We All Struggle || Spoken Word 

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Hello Clayton, how are you? I wanted to reach out to you because we have not heard from you in a while. How are you doing mentally? Please come back to us. You are such an inspiration to so many of us and you have such an impact on your listeners. Truth be told, we need you. I hope we hear something from you soon.

You may not see this, but if you do, I hope you're doing okay. God used you when I was at my lowest times when I was 14 and unsaved. I'm 20 now and I'm pursuing a youth ministry major. Much love 🖤

"I hope my poetry is there for you, even when I'm not" - Clayton Sir, you have saved my life countess of time by just listening to you speak cause it's like you know what I am going through every time, and to that I say thank you.

we still need you you Clayton your stories and poetic thoughts helped more than vodka like you always said please come back

You are such a blessing and l sent your videos to a grandson who has suffered from depression and attempted suicide but Praise the Lord he has not succeeded! Your words touch my heart too ! Love and prayers dear brother ! Miss you ! Jesus loves u so !

I feel the same when you say "I'm not afraid of death but im afraid to get old". Never stop Clayton, you help me.

I love this one and your “dear anxiety” one. ❤️ I listen to them a lot. I’m almost 30 and I’ve had depression since I can remember. Every day is hard.

“That cutter who got judged, misused, and abused.” That hit me hard. Thanks for talking to me Clayton. Be well my friend!

Thank You , your words resonated with me so deep. I'm 52 years old and for the first time in my life I actually felt I wasn't ALONE. No one understands me , not even my family. Only ONE person actually LISTENED to me , my Sister Pamela , she passed away 13 years ago , Kidney Cancer , Took her to the best Doctor's on Boston MA , where they gave her 5 years at the minimum. She passed in 10 months , there are no words to describe how much I miss her , I would anything to just hear her voice. I've been ALONE since she passed. The struggle of LIFE is so damn hard. Again I'd like to Thank You for artistry ....

3:26-It definitely is and continues to be….More than you’ll ever know.

Praying that everything is okay with you. For the longest, you were on my prayer list daily. It slacked off a little, but you’re right back at the top. I don’t know what. But I pray that you are doing well! 💟✝️

" I'm not afraid of death I'm just scared to get old" wow that hits hard

Clayton, you’ve been on my heart strong lately. I feel you are going through some struggles. The Lord put it on my heart to reach out to you and let you know how loved you are. He wants you to come back and continue to do what he has called you to do. He is your source of strength and will get you through this difficult time. Keep your eyes on Jesus. The Author and finisher of our faith. The Lords says , Come back my Son. I hear these words in my spirit. Come back to me my Son. I will take your pain but you must surrender everything to me. I’m praying for you Clayton. 🙏😇❤️

In so many ways u have just helped me with my recovery God is there for all of us He let the 99 to come back for me. Praise be to GOD

This guy knows how to make someone feel so amazing, he knows how to make someone not kill or hurt themselves. The way his poets just go together it’s amazing. I love this and the Dear anxiety one!

I've loved you and prayed for you and your family for years. You may never know the lives you've changed or impacted til we see Jesus! You are a light of TRUTH in the midst of darkness!!! Thank you!!

Brother you have always been a true blessing. A beacon of light. My struggle with depression and anxiety has got stronger. I lost my mother this year. Going through a divorce but I keep pushing. Your gift has always helped me. Thank you.

I will never forget the day I discovered your spoken word SMH the more I consumed your content the more I realized how much God loves me. It was through you sharing your authentic vulnerability that I could see his prefect love for such broken vessels. Thank you for sharing your brokenness because though it ... I could see God's strength. Mr. Clayton you are so loved! May God continue to shibe his face upon you, your precious baby girl & lovely wife.

Clayton, I am so glad you posted this. Not just for us, but for you. The last line in this poem hit hard for me, "I am not afraid of dying, but I am afraid of getting old". Old is where I am and I am lost. At 63, I learned too well how to live in isolation. The comfort of my bedroom keeps the anxiety away, but makes the depression that much stronger. Back in 2013, we moved to a different State. Before I had a chance to learn about where I am, I blew out my left knee. To my surprise I was told I have bad circulation in my lower legs and had to wait for it to resolve before I could get a knee replacement. I am still in a wheelchair. Back in May, I was told that I am not a candidate for the new knee. I will never walk again. The sadness is overwhelming. So, here I sit 24/7 waiting to die. I cannot think of anything else to do. I love you Clayton. God Bless you, Jamie and Arabelle. I pray the baby is doing well.

I've been having an absolutely horrible last few days. I've been struggling mentally. And I've been in the middle of a 5 hour anxiety attack. You put this out right when I really needed it. Thank you, Clayton

it’s crazy looking back on your old stuff and being able to feel the exact same feelings i did then, purely because of the beautiful words you portray them with. wow, thank you Jesus that my pain isn’t as constant.

This really hit home for me. To wake up and asked myself what's the point? I pray everyday day asking God to please guide me. But at times I feel like he doesn't hear me. I been so broken that it's hard to keep moving forward. When everyone says don't worry it takes time. You need to have patience. I get sick of hearing it. I have to say when I watch your videos it helps me. Thank you

Clayton don’t stop spreading hope for others . Don’t let nobody tell you you are not a blessing to others cause you are brother. Like you said we are all sinners and we all do our little part to lift one another up. So I hope to hear from you soon. God bless you brother.

Your the best Christian that wrote spoken words I love you for bringing me to crist you helped me when I tried to commit when my grandma passed🥺 thanks for helping me so much🥺🙏💗

your soul your spirit your tongue of truth!. Continue to shine your light. May God bless you through every unspoken and spoken struggle spiritually physically and mentally you are going through. Much love. Thank you Clayton!

Strong words. My wife and I lost our 4 year old daughter on Halloween from brain cancer. She had fought it for 3 years. She was a light in the darkness. My wife started crying because she drinks to try to subdue the pain. Thank you. Your videos are an inspiration.

Hope your doing okay bro. Glad your putting stuff out but more importantly I hope your in a healthy place mentally and spiritually. Your brothers and sisters in Christ are here for you.

Hey. This was exactly what I needed to hear. I have been struggling with my mental state and health for a few weeks right now, and it hasn't been getting better. My life has been really hard to live for so long for me with dealing with things that have slowly picked at me and made me hate myself and life. Right now, my mental health/state has taken control of my life, I haven't felt like doing anything like getting out of bed, eating, and just doing everyday things. I struggle with talking about my mental health and my issues because I never want people to worry about me, and so I put on a mask for everyone around me. This video made me tear up, but this isn't the only one that has made me cry. You have amazing videos and are such an amazing and inspiring person to many people, and such an amazing example of how people can deal with mental illness, but it can be overcome and that we can take control of it. Thanks for everything you have done, and for what's coming.

For real, this expresses true struggle in life,

I was in South Africa at CFC celebration when you spoke about two letters you received. I've never forgotten that message, especially the one letter you read. How a father lost his son to depression, he knew that he wouldn't see his son again. There's one sentence that lit a fire in me and i hope that fire still burns within you Clayton. The father said this to you in the letter you read to us, " I found him in his room unresponsive with a gun in his hand. I'm not trying to ruin your day, I'm trying to tell you as a brother in Christ that you keep preaching the Cross for the world to hear. It is our only hope. I will never see my son again, but i hope another parent out there can say differently about their child because of your preaching.''

I appreciate you and your work. I'm not the most religious man but i used to go to church long ago. I've fallen on hard times.... but your poetry makes me feel heard. Thank you. I hope we both find peace in life, brother.

This helps so much…your timing is perfect, I’ve had a lot of bad thoughts and ideations…your work helps me abstain even though I’m feeling so much pain. Sometimes I feel like I’m just complaining because I have God and the past is the past…but it still attacks me. Your song “Dear Anxiety” speaks to me so much, I have panic attacks and trauma I shove down. I know you’re probably not going to read this or have the time to answer, but you’ve inspired me to make some things myself. I wish I could share them with you…but I shouldn’t get ahead of myself. Thank you so much Clayton! You’re in my prayers.

I really needed this… ive been fighting through alot lately and god blesses us when we need him the most thank you clayton you saved my life

“Looking for that finish line and you end up back at start” wow story of my life, everytime it feels like I’m getting ahead I get stumped up by something in life

I honestly have been asking God "why" during bad situations in my life and I never would get an answer, I'd struggle with the thoughts inside my head and they would leave me depressed. Thank you Clayton for this, I know every word from this poem but I like to say the poem along with you. You're poetry really has helped me through my life.

Been going through a tough time with my spouse. Thank you for reminding me of the goodness of God, even when it's difficult to remember.

I was literally just praying today that you were okay since I have not heard from you. This message hit so hard. Thank you brother. Love you

I can't tell you enough how much your words have been there for me!

Been missing your stuff, needed this.

I just had the worst day in so long and barely made it. Without my family I wouldn’t have. Then to see this. Thank you Clayton hope to see you in Atlanta again one day

I know you may not see this... But on the off chance you do, I think that you should know that I think your spoken words are amazing and very encouraging. I write poetry myself, and I have written four books that I hope will bring glory to God. I think at times we just need to hear someone else say that you are a blessing, and God has you here for a reason. We all go through hard times in life, I just came through a time of bad sickness. And I lost my brother last year, he wrote spoken word too, and he enjoyed listening to you. We are all here for the glory of God! Remember that you are here for a purpose. and thank you for sharing. Your sister in Christ, Kaily E. Keyes

Your a master of words for the master above. Keep telling the truth brother! You help many including my daughter.

I’m goin through a lot rn, these videos help me so much. I have no one to talk to, my depression is kicking my butt , I’m just too embarrassed to ask for help. 💔🥺🥺

Clayton will always remain my inspiration. I love how he gives life to words. ❤

Love you brotha. You’re a leader and a lion for God. You’re not alone and I know it feels like it but there’s an army of us not in front or behind you but right alongside you with Jesus at the front. Don’t give in and don’t give up. I met you in Lafayette, Louisiana a few years back and I hope to meet you again and press on in this fight together but if our paths never cross again, I believe in faith that we, as well as thousands of others, will be a beacon of hope to the hurting and enemies to the demons. Our God is undefeated and will never be beaten.

“If I had one wish, I’d wish Hell would be empty and Heaven would be full”. I can’t think of anything better to wish for.

You are a beautiful soul Clayton. It must be hard to carry that weight. Your music has helped so many including myself. Sometimes we need to listen to our own words 💜

...thank you.. the impact of this is more than you think especially to myself been thinking about going away and been struggling alone no one even noticed just myself and my struggle and I have been asking God for a sign and here it is laying in my room alone in the dark a video from you talking about all this every word hits home and every meaning goes understood you are so amazing and thanks for speaking truth and lifting me and others up thanks for being such an inspiration and making a difference love you man and thanks for being there when one else was and for saving this life

just want you to know your spoken words are something that have made me still hang on and I'm still fighting

Hey Clayton, I don't think you'll ever read this but I want you to know that you are amazing. I've posted on several of your videos, but I keep coming back because you honestly give me strength to keep going. I've noticed your channel is changing a bit, I hope everything is okay. I understand if it isn't, though. Please keep moving forward, whatever it takes. You've saved too many of us, myself included. Your soul may feel torn sometimes, but it's beautiful. Thank you so much and god bless.

Clayton, I know I’m late to comment on this, I never knew what to say. You’re such an inspiration to everyone, and I’m not sure you’ll ever see this, but you are the reason I’m still going. I deal with constant anxiety attacks and depressive episodes, I self harm daily because it’s the only way I can cope without bothering anyone else. I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve laid in bed so close to ending it, and I listen to your poetry, that’s fr the only reason I’m still here. I know I’m probably not enough for anyone here on earth, and probably never will be, but you’ve made me realize I’m at least enough for my Heavenly Father. I mean this with all my heart, I don’t know what to do right now, I’m at the hardest point in my life, but you help me see how important it is to seek the lord. All I want is to see you in person some day, or even just to talk to you, you are my biggest inspiration. I love you Clayton

I can’t even begin to explain how much I needed to hear this And this has helped me your poetry has gotten me through a lot and kept my faith going and has always made me feel better and giving me hope I felt like God was talking straight to me through this and everything I’ve been through that is so hard that I bottle up inside I know I can run to this when I get anxiety attack or mental breakdown thank you so much this was so needed God bless

God Please You Clayton I Suffer From Severe Anxiety I worry about everything i cant barely Sleep I Understand You So Much!! it Is So Difficult For People To Understand if they havent experienced it, Ive Gone Through Alot All My Life, They Only Things That keeps Me Going Are My Kids Thank You For Telling Your Emotions Through Your Poetry and saying the Truth about Anxiety And Depression❤

When you're gone, this shit is all over for you. Let's just hope that it is and there is no more pain and suffering. I can only wish you well in ending it

You have been blessed in order to bless Clayton, and you clearly do. Legend.

Thank you so much Clayton! I listen to this and your “anxiety” spoken word a lot lately. Things are rough in my life right now but I’m not completely sure why tbh. I have a good support system, my boyfriend, and I have a good job but still feels like I’m failing and it’s hard to keep fighting sometimes. I love your spoken words that help with mental health and bringing awareness to everything we deal with. I love you!

Clayton, I've just gotta say like so many others, You Saved My Life. I've been dealing with depression and anxiety since I was in the single digits. Never knew what it was until I was 26, how I made it that long is beyond me. Your poetry is so raw and honest and this one in particular hits the closest to my heart. So please don't ever let the devil stop you from doing what you have been doing, because without you this 42 year old mother of two wouldn't be here anymore. I dream of one day getting to meet you and hug you for all that you have done for me. And now everytime those evil/bad thoughts come to my mind, I just listen to your poetry. I can never thank you enough. - Christy B.

Sometimes I need this. And thank you. From the bottom of my very soul. Broken since birth but a survivor even longer.

Your videos have helped me through the hardest and lowest points in my life and have helped me become the man and father my daughter deserves!! Wish there was a way to thank you in person. Keep up the amazing content!!

Clayton, we are all very worried about you. Praying for you and your family, I hope to see you return soon, going through a tough time in my life right now and your videos always help

Your music is so amazing and inspiring. I thank God for you and your talent. Please never quit! You are helping not only me, but millions of others. You keep it real and thats the kind of music those of us struggling need to hear. The truth. Thank you for that. God bless you! 🙏💜😇

I’m 17 and Last night was the first time I tried to really do it, these past few months have been really bad for me, and I don’t eat much anymore. But Last night I had a razor blade against my wrist and remembered you and it made me feel like Atleast someone was there, even if u do not know me. I don’t know what I’m going to do right now and I cant promise that I’m gonna be ok, but thank you for saving me last night Clayton.

Clay you're everything this generation needs 😊🙏

Lately I gotta hit replay on my worst nights.. just to hear your words speak to my heart and still my mind when I'm aching at late night hours..you have a gift of making a difference by understanding

I can't explain how much I relate to dear anxiety, depression and this spoken word. You help me out the dark.

I hope you are good Clayton , I wanna tell u that ur work helps me and has even shown me what a true believer is you talk bout what no one does and u do it so beautifully. Bro ur gift is great and helpin ❤ no weapon formes against u shall prosper

Been listening to this one on Spotify, so glad to see a video of it now. Even though everyone has a different story, we all in some way shape or form have had life hit us- in really, hard, hard ways. Thanks Clayton for this message and all your others, keep going man through God you can do all things

Perfect timing brother. Thank you. I so needed this . I'm in ky and the storms all around me this weekend along with the death and destruction have darkened my vision so much. Much love and thanks again.

Been awhile Clayton, but God's timing is right on time, every time. A month ago I was accepted as Associate Pastor and the attacks have increased. Between ministry and uploading to RU-vid, I just felt that what I do has no impact or serves no purpose. I thought of giving up and just quitting it all, but Christ is always with me to give me strength. Thank you for this. We must never give up, for the work we do for the Lord is not in vain. Bless you my dear brother in Christ.

Still this day. I still love this man.

I love your poems. They’re always there for me. Needed to hear this. Miss hearing them. Going to listen to them right now again

I got help because of your poetry. Now I even write my own to deal with the suicide and depression

I came to sit alone in the quietness of my room to listen to your poetry. I know you think you are close to death and things are tough and I wanted to tell you that I love you Bro . For real. Thank you for helping me understand.

Your spoken word always hit hard. That’s why I love it

Dear Clayton, you will probably never read this and that is perfectly fine. However, I would just like to comment and say that your videos/poetry have helped me many nights. I am a veteran with PTSD and depression and have many times wanted to take my life. Listening to your words has stopped me on many occasions. This video really spoke to me tonight because, not long ago, I was in that same situation. Thank you for being so open about yourself and mental health with us. Screw your haters,; please keep providing us with this magnificent work!

I love all your poetry, music directly from the soul. Keep it up Clayton, we all love you and appreciate you more than words could ever begin to fathom... Thank you for everything.

Absolutely you are a gift. The words you spoke registers with alot of people. My spirit has been really struggling here since almost a year ago I had another really big encounter. I have been afraid that once I acknowledge it then it's over but I see it's going to be no matter what I do it will be. I have to thank you and I will look forward to meeting you one day.

Thankyou, brother for giving me music to get through 6 years of a paralyzing addiction. A year and a half clean. I can't put into words how much your poetry meant to me. Thankyou for being honest.

Bro thank u for all u do in the recovery and mental health community homie

🙏 God gives you the way to reach out when its needed! Don't let the masses pressure you.... praying your and your family have a safe Christmas- and the attacks are held back from you

Thank you, I hope and pray you stay strong in your own battles that you fight just like us and that help us fight against through your words. Thank you. Love you. God Bless You

Yes please come back you music describes me so much when idk how to tell people how feel I just play your music

Damn Clayton... I don´t really know what to say, but... You know how we feel and you are right! We all struggle. But for some of us 30 years of struggle ( I am 40 by now) are so much too much. Thank to your words I keep fighting. They support. Thank you for all your words!

We have missed you Clayton. Sending prayers to your family and Arabelle💙

Hi Clayton, we all miss you we are hopping you are doing ok mentally and physically you are an amazing person and also a hero well for me you’re my hero I was in the deep end and about to give up but I found you and your videos helped me and you are an amazing person and we miss you I hope you are ok ❤

Found this man today RU-vid said hey get in your feelings and listen to goodbye Ava but the more I listened the more I understood God telling me to say goodbye to my dad 10 years and I'm still holding on scared I'm going to forget his voice his advice he wasn't a perfect man had demons he let control him but at the end he gave his life to God now I've been struggling blaming God for taking him because he was the only person who I could go to for advice my superhero but I got kids of my own and want no need to be better and I understand that's only going to happen with God's guidance I'm not perfect and never will be but I'm giving God the reigns to take control so thank you Clayton Jennings FYI I've listened to 14 spoken word videos today so far I want to be a better man not only for my kids or my spouse but more importantly for me so I can see my father and mother and my kids and spouse when I leave this world hopefully not for sometime

It’s 2am and I’m grateful to have stumbled onto your channel

Wow! This piece is so powerful !🙌🏼🙏🏽💯 May God continue to use and guide you🙏🏽 You're an inspiration to me bro✊🏽

Thank you, you’ll never know how much you’ve helped me.

DAMN, MAN. That ending was hella rough & caught me off guard. Wasnt expecting the end to be left like THAT. Fuuuuck 😭

I play your poetry everytime my demons of depression, anxiety and PTSD start talking. I work in healthcare and have to wear a mask all the time because seeing your nurse falling apart doesn't put faith in your care. How you openly show and express what you have and do go through gives so much of us comfort knowing we aren't alone. Thank you for sharing your mind with us. 🙌🔥❤️

thank you so much for this clayton! been struggling with anxiety and depression since last week...you posted this right on time...now i'm a bit motivated again...

I often check to see if you’ve posted a video or positive words. I don’t do any form of social media so this is my outlet. It’s good to see you back and hopefully it stays that way. You’re words cut deep and opens eyes. Keep it up, god bless!!

Hi bro..just wanna thank you..this channel helped me out a year ago to come out of anxiety and depression..Now by the grace of God, Lord Jesus, I am free forever.🙏🏻🙌🏼

This touched me. People see scars but they never understand. Wish people loved more than they judged. Thank you for being a straight forward force.

Clayton, you have no idea how good of timing this video was posted. I have been struggling with masturbation and porn addiction for 9+ years. I haven't told many about this battle of mine due to shame and guilt. This will be the first time that I put it out there for others to see. Honestly, I am terrified to even leave this comment. But I feel like I have to. Today, the guilt pushed me to the point of vommiting. I don't wanna live like this anymore. I will keep my faith in the Lord and trust that he is helping me in this battle. I ask that whoever reads this, pray for me. Please and thank you. God bless. Edit: Thank you for this video, Clayton. Thank so much for reminding me that I am not alone.

I wish you would come back I need you speak the word of God please

Happy New years, Clayton. I miss you, and your wisdom.. im finally starting to heal, to feel better. After several years of suffering. Thank you. Youve helped me in ways, i never knew were possible. I love you. I just pray that you are doing well, or even finding a way to heal... i wish you were still open with us, and splitting your facts that you've learned. I hope you see this, and i hope you know you've helped so many people, in so many ways... i want to cry, because i miss you. But i won't. All i can really do, and all i should do is the same. I will continue to pray for you.

Clayton I heard you. Thank you. Dont give up. Dont hold back.