Uvalde Teacher Details Experiencing Survivor’s Remorse Following Mass Shooting 

Nicole is a close friend of our family and one of the most genuine and caring individuals. Life has been so difficult for almost all of us since that awful day. I’m so proud of her for taking the necessary steps and working through the trauma and the survivors guilt she feels. It’s not easy, and it’s not always easy to talk about either. Thank you Tamron, for such a heartfelt and empathetic interview.

Because of this horrible tragedy I decided to go work at my kids school as a teacher assistant (para professional). I just have to be there in case something happens, I will die fighting. Took a major Major pay cut because teacher assistants and teachers get payed literal Shit but my family comes first before anything else.

I can't help but tear up when I see these teachers and the children being interviewed, imagine what they're going through reliving that sad day.❤️🙏✝️

It hurts my heart that these teachers have use the " well if I don't go back my kids won't trust it's safe". Teachers were already special in my heart. Y'all deserve the pay checks the actors or sports people get.

This just made me tear up all over again. I wish those kids were still here😢

Tamron, your quiet, calm interviewing style was peaceful. Nice to see a different approach. Nicole, you are a true teacher. So many comments putting the kids first. You can feel your devotion and kindness. Only saying this if it's helpful. I've been teaching 21 years. I completely changed that day, too. I happened to be home watching TV. I was done with my school year. I watched the big newscasters like Lester Holt choke up on air. But the change happened when I realized how my school and school's I've been at here in Tucson and Phoenix are almost identical socioeconomic. Robb looked like a setting I'm familiar with. It hit me hard. Physically ill. Teaching has always been my passion even though it came later in life. Quitting is not an option. This being said, imagine, we had a REAL lockdown on our first day of school 8 weeks ago. Police chase with a weapon involved near our school. It was 930 in the morning! On our 1st day. I was assisting a long term sub with her 2nd grade class. If it hadn't been the first week, I would have been in my own English as a second language classroom. Immediately, I knew it was REAL. I heard God say, you are in here to help everyone stay calm and show what you know. The sub had never even experienced a practice lockdown but was incredible. The kids were under their desks in seconds. We ended up having to stay in lockdown for an hour. One child is advanced, he started melting down. It's like he knew there was a real threat. Yes, a 7yr old 😥. I ended up pulling him and 2 other companion kids under a horseshoe table to try for togetherness. The kids automatically held hands. We all did. Then, the child said I'm feeling myself get more scared. This was around the half hour mark. I was dressed in all black that day. Out of nowhere I whispered, don't tell anyone but I'm really a ninja. Lol. He then said, "oh I love ninjas, I want to be one when I grow up." He was calm for the following half hour. Kids had to use the garbage can as a toilet. This is NOT the experience kids or teachers should be having. Our new existence has changed so much, so quickly, due to all the violence. There has been zero time to adapt. Nicole, please pray for gentleness towards yourself. You are one of a kind!!! A teaching angel 😇. Thank you for your strength.

This woman shouldn't feel guilty The dozen of law enforcement officers who stood outside the room for at least 30 min should.

They need a new school, clean of that very tragic day. That school is still full of heroes. It takes a lot to go back. God bless these adults and children, as well as their families. Rest Easy to the Angel's that lost their lives on that ugly day 🙏❤

BLESS HER HEART!!! Lord wrap your arms around that town touch each one of them give them life lord and peace to keep going.

This woman is so courageous to go back there and teach. Tamron is a good interviewer. So many interviewers make the interview more about themselves rather than person they are interviewing.

Made me cry alot listening to the teacher talking, she is an amazing woman and will do what she can for those kids

Hang in there Nicole. Survivors guilt is real. I had it after surviving a wildfire. It lasted 6 months or so. You will slowly heal from this and you will be OK. I promise you sweetie !! Thank you for your incredible work and bravery !!! YOU ARE LOVED !!! 😘❤

So Brave! Thank You For Coming Back To Teach! The kids need teachers like you to give them stability. The bad people of the world can not win.

What an incredible woman… I can’t imagine going through all of that trauma and loss.

Sending prayers for all the teachers from that school. I pray they put all those kids together in their grade instead of spreading them out into classrooms that they don't hardly know anyone.

This would be a really confronting time. The emotions for everyone. You are a brave lady, the children are lucky to have you. The world needs more like you . Those lives will never be forgotten ❤️

❤️ & That’s what classrooms need to hear and feel around the world. LOVE 💗

That tragedy messed me up for weeks😭🙃

Bless this lady. You have love for your profession and all those students. You are the reason strength and courage will remain.

This woman is incredible ❤️

Sending prayers for everyone in Uvalde

This is so heartbreaking!

Prayers for her and the kids and for all the families. 🙏🏾💜

Amazing heartfelt interview

Praying for the teachers there in uvaldie.

When she said we as teachers are trying to make our classrooms a safe place hopefully That just got me. School should be a safe place no doubt. God keep all children and teachers safe.

Why them and not me is the hardest question you can think to answer. If you are dealing with something like this visit your local veteran's group. Normally it is strictly a "no tourists" zone but if you lived through this you will be welcome, and it may be the only place to find people who get it

I am late to commenting. But I am sure it means the world to those kids that their teacher came back. What a beautiful, strong woman. All of those kids are lucky to have her.

Why isn’t our schools? Safe? Why DMV’s court houses have guards and apartments complexes. but not schools??! why?

This didn't have to happen. It's sad and it's even sadder to know it will eventually happen again

It was never your decision to pull the trigger. We need to make sure all these people are getting the mental health help they need.

It's survivor's guilt, not survivor's remorse. Remorse describes a feeling of regret or guilt for a wrong committed (murderers for example might feel remorse). Because the teacher was not the perpetrator, it is strange to describe her feeling as "remorse," when she clearly just feels guilty for having survived, unlike her friends. Plus, "survivor's guilt" is simply the standard phrase.

God bless Uvalde ❤

💪💪💪💪Brave strong amazing teacher.

Hearing her has me in tears 😢

We can't just move on. We have to be angry and do something about this. I can tell you right now how all of this could have been stopped. Shooters are looking for sitting ducks but not a gunfight. Give the teachers guns. They clearly love the kids and would risk their lives for them. If you don't trust someone with a gun around your kids, then they shouldn't be a teacher. The police were incompetent at best and weren't willing to die to save the teachers and children. "Yelp if you need help"? That's the stupidest command to tell civilians in hiding. It is sick how this went down. How many shootings need to happen for us to realize that hiring more unarmed bodyguards to just be present is not helping.

it's hard to see teachers not get the attention they deserve, like the first responders do or actually they ensure they do by telling everyone, oh how wonderful our first responders are and oh how wonderful our policemen and woman are, all 400+ that showed up that day - the american idol these days are guns and how special they are to have and hold...

The thin veneer of normalcy ,destroyed in a moment ,by one very sick teenager. The shock waves reverberate ,and manifest in so many ways, in so many lives. Innocents lost.

Nice intimate quiet video

So sad and moving

You are here to teach students to climb back up and show them how you did it.

This is America

I will pray for the family 🙏 God bless you and he will always be there for you always be there for you and your family. and another thing is that my opinion from bottom of my heart from Timothy Allen Armstrong. I am going to put them in my prayers for all the loss of the kids and another thing is I also feel like crying.

Ban assault rifles. This is so tragic and terrible. This man LEGALLY bought an assault weapon and then attacked a school. 😔

Crying so hard…..

America 🇺🇸 beautiful Billy. Yaya Tru dat grandpa. Love 😍 elite.

Is my TV lying to me again?

Even if I was showing bravery in the face of adversity as an example I could not send my kids back to that school after that.

Tamron, why?????

It is time the cops went to prison.

🙏🙏🙏 Jude:2

#JusticeForUvalde 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎

No one should have to go through that... It's too bad the country may not be able to heal from the right's intense defense and worship of guns and the 2A [which they don't understand and/or rewrote'

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Sad❤

I’m not sure I like the interviewer. “ can you hear the children’s voices”? Wtf

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The police chief couldn't organise a root in a brothel,

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So does god just pick and choose who he wants to protect ? I am so confused in this faith stuff like idk

TRUMP N HIS WIFE TED CRUZ NEED WEIGHT WATCHERS LOL PS HE LOST LOL

This interview was so slow and boring. Yawn we are want the details of everything

Good for her… I wouldn’t go back

This is so heartbreaking 💔