VLOG | not reading very much, Frankenstein & procrastinate with me :) 

Does anybody else want to hear Emma read her Frankenstein essay… 👀

Sometimes when all you do is study it’s nice to take a day off and recharge 💜 as a pre med student trying to learn a new language I completely understand the feeling of school controlling your life so don’t feel bad for needing a break. Also I’m so proud of you for finishing your paper! Don’t second guess yourself I’m sure it’s incredible 💜

Oh man, finishing one essay and having to immediately dive into another is soul-crushing. Right there with you!

I'm currently reading Frankenstein, for the first time...." I saw the dull yellow eye of the creature open" gasp!!!! Amazing book

Comparative literature or syntopic reading, is one of the highest forms writing you can do. You can read two works and then discuss a completely new, original idea that isn’t explicitly stated or even found in either book. It’s beautiful

emma has some superpowers i bet, she puts me in the best mood alwaysssssss. take care emma you are the best.

emma you literally became victor frankenstein while doing that essay but instead of the creature it was the essay!!! ps: i know it's hard to not let uni take over your life (i'm currently working on an essay that i'm also very passionate about) but it's also important to take care of oneself!! best of luck with what you have left of the term!

I’ve been graduated with my B.S. for almost 6 years now and sometimes I forget what academic life is like. It can definitely be difficult and draining. I wish you all the best :)

It is no loss to be so absorbed in writing that you forget yourself, a happy creative state that many people never experience. Willing absorption in study does not erase the self, it frees you from anxiety about the future. *The great evil is not work,* said Bernard Shaw, *it is low-paid drudgery.* Exercise, hang out with friends, rest one/two days a week.

The first five minutes is exactly my life right now: I feel like I'm at war with myself, at war with my classes; and at war with my job. We all need breaks though to retreat, relax, and refresh. I hope you're doing well, love the video's. And remember it does make us all feel alone when we're in it, but realizing we're never alone when hearing someone else talk about it. Thanks.

Knowing the themes you focused on, and how much you invested in it and what it means to you, I really wish I could read your Frankenstein essay!

Just had all four of my wisdom teeth pulled out and now I’m here, relaxing and watching this video - the best post dentist appointment treat !! I feel warm & cozy 🤍

This is like a time travel 3-2 years back. Watching this, I can relate to it very much and it's still a miracle to me how I finally managed to finish my B.A. thesis. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done (not the task itself, but my mind keeping me from actually doing it). But I'm really relieved that I didn't give up. Btw thanks for showing the squirrel. I love your videos so much

So. I have felt this as well,.. but as a photography major, I feel like taking in a project is very personal to begin with and when you have an aha moment, it just makes everything in life. better (I cried during a craft night)

You talking about the period problems you're experiencing gave me the courage to finally book an appointment with a gynaecologist for the first time in my life. So thank you! It really helps when people speak openly about it.

Congrats on submitting your Frankenstein essay:I hope you share some excerpts!That remaining essay is coming across as an unloved child.😂❤️

It's amazing you can feel so passionate and put yourself into some of your essays like that. So often in school I would procrastinate so long I'd be forced to just spit out one that just checks all the boxes. It's great when you can get in the flow and lose yourself in it.

as a university student, i completely ABSOLUTELY felt it when you mentioned doing so much university work that you feel bad about not taking care of yourself. i'm so glad i watched your video today, i really needed it! university student solidarity, we can do this !!!

I started reading Things Fall Apart and i LOVE IT. Only like 30 pages in lol but i'm absolutely enthralled

I was strangely motivated hearing how much work you put into an essay

I can 100% relate to your feeling about the essay. I still remember (after many years) the process of writing a really good essay about John Ashbery’s Self-Portrait in a Convex Mirror.

I put a piece of my soul in this paper (horcrux paper) 😂 Enjoy the relief of submitting that, and be sure to celebrate!

I love the atmosphere of this video! You make me feel so much comfort Emma, thank you

I've been struggling with procrastinating ever since the beginning of the pandemic. So I actually admire you a lot for how much you're able to withstand that. Cause I sure as hell have not been for the past 2 years 😅 Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that you're not alone in this struggle. Both you, Emma, and whoever else may be reading this. We'll get through it 💜

Whenever I feel tired or burnt out, your videos are always there at the right time. Thank you Emma, you have helped me a lot! I hope you are taking it easy and are doing well. Sending lots of love❤

I commented previously about a big paper I was writing combining 5 different texts. It ended up being double the estimated word count and the only feedback I got on it was a grade and the sentence "Be more concise." I had a mountain of self doubt about each paragraph while simultaneously feeling like I may have written something truly worth reading. In the end, the paper amounted to little more than another solid grade in the books, but the process of writing it felt like my entire voice depended on it. I really like what you said about losing your sense of self when hyper-fixating on your writing. I feel like sometimes I identify my self worth with the value of the writing I'm creating and it can lead to me being extremely attached to the prose until I get shaken back down to my body, so to speak. The fear of losing that flow state keeps me from noticing when its affecting my self care. It feels like an alternating dance of hyper-fixation and impassioned writing spinning in time with self doubt and relentless perfectionism, but perhaps not so dramatic as that. Anyway, thanks for sharing your experience and sorry about the cinnamon rolls!

I should definitely keep doing school work right now but I'd very much rather watch this. How fitting that Emma being done her essay would distract me from finishing mine. 😂 That probably says a lot about our respective working patterns. Also I have another essay to start right after this one, and funnily enough it is completely about "the religion and politics of the day" as you put it (specifically I'm dealing with the late Victorian period) and yet I am absolutely looking forward to squeezing my heart and soul out into it because I dunno I guess I'm a bit deranged

I recently wrote a paper on Frankenstein about Victor's (I would argue) literal addiction to creating and destroying the creature. The language blew my mind because I could easily replace references to the creature with any drug/substance associated words in basically every quote! (specifically in Chapter 4) Anyway I read Frankenstein for the first time at the beginning of this year for my Gothic class and it was amazinggg! I love the creature so much 🥺

queen be feeding us so much content this month ✨ I'm loving it 😍

Emma!!! I'm so excited that you're reading the long way to a small angry planet! It's one of my favourite books (and favourite series!!), it feels like a warm cup of tea and a big hug to me, and I hope it feels the same way for you as you work through your busy semester

hey emma, your videos have been such a great source of tranquility over the past few days since i’ve started watching, keep up the great work!

a new emma vlog when i needed it the most, thank you for making the start of my weekend absolutely perfect 🥺💓

your videos are so nice after a long week you always put me in the best mood emma!

I’m studying aerospace engineering and can relate to feeling like school controls your life. Making time for seeing my friends or spending time with a loved one helped improved my semesters drastically.

When I started watching your videos I never thought I'll be this invested! And what you said about school is so true!!! I literally gave up reading after I entered medical school. But thanks to you and Ruby Granger, I was able to re-establish my habbit. 😍

You always give me lots of motivation!! Ily! And i wish you lots of success ✨💗

i'm not reading very much lately as well your videos feel like a warm hug

Keep hard at work Emmie and friends :) You deserve the fruit of any and all your labors! 'nd don't forget to give yourself a break or two, once in a while.

the essay bit i really really resonated with. currently a freshman and can't seem to grasp how quickly time passes and how easy it is to lose oneself in priorities. glad to know this feeling is shared with others.

The first 5 minutes is some of the most relatable content I've heard so far. It captures exactly how I feel. I've never heard it addressed in that way before either.

Good luck Emma! I'm guilty of procrastinating on the next part of my thesis 😬 but we'll get there! I don't know if others mentioned, but there's also blue & yellow Stabilo highlighters. They also have a pastel range with the same 5 colours.

All your videos are so calming

Congrats on finishing the Frankenstein essay! You got this. I hope you are able to get in for your doctor appointments as soon as possible. I too had debilitating period problems (had to have full hysterectomy at age 30 😬), so I hope you get relief very soon. I just wanted to say thank you for the Spiritfarer rec, I am loving it! It's right up my aesthetic. Take care. 🖤

"probably what you're doing if you're watching this video... You're doing great" idk why but that "you're doing great" was so cute lol

I also love those highlighters. Plus, once they do eventually run out, they are refillable! Yay to less plastic waste!

Hey emma, just thought I would let you know that I am also writing an essay over frankenstein, and your video helped kickstart my motivation to get going as well as helped me continue to keep writing. Me and my grades really appreciate it lol

i just finished my midterms today !!! i am sending u so much healing and peaceful energy. this week was hell for me, but we got through it :) & this vlog made me feel so much less alone :)

Your videos never fail to make me smile. Thank you. You are a beautiful person

I honestly recharge so much while watching your videos, im studying literature in German and can identify with so much of what you talk about and also Emma no need to call me out for procrastinating I was completely fine watching you do that xD

I really wanna hear you read your Frankenstein essay 🥺... Been catching up with your vlogs after a long time... They are always a source of major comfort for me ❤️

Hi Emmerson. Thank you for another wonderful video. I love your choice of songs. You do a really great job setting the atmosphere. Bulbasaur is actually my favorite starting pokemon - you made an excellent decision. I hope the rest of your semester goes smoothly!

The shirt is super pretty, bulbasaur is so awesome I'm jealous, and you again made my day yet again. You are doing great things by sharing your struggles and victories! LYSM Emma!

I'm watching this (because i've seen all of your recent videos haha) and right away i could relate. It's middle of my exam time and yesterday i finished one, but almost couldn't feel the joy, because tomorrow is another big exam and i just had to dive into papers filled with texts. It doesn't feel necessarily bad, but just as you said almost as if i faded away a bit and all my interests and joys as well. Anyways, I'm trying to read along with my studies, reading one or two chapters as a break and playing with my dog, spending time in our vegetable garden. All that helps, along with your videos that bring so much comfort, peace and just simple check in that all of these feelings are normal :)

hi emma! I just recently discovered your channel and been watching a lot of your videos since then and I just wanna say thank you for helping me overcoming my fear of reading classics😅 English isn't my first language so classics has just been a tough genre for me but you made it seem so fun and less intimidating. Thank you💖 I'm now in the middle of reading Dorian Gray and hopefully will be picking up more classic titles. Thank you once again and I hope you have a wonderful day❣

Emma, i'm reading The Long Way to A Small Angry Planet too, and i'm liking it very much. Good luck in your essays and have a lovely day! 🌈✨

Your videos are like a piece of art. I feel that every time I watch one.

Hey Emma, I relate to you so much right now. Thank you so much for putting into words what I have been feeling. Today's a Saturday. I've been so invested in my career (I graduate in June, and stared interning at this company about a year ago) that I have forgotten to enjoy myself. My friends see the success side of getting this invested in work, but they don't see the burn out. I just saw watched your video, picked up Good Omens and relaxed today. Hang in there. You got this. (Also the strawberry is adorable)

Emma, I hope you are having a good week and I hope you received the book and letter I sent. Sending love 🌸❤️

Success is a process for all of us, and as long as you are making consistent progress towards your goals - sincerely giving your best effort more often than not - then you are already successful and deserve to feel proud of yourself. Congrats on finishing your essay.

About the stabilo markers: I got a six pack of pastel markers and they’re my favorites. The only markers I own. Thy also have a different shape marker, that’s more pen shaped and it has a smaller tip and comes in all the six pastel colors as well. I don’t know if there are more than six colors tho, but I have these : orange, pink, purple, yellow, green and blue.

I had those highlighters too when I was in uni! I think I had a purple one as well, loved them because they weren't dark and those repulsive neon colors

i just love your aesthetic.

Hi Emma, Congratulations on completing your essay ! I 'm always happy when you post a new video, and sad when they end. Take some time for yourself. Nice nail color ! Happiness, Cindy

I love your vlogs! 💌

I absolutely get how you get lost in the essay you are writing. I am the same, I frequently just write sentences of a paper I'm currently writing in my head during the day (and especially during the night when I am trying to fall asleep). I'm basically always working on it subconsciously. I have no idea whether this is bad for your mental health, but it has been good for the papers I have written so far :-D

listening to emmie while playing roblox or ding anything givea such a comfort

I love the Wayfarer series SO much. I wasn't totally sold on the first book, but by the second I decided that it was amazing. I found out sometime later that Becky Chambers is a local author to me, which was pretty exciting - I'm in a pretty small-time ruralish area. xo

your shirt with a little bird on the corner, its so cute !

That strange squirrel has my heart

how relatable. i literally have a deadline in fourteen hours and the lack of motivation has translated into lack of fear of deadlines

Awwww so happy I instantly clicked on the notification!! Hi Emma 💕

I also have to write an essay on Frankenstein (16-18 pages) and I felt just the same about the creature and its relationship to Viktor! it's gonna be the last essay before starting to write my thesis

ILYY I HOPE U HAD A NICE DAY

Bingeing through your channel, loving your content!

I work full-time, so I can only write when I have free time and energy. I completely understand where you are coming from. I try to make at least an hour every day to write, but some days, it just doesn't work out. I never feel like I have enough time for writing, reading, seeing new films.

regarding the highlighters: there are loads more colours. there are 6 pastel ones and at least 10 non-pastel ones. i have the pastel ones

What? The vlogs done? Really relaxing and had put me into...i don't know how to call that state of mind but anyways, thank you for the video! I'm actually procrastinating right now for my schoolworks and reading frankenstein so this video came at the right time! Oh, speaking of Frankenstein, I have not even done the second letter from the beginning. I don't know why? Maybe because I'm bored or intimidated by it or both? I've watched fair amounts if your vid talking how great this book it so I guess that's why. Also, wnglish being not my first language kinda added to the struggle lol. I hope I'd get used to reading classics soon. So yeah, I've been procrastinating to reading this book but the way you talk about it passionately really makes me want to know what really happened to it and why you loved it so much. Now I'm very excited again to start to reading this book again. And oh! What do you guys think of getting the physical copy of this book? Should I? I'm in money saving mode and I only wanna buy worthy pieces so please tell me! Emma by the way i love you! You're like my best friend and I just recently discovered your channel( because i wanna start reading classics and found that one vid of u talking abt them) and I'm loving it! Keep safe, I love you!

i feel this vlog so hard. i have a thesis proposal due in a month and so far only wrote one part of it. it’s also unlike me to procrastinate this much it’s frustrating. but it’s okay you’re doing great i’m doing great we’re all doing great. we got this.

I use the Stabilo pastel highlighters as well! There are 6 all up I'm pretty sure - you're missing the yellow, blue, and purple :)

sending love and hugs emma!!

The title is perfect 😂. Love your videos Emma!❤

I love the Wayfarers series by Becky Chambers so much (starting with The Long Way to a Small Angry Planet). It's the exploration of cultural diversity and integration, gender identity, neurodivergence, different relationships and so many other things, done in such a beautiful - and funny - way. Book 2: A Closed and Common Orbit, is my favourite.

awhhh i loved watching this video it’s a great start for the weekend

I think what you're talking about when you said about 'losing yourself' in the act of essay writing is 'flow' - the kind of loss of personal identity you get when running sometimes or gaming intensely. It's almost a Zen like feeling - almost an act of meditation. Personally I REALLY like it. It's not something that happens all too often so enjoy it while its happening (or probably the memory of it once its gone as you probably can't enjoy it at the time because "you" aren't really there TO experience it).

the absolute serotonin rush when i see another 20+ minute emmie vid on my sub feed

If the stuff inside won't get ruined, the strawberry may be good to stick pins in. I just reread the Sparrow by Mary Doria Russell and it was utterly shattering and beautiful. I think you'd appreciate it too.

im reading frankenstein just now as my chosen subject for my essay for my english exams :)

You described a sense of the writing 'having replaced you', of having lost your sense of self in the process. That exact feeling is what the ancient poets were talking about when they invoked the muse at the beginning of their epics. Homer, Virgil, and on down. They're asking the muse to give them the words so that they can sing their song, which is kind of bizarre when you think about it - for whose song is it, then? Theirs or the muse's? And that is quite like your feeling that someone other than you is doing the writing. It's a common experience for writers and other people doing deep and involving work. From another angle, which the ancients would also have endorsed, I think, the poet is like an oracle who's receiving a prophecy, or being possessed by a god, and having the message flow through him. The oracle becomes the medium. The strange and ironic thing is that the work which people produce while in this state of lost identity is the work that they will become known for in the public eye, and down the generations. Any book you pick up of a writer long since dead was probably written in such a fugue state. It's what the creative process feels like. It's how you discover those unknown parts of yourself lurking in the 'unquiet darkness', and yes, perhaps it comes at a cost. But it's a good thing. Then again, I sympathize with the need to eat something.

You apologizing to the aloe was the best haha

Hey emma, i can very much relate to your period pain, i mean I’m alive only three weeks in a month. I visited doctors and did two ultrasounds and what they tell me is that this pain is NORMAL! I really hope you find comfort! I really liked the way you described your experience with your essay … I feel the same now working on one of my one of my MA lengthy essays … sending love and prayers your way 🤍

There are more stabilo boss pastel highliters and they’re so pretty!

The thumbnail is soo cute re 🥺

Just stopping by to say hello fellow commentors and hi Emmie :) hope everyone has a great Friday!

I still need to read Becky Chambers. A friend recommended her new novella, A Psalm for the Wild Built, and I have it here on my tbr.

Hehe kinda funny. I skipped school today but still gotta do things in the house. Love you Emmie, your amazing 🤠🌟

Now I want to read your essay, Emma😅🤩

Advice for keeping together long essays: use binder clips instead of staples!

Love your shirt! Porgs are the best.

Loveliest notification ❤️

I love those highlighters and I believe they have a decent assortment of colors! Also I'm very interested in your Frankenstein essay! Let us know what grade you get and if you'd be willing, read us the essay 🥺