I suffered for years and years with spirits of legalism, scrupulosity, anxiety until the real me was practically obliterated. Thank you so much for your ministry. There is so little help out there 4 mental illnesses. I'm so grateful for you. You are helping others to be set free.
Yes it is. I knew my life was screwed up and I did most of it. When I listen to DeJesus I get frustrated because what he is saying sounds so simple, yet it is beyond my understanding. I still struggle with Step 3 in AA. Simple but not easy, getting out of God's way.
Your videos have helped me so much. I have been in Recovery from a substance use disorder for over 8 years and I work a 12 step program. While that has helped me tremendously and I’ve learned so much, I faced so much anxiety and mental health struggles this past year I thought I’d lost my mind. Your videos helped me better understand myself and God and I cannot thank you enough. I’m grateful for you.
I thought I was the only one who hear certain words used in church and immediately have a trigger. Like you said it’s funny how a persons mental health can really get messed up with being brought up under religion and not relationship. It had gotten so bad with me after God opened my eyes to the gospel of grace I would literally have anxiety and get a knot in my stomach trying to read the word because I was so afraid to be deceived because the gospel sounded too good to be true. But by the mercy of God I have gotten much better 💙 it’s a process.
@TealSplash I know exactly what you mean and yes, it is a bad feeling to battle with this. How I started to receive the gospel of grace is I began to look up messages on RU-vid about “the spirit of religion” and the spirit of legalism. I stayed reading the book of Roman’s too for better understanding as well. The more I read it the more it started to make sense to me. Then I would look up other reference scriptures to back up that we are made right with God simply by faith. I hope this helps answer your question. If not feel free to let me know and I will try my very best to help you 💜
Thank you so much. I got angry and told God i dont know why i dont have peace and a sound mind. I was so upset and said im about to give up and im going to bed. The next day i called my dad and he said my grace is sufficient for you verse and i said well thats fruits of the spirit and i dont have them. God put your video there after that and i was in tears for days. God told me at 3 am a month ago damascus road and thats all he said. Then i prayed where to read in bible and Facebook had a post that said Its in Acts. I didnt think that was for me lol. Im seeing now
This message is so good. Especially your statement at 21:54. ... I had a Christian group attack me and say that I was "idolizing sports" because I simply liked to play soccer. ⚽️ For a long time I avoided the appearance of anything healthy or "enjoyable" because of the fear of my heart and motives being falsely accused by others, and being isolated and misunderstood because of that. It's so good to finally come out of legalistic pressure. Thank God for his love and mercy. Real surrender, and not false appearances of "godliness."
Mark... Thank you so much for what you do. This message was especially helpful. I felt it in my heart. I have been so mentally tormented by unwanted disgusting intrusive thoughts about the Lord. It makes me disgusted with myself even though I do not want nor believe these thoughts. I was terrified I would be doomed to hell even though they are beyond my control. You saying over and over that God loves us in whatever state we are currently in has helped me so much. I know God meant for me (and so many others) to find your videos. Thank you for reminding me that I am forgiven... even for every intrusive thought or disturbing dream. I know this sounds weirs bc I don't know you... but as a sister in Christ, I love you. You have done more than you will ever know. May God bless you and your family abundantly.
This one brought me to tears. The Holy Spirit looked me in the eye with this one. I have a few people to share this with. I believe it will change their perception of Christianity. Thank you
I thank the Lord for you Mark. You have no idea, just how much of an instrument your Channel has been in the healing and restoration Journey the Lord has been taking me through. Thank you so much for what you do! 🙏💚💛❤️🙌
THIS WAS THE BIGGEST BEST video Mark.😭 I NEVER allowed myself to be loved by God because of my past mistakes. I had kept him always at a distance. I have come to a place in my life where I miss, I so miss the intimacy I had with him. At one Time, I did let him love me. I want that back.😢 God EVEN sent a homeless woman, I believe a Angel, to tell me God isn't mad at me. Yes, we can't sin on purpose and willfully not love others. BUT God desires a relationship, a intimate one. I can't thank you enough for this video. THANK YOU for using your experience to help console others. God bless you😭
Thank you for always passing on the comfort you’ve received from Him to your brothers and sisters! Thank you for feeding His sheep Mark. So much healing and power in this message. So much love and comfort. Evidence that it’s from Him.
Mark ty for this message. I prayed before I found this message that GOD would help me understand the fear of God. That sermon by jonathon Edward's terrified me. I thought surrender meant if I didn't lay down everything (behavior and addictions) that I was not ok with God. I dont want to be separated from him. I have been so afraid I'm gonna mess up or not be able to get my life right because of turn or burn.
Thank you so much for this message. Ever since coming back to God, I have been constantly so afraid to make a mistake and sin. I walk around unhappy, anxious and looking like an emotionless hollow zombie going about my day.
Been there brother, and I am gonna be totally honest with you, that Brother Marks videos are the ones that taught me freedom. Listen to marks videos only love can set you free, only the love of God can set you free. 🆓
I was in prayer asking the Lord to clear up any lies I believed, I believed that God didn’t want anything good for me without even knowing so that when something good came along my way, it was a “trick”
I love your teach so much wisdom and clear understanding, keep teach and preach the gospel. Thank God I stumble upon your video's they have help me to get a lot of understand in my journey. God Bless You!
For me the thought of surrender has been terrifying .I spent years as a young person in mental hospital between age 10 and 17 .I have autism Nobody knew what to do with me when i was young I was under many thumb and shamed and punished because i couldn’t produce a convincing false self .I was repeatedly told people wouldn’t accept me unless I stopped personifying certain objects .Cognitively I couldn’t understand people and relate to their feelings and experiences .I had sensory issues .nobody knew anything about sensory issues then 1960s Relating to people was hard .It was like I couldn’t understand their language .i got lots of negative feedback .I was diagnosed with autism in 1992 at 40 .To me the thought of surrender sounds like “if rape is inevitable relax and enjoy it”or going back into a mental hospital and trying hard to become an empty shell that performs to meet everyone else’s selfish demands .Nothing for me in my life exist only to make others happy . Give up all happiness and live in misery but LOOKING cheerful so others wont be inconvenienced.Having no rights .I hate the term dying to self . Living empty to conform to someone else’s demands but showing a false self that looks satisfied SUCKING UP BIG .BECOMING A COMMODITY FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO EAT .TOLD WE TREAT YOU THIS WAY BECAUSE WE LOVE YOU .YEAH JUST LIKE YOU LOVE CHOCOLATE CAKE AND POTATO CHIPS .YOU ARE TASTY WE ENJOY EATING UP YOUR LIFE .TOO BAD YOU GET DESTROYED IN THE PROCESS IF WHAT MARK DE JESUS IS SAYING ISNT TRUE IT SHOULD BE TRUE..IF IT WASNT LIFE WOULD NOT BE WORTH LIVING What good is life if you have to be a puppet with no rights and no life of your own
@Barbara Moran I am so sorry for the pain you have lived. May you feel the presence and love and acceptance of YHWH, El Roi - the God who sees and catches all our tears in His bottle.
Hey Mark! Once again thank you so much for your videos. I have been plagued by intrusive thoughts for a year now and as of late it has taken presence in the form of religion. I am deeply in love with my current girlfriend but she isn't religious, though it didn't bother me at first. suddenly i keep thinking that God is somehow disappointed in me and that I can't be with her. It really tears me apart because I know my relationship with God is mine alone and that my relationship with my girlfriend is completely separate. Yet somehow I always get thoughts that I need to leave her because of it but I don't want to. I don't really expect an answer but I guess I just wanted to vent. Your videos really help me Mark, thank you for spreading God's positivity.
you probably know deep down that she is way closer to spirit in her own knowing than any church goer you have met. Otherwise, you would not have anything in common. So I say, don't give it a second thought! God Bless!
at first I thought this was playing off my religious and cerebral veneers, that " i got this" , but gradually there were grains of sand getting stuck in sensitive places (ie: it was turning into no 'day at the beach'). `going to have to replay this, call myself out on my own reactionary /responsive b.s. & maybe someday get a pearl out of the parts that got under my shell(s).. Thanks once again..
I didn't think surrender meant that I couldn't have anything good in my life. I thought that surrender meant that I would have to be fine with having *no* good in my life; that if this current miserable moment is the best I will ever experience, I must "happily" accept.
This heart concept is driving me crazy. I don't know how to go that long distance between head and heart, One more thing, Paul says HOLY. I am so far from Holy how do I get there???
As much as I appreciate this teaching (and I really do), it raises questions in my heart. When and how did you understand the goodness/mercies of God in your life? Was it an “aha!” moment? How do we come to the point where we know God’s mercy? How do we “choose” to receive God’s mercy when we can’t even perceive it in our hearts but only “know” it on an intellectual level in our minds? Thank you.
Soooooo helpful bro. Thank you. God has brought me back to your videos after subtley and unknowingly slipping back into legalism and performance based Christianity. Interestingly, that is the very opposite of living a life of faith, as the Bible describes. 😊
I can definitely relate to what you said about “if you want it, God doesn’t want it”. I even had a religious leader years ago tell me that, or something to that effect. I also have many many times experienced guilt after a purchase where I felt it was evil or cursed because I wanted whatever the product was and took delight in owning it. Strong sense of it being dirty or evil, or that I should destroy it or return it. Sadly, sometimes I did do that. I am talking about fairly mundane items such as a cell phone, an item of clothing, musical instruments or cameras. Nice items, perhaps not necessary items, but not “dark” items or demonic items either. The persistent thought always said “well, anything can be an idol”. Maybe I felt guilty about having the luxury to buy the item, however this sometimes occurred from thrift store items or used items from eBay. Basically, anything other that food or required expenses (those felt “biblical”) could be subject to post purchase spiritual guilt feelings.
Can you talk more about how we in a sense mutilate ourselves thinking that’s how we prove we love God and are submitted to Him? I hope that made sense…
I am someone who didn't think God wanted good things for me. I brought over a lot of baggage from my childhood religion (Islam). I almost lost my now husband from constantly trying to sabotage our relationship because I didn't think I deserved goodness and love. It was too good to be true and I thought if I loved something God would take it away from me, based on incorrect reading from Scripture and life experiences. I'm still healing and frankly am still hard on myself but God has brought me so far it's amazing
Again, such a much needed message that I needed to hear. I will never look at Romans 12:1 the same way. Connecting and accepting his love instead of beating myself up for not measuring up to standards that are impossible to fill. Relinquishing control over my life is a huge burden off my shoulders that I have been carrying all my life. No wonder I feel so exhausted and hopeless.
I'm struggling with religious OCD and rumination. What you went through Mark sounds a lot like me. Today I messed up again and have been feeling awful about it and feeling distant from God, trying to repent and then feeling shame like I don't deserve repentance because it always seems to happen again eventually so how dare I ask for it. I started monitoring my entertainment for sin as well. For days I was able to keep my head clear and I was doing good but today I feel like I backslid and now I'm thinking too deeply again.
Love you so much brother , I really need to relearn God's Love and Mercy. I realise I've been abused too by people distorting my lens of the Heart of our Heavenly Father
Dude, dude dude.....I wish I could fully express everything on my heart. I have been listening to a lot of your videos and this one especially hit home. For the past few years I have been on this journey, definitely have had the "abuse" in a sense, and I can legit relate to EVERYTHING you are saying. The guilt and everything. Still a daily battle. To much to share here but suffice it to say I can relate to what you have gone through, and literally was nodding my head the entire time. I still have a ways to go, and I am still struggling with anger towards people who I felt led me astray and put wrong ideas and thought in my head. Hopefully in time I can have peace from that as well. God bless you and thank you for helping me move away from guilt and into love and peace. Praise God!!
Ive never heard another Christian teacher speak my thoughts this way. My thoughts would object to the things you were saying and then your next sentence would be the answer to that objection. Thank you for making this, I didn't know it was exactly what I needed.
Oh my. This is exactly who I am and I thought it was godliness. Thank you so much for this message. I am listening to it as if it's a life preserver ring thrown to me. I just did not even realise I was drowning.
I’ve thought that my whole life, giving sacrifice thinking I need to give love, was left empty. Nobody ever gave and loved sacrificed for me. It’s the people that make it even worse, like a sheep to the slaughter. You find out people talk it, but won’t give help back. Learning the hard way🙏❤️🙏❤️thank you Pastor🙏❤️
Praise God for loving us and giving Christ as a sacrifice for us while we were sinners! I therefore pray and bind one to fully understand the depth of God his love for one while binding to hell every lack of full understanding of the depth of God his love for one in my life, the lives of my family, friends, colleagues, neighbours, acquitances, opponents and the body of Christ, binding to hell every unequal yoke and common share with anyone lacking to fully understand the depth of God his love for one, in accordance with this word and john 3:16, 1 john 4:19, 2 corinthians 6:14-18 in the name and blood of Jesus Christ, amen and hallelujah, glory to God ❤!
This video is so incredibly helpful. I’ve been despairing & neurotic for 7 years but now I’m learning about His mercy! He will complete the good work He started! His mercy has started healing the anxiety & the fearful, intrusive thoughts! I was demon possessed for many years & I’m walking in God’s love now & can feel the Holy Spirit in me. It’s so so good! Thank you Mark for helping me on this journey!
So well said. Thank you Mark! Sometimes I try so hard to surrender and change my destructive habits, while totally forgetting the Fathers love for me. Or just not believing it. Thank you for your teaching!
I feel the same way,I have been walking around with a wrong view and perspective of who God is I entered into a terrible roller coaster for my mental physical even emotional health but Thank God for his love and victory
I have ear buds in. My volume is one notch above off. And it still feels a bit loud. But I appreciate this teaching. When nothing else has seemed to help❤
I have an unrelated question if you have time to answer. What would you say to a person that would say, if you don't preach about hell you are false profits and teachers? They say TV evangelist are false profits because they don't preach hell. Are we to tell people if you don't repent we will go to hell? Are we to mention hell at all? How can God say he is full of grace and mercy but threaten hell to those who don't repent? Jesus defeated hell and has the keys but people still say that means Jesus decides if we go to hell or not. That is a terrifying to think, your father would choose to send you to hell if you don't repent. It's hard to believe in grace and mercy since most churches preach hell or repent and now in the last days some people have come out to teach grace and mercy only and it doesn't make since to most of us because the Bible truly tells you, their is a hell you can be thrown in.
Think of the many who will slip into a Christless eternity in the next day, or week…how many of them may wish they had heard a stern warning of hell like Jonathan Edwards preached so long ago? Jesus also warned of hell several times, although it was not the only thing He spoke of. I also think there are plenty of JE and other puritan sermons about the mercy and love of God.
I held myself over hell and I'm trying not to go there. If I don't get all this what do I do? I know God has saved me from myself over and over. I don't know how to get in the bible and stay there. I don't hear any sound other than what's in my own head.
But what if you thought you knew or understood the rules but then see how the heat "rebels" or Pauls struggle with sin knowing what is good and not doing it and can't do what I know or understand what I'm doing is not right... Yeah and I keep trying to think hopeful how Grace and Mercy over Judgment but then it still doesn't really "Change" the evil that might be controlling your heart and all the excuses I make not to do things and so "hard" to actually surrender and Knowing what I do is not pleasing God because it is not coming from an action of Love. Because my surrendering ends up having a tantrum that what I can't give up and what evil or negativity controls me when I "surrender" it seems like it is the evil that takes over that makes me mad at everything everyone including God because I cannot let go or "choose to surrender and accept Christ." And then cannot listen or trust what truth to hear and see how sins stack up and how my thoughts and the way I'm behaving that I'm denying Christ. I'm told I know so much or the "know it all" or don't understand because I don't apply what I'm told/taught and from the "lack of experience" for not living life or going out into the world much. Oh and using my behaviours to "control" people with my beliefs or just saying words because I don't mean what I say.
I t also comes across that it is not that I have been abused but I've been abusing or miss using the gifts of God and how could you do something against or reject Gods love?
@@alansherwood5319 Trust is another aspect of life that eludes me. I know full well that I've been helped through all my insanity, this is what I know and understand. My existence today is not by chance or luck. I just don't have a clue of how to do what I need to. The emotional part is more than likely my stumbling block to all of this.
@@alansherwood5319 Hey thanks Alan, I really appreciate the push and support. It just hit me that I need to ask God to help me with my unbelief and to move my pride aside. I have finally realized that I am prideful. I have thought that pride was PUFFED UP and that wasn't me. Then I see all the thing that I WANTED TO DO, ON MY OWN, WITHOUT ANY HELP. This is me being SELFISH and PRIDEFUL. This is crazy and misguided. Thanks again!
I hope you guys start practicing your talents and interests again cause God gave it to you for a reason. My sis for example started drawing when she got born again. Nobody knew she had this talent. So i encouraged her to practice it and draw whatever God gives her. She drew beautiful things🫶
