Myspirit904 26 дней назад

Seeing this video is a life changing moment for me today. I have known I am “not doing well” emotionally, but this really narrowed the field as to why.

@MayanPrincess3 Год назад

I think I just had an aha moment. I always make myself wait too long to eat anything. And I know my sugar is low and that sends me into a panicked state of frantically trying to make something to eat. I overwork myself even when nobody is making me overwork. My mom and ex spouse both hated seeing me sitting down relaxing and would get angry and tell me I should be cleaning or doing something “productive”. I feel so much anxiety to eat unless I’ve worked first

@assiabenslimane2589 7 месяцев назад

❤❤❤

@themaggattack 7 месяцев назад

Same. My mom was always shaming me, calling me lazy and spoilt. So I would seek partners who would judge me just as harshly. When I FINALLY started taking the breaks that I need and practicing self care, my ex called me lazy and selfish! Being with that type of partner is a form of self sabotage, all on it's own!

@nikitaw1982 3 месяца назад

that sucks, till you change....obese and alcoholics use LGutamine to regulate blood sugar, really good for gut health as well. LTryosine supposed to be really good for anxiety. Maybe Taurine as well. Heard a few places but Julie Ross wrote a book about it. PS protein shakes? I know the focus should be on changing the thinking but it sounds like a downward spiral if can't break it and this way bring vitality to the body so can fight back. I find the time after a hard gym session is some of the only releif fromanxiety i get. I started doing a simple exercise routine a few days ago and i notice my self getting angry when the old self limited thoughts come in. I go to do something and always think of some other equally not that important job is more important, i have started saying to my self "That may be true but i'm doing this now." I hope you sorted it out. PS this Guru's 21 day nerve reset course is $300, sent me into flight or fight lol. You would think due to the nature who her customers were she would give a 4 days free sample.

@roxylqm111 2 года назад

Healthy aggression: SO not encouraged in girls. My trauma response is Freeze, and it makes so much sense, trained as a perfectionist, “be nice”, “pipe down”, “look pleasing” by a narcissistic father. I love having a name for what I need more of. Would love to know more about how to cultivate and really Embody healthy aggression. Thank you!

@theresefournier3269 2 года назад

It's called "assertiveness"! and that's a good, calm and mature way that quiets down and rather than provide fuel, serves to disarm the aggressor.

@theresefournier3269 2 года назад

good thing*! Goodnight 😊

@RestoreAllLLCPittsburg 2 года назад

Your an INFJ I bet, Or an ENFJ like me. Also probably a #2 Or #9 enneagram. If your not familiar, you should check it out. as well as this stuff she is providing too of course. It saved me and gave me the hope to heal myself and see it for what it was. Take a Myers Briggs PERSONALITY TEST TO SEE. My dad was the same. and couldn't stand to see me excel. so I took that as a way to stick it to him for the longest time. prove him wrong in every way I could think to do! He still got me down after 25 + years later to end up feeling this all come back to me again. Blows!!!

@caracastanos9292 2 года назад

Start a martial art, it's creative, I'm thinking about starting.

@moongoddess1806 2 года назад

Me too. I totally freeze up.

@farfetched9296 2 года назад

I've isolated myself now. Every that comes towards me is dysfunctional, toxic, and narcissistic. It's so hard to meet and be around mentally, emotionally, and spiritually healthy ppl in this day in age. I thank you tubers like you for helping us understand ourselves, our lives, and start the healingbprocess no matter how old you are.

@nonymatsaba9391 2 года назад

Perhaps you need to go within and check, as to why you attract. Currently I experience that in my mid 40. And have been doing a lot reading, meditating, growing in all aspect.

@nonymatsaba9391 2 года назад

And learnt that spiritual healing is a process,along the way it gets easy.

@truthh8597 2 года назад

It is hard.. I also felt the same way! But look around, you’ll find good people if you just sustain some positivity in your life

@themaggattack 7 месяцев назад

@@truthh8597Sure, positivity- but not toxic positivity. Only genuine positivity. It can take a minute to learn how to tell the difference. BOUNDARIES are SUCH an important skill to learn! Part of having boundaries includes allowing healthy behaviors in. It takes a lot at first to figure out what to trust from others, and even what to trust from yourself! After having been gaslit your entire life it can feel nearly impossible to ever trust again. But it IS possible, and it DOES get easier, eventually. Once you learn to discern what's-what and be able to trust your own intuition again. It's a process. But it's so worth it, at any age. ❤

@finsterthecat 5 месяцев назад

I feel the same somewhat I kind of give people a break in that we are all victims of a society that reward’s narcissist behavior.

@mariuszwiesiolek9340 2 года назад

My holy shit moment was when Irene mentioned toxic shaming, that’s how I treat people I care about and it made me realize that I was taught that way, and because I treat others this way it means I treat myself this way as well…

@latinaalma1947 2 года назад

A neurotic adaptation

@mariuszwiesiolek9340 2 года назад

@@latinaalma1947 u mean that I write like a neurotic person?

@aegisreflector1239 2 года назад

Do u know the time stamp when she mentioned that?

@Medietos 2 года назад

@@aegisreflector1239 Past the middle, more towards the end, in connection with harshness about the hot stove to the little child. 39:25 on infant life energy forming?

@jerryfvair5211 2 года назад

The part when not return to nurture. Most toxic shaming forgets they are still a parent. Answers to no one

@nohjuan3048 2 года назад

The idea of getting a reward for doing something good is so foreign to me. I was punished for drawing any attention to myself whatsoever, so I tried so hard to not let my parents know when I won any kind of award. I still feel shame when someone praises me or calls me out for an honor. It keeps me from the level of success I know I should be achieving because the child inside of me is embarrassed by success.

@ElleNewlandsActor 2 года назад

I have the exact same pattern. I understand.

@doreenplischke7645 2 года назад

Same here. I had to keep myself small und wasn’t suppose to speak up or out. Invisible I feel now. It feels safer to continue this pattern, I do not know how to go about getting my goals. I always wanna try to play it safe hence letting chances go by without much effort to ‘go for it’ It is so self defeating.:(

@Medietos 2 года назад

Noh Juan: I had it a bit like you suggest, but have the reward-needing part deep i side, even though I am also independent. It may come from the fact that the being good, achieving part was indirectly rewarded in that i knew it was good, it didn't bring mistreatment even if it were not celebrated, and I know it is a virtue in our family. So it went without sayíng, and my belief that achieving and being loving + helpful saved me in that it gave some level of superficial, relative calm.

@niebieskimotyl3308 Год назад

Similar here, I get nauscious when I'm drawing attention to myself. Because of my 10 yrs older sister who was always jealous, and laughing at me whenever she could, but she hide it in a way I wouldn't think it was mean. I even catch mydelf being mean to people when I truly want to be nice, which is horrible

@janedoe7971 2 года назад

"Watching endless RU-vid videos". Yep, that's me.

@Latence 2 года назад

i do too and it makes no sense. Ive started shifted, i hope you do too.

@lattemacchiato858 2 года назад

Same 😔

@dreamsofturtles1828 2 года назад

I go on binges, then im clean for a while. Then i go on binges...

@kathyannk 2 года назад

Our minds trick us into thinking that because we aren’t seeing results, we must need to listen more, read more, journal more, etc. We think we don’t “get it” when we actually do, but it’s really somatic work that we need, not more and more words.

@teresa1710 2 года назад

That's me too. My friends actually expect me to recommend downloads !

@pabloravizzoli345 2 года назад

Your mention of the shutting down of life force energy brings tears to my eyes. I've live my life feeling like reality would prefer if I didn't exist. I don't know how to start when I've been more than passively, more like dead-ly, waiting for death to absorb, delete, and forget me.

@teamlyon3109 2 года назад

Hey Pablo, Seth here again :) Yes, living with a freeze response dominating the system is no fun, and it sounds like that's where you're at right now. It can change!! You just need the right education and tools to get at the lifeforce that IS there, waiting underneath all that shut down. Definitely check out the programs I linked in my answer to your other question.

@pabloravizzoli345 2 года назад

@@teamlyon3109 thank you Seth.

@DINXX8 Год назад

@@teamlyon3109 hey im stuck in this freeze for 8 months. How do i get out of it and get my life force back ?

@eddiec5570 Год назад

@@DINXX8start meditating 🧘‍♂️lots of helpful videos on here

@5maz Год назад

Same here. Wishing you well..

@timothymoore7887 7 месяцев назад

I love this channel. I’ve gone through a lot of abuse and neglect growing up. No one ever really treated me like they were responsible for me as a kid. There’s an inherent emptiness I’ve been trying to heal. I appreciate you presenting new information/education to invest in. Some of what I’m learning is to choose long term satisfaction over instant gratification. It’s taking breathing, journaling, education and fitness.

@riverriver2930 2 года назад

That punishment was common in my childhood in different ways. But the worst was threatening to leave me at the side of the road. She did it at least once that I remember and drove away. It was common in the 80s to do that I think though. And also to make you sit outside the classroom. There was a lot of segregation/isolation/abandonment punishment. And now I shut down a lot and isolate myself. They did so much messed up stuff back then like leaving a baby to cry.

@Deelitee Год назад

So terrible and unnatural of THEM. I witnessed this happening outside a grocery store with a little boy, age 5 or so. The parent locked the boy out of the car. He was bawling & scared! He was let back into the car when they spotted me. It broke my heart. I wanted to take him home. Just sharing this in hopes you can try to trade your story by seeing it as an outsider would see it. ❤️You didn’t deserve that.

@kat-75 Год назад

It is not a safe form of discipline in today's world. To many predators would love to have your temporary abandoned for punishment child. That was common when I was young too. Society today changes those discipline tactics and makes them not just hurtful anymore but possibly deadly.

@kat-75 Год назад

It's okay for a baby to cry even still as long they aren't in distress from comfort, food n play? How will they develop healthy strong lungs?

@hollywood1426 Год назад

I remeber standing in a corner face to the wall punishment when I was 5 years old,

@JenWIL641 11 месяцев назад

@kat-75 the lungs are strong and healthy.

@theresawalker1508 2 года назад

Sabotage has had a huge impact on my life, anything i loved doing whilst a kid was taken away from me, including smashing up my figurine collection in front of me with a dust pan, this memory has just sprung up i think this video triggered it, i wish i had found this work earlier but glad i have, so grateful to be part of this global healing for everyone doing this work has given me hope for the future and made my life worth living again, anybody that has any doubts about doing this work dont sabotage your potential to heal go for it you wont regret it x

@Sun.powder 2 года назад

I am moved by the story of your childhood ,I am so sorry that you experienced that , I wish you all strength and lots of love in moving onwards.❤️

@theresawalker1508 2 года назад

@@Sun.powder thankyou for your lovely comment it means a lot, i wish you the best in your healing journey aswell x

@Sun.powder 2 года назад

@@theresawalker1508 ❤️

@mozearteffect10 2 года назад

I do HOPE you are CREATING a new figurine Collection...based on your healing journey and creating/adorning the figures themselves....I'm seeing beautiful creatures with a few little soldier figures with bayonets outstreched and ready for action...ehehhehe...all the best....thank you for sharing

@laurabarber6697 2 года назад

I'm thankful you had an. "Ahh ha" moment of making the connection. Unfortunately even those closest to us can be the sickest. Honer your inner child and give her lots love and snuggles. Maybe some little treasure will catch her eye and you can give her a gift 🎁. I wish you and all who read this the very best💝🙏💝

@smartphonestudy8054 2 года назад

I feel damaged beyond repair.i push people away because I don't want to be abandoned again.ive experienced multiple people dying.im afraid of being loved and loving others so I've learned to avoid life everything you've said defines my character. I have a dim flicker of hope I don't know what to do

@user-lw3ri8us4w 4 месяца назад

i’m so sorry you’re struggling so much. i can relate. how are you doing now?

@TejubescDM 2 года назад

I have anxiety since I went to school. I feel I was deprived from my natural sociable personality. I don't know how it is to not have anxiety. I came from talkative child to anxious person frightened of any interactions with people. I just want to be alone and safe from harassment. I was the poster good girl, never smoking, never going out, everyday spending listening to music in my room and yet I was shamed for everything I did. Yet the other kids, terrorizing others were praised. I guess that's how I learned to sabotage myself too, cause that's how I was treated. When Britney Spears said: "I don't own anything to those people" and "I just want my life back" I totally got it, cause I feel my life and character was taken away by abusive people.

@marcyantolik298 2 года назад

WOW! I feel like you just described what happened to me.

@LuvliexXJazzieXx 2 года назад

Overstood. 😢 ✨❤️heal friend❤️✨

@TejubescDM 2 года назад

@@LuvliexXJazzieXx ❤️

@esthermangula4731 2 года назад

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@AnnAndNala 2 года назад

I feel so similar. When you wrote, "I just want to be alone and safe from harassment", that hit home with me. I've purposely spent many holidays alone, and that is exactly the reason why.

@J5SA 2 года назад

I definitely self sabotage! I procrastinate I avoid joy and potentially joyful activities. Recently I went on a tear partially due to trust issues, family issues but alot was due to self sabotage because I didn't feel like I deserve a good life/woman and friends. I was literally trying to destroy my life. I do love myself but I do not like myself sometimes at all. People like me and I at times cannot figure out why.

@lihtan 8 месяцев назад

I really appreciate the analogy of how the healing journey is like learning to drive stick shift. I grew up in a household that never had a car. There was no rite of passage where I was taught how to drive by my parents. Even after I got my learner's permit, the people that said they'd help me learn to drive failed to do so. A few years later, I save up some money and paid for my own driving lessons. I did opt to learn stick shift at the driving school, but it was too much to take in, without the fundamentals of basic vehicle handling. I learned how to drive on an automatic. Even though my first car was an automatic, I still had the craving to learn how to drive stick shift. My second vehicle was equipped with a manual transmission. I guess I threw myself into the deep end of the pool with this one. Not only that, the car I bought had been modified with a short shifter, and a rigid motorsports grade clutch (imagine your clutch pedal feeling 3x heavier, will less modulation). I have to figure out how to get this car home by myself. Learning to drive it was awful. There were so many times I why I spent all this money buying this car. I had anxiety and nervousness about stalling it out in traffic. What I ended up doing was I only drove it in the evenings when traffic was lighter, and I just practiced rowing through the gears and learning how to modulate that stiff clutch. There came a point after about 2-3 weeks of this, that it became second nature, and I stopped thinking about. I remember being startled the first time I did a shift without thinking about it! Once I had that foundation down, I was able to build off of it. I eventually learned more advanced techniques like rev-matching, and doing heel-and-toe downshifts. Going back to the topic of healing, I've sometimes wondered if I'll ever be able to have stability in my life, or be capable of having healthy relationships. If I was able to develop and master advanced driving skills, despite the many obstacles I faced on my journey as a driver, then why not apply the same principles to my healing?

@user-xv3bl4xl6t 4 месяца назад

I love how one day you realised you could do the stick shift without thinking. Good luck on your journey of growth and healing. ❤

@joanfolds1724 2 года назад

I lack healthy aggression. My mother was Borderline/Narcissistic. She didn't understand what was needed to be a mother to an introverted HSP child.

@Mrslsel Год назад

Same with me.

@earth2jade 6 месяцев назад

Same here. Always felt shamed expressing aggression or uncomfortable emotion in general. Probably because it triggered my mom and her own inability to healthily express anger and uncomfortable emotion.

@ess1163 3 месяца назад

Me too exactly. She’s 84 now and still no connection

@titaniumcranium3755 2 месяца назад

Family had a brother with npd and gave him all their energy and neglected their bdp child which was me

@preschooldaze 8 месяцев назад

Early childhood educator here: YES! Contrary to many programs in my field, I do not use any behavior chart or any reward method. We don’t use any time out; we see all behavior as an opportunity for connection. Adults who deny curiosity of how and why a child is showing up in the world the way they are is missing out on a great opportunity for everyone. Thank you so much for this work. It is not lost on me that I heal myself when I do the work I do with young children.

@lionswimmer4637 7 месяцев назад

Nice. Always glad for healthy interventions, especially ones that surpass limited mainstream discourse (erroneous training--ugh). I will add that a yoga-anatomy instructor recently talked about the importance of "connection not correction" when discussing practicing yoga and poses (i.e., connecting with self, body, philosophy rather than correcting). I find this mantra to be rich and valuable. Connection is sorely needed...everywhere.

@SR-mv2mf 7 месяцев назад

Wow your students are lucky to have an aware teacher like you

@veronicaleon9138 2 года назад

I did this in my dating life many many times. I had to get sick of myself doing this to ‘me’ and recognize I was at fault! I stopped blaming everyone else and finally took responsibility of my choices.

@zenderquat1696 2 года назад

As an adult child of an alcoholic/ brought up in chaos - I've developed Fibromyalgia. I can recall listening to my parents fighting, and feeling SICK. It was like every time I heard them yelling, throwing tings - it went right through me. Here I am - at 62 and I"m still fighting for my health ! I want to mention that our nutrition is CRITICAL in the healing process. As we know, every thought corresponds to a chemical reaction and we all live in a very flawed Earth. No matter how dysfunctional or well your childhood was, it's a tough life !! And it's all there - so much great information to guide us through making wise choices in nurturing our bodies with the right foods & supplements - for healing our depleted bodies due to an overload of stress. Usually, like me, I need extra supplements and how blessed am I to live in a time where it's all so easily accessible.

@SweetUniverse 2 года назад

Same here. Both of my parents were alcoholics. I grew up in a domestic violence home. I'm 59 & have PTSD. I also have fibromyalgia & problems from self-sabotage and self-destructive behaviors.

@anonymouse5910 2 года назад

@@SweetUniverse my story and age is similar. i see that i'm not alone, after all.

@theresawalker1508 2 года назад

I was brought up in a very similar situation to you, hearing my alcoholic father getting aggressive with my mum, and stepmum, i feel for you, wishing you peace and healing

@strita1540 2 года назад

I had the same problems but then I went to the sacrament of confession and started receiving the body blood and soul and divinity of our lord in the holy eucharist daily. Jesus healed me. He's there for everyone no matter what you've done. I pray you repent and believe in the Gospel of Life 🙏😇✝️📿🕊️

@DJ-uk5mm 10 месяцев назад

Cultivate a vegetable garden😊

@the.kai.eros.experience Год назад

This is LIFE- CHANGING!!! The name “Kai Eros” came to me about 8 months ago. I wasn’t explicitly clear at the time. But it essentially means “keeper of the keys” (Kai) for “life force energy” (Eros). Hearing the nuanced description of this energy, this healthy aggression, the primordial chi, the Force… Wow. So so so many aspects of my entire life are making sense. I’ve always been someone who, when I’m devoted to something (aka I allow my life force to open to it) I will obsessively make it happen. But that Eros / Chi / life force has felt fizzled since I was a child - only coming out in small bursts. I am learning that all my struggles - feeling unsafe, disconnected from my sexuality & desire, disconnected from conviction (all lower chakra energies) stem from childhood and this lack of attunement. Gahhhh. It doesn’t make the road back home any easier but the education and awareness takes such a weight off. So much shame can be let go of. I thought I was broken my whole life. Stuck as a 5 yr old boy. Weak. Soft. Cowardly. Irene - thank you. You’re truly an angel and doing your life’s work.

@Yetipfote Год назад

have you done this 21 day program of her?

@Yetipfote Год назад

7:10 honestly, years ago I really procrastinated hard. But now 80% of the time I watch videos exactly on the topic of healing and coming into power. This path is just way more interesting to me and nourishes me truly, whereas procrastination drains my energy and after it I feel depleted, unfocused and dull.

@SamuelJMartinIII 2 года назад

At least 90% of your self sabotage list applies to me❗️😔😞 Out of the Fight, Flight, Freeze response I’ve gone from cold to fridges to FROZEN 🥶 over the decades; I was stuck in depression (self described as a perfectly working car with a dead battery in need of a jump to start, & after the engine gets turned off - as I have to sleep - the engine won’t start again) & now am slightly better being “suppressed” (my own term being a notch above depressed & self described as a running car that’s stuck in neutral as it won’t go into gear to move = STUCK)‼️ 😔😞

@zenderquat1696 2 года назад

When I hear so much of your exhaustion as a big road block in your life - I know that stress can deplete a lot of our necessary vitamins, minerals, neurotransmitters, etc. I know some friends who have had their adrenal function checked and to find out that it was down to nothing! Without the right "juice" flowing we simply can not function at our best - or function at all !! In this time of so many tests available to us - IF YOU CAN GET INSURANCE TO PAY ) OR EVEN NOT- I'm having mine down. Good luck to you and make sure to feed your body extra nutrition. ( Read up on it as to do it wisely)

@miss.conduct8083 2 года назад

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@Deelitee Год назад

I get it!

@chilloften Год назад

Wow, and mom was biting me and pinching me and pulling my hairs as an infant. Thank you for explaining to parents the healthy way to interact with infant. It’s extremely important.

@kimberlytrent5245 8 месяцев назад

❤❤❤

@kathleenbrown8445 6 дней назад

❤🙏❤

@gdailey1841 Год назад

Born in 1950. Omg she read my mail. Talking directly to me. 73 and still working on myself. This young lady has some great information. Thankful🌺🌺🌺

@zZech111 2 года назад

“Self sabotaging behaviors are so harmful to many areas in our lives. Health, carrier, relationships… “ you are absolutely right💔 and we tend to self sabotage subconsciously which is the most scary part.

@Deelitee Год назад

Totally!! 😐

@SweetUniverse 8 месяцев назад

I also spend a lot of time daydreaming. I've done this sine I was a child. It was my happy place/ escape mechanism.

@AwakenThyself 2 года назад

Oh ya, self sabotage is an inner protective mechanism that activates when the ego that wants to protect, feels out of control when things seem "different" than what it thinks it can control. We are such emotional creatures! Like anxious cukes!

@jaynestag95 2 года назад

Self sabotage is my middle name.....I didn't realise it covered so much. Yes I've been stuck for years, not knowing how to overcome it. I love crochet and art but even if I start rarely do I see it through to the end. Drives me crazy as it's so difficult to live with. I live with childhood emotional abuse..... 😢

@TruthatudebyLindseyServin 2 года назад

I can’t even count how many times I heard “how stupid are you?” growing up. This video really hit some powerful points. Thank you.

@dustyblue2ify 2 года назад

Yes I was told the same growing up by one of my Parents nice right with being an adoptee too.

@theresawalker1508 2 года назад

Me too ❤

@Healing_Oaks 2 года назад

I’m so sorry you had to hear something so detrimental to you as a child.

@hereiamfornow 2 года назад

Thank you for this. Procrastination / self sabotage is a slow kill 'disease' and I know when it started for me, when I became apathetic over whether what I do matters, which was after my parents divorce when I was about 11.

@dessaarnold7540 7 месяцев назад

I'm bad with procrastination. My parents divorce effected me really bad.

@jayloiselle9281 2 года назад

I'm glad in school I was taught how to make a napkin holder or an ashtray rather than meditation or emotional regulation. Thanks for the lesson......51 years later🙏

@stephenkearns6461 2 года назад

Knowing the last days of Jesus Christ was such more useful than processing traumatic experiences. Who needs mental health anyway? Go Jesus!

@laurabarber6697 2 года назад

They can't teach what they don't know- unfortunately! Will you teach children what you wished you learned?💝🙏💝

@stephenkearns6461 2 года назад

@@laurabarber6697 That's my point, teachers should be taught the important stuff themselves and be able to pass it on.

@Katrica670 2 года назад

@@laurabarber6697 yes I would!

@Katrica670 2 года назад

@@stephenkearns6461 some of them must know a small, few people had actually learned the tools on their own or from their parent.

@beamyers8811 Год назад

A friend recently shared the work you do Irene. This is exactly what I need right now. I've been doing years of healing work and now getting into the depths of where this has come from. No surprises re the family I chose to be born into. I've certainly had a tough life, and at 65 realising the trauma/anxiety/ nervous system issues/and self sabotage patterns. Thank you for what you offer. 💗🙏

@LifeIsWonderful675 8 месяцев назад

I have just come across Irene today & she is exactly what I am needing too.

@thenicolemartinez 11 месяцев назад

The first 10 minutes or so was a confirmation of some thoughts I’ve been having lately. Evolutionarily, this is where we are. Now is the time for us, as a species, to learn how to live outside of survival mode. This gives me another perspective that it’s a great time to be alive in the world!

@helenwarren5217 2 года назад

Irene,I have to watch this video again and again. I have struggled with self sabotage from childhood but didnt know why.I have lived in survival mode most of my life,mired in shame.I am an alcoholic who struggled with sobriety and when things got tough i returned to alcohol as the solution which was self sabotage and caused so much pain. There's so many layers that I'm beginning to see now that were fear based.I didnt know this started in early childhood and have been retraumitized over and over again.I had no clue why after finishing nursing school i never bothered to go to graduation.I never wanted to bring attention to myself.So im going to watch this as many times as i need to start my healing process.

@elskezwart1554 2 года назад

THANK YOU! Here comes spirituality, psychology and (neuro) science together 💝

@theoldaccountthatiusedtous6767 Год назад

I am currently looking at your 21-day nervous system reset page and coming up with my own version of it for myself using free resources. I am being very productive in everything except the one thing I planned to do today. * inner child gives a mischievous grin *

@leeboriack8054 2 года назад

So glad I found this video and the invaluable information. Growing up with a mother that was a rage - aholic and couldn’t regulate her emotions and a passive father, healthy modeling for emotional intelligence wasn’t even an idea.

@jjayneartworkx 2 года назад

The practice of non-judgement has been the most freeing of all the different self awareness practices I have been retraining myself with...💚 I think authenticity is a very underrated part of our overall well-being and suffering in this era of rising self doubt and seeking of external hero's. Our perspective is our power; We only have control of ourselves...💚 I often remind people... You are Enough... ...whatever you dO or dOn't! 😘

@freiza79 Год назад

I would say the self sabotager finds it easier to lose than put forth the work to make progress.

@laurabarber6697 2 года назад

My mother would ridicule me and ever so caustically call me, " Goody-2-Shoes". I am the eldest of 3 and someone had to do what she wasn't. I didn't get breakfast and she was still sleeping when I got home from school. She'd stay up all night- no drugs or alcohol. Married but they weren't even friends. She was a math Mensa at 15yrs old, a teen mom and in a loveless marriage. I wish this was the only hurtful thing she said or did but of course it's not. I have a stop/ go relationship with myself regarding getting things done due to My inner critic- Goody-2-Shoes criticism. I don't have children nor do my brothers so the insanity stop here. Thank you for providing the tool that allows unconscious emotionally charged experiences to be brought to mind- so they can be released. I wish you and all who read this the very best💝🙏💝

@whatam_i 2 года назад

39:25 the part about an infants first attempts at testing their power...and the balanced way of meeting them there. Wow...really opens avenues of thought. Very revealing in that it comes across as intuitive and simultaneously it is the complete opposite of what we've done and has been done to us. Excellent. Thank you.

@Oumal_Abdallah 2 года назад

Trauma: disappointment, shame/verbal abuse, praise, the wound of not being allowed to show healthy aggression

@trudiswanson9855 2 года назад

Oh my Lord. Thankyou for taking your learned knowledge to Utube! It was only this morning that was one of my days that I woke up with electrical anxiety coursing through my systems. Gosh, SO much information completely relative to my inability to have that courage and strength to restart life, all over again, after the death of my previous life. Thankyou. God bless you. 🏖🐞🇭🇲

@sarah.j.777 2 года назад

I've just lived in a couple bad situations that I didn't create. almost done dealing with situation #2 & then I'm taking off to the open road & traveling for a year. cannot wait, my soul NEEDS that freedom. I find that focusing & actively working on goals helps me to feel better & keeps things moving in the right direction, even if I'm not always functioning at 100%

@abcek6006 Год назад

I am really impressed by you. How deep your knowledge is of the stuff you are talking about. And how you embody it You set a safe container for others. Thank you. I resonate with this video, espessialy the self sebotaging voice inside, and the anger that wants to be felt.

@deejakes1655 2 года назад

Everything seems to relate to myself..this hit me like a stomach punch. 🥺

@SweetUniverse 2 года назад

Same here. At one point I think I stopped breathing.

@miryreina925 2 года назад

Felt the same way. I guess this is what we need to shake it all off and become ANEW.

@marcelaamoroso5574 2 года назад

There are so many illuminating golden nuggets in this video. Thank you so much Irene for sharing this information with the world. You have brought so much understanding to my emotional and physical pain. I hated myself for the way I felt, but now I understand that it was not my fault. I have the hope now that I can actually heal!❤️

@tracya.schneider7698 6 месяцев назад

Oh, I do listen to RU-vid endlessly...BUT...every video I watch I curate for myself, asking...WHAT DO I WANT TO LEARN, WHAT AM I INTERESTED IN? I feel it is better than watching mindless television. I am a super curious soul...I love divination, and learning about myself - my whys, where I am going, etc.

@celiajean7093 2 года назад

Well now, I guess I was meant to find your video since I came across it during one of my "rabbit hole" moments on RU-vid. I'm stunned by what I'm hearing! So far there's nothing I've heard that I don't identify with and have struggled with addiction among other things to try and eliminate the pain. Maybe there is hope, I'm so tired of playing the "appearance" game while my insides rot.

@laurabarber6697 2 года назад

💝🙏💝 sending love, strength and courage as you create a beautiful life where your outside and inside match💝🙏💝🌴

@momoso143 2 года назад

This intro is describing me so much that it took me almost all day to get through it…it was hard to listen to, but really…it’s nice to have a place where it is acknowledged…

@miryreina925 2 года назад

Same here...

@mariaruiz447 6 месяцев назад

Thank you. Right at the end you said “you deserve it” and it for the first time resonated. I usually bristle at that remark. 😊 baby steps! 🎉

@lucyparsonage6907 2 года назад

This video is absolutely worth its weight in gold

@jonathanhayter1085 Год назад

I love this. An intelligent, comprehensive understanding along with explanation of this human problem.😊

@junebui5377 2 года назад

Omg, Irene!!! This video is hitting such key core points that have been a bit confusing to me in a while! Thank you!

@landscapesforlearning82 2 года назад

It makes sense that martial arts and wrestling are helpful therapy for generating and expressing healthy aggression. And having the aggression appropriately received, as a coregulating sort of give and take. And it’s touch and movement oriented with rules of safety built in.

@alysencameron361 2 года назад

Everything needs praxis to be able to know it and be adept with it. Retraining one's body, nerves system to full psyche is no different. Don't give up, keep your praxis alive and you will discover gains that once upon a time were unimaginable. It's the art of being.

@jessicamiller6364 6 месяцев назад

I always asked my kids to assess if they were proud of themselves before I offered praise so it came from inner selves

@TaoBear204 2 года назад

Wow! Thanks Irene for taking the time to make this video. I’ve been struggling with self-sabotage most of my life. It results in that I am always being held back from doing things that are important and meaningful. It’s crazy making wrestling with this problem as it just never stops. One example is I signed up for your course about 2 or 3 years ago and I started it but then I didn’t stick with it even though I know it is really important! However, I just keep trying and trying to chip away at this even though it has been exhausting at times. However, your video just turned on a bunch of lightbulbs for me. Your video arrived just at the right time when I decided to try and chip away again. Thank you!

@communityloveartprojectc.l9806 2 года назад

BAM!!! This is a very powerful program. Thank you Irene Lyon!

@MsDoryLinda 2 года назад

Oh I've just found you and your statement about what we believe we deserve and what we end up creating is spot on 💥 I was saying this exact thing to one of my workshop attendees that whatever she learned she would most likely NOT create in her life if internally she holds this belief!! Thia is so key. And I look at self sabotage behavior such as procrastination as self soothing or self protecting behavior. The intention is often to preserve and not to harm or sabotage oneself, you know!! Great channel, great content. Thank you👍🏾

@ambermoon719 Год назад

Wow, this is the best channel I’ve found. I’ve been doing research on healing for a few years now and yours is the first one that really speaks to me. I guess because I’m vividly aware of how much my somatic experiences, nervous system, body language, posture and overall perception of myself has changed to be like, a frightened child after an abusive relationship. I keep thinking I just want to get back to how I was before because my body felt fluid and vibrant.

@IreneLyon Год назад

jezebel amber, Jen here from Irene's Team. It's great to hear that Irene's channel is speaking to you. This work can be quite potent, and what you mentioned about wanting to experience your body as fluid and vibrant is much of what this work is about. Since it sounds like you're relatively new around here, you might check out Irene's New Here page. Here's the link: irenelyon.com/new-here/

@ambermoon719 Год назад

@@IreneLyon Thank you ♥️ much

@alanpeterson4205 Год назад

This was so well done, thorough, and I appreciate it so much. I bookmarked it so I can rewatch. Thank you!

@MD-zy9oq Год назад

I landed on this video by complete accident and but it stopped me dead in my tracks. You have hugely opened my eyes and changed my whole outlook , as a parent and as a daughter and just as a whole person. Wow.

@kearapatriciamurphy 2 года назад

For me that was me trying to understand my families issues which were impacting me daily. So o was studying that. And that’s why I was not doing all my work, because I needed to be peace, make peace with it all so as I could be free. It did derail me, and I am out of it thankfully, I’m free of it now. Life is beautiful now and I am at peace.

@moelleobrien2718 2 года назад

Best video on origins I've ever seen. I thought I understood fairly well, but the way you described it helped me to get a better grasp.. and find more of where I need to do some inner work. 👏💖🙏

@Ebakyza 7 месяцев назад

I've already read some books about human (and animal) psychology but still, so much wisdom that you share in your videos is an eye-opener for me. I've never heard anyone talk about the toxic procastrination of activities you love, this is totally me in my adulthood. I came from a loving family and I was lucky in life, almost always made the right decisions, I'm in a loving relationship too. I still often feel like a lost person when I'm alone, I couldn't be any more disconnected from myself than I am in the recent years. I'm still learning to be an adult. All this is the aftermath of those 6 years of bullying at school that made my nervous system a wreck. The worst thing is when you think you're not that person any more who couldn't defend themselves, you're now more thoughtful and understand these things better. But if you get into a similar situation, you end up being your old self again. I have crazy breakdowns when that happens and I'm afraid this will make me commit suicide one day.

@markjudsoncpa8226 10 месяцев назад

The phrase that I've heard for procrastination through over-education - wanting to learn more and more and never actually solving the problem is: Analysis Paralysis :-)

@conkers5875 Год назад

Love this on so many levels energetically, I have sent love and compassion to my vagal nervous system, flooded it, felt in my core ✨💡 thank you so much for your presence on here, learning with you and sharing with everyone ☺️

@helenyates3951 2 года назад

Very important and really helpful. I hear these things all the time in my own life and work with people. It seems we all self sabotage in so many ways. Thank you for your message.

@dylanelijah3061 2 года назад

Hello, how are you?

@philpell9002 Год назад

All I can say is "wow"! I am a trainee counsellor and this has really opened my mind, thanks!

@Starstorm111 7 месяцев назад

It also helped me a lot doing rituals! Symbolic rituals! Like a candle and a letter asking for forgiveness for my parents actions, asking for love to my anscestors and forgiveness for all the generational trauma , all the mothers who hurt their daughters in my family! It’s been 4 generations of broken relationships between mother daughter. I ask for the spirits and Ángels and universe to give them peace in their hearts.. and help them see… And guide them and all of us.. It helped me very much doing this intuitive rituals! Based on my inner needs. Sometimes this rituals seemed irrational, but deep down it felt SO RIGHT! And it helped tremendously finding some peace .. Best best wishes to everyone

@danielthomas8507 7 месяцев назад

My mother wad a very toxic narcissist...wrecked my life ,now at 60 i dont know if i can heal myself, i want to but feel damaged beyond repair...you are amazing xxx

@lizamysiri4109 2 года назад

This video is a piece of gold! Thank you so much for sharing this valuable knowledge! I m going through depression, I am on psychotherapy 3 years now and no matter how hard I ve tried, I just couldn't find the reason(s) of my procrastination. Some things make so much better sense now. I even took some notes. I ve never been told that I m stupid; nevertheless, I had been continuously told "I can't do that". I always couldn't do anything, from daily routine things to cleaning to travel etc. So, at some point, I just stopped doing things. There I am now, laying on my couch most of the day, going to sleep, if I am not sleepy, since I believe I can't do anything. Why even trying since I am going to fail? I am honestly so grateful to you Irene. May you continue helping us!

@yaisa111 9 месяцев назад

Grateful to have been guided to your page~ thank you for your knowledge and sharing so generously. I just gained sooo much more self compassion which is a necessity to move forward. Appreciate you💕✌🏽🙏🏽

@alexandramcleod2079 2 года назад

This is quite wonderful. Disappointing and exhausting for my hijacked resilience and still great 🌸 Thank you

@Kuruflower 2 года назад

This is what I was looking for. Answers why, for so many things. It took 3 days, multiple times to actually get all the information in here. I'm blown away. Thank you kindly 🙏🌸

@elizabethhigginsphotograph1830 2 года назад

This is excellent! It ties together a lot of things I have been feeling intuitively. Thank you

@judimarinoff2896 7 месяцев назад

I find this whole topic to be so fascinating, and I can certainly see so many of these traumas in myself and many others I know as well. Thank you, thank you Irene, for enlightening us all on the topic of how EVERYTHING behavioural is physiologically passed down to our bodies and manifests in so many ways - and thank you for giving us the support that we can heal from those traumas! ❤❤❤

@elainew8295 2 года назад

Thank you for this, I have just begun trying to unravel the reasons I keep self sabotaging and stopping myself making the positive changes I need to make to free myself from mental anguish and physical symptoms. Your video has so many light bulb moments for me! I really needed to find this today! Subscribed :) x

@IreneLyon 2 года назад

Thanks for subscribing Elaine! We appreciate you being here and learning this material. The world needs it right now, ore than ever!

@mariamevents Год назад

I love your in-depth explanation and examples, Thank you

@lesliemctavish4300 4 месяца назад

I'm so glad to have found your video. It has definitely put the nervous system into perspective and why it is critical to heal that before any other changes can happen. Also, I'm forming ideas about my own childhood and nervous system responses that I hold today. You have really helped me in this video. This is great "education" along with practicing lessons in 21 Day course.

@Caitanyadasa108 2 года назад

Solid gold content; thanks so much for putting this on YT.

@the.kai.eros.experience Год назад

Also! Burping & farting!!!!! It’s been a huge passion of mine to normalize this. It’s so validating to hear your articulate the importance of allowing these natural processes. Ughhhh. Amazing. Amazing.

@methemothsandthemoon 9 месяцев назад

51:18 is so, so important. Well, really everything here. Thank you for explaining this all in a way that makes sense, while being compassionate and bringing in the science. When all you hear are these false narratives that are either pessimistic or unrealistic it just becomes frustrating, to say the least, but this is giving me some hope. Many times throughout this I thought, "Oh," but not in a way that made me feel defeated.

@PurrfectPaws303 7 месяцев назад

I wish I would’ve found your videos a year ago, but better late than never! Thank you for sharing your knowledge with the world, I think you are Brilliant! Thank you for being you:)

@lightgridoracletarot7578 Год назад

tears come to my eyes when I say I Deserve this...health wellness goodness. I think this is the main aspect I want to look at as I do the SBSM program. Thankyou Irene. wired for disappointment is something I notice as a strong pattern in my system. no matter my previous attempts to change. I am really looking forward to going through this program. ❤️

@HiThereImFootloose 2 года назад

I hope you don't mind me saying it but your hair is just so pretty! Whatever you're doing, keep doing it :) Thank you for all of your helpful videos. You are making a difference

@angelinavitaleco9640 2 года назад

Beautifully done, spoken, aware, smart. Please talk more, make more videos, about this healthy type of aggression, that's often suppressed and how to revive it more.

@mycandy1103 5 месяцев назад

This is a good first step. Before this i didnt know self sabotage is a thing. Thank you for delving into this very important topic.

@user-cj9ly4rt5l 7 месяцев назад

SO MUCH GRAITUDE Irene for your sharing this insightful information ! WOW what an eye opener & answers to my issues, FINALLY 😢❤

@AnnAndNala 2 года назад

Thank you for this. You really described so many frustrating dynamics of what I've finally identified, and am working on. Hoping to get better and come out on the other side.

@bewusstlustvoll 2 года назад

Effing brilliant! Thank you for your authentic and wise presence!

@magnanilanguages154 2 года назад

I needed that today! Thank you!

@SOLsingoutloud1200 2 года назад

You are an absolute earth angel. Thank you very much for this information

@lesliecunliffe4545 2 года назад

Irene, Wow, so much amazing childhood trauma bond ISH. Layers of crap. Lifetimes of crap. We where never taught how to be in relationships. Its time for compassion & kindness. The shift is here. This ia all old energy. I appreciate you & your teachings, great stuff. Namaste! In divinity, Leslie