Same shit here, I have let my mom down so many times no matter how much she tried to help me out... No wonder this song makes me cry, greets from México amigos
I remember when I first heard this song. Pumpkins were my favourite artists since MCIS era and I was really surprised that they were once again able to write a masterpiece
He reportedly had vocal lessons around 97' before the recording of Adore, his voice got much better live too, especially the Adore tour, less screaming and less hammy rants.
They didn't play any heavy rock songs on the Adore tour, that's why he didn't scream. You think he wouldn't scream in Bullet with butterfly wings and so forth?
Billy Corgan's voice sounds exactly the same live as it does in studio recordings which is odd since most vocal tracks go through a lot of cosmetic changes in production to make them sound better than the singer ever would in real life.
i recommend trying to find the Guitar School magazine interview with him that coincided with Adore's release. He was very honest, realistic, and quite humble about his voice. Calling out one's own voice is not easy :)