Emotional Song About My Brothers Drug Addiction 

Hope you all enjoy this video! Was hard to shoot since i used my real brother and family but it paid off, thank you!

I have been clean for 80 days today I am crying right now while watching this video I was a meth head and opiates addiction I went to palematto addiction and recovery in Rayville Louisiana I just got out May 3 of this year I have been in and out of Recovery since 1985 I am 53 I will be 54 September 25 this video made me stop and think what I put my family through I lost my mom last year I have four daughters my youngest daughter got killed by a car April 30 2018 Recovery is possible I hope that your brother chose Recovery

4yrs ago I had to give my own brother CPR but it was just too late. He killed himself after he got out of rehab.. He left no note behind which has always fucked with my head. Most nights I don't get much sleep so I scroll through songs to help me cope. I came across this song n the part about your brothers point of view just brought me to tears. You'll never understand how much of a bittersweet blessing that was for me. Thank you for sharing your story n your lyrical gift with the world 💙

:( I feel this , makes me see what I caused my family during my meth addiction , thank god I'm sober 🙏🙏🙏

My first time hearing this. I can't even describe what it made me feel. My husband of 17 years died from OD in a rehab center in 2008. Left me to raise 5 kids on my own. My youngest was 7. I let my grief lead me to addiction. My kids suffered. I suffered. I'm clean now going on 21 months. My baby boy is about to turn 21 and he's struggling.

Im a recovering addict and this song hit at home. Thank u so much for sharing. I am now 4 years clean and i work in the field to help others who struggles with addiction and im grateful for that and i now teach groups for recovery. I have showed this video a couple of times and left them in tears. Thank u for giving ur insight from a family point of view. We needed to hear this. Much love homie.

I looked back and realised I was never given real love 😢 but has become a man, who is blessed to see everything and everyone for who they are

Im an older brother, and a son. Ive been here, I am here. This has been me. This is me. Thank you Gremlin. Stay blessed brother bear. From every older brother to his younger counterpart, I'm sorry

That hit so deep. Ivan was a friend of mine when I was deep into drugs, I loved him very much. He always loved and talked about his family. Especially you mark. Hope you all are doing well. Love you Ivan -Adrian

Song hits deep i felt this 10 years of drug problem and it was hard to over come at times but 3 years clean today

This song hurts me. Addiction is a bitch, but we can get over it. Withdrawals are tough, but the will to do right is stronger😔💙

5 years ago. This song still hits man.

Bro have you ever been addicted to something.. You say in your lyrics "bro just quit the addiction" it's not that simple just to stop using stuff you have been using for years.

💔 this was dope something most families can relate too! 😔

How did I never see this till now? My brother was an addict for close to 10 years. Meth Heroin, you name it he was on it. Crazy now he’s been clean for almost 2 years, and I’ve never been so proud of anyone in my life. Never ever ever thought he was gonna change, and to see the changes he’s made is incredible, I love him to death & were closer than ever now.

I wish I had my family like that at my worst !!!!!

3 years and I'm still here. this is amazing. every song is amazing.

Don't ever turn your back or get mad at different roads siblings make, cause soon they will turn back!

my little brother sent me this song in the middle of a full blown relapse & it almost caused me to end my life but now i can listen 2 it it keeps me going

Miss my sister. Almost 30 years lost to addiction. 30 years of my mothers lost hope and worry. Just praying you can look in the mirror and feel pride one day before you are lost forever. You are missing today. Been missing a week. Just put of prison 2 weeks ago. Another hope lost. 😭

No words to explain how good this is, tough subject but you killed this !

I’m here again brother...chills to the bone.. my life was just like your brothers.. I had no brothers but two loving sisters and a mother I was causing damage too. Till they confronted me and let me in their feelings.. many years of damaged can’t be reversed but I know I can make things better from now on.. I’ve been clean for 6 years now. Keep doing what your doing brother.

Damn...I'm coming from both sides of that story. Older brother addict, now 2 years sober and just lost a brother yesterday to it ain't we all though...

My son is 23 out in the streets off and on with his addiction. I've tried everything. One day I hope he comes home clean 🙏 It's tooken a toll on our family watching him go thru this. Never did I think my son would be this person. He was very popular in HS and played sports football and basketball he has medals, trophies shirts, hoodies that he earned thru the years he played BB and football. He was well known for his sports. He threw that all away to drugs. I want my son back 😭

This hits hard 😭😭😭 I put my family through everything he has talked about

It hurt to watch this, & listen to those lyrics cause I lost a best friend from meth... she was such a good person, then she got screwed up in meth & other drugs. Then one day she ended up overdosing on meth... you really are talented! I couldn't imagine making a song out of this, it hurts too much. My mom was on drugs when I was little, so was everyone she dated. So I know what it's like to go through with people who have that addiction... Your songs hit home for me! 💯😭. But I love your music. They need to become more popular!! Love the lyrics!!!

This song touched me deep. I'm 8 days sober off meth and my own brother could've wrote this song about me and him. Made me cry.

This is honestly unbelievable song. My brother was addicted, I always hated it. Till finally I flipped out on him one day for all the disappointments he's done and all the broken promises, I let it all out. We didn't speak for years. I was only 16ish. When I was 26ish we spoke about it. He thanked me for opening his eyes, he knew he was addicted and needed to change but believed he wasn't that bad. He said he'd change multiple times after I spoke up a few times back then but never did. Thankfully he's clean and thanks me for it. Now he has a family and the happiest dad there could be. He went through hell to clean up.

I’m a mother listening to this after my 21 yr old son died 6 months ago! 💙💔

Wow. I hate yt algorithm. I'm now crying uncontrollably. Only families with real addiction can appreciate how real this song is. You are one talented person my Friend. Subbed.

Shouldn't ever judge an addict. Never give up on family never. No matter what. Addiction is dark. I'm an addict and I never thought ever I would have done the things I've done to others and my family. I was on top of the world once but now I'm in hell. We as addicts always chase the good times in our past because our present is hell and there's no hope for tmrow.

Damn man you killed this song Gremlin. I have been struggling with my addiction with meth I have stop several times but always fall back into it. I lost my wife and kids because of it but where I'm from there is drugs but not drug help I don't know what to do anymore I really want my kids back in my life I have the will to stop but can't find the power to

I feel like you wrote this song for me man. I watched my older brothers life get sucked out of him for 5 year. at one point I just stopped caring. the pain is too much for me. I'm done with tears I need to focus on me and my family . tears can't help him but I hope my prayers does man. I too wish that I could go back to our childhood... anyways dope song. best wishes to you and your family

My brother was an addict.. sadly once he finally got clean a month later had a heart attack.. but I’ve always been his ride or die even if he was drugged up I never treated him like he wasn’t my best friend he died when I was 17 he never got to see me graduate or anything.. he’ll never meet his future nieces and nephews or see his own kids grow old .. cherish your family always even in the lows cause when they’re gone that’s a wrap 💯

Lost my brother when I was 9 an he was 19 to drugs an I miss him alot reminds me of him any time any one says his name i try to hold my tears in an fist up my fists an stuff I wish he was still here to see me grow up an see me an hug me an be there hanging out with me an help me out when I need it

Love this song last year. When I was in my addiction, my brother played this for me on the car emotionally, but something the heart needs is truth.

I just lost my brother to addiction 💙this song remind me what my brother has faced 💔 but when he was sober he was a beautiful soul 😞

this reminds me of my past....now sober and I survived....now I have to watch my baby brother go through this....its the hardest thing....thank you for making this song....this is raw...this is what people need to see....

Driving to crs training and came across this song man did I get the chills all the way thorough fight this fight with us we do care it’s sad but drugs take us away from everything and everyone

I lost my baby sister this past April who was addicted to crack, she was only 32 years old. I had cut off communication with her because she was killing herself and I'm having a hard time dealing with my choice. I'm happy to see that you have the strength and will power to fight for him, I wish now that she is gone that I could have done more for her.

gave me the chills but dope and deep

Gremlin my name is John and I started looking at your RU-vid videos yesterday. I too have an addiction except mine is your videos. I'm old school til the day I die. I don't like alot of rap I can count rappers on one hand, actually you will be number 3. There's something about the lyrics, the reality of your songs. The message in your music. I come from a era where singing was singing, melody, rhythm, hitting notes. I always thought anyone can talk a song. I heard your stuff and realized that back then all the things that attracted me to my favorite songs and groups was the message in the music and the everyday issues that we can identify with is how. I and alot of your present and future fans will continue to identify with you talking about real things . Continue to keep giving positive messages that others can use. I know what the consumers are looking for and personal positive information and what you dealt with and how you turned it positive for yourself and family is real and more common than you think. I'm 56 years old and I will continue to follow you. You have something that is going to blow up. Keep doing what you are doing. Much love.

I dont know where id be without my lil sis!!!! She helped me get clean and made my life so much better!!!! This is exactly how she treated me and i wouldnt ask for anything else! I love you Bri!!!! 8 yrs clean now!!!

I feel your pain I have brother's who have an addiction problem and I still have one who still is in the struggle. I have also struggled with addiction as well. I literally got out of prison two days ago and I am in a Halfway House now. Thank you for this song I shed some tears and it honestly helped me a little more as well as the help I am and have been seeking for my own addiction!

Dahm this shit hit me hard I also have a brother addicted to drugs I still miss the old him I’ve been threw tough times just because of him 😔

Five years clean, and it's really not as easy as everyone thinks. It's hard, when life kicks you and you're already down, you know you could feel great again, unstoppable. But they will not quit until they are ready. Hard truth, but I'm not here to sugar coat it, hope the best for all of you and yours, it hurts when I see people addicted.

I hope your brother got clean and is still here with us. Great song. I am a recovering heroin addict.

I sadly do relate with this... i wish i could have my brother back, the real him not him when hes high or comin down

this shit hit me hard bro bc i was addicted to whatever i could get my hands on from xtc weed coke crack ice the whole medicine cabinet but this is real shit that you spittin iv been there and was able to kick it cold turkey with the help of my family (shout out to all the addicts dealing with their deamons inside thinking there is no way out..........there is)

This song is strong with its lyrics. My family is going through this and on the edge of losing this family memeber. I pray he gets better.

I feel this so deep, I love my brother but he always hurts us/ family. Im so mad at him but I want to huge him also! I dont know where he is and it hurts! I hope he gets help!

This video gave me chills and made me sad it reminded me of my middle son the last time he saw his older brother who died 11/28/2016 at 39 yr ol his name is marty. Cody didnt understand opiate and heroin addiction they were so close for years i know he watches oveer him from heaven hope your bro is good and got clean don't give up on him love him you never know when that last time is. God bless you and your family

Wow thank you so much that's my brother he's in jail right now again and I get it because we're not alone and thank you for letting us know that but I've got my own addictions thanks because your music and music is the best therapy that has been had thank you

This hit me hard. Especially the anger aspect. Like so many others I relate to this. Much love and respect.

This hurts hard my brother is currently addicted to H&meth but this song helped me a lot these few months. Thank you.

This is spot on! Little brothers got in in him! Hope your listening big bro it’s never too late to start over! Hope he gets help!

This hit home. Pictured it coming from my sister. :(

Thank you for putting yourself out there to help everyone!! You express what we all go thru in away I never could!! You are BOTH EXTREMELY GIFTED!!🙏

This song hits hard ice been clean 8 years oct 31! Im in tears to see the pain it causes thr people around you really makes you hurt deeply! Your not you when you have an addiction. Its a choice we made and one we have to fight to stay away from when we do over come! Love this song💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

Hope your brother is doing alright, he is talented

Felt this one from both sides! My brother and I are both recovering addicts. He used when I wasn’t and watched it then I lost myself and let it control me as well. So wow, this song is deep af.

This song is deep♥️ Many can relate.. made me cry😢

My brother broke apart my mom and dad. Destroyed my perception of trust and made me numb. Ironically developed my own addiction after telling me him I wish he were dead and ended up so. I have a lot of pain I still don't allow myself to feel. I'm scared of it and I miss my brother.

Bro I wish I could get though to my brother this brought tears man cause its exactly what has been going on

This song is literally me talking to my brother and I’m still struggling to this day to forgive him. This song with the video had me in tears. I hope one day I can bring myself to forgive.

Lost my brother to fetynal in 2018. This shit hit me hard. Thanks for giving me some emotions tonight

For my brother, a drug addict. I still love you and I'll never give up on your recovery❤

Going on 6 months of sobriety this song was amazing hit me to my core an me and my brother ran together at one point 19 yrs of pain an living in them trenches jails ect just blessed God spared me an forgave me for my sins anyone going threw a struggle you can do it I was shot twice and paralyzed in 2015 an it changed me forever but drugs an st life do that there is hope an help you just gotta put the work in stay blessed ppl

On January 10th I lost my brother to an accidental overdose on fentanyl. My brother tried to go for his Narcan but it was too late. He was trying so hard to get clean and it seemed like he was doing good. But the drugs got a hold of him. He had a drinking problem and he had a drug problem. Me and my brother didn’t talk for five years and it felt weird when he came around. He stole all my shit and sell it and he stole my parents stuff and sell it. My brother has two girls and they always ask where Dad is at. We have to tell them there father passed away and he is in heaven now. It is so heartbreaking. This fentanyl shit is so fucking crazy. My brother went to rehab in California and That didn’t work and he was homeless on the street in California. Then he came back home and it just got worse. Before my brother passed he said this it’s most likely that you go to rehab and die in rehab or you get out of rehab and die anyway or get sober and stop taking drugs and die as well. These might sound like excuses but it’s also true. An the pain hurts so much for me when I know the guy that sold the drugs to my brother and killed him. I can’t wait for the day when they arrest that guy and they put him away for life. I have so much hate and anger and resentment. I hate drug dealers so much. I think they all should be put away for life. They just ruin families and hurt innocent people and crave off their sadness and emotions. An give them drugs to fill out their pain. It’s just sick. An I can’t take it anymore. I wish me and my brother were closer but he kept pushing me away and he didn’t want to get closer and I understand why now. He didn’t want me to get wrapped up in his shit. My parents tell me he was happy with all the accomplishments that I have done in my life and how I’m the better man and he wished he was like me and that he loved me but I couldn’t believe that. Because my brother was a complete asshole to me all the time and said some pretty fucked up shit to me. I was always told he was jealous of my accomplishments and he was just a failure in his own life. But I just know the drugs deluded his mind and he couldn’t remember who he was. I always wished and hoped he would turn things around and get clean and do better for his kids but in the end the drugs won. Now I have to sit here with the pain and anger and resentment and the justice system not doing their jobs to get justice for the lost souls that the drug dealers have took from people and families. When family and friends just want to get justice for their love ones. So we can move on with our life and get some grief and feel better. So I like your video and I can relate. It had me bawling in tears. Thank you for that.

This song is amazing... it hit hard.. both me and my brother was drug addict but we both are clean now.. ive been clean for 4 yrs now and hes comin up on 3 yrs... i love this song bro you did amazing job..

I grew up the addict of the family as a teenager and got clean when I had my son. Now.... Both brothers are addicted to drugs and watching them destroy themselves is worse than any day I've ever had in active addiction.

Brought tears to my eyes addiction is a tough subject since i lost my brother to his addiction and that a pain nobody should experience

This song speaks wonders to me bro both my brothers and my mom were on meth, my brothers got sober but my mom still doing her thing. Thankyou for this

My brother just got out of prison after 6 years. He's back on that shit and it's killing me inside and all I can do is cry.. Drugs kill more then just the addict... It kills the whole family...

Powerful even at 3 and a half yrs clean. This still hit my heart ❤ I'll nvr stop apologizing to my fam.. even after 3 yrs

Snap Gremlin, I'm only seeing this song now. I relate to the words of this song in every way. I've battled Crack Cocaine addiction for 13 years! Your words to your brother are my family's words to me.Your brother's words to you are my words to my family. Thank you for your vulnerability, it's a quality I wish I was better at.

Man!!! Gremlin I just want to let you know that you have some serious power in your words and that this song really made me look at my life and made me want to take this road to recovery more seriously!!! Not only for me but for my loved ones as well... You never really know how your actions and behaviors are effecting the ones around you until you hear it out of somebody else's mouth!!! Thank you for everything you've help me realize, keep your head up and keep producing this fire, your the best!!! 💯💯💯 -Panda7414-

This is my life right now sadly😢

This is how I feel about my brother

Thank you so much for this. My brother and I used to listen to you together. Drugs caught up with him and I lost him a few months ago and every day hurts. Your music still helps

Yo man this had me in tears. I was the addict addicted to heroin and using cocaine iv. For a decade. I'm 2 years clean now but hearing the frustration and emotion in your voice it reminds me of what my brother felt the whole time. Him and I were always so close he looked up to me when we were kids even in the beginning of my addiction when I had really good jobs he looked up to me and then everything fell apart and you could see a piece of him gone and then he turned to anger which I don't blame him for obviously. Now that I'm two years clean we are really starting to rebuild our relationship back to how it was and he's having a child in March and I'm going to be an uncle and I told him last night that I'm going to be the best uncle ever and that I'm going to make sure I'm so perfect that my nephew looks up to me as he used to look up to me. God bless you and your family

Omg this really had me in tears, I was feeling you and your family's pain! Really sad song but very amazing song as well!

You broke me down and I have just barely have 3 years clean from crystal meth and I am finally free from its grip that it had on my mind

This is real life comin up on 11 months yo that shit isn’t Easy . Love it , one day at a time

Coming from an active user, this shit made me feel deep inside, got me thinking how many times I've made my own mother cry and worry were I am constantly, I fucked up alot, and if I were sober I probably wouldn't be doing this shady shit I do

I absolutely love this song and I'm diff feeling your pain going threw the same thing with my sister 💔🥺😭

I'm so glad I got sober and now I'm closer to my family than i ever was... 2 years sober going on 3....

Broooo my god just randomly found you on RU-vid and broooo your stuff is incredible! I been crying for the last hr and just feels like it's what I needed to do for a long time! Thanks for sharing your talent with us man! You are really gifted

I really like your music and this song was deep wish the best for u and your family stay up G

Also keeep up the hard work been a real inspiration for the past 3 years again thank you ✌🏻️

Any past truma I send them into the Light to be healed and resolved as I am healed from them AMEN 🙏🏼

I've been clean now for a month of meth heroin and coke thank you my little brother I was hurting I was on the streets sleeping any where I could and now back at moms archived so much

This is for my dad. i got a restraining order on him yesterday thank god. He has ruined me and my childhood i have PTSD but im not gonna let it affect me anymore. My kids will never have fo experience what i had to go through...

Gremlin. I'm playing this for the first time in 2019 and it's deep man. Been checking you out for a coupl'a minutes rn and you're hitting deep. #subscribed

Damn all his songs are my life. Like literally. From abuse to losing my only sibling to drugs.

Growing up my bro got on heavy drugs and then my cuz that was like a bro to me he is seving a prison sentence because he was on drugs ur music helps me deal with the problems I have in my life thank you bro

Damn this song is dope. Keep up the music

DAMN!!! This dude got it!! Im a drug counselor and show this to all my clients!!!! Keep it Poppin Gremlin

The second brother #2 starter rapping back it fucking blew my mind. If only "they" could actually express themselves this easily what a fucking amazing song

this song hit me so hard as i am recovering after 4 years and i am still fighting this battle and hurt so many people and without my family pushing me the way they did and my best friend who i lost due to this curse we recovering addicts bear everyday i wouldnt be here today thank you for making this its truly amazing. keep up the good work bro