Speak up ! 

Great words! Stand up girl ! I can hear your pain ..take no Sh%t.. stand proud stare that Fear down Rise up

You're very brave and intelligent for sharing this, it was disgusting what he did to you and NOT YOUR FAULT, he's a bully who crossed the line and his personal evils will rebound on him if they havent already. I hope I'm not condescending but try to turn the page on that trauma through prayer, meditation, psychedelics, therapy or whatever resources the world washes up at your feet or you find in your mental toolbox