Yes you can bro, I’m sorry you’re struggling… but I do believe you can get through whatever it is that’s hurting you. I love you enough man it’s going to be ok I promise
Nihilism is inevitable, constant pain will be inflicted until the world crumbles to dust. We will all die out, and none of our efforts, or learning will stop it, we just need to let the world destroy itself, everything is finite. And we can't do anything about it, just let everything go as the world disappears into oblivion until oblivion crumbles as well. my pain is constant and sharp and i do not hope for a better world for anyone, in fact i want my pain to be inflicted on others, i want no one to escape, but even after admitting this there is no catharsis my punishment continues to elude me and i gain no deeper knowledge of myself, no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling, this confession has meant.... nothing.
The only part of me that is ineffable is my own understanding of myself, Even so, Time moves on, and it doesn't care. So I don't care anymore, I guess.
I care man. Don’t give up, don’t lose hope ok? I know I’m nothing more than a stranger, but I do care about you bro, if you ever need a set of ears or a shoulder to cry on bro, I’m here for you ok. I’m not gonna give up on you man. I care. You’re a good person deep down inside I know it.
I know you’re hurting bro, but it’s not over yet. In order to become better, you must endure suffering and pain first. Think of yourself as a sword, before it is a sword, it is just a heavy material that is burned and torched and beaten, until it becomes perfect, until it reaches its true form, which is a sword. You too will become a sword, the process is just a little painful. But I believe in you. Hang in there ok?
