I've to learn to let go of feeling annoyed and totally distracted by those laughters between your important and valuable words. heeheeheen basically erased the credibility of what was said before.
Thank you deeply. I sooo needed to hear this!! Yes, this order resonates and you articulate them to a T. I think Im In 4 and 5 and feel 6 creeping up❤😂❤
My PRO-TIP: When meditation on chakras, disolve your chakras into your aura field, resulting in basically a permanent state of open alignment of all the chajras. Your abilities to see auras without even trying will come seeing energy is automatic.
To me, all sex is sacred sex. It always was. Sex is one area in which I am in awe of duality, male and female. I love how the female and the male bond. I love getting into the female. It makes me whole. And yes, I'm a hetero male. But I love the female energy bonding. I love to infuse a female with my male energy. Hmmm, I'm finding it not easy to put my feelings into words here. But yes, we are source and sex brings us closer to source. I'm happy we can share this enjoyable experience.
I think it also needs to be said that totems can be large in size when you meet the actual spirit and that can be scary, so if you pursue the totem, be brave. I sent my totem away cos i got scared of it.
Queston: just this year I was in my bathroom and I looked out my window and saw 2 apartments across the street. I just felt tragedy and despair like something bad was going to happen. One of them stood out to me to the point of I wanted to knock on their door and see if they were okay, I obviously didn't. I felt thw same but not as strong as the green building. About 2-3 weeks later the green apartment was engulfed in flames, all three stories. It also started a fire to the apartment on the side but they saved it before it fully destroyed the inside. Thankfully, all adults, children and pets were saved. I have so many. Even when my aunt passed I woke up and felt a calm presence in my room. The next day my mom told me she passed away at 3:27a and I was awoken at 3:43a. I even had the urge to walk around a spot back to my bed as if someone was there, I even felt compelled to say excuse me and I did out loud. Just curious if anyone can enlighten me some on these. I have many others as well. These are the most significant and recent.
I have been on an awakening journey for about 22 years filled with trauma and finally had that aha moment about a week ago following my first reading 2 weeks before that.
I come from a difficult, dysfunctional and psychologically abusive relationship with my father who was a covert narcissist and had robbed me of my self-worth, I was homeless with him for a very long time during my upbringing and never had a good home life growing up. I managed to escape that and had to go great lengths to get away from him, I was lucky to have known the people that supported me and helped me with that process. I went to go be with my extended family that had found me on the internet, they thought I was a gift from grandma that passed away, I genuinely felt that I would belong with them and I thought they felt same way, but unfortunately, I guess they didn’t. What seemed like a gift from the universe, just turned into something that only contributed to my psychological and emotional wounds, I was only with them for 3 months because of how difficult they were to live with, and how conditional their love and regard was towards me, their love was like a benchmark, I couldn’t really be loved or accepted for just the way I am, I would hear a family member say “But he wasn’t raised that way!” “Oh it’s just gonna take time.” …and had to constantly jump through hoops in order to be loved, and if I wouldn’t, then it’s basically ‘bye peace out can’t live with your family’. It’s just unfair to me how my upbringing pretty much got robbed by a narcissist father and is something no kid should ever have to go through, while my fully related brother got to have what they called a ‘privileged life’. Yet, some online stranger on discord invalidates me and went on to say “why should they love you” and “who are you and why should you be loved and cared for” and another person made a negative comment about me wanting a life there with my family and he said “you don’t seem to realize you want a warped and distorted view of your family” and calling me a “poster child of emotional immaturity”. …even a former friend laughed at me and invalidated me saying “well they raised your brother and not you so he’s their kid and not you why do you think you deserve everything he always gotten.” and that put more salt in the wound…and my aunt didn’t even have any idea why I went to go be with them, even though she invited me and was like “why not come stay here?”. She would ask me “What are the advantages that you think you have of being here?” but in my mind I’m like “I didn’t come here just so I can gain some kind of material advantages or benefits I came to have a life here with my family” I told her “I don’t know” and she was like “then why did you come live with us honey?” …It has put me in a constant endless loop of rumination. I remember I stayed with a friend of mine and his family because his mom couldn’t sleep at night knowing that I was sleeping in a car in a parking lot somewhere. They treated me as equally as their 2 boys… I wanted that with my brother… every other kid gets to have a family home life with their families and their siblings, I believe it is the most basic thing a kid can have… but I can’t? I’m not supposed to?… I have had someone that recognized the validity of my feelings though, and that person said “how on earth can you not be allowed just the same if not more”. I just wanted a life there with my family… Why would that be a wrong or reprehensible thing?
