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Ten Months on Testosterone (& Life Updates)!! 

Shard
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August 9th, 2020
In this video, I talk about some life updates, as well as emotional changes, bodily changes, and ~gender feels~ after TEN months on Testosterone!
Thank you for watching 😊
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In this video:
0:19 Quarantine sucks… I moved into a new house and started a new job, and my whole life is chaos.
1:00 Sleeeeepy
1:23 Socially exhausted
1:58 Are you feeling depressed and anxious during quarantine? Me too, yayyy.
2:58 I’ve been taking the injections for 4 months now, and the self-injection process has gotten WAY easier. I actually look forward to it.
3:57 ~Gender feels~: I no longer feel that the term “trans-masculine” describes my experience, because even though I’m not a woman, I also don’t feel particularly “masculine.” I still use the terms trans, non-binary, and genderqueer, and they/them pronouns.
5:59 Speaking voice is ~130 Hz, which is apparently in the “male” range. I can sing in a baritone range now, but the middle of my range is totally destroyed. Singing is a challenge.
8:01 Body and facial hair! My hairline continues to retreat as hair creeps onto the rest of my body.
9:33 More acne. Is it because I sweat outside for 45 hours a week while wearing a face mask? Could be. Also, leg pimples.
10:25 I can do pull-ups now! I’m getting swole. Well, except my pecs are weak as heck.
11:30 Like and subscribe?
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About my dosage:
I started doing intramuscular (IM) injections of testosterone cypionate in April. My dose is 50 mg/week (0.25 mL of 200 mg/mL).
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Recording and editing:
This video was recorded using a Canon EOS Rebel SL2, and edited in Blender 2.81.

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Комментарии : 17   
@911TheGhostBusters
@911TheGhostBusters 4 года назад
would really like to hear more about how your voice specifically singing is changing as that's something I'm worried about starting T. Singing is a really important part of my life. I relate to what you were saying about feeling like you can be more femininely expressive now that your body is more masculine without it necessarily making you feel dysphoric; I wanted to hear more afab non-binary people on T talk about that so I'm glad you have.
@shard2965
@shard2965 4 года назад
Hey Erian! Thanks for your comment ^_^ I was really worried about "losing" my singing voice, and it's definitely harder to sing while my voice is changing. I think the key is to just keep practicing every day, and testing your range! I guess I think of my voice on T like a piano where you're never certain which keys are working. I still know how to play the "piano," even as lower notes start to work and higher ones stop, but some days there are notes in the middle that work one day and don't work the next. I've heard from people that have been on T for longer that their voice eventually settles out, and it's easier to sing because your voice is more stable and your range is more continuous. But in the meantime, it's a game of trying to find the right octave to sing my favorite songs in. :)
@tonynathanlawes6234
@tonynathanlawes6234 3 года назад
Yes your voice has dropped from the last video i watched
@pamedinapamedina2493
@pamedinapamedina2493 4 года назад
I loved hearing about your journey. Thanks for posting
@shard2965
@shard2965 4 года назад
Hey Paloma! Thank you for your continued support and affirmation; sometimes I feel disconnected from the people I knew before I came out, and your comments always remind me that you and others in my communities are still there, and rooting for me
@radicalrealtor2118
@radicalrealtor2118 3 года назад
Just found your videos. Love them. I am in a parallel experience except I started it at 56 or 57 and I’m 59 I’m a few weeks. I have never done injections though. I still read female but am satisfied with the physical and emotional changes. Some adjustments in the process. You are so expressive and your experience unique.
@shard2965
@shard2965 3 года назад
Hey, thanks so much for stopping by and commenting.
@radicalrealtor2118
@radicalrealtor2118 3 года назад
@@shard2965 I would love to talk with you offline. Email me at : gail@gailfeldmanrealestate.com
@jackieralston6114
@jackieralston6114 4 года назад
You're so great! keep doing what makes you happy!
@shard2965
@shard2965 4 года назад
Thanks, Jackie! Sometimes it feels like being an explorer in uncharted waters. There aren't a lot of precedents for people like me, which means I have a lot of freedom to define my own identity! ^_^
@boxerbrust
@boxerbrust 3 года назад
Hi Shard, I really like your updates, you seem very sympathetic and I wish you all the best for your journey! A little advice I would like to give: Better avoid singing during your first years on T. I worked with a logopedist because my voice wasn't low enough for me after 1,5 years on T and was still cracking and she said I shouldn't put too much pressure an my voice during this change because it could cause damage. I should wait until my voice settle down. By pressure she meant loud shouting and singing.
@shard2965
@shard2965 3 года назад
Oh, thank you for the well wishes! Thanks for sharing your experience with singing and T. I'll definitely go easy on my voice, but continuing to practice feels like the right thing for me right now. Next year I'm hoping to take some singing lessons with an HRT-informed voice coach ^_^
@tonynathanlawes6234
@tonynathanlawes6234 3 года назад
Just keep being you...mental health is really important
@shard2965
@shard2965 3 года назад
Mental health is definitely a big focus in my life right now, going into 2021. If I can feel healthy in my mind and in my body, the other things in my life will fall into place (I hope..). Thanks for your comments, I really appreciate you and feel inspired to keep making videos because of folks like you, who I don't even know but are connecting and supporting me.
@audenderksen
@audenderksen 4 года назад
Nice to hear how you've been doing! Was top surgery something you've considered doing, if you haven't already? Hope you don't mind me asking 😌
@shard2965
@shard2965 4 года назад
Hey Zoey, that's a great question! Top surgery doesn't feel like a priority for me, maybe something that I don't want to do at all. I don't dislike my chest, but sometimes it feels like there's a social expectation to get top surgery since so many AFAB non-binary folx go that route - or a social standard that my body could never be read as androgynous or male while still having breasts. I'm not sure what I'll want in the future, but right now I'm happy with my chest. :)
@kathleentaylor8840
@kathleentaylor8840 3 года назад
Very cute girl on T. Stay a girl.
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