The First Time I Tried Meth 

I shot meth for 10 yrs. It was crazy!!!! I'm sober 4.5yrs now♡

A lot of people get introduced to methamphetamine the same way that you did meeting random people either online to hook up with or say at a bar. It's extra grimy because it reinforces itself through deception. It makes that 2nd life you're trying to hide from everyone that much more alluring and enticing. I started using meth in 2000 and went to treatment for the 1st time in 2010 and I have 34 months sober. Thanks for your story brother God-bless

I legitimately just stopped I have no idea how I did that but thank God

I watch this video maybe 3-4 times a year to remind myself that making bad choices doesn’t make you a bad person, thank you for speaking candidly about your experiences

Thank you for sharing Leo, my daughter is only 17 and is struggling with this addiction. So hearing and understanding is helpful. I believe she suffers from borderline personality disorder and depression. So I think that's why she loves it so much.

I believe you’ve saved some lives by posting this video. Well done, and thank you ❤️

I was diagnosed BPD 20 years ago and went through many, many therapists. My last therapist recommended I read The Road Less Traveled and that book completely changed my life and I cured me from my illness.

First off... you have the most amazing beautiful eyes, secondly an awesome smile. It’s very inspiring to hear the truth told about ones experiences, WITHOUT shame, ITV was what it was. With borderline personality, are we very accepting of people, people that have a hidden agenda? Did alcohol really throw your logic out the window? I’ve always accepted people for who they said they were, and never could comprehend why a person would want to lie otherwise. I’m also one of those people that took me a few years, in my early 50’s to comprehend that there are people that will use other people to get what they want, regardless of the pain it will bring into me. That was one of the hardest lessons in my life. Using people and having no respect for other people’s lives. I also had issues with sex, anxiety, etc.. but I so badly wanted to feel loved... hence routine visits to the bath houses...to find intimacy without judgement. Thank you so much for sharing. Times like now are very personal and healing in the gay community today. In the 80’s during AIDS, etc. so much harsh judgment and hate to the gay community. Now we have open dialogue and support among other guys without the shame. Thank you again!! 🤗

"extreme meditation is a weird alternative to meth." - anonymous

Yoo he said I smoked weed before.... like no bro that aint nuthin on this shit. 😂😂😂

it felt like anxiety disappeared and like it was never there in my life to begin with. i felt like a brand new person, the best version of me that i could ever be. it felt like all the walls were broken down and i could connect with everything in a way that only a god could do, all the while being completley lucid and calm. it was nuts.

i relate to you a lot. i went through a bad break in a relationship in which my impulsivity led me to almost fatally harm myself. thankfully i snapped out of it and got help right away, i was diagnosed in the ER based on my medical records and examinations. i did molly recently and though the effects of the high were different i got the same feelings of weight being lifted i wasn’t anxious i wasn’t repressing my emotions and i did it for three days in a row. i had heard its really bad for your brain, people get Serotonin Syndrome but i didnt think about that extensively. i just kept telling myself “i probably have to use a lot for a long time”, “it only happens to a few people” .. we hear you. we feel you

Great vid I could relate in so many ways 🦦🐻🌈 have been sober with my bear an things have been a lot better.. he and myself have some relative health/mental health issues as well..finally being able to quit helped us so much , great to hear your experience

I did meth over the course of 3 months in Lompoc California. Last year going into January of this year. I did it cause my girlfriend wanted to do it with me. I was adamant about the dangers of it but she didn’t care. Ended up doing it a total of maybe 12 times (usually for 3 days at a time) She wanted to keep doing it, but I was like fuck no. And that made her very sad. Anywho, most of my personal experiences with it were good, except the feeling of razor blades coming out of my skin with my sweat when coming down. Not fun. But she had horrible negative reactions when coming down. Anyway, I finally got out of that place, and never want to do meth again. However, sometimes I do randomly get a craving for it out of nowhere. But it’s not hard to let it go. Wasn’t hard for me to stop, at all, and I never experienced the feelings of addiction. Thank god.

Thank you for being so open about this because I know the level of stigma is so intense.

I fell into the dark rabbit hole of meth. I was a parTy guy. I tried so hard to stop but i kept craving it. I was screaming for help but I was scared how my family would react to me doing that stuff and being thrown to rehab. I was scared and always cried alone scared to talk to anyone about it. As of 2023, I am Sober, while the cravings stopped at least until this July I was going through grief from a loss + recently being diagnosed with BPD, and hearing how it explained so much about me. I used to battle a lot of cravings and it was a nightmare. Now I just … don't feel anything for that stuff anymore and I can finally fucking breathe.

I’m doing an essay on drug addiction and it’s so interesting

As a fellow who works in a low barrier homeless shelter, wow. Great video friend. Very well done

My experience was similar in that I used Grindr while drinking, met up with an old crush. In all our texting, he said over and over that they were using drugs. I was drunk so the words just went right over me, I just wanted to see him and not be lonely. I smoked meth and was incredibly intoxicated on alcohol 4 days ago. I had to go to the ER because when I started to come down from everything, it was the worst anxiety of my life. I never, ever want to go through this again. I never in a million years thought I would come across this drug, much less take it.

My first experience was quite random - I was travelling, on grindr in San Francisco and a guy I met up with smoked it. I'd vibed with him. I was 23, and I'd only even smoked weed for the first time a week before, and honestly I've always just been curious about different drugs, so I took a hit. That experience was exactly as you described. Anxiety totally disappeared, depression too. I felt "whole" in a way I had never done before. That experience was the first time I took seriously the idea I might have ADHD in fact, since I was experiencing a level of focus which I had clearly never had before, and in fact challenged the idea that I ever typically had focus. I found your channel since wanting to learn more about BPD, and I'm also not sure if I have that but I am finding some relateability with others' experiences, symptoms and the causes of it. Thanks for filming this video. To answer your question, how do I stop myself doing it again? Well, I have done it a few times since then. The comedown (especially that first) was so bad that keeps me from following the impulse, since my system is fragile at the best of times and it just doesn't feel healthy, and I am in general afraid of damaging my body. But it takes a little effort too. I have still not found lasting help with my depression, anxiety and lack of focus, and stimulants are always a tempting short term fix.

Started at 35 (had NEVER touched ANY hard drugs before that). I pretty much just wanted to be able to connect to this nightmare I was dating. She introduced me to it and I hate her for it, even tho I recognize I made the choice and I was an adult. She didn’t give a single f*ck what people thought and that appealed to me, since I had always been painfully shy and depressed. It gave me confidence at a level I never even came close to before that. As far as how I stopped… I haven’t stopped technically 100% (relapses, even if rare, are pretty standard once you’ve tried it). My last clean stretch was a year and four months and then I went and f*cked it all up and threw my sobriety right out the proverbial window. I can’t say “the reason I stopped” but I can say why I go as long as possible without using, as well as not surrounding myself with those in active addiction. And that reason is because I’m terrified of getting old and meth, as we all know, speeds that shit right along. Great video, thanks for sharing. I’m glad you never want to use again. Good on you!

Omg dude I just love you! I wish I knew you in real life you seen so cool I loved this video when you told the story I felt like I was right there with ya thanks

This is helping so many people... Your story is soooo similar to my own it's crazy. I have Bipolar 1 and PTSD. I posted a video explaining my first experience with mania and all that shit. This is awesome 😎 hope you're doing well man 🤟🏾🤟🏾💜

Thanks so much for this story. I had a similar situation - never did ANY drugs at all, met someone, brought him back to my apartment and he had meth. He brought meth which i was not aware of and asked me to try and i said what the heck. I regret it so much. and will never touch it again and especially will NEVER allow it in my home again. Here is my question - he had smoked in my bathroom and in the bedroom. Now i am finding trace elements of it all over the place. I have a small 1-bedroom in NYC so it got in the kitchen, living room, bathroom, etc... Again, i so regret it but now i need to figure out how to clean everything. It's this film that got on stuff - any suggestions on how to clean this off the walls, appliances, leather couch, etc...?

Thank you for making this video. I have used on and off for 15 years. Currently off and this video helps.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience.

Thank you for sharing this! My son was recently diagnosed with BPD and he tried meth because his girlfriend loved it. They were the most toxic couple I have ever seen. It ended in him stealing from his gdad $8k in gold coins them going out and spending the majority of that money in 3 days they got in a fight while high and having meth on him he called the cops! They were both arrested and now he is in a recovery home after I told him sorry but you can’t live here and took him to a homeless shelter. Was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I’m HOPEFUL but still very worried he will relapse because like you said the stats are terrible!

Listened to this story several times. Compelling story man. You are awesome

You are so brave and helpful by telling us that you suffer from BPD. I have it also. Normal people have ups and downs. My ups and downs seem so dramatic. Thank you for your candor. All the best.

so relatable!!!! i'm so proud of you that you chose to never look back and just pulled yourself together and walked away... it will always be question to me why people do meth again after having those bad bad comedowns. and it will happen again after sleepless nights when you eat no food and drink no water and can't sleep. i did meth without knowing that i was actually doing meth. i was wasted that night and in london from very small village in europe where thing as meth doesn't exist. i didn't know such a thing. just like you i never used to have much sex and looked to myself more artsist sexual object but i have to admit that chemsex changed forever. i'm walking to my therapy now and trying to discuss things with myself.. tina has never made me truly happy but damaged me a lot. and still i have those cravings for that high sex etc.. probably it's most importantly to understand that mental health is more important than fake sex. love you.

I’m bpd. After a painful breakup, I found myself with a meth addict for about 5 months, this was 2019, I stayed at his place about 3 months for work convenience. He was/ (is still) addicted to meth for over 5 years now..I’ve been choked, hit and insulted, also scammed by him, and he always tells me I’m crazy.. he encourages me to kill myself. When I left, we spoke a little bit, he offered me to commit suicide together with him. I know my story is off topic, I never did meth, even though I was with him sometimes when him and his sister does it. They offered me once, I was tempted but somehow I said no.. I was no saint though, I started smoking cigarettes and weed, I drink compulsively.. plus I was bulimic. I left when he told me he probably gave me Aids/STD. Luckily I dodged a bullet. But sadly, I tried to kill myself last year from all the abuse (and family problems), but I was dropped off at the emergency and survived. I’m happy now, I’m working on myself little by little, but I can never forget what hell it was to live with a meth addict..

My experience was the same as yours actually. And it was the absolute hardest thing I have ever stopped doing.

Great video, I’m so glad you’re safe. 🙏❤️

I dated a girl with borderline. She acted at times like she was on drugs like meth or something. I never caught her using drugs and she was always extremely anti drug. I really think it actually was just her disorder which caused her to act so erratically, violently, screaming, cursing, hallucinating. Her teeth at some point looked like they we’re starting to rot and that made me wonder if she could have been using. Three molars were black with holes and the rest of her teeth had turned a weird discolored yellow white color. They never looked like that before. She only had one cavity before that. I just never could believe someone as anti drug as her would or could ever use meth. I had a drug addiction ten years ago and she would always tell me if I used any drug at all even weed that she’d leave me in an instant. The more the relationship progressed the less she trusted me. She at one point when we lived together she was always paranoid that I was using drugs. She’d go through all my things looking for drugs. She once found needle heads used for popping pimples and stuff and was convinced I was injecting drugs. Even though there were no syringes. I was like babe you need a syringe to inject a drug not just a needle. I never used any drugs while we were together. Except what was prescribed by my doctor.

thank you for this educational information, its good to speak of it to raise awareness to prevent not knowing being the reason why you do a very bad drug. its easy to reason that if someone else does something to do the same.

Oh, and the biggest problem for me, personally, is I have completely lost my “lust for life” because of this shitty substance. I haven’t been able to experience any pleasure, joy, or motivation since I started in 2015 (without being drugged up). Even after only having used over the course of a year (off and on), and then a few relapses (or choices I should say, I STILL suffer from anhedonia and swear I feel like it’s never gonna end. PLEASE READ MY COMMENT, especially those of you who have never tried it. I hope this helps someone out there.

I was on meth for 6 years. I got on it because a girl I was seeing wanted to try it. Like you, I loved it. The way I quit was I literally had to move to another state and completely cut off all of my meth friends. It sucked but it was that or a coffin. That's great that you were able to quit. Keep your head up.

Your not alone at all. More people should get together and share their experiences. I bet there would be a ton of similar stories out there.

I tried it because my bf relapsed on it. Went around old friends still on it. We said we'd never do it again. 2 weeks later he found another friend still on it. For two weekends he'd go over there and then one weekend while I was dissoing I went with him to get it. We brought it home...that is when it was game over. I over stimmed on it and for two days thought I was going to die. Sweats, anxiety, couldn't sleep, body felt hot and I was losing feeling and warmth in my toes. I won't lie I tried to redose and it made things worse. I was seeing weird things. Almost like a horror acid trip is the only way I can describe it. I tried to flush my body and eat foods and take supplements/vitamins because I felt like my body was trying to shut down, or like I was about to have a heart attack. He continued to binge and it eventually caused him to go into psychosis. Where I was harmed and feared for my life. I called the cops and the next two days had to plan to move out of state because I had nowhere to go. The feeling of death was alone to make me never want to try it again but going through abuse from someone I loved very much while on meth just made me never want to go around that fucking shit ever again. It ruins people's lives.

My little brother is hooked on meth and idk how to help him, he sits around in his boxers and uses all day. He doesnt eat, sleep, or talk to anybody 😢

I’m borderline too, and have tried lots of drugs including meth.

Wow, i tried meth for the first/last time a month ago, I have BPD and this is such an honest video, i relate to so much. Thanks for Sharing.

I don´t know if this helps, because i havent actually tried meth. However I can definitely understand caving at one point. Being drunk and sad makes you unable to think about the true consequences, it makes you ignore those. I have taken random drugs while drunk before especially while getting into depression, it´s because i had this mentality that nothing was going to help anyway and you would do anything to feel better. Don´t feel bad about it cause you definitely arent alone as there is a whole epidemic around meth, and feel proud for getting over the comedown - I can't even imagine how bad that must be. Feel good about not having done meth again! I by the way could totally relate to the feeling you described (although with me it wasnt that intense ofcourse as meth is stronger) from the time I did dex (meth and dex have similar effects). I didnt use alot but the comedown of that was pretty bad as well. That night was the best night of my life lmao

Hang tough Leo......good info and remember.....the more you know.....the less you dont. Take Care brother. Big Greg

You are so lucky... as an ex addict about 25years off everything, I have seen so many end up in hospitals and die. Harsh but that's the reality of drugs isn't it. Much love to you, there's so much pressure on LGBT people, I used to hate the haters (speaking as hetrosexual male here)...and tried to stop their abuse/negativity at times when I was younger.

I really appreciate your video and story, it's crazy how insidious things can be. I'm 24 years sober off alcohol and 53yo... I've had friends that were addicted and they still can't get off it. And as crazy as it sounds, I found a porn studio company that pretty much features people using and getting tricked into using. I couldn't stop watching that and then while I'm a lonely guy I started being invited to groups on Grindr. They inviting me, but I couldn't come over unless I promised to do it too, they said if I was nervous they can inject me with things to relax me to use the meth next, and then being told it would only last an hour and isn't at all addictive. It may have been one of the hardest things I've had to avoid twice now. Hearing stories of how horrible it is how it ruins your life always helping me to avoid joining in and I appreciate everyone's story.

Thank you for sharing Leo. Well done stopping :)

Huggies! Stay strong.. Thanks for sharing your experience...

I'm borderline personality as well very impulsive and I'm trying to get sober off of Meth anyways any help would be greatly appreciated that's where I live I can take almost two years to get into a rehab getting anything and with the pandemic every NAA thing has been shut down

Thank you for your honest story! I'm definitely never gonna try meth!

Ok so i just tried it earlier today. Feeling powerful. Got a lot of work done. Teeth grinding stuff. Probably wont do it more than once a year or so like coke & speed. How bads the comedown?

I did this for the first time I need help do I just meditate I wish I hadn't

My ex boyfriend beat me because of meth. Now I'm to look for another guy who won't me. I could never use meth.

I quit 4 days ago. I tried it off and on for 3 weeks. I don't see the hype of meth but then most stimulants or pills don't get me as high as others. Downers. Weed do. But coke was the same I never had cravings. I personally tried it because of a guy I was seeing. But it effects me different. Because I have adhd...I never get hella unnatural, world shaking high. Just a little with a lot of focus. It did teach me, I need natural stimulants until I can go to a doctor and get back on Adderall after 18 years. I stopped at 12 (took Adderall fro. 5 to 12).

It's like looking into a mirror I went through litterally the exact upbringing and very similar reason to why I wanted to try it I have adhd so I have a very long story that you may relate to and enjoy. Like or comment so I know to begin writing it. Theres a lot of variables as to why I decided to try it and how I ingested it. I've been clean for about 2 years now and I'm 20. I've honestly been haunted ever since I get flashbacks almost everyday just very vivid images in my mind it used to cause so much anxiety, pain, and self hate but now when I get them I don't have any emotion attached that's when I turn the page and look back to see how far I've come. When I finally came down the whole universe came crashing down it was like the world was ending for me I couldn't stop crying shaking after I while I felt no emotion and that scared me the most.

I just got diagnosed with BPD 6 weeks ago. I'm a 42 year old professional male and 100% gay. My BPD has caused a lot of problems for me with jobs and relationships. My current partner and I have been together for 6 years, but we have been having a lot of problems lately because of addiction.

You’ve got a good voice. You can be a fine voice actor.

I tried it just once. And I think I got really really lucky.... For one thing, I'm almost certain it wasn't that pure...had to be fairly cut. Second, I didn't inhale that much...didn't get enough in my system. SO.....the experience was so so. Yet I stayed awake for 60 hours straight. I got the downsides...without much upside. So it turned me off to it. Thankfully...

I wish they did more studies with people who have Been diagnosed with BPD and crystal meth…it’s truly crazy. I am a borderline and was a “functioning” meth addict for 5 years and not one person ever knew other than my dealer. Not one. It was the only drug that made me function like a normal human being-that is, until eventually it stopped working how I wanted it to. It was my greatest love and worst heartache. For real.

You express yourself very well.

Thank you for your short story. Take care . 😃😃😃

I am so curious and would like to give it a try ... but on the other side I shouldn´t do it...

Fellow borderline here, pal. I hope you've become self aware enough to control it before I did. I was in my 30s before I got a grip. *Edit: I'm pansexual. Is it more common in BPD to have a more "open" mind sexually?

As a gay man with BPD, I have to commend you for your honesty since meth has such a huge stigma attached to it. I have been addicted to meth for over ten years. I started using it after my grandmother passed away because, like you said, it stripped away all the anxiety and depression I was experiencing and made me feel amazing. The longer I used, I started to lose weight (always was on the heavy side) which in turn made more gay boys objectify me and it all began to spiral. I have been to treatment twice and unfortunately, its a real hard one to shake and am still in active addiction. I have become a "functional meth addict" if there is such a thing, but I hold a job, I have responsibilities and I do my best to do good at both. Sometimes I do, sometimes I dont, but for the most past, as long as I sleep, take care of my body and show up, life isnt so chaotic.

Meth makes you LOVE and welcome sewer and smog. That is why it's so addictive.

With all that is known, documented&shown (real life footage ,etc) I can honestly say this stuff scares the crap out of me, I just can't understand how the hell ANYONE,who has read ,seen, watched or witnessed the affects could ever think "that looks like fun" &then try it .I mean I get how ppl get addicted to opiates but meth? No way.

Thank you for sharing your story. My sister is on meth.... She I believe has personality disorder. 😢 How can I help her?

I bought .1 of meth once for like 10 bucks and It lasted me a week. doing it every day until it was gone, and it was only .1, an extremely small amount will get you high for hours. I didn't do it anymore after that.

I tried it, only snorted about less than a gram, come down wasn’t strong, but definitely not doing it again.

Thank you for sharing my story💔

Good on you Leo and God Bless x

Not sure how far away you are removed from this video, but for some reason I decided to look into the highs given from meth. Just one of those random moments when you think about the highs and lows of drugs (and Breaking Bad's really weak portrayal of the drug imo). I don't do any drugs beyond the average glass of wine or two a night, but got curious about my younger days. I loved clubbing and remembered some great quality speed/amphetamine. The highs were very high, and the lows were equally excessive, and the reason I haven't touched drugs since. This was very interesting tbh, and what I could imagine meth to be like. It's described as speed/amphetamine on a whole other cranked up to 11. That's what piques my interest, but also scares the shit out of me. I'll just concentrate on those come-downs. Those scared the shit out of me.

Your experience(s) on meth are very common. Meth will dissolve a person's inhibitions and push thier sex drive into EXTREME overdrive. In my case meth takes about two weeks of "feel good" and dumps it all at once. I'm currently trying to achieve 3 weeks of sobriety and I must say the the cravings are completely crippling.

Just tried it. Yesterday. I have bi-polar disorder. Also, I smoked a lot of it, unknowingly to me at the time, should have researched the dose. Couldn't sleep last night, even tho the horrible comedown already passed, now I just feel tired as shit. Might drink a shit ton of soda for the caffeine, idk tho.

I have never done anything for ice but I know I have seen like maggots in my bathroom and they weren't there the first time I tried meth. Also I believe it's mind over matter because I do it still once in a while and I really don't need it. I can go long periods of time without it with no problems. I will pray for you sweetie. Good luck finding your answers 😊

Break up only and this dramatic... if you people were me and got to undergo what I've been through since as long as I remember you'd know what real hopelessness is attempting suicides (my autobiography is in progress now actually that I dream to publish, hopefully, proud to say I survived and stayed optimistic...). I too have many personality and mental, severe as my psychiatrist say even, still no excuse to trouble myself. Please play life wise as it is not worth it, and you're worth all the happiness which you find by simply being good and sharing goodness and be satisfied with what you have knowing there'll always be people living worse yet they're smarter and stronger, so we should be grateful and remember it is about building yourself not finding it... I wish I knew this before I turned 25

So I tried meth a couple days ago, I was at work and couldn’t get acid because one of my dealers was off Xanax and wasn’t answering his phone and the other was literally too lazy to come and serve me. So I was taking out the trash with my friend and I had no intentions of trying meth but I asked him “hey bro do you still do dope” he stops moving, looks at me and it felt like an eternity but was probably a few seconds and asks me “why you ask” I said “just curious” and he said yeah, and I was like “have you ever went to work on meth”. He looks at me for a while again and says “right now”. Thinking of it he probably said it as a question more of a response and he probably only told me because he thought I already knew but I didn’t. And I was like “damn for real?” And he said yeah. After work I was mad I couldn’t get acid and my stopping point of drugs was weed molly acid and shrooms, the non addictive ones, I didn’t like benzos or opioids and I knew I’d probably like them if I tried them again but I asked him after work if I could buy some and he asked if I had money on me, I had 35$ so I gave him 30 and he poured about a .15 in there and said with his bowling ball eyes “bro I care about you a lot and I don’t wanna do this but I really need money right now but please don’t get hooked on this stuff and don’t tell anyone I do this stuff please” I ensured him I won’t get hooked with the most Sincerity I’ve probably ever had in my life to anyone and literally pinkie promised him I won’t. And so I started with a Little Rock he told me to do when I asked him how much should I do, I did it, it was honestly probably a .04 rock, I didn’t feel anything after an hour, the only thing that was happening was I was really focused on games and doing really good. So I did the rest and 20 minutes later my head was BUZZING and then I started feeling such a pleasant tingling in my body. So I tried to get hard for 1 1/2 hours with no result so I played games for probably 6 hours through the night and then tried to get hard again and found a method on how to get hard on it (my cock was really small on it so I put my middle finger on the very bottom and pointer fingers right below the head and stroked very slowly and Sensationally and then got hard 30 minutes later) and I was watching porn replaying the same video over and over because it was just so amazing, I didn’t know why I liked the video so much but it was like there were parts of the video I would never Acknowledge or see sober but I couldn’t tell what it was either. It was so great nothing mattered at all other than this porn video I was watching. When I got to work later that day (I didn’t sleep which is actually good because I need to fix my sleeping schedule) my friend thought I’d be coming down so he brought me a little more, I wasn’t coming down at all, I still felt great. But I started coming down an hour before my shift ended but I still didn’t do the stuff he brought to me. When I got home I started feeling the tingling and buzzing around my body once I relaxed, and later around 4 am I was still high (I took it 29 hours ago at this point) but only in my legs and I started hearing people walk down the hallway and I was getting tracers and whenever I stared at something for too long things started looking Alienated, and I somehow randomly fell asleep and woke up perfectly normal the next day. (My friend has my drug test kit and told me before I even mentioning buying it that it tested for meth with my drug test kit)

I tried it ended up in the ER that night now my heart wants to explode after 3 days of it wearing off I'm not sure if it's going to stop tbh wish me luck

Im borderline too... And yes with the impulsivity.

Where you in medications while you tried it?

Hey I just watched this video sitting in the living room of my sober house. I'd love to tell you my story if you want to hear it. I know that this is an older video but still would like to tell you. Not completely sure how to get a private message to you,

smoking or shooting meth is a terrible idea. oral meth is no different to adderall.

The recent bad decisions made encourages the next set of decisions..The first & last time I tried it, I was on xanax so I just didn’t care. I was so depressed I even touch such a downgrade 💔 definitely regret having sex with someone I didn’t know too. I feel like I shook hands with devil, I’m glad I’m not addicted

you have really good teeth and seem like a cool dude

I cannot see myself ever using Meth. But, I could see myself using _shrooms_ sometime, if I really get depressed.

I almost cried at the start of the vid bc im 16 im not borderline but im bipolar and i did meth with my best friend who is clean now btw and it was the worst experience of my life

Never had any desire to try any drugs. I guess because I knew too many people messed up on drugs.

I felt so different and not normal. But I can really relate to your experience. Horrible drug

I had a relationship with one man who blew meth into my mouth. I hated the feeling. I had anxiety and it was horrible. He became very aggressive once he smoked meth.

I’m so scared. My ex who I’m still deeply in love with, told me he did meth for the first time last night and really liked it. I’m so worried 😓

I‘m from Austria (not Australia) & meth comes a lot from czech republic but this sexual meth szene is not even a thing over there we just take it to make party 3 to 5 days

I never got addicted ,used it 5 times sporadically, never had a dealer for it and i like heroin more than meth or coke, inwas sapposed to stop heroin completely when new years came around but ive been using every 4-5 days vs everyday since corona started(i detoxed about 20+ times but didn't plan on quitting completely till corona was gone and we were free to do what we want, but i was sukked in and no longer in control (thought i was in control the whole time), i get that sporadic (feind rush) which makes me call my dealer i deleted his number but remember the first 6 digits which is enough to bring his full number on my dialpad, i picked up some methadone today and plan on taking that next time i feel like using dope. Ive been using it for 4 years now bit the first year was like once a month or once every 2 months.

I was wanting to try it just for curiosity but now that’s I hear your story I don’t want to anymore..

I’m queer, and I became addicted to meth the summer after law school in eerily similar circumstances. I was essentially tricked into thinking it was cocaine, and once it was in my system, the two guys started taking off my clothes… consent had no meaning at that point. I spent the next 7 years practicing law as a meth addict before I attempted suicide in December 2020. At the hospital following my attempt, I was formally diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, bulimia and complex post-traumatic stress disorder. I then went to rehab for 7 months, and I’ve been clean since. I only wish I had been diagnosed with BPD much earlier in life… I could have received care earlier, which may have prevented me from becoming an addict.

I really would like to talk to you personally do you have an email or anything??

The dopamine rush is at 120 & food or sex are 4 & 10 so it's very hard to quit if not impossible for 98% of em

The night shift got me. screw meth that was scary but enough is enough

I had meth for the first time & had a psychotic episode for around 8 hours. Intense hallucinations.. luckily I didn’t panic. But it was pretty bad at times. I just couldn’t break out of it. 8 hours of hallucinations with maybe 3 second break now & then.

Seriously, sounds awesome…, have to try it😢

Hey brother to me when I got hooked on meth I was already a drug user and I was tired of smoking weed and was going through a depression and was surrounded by people that only did drugs at that time a friend of mine offered to me and it was my first Upper substance so when I tried I was completely in love with it, it was the passion you feel when you are a kid and you are in love with someone, it took grasp of me without I even realizing till things got out of control. The reason I quit it was because I moved to a placer where I could not get it, so I was forced to quit and happened to start doing every drug I could find so I can fill the hole that meth left but ended up quitting drugs altogether because I saw what I was becoming spent a year sober and now I just used a specific types of drugs in special moments. There is more to drugs that what we are taught, drugs are tools to take your consciousness to different realms.