So... techdog turned out to be too long to upload as one video, but I uploaded all 7 parts as one compilation on bandcamp. Thanks for listening everyone, it's over for real now. patriciataxxon.bandcamp.com/album/techdog-1-7
this is insane I thought this was gonna be 4 parts bruh 😭 pretty sure you can get around the maximum video length by nicely asking youtube if you're allowed to stream for that long though - it would be in the streams section however
you accidently named the track "GDGEGDGCGDGEDHDEDCETECEHCOCHCTHOHTHOTOTOTO" with the previous track name "CGCTCGCHCGCTGOGTGHTDTHTOHEHOHDOEODOEDEDEDE". please fix that thanks :)
you should put them all in a playlist, that way RU-vid listeners can hear it in order too! also this is such a cool project, I've been listening to them in the background while doing schoolwork and it helps me focus a lot.
over these past few days I’ve been slowly chipping away at all of the TECHDOG parts and still have yet to finish, but I just finished Track 6 of this part and just.. wow. that hit so close to home as an autistic person TECHDOG perfectly taps into that Special Flavor of trauma that all autistic people face. the stuff that Patricia talked about briefly in her “Boinking Animal People” essay and extensively in her DHMIS essay. the experience of being hurt and broken simply for being yourself. throughout my childhood I was constantly shamed and ridiculed for my high sensitivity and the way I expressed myself, which has led to me now as an adult basically unable to feel emotions. I often feel that I don’t know myself anymore. I wish I could go back to the happy carefree, unapologetically autistic child I once was, but they’ve been locked away as a defense mechanism. the first half of TECHDOG is so happy and bright, but despite being 3 hours of music total, it’s nothing in comparison to the 4 hours of fear and pain, and the 4 1/2 hours of numbness, which has been challenging to get through. the moments of happiness feel so brief in comparison to the torturous nightmare of prolonged trauma and the never ending slog of emptiness that comes after. Track 10 of part 4 was such an incredible and euphoric finale, but it’s ruined by the 11th track. it makes me sad; we didn’t know of the bad things about to happen. TECHDOG was only supposed to be 4 parts. techdog deserved to stay at ease, she didn’t deserve all that. and like many of us, she’ll never be the same, left grasping at the innocence she once felt, at the puppy she once was. This has been such an incredible musical experience, definitely up there with the powerful story told by Everywhere At The End Of Time (dare I say better). I’ve felt so heard and so touched by this work of art, and I can’t wait to finish it and see what’s left in store for techdog. Patricia, you are an amazing artist who deserves all the recognition in the world 💗💗💗
still processing the chaos of guilt and catharsis while listening. i was dreading something like this when i saw the thumbnail for part 5. this experience has left me feeling more naked now than ever and i don't know how i feel about it yet. i don't think anybody else could have encapsulated these feelings, and especially not in the stark and neck-baring way you have. more than anything, though, is the weight of the grief i can't shake off, knowing the words i have aren't going to be enough to explain what it means to anyone, that i will sound insane or delusional just laying the groundwork for a topic as heavy as this, before i can even begin to approach real truth. this is a "life-changing" album. how do you regain hope? how do you come back to life? would it have been better to stay ignorant? how can i feel positive about the tragedy of loss, even as it is subverted and sublimated into beauty? all i can seem to manage is mourning. it's like listening to my eulogy from beyond the grave.
This album is going to make me cry, I swear to god it's depicting the feeling of being ghosted too accurately. It hits too close to home and it's painfully perfect qwq
this album feels like waking up alone and before sunrise, in an empty city that i've only ever seen paintings of. i recognize landmarks, but i have no idea how to navigate. the streets are dark; the space between buildings feels too wide. it's warm, but the buildings creak in the gentle breeze, and i shiver. the morning glow filters through the abandoned space, leading me to a rock beach where i watch the sun come up. wandering the streets again, i find a single car idling at a stoplight, keys in the ignition, gearshift in neutral. i find a payphone with the phone on the hook, but already paid for. i find a playground. i find footprints that lead down the street, and then nowhere at all. it feels like NaissanceE, like playdead's Inside, like Rain World, like growing up.
I was compelled to re-listen to the ending and I just realised... was that intermittent "synth" a stretched sample of a fire alarm... gosh darn the TEXTURES on this
I haven't listened to the entirety of any of the parts of TECHDOG yet, but I just need to say that I found the monologue in this part, and it is simply heartbreaking. The raw emotion in your voice is palpable, I just... It's beautiful. All of your work is beautiful. And this one is absolutely one of the greatest. I cannot wait to experience all of it
the roaring from near the end of track 7 (2:16:40) made me deeply, *deeply* uncomfortable. The anxiety I had waiting for it to come back was fucking nerve wracking, I swear to god I've never had a piece of music make me feel that unsettled in my life. The relief when I realized it was finally over was palpable.
Track 6 is heart breaking. I was tense and sad throughout the whole track. Having it come out of nowhere made the buildup worth it. (I think it's roughly 1:27:21 - 1:52:31. I added the Bandcamp timestamps together to get those time stamps.)
jesus christ i've bought every single techdog cause i loved the first two but i'm still trying to make my way through 3, and now 7 is 4.5 hours long?? patricia what are you doing to me i have so many plates spinning right now i don't have time for this much new music, this will take my months to finish 😖 /lh
istg this album got me so good. So I’m gonna talk about my favorite tracks of this album. 6 felt like rain on a windshield or white noise, just a complete silence, and occasionally you!d hear ‘a friend’ calling to ask if should were okay, and it turned out that voice was Patricia speaking to herself, that happy puppy that she lost. And then there’s 9. The calming chimes, and then piano music. The first time I heard it it made me cry, and it still does. It sounds like an apology, to everything she went through, and then the end of 10 you see the craziness of Techdog 4’s music return, with even longer lyrics. Beautiful.
It took me more than a full workday, but I finally finished this monster. My fur is still standing straight up from the way this ends. The only thing I can say is that I hope that (maybe a few years from now) TECHDOG 8 drops with the subtitle of: Feeling whole/found/better.
hey I know you probably won't see this but if you do I need to know: who drew your profile picture? It's a drawing of Pix and Bit I've never seen and it is very hard to find fanworks of them
I- Yeah. I guess I probably should. That had real influence to it. It's like a switch has been flicked. It's all been drawn into focus. Thanks Patricia :3
This, all of this, the whole techdog saga, is exactly why I look up to you Patricia. Being able to create something so absolutely incredibly profound and emotional is something I’ve been trying and trying to do for so long. This is the first I’ve ever seen of it done successfully, and of course it’s done by the greatest artist that’s ever created art. Genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, this is the single greatest thing I’ve ever experienced. Well fucking done Patricia. No single album on its own is impactful enough to warrant all of this, but when put together it’s this incredible story built on a beautiful cacophonous screech of various sounds, all coming together to create this. 1-4 is all about normal life, the way things are supposed to be, when things are good. Then 5 and 6 drag you down to the depths, stumbling and staggering the entire way, struggling to climb back up. Then you do, you reach that light, and in the climax of 6, everything becomes still. You’ve come back, but changed. You think differently now, more colorful perhaps. However you still get the sense that something isn’t off, some color still isn’t there. Something from the outside just isn’t getting into the radio silence. And this, all of this, is the effort of just one extraordinary dog❤ Edit: Just finished this one, and wow. I’m physically stunned. You realize at certain points that everything isn’t ok. There’s still things wrong. But it’s being drowned out by the noise. Sometimes it get in though, you can still hear it. And then the end. Everything starts to build up again. It begins to come back. And then it stops. Everything stops. And then it repeats. “Try again?”
Its hard to explain how much this full album means to me, I've been listening to it on and off the past two weeks, and the sheer complexity of the feelings it portrays, and how it relates to me is deeper than words can describe. I really love how the second last song, around 3:40:00, directly calls back to the first track of TECHDOG 3's melody, but vocalised this time, and at the end of it before the last track, around 3:51:10, it plays the opening from TECHDOG 1. Really makes you reflect on the full journey, and how long and distant it is from the beginning. The only part I don't really, get, I guess, is the last two words (SPOILERS), it came from such a left field it kind of confused me, with just how sudden they were. I'm not sure if it relates to the greater narrative as a whole but it really does just make me think about how complex this piece is, even if we can portray our trauma or memories with a piece of art, its not going to be how we relate to it in the future, or the past, its just a snapshot of the reflection of you at this moment. I'm really glad you made this piece, and thank you for the amount of time and effort you put into it, I hope you're able to relax now its finally out.
so when i first saw the track runtimes i joked "oh so it's 'Puppygirl at the end of NTS Sessions' eh" but then i listened and not only is it exactly that but it is so much more, and this might end up being my AOTY. and i'm currently in the middle of TECHDOG 5 as i write this.
Techdog is such an amazing experience. The first half or more of 7 I was not vibing with, and that's the only time I didn't like it. It was too empty, with almost nothing happening. It took me exactly three weeks to get through all 12 and a half hours of TECHDOG, and I can confirm it was well worth both the wait since the last album and the amount of time getting here. Thanks, patty!
i would like to congratulate you on this monolithic project, this is awesome and the most excited ive been for new music in a while. this will entertain me for a while. ty
I may have brushed this album off on release thinking it was mostly just a noise music album. I made a severe and continuous lapse in my judgement by not listening to this sooner, track 10 might be up in my favourites of all your works. (I sobbed/cried 3 times (Track 6/9/10 hit me), I am currently listening to the last song) From what I could gather of the meaning in tracks 6/10 you constructed (or interpreted) a narrative oh so well into these songs, while I may not be at a part of my personal journey to have felt like that. I am now slightly dreading if or when I will. This has been a very good listening experience though, and I am looking forward to the release of bicycle! Thanks aunt Patty :3
Track 11 didn't dissapoint either, a whirlwind of emotion all building up to something I think I need to sit on for a bit. You truly are a massive inspiration to me.
Part 1 had all the track length around 2 minutes, then 4, then 6, then 8, then 10, then 12, and for this one the track length increased for each track in an unspecified pattern from what I can see.
i don't exactly know how to feel. What sorta parasite am I by feeling secondhand guilt and vain though this experience when its your scream out into the void, and your reverberating words that latch onto us and pull us in, sit us down, and let us know. This experience stripped me raw and its bright insignia burned deep into every inch under my skin, and it looks and hurts so beautiful. I don't know where to go from here as nothingness remains, it all had happened and there's no visible road from here, save for the steps i took to get here. Maybe we were always moving. Just never knew where i went or how I am. Your body remains, but that person is gone.
mid-listen reply: this has been the hardest techdog to work through, but the most rewarding. i don't have the words to explain how. i just hit 1:52:46 and i find myself weeping without a clue as to why. i hope that whatever aching parts of your soul you bared in this magnificent journey are doing okay, because if the echoes of them you've captured here are any indication you've seen some _shit._
"Stop. Try again," hit me like a brick wall. Like the past twelve and a half hours, the entire day I dedicated to listening to the entire Techdog anthology, meant nothing. Like I didn't get it, I didn't do good enough, like just when I thought I was finally getting it, I was told all my effort was invalid. And yet, because of that feeling, I almost think I understand these albums better. The frustration of losing everything and having to start over, of not understanding why. It was such an abrupt and unexpected ending, and yet, I don't think I could think of anything more fitting.
I really hope this has been a catharsis for you to make. Of course this is mainly rhythmic and noise based, just like the first one, so I have less structural stuff to comment on. The subtext and meaning feels thicker than ever though. If it's alright to say, I'd been lowkey wondering if you were plural for a while now. Largely due to the recurring motif of various mascot characters in albums coming in pairs, but also after watching the Don't Hug Me I'm Scared video. The voicemail messages here and the text about trying to rediscover a part of you but you don't know if it's still around... that's defintely ringing true. Of course people say more metaphorical things abut their "inner child" all the time but with abuse it all too often becomes real.
I've got four hours of work to go. Let's do this. Thank you for the experiences so far, Patricia. I am eager to see what emotional journey this final piece will take me on. Edit: I spent ten minutes standing in a soft rain while listening to this album. I feel surprisingly peaceful. I am happy and hopeful. Edit: I am listening on RU-vid, so I do not have the track names on hand. The song I am guessing is called Bounce Back has made me cry more than any other song. The culmination of such overwhelming waves of emotion, an oceanic void of nothingness, when a shining beacon of sunlight pierces the nothingness to say "I've got this. I've suffered enough. I'm moving on. Come with me. We've got this."
Thank you for such a very grand expierence of an album. Thankyou for giving me many feelings & other sensations. You have helped me a lot. Thank you thank you thank you
Damn my prediction was "feeling empty." Knew this was going to be mostly drone/ambient though. This was an amazing project, and well worth the (honestly, quite short for something like this) wait.
thank you patricia i love you and your music very, very much and i will forever hold this close to my heart (i say this, while eating cheese puffs), arf!
7 technological dogs... dear god... how we shall survive the horde of the dogs that are technological? (btw, hey patty. i wish ya well! keep making what you love!)
This is awesome I tried going all in on listening to these. Mostly just for part 5 to 7. Not doing anything else during the listen and having the lights off(cause it's fitting for this). It's honestly quite the experience. I wasn't too impressed with the 1-4 at first. These have definitely gotten better as they gone along. Longer songs means more time to actually do shit cause almost every song on the first album felt like ended just when they started. I thought the production was great but I wanted a bit more. Something was missing. Was all this the big project Patricia had worked on? There were great songs in here but as a whole it felt a little standard for something that was supposed to be really big. Then that first inverted part dropped. Pretty out of the blue. I was intrigued. The previous parts got recontextualized. Now it made a bit more sense why you were gone for so long. I was expecting 4 black albums. She said on her Tumblr at some point after 5 or 6 that it was only gonna be 7 parts. I thought 4 white parts and 3 black parts with one obviously would be weird. I honestly thought the format you did go with was better than just doing the same thing again two more times. This final part was a great way of wrapping things up. I didn't really know what to think of that 4 hour length when this got uploaded. But I did it last night. I don't which liked more of 6 and 7 but this was something. Quite chilling. You managed to do a lot. There are a lot of things I don't quite know how to put into words. I just don't know what to say. That final track on part 6 is just unreal. This was never boring. You did great. This whole project could be considered your magnum opus. You actually spent so much time on all these 12 hours. You go puppy!
i don't think any words i can say can truly encompass how impressive this i, holy shit have you considered uploading the individual covers to the tracks on the techdog 1-7 bandcamp page?
I'm wondering if TECHDOG 1-7 is to be considered a single album, or a series of conceptually connected albums. I'm impressed with the sheer volume of this project and I can't wait to do a deep dive, but I know I will never be able to listen to them all in one sitting. Anyway, congratulations!
