Dude, you are a rare kind of person in our society, you are smart, strong and incredibly talented. Do not underestimate your own value!! Relationships, losses, and similar events are a fact of life, the vast majority of all humans that have ever and will ever exist, will go through these kinds of hard times. Of course things may be much more difficult to some than to other, but still, you are not alone in your struggle. But as you live through these dark periods you will learn how to handle them, and when you come out of them you will be stronger than ever before. Also, you mustn’t worry about the future generations as much, passionately intelligent people have always been less visible than the rest, but there are currently more of them than ever. It is true that now people are less interested in learning because they have so much information at their fingertips thanks to the internet. But you must absolutely not let the lack of enthusiasm of others or dark times (no matter how difficult they may be) to prevent you from thriving. I can guarantee you that I, everyone who has ever and will ever hear your story, all of your viewers, and all of your subscribers absolutely believe in you, keep pushing, don’t ever give up. You are a rare and extremely valuable kind of person.
Thank you man, that means a lot to me, trying to push forward, focusing on art and the gym more lately has helped. I hope all is well on your end and hopefully I can figure out how to set up my new tripod to get better drawing videos :)