Girl, you left a job that didn’t appreciate you, became a full time content creator for a large audience of admirers, started your real estate empire, and you are tackling a HUGE renovation. That’s a lot of f*cking progress in my book. Most of us didn’t accomplish that much this year. Be proud. It’s a year of transformation. Change is hard, but you’re doing the hard things and will have something to show for the challenges.
@lynn B is right about everything. Besides, you opened your house to a bunch of people who seem to be friendly but surely have their own routines and habits. Obviously, we don't know the reasons but it seems quite extreme at the moment when you became a full time RU-vidr (=working from home). All in all, you basically PURGED YOURSELF OF ANY STRUCTURE IN LIFE. It'd be suspiciously weird if you didn't experience any panic attacks or other mental health issues. It seems the only ground beneath your feet is the cluttered floor of the bedroom in Elmo's house (kudos to Elmo!). Short-term challenges sound like a smart helpful idea. Take one day at a time. You'll figure it out. Change and adapting to it is a long process. Don't push yourself too much. Be good to the wonderful woman you are. Your health (especially mental health) is the most important thing in your life.
I think 2022 is probably one of the best years of your life, but you're focusing on the wrong things: - You basically got to retire/FIRE from your 9-5 - You were able to buy a 2nd house - You get to use your creative abilities to renovate a house - You were able to provide your bestie with a place to live - You get to spend more time with your Mom - You've collected awesome dating stories & know more about what you don't want in a partner - You have sponsors that help you with your lifestyle & goals -And tons more that we don't know about
Agree! Not to make light of the troubles at all because those are real, but most people in their 20s/30s are not able to buy one house much less two and that is amazing! As you didn’t drop out of sight which a lot of people would have done, you stayed to encourage us and yourself! I think you are incredible ❤️
You know, when I first read the video title I was surprised because I thought about all the great things she's done like on your list....I thought maybe some re-framing would be helpful for her. THEN I remembered my own struggles with panic attacks in the past (how quickly we forget when they don't happen anymore) and realized that all her accomplishments didn't "matter" at the end of the day when she was being crippled by her state of mind. Anxiety is the biggest bitch and it consumes your entire life. I still think re-framing is a good idea as it will help her dig out of this funk, perception is half the battle
I agree with the others who pointed out that the anxiety started happening when your friends moved in. Maybe it's just a coincidence, but since Anne started appearijg in videos, your mental health seems to have declined. I would never be able to share my space with friends like that. I would feel like I had to be "on" all the time and would never be able to relax. I worry that you're being taken advantage of since you now have a house you can't live in. I hope I'm wrong, but please don't be afraid to put yourself first! You should feel safe in your own home!
I think you are on to something about her friends taking advantage of her I'm sure the mom must notice it too and question it. It's her house but if they took residency for them to leave, she will have to file an eviction notice. I know knowing Bea she will ask them politely to leave. IMO, I think it was a bad idea for her to allow them to move in.
This. it's a strange situation when you have two houses and you live back with your mum. Whatever the arrangement between Bea and her friends was, it seemed to affect her mental health negatively. Hope she can bring this up while talking to her therapist. I agree with you that having friends or family at home means being on standby all the time. Being an introvert myself, I couldn't do that to my mental health. Bea's smart and tougher than she thinks she is, she'll figure it out.
To me it seems like it’s not so much her friends, but the fact that when you’re with friends you’re having fun you can get off track with your responsibilities…and she has a lot of new responsibilities. Then once you’re away from them you’re like “oh shit, I’m overwhelmed with all the things I’ve been putting off,” or at least that’s my own experience.
The anxiety started before then, she was having panic attacks before and Ann would sleep over. I think having a friend move in might have been a way to combat it but it's still a huge change to her lifestyle. I think her therapist is onto something with gradually acclimating to the situation so she can work out how to balance everything. I don't think it's a good idea to be looking for something sinister in a friend she has had for years and clearly gets on well with. I'd be more stressed out having to deal with rumours on the internet than worrying about someone leaving a teaspoon on the counter.
I'm worried about Chetty. The worst thing for a cat with urinary problems is stress. New people in the house, new dogs in the house, Dougie not in the house and Mom not in the house. 🙁 Chetty is probably, WTF is going on?? I gots abandoned.😭
Roommates (even good friends) are stressful. I had my best friends move in with me and I didn't realize how much losing "my home" would effect me. It worked out fine in the end but I did have to mourn losing my own space, and it was a big adjustment.
Also, I really don’t know the specifics in your life, but from an outsider’s perspective, I feel like your anxiety started to get really bad when your friends started planning to move in. I hope that’s not the case, but if it is, if they’re good friends, they would understand if you needed them to move out. But again, this is an outsider’s perspective.
I'm not a psychiatrist so take this with a grain of salt... The other day I was watching a video from a creator who'd taken a year long break from YT. Before her break she had mentioned struggling with anxiety. But not long after she stepped back from YT, she started a full time job and she said she was surprised at how the routine helped with her anxiety and I thought of you. It seems like your anxiety started pretty quickly after you left your job. Perhaps that change was your trigger? You also went from a solitary lifestyle to a house full of roommates. If you want to return home, you may need to give them notice. If they care about you, they'll understand you're doing what you need for yourself vs what you want. Living with your mom is different than friends.
I am also not a psychiatrist and I don't want to pile-on but I sort of had the same thought. I'm not able to live with ppl anymore I swear. Not sure when it happened but I'm in my 30's and not having my own space & downtime kills me. I literally burn out (even if it's time spent with people I love) I need like hrs/days/weeks to recover depending how long I'm around them. Going from doing your own random weird ADHD things & vlogging whenever you want, rocking the housing market and driving all over the place, to struggling this hard this quickly almost seems like it's a burnout and not having a cocoon of privacy and alone time anymore. Again, no hate on the roomies, you love them & I'm sure they are amazing, but seems like the feeling of being untethered and floating from place to place (likely will get better once the other house is move-in ready!) But if it were me I would attribute it to being neurodivergent & overstimulated and forced to socialize in my own house. If you aren't introverted this probably sounds insane...but just saying. I would look into things objectively and ask what is making me feel out of place or anxious and see where that leads..."I am overwhelmed... why?...because xyz...ok why xyz? Because I can't handle this and that .. why can't I handle that?..Because I am/want/need...something...why do you..." You get it. It helps!
I couldn't have anyone stay with me at this point in my life.... or really ever. Its too much stress. If i want to be around people i go out. Just sayin
I also started experiencing more severe anxiety after quitting a super high stress, long hour job and moving to a low stress 9-5. It’s like you have all this extra time on your hands and if you’re not doing anything meaningful it feels like you’re wasting away.
@@FunnyMemo even this is not good for your mental health. Not being able to live with ppl may seem good now. But hope your not trying to avoid adjusting or anythng. Ppl love living alone cos you can do watever u want, but mentally it may lead to social avoidance or somethng. Just hope there is no underlying issue
Personally, I LOVE my friends but I’m also an introverted person and having people around all the time on a constant basis is NOT my thing. I relate to you a lot, the loneliness, the need/desire for independence as well as the need for stability. That being said, maybe if you don’t want to ask Anne and her family to leave your home (which you definitely have the right to do if it is adding to your struggle with mental health), you could live between Mom’s house and the house Anne is living in until the new home is finished (which may be a while but will give you a chance to consider your own wants and desires) and then live in the new home. If Anne is as good a friend as she seems, she’ll understand that you need your own space (so whether you ask her to leave your home or you decide to move into the newly renovated home, she should be understanding however hurt she might initially feel).
Bea, it's wild that you invited multiple new people and a dog to come live with you while dealing with so much. I would've hermitted and ghosted everyone around me. Woulda avoided contact and not let anyone into my safety vortex. I'm worried that that situation will always be overwhelming. As someone who also struggles with overwhelming anxiety, there's no way that situation would work for me. Especially in a time of distress. Do what you have to do and do what's best for you always.
This is so true...I'm the exact same way. People make my anxiety level increase out of control. I don't know how this was a good idea for her. I puppy sit for my sister and I get excited when she is going to work from home because that means she won't be ringing my doorbell twice in one day.
Did she ever say why her friends moved in with her? I watch all the videos, so I feel like I didn't catch something she said at one point? I just remember all of a sudden her mentioning that her friends were living there and I was like oh :O
@@beeskneez if I remember correctly her friend is going to continue to live in the property that is going to be the rental property. Once her new house is finished then Bea is moving there and her friend will remain in the 1st house. Now the exact reason why they moved in now versus later I'm not 100% sure but I think it had to deal with the friend needed to move sooner than later.
So she is going to rent the house out for that friend while living in the new home when finished. Renting out to a friend would give me more stress than renting to a stranger. Renting period would give me too much anxiety. But renting to a friend to a home that was once mine ... well I just don’t see it being a pleasant experience in the long run. Any problems arise would be on Bea, and her friend might not take as good care of the home. I have nothing against the friend, I just do not see this being the optimal for sweet Bea. Now I can see why she is having panic attacks. I would be too! Maybe the friend will move out soon so Bea can get her bearings back:) - I was also thinking the friend living there might could be a trigger to not eat as healthy, I know I would go off my healthy eating if I had a friend living in my home... i was so worried when she said her friend would be living there and shutting off parts of the house... it’s so hard, I have lived through this myself and it takes a hit on self esteem issues. I went into avoidance mode, I was too nice and had feelings of guilt.
Bea, I think some of us are worried that Anne is/has taken advantage of you. How does she get to enjoy the house you've worked hard for and you shelter in place at your mom's? We pray you are well and have the strength to tackle thus hurdle straight on like you've done so many others. You were definitely happier in your own home on your own with Dougie and Chetty.
Since Anne knows about your problems with binging, and that you were trying to stay off sugar to ease your anxiety, how come she “let” you binge that cheesecake & was doing it too? You let her stay in your own house and it seems to me that she’s not really being a good friend. Also, if I was Anne, I would’ve gotten the hint that my best friend needs her house back and found myself another place to stay. Sorry I feel just so bad for Bea. I can’t imagine having ppl living in my house. I hope she gets better & gets the kind of support she NEEDS (aka, not buying & eating foods that she tries to stay away from in order to heal) 😒
That really stood out to me as well. That doesn’t seem like the type of friend to have around if they are going to be having temptations around. I know before Anne came back into her life, Bea didn’t really have another friend to rely on or hang with, but I don’t think it’s a coincidence that her anxiety has spiked so bad after having her friend, her friend’s family members, and their pets move into her space under the guise of “helping her out”. Bea, I hope you have the strength to be able to put up boundaries with your friend if it is affecting your mental health. Some people can take advantage of others who might have trouble standing up for themselves and I hope this is not the case in this situation. I want you to be able to have friends who will truly support you in your journey and be understanding if you need to set up boundaries by getting your space back. I hope you don’t feel responsible for them or their housing situation because that can feel overwhelming and contribute to the decline of your mental health even further! We’re rooting for you!!!
It’s easy to see how you’d become overwhelmed and lose control of your mental health when your routine has been obliterated by moving in a bunch of people to what was essentially your sanctuary. I know you’re an adult and you make your choices but I sure hope you’re not neglecting healthy boundaries in exchange for “friendship”. As a long time viewer I am really worried about you because you made so much progress and were doing so well. Friends are nice to have and it’s nice to help people but if it comes at the expense of your own well being, and it seems like it has, then is it really worth it? Like, you can’t even be at your house and feel comfortable there!? Bea, if that’s not a huge red flag then I don’t know what is. I don’t know. You’ve got a big heart and if your friend needed help then I get it, but you’re going to eventually need your space back. I’m 37. I’ve been there, I’ve seen it, I’ve had to make really hard choices when it comes to boundaries. It’s like watching my own past replay in front of my eyes. Let me tell you girl, this path is long and repetitive unless you make those tough calls. I just hope I’m wrong.
It doesn’t seem like a coincidence that the panic attacks started when your friend and her family moved in. It sounds like it’s too overwhelming for you. I hope you’re not being taken advantage of, but maybe you need to make the tough decision to ask them to relocate. You shouldn’t have to squat at your mom‘s because you’re no longer comfortable at home. It’s probably confusing for Doug and Chetti as well.
@@julie3580 Your point? Animals get distressed with change too. In her last vlog I think she mentioned that Chetti was out of sorts with her being gone at her mom’s without him. When you don’t have children of your own, your pets are like children to you, and I’m sure that is a concern to her.
@@julie3580 Says you. I honestly don’t understand what the point of commenting on someone’s post is just to argue and be rude. It’s fine to have a difference of opinion, but you don’t always need to express your opinion. Just scroll by 🤷🏼♀️
My year sucked too, high five 🥴 Every day I'm like " who are you?". A year ago I had a job, I was working out regulary, my diet was clean and I felt normal and happy and I had a goal. Now my goal seems imposible, I'm fat, jobless and depressed 🙃 Not gonna lie, once you are in a ditch, climbing up is SO HARD. Ok, rant over, thanks for reading.
when you find yourself in a bad place, undo what you did to get yourself there. Whether it is getting lost while driving or having a fight with some one, think or go back to where it was all right and smooth, and start over. When were you last doing ok? Before the house guests? Maybe they need to move out. Before the job quitting? Maybe you need the 'security' of a job, but not that one. Like a part time one, or maybe in a different field. Back to your exercise routine, or whatever. I had severe social phobia and anxiety 20 years ago and got through it. There was a very fine line between people invalidating me by telling me to "just get over it already, you're FINE" and people enabling my phobias to get even worse because they wanted to "help" me. You need friends and relatives that can walk that fine line. Just mentally go back to when things were better and think "What's changed since then?"
So you reconnect with a friend who suddenly has nothing but time for you and suddenly the housing situation comes up Can't help to think the friend planned this I know - I had a friend move in and they eventually had to be asked to leave . I had many stressful times keeping my unhappiness to myself - this person is the type who knows that it is human nature to go along to get along - I finally hit my limit. Bea it is your home - its okay to ask them to leave. How is it that they could move in so quickly - emphasis on moving quickly You will not be the bad guy to reclaim your space and your calm The fact you are buying weights to work out at your mom's house when you have a home gym feels wrong I wish you the best and the strength to figure this out. I also hope these comments don't add to your stress - that is not the intent - they are made to support you even if they don't feel like they do right now
I feel so much empathy for Bea... I don't think she can handle humans in her space but is conflicted because she cares about them. I'm going through the same thing but I know that I have to have my own personal home because of trauma I've had with too many people in my home. Even having people stay the night in my home brings me so much anxiety and internal frustration no matter how much they mean to me. It has nothing to do with them and everything to do with my life experiences as a child. I hope Bea heals and does what's best for her no matter what.
@@carolinej7346 I was thinking that too! Could just be a coincidence I guess. I've gone back through so many of Bea's videos to see how I missed who this friend is and why she moved in with Bea. Has she ever said why her friend is moving in with her? Not that it matters lol I'm just curious. I've watched most of Bea's videos over the last year and was completely surprised that her friend moved in and that she bought a second house. When? How? Why can't I find any info about either of these things in her previous videos lol
Being easily distractible and highly stressed doesn’t make it easier to live with people I am also curious for Beas sake if some of the panic is cycle related I had hormonal shifts in my 30s that were blamed on my PTSD when it really would have been more helpful to address adhd, rebalance what my body needed and support before after and through trauma.
She lives with her mom though, and doesn't like being alone in houses... I think she likes living with people. Kinda weird to talk about her in the third person, you know she reads these...so why don't we let Bea tell her friends & the youtube world if she wants to live alone and not be sofa psych jockeys ...
@@EmpireYellow1 I think she lives with her mom 1. To be with someone in case of a panic attack 2. To escape the people living in her house. These are just my sofa psych jockey opinions though
Want to applaud your flexibility!!! Also- I too agree that once Anne appeared your anxiety appears to have increased and now you're at your moms and she's at your house. Maybe a gem to bring to therapy to mull over?
You are amazing. It takes time to get your life how you want it. I am almost 40 and have had to restart again. You are very inspirational, and let others know they aren’t alone. Love ya bunches!
Right there with you! I'm 48 and about to "start over" again as well. It gets better as we start to learn about the things we want from life. We got this!
Have you thought of kicking the people out that are living in your house? As much as you care about them, it’s an unsafe space for you. Other peoples energy really effects me so I live alone and I’m good.
I agree. I think she feels stuck because it might’ve been her that suggested they live with her in the first place? Regardless, i think she won’t feel comfortable until they’re gone
I think they are taking advantage of her. I'm sure her mom brought up that subject. I'd be asking my children questions if all of sudden they show up with their things when they have a house of their own. It's not that I wouldn't want them but as a parent, my intuition would be buzzing. She's not telling her followers what's going on with her roommates. She shouldn't be embarrassed.
Bea, protect your energy. We followers notice your anxiety spiked up when your roommates moved in. No offense but it's perfectly okay to give them a 30-day notice to get your peace back.
I agree with Ms. G. You went through a lot of HUGE life changes this year - quitting your job, moving, buying a second house, and adding roommates. Sharing your space with somewhat strangers seems to be the last big change before your anxiety spiked. If living alone is what helps you protect your peace then I'd encourage you to give them notice. We're always rooting for you and want you to feel your best mentally first and foremost.
I agree... just didn't know how to say it. Thank you for saying it sweetly. I'm over here in my feelings because the BFF took over your home. Remember, it'd your home. Take back your space if you need to. (Not to mention the questionable extras she has brought with her. You can love her and still be like, thus isn't working for me.
Oh I wish you would consider getting "all the people" you mention out of your house. Why should you struggle so much and leave your place, when it is pretty obvious all of this started when they moved in / you rekindled the friendship. Get your house back girl.
Get it Bea!!! I’ve had a shitty year myself… my weight is fluctuating and my diet inconsistent but we will overcome this. You’re not the sum total of your errors… you’re better ♥️
Is anyone else a little suspicious of the Ann friend? Seems like she moved in really fast and now she has all these people living in B's house and now B is struggling. Maybe I am looking too far into it but I feel like B is being taken advantage of and it is sending her down hill. Hopefully I'm wrong because I know how difficult it already is for her to have relationships. I'm rooting for you B. Your amazing
Protect your energy and your space, B. As an introverted ADHD queen myself, I could never share my space with anyone besides my partner - doesn't matter how close of a friend they are. In fact I kind of think living with a good friend is almost worse. On top of that adding new animals to your home and watching your own pet's anxiety spike because of that is tough. We all care about you. I'm sure it's awkward to kick a friend out. But you come first - always. If they are a solid friend they should understand your situation and have no issues moving out. ❤️
I love this perspective shift! I am also using the last 1/3 of the year as an opportunity to reset and get on track (possibly for the first time). Edit to add: I LOVE eggs on jelly toast. Savory, sweet, crunchy, soft. It is the whole package.
Same! The first time I spilled jelly on my eggs I remember thinking oh, I don’t hate this. Then just started to drop a dollop on my plate occasionally.
Hi bea! think you are underestimating how big of a deal it is to have people move in with you, even if they are friends. Good to see you moving forward!
I'm 48 now. I've always struggled with my weight since my late teens. I've tried, what it feels like, every diet and fad you could think of to lose the weight, lost thousands and thousands of dollars in gym fees, only to not go at all, nothing worked. At 43, I decided I was done with diets amd started eating what I wanted in moderation. I slowly started to put less on my plate, for example instead of 5 potatoes, I did 4, then 3 and so on. I would park my car further and further away when I went anywhere, so I got in my steps. These steps were the beginning of 55 kilo weight loss over 3 years. In the end, focusing on what works for me at my pace with far less stress is what helped me the best and I stoppedweighing myself. In the end, you gotta do what works for you💙 I suffer with severe depression/anxiety, most days, I wish I was not here. You make a difference, even when you don't know it. Thank you for sharing🙏
I hope you can see whilst editing how strong and capable you are. I get excited every Monday when I get your video notification. Your plan for the rest of the year sounds spot on and smart, especially the diet and exercise modifications. Have a good week and know you have support!
The amount of work u are putting in these videos is sooo appreciated . Love you and thanks a lot You are the favorite person always and forever and dearest to heart🍡🍓🍧🎉🥰🥰💖♥️❤️❤️🌙🫂
Ok....I have a very hard time adapting to someone living in my space outside of my immediate family. Even when family I know and loves comes to stay, I get anxious and on edge. If you suddenly moved people into your house, I can see that being destabilizing.
I somehow missed why there are other people living in your house? and isn‘t that what makes it complicated? no place to be on your own/mentally relax anymore?
You made a lot of changes all at once . That’s enough to knock any one down. Not that they are bad changes just change. You will settle in soon and thrive. You are not doing anything wrong . You are on right track.
When I read the title of this video, I was automatically mentally hit with Total Eclipse of the Heart. 😂 As horrible as 2022 seemed, someday you’ll look back and be like, “You know what, I kicked a$$ that year.” Despite the anxiety, I mean, think about all you’ve accomplished this year! You quit your job, you bought a house, you got out of your comfort zone and went on dates, you exercised regularly, you made time for friends, you scheduled a remodel (and dealt with alll the drama so far THAT normally entails!). You freaking adulted like a champ, all things considered.
do you think leaving your job contributed? I was on the verge of a breakdown before i left my job, then i left my job to be self employed and actually had one very quickly, i think it was more due to structure over money etc, i now work a few hours a day in a local shop (i was working in tax law prior), just to see people and have some structure then work for myself the rest, has helped alot :)
Crazy how all we see is the “wonderful” year you’ve had vs how you actually feel about your year. I don’t want to dismiss how you feel but you have lots to be proud of even though it’s lots of change. Also, I about died from cuteness overload when Dougie Beans sniffed the camera as if to say hi to all of us. 🥺💗😭 We love you guys. 💛🦕
One suggestion that really helped my very similar situation: STRUCTURE! A job give us a routine by default, and when my structure was taken away my whole mental world fell apart. Creating structure in my day made a HUGE difference! Good luck hun!!!
I think that's a really good plan to ease into losing weight instead of shocking your system. I need to implement that...but lately I've been under a massive amount of stress which equals stress eating. Ugh! Anyway, thank you for helping to keep me motivated to keep trying even though I keep failing. Your struggle mirrors my own with the anxiety lately and I love to see you pushing through and fighting to get healthy both mentally and physically. That really helps me to realize I'm not alone in the struggle.
Hey Bea! I never get to comment this soon! You go girl! Go slowly, if you feel like it. We are all so proud of you! I really hope that better days are ahead for you!
You think it's your worse year, and I'm over here so impressed with all the ways you've pushed yourself. You've had struggles, but you've also done some amazing things! 1. Quit a job you hated! 2. Tried dating, pushing yourself to interact with others 2. Bought a SECOND house! 3. Stayed accountable to your coach! 4. Inspired thousands of people! I'm sure more people can think of other things. Point is, definitely an amazing year
Hey Bea, just quick note on hormonal Balance: Beans! You need a lot of fibre to break down hormones in you body and to bond them. I highly recommend to try acacia fibre, beans and inulin. Also algae oil is very beneficial not only for hormones but brain health and its also anti-inflammatory! Helped me a lot and hope will help others too
The hormonal IUD gave me cystic acne at age 26... not normal. Had it removed 3 months after getting it in. Not worth keeping it in if you think it's negatively affecting your body!
Had a Mirena put in after having my second child and it was a very bad decision for me in the end. The hormones wrecked havoc on my emotional balance to the point it was changing my personality for the worse. Had it in for a year and then pushed my doc to take it out. Within days of it being removed, I felt finally relief and could tell I was getting back to normal. Looking back, I feel like I wasted a year of my life dealing with a problem I wish I realized the source of earlier. I wish you all the best, Bea!
I agree also that I noticed that when your friends moved in is when you started having these panic attacks. Maybe it was just too much change too quickly. You're awesome, take care of YOU.
Hope you continue to feel better Bea! I remembered you mentioned you have PCOS in another video. I have PCOS too and noticed sugar and caffeine gives me more anxiety. I think its something to do with insulin level and how people with PCOS are higher sensitive to it.
Bea, please read; I had bariatric surgery last year. For the first 2 weeks, you can’t eat (you just drink protein really). I was stymied at how good I felt not eating. My dietician said after not eating for a few days, your body’s inflammation plummets (and my diagnosed Major Depression disorder seemed to disappear also). It’s certain types of food that make me feel awful. I bought a food sensitivities test, and it turns out eggs (which I have eaten almost every day of my life) and anything gluten is the problem. Maybe get your food sensitivities tested? Anyhoo, just a suggestion. Love your channel. 😊
I love that your therapist and your coach both remind you that you can be gentle with yourself and still make progress. And you can make mistakes, or slow down, or step back a bit, and it’s still all ok.
You are an absolute goddess at setting and achieving goals! So glad things are calming down enough for you to get a new focus. Love your sharing. I am rooting for you! 💛
I hate to say it, but I think they may need to move out. You need peace to heal and adjust. Having all those moving factors could possibly cause anxiety
B!! I loved your cabinets and vanity. So much progress.....I hope that has been a big positive for you (and your Mom and Grandma), being close by and able to daily check out all the progress on the house. You've had some HUGE changes this year....some not so good, but some really awesome ones too. Thank you so much for allowing us to be part of your life and giving us inspiration.
Bea, I know what you're going through. I lost my lovely kitty I had for 12 years and it completely skyrocketed my anxiety. All I want to do is stay in my apartment alone and never come out. I think it's great that you're still pushing yourself and trying things. Your personality is beautiful and you give me hope that I'll get there eventually. Rn I'm just doing weekly therapy and trying to get through it. Much love 💜
Also welcome to the Mirena nearly ruined my life club! ✌️ Something about the progesterone only factor of the Mirena didn't work for me. I ended up with severe depression and anxiety while I had it in. My depression and anxiety issues cleared up fairly fast after having it removed (7 months of having it in) but I've read others having a rough time after if they've had it in for longer periods or just get unlucky. I'm back on the pill after that experience (easiest way for me to manage my PCOS) and the only noticeable side effect I have is that I cry really easily. I still don't really understand why the Mirena did that to me, but it's a very scary side effect that isn't really spoken about or warned about when getting it.
I'm sorry you feel that 2022 has been your worst year so far. Having followed you now for the past couple of years, I would say 2022 has been a great year for you. You've achieved so much Bea. You've bought a new property, lost weight and have done an exceptional job on not only seeking help to deal with your anxiety, but have also taken a huge step by leaving a job you disliked and commencing a career you love. And from the looks of it, you're doing an *amazing* job! I'm not going to even start with the amount of us you have helped and encouraged, by being so open and vulnerable. You're a beautiful human, Bea, inside and out. Never forget it and never doubt it. 💛
Bea, it really seems like the wheels fell off when you quit your job, also you had that call from your dad at your bday and then you rekindled your friendship with Ann. Why are they living at your house? Do you have a hard time saying no, are you a people pleaser? This is sounding accusatory and it’s meant with L❤️VE. I only want good things for you and for you to feel like the Queen you are. I’m a people pleaser and an introvert, it is hard to set boundaries. I hope you are examining stuff with your therapist.
This was the worst year of my life too, but I moved away from a place where the next door neighbor assaulted me and now everything is looking up. Rooting for you girl.
Girl you are missing out on so many breakfast ideas lol. Kodiak makes these protein pancake mixes that all you add is water. The dark chocolate ones with sliced bananas and sugar free syrup is life. There’s also alllllll kinds of avocado toasts to make. Toast under the broiler with avocado tomato and mozzarella cheese is good. Breakfast pizza. Breakfast casserole. So many things besides eggs and oatmeal lol. Also I miss Chetty 😞
Yes kodiak cakes are the bomb! I just experimented with it and added blended cottage cheese, egg whites, shredded carrots, pumpkin spice and vanilla extract to make a carrot cake style pancake! Sooo good
This year has been one of the worst for me … mourning motherhood because my youngest left for college and mourning my mother that passed away in April. I’m struggling , I’m doing ok, but I’m struggling. I just want to be my usual happy self and I just don’t know how to do it. So …. Yeah ! I understand .. enough of my pity party
I just wanted to take a moment and thank you. I started BetterHelp at the beginning of this year. It has done so much and I have no idea how I survived without it. Also I am back in the US for a few weeks and I realized how much stress and anxiety there is here, especially dealing with the outside world.
for losing weight stress-free, you can try walking everyday for 30 mins - an hour. 🥺 i've lost 15 lbs since june just walking everyday, weather permitting. i'm also type 1 diabetic and pcos ! the walks themselves have helped me a lot with mental health too. it's sorta meditative, blasting my tunes and focusing on my breathing
I had very strong anxiety attacks the first six months with Mirena. Stuff that made no sense for me. Thankfully it passed with time, but there are some things I just can't do. I've done some pretty extreme sports, and now I don't even like scary rides. My advice is give it some time, and then decide what the "new you" needs to thrive. For me that means I don't climb ladders. Period. I don't need to have a panic attack because I'm afraid I'm going to have a panic attack. For you it might mean privacy, since this is a very public life you have with us. Always rooting for you!
Hey Bea ... I'm with you on b'fast. Have you considered just eating what you like and "screw b'fast foods?" In most of the world they don't just eat eggs and bacon for breakfast ... in Japan rice is a big part of the meal, in other parts of the world they eat cold cuts, vegetables and lots of other stuff. Scandinavia has some really cool breakfast foods. I made some "cut-rate congee" in the crock pot ... congee is an Asian porridge made from WAY overcooking rice .... I put a cup of rice, 4 c. of water and 2-3 c. of unsweetened cashew milk in the crock pot with some cut-up dried fruit, craisins and tiny diced fresh banana ... a little salt, some mixed nuts and let it cook overnight on "low" ... it was good!!! I also tried chicken congee ... a little weird, but pretty good and full of protein.
I love how real you are about your life and journey. I'm also going thru some bing changes in my life and healing from a burn out. It's though and seeing your videos helps me tremendously.
I recommend checking out Dr. Jolene Brighten for tips on adjusting after getting off the pill! Also, the book Sugar Blues seriously shifted my view on sugar, I can’t recommend it enough! Seeing a traditional Chinese medicine doctor/acupuncturist is also sooo helpful for hormonal stuff. Can’t wait to see your progress, not just weight loss but just in general. You’re seriously so inspiring! Seeing you back at your mom’s, working out in the Portugal The Man shirt is such a full circle moment as you start your reset 🤣 I love it! GOOD LUCK!!! Rooting for you from Miami 🤍
Bea, you are so adored, you matter, you are worthy, you bring so much authenticity and joy to the world 🌎. Envisioning your continued balance. ❤️ Infinite ♾️ gratitude for you!
I really hope you are proud of yourself! I can't believe how much you have grown since I have started watching you! You really are doing your best to take care of yourself and do it the right way! As a mom of a daughter who struggles from anxiety and mild depression I am learning so much! Thank you for sharing your journey!
A few years ago, my husband and I reluctantly let a young man from church move in, temporarily. (It was freezing and his father was kicking him out.) I got so stressed out, I thought I was having a heart attack and I went to the emergency room. It wasn't a heart attack so the insurance didn't pay the $2,000. I had that kid here for several months. I know now, after 3 times trying to help people, that I can't handle the stress of having extra people in my house.
I honestly think allowing friends to live with you and then you feel you can't be there, at your own home wasn't a good choice when you're going thru way to much since giving up your job. Just my opinion. That was 1 long run on sentence! Take Care.
Yay for the positive attitude! Having a negative outlook is self defeating. But why do you suddenly have a bunch of roommates? Honestly that alone would send me running back home too!😳 I’m not a roommate person as I suspect most adults are not.
I just went through a breakup and am staying with my mom too. Taking baby steps to heal and this video was literally so needed. I was asking myself this morning how the hell I’m going to get through this. My entire life has completely changed and fallen apart in a few months- but this gave me hope. Thank you bea
This was me last year. 2021 was the worst year of my life. You'll be fine, just keep trying, stay in therapy, pray, and surround yourself with people who genuinely love you. Rooting for you 👏
So happy to see you’re doing so well!!! I did the whole giving up gluten thing about three years ago. And My body got better so I thought gluten was the issue. It turns out that a lot of the sugary things I ate were gluten-based. Like cookies, donuts, cinnamon rolls… You get the idea. So when I gave up gluten, I in advertently gave up a whole lot of sugar. In the end though, it was the sugar that was the culprit for me. Thanks so much for being so vulnerable and willing to share your journey. I guarantee it is helping more people than you will ever possibly know! You are a blessing and I am so happy that you are in this world!
I had a very similar experience with Mirena. I had never experienced panic attacks or debilitating anxiety the way I did when I had the iud. I also had weight gain, body pain and a whole host of other issues. My whole world came to a stop. My primary dr made the connection and I had the iud removed. It took some time, but I felt so much better when it was gone.
From 2018 until mid-2020, I did a whole house renovation. It was very stressful and I was so happy when it was finally finished. Early this year, I sold that house and bought a house in the same city as my parents. Unfortunately, it's a fixer upper as that's all I could afford. I'm currently living with my parents while I complete the renovations and it's just as stressful as last time. Like you, I'm re-ordering all the same stuff that I put in my old house because it's all stuff I liked and I don't want to bother redesigning things. Same kitchen cabinets/countertops, same bathroom vanity, same toilet, same bathtub, same flooring, etc. I'm even planning on painting the walls the same colors. I can't wait until these renovations are complete and I can have my own space again.
Also- I am so proud of you!! Anxiety and depression can be so hard to live with. I’ve been there before and it’s not easy to pull yourself out of that feeling. You’ve motivated me to keep pushing forward!! Wishing you the very best!
Just so you know you are not alone. This year was tough for me too and trying my hardest to reset. Love your videos and Douglas always makes me laugh out loud!
Bea, I know this year has been hard for you. You’ve had many changes (for the better) and all of these changes are shifting you into the next chapters of your life. Change causes unrest, because it’s out of our comfort zone, but look at how much you hav accomplished in the past 8 months! You inspire me as well as many others who watch your channel. I laugh with you, cry with you and cheer you on even when you don’t feel like cheering yourself on. You are so amazing and have become such a strong woman since you started this journey. We are all here supporting you and loving you, for you just being you. Here’s to the next four months ❤️ you got this!
I had a bit of an existential crisis this morning thinking of how 2022 is already almost over, so hearing the way you see it as a positive thing was really good for me to hear. ❤️
As someone who is a music enthusiast, I really appreciated the upbeat fun stuff about 11 minutes in. It sounds like a variation of a previous workout track used and I love it! Bea, even if you’re not in the best place right now, your content never fails to make my week. I believe in you and I’m rooting for you! ❤️
Watching you working out there takes me back to the early videos, which were absolutely hilarious and made me fall in love with you, (not in a creepy way! Settle down everyone 😂!). I think you're under unbelievable stress with buying a house, gutting it, moving in to your mother's place, etc, Be nice to your poor system, it's going through a lot!!! Sending love, light and big hugs from Victoria, BC Canada 💖🇨🇦
Bea, you are one of the most motivational people on the internet. Because of you, I joined CoPilot and got a fantastic coach that understands all of my health issues. Because of you, I started my own health journey. I'm far from the only one. You inspire us all, you remind us that we are not alone. We all keep coming back because we love being a part of your life. Don't let moments ruin days.
Ever since 2020 I am always trying to hopeful that the next year will be better BUT it seems to progressively get worse. This Summer has been the worst I have had since I can even remember. I'm trying to reset now and hoping to turn it around. Good luck!
I'm so proud of you for everything you've done regarding your health: therapy, exercise and food. It isn't easy staying on track when you're doing very well. I love the shots with Doug; he's so funny!
Hi Bea. Do you ever take time to rewatch your past videos? Because if you do, you will see you have achieved so much! Also, very excited about the challenges you talk about 💛🖤
I find throwing myself into craft projects helps so much with my mental health, just something about accomplishing something helps. 😌 So I hope you can find that in yourself, something small that can just uplift you enough to breath for the things you need to actually do. My love to you and yours
Hey Bea , I'm just a stranger on the internet who is struggling along too but your year has involved alot of change and some people need structure .You're one of those people . I think it would benefit you to get a part time job or to start volunteering somewhere that has a set schedule that you aren't having to formulate and force yourself to stick to. Also, allow yourself to grieve all the change that has occurred. You moved out of your home with your mom and created a new one that was all your own but both feel different now in ways that are outside of your control . I think that would have anyone feeling loss .
Spiders love wood, cardboard, and paper! Find an all natural citrus room spray and go nuts with it. In about half a day most of them will vacate. Love you B!! You're rocking it through all the real rough stuff! Also, I always exercise before bed. Burns more fat while you sleep I think. 😂
