This Is My Voice - 3 Years in Transition (FTM Transgender) 

There are paragraphs upon paragraphs I could comment of inspiration, but I'll leave it simply as, I love you ❤

Aaron I couldn’t possibly articulate my feelings about this in a way that would do it justice but please know that this was so beautiful and so important for so many of us to hear. Good luck as you continue on this journey of recovery and self acceptance and thank you for sharing this with us.

that hit a nerve. esp. the part about replacing the desire to be liked by fulfilling body standards with the desire to be liked for productivity. I never thought about it this way. Thank you.

I'm literally 0:41 seconds into the video and I can already tell this is going to be another one of my favorite videos because of the honesty and visuals- especially when paired with your voice. Edit- I finished the video just now and I appreciate this more than I have words for.

this is not the video i was expecting but i was not disappointed. this was so beautiful. you are so amazing, Aaron. i love this, and i love you. thank you. 💜💜💜💜💜

I'm gonna heckin' cry. This video is so sweet.

I'm not even gonna pretend I'm not crying. I'm totally crying. You're amazing & I love you 💜

I was emotional from the very beginning, but as soon as the Undertale music kicked in I stopped breathing. I love you so much, Aaron, and I really hope you get to a place where you don't have to TRY to love yourself anymore, where it just comes naturally. You are such a wonderful person, and I am very glad that I started watching you.

You are definitely not alone. I feel all of this. The blocks are real. I am really grateful for this video and the effort you give yourself and your openness to share that experience. Congrats on 3 years man. ❤ Much love.

I can’t begin to tell you how much I needed this. Thank you.

So, the thing about me is that I struggle and the way you worded things resonated with me. And I am filled with nothing but love and affection for you. Honestly, the world would be a much better place if there was more sweet beans like you. I love you so much. 😭💖

I freakin love you man, this video is so important for people to hear and made me just feel so... like I’ll get there. Like I’ll make it to a place where I’m happy. Thank you so much.

Oh heck here's those feels. This def got me emotional but in a good way thank you for making this Aaron

Aaron.. I love you. Different circumstances, but it's like you're reading my mind. Trying not to cry in public. 😭

Amazing video, bud. Heckin' good photography too, that's some top tier film work! :D

Thank you for letting us hear your voice. ❤ Also you made me cry a little, bye

...Someone is chopping onions in here,,, Aaron you are amazing

Sneaky, sneaky! I love this! Your voice is amazing, and so helpful for so many. I hope it'll now be helpful for you. :)

Wow Aaron. Thank you so much! I love this video and really needed it this week! Thank you for your awesome content! I look forward to every video! Also I love the fact that this was disguised as a T update.

Just....thank you. I love that you're unafraid to talk about the anxieties and insecurities that make so many of us uncomfortable, and that you are so open and kind and warm with your audience. There's also a very artistic feel to your videos...this one felt like a poem in lots of way. So yeah. Thank you for being a bright light

I started fricking tearing up at the end. Damn! I’ve been dealing with a bunch of mini panics doing normal things. Most of them have to do with what other people think about me. I started about a month or so ago trying to be nicer to myself and comfort myself. I’m still working through trying to feel deserving of that kindness. Ever since I moved out with the help of my previously abusive mother and father. I mostly only talk to people when I work at a garden 2 hours a day. I sometimes get angry at myself when this cute guy (I’m an enby btw) tries to talk to me every time he sees me and since I only talk 2 hours tops in a day. I can’t form words very well and they come out as fragmented sentences at first. I don’t know why I’m writing this. I just really connected to your video. I’m rebuilding my support system from scratch and working to become independent financially just to cut out my previous abuser. I dropped out of college because of the stress/my disability. Seeing your video just makes me feel like I’ll be able to find people that I love and people who love me as much back for me and not the fake person I used to pretend I was to curry favor. Thank you. Also, your body is similar to my body. I think it’s beautiful so it helps see that my body is pretty good as well. I hope that’s not mean to say. I just don’t see people with my body type who are talking about self-love and not about trying to change that. Thanks and have a nice day.

Thank you for this! Thankyou for sharing and this video made me cry. I have a hard time with self love and worry constantly if people like me, am I pleasing them etc. Your video touched my heart and I love you!

This is such a BEAUTIFUL and IMPORTANT video. There's so much I could comment on (and thank you for) throughout but just in the last few lines, you summed up everything I wanted to say perfectly. The last 'this is my voice'... it's usually like, 'hey, sup, listen to how deep my voice has gotten' and there's nothing wrong with that but that last one was like, 'hey, listen up, this is MY voice and I'm going to use it to show you who I am because let me tell you, I'm more than you've ever made me to be. I deserve to be here, take up my space and I'm gonna use it for good.'. And that's really just your entire friggin' channel for me. You are so important and so loved and I'm so glad that you have worked to this place where you can share WHO YOU ARE. So much love for you and this entire community you have built

Needed this for sure...Parents just told me the whole "we can't support your decision" and the lovely "we feel like failures as parents" bs after telling me for several years that "nothing will change we love you no matter what and support you blah blah blah." Its hard cutting them out of my life after trying to be patient, and giving them information about being trans, and giving them space, but sometimes you just have to cut your losses and move on. Thank you for this video

i want to say that I saw this video a few months ago and it *hit so hard.* So gut wrenchingly hard. I remember The line "nobody wants to admit they hate themself" legitimately made me feel like I had been punched. I had agreed with so much stuff you had just said and comparing other things in my life where those emotions came out and then just just hit me in the face w/ a fucking book and knocked me to the floor and said "this is the reason. This is the tie together of everything in your life that's fucking you up." I think this video specifically is a big reason I'm doing better than I was a few months ago.

Thank you Aaron for being so open about all of your experiences. I am 5 months on T and while I am excited for the future, I am also terrified. My gender dysphoria is tangled up with my body dysmorphia and that's really challenging to navigate so some days its seems impossible that I'll truly be happy with the way I look no matter far along I am in my transition. Thank you for reminding me that recovery and self acceptance is an ongoing thing. Love you

What a stunning video, absolutely beautiful and so inspiring. Thank you so much for sharing this with us, Aaron!

AH the video @6:14 cheered me up so much! Thank you for the video overall!

I don't know if I can put into words how much I love and appreciate this video. It's so hard to love myself, as a non skinny person, as a nonbinary trans man, as a mentally ill person, as a person, full stop. Most days I have to try my best in order to not hate myself so much that I hurt myself and it's really difficult to focus on self love when you're trying to survive. Because your efforts all go towards *that* and so little energy is left and you need a lot for self love imo. But this video made me realize: it's important. I don't know but maybe self loathing is the root to that whole barely surviving thing. So if I start working on self love it can only help me on all levels. I hope that made sense, ultimately I just wanted to say thank you for this video because it made me reflect and I think I needed it. This was well thought, well shot and extremely helpful for me and I hope for yourself too. Thank you, Aaron.

The way you described how when you lost someone you made room for others in your life really resonated with me. I needed that. Thank you for your vulnerability, kindness and authenticity Aaron.

This is fucking amazing, Aaron. I really needed this. You are such a burst of happiness in all of our lives. (By the way, I love your fountain pen!)

I just got a 5 minute ad of a school tailored for children with learning difficulties and I watched it all for you

thank you for this. it's not only beautifully cinematic, it's compassionate towards your viewer (and towards yourself) - i think that might be what i love the most about you in general, how you truly care for us and about us. i'm glad you're starting to care for yourself that way. i've needed to hear this for a long time, and i'm grateful for you speaking truth in a way i can't ignore.

Fantastic video Aaron, watched it twice already and I'm sure I'll return to it in the future too!

I am so proud of you for opening yourself up like this and letting yourself be vulnerable. I hope you can one day see yourself the way your followers, friends and family see you, as a wonderful person that deserves everything good in the world. And I wish you a happy journey to self love and acceptance💕

The sudden Undertale soundtrack was so unexpected and gave me absolute chills. A perfect backing track. Thank you.

the undertale music really put that final oomph into making the video emotional. i have no words

Perfectionism is ROUGH. Thank you for risking. For being vulnerable and honest. Being the best human you can is a fluid concept. It's part of being a person (and I still struggle with that too). Like if I'm sick or tired, how I communicate will be different than if I'm in a stellar mood. And that's okay. It NEEDS to be. I cant just wait until I'm perfect, to have interactions with humanity. And that's terrifying (what if I fuck up? Society doesn't handle mistakes very well right now) but also liberating (I get to try!). Anyways. Thanks Aaron, for getting me to think. And for what it's worth I dont think youre rad because all your pieces are together. It's because you are honest about what it's like when they aren't. And how it feels to be stuck. Because you are real (as you can be) and not veneer.

Wow. Certainly not what I expected, but better, much better. I wish for the best for you always

I didn't wanna comment, because it'll be comment 421, however. I love you, and I'm so fluffing blessed to know of you, and to watch your videos, content, and transition. You're amazing, here's to loving ourselves, truly.

actually crying 😭 also wow I LOVE the way you put this video together:D

Usually when people make these kinds of videos, they narrate the video with a poem. And although poetry is beautiful and I am a poet myself, it’s refreshing to listen to you just simply talk directly.

I love this so much. I was raised with many people in my life who assigned my value based off the favors/jobs I did for them. If I didn’t do it all, I was called selfish, thoughtless, and terrible. It really crippled me into my teenage years. I’m better now than I was, but this past month has been beyond challenging with someone rehashing all those feelings because I won’t put my life on hold so they can do whatever they want without fulfilling their responsibilities. Thank you for making this video. You expressed so many emotions I have too but couldn’t articulate. I didn’t even know I needed this video, but I sure did. Thank you ❤️

Dammit Aaron! Im on public transit all misty eyed. You freakin' got me, man. I love you, and turns out I also need to love me.

Beautiful video Aaron. I have the same written in the stars notebook. Perhaps I'll start using it to practice self love since it will remind me of this video. Thank you, I love you! 💜

This was beautiful. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, experiences, and vulnerability. It is an incredibly brave thing to you do. Be proud of yourself for how far you have come, in your transition, your art, as a person, in all aspects of your life. You may suffer set backs, but you can, and have overcome them. I really enjoy watching your videos, and one has actually helped me figure out and fix a problem I had. I'm so grateful for you, and your content.❤❤

I swear Aaron just dug into my journal and read it to the internet. I’m really grateful for this video, and also thank you for the CW.

I needed to hear this. Lately I've gotten to a place where I don't worry as much about my weight, but I still deal with thinking the things I do and make aren't good enough. And that I'm not good enough, that I don't have anything to offer people so I should just stay out of their way. I've been pretty isolated lately. I need to actively try to love myself, too.

Congratulations on your 3 year mark! I can really resonate with this and I'm at a loss for words in gratitude and appreciation for sharing this.

It's hard to love yourself, when you've seen what you've done good and can't do again or what you did wrong and cannot fix, but Aaron you're a wonderful person. I'm so glad you're taking the steps to learn to love yourself. I feel like we all forget to love ourselves. For whatever reason. But we all deserve love, especially from yourself. You're going to be with you, for the rest of your life. So in the end, your opinion of yourself and how much you love yourself is what matters, everything else is secondary.

This inspired me to keep a journal again. With my ADHD I find it hard to remember to write or let out my feelings but it's nice to get things out that I feel like I can't tell people. Ive not been well mentally for a while so thank you for reminding me that sometimes you have to make a little effort when it comes to loving yourself and caring for yourself

oof this made me so emotional. wonderful video. going on the journey from hating yourself to accepting yourself to loving yourself is hard, i can relate to having an eating disorder and also being trans... it's a Thing; but we all are proud of you for making this active choice. you have a million reasons to love yourself and i wish you all the strength in the world, aaron

this video touched me so much, I made me have a very good cry. thank you for this ♡ I've been on my journey to love myself for a bit and it's so healing to hear from the journey of others. much love and take care!

Wow. Aaron, thank you for this. I hope that this was as healing for you to film as it was enlightening to watch. I feel like I could have written parts of this myself. So many of us are out here going through the same/similar experiences. Here's hoping we can all grow together. Peace to you, & may the world treat you extra kindly.

Wow Aaron your words are so powerful. You have an amazing voice! I am working so much on self care and self love... Its so hard... My transness, my traumas, my adhd, so much pains me deep inside... I feel so much the line "no one will love me" i fear, I will always be alone, il never be happy... Im starting with myself. and trying to rebuild my support network of wonderful friends. Its very very hard. but I know im not alone. I love yall, and I support you all.

was this the best "3 years on t" video or was it the best video ever? such a great reflexion! that is your voice and you use it in such a way that makes so many people feel so much better, whether it being for the 6 minutes of the video or because you're litteraly an inspiration... you are a brilliant inspiration/youtuber.

Thank you for this. I appreciate v much how you've reframed the concept of "self love" . It's made it easier to adapt and relate to. This was like a real old school YT vid, I feel nostalgic just watching it. Also really appreciate the vulnerability of this vid. Thank you for caring for your followers. It's clear to me its coming from a genuine place of we are all one and the same. (Old school YT vibez again 💕) Anyway, take care Aaron

This is an absolutely beautiful video and brought legit tears to my eyes. I feel like I've been experiencing similar feelings, and this video has motivated me to put more effort into loving myself. Thank you for being you Aaron 💙

This is the absolut Best video you have made. I loved it. And loving myself is something I also struggle with.

Who else would love to see a documentary made by Aaron? 🙋‍♂️ Your video skills are just amazing, it captured emotion so well, had a great message, and it was all put together nicely! Thank you for making this, Aaron and happy 3 years on T! ❤

Aaron I didn’t want to cry today!!! 😭 this video is very powerful and I love you for making it and for trying to take care of yourself. You deserve to be happy! I’m glad that I’ve been able to watch you transition and grow as a person and just become this amazing person. Keep it up! 🙂❤️

Was going through a period of this throughout my life, and it still surfaces up now and then, just not as often it used to. Thank you Aaron for making this video. We love you bro

You are truly amazing and inspiring! I honestly don't know what else to say without writing an essay but I can relate to this so much. The 2 things that are the hardest is 1) asking for help and 2) recovering. 💙

thank you for this ♥ I'm so grateful that you share your struggles and insights with us.

This is so so so good. From the content to the wording to the style, what a work of art. What a beautiful way to convey something so important and so personal.

I... need to watch this. Regularly. I need to remember this video exists when I want to just give up because wow. It's so powerful to me, it hit everything.

loved this video so much aaron! beautiful!

I think this is one of the only RU-vid videos I have watched, and then straight away, watched again. Absolutely fantastic video for style and content. I relate a lot to the self-loathing and pressure that you put yourself under. I have these issues too. I tend to blame myself a lot too. Recently I have been trying to be a lot kinder to myself, to break these habits I have practised for so long. I'm glad that you are too. Whilst watching this video I was skin picking, then saw you doing it! Your muscle dance thing at the end really made me laugh!

I honestly did cry. This is beautiful. As a trans man in the beginning of his transition who has been through an eating disorder, your message hits right at home. Thank you for the vulnerability you showed in this video. I have not started T, not gotten top, but this is the first day of me actively trying to love myself. Thank you Aaron for sharing this.

AAROOOOON I'm absolutely hecking bawling my eyes out. This hits hard for me in a lot of ways which I won't be able to articulate right now so I'm not going to try. Just gosh darn do I love you, relate with you, am thankful for you. ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Great video!! I for one needed to hear this today. Thank you ♥

I'm not crying, you are. Thank you for putting out such a beautiful and inspiring video, I could not have seen this video at a better time. I LOVE YOU!

your voice is so important. love and need you ❤️

Oh man Aaron, this video is wonderful. You've summed up something that happens to so many of us in recovery in such a beautiful way, I feel I had an epiphany while watching this. Thank u for letting us into your brain and heart, for being so vulnerable, we'd realise just how many people like us there are if we only had the courage to talk about these feelings. Watching u grow and recover has been incredible you've come such a long way, sending u so much love 💗💗💗

😭😭😭😭😭 I love you, Aaron! And I love everyone reading this 💖💖

I completely forgot what the title of this video was right up until the end because you really pulled me in, so clever!!! Awesome video Aaron ❤️

this is an amazing video. thank you so much 💗

This...was...so...I dont even have words for it but I love it so much and I love u and I'm emotional as heck rn ahhhhh SO GOOD AARON!!!

That was more than what I needed, thanks Aaron.

AWWWW OMG AARON 😭😭 this was so powerful and amazing, we love you, and I'm so happy you're really trying to give yourself the love we know you deserve too, because you are so valuable and wonderful and bring so much joy to the people around you 💜💜 please Stay Determined

That was so much more than expected and exactly what I needed ❤️

Wow, Aaron - the editing and the camerawork in this are stunning!! And of course your words. This is beautiful :')

this is exactly what i needed today. Thank you

Aaron this is some amazing content and sooo needed!!! Thank you!!!

WOW, what a great video Aaron 😍

1 minute in I am already crying. You help me so much. I am so thankful for you.

I really needed this, I love you

I’m so glad the topic of being trans and eating disorders is brought up by you because it’s something I’ve had to cope with when I was diagnosed with anorexia and then put on hormone blockers. Keep up your videos

This was something I didn't know I needed to hear, and it was especially nice hearing it from you because I see parts of myself in you and even if I dislike them about myself, I would never think badly of you for.

You’re great!! Such an inspiration!!

This video touched me Aaron. I often struggle with feeling like if I say one wrong thing or don’t communicate my feelings in a absolutely clear way or say nothing that may not make sense to others I’ll be pushed away, laughed at or physically hurt. I have a lot of feelings of shame around taking up space especially as someone with bad anxiety and a non-binary person. I find it to hard to be proud or want to take up space because I myself feel I’ll be seen as attention seeking, sensitive, weak etc. BUT thank you for this video, from the bottom of my heart. It’s a solid visual and auditory reminder that healing takes time, but also that thinking I’m less valuable isn’t true💓💓💓💓

Damn Aaron. This is so beautiful. It’s timely too, because I recently starting binding again and letting myself breathe.

i'm so proud of you, aaron. thank you for sharing. as someone currently struggling with these issues, it means a lot that you shared this with us. you aren't alone. none of us are. thank you. we love you.

This is fantastic Aaron, honestly fantastic. Thank you for this.

that intro hit me so hard. love you❤️❤️❤️

Just. Seeing how far you've come. To trust the internet with the sight of so many angles of your body. It's so very, very touching. And beautiful. Because I see my own body in yours. So much. You shirtless on screen, I thought, "That body looks like mine!" and it makes me so very happy and appreciative for your content and other content like this.

For never having watched your videos before... this is the best one I could have jumped into. Congratulations on moving forward and taking steps to love yourself. Its hard... Its SO hard sometimes... But you can do it. Thank you for posting this. I needed this.

this is definitely the best transition/voice comparison video ive ever watched, I think it was the first one to make me cry (good tears). thank you for being you and sharing this with us

We love u Aaron! Ty as always for sharing parts of yourself with us~ 💜

Oh Aaron, you have found my feels so deep that I cried. It was a good cry. I love you for making this, Thank you from the bottom of my heart that's feeling like it's been shattered top pieces today