trying to get life together before the holidays🎄how I'm really doing, packing, new books 

8 minutes in and Emma all i want to say , on behalf of all of us, is don't be afraid to be yourself with us. You can complain every day and we will know where that is coming from. You are our book fairy, it's painful to see the light in your eyes dim a little.

i just wanted to let you know, as someone who doesn't comment often but watches every single video, that i so appreciate everything you share with us, and more than anything i hope that you get better and do whatever you need to find happiness

I have noticed the change. Before you moved to Toronto, you included so much nature footage, even just the sky and trees outside your window. When you first moved, you included a fair amount of footage of walks along the lake and in parks, and you walking in the snow. That all gradually went away and you do seem isolated in your apartment. Until you have a better solution, would it help you just to focus on getting outside as much as you can? I am an introvert like you, and really have to fight my tendency to isolate, which can lead to a downward spiral. Even going to yoga classes would probably help. I’m in a bit of a slump myself right now, and struggling to push myself out of it. I hope you feel better soon. ❤

Thank you for opening up to us. Normally I watch your videos silent since commenting is actually difficult for me personally as an autistic person (I never have the right words, I donˋt want to say something wrong, which always scares me). But today I wanted to say, that I am grateful for you. Your videos - especially when you share something vulnurable like in this video - give me so much comfort. My daily struggles as an (newly diagnosed) autist with a load of mental health problems may be different, but still I always felt seen and digitally hugged by you. When I had to drop courses and study parttime because of it all, I didnˋt feel alone anymore, because I saw you dealing with your health too. I felt so much more worthy, if that makes sense. I wanted to share this, because I am proud of you (am I allowed to say that?) for being honest. That is what I am here for - no false reality. It isnˋt complaining at all. It feels so strong to me. Thank you for being there during a hart time in my life. And in some way, I hope we are here for you that way too.

i think i can speak for many of your subscribers when we say that we do find such huge amount of comfort from your videos and are so grateful for what you do choose to share with us. thank you for being vulnerable with us even though it was hard for you and probably terrifying, even knowing we wouldn’t be upset. seeing you get back into yoga and going to the gym had me smiling so hard because it is so clear how hard you are trying to get out of the rut you’re in right now. this was a great vlog and i hope you feel better sooner rather than later! all my love emma ♥️♥️

Dear Emma, I'm only 10 mins in but thank you so much for being this honest with us. I just wanted to say that so many relate with your struggle a lot and it doesn't feel like complaining at all - it's an honest statement of how you truly feel. I wish that the new year will be a time to reconnect with ourselves, finding joy and confidence again. Sending lots of love!

It sounds very different when someone is being vulnerable and sharing genuine struggles versus complaining! You have never (imo) even come close to sounding whiny and unaware of any privileges you have. I'm so grateful that you let yourself share your struggles here despite your nagging worry it will come across as you complaining, because based on the comments I usually see I think it's been helpful for many of us

A silent viewer here, I’ve been watching you grow since your old writing vlogs :) But after watching the opening of this vlog I just knew that I needed to come out and say something. I’m so glad that you decided to film this and be honest with us ❤ Never be afraid to be yourself. I’m a Gr12 student from Ontario hoping to go to Western next year to pursuit English Lit and I see so much of myself in you. I appreciate you more than you know. My parents know about you and your content like your a sister :) I hope therapy goes well, sending lots of love and support ❤

The first videos I watched from you were those War and Peace vlogs. They sparked a profound passion for literature within me. Previously, I seldom read and didn't have a bookshelf. Now, for two years straight, I’ve been immersed in daily reading, and my bookshelf is rapidly expanding. Whether you continue uploading or not, your videos have already made a significant positive impact ❤

I never really comment but I just wanted to let you know how comforting your videos have been for me. I moved to DC from Texas a couple years ago and your struggles with being in the city and being away from nature really resonate with me. Your channel has been such a refuge for me and I’m very grateful to have found it. I wish you the best and I hope you start to feel better soon. ❤

Hi Emma, I just moved to a rural town and it has done wonders for my health (both mental and physical). I spent about 6 months of this year bed bound and you, for years since before you had 10k subscribers, have been a constant comfort. I felt so seen when you were dealing with your brain injury, being disabled makes things so hard but to see you still live your life and value yourself that was amazing. I’m sorry you’re not doing well at the moment, do what you need to do to get through the days. It will get better and be better and even though now is crappy it will be something you will learn from. Much love from australia x

As someone with clinical depression, seeing people open up about their mental health is so heartwarming.

I've had an awful holiday season (really year) myself, just one thing after the other. Seeing a video from you makes it a little better. I appreciate your honesty and openness, not trying to sugarcoat things. Happy holidays, Emma, and may 2024 be a wonderful year for you!

Also in the midst of a dark, heavy place, wondering how to be well, and feeling lost. I moved continents three years ago and feel like it’s slowly leached so much from me. Thank you for your presence and sharing this, it truly means so much. Sending lots of love

I found your channel in a very dark and scary moment in my life. Even though I'm not a reader (I've read a couple of books you've recommended tho), your energy and peaceful vibe helped to go through my rutines while I was cleanning or just when I couldn't be with my thoughts. Hope our support can help you somehow. Take care ❤

Dear Emma, I have been feeling soooo much compassion for you since you moved to Toronto. I have seen you struggle so hard to make it work and at the same time I could see the city sucking life out of you. I think there are more people out there who feel the same: I definitely did, when I was living in Berlin, Germany for about three years. Everyone was telling me that that was the place to be and that I had „it“ made. Long story short: I am back in my rural home region in Germany and finally start to reconnect with myself. Hang on there, lady - and don‘t be afraid to open up. Lots of love!

I can't live in a city, have done and hated it. Now I live in the woods much like RU-vidr Paola from Cottage Fairy but old and in a wheelchair. Your action plans sound great to feel better until you can get out of there. My adult sons have anxiety depressive disorder so I feel for you the struggle is real.

I was in counselling for a while, for depression/anxiety etc. At one of the sessions I verbalised how I thought people would react to me "complaining" or explaining what I was feeling or reacting to something. My counselor asked me - is that what you would think of a friend? And the answer was of course no. The lesson was to be kinder to myself :) I hope you enjoy the break with your family - cozy nights with calcifer and crisp winter walks with evie :)

I haven't commented for a while, but I wanted to add to the wealth of positive messages in this comment section already only two hours after you uploaded. I want to send you so much love and appreciation and comfort for the bravery you showed in this video and in your wonderful efforts to treating yourself with more love and compassion again. I know that you can get through this time and come out on the other side having learned so much and trusting yourself more than ever. I know that's how I felt after I went through a perhaps similar feeling. We are all here to support you, we all want and love to see you as you are and striving towards what makes you happy. The old and the new alike will serve you well, and I--and we all--wish you all of the best on your journey.❤

Hi Emma, I've been watching every video you've uploaded for more than a year, and every time you discuss the difficulties with mental health, it resonates with me because this year has also been one of the most challenging for me. I just want to thank you for being so open and honest; I really appreciate it.

Dear Emma, I’m usually a silent viewer, but I just wanted to say, please don’t be afraid of „complaining“ too much on here. We appreciate you for who you are and that includes both the light and the dark parts. Of course you don’t owe us any information that you don’t want to share, but don’t be afraid to say things you want to say for fear of being to negative. I also just wanted to say thank you, I’ve been following you for two years and your videos (both the happy and the serious ones) have brought me so much joy and comfort. Wishing you all the best and hope you feel better soon!💙

Emma I think one of the things that makes your channel really wonderful is your sincerity - being honest about this stuff doesn't detract from what you create, because I think the fanbase you've cultivated is very much here for honest/open communication. You've got a platform and a whole bunch of folks on the internet who care about what you have to say, and if what you have to say is that you've been having a difficult time then I don't think many of us think of that as "complaining," since that honesty is a big part of why so many of us have stuck around in the first place. So lots of love and support ❤ Also I hope you get to spend lots more time in nature in 2024 than you were able to this year 🍃 on a marginally related note, I recently read a book ("Romanticism Against the Tide of Modernity" by Michael Löwy and Robert Sayre) which has really helped me put my finger on the root causes of a lot of my own spiritual disillusionment with the world as it is today (with regards to capitalist alienation, car-centric urbanism, ecological destruction, technological utopianism, etc.) and I recommend it very highly to anyone and everyone. (repost 'cause I think yt is hiding my original comment for some reason)

Okay, I guess I'm pretty new here. Still, I feel deeply grateful for all the things you shared in this Vlog, Emma. I literally started to tear up right from the beginning because it just was unusual and still comforting to feel so understood. I am sorry that you feel the way you feel, but I am thankful that you shared: know that you expressing your feelings is always appreciated here!

i really appreciate this video. thank you for being so open and honest :) i wonder if getting some cat safe plants would help? if you’re unable to move, bringing in some greenery may help? and maybe hanging up some prints of trees and nature would help as well?

We're here for you girl ❤

you are so comforting for all of us, and i am so happy we are somewhat that for you. you are such a big inspiration. as someone who struggle’s constantly with mental health and has such bad anxiety it is just amazing to hear your experiences and it really just feels like i’m not alone. i hope it gets better, it always does emma. don’t forget that.

Emma, so many of us understand what you are feeling and going through. You definitely are not alone. I'm so glad you are returning to things and places that make you feel whole again. Things will get better, you have all of us here in your RU-vid world and personal life who are here for you. I hope you enjoy your holidays and tell Calcifer hiya for me! He is such a handsome boy.💙🐱

I really appreciate you sharing your honest feelings. You're a gem. Hope things get easier for you.

Live your truth dear Emmie. Know that you are not alone. I have been going through some dark times and felt like I've lost myself. But please please know this, that this too shall pass. And the light will break through. Know that the majority of us love you, adore you, and care about you. Anything else, anyone else that leaves hateful comments, know that they are unhappy individuals who are hurting and want to hurt others. Ride right over any of those comments, and settle on the comments who love you very much.

Emmie-girl, obviously from the insane growth of your channel (!), take it as proof that you are loved and adored in this community that YOU created! you and carolyn reads are some of the only book channels I even watch anymore. Life is tough, dude! Most of us all have been there! We love you for you, the good, the bad, and the not so always lovely. Just keep doing you!! If you need a break, take a break! We'll all be here for you when you get back! Or forage ahead, and share as much or as little as you need too!! Honestly, you are a gem, and we are all so blessed you were brave enough to take on this brilliant sharing of your love of books, and snow, and all of the other wonderful things that make you, YOU, Be well, and be blessed.

Love how open and willing to share ur life u are….

thank you for your honesty in this video ❤

I don’t drop a comment very often, however… Emma, your moving journey has been nearly identical to my own. The pain, the hurt, the loss of self & identity & joy. The “why can’t I be happy here too?” moments… you are not alone. That’s all I wanted to put out there. That you’re not alone. Also, like you, I have an orange boy who is in possession of my heart now for going on 11 years. They’re some of the best therapy on earth. Highly recommend furry companions to all who need a friend & companion.

We all love and support you Emma, and one day you will feel life yourself again. There is a lot of hope in knowing that this is at least in part circumstantial.

it's been a few years since i've subbed to you and i think this is my first time leaving a comment...but whenever you open yourself up to us even in the slightest, i've always found it very powerful to me and your vulnerability really gives me the motivation to be as willing to conquer our depression as confidently as you do. thank you for sharing your life and your perseverance with us, emma!! i always wish the best for you, no matter where you go

Everything you post is so comforting to me, whenever I’m here I feel at home 💛 don’t ever stop being who you are, for the world to see! Being a nature girly in the big city can be so tough, but we’re staying true to ourselves and we’re gonna get through this 🌻🌞

Thanks for your honesty on this one, it's nice

i’ve always admired and appreciated your honesty and how genuine you seem. wishing you all the best and i truly hope things will get better soon!

As much as I love your cozy, chill and goofy videos, you talking about your real struggles is pretty much as comforting, if not more so at times. I've recently been really struggling, especially with one of my most important relationships. It would mean the world to have someone like you talk openly about your struggles 💜

we love you emma. i had a really difficult mental health period 2021-22 and your videos truly helped pull me out of it. i deeply appreciate your honest talks.

you are such a wonderful person! thank you for being so honest, you are helping so many people who are in the same boat as you with this video!

Happy Holidays Emmie! Love this channel… thanks for posting so regularly, great content!

I think I must have subconsciously been able to tell something was up because you showed up in my dream! I’m very thankful that you decided to open up; as someone who is in a similar headspace and has a similar career, I can 100% sympathise and it felt therapeutic just hearing someone else’s thoughts-especially someone who I admire so deeply. Thank you for being your authentic self; it’s just what I needed this holiday season

I'm a serial time-skipper when I watch long videos. I'm mostly here because you have incredible taste and insight and provide an endless supply of book recs (thanks for The Bloody Chamber btw😍), but I watched the entire 13-minute intro and hung on every word because honestly, I think I feel a little bit the same and haven't even realized it until now. I gotta get back to being me, and it will take work, but I have it in me. Thanks to you, I already feel a little better. I hope you do soon too!

Emma, I have never commented before but I've been watching your videos for years now and I just wanted to say that your channel has brought such comfort to me and given me motivation to read, to really fall in love with reading once again. I think I speak for everyone when I say that we love when you're open with us, but never feel pressured to do so- it doesn't mean you're being any less "authentic". I just know we'll love any new content and different things in the new year. Thank you for being yourself and for this channel ❤

I’m so glad that you opened up! I’m sending you all my love and blessings so you can get through this hard time. I relate a lot with what you say of being scared of telling the world “I’m not okay” because suddenly it becomes real😞, but it’s also a huge relief to yourself to be honest with you and everyone because the burden is less. Follow your instincts, listen to your heart every day because that’s where the answer is🫶🏼 I’m here praying for you and for this beautiful community ❤️

emma i want this to be a safe space for you as it is for all of us. i absolutely loved you opening up this much and whatever happens or changes, all of us will be here to listen and hope for the very best for you. i love your videos so, so much because of the person you are and you're such an amazing inspiration for me and many others, so please feel free to discuss whatever is on your mind, whenever :)

Oh i understand your struggles with the city so well! I was raised in a small, mountain village, speaking dialect, now I live in the second biggest city in my country. I miss seeing mountains every day. Being able to wander through a forest, meeting deers and squirrels and magpies and other birds that are not pigeons. When you made nature your safe sanctuary, it's like your support system is being pulled from under you, suddenly everywhere is dangerous. It's so hard to find any solitude in a city. I hope you find a way of recreating that peaceful space, or at least manage to recharge enough for as long as you'll need.

hi emma i’ve been watching your videos for such a long time it always bring me comfort and helps me through some hard times. thank you for sharing all of this with us, we love and appreciate you so much♥️ hope you feel better soon

i moved in august for college and i'd never moved from my hometown up until then and i truly feel you on how you have been feeling this year. it's been a really hard year with a lot of change, and i'm so glad to be able to come back to your channel when i need a sense of familiarity. thank u for being so open and honest with us, i feel truly seen and so much less alone. YOU are not alone

Thank you for trusting us enough to be this vulnerable and open about how you have been feeling. Like many people in th comment secton of the video, I don't usually leave a comment, but I have watched every vide you have psoted since the summer of 2021. They have been a pretty big comfort for me for what has, for the large part, been a somewhat rough few years. You were actually the inspiration for me to get back into reading after a reading slump that had lasted for more than 2 years. I am very grateful to you for continuing to create, and I hope the new years may bring you even just an ounce of the comfort and happiness you bring so many of us ❤

Finding your videos was the turning point for me to seek help and get my post-concussion diagnosis, so thank you. Sometimes it helps to share, you helped me. I used to live in Toronto and I moved to a slightly smaller city while I recover from my post-concussion symptoms. Wishing you brighter days ahead.

Your videos are my favorite ❤ emma you are so relatable and you are not alone! I pray that you will find joy and peace in this season!

Thank you for being so honest and open with us, sometimes just knowing you are not alone in your suffering helps. Sending you lots of love (all the way from Italy)! 💘

I'm crying because I feel your pain. I'm ready for the holidays to be over. I always struggle this time of year.

I have felt that distance and regardless, I’ve watched every single one of your videos simply because I know the Emma that re-introduced me to something I truly truly love is still there and is still trying. I constantly watch your old videos to see your happiness and I hope that one day that passion comes back. I’ve been a silent watcher since 2019. And it’s strange to see that I’ve seen you grow up and go through life just as I have. You have a pure soul Emma don’t let that go.

Only 7 minutes in and I already want to thank you for being so open and honest. Anyone who says that talking about your life and your personal trials and tribulations is complaining doesn't understand how important it is. As someone who struggles with my own depressive periods, I personally find it very helpful to hear real accounts of other people's lives, especially on the internet where so many people only show the fun and joyous moments. Showing each other that we are all in this together, is so comforting, so thank you for sharing.

Emma we really really appreciate you opening up like this. You're someone I've always looked up to as a big sister because I see so much of myself in you. I'm someone who's struggled with my mental health all my life, but I've always been really scared and somewhat ashamed to talk about it. Every time I hear you talk about your mental health in your open and honest way, it just gives me so much courage to open up about my own struggles with friends and family. I really appreciate you for the safe space you've created here in this corner of the internet. I hope the new year brings you nothing but good things and I can't wait to watch all the videos that you come up with next year ❤

i would like to say it was serendipity that i found a comfort zone in your channel, really wanna thank you for making wholesome cozy contents. please don't be stressed,whatever you share with us, complaints, recommendations, i'll take all of it. be cool

I just discovered you or more like MET you (because like you said you've always put yourself in your videos down to the very first one I've watched) this year and you've remained one of my favorite booktubers ironically due to the content you make outside of books. I loved you talking about school, your essays, your menstrual cramps (I also have terrible ones but mostly only on first days), seeing you with Carolyn, and all the vlogs, and overall you sharing your life. Don't ever feel that you-the person that inspired many of us and became a friend to a lot of us-can't talk about something, especially your mental health for fear of feedback. ❤️

❤❤ Happy Holidays to you, Emma. You are the most genuine Booktuber; the good times and the bad times, we are here for you. Some days, the videos are just so comforting to watch and I can relate to them on some level. You're the best. Take care, Ruth xx❤

Emma if I never found your channel this I genuinely don't know what I'd do as my passion or profession. I just want to say that you are an inspiration to all of us and I don't want to see you go because this world will be far worse without you ❤❤❤

hi emma 💌 I've been watching your videos since my senior year of high school in 2020 and now I'm a senior in college, but never commented until now. your videos reignited a passion for language in me that had been dormant since childhood, and books and your videos have given me immense comfort and joy in what otherwise has been the darkest and most isolated period of my life. thank you for being vulnerable, it is so helpful to remember I am not alone in my mental health struggles. wishing us both a new year of healing and returning to our fullest selves ❤

And we are here FOR YOU too. Thank you so being so honest with us. This is why we love you. True real ,content, and we are here for you through ALL the ups and downs. Even through your struggles, you give us comfort and joy. We love you lots ❤

I'm not the biggest believer in coincidences, I truly think things come to us when we need them and who we need. We are all connected and the universe provides what we need. I have been going through some huge changes and difficult things and difficult decisions on my life right now. I feel lost, I am not myself. I have stopped all the things I love. And then you swoop in and describe exactly how I'm feeling and suddenly I don't feel so alone. Even though that's silly because I don't know you and our worlds are so different. But hey, I'm thankful for you and what you share and your inspiration. Don't stop doing what you do. Also, one day, you won't be in the city anymore. This is just a step in the journey. ❤😊

Please don't feel like you are complaining or like you can't if you want to. I think I speak for all of us when I say I always appreciate your openness. Your channel is such a source of comfort, and I hope it can be a safe space for you again like it is for us. Every time you upload a video it honestly brightens my day and it's been such a joy to watch you over the years, talking about books but also just living your life with its ups and downs. So thank you for choosing to share with us however much of it makes you comfortable. I wish you your loved ones happy holidays and that 2024 will bring you all the good things, you deserve them! 💛

Hi Emma, i barely comment on here but i always watch your videos, they are so comforting to me and i appreciate everything you share with us. Feel free to share whatever you need and take care of yourself ❤ hope you feel better soon

I never comment on your videos but I want you to know that you're not alone on your feelings! Thank you for opening up and show us that everyone struggles🤍

the part where you talk about looking back on your past self and wondering where that went hit really hard for me, since i've moved to paris for college i feel as if i've lost any sense of self and purpose and i feel terrible bc i have an opportunity that so many dream of and every day i wish i was better equipped to deserve it. but the truth is every day feels like rock bottom and like i keep making the same mistakes, i've had my happy moments but i don't believe i will look back on these years fondly. i don't rlly know how to conclude this except to say that i understand and love you, that your pain is only a burden when you try to hold it all by yourself, and that you can choose to be someone else, at any point in time, your heart will still be the same to us

Hi Emma! I’ve been a silent viewer for a long time, but I just wanted to say that your videos and the moments of your life that you share have brought me so much comfort and continue to do so. I found your channel when I was going through a really hard time with a lot of difficult life changes and similar moving struggles as well, and your passion and spirit (and similar taste in books!) helped me pick reading back up again after I had gone several YEARS without reading for fun after graduating with my English degree. Your videos and love for reading have really encouraged me to reconnect with this part of myself that I had lost for so long. I struggle with my mental health even more than usual in the winter time and I can relate so much to you, and like many others in the comments have expressed, your sincerity and honesty mean so much. You are truly such a light and inspiration to me, and I hope you can take time to take care of yourself and have a peaceful and safe end of the year. 🩵

10 minutes into this video and I just want to say thank you for being honest and vulnerable with us here. I have found your videos at a time when I wanted to go back to reading after more than a decade of barely finishing 3 books a year. To say that your videos singlehandedly revived my love for books is not an understatement. I hope 2024 brings you to a place that will treat you kindly, Emma! I have so much goodness in my heart for you! I wish you well.

awe Emma! I usually don't comment but I've been watching you for about 2-3 years now and I just want to say you're not alone in feeling this way 💓 we're all here for you and I hope you can slowly but surely feel more vulnerable and comfortable with yourself again! the new year is coming up so I'm wishing you have a great new year and sending you lots of virtual hugs 💗☺️

I moved for uni to Warsaw out of a smaller polish city, i lost all of my high school 'friends' who forgot about me the second i left and havent been able to make a strong connection with anybody else since. I isolate myself in Warsaw and i feel like not myself at all :(

your voice and aesthetic is really pleasing. the mental challenges you are going through can be minimized if you understand how privileged you are.. I come from India, a still developing country, poor hygiene, less structured and organised cities, oppressive thinking towards women, lot of caste discrimination in marriage, society and jobs. there is honor killing if a girl lives with her boyfriend without marriage. so, considering you can wear anything, stay with your boyfriend, be sensuous and attractive without guys stalking you , have family support , make money enough to maintain a lifestyle is a blessing. Remember that.

You opening up about your mental health made me realize how much of a similar state I'm in. Thanks for being so vulnerable with us and inspiring me to take care of myself too.

Emma, as someone who has also struggled very heavily this year (technically last year now) and who has also felt very alone in that, I hope you know that we in this community are always here for you and are absolutely open to (and welcome!!) your honesty on this channel. You've created such a beautiful community here--I can only hope that you feel that this is a safe space for you in the way that it is for so many of us as viewers.

Emma, not even 10 minutes in and I want you to know that we are here for you, no matter what! I know that speaking out about one's mental health can be really scary and daunting, and I applaud you for being brave enough to be honest with us about how you are really doing! Don't worry about coming across as if you're complaining, nobody will think that (and if they do, then that's their problem). Do what feels right for you! I'm sending you buckets of love and support!!!

Oh Emma, I relate so hard to your struggles. I just moved from where I’d been living for 5 years, I never felt like I could talk about how much I hated it because so many people LOVED it and couldn’t imagine why anyone would dislike it. And I didn’t realize how bad the place was for me til I finally moved back to my home state. I hope you can find some joy and peace in the new year! Also, good on you for going to therapy!

emma, i'm late to this video but i was saving it because i knew it would hit me in a similar spot. i don't comment a ton, but i want you to know that i really love your videos and they're so uplifting, especially when you're honest. you never need to be afraid to be vulnerable here, i think this community really loves and supports you. hope finding the light becomes slightly easier :)

I love when you talk about mental health. I think for all of us struggling as feel we find comfort in not being alone in these feelings.. Thank you so much

hi emma, i’ve been watching your videos for several years now. i’m a silent watcher and i’ve always been too timid of a person to comment under videos, but i want you to know what a comfort your channel has been for me all these years. when i’m having a rough day or week and i see that you’ve uploaded, i suddenly get to look forward to cozying up at the end of the day to watch your new video. i always love what you have to share, whether it’s about your life or your reading updates. so thank you for sharing! and for letting us be a part of the space you’ve created on your channel. anyway, i’ve been stuck in a rut for an embarrassingly long time now, so i hope we can both claw our ways back to ourselves in 2024. always wishing you the best, and i’ll be sure to comment more in the future ♡

Thank you so much for opening up Emma. I always love your sincerity in your vidoes ❤ you truly make us feel like we have a friend in you :)

dear emma, thank you so much for sharing your sincere thoughts and feelings with us, for being honest because it does help a lot, it brings so much comfort knowing that (and i'm speaking on my behalf here) i'm not alone in these struggles (a few years ago i moved to another city in my country, and i'd been struggling to fit in here ever since). so you're not alone in this as well. thank you for everything you do and never stop doing what you truly love, you're such a huge inspiration and your channel is the one place i come to to feel at home. thank you for being you and may the new year bring you more comfort, peace and love

Dear Emma, thank you for being so open and vulnerable with us. Looking back to some seasons of my life in the past, I could relate to everything you were talking about it. I’m sending you all my love and my best thoughts, wishing you some lovely time with your family, away from the city, in a place where you can cradle your inner light to help it regain strength. Ps you looked adorable for the Nutcracker. There is something amazing about going to the Nutcracker. It’s being a child again and finding that state of awe that rarely gets to make it through in our adult lives

We love and appreciate you Emma, hopefully everything will get better for you soon! Moving is a huge change, and a big city can feel so impersonal and alienating (especially for someone who grew up in a smaller community) that it's no wonder it affected you so much. Honestly this year was kinda hard for me too. I had no energy and I lost the motivation to take care of myself (healthy food, good sleep schedule, working out). I realized that I'd been overworking myself so now I'm trying to take it slow 😂 I took two weeks off work and my goal is to get back on track, read more books, sleep a lot, and go for lots of walks!

Super grateful for you ❤ I've been through periods where I've struggled with my mental health really badly and lost my sense of self. Being vulnerable about it and doing the things that feel more like me helped me through it. I hope you have a beautiful Christmas, that winter is kind to you in all the ways it can be, and that you know how grateful I am for your RU-vid videos. They are so wonderful and comforting. I've often felt at odds with online book communities because I don't usually read with trends or have found a spot that I feel like I fit in. I watch your videos, and it finally feels like a space where I do. Thank you so much for everything ❤️

emma you're gonna make me cry - i hope you know how beloved you are to so many of us. we might never meet in real life but this space on the internet that you've made has been a safe haven for many of us but please also know that this channel is yours first and foremost and you can choose what you want to share and you can 'complain' all you want, we're here for you! feeling lonely in a city can feel isolating so im just sending you so much warmth and know that you are never alone

really appreciate all your videos and your work on them. for a couple of years, your channel has been my true comfort zone and I really love starting my day with your (reading) vlogs or booktube videos and my morning coffee. thank you for your efforts and your sincerity. I hope you`ll be all right, `cause you are a beautiful and wonderful person, who truly deserves the world. I apologize for all the imperfections, English is my third language

I haven’t watched your videos in a while as I’ve also been in a bit of a depressive slump and the fact the first video I opened you were struggling with the same thing just made it feel like I was meant to open this video. I’ve missed your videos so much and your honesty in this one was so inspiring! I hope you feel better soon

We love hanging out with you on your best AND your worst days. You’re such good company. One of the good ones. ❤ Make the videos you want to make, do the things you want to do. Take care of yourself in any way you need. Kiss the little fireball every day, and just stay floating. There’ll be a harbour somewhere some day. And we’ll keep you company until then. *hug*

Emma, I have followed you for several years now. And I have been fascinated and inspired by your courage, to be out there about your life, the struggles of recovering from a significant accident, to share your passions, your ideas, your determination. Your love of literature, family, and friends. You have been a shining example of the meaning of growth, how we change over time. And yes, sometimes that change happens so quickly that we often cannot keep up with it and we become confused and lost for a period. Indulge in it, don't judge it, observe, just as your yoga would demand of you. Sit back, be mindful of the moment. It does not have to fit into some grander scheme. It can simply be and that is OK. It is enough. Upon you, I wish blessings for the continuous journey, wherever that leads.

Never be scared to share the real things in your life, even though it was heartbreaking to hear how you've been feeling so lonely. Just wanted to send you a big virtual hug!

My exams are finally over and I can catch up on some of your videos! ☺ Emma, I hope you and everyone will have a lovely Christmas and for everyone who has been struggling I hope 2024 will be better, you're doing great! 🍀❤

hi emmie! i watched this when you posted this but i came back to leave a comment. i’m a silent subscriber, i follow you ever since you started but i haven’t really commented on any of your videos but this time i really wanted to say that your honesty and vulnerability was sometimes the only thing that kept me going. i came back many times to your videos to find comfort and understanding and inspiration. i had a concusion this year and i knew you’ve been through this and it helped me a lot. you taught me to appreciate nature more and to be more grateful and to take care of myself better. every single one of your videos means the world to us and i hope you know that there’s always room for you to be real. thank you for opening up, i hope you get the best of days and of sunlight and i hope this year will be easier on all of us. 🌿 sending you many hugs from romania ❤

This year has also been one of the toughest years of my life… I love reading/thinking about identity and reality in the context of the world we now live in and yeah I think it’s tough to feel like your “self” more than ever. Sending lots of love and support ❤ hoping next year is kinder to all 💚

emma, i'm so sorry you've not been feeling yourself lately. i've always been a city girl so when i moved to the countryside in japan i was utterly miserable so i think i can understand how you're feeling. sending you a huge hug in hopes that you pick yourself up again. also, quitting is good sometimes! here's to brighter things indeed ❤❤❤

Hi Emma, I'm so sorry to hear you've been feeling low for so long. I definitely know what that is like and you are not alone. I'm happy you chose to share your feelings, that is the best thing you can do! I always enjoy your videos and I will always welcome your honesty 🩵 your videos make me feel so Calm. Thank you for being you :) 🩵✨️

Emma, you know you much I love your videos and how much they’ve helped me with reading and with life in general tbh and how much I always want to support you, so I really wanna tell you that I will continue to support you every single day and thanking you so much for everything you’ve done for us with your content, it doesn’t matter how much you want to share, we’ll always be here for you and will always listen and watch and support because you are a beautiful person who deserves the best. I really hope you start feeling better and yourself again so so soon! Love u and love to see you happy ❤❤

Emma, I’ve been watching your videos ever since I was 16, I am 19 now. I remember feeling such excitement, comfort and coziness in watching your videos. I just loved and still love your weekly updates and great books, how you’ve been getting on in daily life. I was suffering from depression and bad ptsd at the time and I just always looked forward to watching your videos, it was important to have even the tiniest thing to be happy about when you’re in such a dark place. I am not sure what I’m going to say in this comment other than that I empathise with you so much, I feel and understand you. It’s important that you listen to your intuition and that there is no point staying in a place where you don’t feel like yourself, because a bad headspace impacts a lot in your daily life. I am sending you lots of love, and telling you to stay strong and to take care of yourself. A very merry Christmas and holidays to you dear Emma ❣️💌

Sorry to hear you’ve been going through it. Take care of yourself. Wishing you all the bookish best in 2024. 🎉