I know the feeling my exwife won’t let me see my kids I haven’t seen them or heard from them in two years she kept them from talking to me but she expects me to pay child support (I don’t mind paying cuz paying is worth seeing my kids to keep my rights to see them grow up) but she doesn’t want them to see me or talk to me I gave up my friends for her and for her to screw me over to be alone I don’t like this solitude all I have is my anxiety depression and my sad thoughts 😢😢😢😢😢 all I have is letters from my four kids telling me how much they need me and love me
I don't care who reads these, but I hope your okay. I hate feeling lonely. I like being alone. But my family makes me feel alone. They work, I school, we come home, cook, bath, and sit together. And silence, no meaningful conversation, no interruptions for the show. Just small talk and we sleep. And they wonder why I stay away. For them it's not the same. My silence in their presence is okay. But not to me. I'm far away from my friends, the first true friends I made in years and I'm scared. I might never get friendships like that again. But I stay away from people because I'm weird as hell. Counterintuitive don't you think. Everyday I keep asking myself. Do you hate living. No I hate doing the living. But I can't quit. Got people who need me, sadly.
