I am so unhappy that this year will not return spending it in misery and being all alone... Listening to book and imaging characters I can never ever be with. Spent entire childhood believing that this is real and quite possible it will be heavens on earth instead of promise got dissapointmend misery as an advanced treatment with dis tanning and masking. Genes never were fun them for me at all since procreation is topic I still stuck onto. Not having even real girlfriend in this life t come to procreation process and lung life fulfilled. Living like a scum of the earth alone and unprotected, doping construction works with father, living poor without friends and friendship's that are meaninful. Depraved from droaming because this texts dies nit bring me slept on my eyes instead they bring ti me only a vast restlessness... since nit hung is real as of in ral life of deceptions and stealing of everything and everyone's idea and properity if it is not guarded well. This is not living anymore... Have to live lije the fucking sick patient and dreaming days of past... WheRe everything and everyone have been in some order while this is not it at all. It is rather a prison without bars... job, work sleep eat drink take a bath go to toiket and die. There are no adventure's inthis life at all only struggles, stresses and sufferings like capital punishment for everything. Fuck this wold and everything in it. It was lost even then because they knew that there is no escape fom.reality they are creating for us... Books like this and original are intentional writer's idea to interfere with reality and warn us about what is to come. It is about that it's merit that got bravery to speak and write even publish nobody thought so about in nineties, just theyvelines whom live and their researchers which make shit like pandemicor better to say plandemic happen. It is real devastation on individual toughtlessnesso process all of that.social media posts and rat race whowill be better and bigger and vigorous because that is.better term than smarter, people are everything just not good as they used to be or got hidden agenda so it could not be transparent for what really represent themselves. My life is gone for faith and some hope with aspiration toward fantasy to become real, get ti be free from slavery of day n anf day out living this doing time raher than ture living that us compasionate on each segment and every aspect of it, but it never ever happened. Dinosaurs man be fabricated to supper theory of evilution and rat we are all from some ape that came from branch of treetop to the ground with preposterous idea to stand on back arms instead on all foursides later on invent fire, weapons, hunting and communities that habe to propell its advancement into bright distanced, masked, cinsiderd for good undr imposong of indoctrination surveillance future... Maybe they were here and as the best of them all mighty as the are have not changed does not needed urge to because air what denser and water purer both on unimaginable level yet temptation comes and they could not prevail unadaptabe and capable for manipulation like we human animals. Does not matter anything at all. What matters is tha suffering is real as death as finite also passing of time... Even trillions of videos and audios, recomndations, comerciala, tags , links could not be capable of returning this piecentury of good old days back to life. Technology is very evil tool and can be good servant to the iluminaredna evil ones new agers as master it is abhorrent... Do we need much more proof than this that we are daily and even some if us nightly by this 1984 Orwelian technocracy gadgets, they became part of our individua since we depersonalized ourselves over prematue exposing to social engineering media when got that busting treamer right and depart from our only solemn very souls we return again as incapacitated for air gasping onto hive mind web works for solution to enrichave our existence wst a vicious cycle that never ever ends and treats than it will continue just as cancer in metastasis... which already happening therefore dystopia after this technocratic utopia is next stop appointment on general schedule... I am very sad and it is sadness that we are powerless but to obey. That true and from origin of thy heart beliversion in good are just merely played out like clowns in circus or jokers in castles guest ls rooms theatre, or stand up comedians that nobody is gibing credit for and therfore with none ticket sold or any public viewing it... Brought to dead end altogether and also ridiculed that there is that light at the end of tunnel... but there is no ligtht after all just same continuation into unstarry gloomy and creepy midnight... It is shame we are not have been awoken earlier but this late... LI king my wounds and preparing this cold bed in this cold empty room full if nothingness thinking about happiness and joyfulness in childhood with twist and turn on fraudulent promise of Hellywood and writers nobelisation of same come to concrete conclusion that never mind if this plays on from now to my expiration deadline it wI'll remain just my experience of lived life long ago and already with that become calcified as just fictional fantasy flow but never ever much more or any less than that, just straight illusion of choice which was already being chosen in my behalf by benevolent at first sight yet maleficent amuzment master of movie mainstream magic, which can be literally and actually deciphered as esence of evil.
@@bellewhite3764Nobody could be okay and noone would endure experience that almost match you with some creatures that maybe existed and extinct or were fabrication to make made believe into evilution... When you feel how awful life is and how people once they remove masks of politeness with their real countenances beneath with or without makeup you definitely understand why some have to leave in order to some may be able to live... overwhelming proof of cruelty shall make you question God, Lord, Almighty, Yahweh is still there for you... doubt in hope and loosing of faith come as such as strong tide that truly pretentiously is attending to swipe you away and also by affecting you make aftermath of survival game real deal... something that should be seemed as suchlike as theory now is part of your life and practically problem prevailing in your existence... once you wake up to what these wonderful humans are ready, capable and savvy to do to you, then you can not go away from ferocious fear of viscious demise... Ignorance may be bliss because help you to ease pain that is out there and is threatening you, so that you may focus to your destination and spare yourself from reality in which by same human each and every of whom you pleading faith in and sow hope for salvation turn against you... in that case survival of the fittest becomes something that reflects on your life.
@@fudgefudge8913Drunk are just opinions in people that pretentiously want to make true story to look like the substitute of million times repeated lies, therefore they become real too and validated itself standing test of time. Drunk state does not leave you space for sobber thoughts. Drunk are just those who with drunken eyes of lies they fed themselves want to believe what they read and see and hear with their ears and taste eventhough original from source for them is terrific lie... even If you show them fact they will refuse to believe in it truly until real crush them on ground and trust its boot on their neck, cheek or head.
