Update: left hospice, not homeless, last days? no help yet, waiting for hospital, how to keep FAITH 

Lique,I am an anorexia survivor so I say this to you with great respect and love...you need to begin eating more.Small soft meals.You are exhausted because you are not eating enough.Your caloric intake is too low and you as a rational adult know that.You need to thrive ,put this disease to rest.You are better than anorexia,You and only you can change this scenario.Now is the time to dig deep and rise above the fear of food.It is not the enemy,it will be your savior. Your recovery is as simple as one sandwich,one extra pudding,one glass of milk,one piece of cheese ...one at a time,build that body back into the strong woman that I see there fighting to get out.C'mon girl! This is the time to gather all your strength,see yourself in a different light.You are not that sick girl hoping to make it one more month,you are Lique...woman who will reach deep inside and slay this beast that is anorexia.! Please listen to me ,it will save your life.❤

I had extreme anorexia, debilitating chronic pain and disability too. Somehow I survived, with your mindset I believe you will too. You have such a strong and beautiful soul. Even in all your own pain you haven’t given up, and you give back so much light and kindness to others. Sometimes when my pain gets very bad, I get thoughts of relapsing, but you remind me how hard I fought to get better and it pushes me to not go back, because it will kill me. I don’t know how I got better, but I want to tell you and everyone it is possible. Keep fighting. I pray for you everyday.

Beautiful lady. I wish you could fly to Australia, we have so many amazing ED hospitals and they don’t cost anything. I could also care for you as I’m a healthcare worker. My longing to care for you physically and emotionally is so big. Keep surviving.. please. I am praying for you, I am sending you the biggest squishiest hugs.

So heartbreaking that this poor woman passed away because she couldn't get the help that she needed. What a wonderful courageous woman she was. RIP sweetie. My heart goes out to you ❤️😢🙏

Why is no one close by not helping this beautiful soul, she is a gem, there is no excuse for this in this world we need to help this lady❤️

hang on Angelique. One day at a time. Your days will get better. We're all rooting for you

You are smart and so strong willed like me. I get it. When I was in trouble like you, I cried out to Jesus. Next thing I found myself eating a bowl of chicken noodle soup, 6 ritz crackers and one apple. This was my first real meal in quite some time. I ate it slowly and I cried. It was medicine but it felt so perfect and right. Something changed in me in those moments. I decided to live. No inpatient or outpatient treatment programs helped me. In fact, they made me worse. The healing came from within. The healing came from that same strong will that kept the anorexia going. Praying for you Lique. xo

I honestly have no experience with anorexia, but what you said about connecting one person’s experience with another makes me just want to share a lesson I’m learning, that new habits are so daunting to take on because it’s hard to commit to the idea of practicing them for the rest of your life. We are easily tempted to go back to old habits because they are the habits we have, and what make us comfortable. However I really think the way our brains work with forming new habits is it may be uncomfortable in the beginning, but becomes the new normal and becomes effortless. So I would say don’t try eating more thinking that it’s going to be this hard every single time. Instead it’s just a change that is only going to be temporarily uncomfortable, but it will go away once this change becomes a habit and the new normal.

You need to start eating, small amounts but something to help yourself.You are the only one who can do it

Hey Lique, I'm so glad to see you have a roof over your head and somewhere to stay. I see at least 5 comments in the comments section that offer very practical, sensible, do-able, potentially life saving advice. 1. from E Roxanne S "Lique, as a physician and someone who struggled with eating disorders (including traumatic experiences with forced treatment in my childhood) I want to tell you: If you want to live, you need to contact an emergency centre of a clinic and tell them you want to get refed. They cannot decline you. You ARE dying and if your will is to live this is an emergency. They must treat you. Dear strong and gorgeous Lique, your only responsibility is to make this decision. The remaining responsibilities you have to give away and trust that others will take care. And they will. I don't know anything about what you went through, but I know that the decision to give responsibility away can be more than hard. If there is anything I can do (I'm in Germany, not Netherlands but still...), please contact me 🙏 Again: to me what you can and should do is call the emergency, tell them you are dying (because you are) and you want to live and can't save yourself (because you cannot). They must treat you to save you." * Contact E Roxanne S 2. from Terriann: "So good to see you. Tell the people renting your home they need to get out. Of course you have a contract but ask them nicely to break the lease early. You had no way of knowing what the future brought. Surely they could understand that." 🙏🏻❤ *I'm sure that legally you would have an argument to be able to ask them to leave before the contract expires in "extreme circumstances" 3. from Minttu Maaria: "You should try coming here to Finland! We have free healthcare and I believe that it's really affordable to foreigners. I wish you so much strength! You've got this! I'll keep praying for you and may God help and bless you

You conquered today! One minute as a time as you said. Much love from the USA. ❤️

It was good to hear from you again. I am so grateful to those who have given you a place to stay for the moment, and those who are helping make life there possible. I agree about the importance of feelings, and the feelings you inspire in me are admiration and hope. Hang in there, darling!

I commented on a previous video so I hope you see this. Two suggestions: contact a church. They may have members in their congregation that would love to help. A nunnery may even take you in. Secondly, search for expat/student grouos. There are a lot of foreigners who have time or unemployed that could offer a lending hand. Also, the red cross. They may have volunteers!

So relieved to see you here! 💜Your fighting spirit in the midst of all you're going through is strong. Most people don't understand the terror of chronic illness, pain and suffering- you're illuminating the realities and you are a gift. Just please keep going, you are amazing. Give yourself grace.

Lique, please don't ever give up. You can beat this, you can live. Don't forget that you deserve a better life - you can win & live free of anorexia. It's so going to be worth it. Don't let other people's negativity or cynicism/pessimism deny you your right to life. Everyone here wants you to win. ❤❤❤ XXX

With love ❤️. If you were in Canada 🇨🇦 they would have you hooked up to lipids. Have you drinking high calorie boost liquid meals all on top of what you could eat. You are not fully lost. You are still mentally functioning 100%. You have have to think positive. You can't give up. You have to think of all the things you really want to do in life. You cannot live life thinking you are going to die at any moment. Seeing this first hand. My father has been saying for over 20 years now... I am going to die any day now. Your spirit/soul isn't ready to go yet. ❤💝

We want you to survive!! Pls don't give up! ❤

I'm so pleased to see that you're safe and have somewhere to stay for a little while. I meant to post earlier but I have been wiped out by chronic fatigue. England is having an extreme heatwave and humidity effects MS, specially the fatigue symptoms. You have such a good mindset, when you talk about eating I sometimes forget briefly that you have an ED. I had an ED, mostly bulimia, for so long. I really think you will recover, it's just compounded by your medical problems. Brighter days are ahead of you. You deserve the best things in your life. xxx

Ik wil je zoveel liefde wensen Angelique, ik zie een vrouw die zo ontzettend hard aan het vechten is tegen deze ziekte. En Ik hoop zo erg dat je door blijft vechten hoe moe je ook bent, jou verhaal moet de wereld inkomen en dat kan inderdaad alleen als je blijft knokken. Je bent het zo waard. Vecht zo hard je kan!! Jij kan dit.

Lique, as a physician and someone who struggled with eating disorders (including traumatic experiences with forced treatment in my childhood) I want to tell you: If you want to live, you need to contact an emergency centre of a clinic and tell them you want to get refed. They cannot decline you. You ARE dying and if your will is to live this is an emergency. They must treat you. Dear strong and gorgeous Lique, your only responsibility is to make this decision. The remaining responsibilities you have to give away and trust that others will take care. And they will. I don't know anything about what you went through, but I know that the decision to give responsibility away can be more than hard. If there is anything I can do (I'm in Germany, not Netherlands but still...), please contact me 🙏 Again: to me what you can and should do is call the emergency, tell them you are dying (because you are) and you want to live and can't save yourself (because you cannot). They must treat you to save you.

there are so many people around this world that watch your videos, think about you, donate and are rooting for you Angelique💕 stay strong beautiful. it’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel at times but you’ve done such a good job at keeping positive even in the darkest times. keep going, we are all so proud and love you lots xxx

It's good to see you are in a safe place, and are still posting. Life is so complex and challanging. Good luck, love, and hugs!

i'm so glad to know that you currently have a place to stay! i'm sending lots of love, hugs and support

Sending hugs and love from Salt Lake City, Utah. How well I understand what you're going through. Please know that there is hope and healing. I am recovered from my severe eating disorder.

You got this! You are a survivor ! You’re gonna make it! Much love from the USA ❤️ 💜 ♥️

"People will never forget the feeling you gave them" --> entirely beautiful & entirely true.

Sending you lots of love and hope! You are so incredibly strong ❤

You are so, so very strong and beautiful Lique! I am in awe of you for mustering the willpower to find this place and call around all those homecare places! It is absolutely amazingly impressive Lique!

Much love to you Lique❤️ my heart breaks for your situation, and I wish that you somehow get the support you need. Hugs to you sweet lady💕

I’m sooo grateful that you got a place to stay and you are safe! Stay strong!!! You’ve come so far to get to this point, just remember that! The other voice inside your head is your ED talking!!! God will get you through from minute to minute! Continued Prayers from the USA! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️🇺🇸

Thank you for the update, my lovely. Sending extra hugs and much strength your way xx

I wish you all the best in your recovery. Sending you lots of love and support 💖💖💖

Where were your parents when this eating disorder began at the age of 10? You are right, you definitely need to be more transparent with everyone, especially if you are asking for financial help? We want to hear your story from the beginning.

I’m so relieved to know you have somewhere to stay!! I’m so sorry your having trouble with motivation,only you know what exactly your feeling and the pain :( but I pray you get better and find the strength to always keep going! You’re a beautiful soul who deserves to live!

You are in my thoughts and prayers. You’re a beautiful person. Thank God you in a place and you will be getting some help. It’s a start and I pray it will get better.

I’m so proud for you; Keep moving in your strength. I believe in prayer and I’m praying you find a place that will help to heal you. I’ve had anorexia a long time ago and I was truly lucky to finally get better myself through a great deal of measures. 🌸

You are often on my mind. Sending hugs, Angelique. 💕

The faith is also not to "fight" the flow of life. There are two sacred moments in life, birth and death. Awaken the spark of your heart, live moment by moment. There is no rush to survive or to die. I've been by the side of many who have passed on to the "other" side. Some are at peace, some are angry, some are sad, some are confused, some are afraid but those who count every breath as a blessing, every heart beat as a blessing, the pain and fear become a background stage set. I live with constant pain, at a level of 7-9 from 10, energy is low and many other challenges. Yet, a singing bird is a joy, cool clean water on my hands and face are the best pleasure of the moment and having a roof over my head is my sacred castle and my "lonely" moments became moments of sacred saluted. When my last breath comes, I will welcome the end of my tiered and worn out body. I'll be grateful for this small moment in time and space for me to have experienced life as a form of "miracle" and I was lucky to see, feel, taste, witness and even experience pain and death as my friends who came to liberate me from this heavy and needy human mind and body. The cycle of life is lovely! Peace be with you, for you are not just your body, these are your sacred moments that every human must experience ❤️🦋. Make it a ceremony, a sacred time to witness something society doesn't want you to ponder. I send you love and peace from the core of my Being, that you find the miracles, even in the pain and diarrhea. Love and respect for your journey ❤️!

thank you so much for uptating us Angelique. I know how hard it can be and please just keep going, no matter what. I respect you so much for sharing your journey and the courage you show every single day fighting. sending you a lot of strenght 💪🏻🔥

Thanks so much for sharing your story and heart ❤️ you are incredibly beautiful!! Sending lots of love and big hugs 🤗

God bless you, dear. We’re both struggling in our own ways😢 Don’t give up hope.. It’s nice to see that you still smile despite your suffering.

You are here for a reason so keep fighting. You are an inspiration and more powerful than you think. You are loved by many❣️🙏

Sending my love and warm hugs and praying you will find the strength to recover and the support you really deserve xx 🥰

i was just thinking about you! so good to hear from you!

Lots of succes for recovery and you will succeed. Wish you the best..

Thank you for the update I’m so so happy you ended up in a safe place even though it’s not ideal. I’m having a hard day myself and have been thinking about you.. you’ve been suffering from this horrible disease much longer than me and it’s stolen so much from you but your still fighting it with all the strength you have. You are so incredibly strong. Your so incredibly brave. Please remind yourself that pushing forward one second at a time is still beating Ed. I’m sending you all the love and light my friend 💖💖💖💖💖

Praying for you. please keep fighting & reaching out for help. 💜

Dear Angelique, Thank you for the update, especially when you are struggling so much with your energy levels. That was a beautiful video. It felt like I was listening to a good friend. You are already a blessing to so many including myself. My prayers, thoughts and extra strength I have are all with you. Rebecca from Cyprus ❤️☀️❤️

Please do hang on, dear one. I was so glad to see you posted.thank you for sharing your journey. I wish you could come to the USA. You are stronger than you think you are. You are incredibly brave. Bless you. Keep writing. Keep posting.

Please keep fighting. Found your video by accident and this is the 2nd one I've watched. You CAN be such a great inspiration! Know that many care about you, love you from afar and we are rooting for you!!! Please take advice from others on here and look into every possibility of getting somewhere to get more help. DON'T GIVE UP. I hope you can gather strength from our comments..... We Aren't with you, but we ARE with you. ❤️ You're so inspiring to others..... Please hang on and LIVE. 🙏🙏❤️❤️ PRAYERS from the USA

You are such a sweet and inspiring person. I wish you the best. Hang in there. The world is a better place because you live in it.

Hi Lique, It's amazing you have a place to stay but so sad to see you are feeling down. I hope you are aware your strength and grace is contagious. Strength doesn't need to be unwavering for you to be a beacon of strength. You can have moments where you are unsure and low and still be an inspiration to others. You are an inspiration to me. I hope you continue pushing forward for no one but yourself and the opportunity to have the life you want and deserve, and that you feel the encouragement from everyone rooting for you. What you are going through looks difficult beyond belief and yet you are doing it, and finding ways to overcome the obstacles. You are doing it. Even when you feel down or don't know what more can be thrown your way, right now you have a place to stay and you are carrying on. Sending you all the encouragement and light to carry on.

So good to see you. Tell the people renting your home they need to get out. Of course you have a contract but ask them nicely to break the lease early. You had no way of knowing what the future brought. Surely they could understand that. 🙏🏻❤️

I love how even though the situation isn't the easiest you make the best of it and are so thankful. You are wonderful! Never forget that. And we are thankful to know you!

I really and truly hope that your pain physically and mentally starts to lift soon. I've also struggled with ED and feel all of the empathy for you. You can recover! You absolutely can, you are strong enough and you deserve to allow yourself recovery. We are rooting for you all the way. Your intelligence and heart shines through your videos always. x

I am glad you are still here 🙏🏻🙏🏻

You seem like such a kind, smart and beautiful person. You deserve to live and be happy in this life. ❤️

I love you. So so much. You got this and I want to give you a HUGE hug!! I’m so so sorry you feel so alone and are so alone.

We believe in you! Keep going. You are on right track. Keep nourishing your body one bite at a time and everyday try to do a little better than the day before. This may feel like forever but every journey starts with a small step.

You are so strong and amazing! Every second that you fight for your life is a victory! In this world, it can be so hard to not just give up. I’m so grateful that I found your video, because I needed a reminder that I’m not completely alone in my own struggles. I’m sending you much love and continued strength, all the way from Minnesota, USA. ❤️ Let’s keep fighting for our lives together; life is such a precious gift, even when it feels barely worth holding on!

Seeing and hearing you talking it's like having a conversation with a dear friend... and I truly care for you. I know the feeling of having to deal with life just minute by minute and feeling that you can't take it anymore and "being strong for so long that now you feel tired of being strong" and you feel lost. Just please don't give up. I hope with all my heart that everyday you find again and again the energy and purpose to live, not only physicaly but emotionaly too. You are a beautiful soul and you deserve to live, be happy and have the best life that you can. I wish I could do more to help you, because you deserve all the good in the world. And I believe and know that you will get through everything!

Praying for you ..don't lose hope. Sending lotss of love and hugss..❤️❤️❤️

we all love and believe in you. you can do this! you are so strong. i also have anorexia and starting recovery was probably the hardest thing ive ever done. i know you will be happy and strong again. please never ever give up, we are all so proud of you for fighting. you are an amazing human who genuinely deserves so much happiness. keep pushing ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey Lique, I stumbled upon your channel by accident. I can't even imagine what you're going through, but it's awesome that you're fighting so hard. I hope that you can get into that hospital and receive the treatment you need. Just hang in there while you're waiting. And if you can, continue to keep us updated :D I feel privileged to hear from you every time you post.

Im glad to see you're ok. I know it's not perfect but im going to pray you get everything you need for your day to day Much love!

You are the strongest person I know … you’re in my prayers everyday 💕

You are such a sweet person. Seeing your videos help me soooo much💖💕

Bless your heart I hope you overcome this Tracy Gold had eating disorder just stay strong don't give up I will be praying for you 🙏 ❤ you are a beautiful person inside and out

So if you eat you live. I can't imagine this life. But it's not like you have cancer or crohns or diabetes or lupus or any of those debilitating diseases to kill you. All you have to do to survive and live and come alive is eat. The body is INCREDIBLY miraculous. If you ate healthily for two weeks you would see a MIRACULOUS change. I'm sorry for your plight but the ball is literally in your court. You're not ready to go with god yet. Nourish your body and your mind and watch the change. I pray terribly for you what a travesty

I've been wondering how you have been doing dear Angelique.... I'm glad you have a place to stay....you have alot of people who are rooting for you..please please dont give up...we love you.♥️🇱🇷

Hi Angelica, I am just listening to your most recent RU-vid video as I am on my way home from someplace and want to let you know how incredibly inspiring you are and what a strong strong woman by the grace of God you are! I have my own struggles as well, and often feel it is hour by hour and sometimes minute by minute also but I know you have so many more struggles and yet you stay so positive and I want to let you know how much love and support I am sending you!!

Hello Lique all the way from Virginia in the USA! I have been following you for some time and I just want to say that we hear you and see your struggle. I went through my own struggle during the pandemic and came out on the other side. I know you can too because of how hard you are fighting. It will get easier and we followers will not stop supporting you. You are a special person meant to be here with us ! xo

Please stay alive Lique. I Am begging you. Your body is a precious gift. It carries your soul, your person, as im sure you know. I wish you so many deep breaths, and even more courage. Keep fighting and being as kind, compassionate, and brave as im sure that you are.

Don’t lose hope I’m praying for you 🙏🏻

Love God will heal you. You have come this far. I am always praying for you. Have faith

Glad you’ve found a safe place for a while I hope it allows you time to find things you need to help you live more comfortably, I’m happy to see ads on this video I hope that means your making some sortve money from this aswell💓

I wish I could reach out and give you a hug right now. I know what it is like to be ill unto death. If it were not for my Heavenly Father and my family and friends, I am not sure if I would be here right now. Listening to you speak, I sense you are such a strong woman. The will to survive is an absolute must during times like these. I will add you to my prayer list, you will live one minute at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time, one year at a time, 10 years at a time., and so on. You are giving hope to others, never give up hope.

💕💕💕🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏. Prayers for you sweet lady.

I’m so sorry, sweet girl. Praying for you.

I say this with love and as a healthcare worker, who has worked with people with many health issues, addictions and people with psych disorders (I do believe ED can be considered on a spectrum of mental illness)...you need to take control back and not view yourself as a victim of circumstances (not getting enough help, life being hard, etc.). You need to empower yourself and believe that you have some control and responsibility for your outcome. I hear you when you say a lot of things aren't working out in your favor and aren't fair to you, and it's hard to keep going bc of the energy expenditure it requires - that is all so valid. Now please empower yourself to overcome these circumstances and make different choices to increase your energy (caloric) intake. Believe that you have choice in this circumstance and that life isn't just happening to you as a passive passenger, - you do have a choice. It requires a change of mindset. You are the only person with the power to control your thinking and choices. I wish you all the best in your recovery and your health, and send love.

I wish I could help you because I suffer with ed and am exhausted most hours of the day, and to shower is so difficult. You are an amazing source of hope to me and many of us out there. Please take it one day at a time, one meal or snack or hour by hour and eventually it will come to be survival and thriving

Glad you are safe and have some help. Stand up for yourself for what you want and believe in, a direction will come and happiness can be once more.. you have much strength..

Lots of advice in comments, I can't offer any but my love and support, I'm sure we're all proud of you doing this, love and hugs my friend ♥️

I know exactly how you feel and what you are going through. I have Anorexia. I have little energy and problem finding help. I am in school for Psychology. Fall semester is right around the corner. I am praying that I will have the strength to make it through the semester. Hang in there. I do understand.

I will be praying for you every day!

God Bless i am praying for you 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻 thank you for sharing your story . Much love from Boston, MA, USA

you have to keep fighting, you have to keep eating, PLEASE keep eating. you need be strong and survive. the world needs you. ❤️

Can someone bring you some things that do not need cooking like avocados and bananas, dates, coconut yoghurt and nut butters ? In the uk we have some plain rice / quinoa that can be microwaved. I have an intestinal disease too so I’m just trying to think of foods that will give excellent nutrition and energy and not be counterproductive causing diarrhoea.

Lique, I am praying for you to keep up your strength and keep fighting. Big hugs. 💗

I hear you. I'm sending you a big hug. You are helping others by demonstrating what it means to be brave. The world is better with you in it, so I hope you're able to beat this disease. Just focus on doing what's best for you, and don't pay attention to trolls. 💖

Sooooo so good to see you 😌💘

You are such a beautiful person inside and out love you just found you're channel and you are a sweet honest person you speak from the heart you are such a strong person iam so proud of you and for everything you have been through

Thank you for the blessing I received from this video. Blessings and prayers for you. Much LOVE 💕

*The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; Do not be discouraged. Deuteronomy 31:8* 🙏🏻 ✝️ ❤️

I want you to keep going 💕

You look much better! Pray all day long and thank God for every blessing🙏🙏

I loved hearing you speak Dutch. You are so strong and I felt so relieved to see you found a place to stay. I hope you can rest well and improve

Have you thought of recording a few videos in Dutch so that you raise awareness of your situation among the people who are in your reach and can actually help? Or maybe trying to contact some local news outlets so that they write an article or something.

Hi, just saw this channel. Your story is full of challenges. I hope you get better and stronger and healthier . You have a lot to give. Whatever it takes, I hope you heal and are blessed.

I sincerely hope you can find help soon. In the meantime I hope you can fuel your body, make a habit of getting nourishment. Your hunger cues will return over time. But every bit of nourishment you get, you gain energy points. I'm sure it's so hard, so difficult to advocate for yourself when you're so exhausted. But you have the surviving spirit in you and I hope you can continue to tap into that to find strength.