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Ash Hardell
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I did it. I got top surgery. Watch my journey to flat and happy! :D
Better Help: betterhelp.com/ashhardell
Top Surgery Chronicles Episode 1: • i chose a top surgeon ...
Episode 2: • wanna see a top surger...
Mal Blum, the music person: malblum.bandcamp.com
People in cute, surprise video:
Emily, Brianna, Liz, Brian, Mom and Dad, Mom and Dad in-law,
Alayna: / missfenderr
Echo: / bechobirette
Aaron: / @aaronansuini
Chase: / uppercasechase1
Riley: / justindennisyt
Fiona: / neonfiona
Chandler: / misspancake52
Kaitlyn: / realisticallysaying
Karen: / xperpetualmotion
Jack: / loraxism
My book with lots more info like this :) goo.gl/9zXFpw
Free book: goo.gl/Gerie7
Stalk me! (Or don't, I don't own you...)
Second Channel: / ashleymardell
Twitter: / ashhardell
Facebook: HeyThere005?r...
Tumblr: / ashhardell
Instagram: ashhardell

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Комментарии : 11 тыс.   
@oliviasmith5595
@oliviasmith5595 5 лет назад
"Yup there's two of them. Cool. Soon there's gonna be zero" best. Quote. Ever.
@ashmorgan8855
@ashmorgan8855 4 года назад
ikr.
@Goomba203
@Goomba203 4 года назад
O.k c.o.o.l
@michaelalove2786
@michaelalove2786 3 года назад
Lol
@Moon-tz1iy
@Moon-tz1iy 3 года назад
For real tho
@milkybuttercream4762
@milkybuttercream4762 3 года назад
Y E S
@itsjustabbi257
@itsjustabbi257 5 лет назад
"I have a headache and I'm hungryyy" "When was the last time you ate?" "...midniiight"
@alexthebadbitch2577
@alexthebadbitch2577 4 года назад
My mood after I wake up from a five and a half hour rest
@unicornnoodle8191
@unicornnoodle8191 4 года назад
My mood litterly all the time
@Maukiki
@Maukiki 3 года назад
xd
@breotaku7711
@breotaku7711 4 года назад
“Please enjoy this emotional montage of everything that led up to it” *Add starts playing*
@jaydenwillow2846
@jaydenwillow2846 4 года назад
That happened to me lol
@lemonmations476
@lemonmations476 4 года назад
I know right-
@kinrekii
@kinrekii 4 года назад
I don't have adds :)
@geezer4974
@geezer4974 4 года назад
So it happened to just about everyone then?
@ashmorgan8855
@ashmorgan8855 4 года назад
same.
@whereeverigothewindfollows
@whereeverigothewindfollows 4 года назад
Me: "I'm not gonna cry, no tears today, nah nah nah I'm not gonna cry." Also me 6 minutes later: *sobbing happy and sad tears*
@HeyThere005
@HeyThere005 5 лет назад
HOLY MOLY. Watch the whole thing to understand why I made this choice and exactly how (ECSTATIC) it makes me feel. This vid has everything; the good, bad, ugly, and all the love that top surgery has given me. I hope you enjoy :)
@taeda1607
@taeda1607 5 лет назад
Ash Hardell omg you so lucky
@fionayiaski3624
@fionayiaski3624 5 лет назад
SO SO SO SO HAPPY FOR YOU!! 💕
@Bee-jr8rw
@Bee-jr8rw 5 лет назад
Ash Hardell UR MY ROLE MODEL!!
@judesmith3660
@judesmith3660 5 лет назад
I loved the video, I'm so happy you made it :)
@remystic_spirit
@remystic_spirit 5 лет назад
I follow you on Instagram so I got to see some of it! I also have some of my own dysphoria so I tend to shy away from top surgery videos. But I’m super happy for you!
@FemboyLevi
@FemboyLevi 5 лет назад
'theydies and gentlethems' I laugh a little to hard about this xD
@spearminttss
@spearminttss 5 лет назад
Me tooo
@pythagorastheorem2503
@pythagorastheorem2503 5 лет назад
*too
@jackiesante
@jackiesante 5 лет назад
This is funny but they and them are pronouns not a gender
@jimkutsko6272
@jimkutsko6272 5 лет назад
@@jackiesante SO TRUE!! It is defenetly funny but some inncorrect terms.
@the_dark_therian3461
@the_dark_therian3461 5 лет назад
I dont see whats funny. I believe they stated that they were nonbinary. They dont feel comfy as either gender. Of course its the pronoun isnt a gender but its a more respectful to way describe them for who they are.
@h4unt3d_j4ck13
@h4unt3d_j4ck13 4 года назад
I wish I could get top surgery, but at least I have a binder.
@fardareismai4495
@fardareismai4495 4 года назад
I hope you'll be able to one day. Lots of love.
@chichirinuriko20
@chichirinuriko20 4 года назад
I thought about getting a binder too
@yaoifever2379
@yaoifever2379 3 года назад
Yeah.....I do have a lot of binder ...cause I don't want unwanted boobs but also afraid of surgery............
@shouldacomewithawarninh4974
@shouldacomewithawarninh4974 3 года назад
Hopefully one day you are able to 💗😊
@fardareismai4495
@fardareismai4495 3 года назад
@@yaoifever2379 understandable, surgery is scary. Do what feels right for you, and talk to a professional about your fear. They know what they're doing and they might be able to help you move past it.
@danieldayton9536
@danieldayton9536 4 года назад
Girls in middle school: I hate bring flat I wish I was thick Ash: I wish I was flat
@rexitoxalmovedtojazkyll8366
@rexitoxalmovedtojazkyll8366 4 года назад
I was the same way as ash lol
@aquaconsetllations1699
@aquaconsetllations1699 4 года назад
I feel the same way as Ash rn Oof
@rexitoxalmovedtojazkyll8366
@rexitoxalmovedtojazkyll8366 4 года назад
@youtube viewer wanna trade lmao
@alysoncrawford4592
@alysoncrawford4592 4 года назад
I’m a girl but wanna be flat bc i’m insecure 😂
@uh4372
@uh4372 4 года назад
BRUH AM 10 AND I HAVE A BIG CHEST
@Shadoegamer
@Shadoegamer 5 лет назад
Honestly seeing your journey makes me feel almost like I’ve been through it with you and im literally like exploding inside with joy
@Shadoegamer
@Shadoegamer 5 лет назад
Ash if you read this i wanna tell you- you are like my LGBTQ+ Role Model like seriously eeek so excited because of the heart on this comment
@zmata1263
@zmata1263 5 лет назад
I have been subscribed to your channel for a long time now. Like... since before you and Grace met. I've never commented on any of your videos until today. I just wanted to say that I am incredibly proud of you and your journey. You are an inspiration to so many people, myself included. You deserve nothing but the best! You look awesome! Thank you for being courageous enough to be your authentic self. Thank you for letting us be a part of it. Sending nothing but love your way.
@spearminttss
@spearminttss 5 лет назад
Isabela Mata dat cute! Dat cute!
@strawberrydoughnut4219
@strawberrydoughnut4219 4 года назад
"but first let us enjoy this emotional montage of everything that led up to it." and then I got an ad for tacos from burger king.
@ashmorgan8855
@ashmorgan8855 4 года назад
best doctor ever ''yep there's two of them cool soon there'll be zero'' i need to get me a doc like this 🤣🤣
@Pixieedits-gk7ki
@Pixieedits-gk7ki 5 лет назад
Ash and grace are the cutest things *THE SWEATSHIRT GAVE BIRTH TO A HUMEN*
@elleohai
@elleohai 5 лет назад
you should be able to spell what you are, dear human*
@strangechild3172
@strangechild3172 5 лет назад
Who said they were a human?
@gakto.1936
@gakto.1936 4 года назад
They a couple??
@theweirdone641
@theweirdone641 4 года назад
Lovely they might have been doing it on purpose
@shinu1923
@shinu1923 4 года назад
@@gakto.1936 yeah? They are married.
@doddleoddle
@doddleoddle 5 лет назад
crying at graces vid and all ur lovely friends :””””)
@doddleoddle
@doddleoddle 5 лет назад
ALSO CONGRATS
@doddleoddle
@doddleoddle 5 лет назад
U LOOK AWESOMEEEEEEE
@kaybaie
@kaybaie 5 лет назад
DODIE!!! HEY HEY HEY 💛
@neuroseptember1020
@neuroseptember1020 5 лет назад
AAAA ITS DODIE ❤️❤️❤️
@Katelijne137
@Katelijne137 5 лет назад
hey dodie didn't expect to find you here :D also I totally agree with you, Ash looks awesome
@ashniedosmialek3464
@ashniedosmialek3464 2 года назад
This was three years ago. Three years. And I still watch it whenever my dysphoria gets me down. Thank you ash. Ok you quit posting but thank you
@dumbclown
@dumbclown 2 года назад
And then boom they came back
@ashniedosmialek3464
@ashniedosmialek3464 2 года назад
@@dumbclown I saw!
@oscarcerrillo3375
@oscarcerrillo3375 Год назад
@@ashniedosmialek3464 😂
@maironelfstone896
@maironelfstone896 5 месяцев назад
I watch this almost every night... dysphoria really has me down rn. This reminds me that it'll be better someday
@Ketaminex808
@Ketaminex808 4 года назад
Me: mom can i have a top surgery pls? My mom: WAIT ARE YOU TRANS? me: pfft of course not , i'm still a boy Mom: hunny you were a girl Me: oh Hate my "jokes"
@user-ix3jh4er5j
@user-ix3jh4er5j 3 года назад
Me: I'm non binary but this is relatable content.
@ArtisanAsteroid
@ArtisanAsteroid 3 года назад
I just am going to randomly say this. I was born female but am now realizing that I am an enby. I feel comfortable with he/him pronouns but am I not valid if I “look like a girl”.
@nichole..1
@nichole..1 3 года назад
@@ArtisanAsteroid I’m no pro but I think you’re totally valid just how you are. The LGBTQ+ community has a lot of different classifications. As long as your comfortable with yourself and who you are I think you can totally be “qualified” as enby. Like I’m (almost positive) that I’m trans (I was born female), but I don’t think I’ll ever fully ‘look’ like a male. I’d preferably use they/them or even she/her pronouns so I think it just matters that you’re comfortable. Again, I’m not a pro at this sort of stuff but I hope I helped somewhat (doubt it tho lol). Have a great day anyways!
@seapinecone2869
@seapinecone2869 3 года назад
@@ArtisanAsteroid what you look like has no effect on what you are on the inside! As in, your are 100% valid if you don’t look “androgynous”!
@Mark-s747
@Mark-s747 3 года назад
@B N9476me either 😭😭😭
@robynmartin445
@robynmartin445 5 лет назад
I am very glad that Ash has made their decent from sweat shirt to human. That’s what this series was all about, right? Glad their transition went well.
@HeyThere005
@HeyThere005 5 лет назад
lolololol
@finngotcher1895
@finngotcher1895 5 лет назад
What are sweatshirt pronouns
@starxpowerxx
@starxpowerxx 5 лет назад
Rainbow Pancakes the depth of this comment knows no bounds lol
@fuzzola8809
@fuzzola8809 5 лет назад
LOL
@jimkutsko6272
@jimkutsko6272 5 лет назад
@@HeyThere005 So funny!!!
@NOAHFINNCE
@NOAHFINNCE 5 лет назад
Your results are INCREDIBLE
@algriffin7630
@algriffin7630 5 лет назад
Noah!! You are awesome:) you and ash need to collab sometime
@peeboyb5215
@peeboyb5215 5 лет назад
I know right
@peeboyb5215
@peeboyb5215 5 лет назад
I bet you cant wait for yours!
@sofiaxcosmo894
@sofiaxcosmo894 5 лет назад
Ily noah!
@sofiaxcosmo894
@sofiaxcosmo894 5 лет назад
Ok yes i need the collab!!
@erentischart4218
@erentischart4218 4 года назад
As a trans masculine non-binary person seeing this makes me really excited about when I eventually get top surgery Update/ edit: i am one day post top surgery and I couldn’t be happier. To all the trans and non binary folks out there, I love you and I believe in you. Good things are coming so hang in there and keep believing in yourself ❤❤❤
@arthurkirkland6840
@arthurkirkland6840 3 года назад
Me too
@LS-fe4ob
@LS-fe4ob 3 года назад
Yay mutilation!
@whocares11222
@whocares11222 3 года назад
As a fucking what?
@daddyshrek124
@daddyshrek124 3 года назад
@@whocares11222 huh
@NatureLover-pj2qe
@NatureLover-pj2qe 3 года назад
I also really want top surgery
@naturegirlfromny
@naturegirlfromny 4 года назад
Hi Ash, my child has recently come out as trans. I am 53 and have been very supportive of them for the last few years. They are talking about getting top surgery. I suggested that they wait a while. They have just started taking T and while I'm not upset, I am nervous. I think your videos will be helpful for me.
@autistictrashrat6924
@autistictrashrat6924 4 года назад
If they are over 18 and have been fully diagnosed with gender dysphoria it would help them alot to get top surgery
@uooqij2998
@uooqij2998 2 года назад
Not the point of ur comment but you’re an amazing parent for educating yourself for your kid btw
@OfficialGrellSimp
@OfficialGrellSimp 2 года назад
Yo did your kid get top surgery yet? (If they are 18)
@rue_cifer
@rue_cifer 16 дней назад
this just might be the most wholesome comment on all of youtube. you are a kick-ass parent and i hope your kid knows how lucky they are.
@Olliepop608
@Olliepop608 5 лет назад
It's crazy because a lot of the time I see this huge difference but with you it's just exactly how I always saw you.
@HeyThere005
@HeyThere005 5 лет назад
Ollie Shrum AWWWWWWW OMG best comment ever
@adehagstrom1440
@adehagstrom1440 5 лет назад
Ash, you are sooooo awesome, amazing and beutiful!
@lazysun1
@lazysun1 5 лет назад
I actually thought so too! :-)
@Jammidodger
@Jammidodger 5 лет назад
So happy for you! Congrats 😁🎉
@dots_and_boxes_master3838
@dots_and_boxes_master3838 5 лет назад
Hi Jamie. You're awesome.
@foreveralone4237
@foreveralone4237 5 лет назад
I love ya 🙆🙆❤❤
@ethandunn5292
@ethandunn5292 5 лет назад
Oh hi, Jamie
@llt8101
@llt8101 5 лет назад
It would be so cool if you did a video with Ash!
@creedpotter2761
@creedpotter2761 5 лет назад
Oh my gosh I love you and ash
@ghostfields
@ghostfields 4 года назад
It's such a crazy feeling watching this while healing from top sugery
@wybiefletcher6739
@wybiefletcher6739 4 года назад
Awh I'm so happy for you, how's recovery going?
@user-qjvqfjv
@user-qjvqfjv 8 месяцев назад
Sorry that society pushed you toward self-mutilation.
@TimdeVisser86
@TimdeVisser86 4 года назад
When Ash cries I just wanna comfort 'em. You're doing so well and we love you!
@user-qjvqfjv
@user-qjvqfjv 8 месяцев назад
*her
@maironelfstone896
@maironelfstone896 5 месяцев назад
​@@user-qjvqfjv Ash actually uses any pronouns, so nice try loser lol
@kannaraminarik510
@kannaraminarik510 5 месяцев назад
@@user-qjvqfjvwhy? I thought they are non binary.
@astonjamesmusic
@astonjamesmusic 5 лет назад
i got a pride advert during this and it’s the first lgbt advert i’ve seen can you hear me crying
@cajunvedafox5557
@cajunvedafox5557 5 лет назад
I did too..
@inamiinas
@inamiinas 5 лет назад
I just got it too
@lonelyperson9779
@lonelyperson9779 5 лет назад
Aston same thing here is was amazing
@cajunvedafox5557
@cajunvedafox5557 5 лет назад
watched the whole thing
@internetcrybunny
@internetcrybunny 5 лет назад
I got a 5 minute ad and I watched the whole thing thats the best thing I‘ve ever seen
@extras19
@extras19 5 лет назад
I don't know why but it was SUPER hard for me to see Ash crying. I felt like I was watching a really good friend cry and I couldn't reach out and hug them and I hated it. I'm glad they added the cute video Grace made later though, it made me feel better to see Ash getting all the support they deserve. Congratulations Ash! I hope you're feeling 100%!
@isabellaruppelt8132
@isabellaruppelt8132 5 лет назад
FrenchFryGirl I know right I was like “ASH NOOO ITS OK IT WILL BE OK”
@extras19
@extras19 5 лет назад
Emma Johnson, thank you for clarifying my comment, you're correct. But I believe Hobart was referring to a reply above that said "he/she/it", which is indeed wrong and a horrible thing to say, but that person is just trying to be inflammatory so there's probably very little point in arguing with them.
@yakkyjoe1
@yakkyjoe1 5 лет назад
@@happyfuntime7098 right on Happy. Who goes and gets their camera and brings it in front of a toilet to cry.
@misayo85
@misayo85 4 года назад
Ash: erases their chest *Me thinking about erasing my chest and being my transgender self* *Me imagining myself with a boy’s swimsuit* Me: ;M;
@arthurkirkland6840
@arthurkirkland6840 3 года назад
Same
@yourmum970
@yourmum970 3 года назад
YEET THE TEETS
@henmaydostuff8338
@henmaydostuff8338 3 года назад
yo same
@harlownon_air2885
@harlownon_air2885 3 года назад
I just recently found out that I’m gender nonconforming and it’s just so nice to see that it’s OK to get top surgery even if you’re not female to male
@katstarr5383
@katstarr5383 4 года назад
Watching u cry over the toilet brought back a lot of memories. I was there supporting my best friend through his top surgery and he was absolutely miserable
@uppercaseCHASE1
@uppercaseCHASE1 5 лет назад
I’m SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPYYYY FOR YOUUU MY LOVE❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ YESSSSSS
@rissl6559
@rissl6559 5 лет назад
uppercaseCHASE1 YESSSS 💞💞💞💞💞
@uppercaseCHASE1
@uppercaseCHASE1 5 лет назад
Queen Quenepa what
@CitlalisCozyCorner
@CitlalisCozyCorner 5 лет назад
Queen Quenepa wtf????
@BakaMat02
@BakaMat02 5 лет назад
Queen Quenepa LOL. Ok. I don't usually comment because there is just no point, but it's so funny how you went on Ash channel to pick on Chase about his own personal self-doubts and stuff and call it misogyny. That's so unrelated, uncalled for, unneeded and inapropriate.
@alanatokayer41
@alanatokayer41 5 лет назад
uppercaseCHASE1 this is only my second comment on RU-vid ever but I had to...chase, don’t let what this person says get to you. Clearly, they don’t know you. I thank you for putting yourself out there, even if it means having to deal with comments like this. 💚
@HayleeLouise
@HayleeLouise 5 лет назад
Ash you look amazing! I’m a straight, disabled mum vlogger to a 4 and a half year old.. your content is nothing like I’d normally watch but I’ve shared your channel with so many others because I think you’re so brave, honest & genuine. Never change. Xx
@kittyworld1741
@kittyworld1741 4 года назад
Me : I'm gonna get to surgery Me after watching: y-you know I..i might just s-stick with a c-chest binder (I hate stitches and getting huge cuts srry) XD
@Nimoes_archive
@Nimoes_archive 4 года назад
XD same, that healing process looked like too much to deal with.
@fardareismai4495
@fardareismai4495 4 года назад
It's all about what's right for you! It's understandable not to want a major surgery. Just be happy and do what feels right
@mritten
@mritten 4 года назад
@Merlinian you still have tons of time,if you feel like telling her now we all support and love you. I'm not out the closet yet but I am wanting a binder as soon as I come out.You do you and be happy
@missnaomi613
@missnaomi613 4 года назад
@@mritten and the other younglings here, be brave and trust yourself. Your family may be more supportive than you think. (One of my kids is non-binary.) You are valid and loved. Gd bless. 💚
@behindzerosp
@behindzerosp 3 года назад
But like the hunching and the way binder stick to you when is hot and how sometimes you feel your chest even more eith binder.....
@midnight_demons4551
@midnight_demons4551 4 года назад
This really just confirms my hope that I can get top surgery when I’m able to this was so cool to see this video it really does make me feel like getting top surgery is the right decision rather than putting up with the constant top dysphoria
@maxwellh.5393
@maxwellh.5393 5 лет назад
the thumbnail says “surery” that’s a mood
@thighmaster4000
@thighmaster4000 5 лет назад
Max all the yes. My thoughts exactly! They surery made the right decision🎉🎇🤣
@cameronwood4388
@cameronwood4388 5 лет назад
Meeeeeeee, English is my first language and I spell things wrong and forget letters 75% of the time
@depthperception1550
@depthperception1550 5 лет назад
Ash, it would be hurting yourself not to get top surgery. We love you. -the Internet
@eleanorcherry872
@eleanorcherry872 5 лет назад
@robert_costello
@robert_costello 5 лет назад
Speak for yourself. That comment represents about 1 1/2% of the planets population. And "Ash”, you made a wrong decision!
@eleanorcherry872
@eleanorcherry872 5 лет назад
@@robert_costello First of all Ash is their name so dont put it in parenthesis. Second they made the right decusions becuase it made them happy. And third, you can have your opinion but please keep it to yourself if you know its rude and/or offensive
@robert_costello
@robert_costello 5 лет назад
Angelicelephant ! She mutilated her body and you expect me to embrace her with open arms? No! The only person that made the right decision, was her doctor. He saw a profit from this. And don’t tell me when to share my opinion, it’s protected by the Second Amendment and there is no such thing as hate speech.
@robert_costello
@robert_costello 5 лет назад
Angelicelephant ! #Trump2020 🇺🇸
@anjafuchs2378
@anjafuchs2378 4 года назад
I felt really sorry when I saw you in the bathroom crying...but happy that u are so strong! Hugs from Germany
@Nova_Rays
@Nova_Rays 3 года назад
I'm been watching this video over and over I just wanna say... thank you, your positive energy is amazing and this video is giving me confidence and comfort to get top surgery. I've been scared to get it but I'm finally feeling excited for the future of when I do get it... thank you so much ash. You've helped me more than you know!!! 🙏😊
@Kree.B.
@Kree.B. 5 лет назад
I feel kinda dumb admitting this since I don't know you irl, but I cried a little out of happiness for you. It's so awesome seeing someone get to live a happier, healthier life and that surprise video from Grace (and Grace in general) was amazing. Congratulations!!!
@nikolaipetrichor2065
@nikolaipetrichor2065 5 лет назад
Same I almost cried. Such a sweet video, I do fricking happy for them!
@jadeddeath02
@jadeddeath02 5 лет назад
I cried! When I saw @uppercaseCHASE1 and Aaron and all the love, I teared up. Ash! You look so amazing and so happy and I'm so happy for you! Fuck the haters, you made the absolute right decision!!
@feedyoursoul1383
@feedyoursoul1383 5 лет назад
Grace is such a great wife :)
@rubytolstad1432
@rubytolstad1432 5 лет назад
I was hoping you were gonna say, "It was a big weight off my chest" bc I live for puns lol sorry. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU, ASH!!!! This must've been so scary, I admire your courage. I think you're a great person deserving of all the love in the world. You are loved and valid.
@gorillaau
@gorillaau 4 года назад
I was going to say, Get Out.. but under the circumstances.. Get Off might be more appropriate.
@insertname3034
@insertname3034 2 года назад
She said that in the coming out to her mom video
@jaxsonlopez6109
@jaxsonlopez6109 4 года назад
I just found your channel. I am crying. Thanks for making this. Congrats so much!!! I know I've always needed top surgery and watching this really put it in perspective. Thanks for being so honest and wholesome dude, continue being awesome !!
@jakebrycegifford
@jakebrycegifford 2 года назад
Currently watching in hospital before my own!!!!!
@sho_ando04
@sho_ando04 2 года назад
I hope it went really well!!!!
@jakebrycegifford
@jakebrycegifford 2 года назад
@@sho_ando04 I GOT A HEMATOMA :)
@sho_ando04
@sho_ando04 2 года назад
@@jakebrycegifford Oh no!!! Hopefully it's okay soon!!
@screamsformemes
@screamsformemes 5 лет назад
me, watching this at work: I'm not gunna cry... me, when Ash gets the bandages off: *sobs openly in public* I can't wait to join you fam. I can't wait to be flat too.
@dino.420
@dino.420 5 лет назад
This actually has me thinking of why I dont feel comfortable as a girl or a boy, I am bisexual but I avoided thoughts any further than that because I didnt want to confuse myself. But now I'm just thinking💀
@ihavenoname727
@ihavenoname727 5 лет назад
Careful, proud of your sexual orientation, I just know that surgery is painful.
@the_dark_therian3461
@the_dark_therian3461 5 лет назад
@@ihavenoname727 But its worth it!
@the_dark_therian3461
@the_dark_therian3461 5 лет назад
I wanna be flat too..I dont feel comfy in my female body. Maybe not bottom surgery but top YES
@corninmyass356
@corninmyass356 4 года назад
The K.C Show!! I am 11 but I know I want to be female and I want to have top surgery and maybe bottom too but I’m afraid that I will be unaccepted by my family
@n.c.435
@n.c.435 5 лет назад
"look, there's two of them, soon there'll be zero" me as a surgeon tbh
@pogsquiggle
@pogsquiggle 3 года назад
I really struggle with internalised enby-phobia and every time I need some enby joy, I come to your videos. Thanks for all the sharing over the years, it's really helped me
@Daveop
@Daveop 4 года назад
I’m so happy for you!! You’re so brave and I wish you the best with your body and I hope you feel 10000000x more confident with yourself being you xoxo
@eldensummers8377
@eldensummers8377 5 лет назад
I remember when cutting your hair was a giant deal to you, I'm proud of you, ash. You've come so far
@RolyWestYT
@RolyWestYT 5 лет назад
I mean, I don't know much about top surgery so maybe this is more normal than I think, but they so clean and your scars seem so thin and small from others I have seen!? They've done a really good job
@milesjones9652
@milesjones9652 5 лет назад
Roly AGAJSKSK ROLY
@MetalRatte2007
@MetalRatte2007 5 лет назад
I thought the exact same thing. The scars look sooo sooo good :-) that doctor is a champ.
@gia9551
@gia9551 5 лет назад
Ash is also very much a champ for doing so well at taking care of the scars, and people also sometimes just heal really well. My dad is diabetic and 69 years old and his scars from cardiac bypass surgery not quite 3 years ago are nearly invisible and that’s a really serious surgery with massive incisions
@calicush
@calicush 5 лет назад
Roly omg roly ilysm your vids are so cool
@thomash7975
@thomash7975 5 лет назад
Their chest wasn't that big to begin with. That's something to keep in mind too.
@renmare393
@renmare393 Месяц назад
I’ve been watching your videos for like six or seven years now. I remember when this video first came out and I already knew I wanted top surgery at that point. Now it’s five years later and I’m rewatching it because I’m just two months pre-op and I’m feeling overwhelmed. Seeing you go through this is scary but also so hopeful. I think your results are amazing :) thank you for being a part of my life even though you didn’t even know. I grew up (in my teens) watching you and now I’m finally an adult. I feel like you’re always on the next stage of life and I look to you with respect. I think that’s beautiful.
@QuiescentusAstra
@QuiescentusAstra 4 года назад
13:12 this made me cry a bit, because when they told u this, i kind of felt appreciated too even tho im alone in my room
@AshtonColby
@AshtonColby 5 лет назад
I’m 5 years post post with that same surgeon and I’m SOBBING RN just feeling all the feels over again!! ☺️🙌
@jemma_mae_
@jemma_mae_ 5 лет назад
CONGRATULATIONS ASH!!!!!!!!
@HeyThere005
@HeyThere005 5 лет назад
JEMMA thanks pal!!!
@cashleysquad-gaming6491
@cashleysquad-gaming6491 3 года назад
“theydies and gentlethems” that part thoo
@princy2979
@princy2979 4 года назад
I’m so happy for you congrats ash ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
@TyTurner
@TyTurner 5 лет назад
I saw the results in person like a month ago and I still cried at the reveal lmao...like a lot. Congrats
@stars_to_share
@stars_to_share 5 лет назад
Same!!! It's so nice seeing someone in such a state of true self😊
@jaypegleg
@jaypegleg 5 лет назад
Grace: Tell yourself that.. that you love yourself Me: *cries*
@TonyThimble
@TonyThimble 4 года назад
I love love love how happy you are with the decision. I love you so much, I sat through the 4+min ad before your video. I remember how seeing you happy helped me chop of my hair and how happy I was/am with that decision. *stares now at the two lumps with a raised eyebrow.
@kyliesturner2691
@kyliesturner2691 4 года назад
I know this video is over a year old now but I have watched this so many times and it makes me so happy every single time. It is so validating for me, a nonbinary person who doesn't want to start T. It was actually this video that made me realize that, hey, I can get top surgery too if I want! Anyways, thank you for being you and I am so happy for you still.
@blakevonstein8334
@blakevonstein8334 5 лет назад
This is one of those rare long videos that I watched all the way through without skipping anything and I don't regret it at all. I'm so happy for you Ash! 💜💜💜💜
@Kylerkiin
@Kylerkiin 5 лет назад
MercifulBlockhead yeah, I usually don't watch long vlogs all the way through but I was just so emotionally engulfed in Ashe's journey
@jay-fj2ug
@jay-fj2ug 5 лет назад
Same
@TheJoshSpeaks
@TheJoshSpeaks 5 лет назад
Thank you so much Ash for sharing your story with us. The greatest gift anyone can ever give is their honest self and I feel like sharing your perspective, the ups and downs has been a wonderful gift for all of us who watch your channel and love and support you. Thank you for being you!
@TheJoshSpeaks
@TheJoshSpeaks 5 лет назад
Jo Hammer hey Jo, you have a very interesting perspective. It sounds like you may have a vision of what a "pure body" looks like, but I'm not sure I would agree with your definition there. People make changes to their bodies all the time, whether it's permanent or temporary, and the purpose in most cases is to boost their own self confidence. That's partially why we get haircuts or nose jobs or braces or top surgery or wear makeup. You may also have a perspective that somehow people who make decisions for themselves are resulting in the degradation of society, I'm a firm believer in protecting the rights of the individual and standing up for people making decisions for themselves about who they are and what they want to be. I'm not sure if you're a collectivist and believe that people should follow social order, whatever it may say to maintain a sense of status quo but it sure does sound like you think in that way. All in all, we carry different perspectives but I would just like to know what your perspective is rooted in? My perspective is in loving yourself for who you are deep down inside, if changing your physical appearance helps you feel more comfortable displaying that and having it align with who you want to be, I'll support a person's right to do it. What is your perspective really rooted in? I don't ask to be sarcastic or rude, I would definitely love to talk to you about this. Maybe we can have a discussion and get a better understanding of each other here.
@TheJoshSpeaks
@TheJoshSpeaks 5 лет назад
I think the comparison you draw is a non-comparable one. In the instance of changing your appearance with surgery, you are not putting yourself at risk for long-term potential harm. Anorexia does, it can lead to health issues and more. Would you make the same comparison for someone who gets breast implants or a nose job? You have to compare actions with similar results, to group in all behaviors doesn't help distinguish anything. My position is to support people's decisions to make changes in their life which will increase their well-being without leading to long-term physical harm. You also made the claim that my position is a relative one based on fads, trends, philosophies and a huge growing industry, etc. For that I would just say that you would have to provide evidence that the person is doing it for one of those reasons rather than just asserting it to be so. For example, if someone wants to get their ear lobes stretched out with ear gauges, I would support their right to do so if they feel like it's something they've thought through and want to do it because it will increase their sense of well being. You COULD make the argument that a person may be doing it because it's more fashionable and trendy right now, but that position doesn't really assert any claim because saying someone shouldn't do something because it's fashionable is not an argument.
@jennywhite1425
@jennywhite1425 4 года назад
Hey Ash, good on you for getting surgery! I remember when I woke up from my surgery and it felt amazing (and very painful for a while). I can see the happiness and relief this has brought you and I love seeing that. Keep living your life exactly how you need to. ❤
@cheyennem3167
@cheyennem3167 4 года назад
I know this is like a year and a half late, but I am soooo happy for you Ash! I'm glad that you took that step and it made you so completely happy and relieved.
@Kovukingsrod
@Kovukingsrod 5 лет назад
I’m so happy for you Ash, your chest looks so great. Thank you for sharing this, I’m sure it’ll help so many AFAB non-binary people with chest dysphoria who want to do the big chop but feel alone in a world of mostly binary transguys on T going through with it. :)
@stinkbug5310
@stinkbug5310 5 лет назад
Kovu is a unicorn Hi Kovu! I agree. It must be really hard to go through with top surgery surrounded by binary trans guys on t and and some nb trans people on t. I'm so happy for them!
@jordanallen609
@jordanallen609 5 лет назад
Omg it’s kovuuu
@robynmartin445
@robynmartin445 5 лет назад
How the heck did you describe my entire life in one comment? 😆😅
@capriizun
@capriizun 5 лет назад
OMG KOVU!! And you are so right.
@calistooo
@calistooo 5 лет назад
Kovu is a unicorn ii
@sophiestephensonreade9046
@sophiestephensonreade9046 5 лет назад
*gasp* the talking sweatshirt turned into Ash *gasping intensifies*
@Th3_m0st_forgettable_g1rl
@Th3_m0st_forgettable_g1rl 4 года назад
The sweatshirt has evolved into an ash!!
@maia2257
@maia2257 4 года назад
*gotta catch em all*
@danielblair5970
@danielblair5970 2 года назад
I'm watching this on Monday, after having my own surgery this past Friday, and I keep almost crying from joy and relief seeing and hearing someone else feeling so similar to me. I take my binder off the first time today, and this kind of muscle weakness always makes me feel nauseous. I never thought I'd get here. And this video, when you first posted it, helped me realize I needed it to begin with. Thank you, Ash.
@eve_f6307
@eve_f6307 4 года назад
i just came back from a rly shitty / transphobic / nbphobic side of yt and this is soo wholesome :DD
@EchoGillette
@EchoGillette 5 лет назад
AAAAAAAAAAAAH I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU ❤️🖤❤️🖤❤️🖤❤️🖤❤️
@iva5263
@iva5263 5 лет назад
Echo Gillette love you 😙😙
@cal2100
@cal2100 5 лет назад
Echo Gillette OMG HI THERE
@lil.hippie.dippie3887
@lil.hippie.dippie3887 5 лет назад
Yay!! RU-vid influencer love💟💟 There is hope.
@edzara9137
@edzara9137 5 лет назад
Echo Gillette I got so excited when I saw you in here and supporting Ash! Love you 💖
@clm5190
@clm5190 5 лет назад
Echo Gillette sammeeeeee also ily ❤️
@graveyardpansy
@graveyardpansy 5 лет назад
YAY!!!! I love love love seeing fellow nonbinary people becoming comfortable in their bodies. I’m infinitely happy for you. 💞
@cr0wtherr
@cr0wtherr 5 лет назад
Ashton Daniel aaa hello fellow nonbinary
@HeyThere005
@HeyThere005 5 лет назад
Thank you pal
@robynmartin445
@robynmartin445 5 лет назад
What’s up my enbys?
@qwfhydvhdvnjfgjfjfjfjdhfjr3871
Subed
@Charlie-ez5zr
@Charlie-ez5zr 2 года назад
Wow this made me emotional. Just watching the journey you took to get top surgery. I have thought about top surgery, at the moment I wear a binder. So happy for you Ash
@jerkyflimnuts
@jerkyflimnuts 4 года назад
Seeing the stitches made me think one thing... Owie
@lillykarjala6697
@lillykarjala6697 5 лет назад
Grace: we're on are waaaayyy to surgeeeeeerrrrryyyyy were so gaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy Me: flips hair back and forth* U wanna here a joke call me shakesqueer lmao
@libbywalsh5643
@libbywalsh5643 5 лет назад
Hear* ;-;
@timwolfskin4851
@timwolfskin4851 4 года назад
*our
@annabellewhitener
@annabellewhitener 4 года назад
*we’re
@apostrophe.t
@apostrophe.t 5 лет назад
I have never seen one of your vids before, but this one was on my "recommended" list, and I'm glad it was! Congrats on the top surgery - they did an excellent job, and you seem so thrilled, which is the most important thing. People are never going to be satisfied with the life choices anyone else makes. It's about YOU and what makes you happiest, because nobody else is going to life your life. I don't know why strangers feel the need to thrust their opinions into people's faces, but eh. Forget 'em. You're doing great. :)
@jacanderson2349
@jacanderson2349 3 года назад
I'm a little over a week post-op now myself, and it's so interesting to see the difference between surgeons, and what they do/recommend. I know you're about two years post-op now (yay!), but I still wanted to congratulate you! So congrats!
@benniebarreto2887
@benniebarreto2887 Год назад
Thanks so much for sharing the process to you surgery! It's been really helpful to help me with my own process 😊❤️
@nylonsghost7938
@nylonsghost7938 5 лет назад
I cried. Basically for the whole video. I told my bf and he just promised to do something like what Grace did for you and just. This wasn't even my journey and I was crying my eyes out. I'm so incredibly happy for you.
@jesstheghost61
@jesstheghost61 5 лет назад
"I'm just a talking sweatshirt, I CAN'T MAKE PROMISES." 😂😂😂 - jessie
@-lauraevangelene-9453
@-lauraevangelene-9453 4 года назад
Omg your so strong and amazing I’m so proud! I hope your ok now, and your happy with your decision! Love you and your beautiful channel!
@lainspencermccann6836
@lainspencermccann6836 4 года назад
The video at the end and the montage really made me tear up. Even though this was like a year ago. I'm so proud of you Ash, you've come so far. This makes me more ready for my future top surgery later on. I'm proud of you!
@user-pe8uk4mi8y
@user-pe8uk4mi8y 5 лет назад
I'M WRITING THIS AT 1 AM WHILE I'M GROUNDED FROM THE INTERNET BUT I'M A LITTLE SNEK AND STARTED BROWSING THE INTERNET AND SAW THIS VID. CONGRATS ASH!!!!!
@Blackade2000
@Blackade2000 5 лет назад
Jessica is a Messica What did you do? XD
@squeakyb.7709
@squeakyb.7709 5 лет назад
Obey your parentals
@203laurenn
@203laurenn 5 лет назад
I’m telling on you
@FaithRosie
@FaithRosie 5 лет назад
My heart broke when you struggled with the migraine!! They are a frequent thing with me and I felt your pain!
@graceisaloser8619
@graceisaloser8619 5 лет назад
MsFaeNicole oh gosh same :( they’re terrible
@SidV101
@SidV101 5 лет назад
I’m sorry you have to deal with them regularly! I think the fact that your reaction is empathy really demonstrates an inherent goodness in your heart, I wish you all the best in dealing with your struggles
@charlie_7160
@charlie_7160 4 года назад
im two years late, but the wholesome feeling of this hasnt changed.
@zlehua1990s
@zlehua1990s 4 года назад
Watching this a year later I realized this video was posted on the one year anniversary of my top surgery! Congrats to you every day for taking this step, happy to see you shining and living your best life.
@alexandera323
@alexandera323 5 лет назад
Me clicking on this: I will not cry *The love mini video starts* Me: *openly weeping*
@urmom-ki1of
@urmom-ki1of 5 лет назад
Hey Alex
@deadaccount4116
@deadaccount4116 5 лет назад
Alexander Benson lol same
@GreySystem1997
@GreySystem1997 5 лет назад
My top surgery is today, and im sooo freakin nervous. So I had to come watch your video just so I could get excited again!!
@jenniferhergert4447
@jenniferhergert4447 5 лет назад
hey! How did it go? :) Wish you all the best!
@apieceoftrash425
@apieceoftrash425 5 лет назад
How was it?
@waz411
@waz411 5 лет назад
CONGRATULATIONS to you sending my prayers that you have a speedy recovery and always be proud of your self from New York City ✌
@falloutphan7341
@falloutphan7341 5 лет назад
Hope your recovery is going well!
@Lillyluvsanime
@Lillyluvsanime 5 лет назад
How'd it go? Asking a month after the comment was posted.
@eilidhowens5038
@eilidhowens5038 2 года назад
You are so inspirational to everyone around and your results are amazing! Sending loads of love 💕
@heathervanos8975
@heathervanos8975 4 года назад
It's incredibly to see how happy you look after the surgery! 😊
@WillowChord
@WillowChord 5 лет назад
I’m excited to have my boobs added instead of removed. I haven’t done anything at all as far as transitioning goes because i’m closeted, but I’m very exited to come out one day and be the girl I am, even if i’ll be six feet tall with broad shoulders
@elilouislarn923
@elilouislarn923 5 лет назад
Kassandra M my cousin is a cis woman and she is six foot and is quite broad from all the sports she does it’s not that uncommon our advice ( mainly from her since I’m ftm )be careful about heels if you wish to wear them as some will make you look way taller than you actually are when wearing them wedges are good u know the ones with the cork bottoms stilettos with the platforms at the bottom add extra height ( she personally doesn’t like them but it’s everyone’s taste) hope we helped 😊
@penguinpinata
@penguinpinata 5 лет назад
hugs from out of the closet :3 you can do it girl ! There'll be a day when it feels safe for you , and then it'll feel great to be able to be who you are out loud ^ w ^ and there's thousands of people just like you out there , and right here ^ w ^
@Kempster_K
@Kempster_K 5 лет назад
I'm not tall but am a cis that sucks at heels: wedges are good and kitten heels are AWESOME because they still can be very cute and feminine or have pointed toes, but will be like, anywhere from 1/2 to 1 1/2 inches. Also, I'm excited for future-you to be the girl you are, as well Kassandra M!
@katharinag3283
@katharinag3283 5 лет назад
I'm a 18 y/o cis female, 6ft tall with broad shoulders. Haters gonna hate, but who cares?
@laurieadda
@laurieadda 5 лет назад
Come to the Netherlands, here are 6ft women not extraordinary haha
@ninoukos6444
@ninoukos6444 5 лет назад
SO PROUD OF YOU HONEY
@fishwearingsocks6402
@fishwearingsocks6402 3 года назад
Seeing everyone being so wholesome is just amazing!
@tortillatwig2377
@tortillatwig2377 4 года назад
I’m very proud of you, that’s all my emotions in words, good job and I hope your happy with who you are! :)
@giannaannese7442
@giannaannese7442 5 лет назад
"My new designer nipples." I love you!!!
@PoppyIsUrMummy
@PoppyIsUrMummy 5 лет назад
7:08 when my mom asks me how long I stayed up last night.
@klassynicoleoldaccount2763
@klassynicoleoldaccount2763 5 лет назад
lol same
@N-VRIVER
@N-VRIVER 5 лет назад
I just got an ad
@PoppyIsUrMummy
@PoppyIsUrMummy 5 лет назад
@@N-VRIVER oof
@sadievalencia8889
@sadievalencia8889 5 лет назад
Me: *clicks on time* *ad shows* *ad shows of a game where there is a cheater thing* Holy.... (Btw it was like kissing thing lmao)
@tylerpachuilo355
@tylerpachuilo355 5 лет назад
Gay
@aidene7579
@aidene7579 4 года назад
CONGRATS im so happy that you got what you wanted! I watched the entire video!
@TaziH3ro
@TaziH3ro 4 года назад
rewatching this the day before my surgery cos it gives me happiness and joy!
@Thatonebandnerd
@Thatonebandnerd 4 года назад
I hope it goes well
@bonnie5076
@bonnie5076 5 лет назад
"We're on our waaaaay to surgerayyy. We're so gaaaaaay" 😂 ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!
@lapeachMC
@lapeachMC 5 лет назад
Okay i have a real question though... so in general, men showing their nipples is “advertiser friendly”, but female boobs are not. So what about when someone is nonbinary? What are the rules based on? Gender or the size of boobs? Cause some men have larger ones and some women smaller.... what makes your naked top half suddenly not NSFW? Just my random thoughts... Congratulations Ash on the surgery ^^
@AMC3120
@AMC3120 5 лет назад
lapeachMC I was thinking that. So before the surgery because ash still had boob fat...can’t be topless. Now that the fat was removed...ash can proudly be topless.
@lapeachMC
@lapeachMC 5 лет назад
Alecia Chapin exactly!! Its quite bizarre tbh. And i even know for myself that seeing a more masculine top half of the body is like completely normal, but female boobs are instilled in me as something nsfw and something that should be covered up...
@thaartsysushiroll6280
@thaartsysushiroll6280 5 лет назад
lapeachMC ikr, like I'm not saying I want to run around topless (personally), but why can men's chests be exposed while female boobs can't? I just can't seem to think of an awnser that makes sense
@lexwithbub
@lexwithbub 5 лет назад
It shows how ridiculous this arbitrary line around boobs vs not boobs is, doesn't it? #freethenipple
@kainovember
@kainovember 5 лет назад
Boobs are age restricted, and flat chests are not. So idk... I think it doesn't have to do with the person's gender, just whether they have boobs or not, or whether or not they want to/can show their chest
@mackelliotschaefer
@mackelliotschaefer 3 года назад
I have watched this video SO many times and this is now my first time watching it knowing I am getting top surgery myself! FINALLY! After years of waiting! I am so excited!
@vicv4x557
@vicv4x557 3 года назад
Good luck! :)
@therubestergaming
@therubestergaming Год назад
Congrats on surgery my dude
@bigsad1540
@bigsad1540 4 года назад
This is the first video of yours that Ive ever watched and I'm so glad I watched it, I'm totally in love with your bubbly personality and you really made me happy. Seeing your reaction to the result of the surgery literally made me cry and I'm so glad that you're happy ❤️❤️❤️❤️
@lilaahhbaabyy6229
@lilaahhbaabyy6229 5 лет назад
*your voice is so cute i can’t :,,,)*
@offyourhead
@offyourhead 5 лет назад
Everything about her is cute *EVERYTHING ABOUT BOTH OF THEM IS CUTE*
@hikiangelpyon
@hikiangelpyon 5 лет назад
Squishy Beano Them not her that’s why they needed top surgery 🤣
@offyourhead
@offyourhead 5 лет назад
@@hikiangelpyon Oh crap that never occurred to me! Thanks for that, I legit forgot about it, sorry again ;-;
@hikiangelpyon
@hikiangelpyon 5 лет назад
Squishy Beano LOL it’s okay IDK a simple mistake especially if your not LGBTQ+ don’t worry.
@nicomakaveli1
@nicomakaveli1 5 лет назад
@@offyourhead @squishy Beano@Squishy Beano
@srento
@srento 5 лет назад
THE SWEATSHIRT GAVE BIRTH TO A HUMAN 😱😂
@oldstrawberrysocks2334
@oldstrawberrysocks2334 5 лет назад
Stephanie R. That was so pure somehow, Ash is just pure in general
@srento
@srento 5 лет назад
YES! Ash is pure with a wonderful personality 💜
@williamgoforth9195
@williamgoforth9195 3 года назад
I'm getting top surgery July 21st and I've been on t for 3 years now. This video not only answered all I needed to know but made me so happy to know how ill feel when it's revealed 🥰 congratulations!!!
@berthagilham5684
@berthagilham5684 4 года назад
I can't wait until my son gets his done. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.
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