"There's no guarantee your wish will be her wish" (Berserk) (SPOILERS INBOUND) 

Okay, so I didn't expect this to blow up. I've changed the title and thumbnail to something less spoilerific (whilst keeping in spirit with the video) I do apologise to those who are waiting for the volume releases. Dumb as shit error on my part and I don't have any defense apart from I should have known better and I'll do so in the future. Hope you enjoy regardless.

The expression on Guts' face when Casca got PTSD just by looking at him.... Damn Miura why you gotta do my man like that

The fact that Guts tried his best to return Casca's memory, only to find out the she can't even look at him anymore, is like a punch in the stomach for me.

Guts: What is my purpose master? Miura: To suffer. Guts: Okay 😔

MAN WHO HAD LOST ALL HOPE SUDDENLY LOSES ADDITIONAL SLIVER OF HOPE HE DIDN'T KNOW HE STILL HAD

ME: "Finally, after 20 years of pain, sacrifice and heart break, Guts and Casca are finally happily reunited.... Aaaaannnd it's Berserk.

The irony of this is immense. Guts finally got her back yet she's just as far away from him as she was before.

Wait. Skull Knight didn't make a physical appereance in Berserk in a whole goddamn decade? Wow.

I started this manga a couple month ago so the waiting time wasn't long I can't believe that it took 20 years for her to regain conciousness

it should be pointed out at 21:34 how guts blends in with the rest of the apostles. he is not any darker or brighter to contrast them, he just blends in. at first i didnt even notice him and thought they were all just apostles. it took me almost a minute to notice guts was there too, and i think thats a very important detail to point out

*_Miura please let Guts have peace and happiness I can't take his heartbreaking reaction to casca_*

given their circumstances her PTSD was bount to trigger, but guts being the main trigger is the most painful thing there...

I think your comment about Guts feeling sadness rather than rage at not being able to see Casca is poignant. Miura began this series with the simple idea that he wanted to draw a very angry man. Everything else in the series flows from that, the initial idea of the Golden Age is that it sets up why Guts could be so unbelievably angry when we first meet him. But in this latest issue he had a more mature response to this melancholy situation. And when Casca's PTSD kicks in completely at the end of the chapter because of Guts we get some of the most painful, emotionally complex drawings of Guts I can recall. I'm not sure what emotions he's feeling, but anger is totally absent, instead he's a mix of sadness and guilty and hurt. Which shows his immense character development throughout the series and especially after traveling with his new family for so long. Development physically represented by every scar on his body. He's gone from a man who existed only to be angry, to one of the most complex characters in literature.

What makes it even more heartbreaking is that just hearing Guts talk is also a trigger, not just seeing him

2010 me: There’s like tons of blood and death! It’s rad as heck bro! 2020 me: OMG LOOK AT CASCAS DRESS

and now the wait for the next chapter begins again......

The demon child is in the far right but blends in to the background. Almost like it was purposely obscured.

I'm really pissed that Casca can't look at Guts without seeing the eclipse. That PTSD is strong and terrible. Will that poor Guts ever get a break? That dude has suffered enough.

Shortly before childhood trauma came knocking on the door for my now ex-girlfriend of 3 years, we were an adventurous and happy couple, seriously planning our future together. I mostly shut off from my own social life, or life in general when suicide attempts, schizophrenia sympthoms and total isolation began for her. I saved her life, carried her screaming & unintelligible in public and chased her when she was pushing everyone away very many times, among other things. Overtime she became mostly unable to socialise/go out/have fun at all and I stuck through it with her, helping her find motivation to keep up the treatment. She left me when a group of "friends" from her new workplace introduced her to drugs, even though she kept texting me she loved me just to cut contact short because "she was living a new life" throughout the whole of next month. Even though I wasn't a culprit in what broke her after we got together, she still saw me as a part of it and connected me with the pain. There wasn't even a roadblock for us to party together/return to having fun like we did in the first place. I was told by a psychologist that sometimes, especially if very close, when you help a person through mental illness/trauma they start to subconsciously associate you with it and ultimately begin to resent you. The panel in which Casca sees the eclipse behind Guts felt so very personal & uncomfortable to me, like someone violated my space. Reading the whole story of how he fought his heart out for her absent self just for her trauma to kick in when looking at him in the end was weirdly therapeutic to me at the end of the day, made me feel like I wasn't alone

Man, I started crying when I saw Guts' face when Casca was screaming. I can't even imagine how he feels knowing that the woman he loves is terrified and screaming just by looking at him..... Poor Guts and Casca.

Dude I swear to God if we don't get a happy ending at the end of this story, Guts has had the literal worst life ever, pls God throw my boy a bone and let him be happy after so many years of anger and sadness, I am about to riot.

3:12 Casca only remembers the anime adaptations. No Bakiraka or Wyald.

Gut's expression was actually painful to look at. Just heartbreaking

Can’t blame Casca... What happened to Judeau is indeed triggering :(

I just read the whole manga in like a month. I cant believe people have waited 21 years to get Casca back. God damn I feel you all

Not an important detail, but I think it's worth pointing out that Farnese, who has basically a crush on Guts, is completely supportive towards Casca wanting to see him (as she thinks). She's the one to point him out to Casca when he's hidden behind that tree. Obviously she knows how much they both love each other, and _I_ love how there's absolutely no jealousy there. Farnese cares enough about both Guts and Casca to let them be happy together. Which is. nothing like the Farnese we were introduced to in the beginning, her character development is honestly amazing

I really hope they can hug each other one day, after all these (20) years

Basically, Casca is back, but she hasn't actually faced the horror's of the eclipse yet. She still needs to face her demons.

Casca with PTSD broke guts' heart but its almost as if he knew it would happen

God damn, my main man Guts can’t get a break can he? This shit is torment now, especially since the next chapter is most definitely gonna be a Griffith chapter knowing our luck

Give us a break, papa Miura. Let that poor man smile. Chapter 359 left me, once again, heartbroken. All I want to do is give big boy Guts a hug.

Long story short. Miura loves emotionally torturing the readers and Guts.

358- A boring council meeting with Griffith and his subjects. A year later.... 359- what everyone wanted to read: progression on the Casca/Guts story. See you all next year for the next issue.

God, Casca looks so beautiful in this chapter.

"I find it odd that Miura put this much detail into a throwaway Casca design..." It's Miura. He doesn't half-ass anything. That's why he gets so stressed out he has to hide away and play Idolmaster for five months after every chapter.

It's obvious at this point that the moonlight boy is their stillborn child, and this actually ties strongly into real myth, in real world mythology, it is said that Fairies are born from the souls of dead children, Guts' and Cascas son is basically a fairy since he could climb on the branches of the world tree. So even tho Griffith has his body, he still lives on as a fairy. Not really relevant to the video, but just some interesting lore.

RIP to all the followers who didn't get to see Casca return.

I am a 27 year old man. I shed tears when I seen Gut's face and realized he was the trigger. Mirua is a genius!!!

Rip Casca's long hair, i really liked it.

I haven't kept up with Berserk over the past 6-7 years because of the constant hiatuses, but seeing Casca restored to her former short-haired self actually made me cry. More than once. I wasn't aware of how much I missed her until now.

Did you guys notice that "Elaines" memory bubbles dose not show Guts' face, at all. It shows Guts but not his face.

Man I really feel bad for Guts. The shit he has been through his whole life. The shit he was gone through just to piece back Casca together. After all the crap, he still can't be with her :(

“Beware that, when fighting monsters, you yourself do not become a monster... for when you gaze long into the abyss. The abyss gazes also into you.” ― Friedrich W. Nietzsche

Guts really deserves to be at peace. Man, he went through so much

Loved seeing Caska's view on all the characters, really just started loving Guts's new crew, I just gotta point out all the feels at the end knowing Guts can't be near the one person he truly loves

I just want Guts to ''win'' man, he has suffered way too much 😔

this is getting nice but we'll have to wait 20 years to see most of it

Man, Miura is just not giving Guts rest ...

Good video spired I'll be back in 5 years when the next chapter drops.

Damn this makes me cry a little bit. The long constant struggles and the only reward is that u cant see your woman after u sacrificed so much for her. He can't even have a proper conversation. Now thats fck up.

Calcium Boy took a 10 year hiatus after he got his boney ass kicked by Griffith Poor guy

Im gonna die before the end, im sure about it... and now the freakin Miura is doing a side project...XD

MIURA YES! Sadness leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to... A new chapter

When you see Caska in a normal armor Short hair and swinging her sword Me: Omg Yes She gets PTSD for seeing Gatsu Also: Oh no why you have to do this to me

One day casca must face her fear. Sooner or later, she cant live with that forever.

I don't think Casca will mind much when she remembers Guts' moment of weakness. Recall when they were having sex in the Golden Age, Casca told Guts that she wanted "a wound" that she can say Guts gave her. There is no other instance where Guts wounds Casca other than that moment of vulnerability. So if and when she remembers that, it'll less likely put distance between them, in my opinion, and more likely contribute to both of them healing.

I honestly need to know. Did anyone else get teary eyed like I did when I saw Casca saw guts and started screaming. I felt all the pain Guts must have felt and I just felt all the tears run to my eyes for him.

Rewatching this today is so sorrowful. What could of been?

It's going to break my heart when she remembers her baby. And even more so when both casca and guts realize what has happend to him with griphif. But the author wants to convey the reality of trauma and deep depression. No matter how far you go, the wounds never heal. They may scar and fade, but the lingering memory of the pain will haunt them forever. And with support from those you care for or care for you, give the opportunity to face the pain move forward if possible.

Man... the most bleeding character aside from us readers is my man Guts. Jesus. T_T

Guts is still my favorite character but Farnese is defiantly my second, and yes, whens he teared up after being praised, got me as well.

Casca was so beautiful in this chapter 😍 finally our Chocolate queen is back!

because of you, I'll call him calcium boy till the end of my life :V btw Short hair is justice³

Man... It's so wonderfully bittersweet... I grew up with this story and it's so painful to see a man like Gutts taken down and shaken to his core... Love the videos and podcast man, you make some of the best videos about Berserk on this site.

Miura you SON OF A B...!!!

The dog is still in that dark place. Guts OD oozes off the eclipse because his self is still trapped.

Did anyone see the ending to _Ghost In The Shell?_ Or even when Piccolo and Kami merged back? Maybe this isn't *really* Casca, but a mixture of both Casca and Elaine, an entirely different person? As for Guts, all he has to do is _blindfold_ Casca everytime he talks to her. Presto, problem solved! 😃

We all knew this would happen we all knew :'c

Something to keep in mind. Every time Skull Knight appeared in the manga we reached a crescendo to an arc. Which means come next chapter events will begin to unfold that take us into the next set of events for the narrative on a grander scale. It just sucks that he is appearing now of all times. Casca still needs time to heal and I really hope it isn’t cut short by actions made by Griffith or Godhand. But we all know eventually they will have to meet again. Part of me suspects the Godhand will betray Griffith because ultimately Femto used them for his own gain. And Falconia is a perfect proving ground for another sacrifice right now. Maybe we will finally get the backstory on his relationship with Void and him being Gaiseric in a past life. The information provided there will be crucial to understanding the motives of the Godhand. Which is probably the utilization of sacrifices to sustain their own existence.

I feel like there would have been an amazing scene at some point where Casca tries to embrace Guts. The love and bond they share may be enough to destroy the thorns on her heart, symbolizing that love and support may be enough to break the trauma. Just a thought, at least I'd hope that would be the case.

Slight correction: the demon child DOES appear in the Elaine memories two-page spread. Far right, right above Isidro and Puck and right below Guts. Admittedly the scans make it hard to make out.

He put so much detail on the dress as an advance compensation for the hiatus.

I don't know about ya'll, but I see 2 things happening for Guts from this point on. 1. He falls into a deep depression and puts down the sword temporarily. Who could blame him at this point? He's fought with every piece of his being for years now. He's slowly accepted the Hawks dying, the fact that he's outclassed by the God-hand / Skull Knight / Possibly even Zod, and that the world as he knows it will never be the same. I'm sure a part of him wants revenge on Griffith still, but I personally believe his rage / hatred / fear have split into his Demon Dog personality, which is now symbolically or/and even literally attached to his Beserker Armor. Yes he has a new group that he's slowly grown attached too, but I truly believe Guts looks at the group as more of a thing he brought around for Casca, not himself. Now that Casca is scarred with PTSD and mental trauma for possibly life, what really does he have left to fight for? Unless he takes an interest in the plight of humanity as Skull Knight does, I don't see Guts adopting a larger world-view. Fighting for Casca was really his last motivation in life aside from Griffith. 2. He succumbs to the Demon Dog / His Hatred Alter Ego / Split Personality. Hell, I wouldn't be surprised if his Demon Dog personality doesn't prod him from the inside, showing Guts how all is for naught, and that Guts might as well give into his hatred, as his compassion and humanity still didn't change much. Logically I'd see this as the most likely step. After all, it might not be shown, but from the art style in the last few years, it really seems that Guts is on the breaking point. It's as if the fights with Guts in control are just him going through the motions, as if he 'ought' to struggle on. At some point you gotta think our man would have to crumble, and I'd think this is the crack that'll do him in. Now I'm sure they'll be able to bring him back around eventually, possibly with the help of the skull knight. Other than that, I don't see where else Gut's character can go from this point, other that possibly a drunk. (He's earned it to say the least lol) What do ya'll think?

I actually liked the long hair she was sooo preety but short hair is more pratical.

Miura should make an alternate ending where guts goes and kills miura for fating him a life of suffering

That shot of guts with the eclipse in the background is one of my favorite shots in berserk

New chapter just dropped! See y'all in 2020 for the next chapter!

Amazing analysis, this chapter hit me in the heart no lie...Miura play with feelings WAY to much.

"Short hair is justice." ...you sir, are a scholar and a gentleman, though you shouldnt forget the importance of delicious brown skin, too.

I found really sad that casca remembered judeu's death. I mean the last time we saw the other members of the hawk they were either fighting or already dead. With judeu we saw each agonizing moment as he died on casca's arms (I cried :D)

I mean this is basically what I was expecting with casca's return. Guts isnt allowed to be happy.

To think people in real life died never reading this chapter awaiting such an event

I wonder how hard for Miura is creating such a complex and sorrowful story. I hope his side project makes it a bit easier for him.

I would love to hear what you think of the new art style

What i'm afraid of is that Casca will be deceived into thinking that the Guts is responsible for the Eclipse. It came to my mind as I saw this panel with Guts surrounded by Apostols.

5:02 Protect her! That latest chapter was just so gutting to read, I just want them to be happy.

Recently I re read berserk pages before eclipse (the part where they fell in love with each other especially) I thought of it a lot and couple days later I saw guts face... I’m not gonna lie, it hit me right in the heart. Seeing my favourite character struggle through all this long year to only be rewarded with this. I cried a little when I tried to imagine his pain. I hope that was the saddest thing miura could do, because guts needs to heal.

I think Casca's mind regressed into a child because it was her own way of trying to save herself from becoming evil or even more hurt to herself. I was always uneasy around people because alot of fake friends I had ,so after they dramatically left me for their own selfish reasons I was in deep anger and distrust for everyone and also deeply traumatic. It was her mind and feelings which is gaurding her heart from the trauma as she said " she felt broken after griffith did what he did", symbolizing that Femto was the nail in the coffin for everything else that was happening in the eclipse because he took himself away from her. All I am say was she built a defense because she didn't know how to handle all trauma so she protected herself from feeling her own feelings. The thorns around the heart is further symbolism of that. It is herself trying to defend herself from her own feelings because as a child as we remembered she was better off when she didn't know Griffith. It may be hard to understand, but it makes perfect sense when you think of the concept of this.

I would like to add something i noticed during cascas sparing with the veykins. In the encounter of the third one she cuts into his left armpit. Very close to the place she stabbed guts way back at the waterfall before their love scene. The veykin also wears the same shoulder and hand protection guts wore back then. His strike with the spear is blocked by casca in a somewhat close fashion to how guts blocked her blows back then by moving his head aside and blocking very close to the swordhandle. I could be interpreting way to much into this but i assume miura aimed for a callback to that scene. Even the very fist block she uses is so very like a prominent one during the fight against adons 100+ men. I would even go so far as to propose that the second veykin represents adon. If you take a close look at the axe head shown from the side then you might spot a resemblence of tudors rhino helmets. Again maybe a bit far fetched but i could not help getting lost in callbacks :)

To be fair, her PTSD got triggered by the memory of Judeau, not Guts.

Great chapter. See you all next year.

12:03 I love the callbacks to events which happened ~10 years ago IRL

Yakuza 0 ending theme playing in background.I love you man.

talk about an emotional rollercoaster...im happy Casca is back but the pain on Guts' face is just too much holy shit.....so many feels..miura god damnit

maybe caska is a representation of the author. The story is so sadistic that Miura himself now has PTSD everytime he thinks or draws guts so he has to take Hiatuses to recover after every chapter. It all makes sense now.

21:42 the shadow of guts looks like hes the master of the apostels look at the arms of this picture its like hes petting them ... strange

Just finished reading Chapter 359 after starting the series roughly a year ago, and see this video on my recommended. A nice way to cap off my binge-reading.

yall remember that berserk doujin where guts dreams about casca, yeah that hurt as much as that doujin hurts

For me it couldn't be any different. I wondered how would Miura deal with healing Casca and this just seems perfect for Berserk. Too bad it got me interested in Berserk again, but Miura decided to do other series instead...

Skull Knight is not gonna tell Guts " I told you so", buuuuuuuuuuut.... Hey, he warned him!