Top 4 Reasons Why An Empath Struggles In Life. [Watch THIS If You’re Sensitive!] 

Up until now, how have you coped as an empath? Let me know in the comments below!

Hiding, being very quiet, staying home, very few close friends

My coping mechanism was isolating myself from my surrounding by day dreaming and fantasy. This has resulted in me not being able to study as my mind keeps wondering. Most times i am not present, i keep thinking, analysing and day dreaming that the day goes by without me achieving my goals and this has really affected my life. This has become an addiction that i am finding it difficult to stop.

Avoid crowds, negative people and keep to myself alot.

It's more sad when you have experienced all this but do not have anyone to talk with about

I totally relate to number 3. I tend to cope by isolation/detachment or sleeping more.

Starts at 8:55. 1) Premature ego formation. 2) Soul fragmentation. 3) Heart closure. 4) Mental dissociation.

In 24 minutes, I understand myself so much more then I ever have in my 47 years on this earth! What you called numb, I always referred to it as being dead inside, because I didn’t understand or didn’t have the proper terminology. I am so grateful to have found your videos! Thank you!

Numbing, overeating to fill up this feeling of emptiness inside. Fragmentation. Withdrawing. Caring for others (avoidance of my own issues)

My coping mechanism was indifference and isolation , pretending everything was OK or I did not care.. . Thank you very much ☺ looking forward for the second part 😊

how do i cope? long walks at 12 midnight. meditating in an empty church. being by the water. going to a park/forest. sleep, my dream life is extraordinary. talking to my neighbors cat and dog, they truly understand me.

I went through very significant soul loss in my early 20s, although I didnt understand at the time that that's what happened. I was very numb for years. Felt like a hollow tree. Overtime, however, through a lot of soul searching, I began to uncover the truth. I learned about how the soul (or essence) separates from the body during trauma. I grew up with a covert narcissistic parent, and so there was a lot of abuse. I self loathed, and had a lot of self sabotaging tendencies. I'm still on the healing journey as healing from narcissistic abuse takes time, and it happens in layers. I know, that my true nature is being an empath.

As an empath every day is a challenge. My mind is mostly my enemy. I have trust issues and I make bad dissisions because of that. The world arround me is dissappointing to me. So I isolate. Being in nature and taking care of animals help me. A pure surrounding helps me cope. I still have a long way to go I guess. Greeting from the Netherlands. Love your channel.

Very tough life as an empath.

As far as I can remember my coping mechanism was to avoid people. I never really liked being in groups especially during school days even in work because I can easily pick up other people's emotions. On the outside it looks like I lack teamwork and loyalty, but its only because I dont want to get mixed in other's energies. Yes, I come from a problematic family lines.

9:07 1) Premature ego formation 12:44 2) Soul fragmentation 15:51 3) Heart closure or blocking 20:18 4) Mental dissociation

When I was a child, I remember I was very sensitive to how my family interacted with me. I used to cry alot. My parents weren't aware of my extreme sensitivity. As a result I lived with anxiety and fear all my life. I had little friends and was very shy. When I was 22 yrs i embarked on being of service to others, later on in life that has been my coping mechanism, as by helping others I forget my problems and the satisfaction that it gives me will fill my cup in return. Im an energy healer and massage therapist so I was always feeling tired, nowadays I give myself Reiki and I enjoy being in nature to ground and balance myself. I always felt that I didn't fit and that I was somehow different until I understood who I was. Life is hard being an empath and HSP, sometimes I wish that I can change and careless. Although personally I cannot relate to those protection mechanisms, I can see that other persons whom I know have had childhood trauma and are not empaths , are effected mentally, don't show emotions and seem detached from the world. Relationships with such are very difficult, I will be following your videos to learn more. Thank you so much Christina.xx

Eating chocolate and staying in my room, one of my coping mechanism

I lived in denial all my life and closed my heart and always been numb .. my childhood was a nightmare and I really want to contact my inner wounded child

I too was sexually abused at 4 years old. I remember the exact moment that my inner child separated frommy conscious mind. The color of the world changed and I remember thinking, "This is my self defense mechanism." I coped by abusing alcohol, drugs and troubled relationships. I appreciate so much you helping me realize why I am who I am and how to deal with existing as an empath. Thank you so much.

I use my extremely high empathy to try to help others through the understanding and of them and helping them. I consider it a blessing and it makes me really happy to help others in life and make them happier

Wow Christina, I've been battling with this for 41 years and you have shone light on it in 24 minutes flat! Thankyou for unravelling it. This will be helping sooooo many people now and more importantly in many years to come..... Bless your heart!!!! Xxx

no big trauma here, but as a lifelong unaware empath I intuitively did two things: 1. close myself off when I need to recharge, my husband jokes that I'm like a cat: sometimes I want to be social & other times no way, ima hiss at you. 2. retreat into deep thoughts, self-story telling, reading etc

I have been people pleasing,my nervous system has been shot for years,not so much anymore but heavy drinking, isolating.

Alcohol, denying my intuition, and isolation.

I have coped as an empath by doing breathing techniques exercises, pranayamas, yoga, self-parenting, self-love, meditation, changing my inner dialogue to self-validation, re-educating my inner critic, knowing that I am enough, physical exercising, being in nature, improving my communication and assertive skills, practising acceptance, boundaries; learning to say no when I don't want to do something; doing shadow work and embracing shame, fears and transmutating them surrendering them to God source. Also, acknowledging that Self-love is not a one-time decision, but a constant daily practice. Counselling to guide me through spotting patterns has also been very helpful. I keep on working and might have lots to work on yet. But in 6 months I feel like thriving already after a breakthrough.

I remember early on using laughter as a coping mechanism...whenever energies felt tense I would usually crack a joke to lighten the mood, even if the joke was about myself...i'd do anything for a laugh 😆 😆 😆

Thanks to Christina, I now no longer want to hide in fear from overload from the world. When I DO feel overwhelmed, i have developed a technique which allows me to quickly change my entire state and come back out deciding that I will be the most powerful person in the room. Thank you Christina 😊👍

This really resonates with me and I can't wait to hear your advice on how to change these coping mechanisms. For now, I keep a photo on my desk of myself at 3 yrs old. Putting her picture where I could see her everyday brought back that little fragment of me. I made a vow to her that although the adults in my childhood failed at keeping me safe, I will always take care of her. When someone significant in my life wants me to do something I'm not keen on doing, tries to make me feel guilty for not wanting to do it, I think of that little girl. Protecting her helps me set better boundaries.

Isolation works best for me. If I have to mingle, I carry crystals, black tourmaline to be specific, I smudge after mingling and lots of sleep 🙂

You look like you are glowing today 😃 I can see your light radiating from within and I appreciate your knowledge!!

Thank you for this video! This comes as an answer to my questions in the right time. I've got all of them. I'm 29 and i lost contact with sensitivity around 12/13. I've been a 'walking head'. 2 years ago in a crystal fair I met the person that changed my life. She's intuitive and used soul retrieval & soul rescuing and that day I felt sensitivity again. Had an entity attached to aura and it was removed. I've been healing myself since that. 2 months ago found out about c-ptsd. I've suffered abuse my whole life. Covert narc father and codependent mother. I'm happy for breaking free :)

My coping mechanism is isolation and keeping to myself. I've always been a loner, never really wanted to be around people. This video is accurate. Thanks for posting it. I love all your videos. I've learned a lot about myself. Thank you.

My coping mechanism was OCD cleanliness with my material things and isolation. The only friends I made were deeply troubled, which was clearly my way of helping others. At 36 years old I am still struggling with making friends that are reciprocal relationships. My whole family worked on my sensitivities and made me come to them and work to be loved. That made it difficult for me to just exist as myself. I use all modalities including grandmother ayu, grandfather Huachuma/peyote, hypnotherapy, body work, acupuncture, sensory deprivation, daily meditation including work on grounding. God, I feel like I work so hard just to be me and I still don’t have really reciprocal relationships.

I have all those mechanism that you mentioned, I was premature with 6 month and I was born sick, I was on the incubator for 1 month, wow, I understand many thing now. I close my heart so hard that I never let anyone get close to me. Always few friends that I loved but I never let them in. My heart is opening with the spiritual ascension process. Thank you so much for this video, so useful and revealing. Many blessings to all. 🦋🙏💙

I experienced what you've articulated verbatim. My mechanism was isolation and being fearless about "cutting people off" that exemplified the slightest bit of control, indifference, or manipulation. I grew up with narcissists in my house & didn't believe there was happiness on the other side of the Living hell I thought was life. I've spent all of my adult life healing & unblocking every area of spirit land.

My heart is definitely blocked! All my friendships and relationships have gone haywire. I now realise that I need to stop focusing on the psychopathic and narcissistic abuse in my life from age 0 - 71 and focus only on my own recovery. (Forget all those awful people!!!) With your guidance . . .

I could relate all the way. Challenge I face now is all these have turned into habits that are hard to shake off as a middle aged adult despite my awareness

I really love your enocent authentic smile n laugh

It seems as if I used all 4 coping mechanisms, I feel separate from others, always feeling as if I'm in a different dimension and somewhat lost, so happy to have found this, now I know so much more exactly which steps to take! 🎉🙏

Being in my roomm, connecting to my energy, watch emotion flow, being safe. I love it

FASINATINGLY LIFE GIVING! I have Always wondered how my physical form could take so much stress. I use to cope with.... crying lots of crying. Seizures when i was 17 and up. alcohol, cigarettes, men, fantasizing, pot and oh ya and did i mention crying? Ha ha ha i think it saved my life. I found out that crying changes our cellular memory also. Cool

This explains why I was a run away and why all my life I have moved so much. My parents moved all the time. I went to over 20 public schools. It became a pattern in my own life. I can remember one Easter, after my second birthday 2-18-1957, I was walking towards the front door when I stopped and looked down at my legs and started laughing at the fact I was a little girl with these cute little legs! I always felt like I was not even from this planet. I had this knowledge that there was something very special I was to find. Not that I was special, but this knowledge was. At times it was the only thing that kept me alive. I did find what it was I was to find and it changed my whole life, everything! Thru the Baha'i Faith I found my healing. I'm at peace and feel right at home where I belong. I love your video's.

Thank you so much Christina! This is so recognizable again. My coping was to intellectualize everything. I made my head work overtime, previously without realizing it myself. I thought I could handle what I had experienced by understanding everything with my head. Until my body started to send ever stronger signals and my head couldn't take it anymore. Then I got a burnout with mainly an overloaded nervous system. I could hardly think or remember anything. This gave my body (and inner child) the space to reveal and process what it had stored all this time. I am so impressed with my wise body and soul!

Wow thank you🙏🏾, tears were streaming down my face 25% into watching the video. I had so many realizations about my own life and how much I've grown in the last four years of my life. Many thanks for being so open and authentic in your videos. You are a badass Empath!😄 To all Empaths, you are never alone. Stay strong, love and light to you beautiful souls🙏🏾

I am afraid of people looking at me, no idea why... so I coped with it being introvert and reclusive... I feel empty, unloved, useless and sometimes pain.... I cope with eating... So the more I eat the more I am shamed and afraid of people looking at me... still have no idea where this circle can stop...

I'll confess for me my coping mechanism has been alcohol - from the time I was twelve - and it has not been constructive. I only recently understood 'what was wrong with me', I'm 49 now. And by recent I mean June. Thank you so much Christina for your videos. Your channel - and the video "What's An Empath REALLY..." ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-IjW1NOBmCm4.html - was one of the first I came across online that helped enlighten me that I've got empathic and/or HSP tendencies and how myself and others can use this to our advantage. Thank you to your beautiful soul ❤

Hi, my entire life feels like heartbreak, therefore I pray a lot in order to have strenght eavh day. Even so, if someone hurts i comfort them and try to heal them.

I'm 71 years old I still can't figure anything out And crying all the time. I found you a few days ago And you are really helping me. I started weeping halfway through this When I stop blowing my nose I will listen to the second Half

Numbness, isolation, set intention to close my heart as it hurt too much. 💬 After started my spiritual journey worked hard to open up my heart again. But still have numbness and pretend I do not care. 💭 Thanks Christina for helping me to put things into words. 💖

This is absolutely incredible information! Up until now, I've hid with agoraphobia and chronic migraine as a very negative way of protecting my emotional/energetic body/energy. (If I'm hiding in pain, maybe they'll leave me alone) I am so excited at the info you're sharing - there's a new way of thinking around the corner! 💜💜💜💜💜🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙

Do not like when someone says stop being so sensitive it really makes me upset.?

Ignoring wounds by distractions of focusing on spiritual growth, positive affirmations, meditation, hiking, eating at extremes drinking

I escaped into my mind literally feeling num and like a robot no emotions at all My mom’s always telling me that it’s wrong being a rock like with people, isolated I had no friends I always took Care of myself I didn’t bother anyone at all BUT I was the one who was blamed for something I didn’t do and was taken advantages of always at home and at school, I always ask myself why I stand up for poor and victimized people and can’t stand up by myself? Well My childhood was extremely awful Thanks god I am taking actions to heal myself 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Idk if I would consider myself an empath yet as I am on this journey of figuring out why I feel the way I do or what’s wrong with me (maybe it’s something RIGHT with me 🤔) but I am overly sensitive to the world around me. Since 2018 what’s helped me cope is my husky dog! God, her energy...her soul...is so in sync with mine and it’s so cliche to say but she brings out such great joy in my life- from getting me to be more active because she’s so energetic or the silly faces she makes when she’s trying to understand me. It’s been much easier to cope with the world. I really hope to get some videos up soon and hopefully impact people positively! ❤️🙏🏻 we all deserve happiness and joy in this world, which can get pretty heavy and dark at times.

Alcohol for the longest time. When I was in high school I just stayed away from people. Being bullied and harassed by the other students my whole life I simply would get as far away from them as I could when I was not in class. As far as I could get without leaving the school. I'd wait outside my shop class room waiting for lunch to end. I could go to crowded places like a concert and feel okay, but at a mall, all the discordant energies make me want to leave right away. I would usually just say away from those situations where I sense some highly emotional turmoil.

That was so helpful, thank you so much!✨💖✨

Thank you times infinity. I needed this. You may have just changed my life. I've coped by drinking, mostly. My heart has been closed off for many, many years. I've had 2 heart attacks. The first was when I was 34. I've sabotaged every romantic relationship I've been in because A) I don't feel worthy of love and B) I don't want to burden anyone with having to deal with someone who feels that way. Time to watch part 2 of this video.

Thank you, so helpful. Almost 50 yrs old and constantly learning and seeking answers. These videos are better than any therapy I ever had😊 Some coping mechanisms are avoiding crowds, self employment, rest when needed.

Also, I am so sorry for what happened to you as a child... That must have been so difficult. You are such a brave soul to have come to this earth and to have taken on what you’ve taken on. Thank you for being here. I’m sending you so much love and light❤️

Der Christina, I have been on a spiritual journey for the the last couple of years and seen a lot of videos and heard a lot of different advice. But this video resonates to me on such a deep and powerful level, it like 'coming home'. I now fully understand what has happened to me since the abuse and how it has made me lead a life, that I did not come here for. A few months ago somebody told me my inner child, ' did not come here to lead the life, I have been living'. I knew that what she said was absolutely true, but know ... it is so so so clear. Thank you so much for sharing your wisdom.

I have been crying a lot when my fanily speak down on me

This touches every core of my being as I was always struggling to understand why am I able to see through people intentions, why do I feel pain when my thoughts are supposedly ok. I didn’t realize I was an empath until recently and now this video touches my core and made my understanding so much clearer. I was sexually abused at the age of 5 and while you’re through the 4 protection mechanism and I can relate to it and really explains a lot of why my life has been a struggle up until now and getting in touch myself has helped tremendously. Thank you for your beautiful light. Love and light in source remembrance

I love this, great stuff. I can relate to this 100%!!

Excellent video Christina. You really did a great job in explaining all of this.

Thank you for this video. You're an amazing teacher and your channel is an amazing resource. ✌️💜💜

This is one of the most enlightening videos on empaths . . .as a spiritual teacher and empath I am actually numb now as my elderly cluster b mother has just passed away..I have had to go no contact with my entire dysfunctional family of origin over a year ago for my health..forgotten wellness is returning after constant inner work.my childhood of carrying the burdens of my entire lineage has taken its toll...I energetically and physically cannot go to the funeral service which is in another country as my consciousness now cannot be silent on the covert abuse in this family...it is for the highest interest of all involved I stay away at this time as my brother and sister gave rejected my truth and spiritual beliefs years ago...I am learning to love myself after abandoning me for 5 decades ...enough is enough...I have just found you beloved sister. ..how I have missed you. ..I see a beautiful warrioress goddess of light...much gratitude for all your authenticity and wisdom at this very difficult time for me..💖

Wow, I had literally just got back from a family gathering and I felt extremely overwhelmed and I wrote in my journal “how am I suppose to deal with these situations” And then I found your video. They way you communicate and explain everything resonates with me deeply and I’ve been taking notes and having epiphanies. There’s a lot that I do to cope, it starts with feeling out of control of my body, then my mind starts racing and before I know it I’m looping negative thought patterns and curled up. I try to ask Myself what I need in that moment but Once I’m overwhelmed I just need to go be alone to let it go. This is going to be difficult to navigate. But I’m going to start with remaining aware and choosing what I take in. Damn.

Wawwwww your explanation is all I looked for till now. I felt everything you mentioned and I'm shaking right now... Can't believe... Soo powerful! Thanks a lot for helping me and others. Your soul is so beautiful!

It's been sure hell, from as far as I can remember... Constant fear and shame, being molested at 7, all I did was surrender... Abandonment from the most important person, a Mother... Went thru an identity crisis, the only girl out of four kids, acted as a brother... Amazingly, my heart space has remained open... Although the depth of tears I've cried, equals the biggest ocean.

I'm sorry to hear what happened to you when you were 4 years old. No one should have to go through that. Thats first of all. Second, i knew this video would be right on the money even when you announced the release earlier in the day on another post. I'm sharing this with many people. It puts into words what I couldnt tell them. Much love to you and your team, please keep the love and the videos coming!

Thank you for this video and your channell! Thoroughly enjoying it❤❤❤❤❤❤

Avoided any person ...was Overwhelmed.... Changing now

Thank you so much for your videos, Christina! This one has given me so much insight into my own journey as an empath. My coping mechanism has been fantasy, something called Maladaptive Daydreaming, it's a way to dissociate using fantasy for hours... I didn't understand why my whole life I've used fantasy as an escape, until this year when I discovered I was sexualy abused when I was a little girl. Although I can't remember what happened I'm working on healing myself. Thank you so much, again!

Love your videos and the way you explain all these mechanisms and aspects of life. Wish I knew at least a part of what I learned from you so far 20 years ago. Maybe I would be somewhere else with my life today. On the other hand though I probably wouldn't have understood what exactly this is about back then. Anyway, better late than never! Great video! Looking forward to the next one 🤞 and BTW - thank you for doing this!

I have always turned to my spiritual books they are my comfort zone and a great reminder that there is other like -minded people in the world and Im not that "wierd" after all..🤗💞🙏🌸🤯💚❤🌸🦋 Thankyou Christina 🙏

Really very helpful, dear Christina! It has clarified some "unexplained" things with me as child and with me as a Mother of two empaths! Thank You for this, You Wonderful Heart Alchimist! Blessings to You and us All 💟🎆💞

I am highly sensitive and an emphat and am struggling with life, relationships and everything going on inside me. Life is just more and more overwhelming. Right now I only feel safe and comfortable being home alone.

I have never before heard anyone explain this in such a magnificent way!! Amazing thank you!!!❤️❤️❤️

As I was watching your video started to cry because I felt that you were describing me. It's been a long road for me, looking for answers, trying to heal my heart and soul but at the same time I have understood that I came here to this world for a few reasons and one of them is to spread love and compassion to others.

This all makes so much sense to me!

I dont feel that I'm an empath. But I do feel energy and there was a time in my life where i would see things before they would happen but that's all really.

I have no words as I cry. My bestie sent me this today, & I understand it now what I didn’t know in 52 yrs. Since childhood I would do all that you mentioned & I knew something was up, but I didn’t know how to express or pinpoint it. After so many years of therapy, I have knowledge of why I am like this; thanks to you, this video and my bestie for sending it to me. 🙏. I will review the next video.

I really liked your video! I have always coped by disassociating and closing my heart. You explained it very well 😊 it's been getting better over the past few years as I figured out what's going on and what I need to work on. Looking forward to part 2 😁

WOW, I am truly impressed, I rarely ever comment on videos but this was really one of the best videos I have ever seen or even heard of on this subject!! I resonated with EVERYTHING that you said in the video and am so looking forward to Part 2 because I am ready to learn how to release my final coping strategy. In the past few years, through my awakening process I have been able to let go of using: alcohol, marijuana, cigarettes, vape pens, caffeine, sugar, anti-depressants, anti-anxiety meds, toxic foods, abusive relationships etc, but the pain meds seem to be the one mechanism that I am terrified to live without. Yes, I do have physical pain that they are prescribed for, however I am noticing that my urge to take them to "numb out" mentally and emotionally are the more dominant triggers than the actual physical pain. I am scared to let this coping mechanism go, however believe that I will be able to as soon as I can re-integrate all of those layers of separation. So really and truly, THANK YOU so much for creating such a life changing video; this one was really special. Your ability to take such abstract ideas and simplify them into relatable talking points that we all can completely understand and even more importantly, actually use for growth is so impressive. This really is one of my favorite Spiritual channels because you are so grounded and your videos are so practical and help us all feel so much less alone. Much love Christina

Empath, HSP, INFJ, scapegoated by narc (adoptive) parents.... isolated and always blamed shamed and guilt tripped. Trying to shatter these programs, rough road at 54. I am not sure I ever coped successfully. Still trying to accept that my soul chose this.? The hardest lesson is the fast path to evolution... I want 12D now. Peace to all

Thank you for this video. For me, the hardest lesson has been dealing with my family. All I've ever wanted to do is protect them and support them while all they ever do is hurt me and break me. I know I signed up for this lesson, but It's a very challenging one. I can feel my sister´s envy towards me, my mom and my dad´s guilt and regret about the life path they chose. And all of them project their fears and pains on to me. It feels like hell been the only conscious one in the family and noticing how every day they choose to stay stuck in the victim mentality. They all have received signs from the universe to evolve, but they choose not to listen. It's very frustrating and very selfish.

So true to this day...I remove myself...from any stressful situation. I guard my peace at all cost...

yr video has triggered some deep memories.. yr right i separated from myself... i acted as if nothing has happened... putting a facade that everything is all right.. was adopted as a child... i was extremely attached to my foster mom never stayed away from her even for a day. i looked for security through her rt up to 25yrs wen she died.. I'm 48 n still not got over her death....

I have social anxiety and have got too overwhelmed to interact with strangers. Hid myself, not spoken up/semi-mute at times, not known who I am/had much sense of self. Lots of resistance to feeling.... Self harm occasionally and too much chocolate! Those are the unhelpful strategies I can think of in adult life.

I believe I shut down almost all memories of my childhood; hearing what you say it resonate that it has been a protection. It makes me soooo sad and angry thinking how children are abused instead of being cared and protected. Thank you Christina!

I have always PROTECTED my emotions, my pain and my fear but not telling anyone what I'm really going through! I developed this ability to divert any conversation that I thought was leading to me have to tell the truth about what I was going through!

I’m struggling right now. I avoid social situations, don’t like going out and like to be alone but it’s really affecting me. :-(

I cut off memories and sad thing is I do it till now. Heart closure and other points too. I want to stop this now. Since my 30ties my emotions become lighter with the spiritual search. I was then a very closed minded catholic. It's very different now. Now I am searching purely spiritualy not religiously. I helps a lot. Also meditations. Right food. Suplements - looking after my body. I feel that the health of my body is closely connected to healthy emotions and healthy soul (it's always healthy but I can feel it deeper). I still wonder if my emotions are mine or others. I would like to " grow up " while being in my late 40ties. Lots of things have changed this year. Thank you for all the information you put in this video. It's very enlightening

I really really struggled starting at 17 years old when this gift came to light. I became an alcoholic by trying to numb out my environment. I have really struggled throughout life feeling so much. Can't wait to control this. Thank you Christina!

Thank you Christina! Your videos are helping me to understand who I'm. My childhood was terrible with a narcissistic mom. I felt unloved and unwanted. At age 5, I decided to zoom out everyone around me. I created a huge imaginary wall around me so I can't feel the pain I was going through. This video made me realized why I became the person I'm now. Thank you!

Watched this cuz it was in my recommendation list, surprisingly this kind of explain why my ability to feel emotions accelerates from 1-100 so fast recently. Cuz I was so numb to feelings when I was younger. I remember watching my parents argue every single day since I was 4 until the day they divorce which when I was around 13. My younger sister would be so upset and was always crying in a corner because of that. I would go over to pat her on the head while wondering which one of us was the weird one. Like literally nobody could make me cry or emotionally/mentally affect me when I was a kid unless someone physically injured me really badly. When my virginity was forcefully taken by my first crush from high school (in his car), I was a bit angry for being disrespected but apart from that I don’t feel much. I was really curious though, like how certain things can make certain people feel certain way. So, I took an interest in psychology field. Then I learned about psychopath and I used to believe I’m one of them; totally a dangerous human being whose unable to feel anything 💆🏻‍♀️. I thought I’m a psychopath who just love animals and simply like to wander everywhere alone for no reason. I really loved and care for my mum. Everyone was so against her and that made me want to be there for her even more. No matter how verbally and physically abusive she was whenever she was angry, I wasn’t able to be mad at her. I just felt she acted like that because her heart was hurt by my dad. Until recently, I had a major breakdown because of many horrible things happening in my life , crashing down on me all at once. This kinda cause my feelings towards her to totally change. I no longer want to be there for her. I would lock myself in my room to cry. I cried so much during the breakdown period until I can’t remember the purpose of me being me anymore. Not just towards her, but many other people I care about in my life too. It’s too much, the emotions I used to be numb to, I feel it so much now that I just wanna stay away from people even more. At one point, I kinda wish I’m a psychopath, for being able to feel so much, can be so so so painful. I still love my mum but i don’t want to be manipulated by anybody anymore.

I always felt like I was an empath. I can't even stand to see an ant die. It was confirmed that I am an empath by a DNA test. It said I was extremely empathetic

I got thru by escaping into fantasies,dreams...but what a shock to learn I blocked myself by telling myself "down here,no one can hurt my feelings...how refreshing to hear about the little empath we all were,thank you much blessings on your journey and much gratitudes, very great-full !

My spiritual awakening did guide and showed me how my protection mechanisms were actually harming me.. but still deep inside my heart I feel like the dark force is stronger than me and I won't be able to stop it..