The day I went blind *trigger warnings* 

And thank you so much! I really look forward to Sharing more of my stories and sharing my history to help others

You’re welcome! Thank you so much for watching!

Yes! I try to reach as many people as I can on all platforms! I’m so glad I could reach and help inspire you! Thank you so much for watching!

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Then I’m glad you did find this. And thank you so much for watching. Thank you so much for your words and your work in the field. Yes, I have been there. And that’s why I love to share my history in my story with others, to let them know it is real and they are not the only ones struggling. I don’t want people to struggle alone. Or at all. And thank you so much for sharing his story and his name. I will be sure to look him up because that also does sound very inspirational and amazing.

You're welcome, glad I could help

Thank you so much! I’m glad I can help, I’m glad I can inspire. I am so sorry if you’ve been in a similar place before. But I’m so glad that you are still here with us. And please feel free to ever reach out here or find me on Facebook if you’re ever there again Or need someone to confide in or any resources.

You’re very welcome. Thank you very much for watching. I hope I can be able to help someone. Yes, I always know that there is light. That’s why I live well and make good choices. And thank you. I also wish you the best

@@markehlert979 thank you Mark. Do u have instegram account. I would like to add you

@@light102000 no, I do not. I just have Facebook

I'm so glad I can be able to help you find your Hope! Thank you for watching. Here is another video that I think might be able to help you. There's two parts to this one ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-u-Ze-zm4m-o.htmlsi=ZtI9Q2xJJ-ZgAmdG

Thank you and yes I am. I just finished school to be working in mental health, as a peer recovery support specialist. This is my calling

I am so sorry for what you’re dealing with right now because I completely understand. It took me a while to come to grips with an accept my loss of vision. The first couple years I was in complete denial. I still just tried to go about life the same way I used to, but over the years excepted it because the way I was going about things was just perpetually mentally and emotionally damaging me farther making me struggle with daily living, as well as falling into pools, and downstairs etc. I finally linked up with department of rehabilitation and got some caseworkers to help me with mobility and some accessibility things. Been living on my own for a while now. And I would be happy for us to talk and for me to help you with any resources or just someone to confide in. You’re more than welcome to find me on Facebook if you would like so we can chat and not put so much personal things here on RU-vid. But not only working with department of rehabilitation helped, I excepted my mental illness and how much I was struggling with things mentally and emotionally rehabilitating; so I started going to therapy which is help me the most. Having someone to confide in, just being able to talk and feel heard. It helps a lot. I learned so much about myself just being able to be open and honest with a stranger. Therapy is the one thing that is help me grow the most

Please stay with us. Prayers coming your way!

@@markehlert979 do you mind if I chat with you on Facebook also. Thank you. You are inspirational

@@hippyable no, I don’t mind. You are welcome to find me on Facebook

@@hippyable so sorry it took me so long to reply. But yeah, I really don’t mind. Feel free to find me on Facebook and chat as well

I’m glad you can stay positive when things are rough. Glad I can inspire. Stay positive and stay up. Sending love back

Thank you so much! God bless you too! I’m so glad to be here and share my story also. Thank you so much for listening

I’m so sorry if you were also hurting and struggling for so long, but I am also so grateful to hear you were able to talk to someone and get the help you needed! So happy you can love and enjoy your amazing life!

Thank you. And me too. Which is why I’m so happy to be sharing my story, to let people know my judgment was very clouded and I did not want to go

Thank you so much! Because yes, I am important. And that’s why I’m sharing this so other people can know how important mental health awareness is and if they recognize the signs in them or anyone that it’s important to do something. Thank you so much for watching.. I do know that I am loved. I now love myself, and I hope you know how much you are loved

@@markehlert979 you are so kind. Thank you!! 💜

@@hillaryhonde8425 Hillary, thank you so much dear 💚 and you are so welcome!

Thank you so much. I’m really glad I can be able to help inspire. And I’m glad I can share my story to so I can try to help other people

And thank you so much brother!! This is something I’m very passionate about and will never stop doing! I’ve even been more actively engaged the last couple weeks; Doing public speaking. In March I gave 4 speeches, and I have another one booked next week! I’m so glad I can help share my history my experiences to help others, so they can recognize and relate to any of the struggles, can become aware, and grow as much as I have

Thank you so much for your love and for watching. Sending my love and best wishes back. I’m so glad whatever it was brought you to this. I’m glad I can be able to do anything to help.

But I can read these comments. My computer and phone reads everything to me out loud. Check out some of my previous videos about adaptive technology

Thanks for your consideration and for watching, but no, it is not an insensitive question. Because yes, I really did struggle with a lot of guilt and self blame. The first couple years of my vision loss I was in complete denial and did not want to accept my blindness because of the guilt that was attached to it. A lot of regret

@@markehlert979 how did you manage to overcome that? Because I have a similar situation, when I was a teenager I took an acne medication that my doctor told me was extremely safe and my parents also encouraged me to take it, I thought everything would be ok because I was taking blood tests and using a small dose, being followed by my doctor, etc. I was told that the side effects would be manageable and temporary and that it would be safe because of all the safety checks. But I still got a more rare side effect where it permanently damaged my vision and my internal organs/bones very badly. I wasn’t really warned that those side effects could happen and it happened very suddenly. Once it happened my doctor treated me horribly and gaslit me, saying it wasn’t possible and that I was making it up. Many years later I still have vision loss and so many health problems. So while it wasn’t a suicide attempt, I really regret the decision to put trust into my doctor to take this medicine because of the way it harmed me and I really wasn’t properly educated or expecting that to happen. A lot of people lose their vision due to antibiotics, birth control pills, and other medications. If it was for a life threatening condition I think I would have an easier time forgiving myself for it but because it was for acne (which isn’t dangerous) I end up blaming myself a lot. Do you any tips for me to stop blaming myself and feeling guilty? It’s been a few years but I am still struggling, I still feel like everything is my fault and I regret that I took the medication. In hindsight I know the doctor should have properly informed me but I also didn’t do enough research on it because I was so young and naive and my acne really upset me. And I thought it would be fine because everyone else I knew who took it was fine. I struggle with suicidal thoughts because of all the health problems I have.

@@francesgold6649 and I am so so sorry that this is something that you are struggling with. But I completely understand your frustration and anger. My heart goes out to you. And I am so so sorry you are having suicidal ideaAsians. But I want you to know it’s not something that’s going to help fix or solve your problems. Remember that emotional response due to your frustration which is warranted. but remember it’s the emotional part of your mind and you want to come back to use your rational part and remember that you don’t want to leave. Me and so many people love you and want you to be here. We don’t want you struggling like this. Anytime you’re feeling suicidal, please reach out and come in here and I can help talk you out of it or help give you some resources. I’m happy to help you with anything that I can. I don’t want you to be struggling. Some of the things that help me I’ve learned through therapy is grounding techniques that help me come back to reality to use my rational mind and not emotional. I do things that bring me joy, self-care, as well as speak to someone. But the best thing to learn how to forgive yourself, it’s called cdt. Cognitive distortion therapy. We have to remember that we cannot change the past. Focusing on it will only perpetuate that emotional distress and that thing that we can’t change. we physically can’t change it, and it’s not our fault. Because like you said, you put your trust in the doctors. You were not a medically educated person. You have doctors to help you with these things. Putting your trust in them and they failed so it’s disappointing to you perpetuating this already emotional distress. So again please don’t be blaming yourself. it’s best for us to learn how to focus on the things we can change and can control. That’s when I started rehabilitating myself to know and learn how to function like this because it’s my reality. I put my focus into things that will help me and not further damage me. let me know anything I can do to help, with mental health resources, or resources to help you rehabilitate yourself mentally and emotionally with your loss of vision

Occasionally I’m a little hopeful, but it’s not something I expect. I’ve excepted my vision loss. And especially in cases like mine with people with damaged optic nerves, I really don’t see it probably being some thing reversible in my lifetime. There’s too many red loops of bureaucracy in the medical system for them to approve stem cell research to make developments in neurology

@@markehlert979 idk If your religious or not but one day that will change myfriend, I'm sorry for what you gone threw, hope you do good in life

@@TheFlamerWolf yes, I do have a lot of faith and that’s one thing that helps keep me going. And I do believe change will come. But thank you, because I am doing good things and I’m very happy with where I am. I use my experiences to help others. I get out regularly to do public speaking on the topic to try to help save lives

@@markehlert979 God kept you alive for a reason, We all must be there for one another good talking with you man, I will make sure to check on you

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I used to feel the same way. I thought nobody cared. But the more I started opening up and talking to the people around me, I really did find out and discover that people really do care. You’re free to talk to me about your problems if you need to. Somebody does care

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Have been in a really bad place lately and even started making plans about ending my life for the 4th time. Just a few seconds later I found this video 😊

@@elinnanalan yes, today is the 18 year anniversary. And I am so glad that you did find this and that you are still here with us! I’m so glad that it was just a plan and some thing you didn’t follow through with. Because it’s normal for people like ourselves when we’re in such a low place to have ideas that give us hope, but that’s a form of mania and psychosis because we’re in such a low place it’s easy to think of bad ideas to give us that hope. I’m so glad you’re still here with us today! Please reach out if you ever need anything