This song is from the addicts perspective to a loved one who doesn't quite understand addiction. Hopefully it can help someone out there who might be struggling. Song written by Joe Nester and produced by Brinson Swann.
I just finished a 2 week detox. I didn't take anything this time for withdrawal This time is the end. I had to change me. I listened to you everyday in treatment. You were my inspiration to seek a change I battled with this all my life. Had good years and bad years. I'm a new me now. I have God to thank for that. Thank you so much for your music and sharing your story.
Sometimes we have to really feel the full pain of our withdrawals so we can harnest it and let it be a reminder of where we never want to go again. Much respect and best of luck on your road to recovery. I’m glad my music and story can help. 🙏✊
@@joenester9984 Exactly that! Nothing but God and hard work is going to fix me. A medication isn't going to fix my depression and anxiety, so it isn't going to fix my addiction either.
A guy at the bridge sat with today and told my let's listen to this song before I leave she ok and we did listen to the whole song and told me it joenester and blowin away I thought it was celebrity much success even now ever meet u or known it was u it was u it was stellar peace love unity respect
I have listened to this song alot and I'm a meth and heroin addict I have 5 years off heroin and 1,099 days off meth but I still struggle with my cravings
There is nothing stronger than a broken person trying to rebuild themselves up from the ground up again. Much love and respect to all my fellow addicts out there in recovery.
I thank God everyday for putting a light on in my deep dark addiction I was addicted to downers uppers for 18 years I have lost custody of 4 of my children n now it's going on 2 years clean n iam raising my 2 year old daughter when she was born she didn't withdrawal so I knew God was giving me another chance to do right n I did, I do have alot of regrets but now I look at them as lessons n iam still learning alot about them.
You're welcome! That is no easy feat! You deserve to be celebrated!! My husband just got his 13 year chip. Each day sober is a victory and a testament that it can happen for those who are struggling. Someone out there who needed it saw your comment and was inspired and felt a little less alone.
😮I miss heroin was so easy to get sober from but fentanyl changed it all now it's almost impossible did rehab got 4 months then relapsed because the docs thought I was chasing drugs and wouldn't help me cuz the anxiety from paws and the dumb horse tranq was killing me now stuck back where I was
I heard this in prison in delaware i was sick for 45 days i didnt sleep or eat for 13 shit broke me first time i loved it i got 6 months clean today at solid ground recovery in frederick just got out of prison yesterday you inspire me man
We must forgive ourselves and others with the same Grace that God has shown to us. We just gotta do our best to make amends and live according to his will, not our own. Much love my friend
I was an addict for 10 years on meth and it's only a miracle that I'm alive I worship artists like Joe who speak about the life of an addict because there are lot of addicts that never make it out and there aren't slot of places except in music where we as ex addicts can go
This song has just spoken to me since the day I heard it for the first time....... every day is a challenge and it just never ends but it feels great to be clean and working my way back to my boy who I love so much ❤️❤️
I've never heard a song explain the misery and the pain of an addict so well. Just the powerlessness on our shoulders is suffocating even though some don't change can't change it's the one thing they pray for most is they could. The guilt I deal with every day kept me away for far too long until I was hit with my moment of clarity that we are all humans addicts... family of addicts everybody we all sometimes have to breakdown to break through. If your struggling know you're NOT alone don't let our disease convince you of that!
Amen my friend! It’s also important to know that asking for help is not a sign of weakness. It’s a sign of strength. Reach out and reach up. There are too many of us out there who are suffering in silence.
I went back out after 7 yrs. I spent 2 months in the mud before I blew the whistle on myself, thank God. I always listened to your music ever since a few days after you dropped train song video on youtube. Songs like; How Many Times, Worthy of Love, Hold her, Never Gunna get my Soul, have been among my favorites. I just heard this song today for the first time - with 10 days now sober again.. and fell apart. I pray you never stop writing and making music. You are telling my story. I will always need J-Nes songs as we call you in my house. Anytime you come on shuffle in the house, my 4 yr old son says "it's one of daddys songs" Thank you for everything.
Beautiful Song! Addiction just took my husband, 2 weeks ago, he was 68. I hadn't even seen him for almost a year. It is an illness and is alive and well everywhere, any age. I appreciate talented people that focus on mental illnesses for my own personal reasons. Thank you.
@@joenester9984 Thank you, but I am sorry for his loss, and for my sons who are left with feelings of guilt from, for good reasons I might add, having had to end up cutting him out of their lives at different points during the last three years. So sad, nobody wins, addiction takes down entire families. Spreads like wildfire and left having to rebuild all their success that once made their dad so proud full of all the "what ifs" and "if onlys" that live in the ashes of the living left behind.
Recovering addict here been clean for two mths its a struggle i think about it every day but i let so many people down from doing it ive been to prison over it died from it i thank god im still here this song really touched my heart
I have been an addict. I've been homeless for 15 years.. I had no sense of being needed somewhere or wanted anywhere ... Till about 2 weeks ago. I woke up one morning. Was on my way to the dispensary with not enough money... Someone stop me and gave me a little bit extra cash I asked them if they needed help working on a job site and I have been here ever since I have a place to sleep I have money in my pocket. The things that I do for this the company are important enough to be needed.... All because I asked my higher power the day before and the day of meeting my boss..... For the ones who are still out there, please don't give up ever.....
But I was layed off and lost my JOB AGAIN. I'm homeless again in the snow to boot..... I must keep making strangers smile to focus on something other than how crappy life can get...if I don't focus on the lighter side of life I WILL feel too small and obsolete and right to getting high...like they say, "happens to the best of them"
Such a wonderful song. I'm 23yrs old trying to get out of addiction at an early age so I look to your music as a true inspiration. I am blessed to have discover you.
I got 6 month recovery this incredibly powerful spiritually on so many levels...I struggle with my faith in christ...and faith in general thank u for your testimony in your lyrics.
Man this is such a powerful song. I just discovered it and it's one of my favorite songs already. I'm in recovery and have 109 DAYS clean and every single word of this song hits hard. Thank you for this truly
Tears in my eyes man, damnn. Started using drugs from age 13/14. Im now 25 and 3,5days sober again. Everyday is a battle but giving up is not an option 💯
I’ve struggle for 10 years with drugs. We from coke go crack then meth. I’m now 28 days clean. I’m finally ready to end the cycle. This song hit hard. Thanks bud keep them coming!! 🔥🎶🤟
Going 9 years strong and I agree you have to at least put forth the effort and show up and see that you can't keep doing the same thing and expect change..! Just keep showing up and eventually time will pass and before you realize it you'll be the one sharing what had happened and being that example that you once looked up to the first time you stepped foot into a program not thinking you'd make it the day let alone a week, but looking back it'll be the best decision ever made...keep going forward never back let God in your heart and Love in you soul, faith to not let go because in the end you have one chance I mean one life to get memories you'll actually remember and be proud of..! Don't be ashamed of who you are, but be ashamed of what you don't do..! You gotta try to make it, look at your reflection and ask it if that's really you or the demon lying to you..! I love you for you and no matter what remember you GOT THIS..!
Man this song really touched my soul. I felt every word. Your music always inspires me to keep pushing forward. I got a little over 19 months clean and your music is a part of my recovery. Thank you for all you do!!
The only judgment that will ever matter is God’s and he is ready and willing to forgive you brother. You just have to forgive yourself and turn back to him. You can do it Ronald! Love and miss you brother. 🙏❤️
I used to be in active addiction but I’m now 4yrs sober and a friend of mine sent me this. It hits home for sure. But I didn’t go through any treatments I came clean on my own. I’ve been fighting everyday for 4yrs for it. But this hits hard for it
Don't u dare think any less of them ...sometimes it happens to the best of them.....that part makes me cry every time thank u for this song Joe nester.....❤ from the author of colicchies helping hand by Steven roof.....and the diary of a drifter ❤
I just shed some tears hearing this I’m literally listening to this song high but I don’t wanna do it no more and literally this whole story is exactly how it happen and I dub myself into a deep whole man I wish I could go back and take it back idk if I’m ever ganan get sober 😥
Man I feel your pain. I’ve been there. I used to think I would never make it out either but God saved me. Seek and aknowledge him brother and he too will deliver you from your situation. Praying for you my friend. We’re all in this together. 🙏✝️
Wow really love this song,I help feed homeless people but have been really thinking hard lately about helping people with addiction because I’ve been clean for 12 years,god has let me help homeless people for 10 years now and I think he wants me to help other people to get there lives straight
damn I was such a huge meth addict and I touched rock bottom on that drug and this songs makes me remember how I broke my moms heart when I started smoking weed. I'm sorry for letting you down mom I cant wait until I can say its been years since I got high.
I felt this song in my soul. I am an addict in recovery of 7 years. It took so much work to get here. I relate to this song on so many levels. Thank you.
I love this song. The demons are always gonna hold us down it's up to us to decide how we deal with it. I love how you have turned your struggles into something we can relate to. Through your music we hear your story and that's what makes you a mentor, help us find our strength and use it for something positive. God bless you and your family. Stay strong it's just not you anymore!!
Just Wow..I mean every word is how I've felt and still feel. Losing my sister to addition among friends and being a recovering addict myself..very powerful!
This is a daily struggle for me. And I’ve had a hard life some choices by my own doing and. A lot of unfair things happened at an early age to me. It was my coping skill I used. But everyday I wonder if it’s all gonna spiral out of control and end the life I have
I'm going on 4 years clean. It was one of the hardest thing I have ever done. My girls helped me realize there could be more to life than what I had. If it wasn't for my babies I do not know where I would be in life! ❤️ Love this song it just touches my soul!
I needed this song because I recently relapsed on alcohol and everyone was so CRITICAL of me....I have felt very alone for weeks while trying to find a good AA group....this song helped me a lot. So thank you ❤
So excited to hear this song we love you Joe keep being the voice for millions of people who are gone and for those are are scared to be their own voice 🙏❤️
This song legitimately made me cry, I have been struggling with addiction for over ten years and I’m finally clean, I’m at 18 days today which isn’t much but it’s a damn good start. I listen to this song everyday to remember where I came from and how I know I will NEVER go back. Detox for me was really hard and I legitimately thought I was going to die, they offered to take me to the hospital by day 4 and day 6. This song hits home hard so thank you for reminding me where I was and where I’m going.
Im a meth addict whos in recovery, i lost everything i loved and nearly lost my life. This song is everything im going through right now, Most of my friends have passed, been murdered or commited suicide because of drugs wether it be heroin, meth or whatever drug it was. Thankyou for releasing this ❤ only road from here is a clean healthy one.
I love this Joe I needed this I relapsed about a year ago after Al most sixteen years clean I been using again for a about six months but today I’m starting over even if I half to do it by myself and it coastes me my marriage of 20 something years I half to do this for me I just can’t keep using just to hold my family together I love him but I can’t do it anymore much love your biggest Mississippi fan Frances
Frances I’m so sorry for what you are going through but you know you are never alone and I’ll always do everything I can to help. Just message me privately on Facebook and I’ll do what I can. 🙏
Love your music bro I am 65 days sober and I listen to your music everyday through the good and bad please make more music I love yours and cooliichie music.
Joe i relate to about every song u sing. You are a inspiration to me and your songs hit me hard. Keep the good vibes and songs coming. Your songs help me made it through prison and addiction. Im now sober 3.5years.❤
Wow, this song really hits close to home. I was in active addiction and went to treatment in Hamilton, Ontario for 6 weeks and once I was done and went back home both my husband and I were clean for 9 months and then I had a little relapse but got myself together and stopped again but then my son's were taken from me by Children's Aid Society but not because of drugs, it was because a nosy neighbor kept calling 911 when she heard my husband and I arguing. They said it was emotional and mental abuse to the kids. ..then both my husband and I I moved and we got clean. But on March 31st 2019 my husband passed away due to cardiac arrest due to pneumonia. I thank God and your music that I didn't relapse then, I'm now 7 years clean and my youngest son found me on Facebook and we were reunited after not being with him and his older brother for 10 years This song is amazing and very powerful. Keep your music going it's definitely helping not only myself but many others out here. Love the songs you are absolutely amazing!!!
@@joenester9984 thanks my life has been so much better now that I can actually see clearly and actually enjoy life. You're music is amazing and it keeps me going
Man this song touches my soul and hit me hard. I've been there and felt this by the grace of God I've trund my life around and now I've been sober and clean for 3years now and have been blessed by my son that is a year old now. I love your music I relate to it and it speaks to me in ways I understand what we all go through...
Joe, I want you to know I've listened to all your songs for several years and they all hit me hard but this one 40 seconds in or so I had tears rolling down my face and it takes alot for me to break like that. Thank you so much for this song and all you do.
I was one of the biggest pain med addict I have a serious back problems including spinal fusion and it got me I would do anything for it I can get it on tap targins endones vailys anything you can think and I'm now 5 months clean still have the back problems and need another surgery but I'm still going strong thank you Joe nester your music has helped me
This song. I just found your music and man every word of this song and others hit hard at the heart. 20 Year addict 4 years clean and it’s still a struggle everyday. You always wanna go back to that true love of what u thought was your true love but when u look back and see how far u have came and what u lost 💯 too everyone
Joe I did for years but now if I would of only found out what I could of made the right choices in my life 🧬 I would of been moving on before the last two years of living life without any questions got that so right on the facts 💯 and so much respect once again for what you did and what your music has did for all of us from the heart ❤️🙏
I stumbled upon this song while listening to a Scott Stapp music mix on here. And I must say. This song hits home for me. Exactly how I feel. I've been writing songs lyrics for almost 16 years now and could never capture what I've been trying to tell people. But you did it. I lost my best friend to an OD. And I'd give anything to make things right. I was trapped in that world and I'm so grateful that I made it out alive. Thanks for letting me know that I'm not alone in this. You rock man keep it up!
I wrote down the lyrics so I can put it a message to my husband who is in jail, he listened to Demi Lovato sober and said it hit home now let's see how this one hits with him, I love every song you have and this one helps, he has been active addiction and has 3 years clean from drugs but now it's alcohol and one reason he is sitting where he is right now, I will let you know what he thinks :)
I know the addiction is hard and it's out there all over. And it's getting worse every day. Mainly the meth, and it's hard when you see your loved ones on it. And you get to see them detoxing and being a person that never was around drugs and never thought that they would ever do them. Losing a mother losing your marriage. You end up turning and doing a lot of things that you thought you'd never do. Jonester you're music helps a lot of people through They're struggles and painsand your music helps them listens of life along with the addictions of getting clean and how hard it is. Thank you again for your music. Keep up the good work and the healing.
I cant wait to hear this! Soon as it drops I'm listening. If it's like any other song you've done it will be a masterpiece! You make great music Joe and I hope you continue your music career, you've helped thousands of people and literally your music has saved my life more then once. Thank you!
Thank YOU JESUS for removing from me an over 40 year addiction to heroin. Been clean now for alil over 4 years now. My only regret is that I didnt turn my will over to GOD sooner. To those still in the battle of their lifetimes? Never ever give up hope. You are not your own worst enemy. You are your best advocate. And there is nothing wrong with hitting rock bottom. Because then you now have a strong foundation to build up from. Prayers for peace, solace, and happiness for all. 🙏🙏🙏
8 year's quit cold turkey off weed, and meth.. dug a hole hiding from depression. Even pulled the trigger while the gun was to my head. It jammed, and gave me a second chance.. 😢..
Joe Nestor I can't stop listening to this song it's so amazing and it really tells my story and I can't believe that I am a normal person again. My boys are my life and after losing my husband in 2019 I have never been the same and the day my son found me it gave me a reason to live and now I'm battling endometrial cancer and I'm fighting for my boys. Thanks for the amazing music you are doing it really helps me get through every day
@@joenester9984 I know God will help me through this rough time I'm going through right now and I'm blessed to have you with the beautiful music you produce cause you're music definitely gets me by each and every day
Such a true song. Jesus saved me from addiction. I Praise Him, and urge you all to surrender to Him. He makes all things new. Cured 4 years of addiction overnight with zero withdrawals. Prayers and blessings to you all
This song really hits deep an gets me emotional having family members an friends using very sad an eye opening like hearing it from there point of view an what they going thru on there end
Into anyone who has made a comment about their life and how their struggle was congratulations to all you as well it's a struggle everyday and but we do it and we keep it going we need to do what this guy does don't hide from it raise awareness about it
Joe ur music helps ive never done meth and after losing my mom and my marriage going down heal i started and it got bad where i just wanted to die and ur music and my husband bobby phillips aka tyger and god helped me through this and i have been a month clean i know its not much but im thanking god and u with ur music and my husband......ur music is really helping ppl keep ur healing music up ur helping and saving lives
Joe brother 💯🙏 so much truth and view hearted vibes and plain facts 💯 and always putting it out there in the mix for us all 💯🙏 so much respect and loyalty for your music 🎶🎶 is 💪💯🔥 so much truth and talent in the mix of it all 💯🙏❤️
