[Vocaloid] 哀悼、そして日常は続く / 卯花ロク Full English Cover / Mourning and Everyday Life Continues【Aesker】 

A song about dealing with the loss of a loved one.
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Original:
• 哀悼、そして日常は続く / 卯花ロク ft.裏命
Original Music/Lyrics: 卯花ロク / ukaroku
Original Vocal: 裏命
Original Movie: 卯花ロク
English Lyrics & Edits for English Lyrics: Aesker
Vocals: Aesker
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On that day I missed school, but I put my uniform on like any usual morning
In their formal attire, the faces of my parents appeared hazy to me
There wasn’t a cloud in the sky to be seen, but the pleasant breeze, and clear blue sky only felt to me mocking
Hearing voices up ahead, I opened the car door and walked over, hesitant
There were people I once I knew from the past, there were people that I had never met
I wonder if I seemed to them composed, tried my best to look alright, nodding my head in agreement
Inside the japanese styled room, the cold seeped through my clothes like strong perfume
The attendant approached and called my name, and I slid open the door
To see
Your face, so soft and sweet, lying there as if you were just asleep
Looking like you’d wake any moment, and smile in my direction, but seeing that was just a dream
Washing your soft skin, ‘til it’s hard and cold, no warmth left to feel, but I can’t let go
All the dreams I had of us shatter, and leave me feeling hollow like your body that rests peacefully still
With a large hole in my heart, I slipped on the sleeves of my uniform, to start the next morning
All the way to the venue, my fluttering heart wouldn’t stop swaying as we drove
Couldn’t hide my feelings when I saw you there, lying in your coffin surrounded by a bed full of flowers
Closing my eyelids to hide, but reality hits hard, and leaked out from my eyes
The doors closed, and the locks were being locked, I stared blankly like time came to a stop
As your body was being carried away, all that I could do was watch as time kept ticking ,dissipating
Summer hadn’t even arrived, but I heard the cicadas chirp and cry
I felt like the hole made inside my heart - felt a little bit more full
But the
Time to say bye drew near, once you are cremated, will you disappear?
Couldn’t tell if sweats dripping down, or if tears were running down me, but nothing seemed to make it stop
From the drink machine in the waiting room, grabbed something to drink to deal with the gloom
Every gulp I took of the tasteless drink passed the time more quickly, and made it slip away
The drink then fell onto the floor, exploding, leaking out and more, sending chills through my body from my head to toes, shaking me to my core
Then the attendant called my name again
After you’re laid to rest, only ash and bones left
Picking up your bones with chopsticks, and then put in a urn and kept
Thinking of how you were, now you’ve become so small
Breaking out into a cold sweat, shaking as tears start to fall
Leaving the funeral, walking out door with what’s left of you
Falling in a daze where I can’t discern dreams from reality, without you what I should I now do?
My slightly burned hands start to hurt and ache, felt as if at any moment I could break
It felt like reality dragging me down into the darkness, and clouding up my head
The sunset outside the car window was the prettiest I’d seen, the colours were so vivid and was more so then it initially seemed
That scenery felt so hateful to me
As if nothing had happened, I slipped on the sleeves of my uniform, to start the next morning
Covering my face with makeup, under my eyes to hide their swollen puffs
Outside was a endless sky, open and clear, looking out the window before I pack up all of my school gear
Grab my bag as I go, say to my parents “Later, see you at home”
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