Yeah, I have a bit of a difficult time to control my negative thinking about my art, its part of me personality really. Recently its my lack of memory in general, I always had a difficult time remembering things, like paths and words and that lack of confidence is holding me back and it extends to my art. I always wanted to draw mostly from imagination and use references after my explorarions and not before, but as I have a terrible visual library and cant really visualize in my head, whenever Im drawing I put myselft down because I know artists that have a pretty amazing memory and Im always comparing myself. I think for me my lack of confidence is what makes it diffcult to kill my darlings because I dont believe that I can improve upon and or scared of the results if I keep going. How does one get past this? Well, it will take s long time with a lot of inner struggle, but Im trying ahah
To be honest, I have a hard time creating anything from my head without anything also. It's okay to lean on references and inspiration to fuel your creativity. Learning to let go is really hard at first, but it gets easier with time. The important thing is to just keep at it!
